**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Mar 26 17:57:52 2026 Mar 26 17:57:52 * Morgan (~madisonst@192.168.1.129) has joined Mar 26 18:18:02 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.101) has joined Mar 26 18:19:06 * Morgan nods, sighing Mar 26 18:19:06 You're probably right Mar 26 18:19:06 * Molly nods, kissing his palm Mar 26 18:19:06 We’ll write? Mar 26 18:19:09 Do you not think that would be too painful? Mar 26 18:19:11 * Molly watches him sadly “I don’t think I could bear to be cut off from you forever” Mar 26 18:19:13 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:19:15 I know what you mean Mar 26 18:19:17 In code then, I’ll make one Mar 26 18:19:19 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:19:21 alright Mar 26 18:19:23 * Molly nods “Will you stay tonight?” Mar 26 18:19:25 Isn't that a bit risky? Mar 26 18:19:27 * Molly sighs “Maybe, but... It’s only been a few hours and already I yearn to have you” Mar 26 18:19:29 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:19:31 But if you think we shouldn’t, we won’t Mar 26 18:19:33 I just... I don't want to make it more painful, you know? Mar 26 18:19:35 * Molly nods Mar 26 18:19:39 It’ll be painful either way, but one has more regret Mar 26 18:19:41 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:19:43 You're probably right Mar 26 18:19:45 * Molly nods, watching his eyes “I get the feeling I could make love to you every day for the rest of my life and still want you madly” Mar 26 18:19:47 * Morgan shrugs sadly Mar 26 18:19:49 What is it? Mar 26 18:19:51 I'm sad that isn't an option Mar 26 18:21:01 * Molly nods, watching him “As am I. I didn’t even know it could be like that...” Mar 26 18:21:11 * Morgan nods, sighing Mar 26 18:23:44 It was amazing, you... wow. *she smiles a little* Mar 26 18:23:57 * Morgan smiles a little Mar 26 18:25:23 No matter what, I’ll always have the memory of what it can be like, how intense it can be Mar 26 18:26:11 * Morgan nods, looking unhappy Mar 26 18:28:09 But you must have known already? Mar 26 18:28:49 It wasn't... I was much gentler then, as a person Mar 26 18:29:37 Oh... *she smiles* alright then Mar 26 18:30:19 * Morgan sips his tea Mar 26 18:31:21 what did you intend when you came to me last night? *she looks curious* Mar 26 18:31:52 I don't really know... not this, though Mar 26 18:32:27 * Molly watches him sympathetically Mar 26 18:32:35 do you regret going so far? Mar 26 18:33:12 Sort of Mar 26 18:34:13 * Molly sips her tea Mar 26 18:34:17 Why is that? Mar 26 18:35:06 Its put you in a tough position really Mar 26 18:36:50 To a degree, perhaps Mar 26 18:37:11 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:38:18 But I was already set to go anyway Mar 26 18:39:13 Even so... Mar 26 18:39:46 But that is the only regret you have? Mar 26 18:41:25 That and now I know what I cannot have... Mar 26 18:41:58 * Molly nods “If only things had gone differently “ Mar 26 18:42:49 * Morgan nods sadly Mar 26 18:43:08 * Molly leans in, and gently kisses him Mar 26 18:46:13 * Morgan kisses her gently Mar 26 18:47:49 * Molly gently cups his cheek, bringing her forehead to his “I should let you go to work” Mar 26 18:47:57 * Morgan nods a little Mar 26 18:47:58 aye Mar 26 18:48:29 I will see you again today though? You won’t stay away from me so long again? Mar 26 18:48:51 I'll be back later Mar 26 18:49:52 Good. *she pulls back a little* Mar 26 18:50:35 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:50:38 I'll see you later Mar 26 18:50:47 I’ll be here Mar 26 18:52:29 * Morgan nods, finishing the tea and moving to the door Mar 26 18:52:54 * Molly watches him go, but doesn’t stop him Mar 26 18:53:37 * Morgan sighs after closing the door, trudging toward the main house Mar 26 18:54:36 *it’s fairly quiet outside, though the work has already begun in the kitchen. There’s several staff looking like they have sore heads, but several others laughing and gossips Mar 26 18:54:41 gossiping * Mar 26 18:55:31 * Morgan watches them, listening Mar 26 18:56:26 *it’s all about one of the maids kissing one of the footmen for longer than necessary. Mary eventually spots him* Mar 26 18:56:31 * Molly is now known as Mary Mar 26 18:56:47 Good morning, Master Hockridge. Happy New Year Mar 26 18:56:52 * Morgan nods Mar 26 18:56:55 Happy new year Mar 26 18:57:38 No one saw you at midnight Mar 26 18:57:57 No, they wouldn't Mar 26 18:58:40 * Mary nods, making him coffee before going back to her work. Surrounded by people, it’s still oddly lonely Mar 26 18:59:00 * Morgan sighs, drinking his coffee Mar 26 19:00:25 *he isn’t spoken to again, so he goes out for a long patrol. The sun rises as he’s out, and he’s left wondering what Dietlinde would have thought about what he’d done last night, and what HH and Claudia would think Mar 26 19:00:41 * Morgan finds somewhere quiet to sit and brood Mar 26 19:02:28 *He does, on the edge of the woods where he can see both the main house and in the distance the Schoolhouse. What would Heinzharold’s Da, a man he long admired, tell him if he discovered Morgan had been part of an adultery Mar 26 19:03:30 * Morgan hangs his head, berating himself Mar 26 19:05:31 *He does this for quite a while until he starts to feel the rain and it’s fully light. By this point he’s moved on to brooding about her leaving and being hundreds of miles away in just a few days Mar 26 19:05:48 Clearly you're just supposed to die alone Mar 26 19:06:59 *there’s only the caw of a crow in response* Mar 26 19:07:38 * Morgan sighs, tramping off through the grounds Mar 26 19:11:12 *the movement helps, but instead of torturing himself with guilt, he starts to think of her, how she’d said he should take her to bed, how she’d tasted, responded, felt around him. And also how she’d responded to those awful twisted burns, how she’d accepted and caressed him and slept on him there completely welcoming him just as he is Mar 26 19:12:43 * Morgan walks along, absolutely miserable Mar 26 19:15:05 *His day starts to fill up with tasks, but nothing really distracts him from the thought of her. It should be no surprise really, he’d been very obsessed with Dietlinde when she’d been pregnant. When he returns to the kitchen just before lunch, Mary is talking to one of the others Mar 26 19:15:27 It’s a pity, but I hope she’ll be happy Mar 26 19:16:42 *the other maid nods* Me too. We should find out where she’s going, in case he comes back for her Mar 26 19:17:57 He will, won’t he? He wouldn’t just abandon her, he’s much too nice for that Mar 26 19:18:55 * Morgan rolls his eyes Mar 26 19:22:04 Other: Maybe she’ll tell you in a minute when you take lunch down? Mar 26 19:22:46 * Mary nods, collecting up the metal tray “I’ll ask, and I’ll see when she’s going too” Mar 26 19:23:07 I'll take it Mar 26 19:23:25 But I always take it Mar 26 19:24:34 Very well Mar 26 19:25:08 * Mary shrugs “It looks like it might rain though, so if you want to...” Mar 26 19:33:19 * Morgan nods, taking the tray from her Mar 26 19:33:50 thank you. Will -you- ask her plans? Mar 26 19:34:05 * Morgan nods Mar 26 19:34:08 I will Mar 26 19:34:23 * Mary goes to the next task Mar 26 19:35:34 * Morgan takes the tray down to the schoolhouse Mar 26 19:36:33 *he hears her playing on the piano and singing as he gets close. It’s one his mother used to sing, My Bonny Blue-eyed Boy Mar 26 19:37:09 * Morgan sighs, knocking on the door Mar 26 19:37:28 * Mary stops, calling for him to come in Mar 26 19:37:43 * Mary is now known as Molly Mar 26 19:37:47 * Morgan carries the tray in, taking it to her Mar 26 19:37:59 I’m in the study! Mar 26 19:38:42 * Morgan carries it through Mar 26 19:40:07 * Molly is sat at the piano. Everything else is packed up. She looks a lot more relaxed than he’s seen her for a few months, definitely not strained as she had been when she was struggling with the feelings they said a husband would be needed to fix Mar 26 19:40:27 oh! *she smiles * I expected Mary Mar 26 19:41:00 * Morgan nods Mar 26 19:41:12 I volunteered to bring it... she objected until she saw the rainclouds Mar 26 19:41:28 * Molly smiles, closing the piano lid and smiling Mar 26 19:41:53 Then let it rain, torrentially, all afternoon, so it’s too wet for you to go home! Mar 26 19:42:16 * Morgan sighs, putting the tray down Mar 26 19:42:51 * Molly looks concerned, moving closer to gently touch his arm Mar 26 19:42:55 What’s wrong? Mar 26 19:43:02 Just... home... Mar 26 19:43:18 Ahhh... in Eisen? Mar 26 19:43:50 Not sure what counts as home anymore Mar 26 19:43:59 * Molly nods Mar 26 19:44:05 Me either Mar 26 19:45:20 * Morgan nods Mar 26 19:45:41 * Molly squeezes gently. She smells good, and looking rested suits her “Who knows where I’ll end up” Mar 26 19:46:11 I don't know Mar 26 19:46:28 * Molly watches his eyes Mar 26 19:46:53 I toyed with running away, where we could go to escape all these problems, but... Mar 26 19:47:07 But? Mar 26 19:47:46 It’s not possible. He’d look, and there’s a child coming Mar 26 19:48:11 * Morgan nods Mar 26 19:48:13 Maybe Mar 26 19:48:44 And travelling far, hiding, being afraid of being found out... Mar 26 19:49:20 * Morgan nods a little Mar 26 19:49:56 And your family are already looking for you too, aren’t they? Mar 26 19:50:32 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 19:50:34 msybe Mar 26 19:51:13 * Molly sighs “How has your morning been?” Mar 26 19:52:22 Troublesome really Mar 26 19:52:45 what has troubled you so? Mar 26 19:53:15 Thinking about my actions... my friends... you... Mar 26 19:53:47 * Molly nods sadly Mar 26 19:53:59 Are you angry with yourself? Mar 26 19:54:17 Some, yes Mar 26 19:54:24 * Molly nods Mar 26 19:55:06 I should have kept the distance you wished us to have? Mar 26 19:55:30 It would have been... simpler, maybe Mar 26 19:55:59 But then I’d never have had such a beautiful experience as last night Mar 26 19:57:32 * Morgan nods Mar 26 19:58:03 what about your friends? *she smiles a little*You’ve never mentioned friends Mar 26 19:58:25 I abandoned them Mar 26 20:00:45 Why? Mar 26 20:01:12 They would have been grieving too, but I left them to face it alone... face the fallout alone Mar 26 20:01:46 Oh... They knew your wife too? Mar 26 20:01:59 One of them definitely did Mar 26 20:03:14 That’s sad Mar 26 20:03:34 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:03:36 Aye Mar 26 20:04:20 You are missing them more today? Mar 26 20:05:28 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:05:31 Aye Mar 26 20:05:51 * Molly embraces him Mar 26 20:05:57 I’m sorry Mar 26 20:06:17 * Morgan holds her Mar 26 20:06:22 Its alright. Its what I deserve Mar 26 20:06:42 Oh no, love, no it isn’t Mar 26 20:07:14 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 20:07:48 Why would you think that? Mar 26 20:08:34 I abandoned them... they would be horrified at my behaviour Mar 26 20:11:01 You do not think they’d understand the bind we are in? Mar 26 20:11:44 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 20:11:47 Doubt it Mar 26 20:12:09 * Molly squeezes him gently Mar 26 20:13:41 And you were thinking of me? Mar 26 20:14:32 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:15:22 what were you thinking? Mar 26 20:16:00 That I cant have what I want... that I have to let you go Mar 26 20:16:20 * Molly nods Mar 26 20:16:43 I can see no other way, at least for now Mar 26 20:19:02 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 20:22:10 * Molly holds him tighter “how can I make this easier for you?” Mar 26 20:22:30 I just don't know Mar 26 20:23:39 I could leave this afternoon, stay in Tawstock until it’s time to board Mar 26 20:25:35 I'd... rather you didn't, but I understand if you wish to Mar 26 20:26:04 I don’t wish to. I wish to be here, in your arms, and... Mar 26 20:27:13 And? Mar 26 20:28:08 * Molly sighs Mar 26 20:28:20 And in my bed Mar 26 20:28:40 I'm not sure thats wise Mar 26 20:29:29 It’s too risky in the day time, I think Mar 26 20:29:37 Definitely Mar 26 20:30:57 * Molly sighs, speaking softly “There’s so much I’d love to do together, but I’m not sure how we would have the time to” Mar 26 20:31:06 No? Mar 26 20:32:41 * Molly inhales deeply “I’d want to please you like you pleased me” Mar 26 20:32:52 I see Mar 26 20:34:57 * Molly smiles a little against him “That’s a non-commital answer” Mar 26 20:35:07 I know Mar 26 20:36:53 why is that? Mar 26 20:37:18 Because I'm taciturn Mar 26 20:37:38 Don’t make me get s dictionary, dear one... Mar 26 20:39:02 * Morgan closes his eyes briefly Mar 26 20:39:11 Reserved or uncommunicative in speech... Mar 26 20:39:19 * Molly nods Mar 26 20:39:33 I should say no more then Mar 26 20:40:40 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 20:40:44 Doesn't mean you have to be... Mar 26 20:41:06 But what would you -prefer- me to be? Mar 26 20:41:37 You. Just you. Mar 26 20:42:23 Even I don’t really know who I am. Last night, it opened me up to parts of myself I didn’t know Mar 26 20:42:36 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:43:08 What of you? Did you learn anything about yourself? Mar 26 20:43:25 * Morgan sighs Mar 26 20:43:28 yes Mar 26 20:44:13 * Molly sighs sadly “Something other than that you’re capable of making love to a married woman...” Mar 26 20:46:08 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:46:12 Something other than that Mar 26 20:46:23 what did you learn? Mar 26 20:48:28 Nothing that'll make your leaving any easier Mar 26 20:49:50 Please... I’d like to know Mar 26 20:50:10 * Morgan sighs Mar 26 20:50:13 That I cant live without you Mar 26 20:51:13 Oh! Mar 26 20:52:05 I did warn you Mar 26 20:52:18 You’ve surprised me Mar 26 20:53:36 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:55:25 * Molly hugs in tighter, head over the centre of his chest Mar 26 20:55:39 It is much more than sex for you... Mar 26 20:56:40 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:57:41 I didn’t realise Mar 26 20:58:46 * Morgan nods Mar 26 20:58:47 I know Mar 26 21:00:19 Nor did you until this morning? Mar 26 21:00:32 I suppose not Mar 26 21:00:54 I need you to live, Morgan. Mar 26 21:01:45 * Morgan sighs Mar 26 21:01:49 I'm afraid I cant promise that Mar 26 21:03:05 Whilst you’re still alive, there is still hope Mar 26 21:03:49 I don't see how Mar 26 21:05:37 nor do I, but without you there is definitely no hope Mar 26 21:07:27 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 21:08:22 * Molly takes a deep breath, then loosens her grip Mar 26 21:09:21 You won’t want to stay like that Mar 26 21:10:13 Like what Mar 26 21:11:45 With me far away from you, not knowing if the situation may ever change Mar 26 21:12:14 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 21:13:30 * Molly looks at him sadly “I can’t ask that of you when the alternative is peace in heaven with your loved ones” Mar 26 21:15:08 * Morgan frowns Mar 26 21:15:12 I'm not going to heaven Mar 26 21:15:34 Of course you are Mar 26 21:15:48 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 26 21:15:54 I've made my peace with that Mar 26 21:16:04 * Molly frowns Mar 26 21:16:20 Why would you think that? Mar 26 21:18:19 I simply don't deserve to be in paradise Mar 26 21:19:20 Oh Morgan... *she brushes his face gently with her thumb, but it’s her eyes that are filled with tears* Mar 26 21:21:09 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 21:21:11 Its alright Mar 26 21:22:16 It isn’t. it’s not alright at all. * the tears spill over, so she pulls in close, hiding her face against his coat* Mar 26 21:22:30 * Morgan holds her close Mar 26 21:24:15 Don’t leave me, please. Mar 26 21:24:50 Its not me leaving Mar 26 21:25:41 * Molly sobs “I’m sorry... I don’t want to, but...” Mar 26 21:26:32 But you must Mar 26 21:27:53 * Molly nods “I have to, don’t I?” Mar 26 21:28:17 I suspect it'd be best Mar 26 21:29:14 * Molly nods Mar 26 21:29:26 I have to have a child, for one thing Mar 26 21:29:45 Indeed Mar 26 21:31:11 * Molly laughs a little “I wouldn’t want you to see me big as a house and waddling around!” Mar 26 21:32:29 Wouldn't bother me in the slightest Mar 26 21:33:47 You’d still find me attractive? Mar 26 21:35:01 * Morgan nods Mar 26 21:35:03 aye Mar 26 21:37:03 Tonight, may I take you to my bed again? Mar 26 21:37:53 * Morgan nods Mar 26 21:37:54 If you like Mar 26 21:38:53 * Molly looks up at him Mar 26 21:39:00 What would -you- like? Mar 26 21:41:23 Just to be with you Mar 26 21:42:17 * Molly smiles “You’re a romantic at heart...” Mar 26 21:44:11 * Morgan shrugs Mar 26 21:44:13 A little perhaps Mar 26 21:44:34 I am glad I got to see it Mar 26 21:44:43 * Morgan nods Mar 26 21:45:07 what excuse will you give them tonight? Mar 26 21:46:19 I don't give excuses. I don't answer to them. Mar 26 21:47:03 * Molly looks intrigued, smiling “And to me? Would you answer to me?” Mar 26 21:47:55 maybe Mar 26 21:48:57 * Molly watches him a long moment with a little smile before she shrugs slightly and says “I think I’d prefer to be on my knees than have someone on their knees for me anyway” Mar 26 21:49:07 * Morgan blushes Mar 26 21:50:55 * Molly licks her lower lip a moment before sucking it a moment Mar 26 21:52:01 I think perhaps you’d best return to your work now... Mar 26 21:52:35 * Morgan nods Mar 26 21:52:38 Yes, I think so Mar 26 21:53:25 Mmhmm. I am afraid I have quite the weakness where you are concerned, and it is not time for bed yet Mar 26 21:54:44 * Morgan nods Mar 26 21:54:50 Alright... I'll return later... Mar 26 21:55:18 You’ll definitely come? Mar 26 21:55:59 Unless something happens that requires my attention, yes Mar 26 21:56:33 * Molly nods, looking happy. She kisses his cheek “I’ll be counting down the hours” Mar 26 21:57:06 As will I Mar 26 21:57:34 * Molly speaks quietly by his ear “I love you” Mar 26 21:58:01 And I you Mar 26 21:59:09 * Molly kisses his cheek again before letting him go with a smile “Thank you for lunch, though I find I am not very hungry right now” Mar 26 22:04:55 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 26 22:21:23 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client)