------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Saturday, 19 February 2022 11:47:46 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea * Molly looks at a loss of how to start this with Varick, who is sat on the floor organising marbles he must have found here into the sewing box from Seb (Morgan) Varick... we need to have a serious conversation (Molly) V: *he looks at the floor* I was bad and I ran away (Morgan) We were very worr... scared. I know you get excited and want to help, but it wasn't safe to do that (Molly) V: You were scared? * Morgan nods ** You're now known as Varick * Varick looks sad "I'm sorry" * Morgan nods (Morgan) I know you are (Varick) V: Do I have to go in a cupboard now? (Morgan) We will never do that to you Varick... ever. (Varick) But I was bad, and I deserve it (Morgan) No, no-one deserves that * Varick nods, abandoning the marbles to sit in Varick's lap (Varick) Morgan's** (Morgan) I'm not going to go on about it, I think you've learned you should've listened to Mae, haven[t you? * Varick nods "yes, Papa" (Morgan) now... we have to talk about our family * Varick nods, hugging morgan hard a moment (Varick) Okay (Morgan) Dr Rosenkrantz had a brother, the Freiarr before the doctor was, Leopold... * Varick nods "I saw him in the painting" * Morgan nods (Morgan) When he was in Avalon, he made a baby, but had to come back to Eisen... he didn't know what happened to the baby (Varick) A bit like Florrie? (Morgan) yes, exactly. The doctor and Rosie have been searching for the baby, though they'd be grown up now * Varick nods (Morgan) I figured out who it is (Varick) Who is it? (Morgan) David (Varick) My grandpa David? * Morgan nods * Varick looks at Molly, who is quietly watchful, before looking back to Morgan (Varick) Mama is related to them? * Morgan nods (Morgan) Rosie is her... first cousin once removed I think * Varick smiles "He's in our family now?" (Morgan) well... yes... do you remember how you and I are related? * Varick shakes his head "We're far away cousins" * Morgan nods (Morgan) my great grandmother, Lisette, is your great great great grandmother (Varick) Okay (Morgan) Lisette had a sister, called Etelka... she is Molly's great great grandmother (Varick) We're all related?! * Morgan nods (Morgan) distantly, but yes * Varick smiles excitedly "That's good!" (Morgan) I thought you might think so... its a bit of a shock for Molly though, so maybe you can give her some cuddles? * Varick immediately does so "Why are you shocked, Mama? I like the bum man and his family, they're nice" (Varick) **Molly smiles, hugging him** Yes, they are. But you remember when you found out that Lady Eldreich wasn't your birth mother, and nothing felt normal? It is like that. **Varick strokes her hair like she normally strokes his** You'll be okay, Mama. (Varick) **Molly nods** I will. * Varick keeps hugging her until he falls asleep. Molly looks at Morgan "I'll put him on the bed" (Varick) **She takes him through, and is soon back** that went well ** You're now known as Molly (Morgan) I think so * Molly sits beside him (Molly) I rather think that I am the only one who has taken it very badly * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) No-one else has had to face such a fundamental shift (Molly) Not yet... (Morgan) yet? (Molly) My Father (Morgan) ah, yes... sorry, I thought you meant something was coming for me * Molly smiles (Molly) There is little I could cause such shock with * Morgan shrugs (Molly) It's wise that Seb is not coming with us to Freiburg (Morgan) Whyso? (Molly) It's Thursday now, and if the pattern of the sparkliness is correct, that will happen again on Sunday or Monday * Morgan nods (Morgan) it'd be a shame to have to kill him (Molly) I was more concerned about the worry it would give you * Morgan nods (Molly) Besides, you wouldn't kill my-... _our_ cousin * Molly smiles (Morgan) If he tried something with you... (Molly) Even though it was down to the sparkliness? (Morgan) I don't know I could get past that yet (Molly) Specifically with him, or in general ? (Morgan) with him... * Molly nods (Molly) I must admit, I feel more powerless now than ever * Morgan nods (Morgan) I thought you might (Molly) If They decide it suits their purpose, who knows how they will wield me (Morgan) Then giving me any choice over my actions will have been a terrible idea * Molly nods, looking at her hands (Molly) Because if they use me like that, I lose you. (Morgan) I rather think you are different... (Molly) Than what? (Morgan) Everyone did what they were intended to do... but they cant predict which path you will walk... (Molly) You think I would be able to stop it if they made me sparkly around him? * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) I don't know... we haven't really tried, have we? * Molly smiles, biting her lip (Molly) No... (Morgan) perhaps we should * Molly 's nose wrinkles briefly before she nods (Molly) Yes, you're right (Morgan) of course I am * Molly smiles a little (Molly) It has its drawbacks though (Morgan) yes it does (Molly) We also need to know if I can start it or if we need to wait until something happens that I need to heal * Morgan nods (Morgan) yes * Molly smiles "If that works, and my stopping it doesn't, we should make sure we have some time" (Morgan) absolutely (Molly) The last time, with Elsie's healing, it went badly **It had gone badly. Their rush to end her sparkliness, whilst he was still troubled by what Kai did and would have done, had ended in a further disconnection between them, despite being successful* * Morgan nods (Morgan) yes (Molly) I don't wa-... I _won't_ go through that again. * Morgan nods (Molly) Do you feel the same? * Morgan nods (Molly) We're getting closer, I think. I do not want to jeopardise that * Morgan nods (Morgan) I agree (Molly) Any distance between us, it's too much * Morgan nods (Morgan) yes it is * Molly watches him with a smile (Molly) We were almost caught this morning. * Morgan nods (Molly) I know Heinzharold has done similar, but it's different with Claudia, isnt it? * Morgan nods (Molly) I didn't want to upset her... (Morgan) but? * Molly smiles slightly "But when I am with you like that, it's hard to stop" ** You are now disconnected ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Saturday, 19 February 2022 14:31:12 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea (Molly) [14:12] * Molly smiles slightly "But when I am with you like that, it's hard to stop" (Morgan) I know what you mean * Molly smiles (Molly) You feel it too? * Morgan nods (Molly) A good job I behaved at the church then * Morgan nods (Morgan) quite (Molly) That would be a little scandalous, even for us * Morgan nods (Molly) I cannot say I wasn't thinking of the dream though (Morgan) I could tell (Molly) It troubles you? (Morgan) No, not really (Molly) I couldn't stop it, not when it was identical there * Morgan nods (Molly) Besides, it is hardly an active church (Morgan) No, it isn't * Molly tilts her head, thoughtful (Molly) If Theus is everywhere, doesn't that mean it is always in his presence? * Morgan nods (Molly) That's... that's rather odd (Morgan) why? (Molly) I'd never thought of it that way (Morgan) Obviously, the vaticine believe you can't commune with him outside of a church... * Molly nods (Molly) Which I disagree with, but... I suppose I assumed intimacy was somehow private * Morgan starts to laugh * Molly blushes (Molly) That is funny? (Morgan) I just had an image of the almighty blushing and looking the other way... * Molly giggles (Molly) He looks down over us and says "Oh dear, they are at it again!" * Morgan nods (Morgan) indeed (Molly) Maybe He tries to overlook it, like we are doing when Varick calls Seb the bum man. * Morgan nods (Morgan) could be * Molly smiles "Which is actually a bit worse than The Man With The Bum, isn't it?" (Morgan) He could've been decent in intelligence, I think... (Molly) Varick? (Morgan) Seb (Molly) Ah. How do you feel about that now? * Morgan shrugs (Molly) Earlier, when he went along so deadpan with your goblin story... * Morgan nods (Molly) It threw me, I must say. I hadn't seen as much of it as you had, but... (Morgan) what? (Molly) But that struck me. It was very much your humour * Morgan nods (Morgan) no-one believes he's like me... though Claudia says he's what would happen if HeinzHarold and I had a child * Molly giggles (Molly) Oh my goodness. (Molly) It is still bothering you that you are similar? (Morgan) some, I suppose (Molly) Do you wish to discuss that? (Morgan) Not especially... I dare say it'll pass * Molly nods (Molly) What would you like to do with Varick's nap time? * Morgan sighs (Morgan) I don't know (Molly) Is something wrong? (Morgan) I'm sure there's something I should be doing (Molly) I cannot think of anything * Morgan nods (Molly) We could lie on the couch, like before we left the Rose...? * Morgan nods (Morgan) that sounds nice * Molly gets up taking off her shoes whilst waiting for him to get into position * Morgan does so * Molly lies close, facing in to him. She smiles gently, big blue eyes at his eye height (Molly) It's unusual, not looking up at you (Morgan) I was thinking, this is what it'd be like if you were a normal height... * Molly looks mock offended (Molly) How rude you are! (Morgan) I know, I'm horrid (Molly) Mmhmm... simply wicked. * Morgan nods (Molly) Besides, were I always at this height, I would be able to do this more often **She opens eyes wider, batting her eye lids, looking sweet and innocent** (Morgan) looks weird on a normal sized person * Molly pouts "not 'cute'?" * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) at a push maybe * Molly shrugs, smirking "Were I a normal size, you would be unable to have me against doors, trees and boat houses..." (Morgan) Not at all, your legs would just stick out further (Molly) It would be awkward to kiss me at the same time though * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) maybe (Molly) Jarvie is about your height... *she giggles* (Morgan) more or less * Molly 's nose wrinkles (Molly) She'd never tolerate you (Morgan) god no * Molly smiles, stroking his face tenderly (Molly) That would have been an awful pairing (Morgan) yes it would * Molly smiles (Molly) Mina would have been a good match (Morgan) maybe... but I'm less than certain (Molly) Oh? (Morgan) She's lovely but... I don't think she could handle me at my worst as you have * Molly nods (Molly) I don't think she would have been a good match for you _now_, but when you liked her... (Morgan) maybe * Molly smiles (Molly) I cannot think of anyone ideally suited to the complicated man you have become (Morgan) aside from you... (Molly) I'm not sure I would even say that. I often feel like I could be better (Morgan) thats because you are carrying preconceptions of not being enough, or bearing burdens that aren't yours to carry * Molly smiles wryly "I am letting them go" * Morgan nods (Morgan) you are (Molly) That pleases you? (Morgan) absolutely it does * Molly smiles (Molly) It is down to you that I can (Morgan) really? * Molly nods (Molly) Absolutely (Morgan) how? (Molly) It has been gradual, though giving me permission yesterday let go of it was vital * Morgan nods (Molly) This helps, just being close and intimate this way helps immensely * Morgan nods (Morgan) I am glad * Molly smiles, watching him fondly (Molly) It's as if this satisfies my heart and soul in a way that is a little different from our bedroom intimacies * Morgan nods (Molly) Does it do so for you? * Morgan nods (Morgan) it is very... calming * Molly smiles (Molly) I have noticed that after a minute or so, our heartrates and breathing fall into sync * Morgan nods (Molly) I could possibly make it happen on purpose, but this happens naturally... spontaneously... * Morgan nods (Molly) Though we have been physically intimate for many months, this is new to us. It's delightful * Morgan nods * Molly smiles, blushing "it feels like a missing piece of the puzzle has been slotted into place" * Morgan sniggers * Molly looks sweetly confused (Molly) What? (Morgan) I'm just being rude * Molly kisses him briefly (Molly) Slotting into place? * Morgan nods * Molly smiles (Molly) You have changed in that regard, so much * Morgan nods (Morgan) yes I have (Molly) Is that how you used to be? (Morgan) No, I was much shyer * Molly nods, frowning so slightly that he would miss it if he weren't so close (Morgan) what blossom? (Molly) Is it possible you will revert to that as you become more like you used to be? (Morgan) I dont think so * Molly nods (Molly) I hope not * Morgan nods (Molly) I would manage, of course... (Morgan) Should't have to * Molly shrugs "Maybe this is just a honeymoon period for you. Maybe the lack of shyness will be resolved as you settle in more" (Morgan) I doubt it * Molly nods, thoughtful (Molly) It took us quite some time to learn about each other in that regard, but I do feel we are quite well suited there * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye * Molly is quiet a little while before saying with a little smile (Molly) I think we're well suited physically (Morgan) I agree (Molly) I am glad of that. I am glad it is not like Mama said it would be * Morgan nods * Molly frowns slightly, just before the parlour door opens * Morgan lets out an obnoxious snoring noise (Molly) **HH laughs** Your snoring is much worse than tha' (Morgan) [whats wong?] * Molly gets up, letting Morgan free to sit up (Morgan) what d'ya want? (Molly) HH: Came t' see how you were, see if you needed anything * Morgan sits up (Morgan) I think we're alright (Molly) HH: I'll leave y' to whatever that was gonna be! **he grins before walking out** * Molly shakes her head "oh dear!" * Morgan nods (Morgan) indeed * Molly smiles "Varick will probably awake before long anyway" she picks up her shoes * Morgan nods (Morgan) I would imagine so * Molly puts her shoes in (Molly) On* (Molly) Would it be uncomfortable for you if we took a walk to what was Dietmund? (Morgan) No, I'll manage (Molly) **This is what they do when Varick is awake, the four Rosenkrantzs, him, molly, varick, inga, HH and Claudia. It's chilly, but they're wrapped up warm. The walk along the cliffs is quite long, and gives them all a chance to chat more. This leaves Morgan chance to chat to anyone in particular * Morgan collars Rosenkrantz ** You're now known as Rosenkrantz (Rosenkrantz) Morgan, how are you? (Morgan) managing... quite a bit of information to be digested * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) It is indeed. I had exhausted all options in find the family, it didn't occur to me that I had found them already * Morgan nods (Morgan) it has shaken her quite a bit * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) The circumstances are unpleasant, I know. I took it hard myself when I knew. * Morgan nods (Morgan) I would suggest that its right for Molly to take the box... * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) I think that is a good idea. Sebastian and I have some pre-judgement where David is concerned. Putting us and him together before we have all had time to accept the situation will not end in the optimal way * Morgan nods (Morgan) As I explained to Seb already, he has changed a great deal... threats of violence and a stubborn refusal to listen to excuses helped with that (Rosenkrantz) And you have forgiven him for what he did to Molly? (Morgan) It is not for me to forgive * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) Molly can take the box (Morgan) I meant what I said... I will not allow a change of Freiarrdom if it is not in the best interests of the people * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) I know. Insel's people dealt with much during the occupation and the frequent change of Freiarrs in recent years * Morgan nods (Rosenkrantz) I hope you will keep us up to date with the situation, though I understand you have busy months ahead (Morgan) of course I will though, as you say, it may be difficult as we have so much to do * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) You are all welcome to come to back here whenever you wish to * Morgan nods (Morgan) I appreciate that * Rosenkrantz nods (Rosenkrantz) Was there anything else you want us to do to help with the process? ** You are now disconnected ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Saturday, 19 February 2022 20:03:49 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea (Molly) [19:07] (Rosenkrantz) Was there anything else you want us to do to help with the process? * Morgan smiles slightly (Morgan) keep an open mind (Morgan) Have you spoken with your wife about what it may mean for Ilena's future? ** You are now disconnected ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Saturday, 19 February 2022 20:17:47 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea (Rosenkrantz) I haven't. I will do so. (Morgan) I'm going to speak to my brother.... he is a social butterfly, his advice on that will be valuable * Rosenkrantz nods "It would be appreciated. My brother was close friends with Einfurstin Posen, and I hope that will help also" (Morgan) I've no doubt. If worst comes to worst, being related to a man who's been in the mines might give her some useful mystique * Rosenkrantz looks confused (Rosenkrantz) The Nieblungen Mines? * Morgan nods (Rosenkrantz) Noone had ever been in them (Morgan) Keep it to yourself, but thats no longer the case (Rosenkrantz) You? * Morgan nods * Rosenkrantz looks intrigued (Rosenkrantz) What was it like? (Morgan) like a cave (Rosenkrantz) How did you gain access to it? (Morgan) You wouldn't believe me if I told you * Rosenkrantz smiles "I will respect your privacy" * Morgan inclines his head (Rosenkrantz) **Up ahead, Seb moves to Molly's side, talking to her. She seems relaxed and at ease** (Rosenkrantz) I am glad to see them getting on well (Morgan) its been quite a challenge for both of them (Rosenkrantz) Sebastian is pleased to have Molly joining our family (Morgan) oh? (Rosenkrantz) His concerns are about her father, and his morals. * Morgan nods (Morgan) He'll need to keep an open mind too * Rosenkrantz nods. Whatever Seb says to Molly, it makes her laugh. * Morgan watches them (Rosenkrantz) We will do our best. Adara and Ilena are delighted, but they were more familiar with her already. I had to leave Seb here to run Insel when we went to Tawstock in sixty eight, otherwise I would have brought him too. And who knows, perhaps things would have turned out very differently! *he smiles, the throwaway comment being of no significance to anyone but those who know about the destinies* * Morgan nods slightly (Rosenkrantz) I am told you had been to the fort at Dietmund (Morgan) I have (Rosenkrantz) Heinzharold said he had been captured and you got him out * Morgan nods (Morgan) true (Rosenkrantz) He thinks he saw Leopold, briefly, as you rode out on the tidal crossing at Wassermeer * Morgan nods (Morgan) he mentioned it... it wouldn't be terribly surprising (Rosenkrantz) What a small world that would be * Morgan nods (Rosenkrantz) **Seb laughs, and Molly giggles. The others are chatting amongst themselves (Morgan) I could probably, if I tried hard, remember enough to draw him (Rosenkrantz) That would be nice. Perhaps when you are here again we can make the trip to the church at Wassermeer which was his parish for a while * Morgan nods (Morgan) I think that'd be good * Rosenkrantz nods, the conversation petering out. There's more laughter * Morgan rolls his neck, looking out over the coast (Rosenkrantz) **the day has brightened, and is brighter again when they reach the destroyed fort. Remnants of burnt and broken buildings, the complex's fence seems to have been battered down in several places. He can still make out what was where, but it has been six years and it's still a ruin. ** You're now known as HH * HH nods with a satisfied grin (HH) I love what they've done with the place! * Morgan nods slightly (HH) **Varick is keen to walk around it with Morgan. HH offers both Molly and Inga his arms to do likewise. The Rosenkrantzs are in discussion about whether to remove it (HH) V: Papa, can we look for James's arm? (Morgan) No, it'll be long gone * HH chuckles, overhearing them ** You're now known as Varick (Varick) Where would it go? (Morgan) maybe buzzards took it... (Varick) Why? (Morgan) to eat it (Morgan) or hit people with (Varick) Ewww you can't eat people! (Morgan) Noones told buzzards that (Varick) **he can hear two slapping sounds, followed by HH saying ouch twice (Morgan) [is he being a nuisance?] (Varick) [He said "Not until you're a grown up" with a particular sort of smirk] * Varick continues picking around until he suddenly stops, looking at nothing "Oh, hello" * Morgan looks round, frowning before crouching beside Varick (Morgan) No-one there Varick * Varick whispers "there's a ghost" (Morgan) Can you get it to follow us? We'll go somewhere away from the others * Varick talks quietly to it (Varick) [What is going on?] (Morgan) [ghost] * Varick starts walking, and the others follow * Varick has what sounds like a one sided conversation with the ghost, before looking to Morgan "There's a letter here, it has to be delivered so he can rest" (Morgan) Where? (Varick) Baden **This is where the ferry they will take towards Sudlachenburg stops** (Morgan) Where is the letter? (Varick) **Varick asks this, then starts walking. He points to a pile of broken timbers "under there" * Morgan nods going to retrieve it (Varick) **He manages to. Somehow it has stayed dry. It's addressed to a woman * Morgan tucks it into a pocket (Morgan) we'll take care of it (Varick) **Varick conveys this to the ghost. Molly, HH and Inga wait to be filled in** * Morgan comes to them, speaking quietly (Morgan) letter needs to be delivered so he can rest (Varick) **Molly nods** That's easily resolved * Morgan nods (Varick) **The rest of the trip is quite easy, though the men alternate with carrying Varick on their shoulders for the last two miles. The boy is exhausted when they get back, so a swift tea and bedtime is in order. The grownups are also showing fatigue after the upheaval, and the women retire straight from dinner. This gives Morgan chance to speak to any of the men ** You're now known as Molly * Molly is already asleep curled up with one of his shirts when he arrives * Morgan sighs quietly before getting himself ready for bed * Molly stirs when he gets in, discarding the shirt to cuddle up to him instead. She murmurs "Alright?" (Morgan) aye... you? (Molly) **she still sounds sleepy* Mmhmm... go back to sleep, or...? (Morgan) go to sleep my love * Molly nods "I love you" (Morgan) and I you (Molly) **It takes him quite a while to sleep after the revelations of the day, but eventually he does (Molly) **He starts to dream. He has seen no one during the night after discovering that despite all the willpower it took to pull out of the bliss of Molly's soft heat to spend on her, he failed to protect her from pregnancy. He had failed to protect himself from the terrifying prospect of having another child who could be ripped from him by the choice of another. (Molly) And he was going to have to marry again. That was never his intention, he was always supposed to be _Dietlinde's_ husband. Understandably, the sleep he sought eluded him. (Molly) **He has had time to think about his situation, and any stipulations he might have on her behaviour and future. It's also given him time to puzzle over her saying she wouldn't want him taking mistresses as it would hurt her if he went to bed with anyone else (Molly) He has packed and checked his bag for the monastery, and eventually it is first light, the earliest he should really be waking anyone, and about an hour before the coaches are due to take him, Catherine, and Evie to the Coral. * Morgan hauls his bags down to the courtyard doors before going to the kitchen (Molly) **Cook is there, his bald head shiny from the steam created by the pans ** You're now known as Cook (Cook) Morning * Morgan nods to him, fetching some coffee (Cook) Thought Molly would have been down by now, last check of the kitchens before you all set off * Morgan frowns (Morgan) still not up? (Cook) No sign of her at all * Morgan nods, putting his cup down (Morgan) I'll go find out whats going on * Cook just shrugs like it's no big deal. The door to her room at the end of the servants quarters is shut * Morgan knocks on it ** You're now known as Molly (Molly) Hmm? (Morgan) You're normally up by now... (Molly) **there is the sound of her sitting up in the bed with a quiet groan** (Molly) It's like waking the morning after drinking too much! *he can hear her get up, and clothing being pulled on** * Morgan waits * Molly opens the door, barefootbut dressed. Her hair is completely down. He has seen it like that only twice before, firstly the day she nearly drowned and was here in this room naked and surrounded by the red curls, and then that night where they created the child within her, beneath him on the couch with her bodice pulled down and her skirts pulled up, hair spilling down to the floor and watching him with desire. (Molly) Sorry (Morgan) Are you alright? * Molly nods, holding the door open for him to come in * Morgan does so (Molly) I am rather tired, I did not sleep that well *She gently shuts it behind him* * Morgan nods, turning to look at her * Molly looks serious "You are to leave soon?" * Morgan nods (Morgan) just under an hour * Molly nods (Molly) I... how did you sleep? (Morgan) I didn't * Molly nods "I am sorry. Springing this... situation upon you the night before leaving was not ideal." * Morgan nods (Morgan) It is what it is * Molly squares her shoulders "Do you regret the plan?" * Morgan shrugs slightly (Morgan) its the best we can make of the situation * Molly nods (Molly) I will end my engagement today * Morgan sighs, nodding (Morgan) I wish I were around to keep you safe * Molly blinks a moment (Molly) You think I will not be? (Morgan) I don't trust Jaeger, his impulse control is... poor (Molly) Would you prefer it if I was to stay in at the school house a few nights? * Morgan nods (Morgan) I think so, yes * Molly nods (Molly) Then I will do so. The betrothal agreement, what name should that be in? * Morgan sighs (Morgan) for it to be legal, Koertig * Molly looks very practical and keen to organise. She gathers her hair into one long twist over her shoulder (Molly) I will do so. And I should have it invoiced to you in your working name? (Morgan) Yes * Molly nods (Molly) I will state that we have given a promise of marriage to each other today and it has been consummated. Will that suit? * Morgan nods (Morgan) it will * Molly nods (Molly) Many couples have a white marriage, it will be fine. We are, I hope, still friends, and that is more than many people have. * Morgan nods (Morgan) we are (Molly) I am glad. Have you had time to consider where you wish me to live? (Morgan) I've thought about it... perhaps we could discuss it when I return? * Molly nods (Molly) Of course we can. Is there-... *she looks nauseated a moment* * Morgan watches her sympathetically * Molly exhales slowly "No, I'm alright, false alarm, I'm sorry" (Morgan) get one of the others to help you get your things to the school house... you'll not want to be hauling things yourself * Molly smiles "I have almost nothing to take, just a few clothes" * Molly glances at the mirror on the dresser "And that, of course" * Morgan glances at the mirror (Morgan) If you want to, yes * Molly watches him as he does so (Molly) If Curtis is to lose his temper, I would see that protected. It is important to me. * Morgan nods (Morgan) alright * Molly continues watching him "I am deeply, deeply sorry for what happened, and for the consequences. I will do my best to do what you are comfortable with, and to make you as happy as you are able to be". (Morgan) You should not apologise, my actions were less than proper * Molly sighs "I do not blame you." * Morgan nods slightly (Molly) The only one I blame is myself. (Morgan) No, if nothing else, we both hold responsibility * Molly shrugs a little (Molly) What happens after the betrothal contract? Normally the banns would be read for three sundays and then a service would be conducted. How would you wish to proceed? (Morgan) I suppose that is how it should be handled (Molly) It will be two weeks sail to Castille, a few nights there then two weeks back. Would you have me arrange this all so that it may be done on your return? * Morgan takes a deep breath (Morgan) yes, I think that would be best * Molly looks pained "I am sorry. If our world was different, it would be easier" (Morgan) it is what it is blossom (Molly) I know but... still. I will deal with everything, what people say, the gossip. I'm not sure how yet, but I will. By the time you are back the worst of it will have settled (Morgan) Just suggest they speak to me about it... * Molly smiles (Molly) I should imagine they will prefer to hold their tongues (Morgan) Also acceptable * Molly glances away, fiddling with her hair (Molly) Is there anything else you wish to discuss or inform me of? (Morgan) I don't think so, no * Molly nods "Will you talk to Lady Catherine and Evie, so it does not surprise them?" * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye (Molly) What will you say? (Morgan) I have no idea * Molly nods, sighing "Nor do I" * Morgan nods * Molly looks at him intently "I will miss you. *she sighs gently, the formality draining away, and she looks so very vulnerable* I _have_ missed you…" * Morgan nods (Morgan) I am sorry (Molly) I have stayed away, it is my fault (Morgan) I've not exactly been welcoming (Molly) It is understandable. It was an awful thing to happen for you. (Morgan) it is what it is * Molly nods, watching him "Stay safe, liebes herz" (Morgan) I will do my best * Molly frowns a little "what should I do, if you do not come back?" (Morgan) While on the way there, I will write a letter stating you get access to my accounts. Whether you choose to contact my family is your choice * Molly nods slowly (Molly) You do not have a preference? (Morgan) As long as you and the child are safe and happy, thats all I can ask for * Molly smiles slightly "I appreciate greatly that that matters to you..." * Morgan nods (Molly) "I do not know what I would do about taking the child there, but I would ensure they know what has happened to you, so they are not wondering" * Morgan nods (Morgan) thank you (Molly) I would prefer it if you come back safely. I am finding this rather scary! (Morgan) I will do my best (Molly) Thank you. *she watches him a long moment* Well... I will bid you farewell then (Morgan) be careful please * Molly smiles "I will take good care of myself. It's important" * Morgan nods (Morgan) thank you * Molly nods, going to open the door for him (Molly) I will see you in five weeks * Morgan nods you will * Molly opens it (Molly) Until then. * Morgan inclines his head before heading out of the room * Molly watches him going down the hall (Molly) **He's out in the coach yard when the dawn watch chimes, and he realises he's dreaming * Morgan wakes up ** You are now disconnected (Connection timed out) ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Sunday, 20 February 2022 00:07:50 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** Reconnecting to 192.168.1.82:6667… ** You have joined #7thsea ** You are now disconnected ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Sunday, 20 February 2022 11:44:49 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea (Molly) **Molly doesn't wake, and he sees noone else whilst he pokes around. He finds some old notebooks in a library drawer that have Leopold's handwriting. After twenty minutes, it becomes apparent there's nothing useful or supernatural in them, it seems to be plans of how a training school or lookout fort could have been built on the site that was Dietmund. The dates are 1610-11, when Leopold was thirteen and fourteen, long before the War. (Molly) **It's intricate and thorough, better than the fort the Vaticine's did build and impressive for a young mind. * Morgan sighs (Morgan) coincidence... (Molly) **There's noone there to answer. An established fort may have held out the Vaticine troops or dissuaded them from occupying Insel. Who knows what could have been different * Morgan goes in search of coffee (Molly) **The kitchen maid gives him some. He goes up in the tower watching the dawn, interrupted by noone. Once it is done, he goes to wake Molly. She must have woken whilst he was gone, because there is noone in the nursery suite when he gets there. Instead he finds them all at breakfast, and takes the empty seat beside her. For all their worries about the future of Insel, Ilena's prospects, and David's character, the Rosenkrantzs have welcomed Molly with open arms. (Molly) welcomed Molly with open arms. (Molly) **Ilena in particular seems thrilled to have a new relation. Seb has the sort of expression Morgan knows well, that of a sailor about to embark on a voyage back on the sea. He looks keen to be on his way, and he is leaving at the same time as them, possessions gathered, horses and carriage ready. (Molly) **They circulate around, all making their goodbyes. Seb and HH hug easily. Molly hugs her great uncle without hesitation. Claudia keeps her distance from it all. * Morgan watches them all quietly (Molly) **Ilena and Adara hug Morgan, because he is family now, and thank him for coming** * Morgan inclines his head (Morgan) Hopefully we'll be back before too long, but we'll stay in touch (Molly) **They nod, smiling (Molly) **After hugging Inga, Seb comes to hug Molly. It's nothing different than hugging his sister or Inga, but Molly seems to fit under his chin well, unsurprising as he's about Morgan's height. Having seen them married in dreams, it doesn't look out of place. * Morgan watches them passively (Molly) **HH comes up beside him** $you good?$ * Molly and Seb pull away, talking quietly (Morgan) $think so$ (Molly) **With Seb heading to the west dock and Morgan and co heading to the east, they have all soon parted ways. Molly is in the carriage with Varick and Inga, HH and Claudia ride beside Morgan. It looks like it will rain later. ** You're now known as HH (HH) Thanks for this. It was good t' see him again. * Morgan nods (Morgan) I'm sorry I made it difficult for you (HH) Nah, it's all good * Morgan nods (HH) Glad it's over though? * Morgan nods (Morgan) if I'm honest... (HH) C: *she scoffs* Don't be ridiculous, it's not over at all. * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) the bit I was worried about is (HH) C: She's gonna keep seeing him though, isn't she? They're going to be connected forever now * Morgan nods (Morgan) but there's nothing there * Morgan looks at HeinzHarold (Morgan) you tell her about Lisette and Etelka? * HH nods * Morgan nods (Morgan) complicated as hell * HH and Claudia nod (HH) Mebbie y' won't see much of them. 'S pretty far from Gottkirchen * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) we'll see (HH) Y' a lot more relaxed about it than y' were * Morgan nods (Morgan) I suppose so (HH) C: How have your nightmares been? (Morgan) Not great (HH) Gonna tell us? * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) just nightmares of losing Molly to Seb... * HH nods (HH) C: Makes a change from the weird shit you normally dream about * Morgan shrugs (HH) Now y've seen them together mebbie the nightmares will be done (Morgan) Maybe (HH) Inga likes him (Morgan) of course she does, he's like me (HH) A bit, I 'spose (HH) C: **she just shrugs* (HH) **They get back to the Rose a while later, to the cat meowing at the top of the gangplank. Varick runs up to him, about to miss the horse shoe (Morgan) Varick... horse shoe... (HH) V: *he taps it briefly before picking the cat up and going aboard. Beside Morgan, Molly looks up at the ship with a smile** ** You're now known as Molly (Molly) It's good to be home * Morgan nods * Molly smiles. Her sigh sounds like relief. She offers her hand to him * Morgan takes it * Molly leads the way up, touching the horseshoe as she goes, slowing enough to ensure he can too (Molly) **Sorgi is waiting on deck for them. Molly speaks to him briefly before going below after Varick "Welcome back, m'lord" ** You're now known as Sorgi (Morgan) thank you captain (Sorgi) Do you want middle watch in the nest? * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye, I'll do that (Sorgi) I expect we will arrive in Freiburg on Sunday morning * Morgan nods (Morgan) good (Sorgi) How soon do you want to move out, m'lord? * Morgan smiles slightly (Morgan) as soon as possible, no point in just sitting here * Sorgi nods "We'll get underway now then. Are you staying on deck?" * Morgan nods (Morgan) I will do for that * Sorgi gives the orders. The next half an hour is busy as the Rose is eased out of the docks and then heads west away from the sun. The wind favours them, and they're soon back at sea, the movement familiar and soothing again. He is able to watch as they pass the beach and the boathouse * Morgan does just that (Sorgi) **Next he sees the manor, its tower high above the cliffs. Strange to see it now, knowing that this is the land that belonged to Molly's paternal ancestors (Sorgi) [Are you alright, my love?] (Morgan) [aye, just watching the coast as we leave] (Sorgi) **The rain starts just after he has seen Dietmund where he knows there is a ghost waiting to be at rest, and the letter feels noticeable in his pocket** ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Sunday, 20 February 2022 14:04:58 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea * Morgan retreats below deck, heading to his study, taking out the letter (Molly) *it's amazing it has survived so long, at least six years outside. In the study Varick and Inga are watching from the rear window, Molly is at the bookcase * Morgan opens the letter up carefully (Molly) **It is short, the writing obviously slow and painstaking, but not the smooth writing of someone who writes often "My dearest Ludmilla, if you get this letter, I have died. I'm sorry for that. I hope you will pray for me that we will meet again in heaven. I hope the children grow up well. You are the best thing that happened to me. Don't mourn too much, marry a good man who will look after you. My love always, Gustav* * Morgan sighs slightly, tucking it away in a drawer of his desk * Molly comes over, gently touching his shoulder "would you like tea?" (Morgan) please blossom * Molly gets him some before sitting with him "I have put the books on the shelf" * Morgan nods (Molly) I wondered whether he would allow me to take them, but he says they were for the Rosenkrantz family... * Morgan nods * Molly sips her tea (Morgan) How different things could've been... (Molly) In what way? (Morgan) had he realised you were his kin when they were helping you... (Molly) I suppose perhaps they would have stayed longer, intervened with my father * Morgan nods (Morgan) That would've gone well... * Molly smiles "perhaps I'd have ended up in Insel" (Morgan) maybe (Molly) It would have made it complicated * Morgan nods (Morgan) I daresay you'd have ended up married to Seb * Molly nods (Molly) Entirely possible (Morgan) I was surprised he hugged you * Molly watches him a moment "He _is_ my cousin" (Morgan) I know, but still... (Molly) *she glances at the others before speaking quietly** you are unhappy about it? (Morgan) Not... really... it was just a but unexpected * Molly nods "I am glad it didn't trouble you" (Morgan) what was he saying? (Molly) Hoping I would visit again soon, wishing me a safe voyage * Morgan nods * Molly smiles "I hope that too" (Morgan) visiting again soon? (Molly) I would like to learn more about the island, and the people. I'd like to see the places we did not have time to see * Morgan nods (Molly) Would you like that also? * Morgan smiles slightly (Morgan) I am undecided (Molly) Oh? You have already seen Wassermeer and some of the west coast, I suppose * Morgan nods (Molly) It holds less interest then (Morgan) I am still somewhat uneasy about you being with him * Molly smiles "You do not need to be, my love" * Morgan nods (Molly) You are the man for me. * Morgan nods (Molly) Will we arrive in Freiburg on Saturday evening, do you think? (Morgan) Sorgi reckons Sunday morning * Molly nods (Molly) We will be able to go to church, perhaps * Morgan nods (Morgan) If you wish (Molly) It has been quite some time since I last went to a proper service. Since Starke, I think, which is three months ago * Morgan nods (Molly) That is too long, really * Morgan shrugs * Molly smiles "it doesn't bother you?" (Morgan) I went much longer before returning to a church * Molly nods (Molly) I think we should try to be somewhere for Memorial Day where we can participate. * Morgan nods (Morgan) I agree * Molly smiles (Molly) As to where... that will depend upon Edward, I think * Morgan nods (Morgan) I dare sayso (Molly) We do need to go to Sudlachenburg though (Morgan) Yes, we do (Molly) Are you apprehensive about that? * Morgan smiles slightly (Morgan) only in so much as its going to hurt your father * Molly nods (Molly) But if anyone is used to dealing with my Father's nonsense, it is you * Morgan nods (Molly) Perhaps we should have Varick and the others in the Veisgraf wing this time (Morgan) For... (Molly) Because there is a nursery, and guest rooms. It is time to make that space yours, I think * Morgan sighs (Morgan) I suppose so (Molly) [Unless you have a specific desire to be intimate in your old bed...] **she frowns slightly at the end** (Molly) You would prefer to be part of the main house? (Morgan) I hadn't given it much thought * Molly nods (Molly) If you still wish your heir to be born there, it makes sense for us to get used to residing there when we are in Sudlachenburg (Morgan) I suppose so * Molly frowns a litte (Molly) Is something bothering you? (Morgan) Just how much upset I am going to be causing in the next few weeks * Molly takes his hand (Molly) We are together, my love. I will help wherever I can * Morgan nods (Morgan) Where are Claudia and HeinzHarold? (Molly) Training, I think * Molly smiles "either that or they are gossiping somewhere" * Morgan nods (Morgan) I might join them... I haven't trained since we got to Insel * Molly smiles, kissing his knuckles "I will let you go then" * Morgan nods, heading off to the ballroom (Molly) **They are swinging swords around. He is soon welcomed into it, both of them taking him on. He can best either alone, but struggles immediately with them both** * Morgan tries as best he can (Molly) **They soon have him on the floor, looking smug as they high five* * Morgan lays on the floor breathing heavily (Molly) **HH sniggers, but manages, for once, to keep his trap shut** (Molly) C: **she offers Morgan a hand up** * Morgan takes it, getting up (Molly) **They take on HH together, easily beating him. Then they fight Claudia, which goes about the same, much to Claudia's displeasure. Then there's the bell for lunch. HH waits til Claudia is out of earshot** ** You're now known as HH (HH) Now that there's less goin' on, I'm ready t' try that drink on Inga, for science *he grins* (Morgan) I'll ask Molly. (HH) Can't make her own decisions now? (HH) Yer* (Morgan) She wanted to give Inga fair warning about it (HH) Hang on, you tried it already?! * Morgan nods * HH grins (HH) Works then? (Morgan) very much so (HH) Be careful not t' let her drink too much then? * Morgan nods * HH grins (HH) As bad as yer friend warned ya? (Morgan) Maybe (HH) You won't be needin' us tonight? (Morgan) No, I dont think so (HH) You on middle? * Morgan nods (HH) Anything y' need to warn me about with th' drink? (Morgan) I don't think so, no * HH nods, heading to the dining room, where he eats more than normal as if he's trying to store some extra energy. Morgan doesn't get chance to see Molly alone until Varick is down for his nap ** You're now known as Molly (Molly) How was your training, my love? *she sits on the window seat, shoes off (Morgan) I got beaten * Molly looks surprised (Molly) That's rare! * Morgan nods (Molly) Are you hurt? (Morgan) No, not at all * Molly nods (Molly) How did you sleep? I didn't feel you getting up (Morgan) I had a dream, but only the one (Molly) Oh? * Morgan nods (Molly) Something nice? * Morgan describes it * Molly nods slowly (Molly) You feel bad again this morning, like last time? * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) a bit * Molly nods "I'm sorry" * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) it is what it is * Molly nods "I suppose the convergence would have been achieved, even if we weren't happy" * Morgan nods (Morgan) I suppose so (Molly) I wonder if you will dream what happens after that (Morgan) I have no idea (Molly) It seems like one of the most unlikely paths * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye (Molly) That would have been rather terrifying * Morgan nods (Morgan) quite * Molly smiles (Molly) I meant for me * Morgan nods (Morgan) so did I (Molly) I would have been very worried for you. * Morgan nods (Molly) I am glad that didn't happen * Morgan nods (Morgan) me too (Molly) Sweet though, that you were concerned for my well-being (Morgan) of course I was (Molly) You would have worried for the child, even thought it was unwanted? * Morgan nods * Molly smiles "That's nice though" (Morgan) You think? (Molly) Yes. Even though it's nit something that happened, I love that about you * Morgan shrugs slightly * Molly frowns (Molly) I shouldn't? (Morgan) I don't handle compliments well... (Molly) I know. But I do not wish to hide my feelings because of that * Morgan nods * Molly sips her tea thoughtfully, smiling a little (Molly) I feel sorry for me on that path, having to deal with Curtis and facing going to town on my own * Morgan nods (Morgan) so do I (Molly) But Catherine needed you at the monastery * Morgan nods (Molly) He would have gone absolutely spare, wouldn't he? (Morgan) I've no doubt about it * Molly smiles "Five weeks away would have been torture for you" * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye, it most certainly would (Molly) But then perhaps Kai would have annoyed you less! (Morgan) maybe * Molly smiles, sipping the tea "That is better than some of your nightmares at least?" * Morgan frowns (Morgan) some, I suppose (Molly) Aside from the guilt. * Morgan nods * Molly offers her hand to him * Morgan takes it (Molly) Can I do anything to make you feel better? (Morgan) I don't think so blossom * Molly nods sadly (Molly) Alright, liebling. I didn't dream anything (Molly) Maybe you will have a better night tonight (Morgan) I hope so (Molly) Will you be on watch? * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye * Molly smiles "The bed will be cold" (Morgan) I'm afraid so * Molly nods "I will manage" * Morgan nods (Morgan) HeinzHarold wants that drink for Inga... (Molly) What do you think of that? (Morgan) I told him you wanted to talk to Inga first (Molly) I will certainly advise her how much to drink depending upon how much of an effect she wants * Morgan nods (Morgan) good idea (Molly) It is better to take too little than too much (Morgan) aye, it is (Molly) But it tastes nice, and aside from my concerns that you were regretting it, very enjoyable * Morgan nods (Molly) I don't see the problem if you don't (Morgan) No, its fine by me as long as she is forewarned * Molly nods (Molly) As long as she is willing to deal with the effects * Morgan nods (Molly) Best not walk past their cabin at all! (Morgan) No, I'd say not (Molly) If it is anything like with me, perhaps we should lock them in! (Morgan) Might be an idea * Molly nods "Have you forewarned _him_?" (Morgan) Not really * Molly giggles "will you?" (Morgan) No I don't think so (Molly) Let him discover the wonderfulness himself? (Morgan) indeed.... and that he doesn't know as much as he thinks he does * Molly smiles (Molly) It was a bit of a surprise for us * Morgan nods * Molly smiles, remembering fondly for a minute (Molly) I'll speak to her and let her have the bottle this afternoon. I'll remind her to save some for us, shall I? * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye (Molly) Perhaps in future, once we have squared away Edward and my father * Morgan nods (Morgan) definitely (Molly) You enjoyed my struggling? * Molly smiles * Morgan nods (Morgan) I did, very much... probably moreso if you weren't concerned about me * Molly nods "next time, I will seek reassurance so I can be more at ease" * Morgan nods (Morgan) alright blossom (Molly) Then I can be as physically tormented as you please * Morgan nods (Morgan) indeed (Morgan) I look forward to it * Molly giggles. They spend the rest of the afternoon together with Varick, HH and Inga. The drink is quietly handed over, and HH and Inga retreat after dinner. It's about ten, and Ulysses obviously recalls that Morgan naps before a middle, because he is waiting on the couch. Molly has settled on the window seat with her grandfathers books, waiting to wake him for his shift * Morgan fusses the cat before settling down for a nap (Molly) I'll have coffee ready for you to take with you when you wake (Morgan) thank you my love (Molly) Shall I sing? (Morgan) please * Molly does so. He's soon asleep. He wakes up in the bed they had in Insel, no idea this is just a dream. Molly isn't there. * Morgan climbs out of bed, getting dressed and going looking for her (Molly) **It's still the middle of the night, so everything in dark. He doesn't find her downstairs, but he hears her voice quietly when he starts up the stairs to the top tower room * Morgan slows, listening (Molly) "I know... but it cannot be anything..." * Morgan frowns (Molly) **Seb replies** Maybe it doesn't have to be anything... * Morgan listens, getting closer quietly (Molly) It's an awful idea... but I... the way I am feeling... I've never felt this so suddenly... * Morgan starts scowling, getting closer (Molly) S: I know. It isn't ideal. I haven't either. We shouldn't do anything. (Molly) I am not sure that I can do nothing, and never know what it would have felt like to have what he had with her * Morgan creeps up to the doorway (Molly) S: I can understand you feeling that way... and I am not sure I can either (Molly) **Seb is wearing slippers, trousers and a dressing gown, she's barefoot in a shift with a robe over the top, the red curls messy and completely loose. They're stood about three feet apart, watching each other intently (Molly) **It's tense a few moments. When their restraint breaks, it's mutual. His hands come to her cheeks, thumbs brushing gently back towards her ears. Their lips meet, initially not with wild passion but gentler, more tentative despite the longing. It's as if it is monumentous to them both. And it's just like how he first kissed Dietlinde, in a cold forest after he'd returned from the War. (Morgan) I would suggest you stop that before I do something you will regret * Molly and Seb spring apart. They don't look at each other, both looking at Morgan (Molly) Liebes herz... (Morgan) If you are about to give some fantastic reason why I have not seen what I have seen, please ensure it is a good one... (Molly) **Seb shakes his head** No. I have no excuse for my behaviour. * Molly looks at Morgan, but she stays quiet (Morgan) I thought not. (Molly) S: How would you want to handle this, should I find a second? * Molly glances at Seb "You won't be dueling over this!" (Morgan) Concern for him, how touching. Perhaps you should return to your bed, Molly, so that when _our son_ wakes, he is not alone. (Molly) I am concerned for you both! (Morgan) You have a strange way of showing it. Go. * Molly tilts her chin up, hands on her hips "No." (Morgan) Then your choice is clear. I will leave tomorrow, with my son, on my ship. (Molly) You bastard. You will not use Varick against me! (Morgan) I will use whatever I see fit against an adulterer... someone who broke their oath to me, to god. (Molly) This isn't fair! I cannot experience what you did, I have to ignore what pulls me to him, even though you know it is out of my control! (Morgan) But _this_ is fair to me? (Molly) It isn't always about you!! * Morgan smiles slightly (Morgan) then you will appreciate what I do next is not about me, but about you... and him... (Molly) I won't let you take Varick from me. * Morgan tilts his head (Morgan) I love you. Wholly, endlessly. You dragged me back from the brink, and now this... I promised Varick I would not leave him, and I will not break that promise. *he grinds his teeth a moment* You were drawn to him... I am drawn to butcher him, yet he is still alive. (Molly) I love you too. I have turned myself upside down and inside out for you, in the hopes of being anything like as good for you as Dietlinde was, but I am never, ever, going to be her. I thought maybe I could have your heart like she did if I was just better. But I see now there is too much in your past. What we have is special, but it isn't ever going to be like it was with her. All I wanted was just to feel that magic. (Molly) **Seb stands quietly, not interjecting (Morgan) So you continue to him, because you wanted more. Then you can have more, but you will not have more _and_ me. (Molly) I wish I could have had that with you! I wish I could have been your first. * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) I can do nothing to change that (Molly) No. You cannot. But knowing what you know, about how things could have been, can you see how hard it is to know that though you have been able to love and have us both, I have to fight the influence of destiny and never experience what you did? (Morgan) You don't seem to be doing much fighting... except against me. I am going downstairs, to pack my things. At first light, I am going home. (Molly) I don't want that! I want to be with you! (Morgan) No, you want him. (Molly) Not as much as I want you! * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) I don't know I'll ever be able to trust that (Molly) But I am expected to trust that you are happy now, that you don't wish you could have her back instead? That you don't even remember how amazing it was between you and wish you had that still? (Morgan) As I explained to Claudia, I am... was... all in with you. * Molly frowns deeply (Molly) And now you aren't? (Morgan) I don't know. Everything I did know has been ripped from me... * Molly pulls her gown tighter around her "I hate this. I hate being at odds with you" * Morgan sighs (Morgan) I am going to pack. I will explain to the Freiarr in the morning. (Molly) S: Your wife obviously loves you, Morgan. This was a mistake, it isn't worth throwing away a marriage for. (Morgan) You will address me properly. (Molly) S: Yes, Your Excellency. * Morgan looks at Molly (Morgan) I am going to pack. You may join me... if you choose. * Molly glances at Seb a moment, then back to Morgan. She lays a hand on Morgan's arm, shaking it gently "Liebes herz?" * Morgan pulls it away (Molly) **He wakes up on the couch, the cat still on him. Molly is frowning, and pulls her hand away** It's time for your watch... * Morgan blinks a couple of times before moving the cat * Molly has her hair down and is just in a shift, looking like she has prepared for bed (Molly) Your coffee is in the flask, do you want some now? * Morgan nods, frowning * Molly watches him a moment (Molly) Nightmare? * Morgan nods * Molly pours some coffee before sitting beside him (Molly) What do you need? * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) I don't know (Morgan) Did you feel anything for him, any sort of pull? * Molly shakes her head (Molly) No liebling, we've talked about this * Morgan sighs (Molly) Your nightmare was that I felt it? (Morgan) sneaked up to the tower room (Molly) Because I felt that? (Morgan) I think you'd have slept with him... when I got there you were kissing * Molly shakes her head (Molly) That would not have happened (Morgan) You cant say that (Molly) Yes, I can (Morgan) No... (Molly) Why? (Morgan) because you can only speak from the point of view you have. You were not attracted to him... in my dream, you were pulled to him, drawn... and you felt that immediate, mutual connection.... (Molly) I have been pulled to you many times since last summer, times when I have desperately wanted to kiss you, and far more. And every single time I have respected your boundaries. (Morgan) in my dream you claimed you couldn't resist it... which is why you cannot say for certain what would've happened in my nightmare (Molly) I would have left before I yielded to it ** You are now disconnected ------------------------------ Logging started for 192.168.1.82:#7thsea on Sunday, 20 February 2022 20:06:17 Greenwich Mean Time ------------------------------ ** You have joined #7thsea (Molly) [19:26] (Molly) I would have left before I yielded to it (Morgan) You can't know that (Molly) You think I didn't not consider it could happen, that I had not considered what I would do if it did? * Morgan shrugs (Molly) Well, I had. * Morgan frowns * Molly watches him (Molly) What, liebling? (Morgan) I don't know that I like that you considered it... even though it was practical (Molly) I am naturally practical. And with the influence of fate and the meddling, it made sense to think how to deal with anything that might happen * Morgan nods (Morgan) I need to get to the nest * Molly sighs (Molly) Alright * Morgan kisses her cheek gently before getting his coat * Molly watches him, following him to the door (Molly) Will you come to bed when you are done, or should I prepare the couch? (Morgan) I'll come to bed if it won't disturb you (Molly) It would be welcomed * Morgan nods (Morgan) alright my love * Molly nods, but she looks a little tense (Molly) I hope it is dry and peaceful (Molly) **The cat comes, ready to go with Morgan * Morgan nods (Morgan) so do I... I'm not in the mood for rain * Molly nods (Molly) Goodnight then * Morgan nods, smiling briefly before scooping up the cat and putting it on his shoulders * Molly gently shuts the door behind him * Morgan heads up on deck (Molly) **Koen is taking over from Sorgi, who seems in a hurry to go below. It is dry, but cold** * Morgan watches him quietly (Molly) **Sorgi inclines his head* goodnight, mlord (Morgan) g'night cap'n (Molly) **the man from the nest comes down * Morgan clambers up into it (Molly) **it is cold and clear. Though the stars are in a different position, overhead is much like when Molly had drunk the special drink and then let him open his eyes to find her naked and straddling him in the moonlight** * Morgan settles down to do his shift (Molly) **He estimates it is about one o'clock when he hears the ropes creaking as someone climbs up ** You're now known as HH (HH) Shove over! * Morgan makes space (Morgan) what the hell are you doing up? * HH groans (HH) Don' say that word (Morgan) Drank too much did she? (HH) Didn' account for the different constitutions * Morgan nods (HH) Told 'er I'd be back in an hour, but I'm 'oping she falls asleep! (Morgan) unlikely (HH) Fuckin' hell. **he squeezes in** (Morgan) I _did_ warn you (HH) How th' hell did y' manage it? (Morgan) I'm just stronger than you * HH chuckles "not on round four I bet" * Morgan shrugs (HH) Enjoyin' yer watch? (Morgan) its... it _was_ peaceful * HH huffs "Came to share my troubles with ya, this is what I get?" (Morgan) You know I love you really... * HH grins "yeah y' do!" * Morgan sweeps the horizon (HH) **it's all clear** (HH) 'Ow's yer evening been? (Morgan) you mean aside from the fucking nightmare? (HH) Y' can include that, give me time t' cool my balls. (Morgan) Just one where Molly sneaked off and ended up kissing Seb... (HH) Kicked th' crap out of him? * Morgan shakes his head (HH) Rough to see though? * Morgan nods (Morgan) still hurts now (HH) You mad with 'er now, like that night Inga and I had that row? (Morgan) No, just... hurting (HH) Even though it didn' happen? * Morgan nods (Morgan) stupid isn't it (HH) Yeah, but it gets stuck in yer head * Morgan nods (HH) Guess I was wrong tha' yer nightmares would stop (Morgan) looks that way doesn't it * HH nods (HH) Good job we're already gone (Morgan) Doesn't seem to have made any difference * HH nods (HH) I can take over up 'ere if you need to be with her right now (Morgan) No, I said I'd o it (HH) Y' can't just talk in yer heads? (Morgan) She's gone to bed, I don't want to disturb her (HH) She grouchy if she's woken too? (Morgan) Not usually, no (HH) Pretty sure she'd want y' to reach out to her if y' needed, man (Morgan) Maybe. It'll wait til mornin' * HH nods (HH) What else is goin' on with you? Not seen y' as much as usual (Morgan) We've been busy...I wanted to make sure you got time with Seb * HH nods "Good to see 'im. Think you'd like him if it wasn' for Molly (Morgan) I never said I don't like him... and I've got to respect anyone who can pick up my bullshit and run with it like he did * HH nods "We 'ad a lot of fun back in the day" (Morgan) I would imagine so (HH) Coulda been fun, the three o' us * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye * HH stays quiet for a bit then. True to his word, it's been almost an hour when he says "Spose I best get back" * Morgan nods (Morgan) aye (Morgan) and, if she isn't asleep... I'm not asking Molly to sooth the consequences of your actions... * HH grins (HH) I'll walk around with no trousers in t'morrow, it'll be fine (Morgan) I wouldn't be surprised if you did (HH) Might wear one of m' wife's skirts, let it all air out (Morgan) Just so long as you don't climb the rigging * HH laughs, patting his arm (HH) Pray for little Heinzharold, eh? (Morgan) No (HH) Asshole * Morgan nods (Morgan) yes * HH starts to climb down "Have a good night, man" (Morgan) do my best (HH) **The final two hours go fairly quick, and when he passes HHs room his friend is snoring** ** You're now known as Molly * Molly is wearing one of his worn shirts when he gets into bed beside her in the dark, and she doesn't wake * Morgan tries to settle to sleep (Molly) **He starts to dream in his own history. He had ended the War stepping off a ship to discover it was over. In Johstadt they had met up with Claudia, and ridden, as many had, down through Freiburg. It took several days for him to adjust to the idea that the War that had been raging since before his birth was over. Nothing had really happened before he'd had to go back to that War, save some kisses and losing his heart. Now he was a free man. (Molly) **He'd seen the fancy sewing box in a shop window and insisted they stopped to buy it. He'd barely stopped at Die Dauerhaftigkeit before sneaking out to take it to Dietlinde. He hadn't written to her whilst away, because she wouldn't have been able to read it. With the War over, he could propose marriage to her. She'd been elated to see him. The few weeks that concluded December had given him time to quietly buy up the cottage in the clearing and bribe a priest. (Molly) **Though it was unethical, he felt right in marrying her despite the status disparity and the deceit of going behind his father's back. What was all that compared to love? What had Theus let him survive the War for if not to honour his creator by marrying the girl he would protect and cherish for all his life? (mtf) (Molly) **The day had been cold, and she had been so beautiful, different shades of blonde shining in her hair. They had warmed up later in the home he had found for them. Neither of them had known precisely what to expect, despite Morgan having picked up enough talk to warn Dietlinde it might hurt but he would be gentle. (Molly) **She assured him after they had consummated the union that it hadn't hurt too much. They'd done it again that night, and then at first light before he steeled himself to visit Die Dauerhaftigkeit and tell his Father what he had done. (Molly) **Adalbrecht is sat at his desk when Morgan is shown in. He's up surprisingly early, and more surprisingly seems jovial (Molly) "Good morning, Morgan" Adalbrecht says, a man still in charity with the world almost two months after the War-ending truce. "You didn't come home last night. Did you and HeinzHarold drink too much Blokners?" Adalbrecht laughs. ** You're now known as Adalbrecht (Morgan) No, father... I need to tell you something * Adalbrecht nods, lighting a cigar (Adalbrecht) Yes? (Morgan) I know this will displease you greatly.... Dietlinde and I were married yesterday (Adalbrecht) Very funny Morgan. Did Heinzharold put you up to this? * Morgan watches his father solemnly (Morgan) I am not joking * Adalbrecht stands up (Adalbrecht) That is impossible. * Morgan shakes his head slightly (Adalbrecht) How? (Morgan) It doesn't matter (Adalbrecht) Yes, it does. It will be undone. (Morgan) No, it will not (Adalbrecht) It can, and it will. Certain things have to happen for it to be binding. I will inform her parents that mistakes were made. * Adalbrecht looks deeply displeased (Morgan) I will not allow that. (Adalbrecht) You are not the Graf. (Morgan) No, I'm her husband. (Adalbrecht) You are a Koertig, you will marry who you are told! (Morgan) As you did? (Adalbrecht) I had the permission of my parents. * Morgan sighs, shaking his head (Adalbrecht) It can be undone still. It will be undone. If you are in a rush to take a wife, a suitable one will be found. (Morgan) I love her. (Adalbrecht) You are a Veisgraf. She is a labour's daughter. This is impossible. (Morgan) And yet it is so (Adalbrecht) No. Go to her parents' house and tell her it is not going ahead. (Morgan) It is done (Adalbrecht) It is not done until it is consummated (Morgan) It. Is. Done. * Adalbrecht looks absolutely incandescent (Adalbrecht) What the hell are you thinking?! (Morgan) That I have loved her from the first time I met her. (Adalbrecht) She isn't a suitable wife for a Veisgraf! Do you have any idea the damage you have done? (Morgan) What Theu (Morgan) What Theus decrees... * Adalbrecht rubs his forehead wearily (Adalbrecht) Oh Morgan. (Adalbrecht) I thought you understood that nothing could come of your friendship with her. (Morgan) its more than friendship... it is love. (Adalbrecht) Love and marriage are very different things. (Morgan) They're not supposed to be. (Adalbrecht) But they are. This is your duty. (Morgan) I'm sorry you feel that way, but that is how it is * Adalbrecht looks annoyed "You knew I would forbid this" * Morgan nods (Adalbrecht) And so you betrayed my trust (Morgan) Because you would have stopped me, had me marry for convenience rather than love. (Adalbrecht) I would have made you act with honour, which means marrying someone of status. (Morgan) bullshit. (Adalbrecht) You will watch your mouth, young man. * Morgan shrugs slightly (Adalbrecht) Oh I should thrash you. (Morgan) You wouldn't be the first (Adalbrecht) What do you propose to do now, as you insist on being the master of your own destiny? * Adalbrecht watches him (Morgan) I have a cottage. We will live there (Adalbrecht) A cottage. (Adalbrecht) How long have you had this planned? Weeks? Months? * Morgan stares off into the middle distance (Adalbrecht) You will answer your Graf. (Morgan) No. (Adalbrecht) Don't make me have you flogged. (Morgan) If that is what you require... (Adalbrecht) I require an answer as to your betrayal of your family and birthright. * Morgan glares at his father (Morgan) You hypocrite * Adalbrecht glares right back "You have come back home with a disrespectful attitude. You are a Veisgraf, comfort yourself with that in mind" (Morgan) You are a Graf, not a petulant bully who hasn't gotten his way... (Adalbrecht) This is the way of the nobility. It is the way of your ancestors, and in your blood. * Morgan grinds his teeth, looking away (Adalbrecht) Is she with child? Is that what all this hate is about? (Adalbrecht) Haste * (Morgan) I will not dignify that with an answer (Adalbrecht) **There's a knock on the door that was not there in reality** (Adalbrecht) Come (Adalbrecht) **Verity comes in, looking cheerful** Ah, dear boy, I missed you at dinner last night * Adalbrecht watches Morgan, inhaling on his cigar (Morgan) I'm sorry mother ** You're now known as Verity (Verity) I am sure you were having some time with Heinzharold, though I hope you will be staying home this evening? (Morgan) No, mother, I'm afraid not (Verity) Ad: *he just watches Morgan** (Verity) Oh *she looks disappointed before rallying* You and your friends must be finding it hard to adjust to normal life again. **she looks him over** (Morgan) Things have changed a great deal * Verity smiles, looking amused "why are you wearing a wedding ring, dear boy? Are you and Heinzharold playing a prank on your father?" (Morgan) No mother. I knew father would not allow it, so I married Dietlinde in secret * Verity is still smiling, shaking her head "Of course you didn't." * Morgan nods (Morgan) father was just telling me what a disgrace I am * Verity looks very hurt and upset by this (Verity) I was going to speak to your father about allowing her to be your mistress. (Verity) Ad: *he taps off the ash as he watches them* (Morgan) That would not have been enough. I love her. (Verity) Plenty of noblemen love their mistresses * Morgan sighs (Morgan) Father would not allow a mistress here anyway, but I didn't want a mistress... I wanted her to be my wife * Verity takes a seat, watching him with patience laced with disappointment (Verity) Dear boy, a nobleman cannot marry a common girl, even if he wishes to. (Morgan) says who? (Verity) Everyone. That is how things are done. It keeps our lines purer and encourages the good traits of the nobility to flourish (Morgan) I'm sorry mother, but I've fought alongside better common men than many nobles I've met (Verity) I would like you to reconsider this, dear boy. It will damage Sudlachenburg's reputation. Your father will allow you to keep her, and provide the funds to set up a household for her. But a marriage... I am afraid that is not possible. (Verity) **Adalbrecht nods a little* * Morgan lifts his chin (Morgan) Then you will need to rely on Edward for an heir, for I will not marry another if you force this (Verity) Ad: You will marry who we decide. * Morgan looks at his father (Morgan) No. * Verity gives the littlest shake of her head at Adalbrecht, then looks to Morgan (Verity) Dear boy, please. We will give you time to adjust to the idea of taking a noble bride, and ensure she is not going to make your life difficult with Dietlinde being your mistress but please, do this for Sudlachenburg, and for me? (Morgan) I will not marry another. * Verity gives him that one look that causes him the most distress (Verity) I am disappointed, Morgan. You are not the man I thought you were. * Morgan hangs his head (Morgan) I'm sorry mother. (Verity) Would you at least discuss it with Dietlinde? Perhaps she would be willing to help you make this work? (Morgan) No. Father can. I want him to see her expression as he shatters her world and she realises what sort of man he is (Verity) Ad: She should have known better than to agree to marry the future Graf. * Morgan snorts (Morgan) How could she, being a stupid commoner? * Verity looks at Adalbrecht again "Adalbrecht, please." (Verity) **Adalbrecht storms out, slamming the door. Verity looks at Morgan** Be gentle with him, dear boy. It is a big shock (Morgan) Its difficult when he's being so unreasonable and elitist (Verity) You are protective of her, of course. If she had been a gentleman's daughter... But she isn't. (Morgan) I'm afraid thats just something he'll have to learn to live with (Verity) Please, dear boy. Sudlachenburg needs you (Morgan) I'm still here (Verity) It needs you to look at how our peers will react. The consequences to our reputation will be huge (Morgan) You would have me break my vows, to her, to god? (Verity) We can have it annulled, it is quite easy at first. It was yesterday, whilst you weren't here? (Morgan) No, mother. I will not. * Verity sighs "Oh dear boy... where did this all go so wrong?" (Morgan) You don't want me to answer that. (Verity) Was it because we encouraged you to be so friendly with Heinzharold and his family? Should we have sent you to the academy sooner? (Morgan) You think HeinzHarold and his family beneath us? I'm shocked, mother, and extremely disappointed (Verity) I think they are good people, but their status is not equal to ours, and I have never hidden from you that the nature of your friendship is different to that of most boys (Morgan) It is ridiculous, and only held in place by those desperate to cling to power. Its only held onto so hard because its always been that way... you know what else was always that way? Having to go to church to speak with god. Paying for absolution for sins you hadn't even committed yet. * Verity frowns deeply (Verity) I am sorry you feel that the privilege and duty you have been born to is such a burden. I hoped we had instilled into you the importance of having a family in an area that shields the people from the machinations of outsiders, sees to their well-being, and keeps the order and peace. * Morgan sighs (Morgan) I can see you will not accept my point of view or actions. I see no point in continuing this (Verity) We cannot protect our people from other nobles who might wish to annexe us or undermine our trade if we lose their respect. I am asking you to take some time to consider the potential consequences. Perhaps discuss it with Dietlinde and her family. I will have your Father give you space for a few days to think it over. (Morgan) Even if she accepts it, I will not marry someone else for convenience. (Verity) There is time ahead to work out the details of that and having heirs. You are still a young man (Morgan) It is the principle of it. I will not. (Verity) And had you been asked two years ago, you would have said it was the principle of the thing to not marry a commoner. * Morgan sighs, going to the door (Verity) Hold on please. (Morgan) For what? So I can be browbeaten repeatedly despite my refusal to compromise what I think right * Verity stands, opening her arms to him "Come here, dear boy. I know this is hard for you" * Morgan sighs, going to his mother, laying his forehead on her shoulder * Verity wraps her arms around him, stroking the back of his head (Verity) Even when we are at odds, I love you. That is one thing that can never change. * Morgan nods * Verity kisses his hair, loosening her grip (Verity) Take care of yourself, please. * Morgan nods (Morgan) I will * Verity lets him leave, but he hears how she flops into the chair and sobs once he's a few steps from the door * Morgan walks away from the room, head down (Verity) **A clock chimes as he passes, and he suddenly wakes up. At first he can't place where he is. Why is the bed in the cottage moving as if it is at sea? Why do the sheets smell like perfume rather than brand new cotton? Then he realises. The Rose, Molly. How that dream is almost six hard years in the past. * Morgan rubs his face, running his hands through his hair ** You're now known as Molly * Molly stirs at his movements (Molly) Hmm? (Morgan) Nightmares, dont worry (Molly) Fix? (Morgan) no (Molly) Cuddle? (Morgan) No, I need some fresh air * Molly sighs a little "okay" * Morgan climbs out of bed, pulling some clothes on before heading out and up on deck ** You're now known as Claudia * Claudia is sat in the rigging, watching around the deep navy view (Claudia) Hey * Morgan climbs up slowly * Claudia nods to herself, getting out and handing over the flask * Morgan takes it, taking a large mouthful before handing it back (Morgan) what time is it? (Claudia) About an hour til dawn, half six maybe? * Morgan nods, looking out at the horizon * Claudia sips a little before offering it back again * Morgan takes it, taking another large drink (Claudia) Thought you'd sleep longer off middle (Morgan) bad dreams (Claudia) Wanna talk? (Morgan) dreamed of when I told my father I'd married Dietlinde... except my mother was there this time * Claudia winces (Claudia) Didn't go well? * Morgan shakes his head before sobbing briefly (Morgan) All the things I've faced, but that look of disappointment... * Claudia rubs his upper arm, impossible to do more in the rigging * Morgan lets out a slow breath (Claudia) Hits harder when it matters more * Morgan nods (Claudia) I always envied that (Morgan) what? (Claudia) Your close relationship with your mother * Morgan nods (Claudia) I guess it has pitfalls though * Morgan nods (Morgan) very definitely (Claudia) If you don't love anyone, they can't hurt you * Morgan shrugs (Morgan) But that has to come down to trust doesn't it (Claudia) People are clumsy. (Morgan) No doubt. But you love me, and HeinzHarold * Claudia nods (Claudia) Yes, also not without its pitfalls. * Morgan nods (Morgan) The benefits outweigh them * Claudia shrugs (Morgan) Thats hurtful (Claudia) It seems it, but the fear is never gone * Morgan nods (Morgan) Sometimes you need to just accept that it is what it seems * Claudia nods, holding her hand out for the flask * Morgan hands it back (Claudia) Glad to be on the move again? *she swigs from it* * Morgan nods (Morgan) I wish it wasn't into something so... difficult (Claudia) He's gonna go nuts (Morgan) which one? * Claudia laughs (Claudia) Either... both * Morgan nods (Claudia) Which are you most worried about (Morgan) Thats an excellent question... Edward will adjust, its more how much I'm going to have to stand in his way if he and my father get bull headed that concerns me... David, I think will be devastated (Claudia) Edward's probably going to try and wreck his life with Mina. Forrester is stubborn and difficult, I think your right, it's going to be hard on him (Morgan) Might have to break Edwards nose again, stop him going off the rails (Claudia) It's my turn. * Morgan laughs (Morgan) Thats fair I think (Claudia) I've been waiting six years (Morgan) starting to think you've got a crush on him * Claudia shudders (Claudia) Not if he was the only man on the planet * Morgan laughs * Claudia smiles (Claudia) I'd be just fine * Morgan nods (Morgan) I've no doubt (Claudia) I would miss you, Heinzharold and Sorgi though (Morgan) Briefly (Claudia) When I was tired out * Morgan nods (Morgan) before you wanted more bubbies * Claudia cringes (Claudia) Please don't call them that **It reminds him of Molly talking in her sleep the other night thinking Thomas was Madchen when she told Morgan she would go for the baby as she probably wanted bubbies** * Morgan chuckles (Claudia) Haven't heard him say it in a few days. Maybe he didn't want Rosie thinking he's a toddler. ** You are now disconnected