**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Apr 2 00:00:23 2022 Apr 02 00:00:23 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:00:40 Been a while since I've looked at these... since Ive talked about them much Apr 02 00:01:21 * Edward nods "Do you want me to find her for you?" Apr 02 00:01:44 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 02 00:01:52 she's got things to do... I'll be alright Apr 02 00:02:15 * Edward nods, bringing him a cup of coffee Apr 02 00:02:37 Does Varick ask much about the past? Apr 02 00:02:44 * Morgan takes it Apr 02 00:03:16 * Edward takes his own cup to a chair across from him Apr 02 00:03:21 Now and then. It can be quite difficult, particularly after emotions are running high Apr 02 00:03:35 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:04:08 I am sure he means no harm Apr 02 00:04:31 Of course he doesn't, he's just curious. Striving to understand Apr 02 00:04:37 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:04:58 Do you intend to tell him one day? Apr 02 00:05:13 Tell him what? Apr 02 00:05:27 About what I did Apr 02 00:05:42 The same day I tell mother... that is to say, never Apr 02 00:05:50 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:06:48 Have you had word from Father yet that he had told her about Florrie? Apr 02 00:07:00 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 02 00:07:19 No, but when I went by mothers rooms I could hear him being soothing... I left her the balm Apr 02 00:07:35 I wonder what it will smell like to her Apr 02 00:07:59 Being Avalonian, tea probably Apr 02 00:08:06 * Edward laughs Apr 02 00:08:13 that reminds me, I must give her some of uncle christophers blend Apr 02 00:08:26 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:09:00 It might be worth carrying the balm for tomorrow's service Apr 02 00:09:31 To be honest, this is the first time I've been without it since I got it Apr 02 00:10:20 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:10:31 It seems useful. It’s going to be a cold procession tomorrow. Apr 02 00:10:48 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:11:19 I can't imagine they do it in Avalon? Apr 02 00:12:00 wasn't their war Apr 02 00:12:07 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:12:30 Did you make trips to the north coast for it? Apr 02 00:12:54 * Morgan shakes his head, frowning Apr 02 00:13:00 No... Apr 02 00:13:16 *he nods* I missed last year. Every other year I’ve been in an Objectionist church, generally with a pounding head and a sour stomach. Apr 02 00:13:32 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:13:48 I avoided churches completely while I was away... Apr 02 00:13:54 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:14:21 You mentioned that when Molly was poorly in Fischler, but say you were not ready to get into that Apr 02 00:14:53 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:15:19 After what happened, I couldn't believe in a god who would allow it... I turned my back on him Apr 02 00:15:27 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:15:54 What brought you back? Apr 02 00:17:40 I suppose I decided while I was away that he existed, I just wanted nothing to do with him... I started to mellow on it when Molly and I were to marry... First time in years I offered any sort of prayer was with the bridal plate Apr 02 00:18:05 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:18:12 That thing terrifies me. Apr 02 00:18:19 I know Apr 02 00:19:22 I was expecting it not to break, that I had had my chances and ruined everything. And now Florrie. I have no idea what to expect even if Mina says yes again Apr 02 00:20:51 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:21:36 I think we all expect it to bounce, even without believing you don't deserve it to break... in truth, I've no idea either Apr 02 00:21:55 Did you and Molly expect that? Apr 02 00:22:41 _I_ certainly did Apr 02 00:22:58 I doubt much else could've brought me to begging Him to help Apr 02 00:23:18 Why though? You were aware you could sire a child Apr 02 00:24:00 The plate isn't about whether we _can_ but whether we _will_ Apr 02 00:24:38 Why wouldn't you? Apr 02 00:24:45 * Edward sips the coffee Apr 02 00:26:31 * Morgan shrugs Apr 02 00:26:35 because I'd had my chance Apr 02 00:27:04 * Edward nods, smiling slightly "I suppose I cannot argue with that logic" Apr 02 00:27:10 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:27:38 I hoped to argue to avoid it, but Mother has already ordered the plate Apr 02 00:29:02 Aim at a rock Apr 02 00:29:14 Like Alarice? Apr 02 00:31:23 Difference is we offer a helping hand, she tried to decide for Him Apr 02 00:31:33 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:31:51 Did you ever do Memorial Day with Alarice and Karsten? Apr 02 00:32:30 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 02 00:33:03 She was awful. She made a big show of wailing and sobbing. Apr 02 00:33:14 Of course she did Apr 02 00:33:22 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:34:03 I something think Alarice got all of the Koertig dramatic ness that should have been Jarvie's as well as her own Apr 02 00:34:37 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:34:49 Now _there_ was evil Apr 02 00:35:00 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:35:25 There was never anything misguided about Alarice Apr 02 00:35:36 Not even slightly Apr 02 00:36:08 I heard that she had tried to kiss you Apr 02 00:36:14 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:36:52 She thought I'd put Molly aside and marry her instead... I think Father had had that in mind before I told him I wanted to marry her Apr 02 00:37:05 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:37:14 That would have suited Father Apr 02 00:38:23 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:39:03 Of the two of them, there is no contest. Alarice was beautiful, in a very cold, Eisen way, but Molly radiates warmth and understanding Apr 02 00:39:19 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:39:51 Occasionally it weighs on me that she'd still be alive if I'd kept my mouth shut Apr 02 00:40:05 * Edward shrugs Apr 02 00:41:20 Violent means have violent ends, as Shakespeare says. One way or another, Alarice could not have been allowed to continue as she was. It was lucky it was found before she blackened our family name for generations Apr 02 00:41:42 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:41:54 I had to make that choice, about what charge to level at her... Apr 02 00:42:58 * Edward nods "I remember how difficult Father was about it. I think in the end the possibility of losing Molly that day was what made him buckle" Apr 02 00:43:12 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:43:40 I agree Apr 02 00:44:00 * Edward shakes his head "More than three months on and my blood still runs cold remembering it" Apr 02 00:44:36 I try not to think about it... how close we can scares the absolute shit out of me Apr 02 00:44:50 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:45:32 She seems to end up in danger frequently Apr 02 00:45:57 I had noticed Apr 02 00:46:08 Does the ring still have the mark? Apr 02 00:47:45 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:47:48 last time I looked Apr 02 00:47:56 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:48:07 Maybe it is going to stay like it then Apr 02 00:48:11 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:48:14 I suspect so Apr 02 00:48:23 * Edward sips his tea Apr 02 00:49:07 *he is quiet briefly before he says* I didn't do Memorial Day in Sudlachenburg until sixty eight, that is the only time I have. Apr 02 00:49:25 You observed it elsewhere until then? Apr 02 00:49:53 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:51:22 Freiburg for the first in sixty five, Koln sixty six, Starke in sixty seven on my way home after Numa, Sudlachenburg in sixty eight. I was away in Vendel last December. Most of the day I spent guzzling ale, and the night failing to perform the purpose of the establishment. I said it was a one off, too much drink, too many memories. Apr 02 00:51:53 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:52:44 Hopefully seventy one will be in Graben Apr 02 00:52:51 I hope so Apr 02 00:53:16 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:53:25 If the Lady is merciful Apr 02 00:54:47 What would you have me do? Apr 02 00:55:19 I have no strategy yet Apr 02 00:56:15 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:56:56 I hated her father... Apr 02 00:57:08 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:57:38 His cruelty was unusual for him, but he sought to punish me Apr 02 00:58:13 * Morgan nods Apr 02 00:58:40 I am sorry he did that Apr 02 00:59:05 I don't know if he thought I would back away from it... or if it would drive Mina from you Apr 02 00:59:16 * Edward nods Apr 02 00:59:31 It would have done with most women Apr 02 01:01:04 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:01:24 I know it took her many hours to even want to speak to me. She had not been very detailed about the conversation that took place between her and Molly, but I can only imagine it was intense Apr 02 01:02:03 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:02:06 I would imagine so Apr 02 01:02:53 I am grateful to Molly for it. She did not know me then like she does now, so for her to help like that is very generous Apr 02 01:03:28 I don't know how much of that she did for me... Apr 02 01:03:39 * Edward nods Apr 02 01:03:46 That would make sense Apr 02 01:03:50 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:04:24 I get the feeling that there is almost nothing Molly would not do for you Apr 02 01:05:27 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:05:30 I'm very lucky Apr 02 01:07:34 It is a nice trait, but it always comes with a risk. Women like that can be prone to... *he tries to think of an alternate analogy than the one that springs to mind* to taking off their only pair of boots to shod others. Apr 02 01:08:28 You can't pour from an empty cup... Apr 02 01:08:34 * Edward nods Apr 02 01:09:17 And yet women like Molly do, and you won't always see it until the cup breaks Apr 02 01:09:25 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:10:07 You are aware of this about her, and that is good Apr 02 01:10:25 Its something I think about often Apr 02 01:10:36 * Edward smiles Apr 02 01:11:55 You treasure her *he can have no idea that little treasure was his nickname for Dietlinde* Apr 02 01:12:09 * Morgan winces slightly before nodding Apr 02 01:13:40 It makes her safer from other people breaking the cup. I am glad the two of you are making progress still Apr 02 01:13:57 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:14:37 We've hit a little bump... her father was not in the least graceful and has hurt her quite badly but... she doesn't want to think about it anymore for now Apr 02 01:15:06 * Edward looks utterly casual when he says "Pummel him in the jaw" Apr 02 01:15:41 * Morgan snorts Apr 02 01:15:54 I thought you wanted me to be less... well, me, and more civilised Apr 02 01:18:15 In this instance, I think my more Eisen instincts would win out. Regardless of how upset he is, no man, despite his blood or other connection to my wife, hurts her. Ever. I would likely hit him and call him out. Apr 02 01:18:29 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:18:58 I'm going to do as I did with you after court... I'm going to explain what my issue is and _hope_ he can be reasonable and meet me halfway Apr 02 01:19:15 * Edward nods, before lowering his volume Apr 02 01:19:32 Is _Mother_ Forrester involved yet? Apr 02 01:19:43 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 02 01:19:46 she's my backup plan Apr 02 01:19:53 * Edward laughs Apr 02 01:20:02 less bloodshed... Apr 02 01:20:44 Like knocking on the castle doors politely, the battering ram as your back up plan. Apr 02 01:21:08 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:21:10 exactly Apr 02 01:21:24 although... I never knocked, I just sort of... appeared in the keep somewhere Apr 02 01:21:36 * Edward laughs Apr 02 01:21:52 Have you gotten on her bad side before? Apr 02 01:22:30 * Morgan shrugs Apr 02 01:22:46 I don't think so... but if I must go there to defend my wife, I will, gladly Apr 02 01:23:19 *she had given him a sharp interrogation over their living arrangements when Molly was caught in the storm* Apr 02 01:23:24 * Edward nods Apr 02 01:24:16 He cannot be allowed to hurt her. She is very generous to the rest of us, and we should protect her softness with our hardness Apr 02 01:25:07 * Edward sips his coffee "Or something like that but that less potentially euphemistic" Apr 02 01:25:22 * Morgan nods slowly Apr 02 01:25:28 its a good job Heinzharold didn't hear that Apr 02 01:26:06 I am just relieved he missed the thing with her pointing to her mouth Apr 02 01:26:26 * Morgan nods Apr 02 01:27:18 I have no doubt you will be bound by the rules of brotherhood to have to tell him Apr 02 01:27:42 I'll save it for a day you annoy me Apr 02 01:28:12 That will still likely be today Apr 02 01:28:55 I already told you to shut up today, unfairly I might add, so I think you're alright for a few hours Apr 02 01:29:34 * Edward nods Apr 02 01:30:19 I think your wife has either fallen asleep in your room or is probably very unhappy that you haven't joined her in there. Apr 02 01:31:01 I think I'll go check on her... you'll listen out for Varick? Apr 02 01:32:22 * Edward nods, grinning "How well have the crew been following my instructions that you and Molly should only be disturbed in an emergency during Varick's nap time so you can discuss the important grownup things that can't be discussed around children?" Apr 02 01:32:46 \to the letter Apr 02 01:32:54 * Edward nods Apr 02 01:33:00 You're welcome. Apr 02 01:33:08 * Morgan laughs Apr 02 01:33:22 I'll see you in a while... let me know if father sends word... Apr 02 01:33:47 I'll listen to see if it's a good time before knocking Apr 02 01:34:38 * Morgan nods, standing up and inclining his head Apr 02 01:35:00 * Edward sips his coffee, then does likewise Apr 02 01:35:33 * Morgan goes off to find Molly Apr 02 01:46:10 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Apr 02 12:17:52 * MollyKoertig (~androirc@213.205.194.2) has joined Apr 02 12:18:08 (Test?) Apr 02 12:18:39 ((yep)) Apr 02 12:18:50 *he finds Molly asleep in the middle of their bed, where she had been that afternoon a little over five months ago after the wedding ceremony, and where he had introduced her to the ways in which a man could please his wife with his mouth to make the process of yielding her virginity to him more pleasurable and less painful for her* Apr 02 12:20:31 * Morgan watches her for a few moments before gently waking her up Apr 02 12:20:52 * MollyKoertig opens her eyes, blinking at the light Apr 02 12:20:59 Oh, I am sorry, my love Apr 02 12:21:23 Its fine blossom Apr 02 12:22:21 Do you need me? Apr 02 12:22:38 * MollyKoertig stretches a moment Apr 02 12:22:46 Just wanted to check on you... should be lunchtime by now Apr 02 12:23:15 I am not very hungry. Are you alright, is Edward alright? Apr 02 12:23:27 * Morgan nods, watching her Apr 02 12:23:33 you're not hungry? Apr 02 12:23:56 * MollyKoertig shakes her head Apr 02 12:24:11 I'll come for some tea Apr 02 12:24:58 * MollyKoertig sits up Apr 02 12:25:06 Is Varick alright? Apr 02 12:25:14 He's asleep Apr 02 12:25:35 * MollyKoertig nods Apr 02 12:25:44 Did he enjoy the book? Apr 02 12:27:28 * Morgan nods Apr 02 12:27:33 aye, I think so Apr 02 12:27:40 * MollyKoertig smiles Apr 02 12:27:43 Good Apr 02 12:29:08 And you are sure you are well? *she watches him intently* there is nothing I can do for you? Apr 02 12:30:26 You need to take some time to care for yourself Apr 02 12:30:58 * MollyKoertig shakes her head Apr 02 12:31:14 Caring for you is what makes me feel good, my love Apr 02 12:31:36 Edward and I are worried about you... Apr 02 12:32:32 * MollyKoertig shakes her head Apr 02 12:33:35 You need not be. Things with my Father will likely resolve themselves as soon as he remembers that I am useful with my healing, and his birth makes him a higher social standing than he could have dreamt of achieving Apr 02 12:34:37 The very fact you feel that shows how much you need to take some care for yourself for a change Apr 02 12:36:14 Liebes herz... I am alright, and being cut off from supporting you only wounds me. I will be happier if there is not a gap between us in this Apr 02 12:37:06 There is no gap my love. *he holds out his hand* come on, lets get you some tea and a sandwich Apr 02 12:38:04 * MollyKoertig takes it, looking at the book in his hand Apr 02 12:38:21 Are you going to keep it up here rather than in your old room? Apr 02 12:38:54 I hadn't thought about it Apr 02 12:39:22 * MollyKoertig nods, kissing his knuckles Apr 02 12:39:45 Alright, my love Apr 02 12:40:57 * MollyKoertig gets off the bed, staying close to him Apr 02 12:41:01 Whatever you wish Apr 02 12:41:43 * Morgan nods, putting it in a drawer beside the bed Apr 02 12:41:46 that'll do for now Apr 02 12:42:28 **She nods. They are interrupted by a throat being cleared then knock on the door, he knows it is Edward** Apr 02 12:42:55 * MollyKoertig whispers "checking we are behaving with decorum" Apr 02 12:43:56 Yes, Edward? Apr 02 12:47:05 E: Morgan, a maid came to say Mother would like to take a walk in the gardens with you ((singular)) Apr 02 12:47:32 * Morgan looks at Molly Apr 02 12:47:46 Will you stay with Edward? Apr 02 12:51:15 If you wish, my love, though I had thought I might go to the library for an atlas so I can work out how and when we are to find and return Betuana to her husband Apr 02 12:52:00 I'll have one sent here, I want you to just relax, let Edward wait on you for a bit... I think it'd make him feel better, repaying your kindness Apr 02 12:52:18 * MollyKoertig wrinkles her nose, smiling Apr 02 12:52:23 If you insist Apr 02 12:52:48 it would make me happy Apr 02 12:53:15 * MollyKoertig smiles ruefully Apr 02 12:53:34 Ah yes, the temptation you know I cannot resist Apr 02 12:53:47 * Morgan nods Apr 02 12:56:58 * MollyKoertig squeezes his hand Apr 02 12:57:03 For you, I will Apr 02 12:57:30 * Morgan nods, going to open the door Apr 02 12:58:50 *Edward has gone back to the parlour, once more stoking the fire. In his left hand he has a letter held to his side Apr 02 12:59:24 What you got there? Apr 02 12:59:38 * MollyKoertig follows in, pouring tea Apr 02 12:59:53 E: It's from Mina. Apr 02 13:00:16 * Morgan nods, grasping his shoulder for a moment Apr 02 13:00:22 Call for me if you need me, yes? Apr 02 13:00:53 * MollyKoertig looks over "Edward, more coffee and lunch?" Apr 02 13:01:07 E: *he nods, thanking them both* Apr 02 13:01:34 * Morgan looks at Molly Apr 02 13:01:37 I'll be back Apr 02 13:01:44 * MollyKoertig nods Apr 02 13:01:56 Take as long as you need, my love Apr 02 13:02:12 * Morgan nods before heading off to find his mother Apr 02 13:04:11 **On his way out, he hears Molly say "Are you alright, Edward? Do you wish me to leave you to read it alone, or would you prefer company?" Apr 02 13:05:42 * MollyKoertig is now known as Verity Apr 02 13:09:13 * Verity is waiting at the door to the gardens. She seems a little shorter than when he last walked with her like this a year ago, still wrapped up warmly. Then he had been so glad to see her, to be in her calm, loving presence, and to tell her about the girl he had met whilst away, and how he wanted her to have a proper role in his life. Verity had not once mentioned marriage or being in love with her, a fact he had be so grateful for Apr 02 13:11:10 * Verity smiles, holding out a gloved hand Apr 02 13:11:15 Dear boy... Apr 02 13:11:28 * Morgan loops his arm over it, placing his other hand on hers Apr 02 13:11:30 mother Apr 02 13:12:09 Shall we go through the gardens like we used to? Though there is not much blooming at present Apr 02 13:12:21 * Morgan nods Apr 02 13:12:24 if you would like Apr 02 13:16:52 * Verity nods, walking calmly at his side. Even in the winter, Die Dauerhaftigkeit is very beautiful. Apr 02 13:18:10 Foxcroft is like this in the winter. Everything is safely tucked beneath the earth, waiting and changing ready to bloom Apr 02 13:18:25 * Morgan nods Apr 02 13:18:36 I saw uncle Christopher while I was in Avalon Apr 02 13:19:11 * Verity nods, smiling softly Apr 02 13:19:22 I miss him. He is such a good brother to me Apr 02 13:20:20 He asked that I send his love... and I have some tea that he's been creating... not quite to my tastes, but I think you'll like it Apr 02 13:20:29 * Verity nods Apr 02 13:20:48 Thank you, dear boy. Was he well? Apr 02 13:21:46 * Morgan nods Apr 02 13:22:01 We were discussing the running of Foxcroft and the lands in the future Apr 02 13:23:12 He was very good to me in taking on my duty when your Father came to find me *she smiles fondly, her face looking so young in smitten remembrance* Apr 02 13:23:29 * Morgan nods Apr 02 13:24:28 * Verity smiles, passing beneath a magnolia tree Apr 02 13:24:56 What are you hoping to do with those lands when I am gone on? Apr 02 13:25:34 I'm not sure yet... I wish them to be run as they are now, so the people are happy. Apr 02 13:26:53 * Verity nods Apr 02 13:27:06 I am certain that they will be in safe hands Apr 02 13:27:30 * Morgan inclines his head Apr 02 13:27:32 I hope so Apr 02 13:29:48 I know it. You and Molly are going to be the start of the most glorious age of our families, I am sure of it Apr 02 13:30:33 I hope we live up to your faith in us... god knows I've not in the past Apr 02 13:31:52 Dear boy, it is done now. I have never wavered for even a moment in my deep, enduring love for you. Apr 02 13:33:26 * Morgan nods slowly Apr 02 13:36:15 And I am so happy that you and your brother are growing so close. A sibling is an irreplaceable gem. Noone can understand quite where you came from as another child you shared a childhood with Apr 02 13:37:28 * Morgan nods Apr 02 13:37:40 I am very pleased we are getting closer Apr 02 13:38:07 * Verity nods Apr 02 13:38:36 It makes my heart so happy to think of the two of you in the years ahead with your wives and children Apr 02 13:38:48 * Morgan glances at her briefly Apr 02 13:39:30 * Verity looks at him softly Apr 02 13:41:43 Your father and I will not be here forever, and you and your brother will have each other to get you through those losses. You are older than Christopher and I were, of course, but it will help. Apr 02 13:42:33 * Morgan nods, frowning Apr 02 13:44:26 * Verity watches him, getting deeper into the flower garden Apr 02 13:46:04 I know what Edward has done has come as a surprise, but I do hope you can be gentle with him, dear boy Apr 02 13:46:31 How do you mean? Apr 02 13:47:33 Having a child with his mistress Apr 02 13:47:59 What has father told you? Apr 02 13:48:44 * Verity speaks gently, patting Morgan's arm Apr 02 13:52:15 After the conflict between you, when Edward was in Numa, he took a mistress, who he was sweet on, but it had not lasted long, and he gave her a gift of parting before they lost contact. I suspect it was likely because he was still so in love with Mina he was not yet able to form another attachment. She had accidentally become with child, but did not contact him, nor he her, until by chance dear Claudia saw the child due to her resemblance to Jana. Apr 02 13:54:13 * Morgan nods slowly Apr 02 13:54:34 He hasn't told you that I have been supporting Edward through all of it then Apr 02 13:55:18 * Verity looks at him sadly "He has, and I am so very proud of you. I know that must be so painful for you, my dear, dear boy, but please do not be cross or jealous with him" Apr 02 13:56:20 I'm not... it was a wrench, and still is every time I see her but... there's nothing to be gained by being anything other than a good man, to him, to them... Apr 02 13:58:15 * Verity nods Apr 02 13:58:47 He should have been kinder to you and Dietlinde, and Jana. You Father and I also. Apr 02 13:59:41 Your* Apr 02 14:00:26 I cannot disagree with that... though you were all in an impossible position Apr 02 14:00:55 As were you, dear boy. Apr 02 14:02:12 * Morgan nods slightly Apr 02 14:03:23 How is Edward? Apr 02 14:04:55 Dazed, distraught... scared about the future Apr 02 14:05:06 * Verity nods Apr 02 14:05:29 My poor boys. You have both been through so much Apr 02 14:06:38 I can't say it hasn't been difficult Apr 02 14:06:44 * Verity nods Apr 02 14:07:11 But you are both very strong Apr 02 14:07:40 Its not just us that will feel the effects if we are not Apr 02 14:08:08 * Verity looks at him "We still have hopes with Lady Hapsburg, don't we?" Apr 02 14:09:16 I believe so... but it is a big ask Apr 02 14:41:59 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.241.131) has joined Apr 02 14:44:34 * Verity has quit (Ping Timeout) Apr 02 14:44:40 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 02 14:44:49 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.192.2) has joined Apr 02 14:55:22 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Apr 02 14:55:48 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.194.130) has joined Apr 02 15:03:54 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Apr 02 15:03:57 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.194.131) has joined Apr 02 15:12:50 * MollyK_ (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 15:13:06 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Apr 02 15:13:27 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.194.2) has joined Apr 02 15:13:27 * MollyK_ has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Apr 02 15:13:43 * MollyK_ (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 15:13:55 * MollyK_ is now known as Verity Apr 02 15:14:04 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 02 15:14:23 Dazed, distraught... scared about the future Apr 02 15:14:23 * Verity nods Apr 02 15:14:23 My poor boys. You have both been through so much Apr 02 15:14:23 I can't say it hasn't been difficult Apr 02 15:14:23 * Verity nods Apr 02 15:14:26 But you are both very strong Apr 02 15:14:30 Its not just us that will feel the effects if we are not Apr 02 15:14:32 * Verity looks at him "We still have hopes with Lady Hapsburg, don't we?" Apr 02 15:14:34 I believe so... but it is a big ask Apr 02 15:15:24 They have loved each other for a very long time now. It must be almost six years Apr 02 15:15:48 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:16:28 They are like your Father and I in that. We fell in love in just one moment, and then it took six years for him to come for me Apr 02 15:16:47 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:16:54 He told me about that Apr 02 15:16:59 * Verity smiles Apr 02 15:18:03 In that time, your uncle and I lost our parents. It disrupted the plans your Grandfather was in the process of putting into place for me to wed a neighbour's heir Apr 02 15:18:45 I imagine that went well... Apr 02 15:20:31 It was met with some consternation. But our estate was very complicated with the land being left to me and not Christopher, that we had our hands very busy learning to run it together. We took turns at being confident and out of our depths, but I was so lucky to have him. Apr 02 15:20:48 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:21:30 I was just nineteen then when I became an orphan, you know? And Christopher was only seventeen Apr 02 15:22:07 I cant imagine how hard that must have been Apr 02 15:22:35 * Verity nods, watching a little Robin hop along the path ahead Apr 02 15:24:16 We were very lonely. I confess that I thought of your Father less frequently in those next six months than the three years before or the two and a half years after. It was a shock when we got the news their carriage had overturned. Apr 02 15:24:31 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:24:40 i dont know much about them Apr 02 15:24:46 * Verity nods Apr 02 15:26:24 That is often the way, I think. I knew them only as a child, so what I can tell you is only a young person's view of her parents. I do not think we are in a position to truly appreciate our parents as people until we have fully matured ourselves Apr 02 15:26:40 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:31:31 When we are children, we see only who our parents are in relation to us, how they limit our freedoms and choices, how they hold us back, or try to shape us in their image Apr 02 15:34:26 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:37:31 They were good people, you would have liked them. They were very outdoorsy and well-liked by their people. But they would not have permitted your Father to court me. At the time of their passing I had only spoken to him for ten minutes, so I had never mentioned him Apr 02 15:37:55 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:39:24 When they died, my intention was to look after your uncle and remain a spinster aunt. I did not imagine I could ever feel for another what I had felt for your Father Apr 02 15:39:43 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:39:46 I can relate to that Apr 02 15:39:54 * Verity nods Apr 02 15:40:04 I thought you might, dear boy Apr 02 15:41:16 Your Father and I are well-suited, as people, and I think that was the case for you and Dietlinde Apr 02 15:41:53 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:41:55 I think so Apr 02 15:42:44 That is not to say that you and Molly are not, but you are not the same young man you were then Apr 02 15:44:07 No, I am definitely not. I worry that I am too cold, too harsh now Apr 02 15:45:31 No one who has seen you with Varick could think that. Apr 02 15:59:51 * Morgan nods Apr 02 15:59:54 you might be right there Apr 02 16:01:46 You must not be hard on yourself, dear boy, you have been through so much in your life so far Apr 02 16:09:20 I'm trying to be kinder Apr 02 16:10:10 * Verity nods Apr 02 16:11:04 You seem much more at ease than when I last saw you in August. I hope that is a sign that your marriage is a happy one. Apr 02 16:11:21 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:11:32 I'm rather worried about her at the moment Apr 02 16:11:42 Why, dear boy? Apr 02 16:12:43 Has father told you about David? Apr 02 16:13:08 Yes he has. That is rather an odd thing to have happened Apr 02 16:17:03 He has no reacted well to it... and in doing so has upset Molly greatly Apr 02 16:18:30 That is unfair of him, it is not Molly's fault, and I am sure she will have many of her own feelings to deal with already Apr 02 16:18:54 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:19:16 and the ones he has dredged up in her relate to their strained past Apr 02 16:19:53 Oh poor Molly. Is there anything I can do for her? Apr 02 16:20:54 Show her the usual love, affection and patience you always do Apr 02 16:22:38 Of course, dear boy. *she looks thoughtful. They pass some pink carnations, flowers that do not grow natively in Eisen. Morgan had had some growing that final summer at the cottage to surprise her with, but they had not long flowered before the fire came Apr 02 16:23:18 * Morgan bends to touch them briefly before moving on Apr 02 16:23:42 * Verity watches him with a smile Apr 02 16:24:09 Aren't they lovely? Heinzharold brought them here for me in the summer after you left Apr 02 16:24:38 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:24:41 They are Apr 02 16:25:23 Do you think Molly would enjoy looking through some old dresses and things stored in trunks in the attics with me? Apr 02 16:26:17 I daresay she would Apr 02 16:26:25 * Verity smiles Apr 02 16:27:04 If you can spare her this afternoon, perhaps we can do that. We might even find some of the little things you and Edward once wore Apr 02 16:28:51 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:32:12 I would like that. I have seen so little of her since the summer. I was very worried when your Father told me what had happened to her in Fischler Apr 02 16:32:25 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:32:29 I thought I was going to lose her Apr 02 16:32:49 You must have been beside yourself with worry Apr 02 16:34:34 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:34:44 utterly Apr 02 16:34:51 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.241.131) has joined Apr 02 16:35:36 And after losing Dietlinde... it must have felt like the world was crashing down Apr 02 16:36:28 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:36:31 it did Apr 02 16:36:38 I wish I had been there to take care of you, dear boy Apr 02 16:37:17 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:37:25 how are you feeling about Edward and Florrie? Apr 02 16:38:51 I am very sad for Edward that he has missed so many years of his daughter's life Apr 02 16:40:26 but how are _you_ feeling about her? Apr 02 16:42:45 I am curious to meet her. Her circumstances are not what any of us would have wished for, but she can be fresh start for our family, and hopefully will give Edward a greater sense of purpose than he had had in recent years Apr 02 16:42:58 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:43:00 I hope so Apr 02 16:43:46 And you, dear boy? Does anyone ask how you are feeling about her? Apr 02 16:44:41 * Morgan smiles slightly Apr 02 16:44:44 Molly does Apr 02 16:45:13 * Verity nods Apr 02 16:46:11 Very early after you brought her here I could tell that her feelings for you were very strong indeed. I worried a little that you were less attached to her than her to you Apr 02 16:47:50 I am aware that I have been... less than forthcoming in making my feelings obvious Apr 02 16:49:03 You love quietly. You are like your Father in that Apr 02 16:49:36 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:49:51 but I was remiss in not making my feelings for her abundantly clear to her Apr 02 16:51:36 You are still learning how to love each other. Love is a feeling, dear boy. But it is also an action. It takes time to learn how to practice loving one another Apr 02 16:57:22 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:57:27 yes, it does Apr 02 16:58:31 I am sure that you and Molly will work things out as time goes on. You have had some great hurdles to overcome, and I think you are doing very well Apr 02 16:59:11 * Morgan nods Apr 02 16:59:16 I can't say you're wrong Apr 02 17:00:34 I do not think it was ever to be as easy for you as the first time, but I have great faith in you, dear boy Apr 02 17:06:16 * Morgan bows his head Apr 02 17:06:24 thank you. You've no idea how much that means to me Apr 02 17:06:36 * Verity squeezes his arm Apr 02 17:07:42 How are Heinzharold and Inga getting along? Apr 02 17:08:01 * Morgan smiles Apr 02 17:08:05 they are utterly besotted Apr 02 17:08:24 That is nice. It is nice you both have your friends with you Apr 02 17:08:35 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:08:45 I don't know I'd have coped with seeing Florrie if it weren't for them Apr 02 17:09:02 * Verity nods Apr 02 17:09:18 It must have been a great shock Apr 02 17:09:26 * Morgan nods solemnly Apr 02 17:10:47 Your Father said the resemblance is very strong? Apr 02 17:11:39 With the exception of the eyes, even I would be hard pushed to tell them apart Apr 02 17:11:59 * Verity nods Apr 02 17:12:08 It is like being with her again? Apr 02 17:12:58 It is a reminder of what I lost... she is a different little girl Apr 02 17:13:34 How has Molly dealt with this? I assume she knows about the similarities? Apr 02 17:13:42 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:14:15 She was concerned that my affection for Florrie was misplaced from Jana... I think she worried how it would affect my feelings for her, too Apr 02 17:14:58 In what way, dear boy? Apr 02 17:15:43 Perhaps it would... remind me of what I felt for Dietlinde, and that my love for her is a pale imitation... completely wrong, of course, but understandable for her to worry about it Apr 02 17:17:05 * Verity nods a little Apr 02 17:17:29 And that has been addressed? Apr 02 17:17:52 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:19:09 I hope that she will be able to help Mina with the feelings she might have about Edward and his mistress Apr 02 17:19:40 I very much hope so Apr 02 17:20:21 But only if it will not hurt Molly to do so. It does no one any good if it makes her distressed also Apr 02 17:20:44 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:20:47 I agree Apr 02 17:21:55 Would you wish me to speak with Molly? Apr 02 17:22:17 I think she might appreciate that Apr 02 17:22:22 * Verity nods Apr 02 17:23:23 I will do so. Have you spoken with Otto today? Apr 02 17:23:40 I saw him first thing this morning Apr 02 17:23:57 To speak with? Apr 02 17:24:37 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:25:34 And he imparted some news to you? Apr 02 17:26:13 * Morgan looks at her for a moment before smiling Apr 02 17:26:15 yes he did Apr 02 17:26:29 * Verity smiles Apr 02 17:26:39 A very unexpected development Apr 02 17:26:49 very Apr 02 17:27:21 How do you feel about it? Apr 02 17:27:30 * Morgan shrugs Apr 02 17:27:44 Difficult to say... Apr 02 17:28:16 * Verity nods Apr 02 17:28:45 It brings for you some sadness as well as some joy? Apr 02 17:29:23 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:29:25 aye Apr 02 17:30:53 That is understandable, dear boy. The child will be as similar in its creation as Dietlinde. That she should have a sibling here in Sudlachenburg must seem strange Apr 02 17:31:08 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:31:28 very. Its not fair that she will have a sibling she would never know... and that would never know her Apr 02 17:31:41 * Verity nods Apr 02 17:33:02 I would imagine Otto and Sascha will ensure they know of their elder sister and their niece. Perhaps in the years ahead you will come to a place in yourself where you can help keep that light alive for them through your stories too? Apr 02 17:33:35 I hope so Apr 02 17:33:41 * Verity nods Apr 02 17:34:22 You are making progress, dear boy. When you returned last year, you could not have borne to discuss even as much as we have this afternoon Apr 02 17:34:55 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:36:27 Your memories will stay with you even if you share them. They are not butterflies that you must hold in clenched hands lest they fly away. Apr 02 17:37:11 The difficult part is being able to talk about them without it feeling like I've been kicked in the chest Apr 02 17:38:26 The kicks will get smaller and gentler as time passes. I felt the same for some time after my parents died, and so did your Father after Penn and Ana died. Apr 02 17:38:55 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:39:51 Has it eased at all since that day? Apr 02 17:41:11 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:41:25 A great deal Apr 02 17:42:28 * Verity nods "Then that is something to celebrate. And I am grateful that you are feeling it less." Apr 02 17:42:45 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:43:00 I did worry that not feeling it so strongly was doing them a disservice Apr 02 17:44:28 Oh dear boy... I do not think it works that way Apr 02 17:44:37 * Verity squeezes his arm Apr 02 17:44:47 * Morgan nods Apr 02 17:47:29 I know that when my time on Theah is done, I will not want you and Edward to feel it must hurt to honour me. You will honour me simply by living. You will honour me when you laugh, and when you look at the sky, and every time my memory makes you smile. The love remains, but the pain doesn't have to. I truly believe that one day we will all be Apr 02 17:47:29 together once more. Apr 02 17:51:33 * Verity has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Apr 02 18:01:02 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Apr 02 18:01:08 * MollyK (~androirc@213.205.241.131) has joined Apr 02 18:09:04 * MollyK has quit (Quit: AndroIRC - Android IRC Client ( http://www.androirc.com )) Apr 02 19:39:56 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 19:53:18 * MollyK has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Apr 02 19:53:22 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 19:53:34 * MollyK is now known as Verity Apr 02 19:59:19 * Verity has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 02 20:18:38 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 20:25:11 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:26:49 I don't like to think about that Apr 02 20:27:01 * MollyK smiles Apr 02 20:27:31 * MollyK is now known as Verity Apr 02 20:27:49 I plan to be here to see all my grandchildren yet Apr 02 20:29:59 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:30:00 good Apr 02 20:31:19 Edward's bridal plate has arrived Apr 02 20:31:34 oh? Apr 02 20:32:26 It is the same style as yours and Molly's was. I only hope there is a wedding to have it at, I do like Mina very much for Edward Apr 02 20:32:37 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:32:40 they are very well suited Apr 02 20:32:55 * Verity nods Apr 02 20:33:28 I would like it for them to have many children Apr 02 20:33:43 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:33:46 me too Apr 02 20:35:00 * Verity smiles Apr 02 20:35:35 And I hope that for you and Molly, of course Apr 02 20:36:05 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:36:07 I hope so Apr 02 20:36:54 Now that you have faced the fear of a child that resembles Jana, will that make it easier for you having a baby with Molly? Apr 02 20:38:50 * Morgan shrugs Apr 02 20:39:04 I would think so but... I just cannot tell Apr 02 20:39:43 * Verity nods Apr 02 20:40:11 I enjoyed the iconography from your wedding. Aren't they clever? Apr 02 20:40:28 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:41:03 It is very impressive Apr 02 20:46:17 You looked so happy Apr 02 20:46:57 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:47:56 The one of Molly with her tea cup by the window is beautiful Apr 02 20:48:20 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:48:25 He had a good eye Apr 02 20:48:32 * Verity nods Apr 02 20:48:59 Has Edward shown you his painting of her yet, dear boy? Apr 02 20:49:18 No, not yet Apr 02 20:50:31 He will be bashful about it, but I think it is lovely Apr 02 20:50:40 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:50:51 I look forward to it... I always wished I had his talent for paint Apr 02 20:51:06 * Verity nods Apr 02 20:51:33 And he says that he wishes he could sketch like you Apr 02 20:52:09 I always thought sketching was less... serious Apr 02 20:53:38 Colours can cover a multitude of sins Apr 02 20:53:52 You think so? Apr 02 20:54:23 I do, though Edward has always had a talent Apr 02 20:54:33 * Morgan nods Apr 02 20:55:10 he showed me a painting he'd done of Mina's eyes... it was stunning Apr 02 20:56:45 I always thought it would be a nice way to show a lady his feelings, though your Father's talents for crafting have never allowed such Apr 02 20:57:33 *adalbrecht has admitted his only creative talent is knitting Apr 02 20:57:58 I've no idea where Edward and I get our love of art Apr 02 20:58:21 No, you have been blessed Apr 02 20:59:21 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:00:18 Where do Varick's talents lie? Apr 02 21:00:42 He can paint... I'm not sure if that is a talent that will grow, though Apr 02 21:01:01 Does he draw? Apr 02 21:01:38 A bit Apr 02 21:01:55 And musically? Apr 02 21:02:04 Not sure yet Apr 02 21:02:34 It is time now to start him with an instrument Apr 02 21:03:22 You have a suggestion as to which one? Apr 02 21:03:57 A piano is impractical, perhaps flute or violin? Apr 02 21:05:10 We'd need a tutor for flute... and I'm not much of a teacher with the violin Apr 02 21:07:30 Perhaps a delay until spring, when you are on dry land again Apr 02 21:08:01 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:08:04 A good idea I think Apr 02 21:08:42 Will you be coming home for a while after that? Apr 02 21:08:54 A little while maybe Apr 02 21:10:03 We had hoped you would settle with us, and live in the Veisgraf wing as we did once we were married, but I think that is not to be Apr 02 21:10:32 I've rather filled my plate in terms of things I have to do, haven't I? Apr 02 21:11:32 You will, I hope, live now in a peaceful Eisen, and there is much that can be done to rebuild now Apr 02 21:15:42 I certainly hope so Apr 02 21:16:44 Your Father said you had intended to have your firstborn born here? Apr 02 21:17:57 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:18:38 That would be lovely Apr 02 21:19:40 It is... right that the child is born here Apr 02 21:20:09 But after that, it will be easier to be wherever you choose to make your home Apr 02 21:21:21 I think I'm obliged to be in Gottkirchen Apr 02 21:24:07 * Verity has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 02 21:27:01 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 21:27:15 * MollyK is now known as Verity Apr 02 21:29:43 [21:17:46] Verity: Your people will want to see you Apr 02 21:30:06 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:31:02 I didn't expect both my husband and my son to be Grafs at the same time Apr 02 21:31:34 No... Mind you, I seem to be collecting titles at the moment Apr 02 21:31:46 * Verity smiles Apr 02 21:31:57 That was a surprise, wasn't it Apr 02 21:32:09 That is somewhat of an understatement Apr 02 21:32:29 Your Father and I are very proud Apr 02 21:33:29 * Morgan smiles, blushing Apr 02 21:35:01 It must be odd to hear Duke Koertig when you go about Apr 02 21:35:29 Most people jump immediately to excellency... I'm still not entirely comfortable with it Apr 02 21:36:11 In Avalon, dukes are usually "Your Grace" as we call the Eisenfursts Apr 02 21:36:22 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:37:02 we got a lot of that in Avalon... I still find it difficult calling my previous employer anything other than Lady Torrington or your grace... despite the fact I've more or less outranked her the entire time I've known her Apr 02 21:37:32 * Verity nods Apr 02 21:38:24 Was it nice to be in Avalon again? Apr 02 21:38:50 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:39:00 I've always felt at home there Apr 02 21:39:56 Molly mentioned in her letter that she was staying back at the estate you lived at. It must have been pleasant to see old friends? Apr 02 21:40:38 I wasn't there much... I was off chasing someone to bring him to some justice Apr 02 21:40:54 * Verity nods Apr 02 21:41:26 She mentioned you were away but she had Inga, Varick, and her family close by Apr 02 21:41:52 * Morgan nods Apr 02 21:47:54 Should I send an invitation to the Forresters for dinner? Apr 02 21:56:42 * Verity has quit (Ping Timeout) Apr 02 22:15:01 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 22:18:10 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Apr 02 22:21:02 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 02 22:21:11 * MollyK is now known as Verity Apr 02 22:21:48 I don't know... I'm not sure David will be ready to be civil Apr 02 22:22:44 Perhaps not tonight. But maybe you might consider Molly spending some time with her Mother, I know Martha has missed her greatly Apr 02 22:23:45 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:23:48 I'll suggest it to her Apr 02 22:24:16 Perhaps after the Memorial Day Service tomorrow? Apr 02 22:24:22 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:24:31 That may be the right time Apr 02 22:24:56 I had the servants clean your uniform ready Apr 02 22:26:14 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:26:24 thank you... I'm just glad to be observing it this year Apr 02 22:26:45 It will be nice to see you there again Apr 02 22:27:33 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:28:28 It will be nice for the people to see Molly performing her duties near the head of the procession too Apr 02 22:28:50 duties? Apr 02 22:29:08 Just walking near the front Apr 02 22:30:20 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:34:01 I have had the iconographs of the wedding put up in the portrait gallery, I had thought we might go to see them tomorrow afternoon to cheer everyone up Apr 02 22:34:31 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:35:05 I think Edward could do with some affection... he and father have never been particularly comfortable with physical displays of affection, and I know he wishes he had a closer relationship with you Apr 02 22:37:29 * Verity nods Apr 02 22:37:53 He never was a cuddly boy once he got to about seven Apr 02 22:38:12 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:38:23 He has told me he envied how close you and I were Apr 02 22:39:11 It was never unavailable to him, but he was always so keen to be grown and a man Apr 02 22:40:01 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:40:06 I think he regrets that Apr 02 22:40:13 * Verity nods Apr 02 22:40:53 Once he is married, he will feel the lack of it less Apr 02 22:40:59 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:41:48 He has not yet seen the iconographs, it will be nice for you to be here when he does Apr 02 22:42:12 If you would like... Apr 02 22:42:24 * Verity nods Apr 02 22:43:10 Have you given consideration to having a copy of Sascha's painting of Dietlinde and Jana put there? Apr 02 22:43:50 I think it would be appropriate Apr 02 22:44:05 * Verity nods Apr 02 22:44:27 Would you like me to gently suggest it to your Father? Apr 02 22:45:28 If he would object... Apr 02 22:45:42 I am not sure Apr 02 22:48:36 It is difficult... if he would object, it would not be a welcome addition Apr 02 22:49:37 I will test the waters. We have never discussed it before Apr 02 22:50:50 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:50:51 thank you Apr 02 22:51:27 Will you need to speak to Molly about it? Apr 02 22:51:45 I doubt it, but I will anyway Apr 02 22:51:54 * Verity nods Apr 02 22:52:22 Your Father said you would wish to know what the balm smells of to me? Apr 02 22:53:01 * Morgan smiles slightly, nodding Apr 02 22:53:04 It smells of violets and honeysuckle on a summer night Apr 02 22:53:13 Interesting Apr 02 22:54:15 Your Father had come unexpectedly to Foxcroft in the july a year before you were born, a man I had only met once but had fallen in love with. We spent all night outside on the garden swing under a blanket, talking about what had happened since we met, and how we felt for each other. He kissed me in the moonlight. By the dawn, we had decided that Apr 02 22:54:15 marriage was what we wanted. The Violets and honeysuckle were in full bloom. Apr 02 22:54:25 * Verity smiles wistfully Apr 02 22:54:42 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:55:18 That night is how the balm smells to me. He says it smells different for everyone Apr 02 22:55:27 * Morgan nods Apr 02 22:55:40 It does Apr 02 22:56:01 What does it smell of for you, dear boy? Apr 02 22:56:18 Lavender... sort of Apr 02 22:56:25 * Verity nods Apr 02 22:56:45 That is calming. Does it have a particular memory? Apr 02 22:58:35 We had a lavender bush outside the cottage... only a small one, but that, Dietlindes perfume and the smell of Jana... its all sort of rolled into one Apr 02 22:58:47 * Verity smiles Apr 02 22:58:55 That is nice Apr 02 23:00:24 it changes a little Apr 02 23:00:31 Does it? Apr 02 23:00:35 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:00:46 there's more than a hint of rosewater now Apr 02 23:01:05 /me smiles, but she just says Apr 02 23:01:16 Is there, dear boy? Apr 02 23:01:52 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:02:11 And why does it change? Apr 02 23:02:52 * Morgan shrugs Apr 02 23:03:08 it smells of whatever you find most relaxing... I think in my case its changing as I do Apr 02 23:03:50 * Verity smiles "that is nice. What does it smell of to other people?" Apr 02 23:04:45 it varies... father said it smells of you when you were nursing me... to Edward it smells of a particular library I believe... the wood, the books... Apr 02 23:05:51 * Verity blushes slightly "yes, your Father mentioned his. That is interesting with Edward" Apr 02 23:06:26 Do you think you still need it? Apr 02 23:06:49 No, thank you. Would you like it? Apr 02 23:07:17 please. I occasionally get flashbacks and it helps Apr 02 23:07:29 * Verity hands it over Apr 02 23:07:34 Of the fire? Apr 02 23:07:45 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:07:47 mostly Apr 02 23:08:17 What does it smell of to Molly and Varick? Apr 02 23:09:16 to Molly... it smelled of my shaving soap and a lake in atemlos... to Varick is smells like me and Molly Apr 02 23:10:11 Those are both rather nice. It is lovely to hear that one is so calming and dear to another that the balm smells of them Apr 02 23:10:31 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:10:35 aye Apr 02 23:11:31 Does Molly know it is starting to smell of her also now? Apr 02 23:12:27 Not yet Apr 02 23:13:59 Might that help her today, if she is unhappy about David's behaviour? Apr 02 23:14:12 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:14:15 thats a good idea Apr 02 23:15:09 That is assuming that she knows it did not before... these things can be delicate with young women, can't they? Apr 02 23:15:24 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:15:40 I think I've only told her it smells of lavender... sort of Apr 02 23:15:55 * Verity nods Apr 02 23:16:35 You know her best, dear boy... *she looks like she might say more* Apr 02 23:16:50 * Morgan watches her Apr 02 23:16:52 go on... Apr 02 23:18:12 I would say it might be the more gentle thing, especially if she is having a hard day, to focus on the future for the two of you together, rather than reminders of the past Apr 02 23:18:22 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:18:47 I shall be guided by you Apr 02 23:20:11 I might be wrong. To Molly it might feel nice to now be included in that. It is hard to know, isn't it, without being the second spouses ourselves? Apr 02 23:20:36 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:20:54 Its a difficult line to walk Apr 02 23:21:27 I can try to imagine being in her place, but it is impossible to imagine your Father in love with anyone else Apr 02 23:22:26 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:22:35 He adores you... he always has Apr 02 23:22:49 * Verity nods, smiling Apr 02 23:23:11 Even though it took getting shot for him to admit it. Apr 02 23:23:39 Koertigs aren't exactly prone to not being stubborn... Apr 02 23:24:36 No, indeed you are not. But I still love you all dearly Apr 02 23:24:47 * Morgan nods Apr 02 23:26:35 * Verity leads him towards a small corner where forget-me-nots have clearly been recently cultivated, and picks some that are just holding on against the cold, and hands them to Morgan "Go on, dear boy, check on your wifel Apr 02 23:26:57 you will be alright? Apr 02 23:27:42 * Verity nods "I will be absolutely alright" Apr 02 23:33:22 * Verity has quit (Read error: EOF from client)