**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Mar 21 15:12:49 2026 Mar 21 15:12:49 * Morgan (~madisonst@192.168.1.129) has joined Mar 21 16:48:01 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.101) has joined Mar 21 16:50:32 * Molly smiles “Maybe everyone else doesn’t like that part of me as you seem to” Mar 21 16:50:33 Maybe they're idiots Mar 21 16:50:33 * Molly smiles playfully “Maybe you’re just more able to handle me!” Mar 21 16:50:33 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 16:50:33 Maybe I don't demand people be anything other than themselves Mar 21 16:50:34 * Molly nods, sipping her tea “I want to start another class of students...” Mar 21 16:50:36 You've still got one Mar 21 16:50:38 When Horatio gets home, he will take them back. They’re not -my- students. I am just the schoolmaster’s wife, not the schoolmistress Mar 21 16:50:42 I see... Mar 21 16:50:44 * Molly sighs, watching him frankly Mar 21 16:50:46 I want to teach -girls-, so they can read and write, and then one day teach their own children. The Mother is, after all, the heart of the home Mar 21 16:50:47 * Morgan nods Mar 21 16:50:50 Im/ Mar 21 16:50:52 I imagine you can convince her ladyship to allow it Mar 21 16:50:54 * Molly nods a little “Maybe...” Mar 21 16:50:56 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 16:50:58 She's reasonable Mar 21 16:51:21 * Molly nods “But Horatio isn’t fond of the idea” Mar 21 16:51:47 Why? Mar 21 16:52:52 * Molly sips her tea Mar 21 16:53:26 People won’t approve of it, and because they won’t approve of it, it’ll make it difficult for him to run the school Mar 21 16:54:20 * Morgan rolls his eyes Mar 21 16:57:01 * Molly watches him speculatively “Is that also how it would be in Eisen?” Mar 21 16:58:03 Possibly, not that it'd matter Mar 21 16:58:26 why? Mar 21 17:01:11 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:01:18 I just thought he'd have more backbone Mar 21 17:02:18 * Molly frowns a little “He just wants to be successful here, and as you first warned, being with me does make that a little harder” Mar 21 17:03:05 I don't recall warning any such thing Mar 21 17:05:08 it was in the servant’s dining room. What was it... something about becoming amorously involved with someone of a lower social stature damaging a gentleman Mar 21 17:06:06 Ah... yes... but you are a gentlemans daughter, not a normal maid... Mar 21 17:07:32 * Molly nods slowly Mar 21 17:07:54 You would have said differently, if you’d known that then? Mar 21 17:08:38 possibly Mar 21 17:08:59 * Molly nods even slower, watching him before she looks away to sip her tea Mar 21 17:09:30 Anyway, we’ll see how it progresses. I’ll bring it up again in a few weeks when he comes home Mar 21 17:10:59 * Morgan nods a little Mar 21 17:13:13 * Molly nods again Mar 21 17:13:20 He’s looking for her Mar 21 17:13:56 * Morgan nods Mar 21 17:14:02 Surprised he came back really Mar 21 17:14:14 * Molly smiles slightly Mar 21 17:14:35 So am I, really. I really thought I’d end up married to Curtis Mar 21 17:15:37 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:15:56 Maybe, though discovery of his finances and the views of his parents... I wasn't inclined to let that happen Mar 21 17:16:10 * Molly smiles softly Mar 21 17:16:27 You’ve always had my best interest at heart Mar 21 17:17:39 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:17:40 I suppose Mar 21 17:18:13 I never thought I’d have suitors to choose from though! Mar 21 17:19:57 * Morgan nods a little, sipping his tea Mar 21 17:20:10 * Molly tilts her head Mar 21 17:20:19 Have I misstepped somehow? Mar 21 17:21:03 no Mar 21 17:21:51 You are quiet. Oh, am I keeping you from your work? I wouldn’t want to get you into trouble Mar 21 17:22:00 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:22:06 Like I'm bothered about being trouble Mar 21 17:22:51 * Molly giggles “Very true” Mar 21 17:23:33 Besides, I'm doing what I was told to Mar 21 17:23:48 You were told to have tea with me? Mar 21 17:25:28 I was told to come and check on you. Lady Torrington was concerned you'd be finding it difficult being home alone for the first time Mar 21 17:25:41 * Molly shakes her head with a smile Mar 21 17:26:00 I’m not, actually. For the most part, I relish it Mar 21 17:27:40 Why? Mar 21 17:27:47 * Molly smiles Mar 21 17:28:30 I am not interrupted. I read, and sew, and clean, and sit beneath the stars, and I am just myself. Nothing to no one, you know? Mar 21 17:29:12 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:29:21 Aside from the odd ten minutes here and there I don't have that Mar 21 17:29:51 You should. If you ever with to just sit quietly beneath the stars and -be-, you can join me Mar 21 17:29:57 wish* Mar 21 17:30:48 Thank you but no Mar 21 17:31:25 * Molly looks briefly hurt, but covers it “Of course. That’s hardly really being alone” Mar 21 17:33:48 It would not be appropriate Mar 21 17:33:55 * Morgan looks down at his cup, taking a mouthful Mar 21 17:34:13 Oh... are we not friends any longer? Mar 21 17:35:55 It doesn't matter... it doesn't look good, a young woman being called on after dark while her husband is away Mar 21 17:36:38 Oh, I suppose so. I was going to invite you for dinner, but I suppose you cannot do that either? Mar 21 17:37:53 Not really, no Mar 21 17:38:30 * Molly nods “I see. Well, I couldn’t really have offered you much, I am trying to be frugal, you see?” Mar 21 17:39:21 Oh? I could have some food sent down to you if needed Mar 21 17:39:44 * Molly shakes her head Mar 21 17:40:06 No, thank you Mar 21 17:41:03 You are saving for something... Mar 21 17:41:38 * Molly nods, smiling Mar 21 17:41:42 I am, yes Mar 21 17:41:50 Alright Mar 21 17:41:58 I want a piano Mar 21 17:42:04 Why? Mar 21 17:42:10 * Molly blinks Mar 21 17:42:19 To play music on Mar 21 17:43:20 * Morgan nods Mar 21 17:43:22 Of course Mar 21 17:44:02 * Molly sips her tea Mar 21 17:44:15 I used to play, before I was ill Mar 21 17:45:21 And you wish to start again Mar 21 17:45:29 * Molly nods eagerly Mar 21 17:45:51 And then I want to play the organ at the Chapel in Lower Tawstock Mar 21 17:46:51 * Morgan nods Mar 21 17:46:55 I'm sure they'd appreciate that Mar 21 17:47:14 * Molly smiles wryly “Maybe, when they start judging me less” Mar 21 17:49:09 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:49:10 Perhaps Mar 21 17:49:17 Do you play? Mar 21 17:49:30 Piano? No, I had no aptitude for it Mar 21 17:49:56 * Molly smiles “Something else then?” Mar 21 17:50:38 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:50:40 I used to Mar 21 17:50:50 what did you play? Mar 21 17:51:22 I had a guitar Mar 21 17:51:40 * Molly looks surprised “I’ve never seen you with one!” Mar 21 17:52:10 I know Mar 21 17:52:59 But now you don’t have one... Mar 21 17:53:40 Part of a life left behind Mar 21 17:54:34 * Molly watches him Mar 21 17:54:40 That’s sad Mar 21 17:55:43 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:55:46 It is what it is Mar 21 17:56:48 * Molly nods a little “Will you come for tea again?” Mar 21 17:57:22 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 17:57:26 Perhaps Mar 21 17:58:32 * Molly frowns a little again “If you do not wish to, just say so.” Mar 21 17:59:14 Very well. I do not wish to. Mar 21 18:00:32 * Molly nods “Alright then. If you would please convey to Lady Torrington that I am well and do not need to be checked upon, but that I know I can turn to her should that change, I would appreciate it” Mar 21 18:01:02 * Morgan nods, putting down the cup Mar 21 18:01:04 I'll do that Mar 21 18:01:09 * Morgan stands up Mar 21 18:01:43 * Molly gets up, opening the door for him. It means he’ll have to pass closely to leave Mar 21 18:02:05 * Morgan inclines his head, moving past her Mar 21 18:03:08 *Still the scent of her captures him in the way a scent only had once before, the one Dietlinde had had when she was pregnant* Mar 21 18:03:18 * Molly says sadly “Goodbye, Morgan” Mar 21 18:03:30 Farewell Mrs Black Mar 21 18:03:36 * Morgan moves away from the door Mar 21 18:04:12 * Molly looks at the floor a long moment before she shuts it Mar 21 18:04:53 * Morgan heads back towards the main house slowly Mar 21 18:05:52 *He notices when he gets there that none of the servants look delighted to see him as she had, most look wary of harsh words or even catching his attention too much* Mar 21 18:07:22 * Morgan ignores them, going to get some ale before going outside toward the stables Mar 21 18:09:05 *There are horses here, but none are his big grey one who had been a steadfast friend. He’d left him behind, just like he’d left all his other friends behind, and like he’d now pushed away a friend here who had still cared about his well-being Mar 21 18:10:13 * Morgan scowls at the horses Mar 21 18:12:10 *they don’t seem to care much about him. He broods for quite some time, but he can’t escape the duties he has which eventually lead him to the dining table that evening, just him and Catherine. She waits til they’re eating before saying Mar 21 18:12:14 * Molly is now known as Catherine Mar 21 18:12:18 How was Molly? Mar 21 18:12:42 She's fine. She says she's well and doesn't need to be checked upon but knows she can turn to you if that changes Mar 21 18:12:54 * Catherine frowns Mar 21 18:13:02 That doesn’t seem right, does it? Mar 21 18:13:13 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 18:14:03 I suppose it’s only a couple of weeks. We’ll check on her again in a few days Mar 21 18:14:22 She made her wishes quite clear Mar 21 18:15:17 Yes well, I am a Lady, and that is what I want Mar 21 18:16:27 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 18:17:35 I thought you were friendly? Mar 21 18:17:54 So did I Mar 21 18:18:12 What’s happened then? Why are you being so hostile? Mar 21 18:18:35 I'm not. I did what you asked, I've conveyed the message she requested. Mar 21 18:19:10 I would check on -me- friends. Mar 21 18:19:13 my* Mar 21 18:19:46 Is there a part of her message you do not understand? It sounded fairly clear to me. Mar 21 18:20:22 I understand it, I just would still check. That’s what friends do Mar 21 18:21:23 So you'd... no, never mind, it doesn't matter. I'll do what I'm told, as always Mar 21 18:22:38 * Catherine nods at this. She doesn’t mention it at all for the rest of dinner. When he patrols in the dark, he sees a dim light from one of the bedrooms in the school house, but nothing more Mar 21 18:23:00 * Morgan carries on his patrol Mar 21 18:27:41 *he gets to bed at his usual hour, braced for that familiar nightmare. But he doesn’t dream it. Instead he dreams of a sunlit bedroom decorated in pink, and Molly there too, also in pink. The lace negligee is a darker colour and splits up the front, and she parts it to reveal a small bump completely with a light tan line up to her navel. Mar 21 18:27:46 He feels relieved that she’s home at last, and desirous, and contented. But all too soon he awakens within the dream, and those feelings fade. But he is left with a lingering ache in his groin he hasn’t felt for years, and that awful nightmare has stayed away Mar 21 18:28:57 * Morgan stretches, getting out of bed and dressing before patrolling the house Mar 21 18:39:24 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 21 18:42:32 * Morgan (~madisonst@192.168.1.129) has joined Mar 21 18:53:44 *Catherine doesn’t ask him to go again until a full week has passed. He’s only dreamt of Molly once since, of being sat by a lake on a starry sunset, and being playful, sticking out his tongue and her looking both delighted and surprised. The morning Catherine asks him is also a Thursday, and there will probably be children at the school Mar 21 18:56:13 My lady she doesn't want me to go Mar 21 18:56:26 Does she employ you? Mar 21 18:58:08 She doesn't want you sending me there Mar 21 18:58:29 I told Mr Black I would keep an eye on her Mar 21 19:02:53 And you did that Mar 21 19:04:05 * Catherine looks at him “What is wrong with you? You push back over things now and then, but they’re usually big and dangerous things, this just seems petty” Mar 21 19:04:52 * Morgan sighs Mar 21 19:04:58 Fine, I'll do what her ladyship requires Mar 21 19:05:12 Thank you Mar 21 19:06:08 * Morgan nods, walking away Mar 21 19:07:14 *He arrives to a quiet house, the schoolroom door open* Mar 21 19:07:24 * Morgan sighs, knocking on the door Mar 21 19:07:50 *He hears a thud, then a muffled* Come in! Mar 21 19:07:55 * Catherine is now known as Molly Mar 21 19:08:25 * Morgan cracks his neck before moving inside Mar 21 19:09:52 *the schoolroom itself is empty, but he finds her in the kitchen, pinching the bridge of her nose, which is bleeding. Her brow is furrowed with pain, and one of the dresser doors is open at the right height to have been the cause of the injury Mar 21 19:10:17 Are you alright? Mar 21 19:10:47 * Molly shakes her head a little “Walked into... the door” Mar 21 19:12:02 So I see. Come on, sit down Mar 21 19:12:10 * Morgan moves to find a towel Mar 21 19:12:37 * Molly does take a seat. He finds one in the dresser drawer Mar 21 19:12:49 * Morgan brings it to her Mar 21 19:17:58 *She still smells so good. She thanks him, pressing it to her nose* Mar 21 19:19:31 * Morgan backs up, watching her Mar 21 19:21:12 * Molly keeps working at cleaning it up. Something niggles in the back of his brain, just quietly, about a bloodied nose or a split lip being a turn on for some Mar 21 19:21:44 * Morgan frowns Mar 21 19:22:18 * Molly spots the frown “I’ll be fine, it’s not broken” Mar 21 19:23:28 * Morgan nods Mar 21 19:23:35 What do you need? Mar 21 19:24:00 a little bowl of water, please Mar 21 19:24:29 * Morgan nods, moving to fetch one Mar 21 19:24:46 *it’s easily found* Mar 21 19:25:55 * Morgan brings it to her Mar 21 19:26:26 * Molly thanks him. She tries to clean up, but she’s missing bits Mar 21 19:27:21 * Morgan sighs Mar 21 19:27:26 Let me help you Mar 21 19:27:36 * Molly nods Mar 21 19:27:57 thank you Mar 21 19:28:20 * Morgan moves to her, taking the towel and helping her clean up Mar 21 19:29:55 * Molly watches him as he does. There’s some on her upper lip, and then her lower, and even with the fabric between them his fingertips register their warmth and softness Mar 21 19:30:15 * Morgan works gently Mar 21 19:31:44 * Molly sighs a little, and they part a fraction. Between that and the scent of her, his treacherous body goes to war with his principled brain Mar 21 19:32:01 * Morgan tries to concentrate Mar 21 19:32:45 * Molly catches his hand just before he’s finished, and she says “why do you hate me now?” Mar 21 19:33:44 * Morgan pulls his hand away Mar 21 19:33:47 I don't hate you Mar 21 19:34:06 You behaved like you do Mar 21 19:34:55 No, I behaved like I didn't want to be around you. That is not the same Mar 21 19:35:06 * Molly watches him Mar 21 19:36:01 Yes it is. We don’t not want to be around people we like. I’ve wracked my brain over it... Well, after I sulked and pouted for two days, at least Mar 21 19:40:09 You're wrong Mar 21 19:42:07 * Molly studies his face “Then please, explain it to me, because I would fix it if I could. We were confidantes before...” Mar 21 19:42:19 You cant fix it Mar 21 19:42:49 But what did I -do-?! I never betrayed you Mar 21 19:43:38 * Morgan watches her Mar 21 19:44:27 * Molly looks so earnest, and so sad Mar 21 19:44:52 I had feelings for you. After Carleon, I thought... it doesn't matter, because as soon as Mr Black reappeared, I was not even an afterthought except to provide what you wanted in your ceremony. You are lost to me and I would save myself the pain of being around you, but it seems Lady Torrington is determined to make me suffer Mar 21 19:45:28 ((Ignore that)) Mar 21 19:46:04 I had feelings for you. I thought... it doesn't matter, because as soon as Mr Black reappeared, I was not even an afterthought except to provide what you wanted in your ceremony. You are lost to me and I would save myself the pain of being around you, but it seems Lady Torrington is determined to make me suffer Mar 21 19:46:21 * Molly looks surprised Mar 21 19:46:30 Oh my god, I am so sorry Mar 21 19:46:58 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 19:47:01 It doesn't matter Mar 21 19:47:31 It does matter... oh dear. Mar 21 19:48:20 No, it doesn't Mar 21 19:48:31 * Molly chews her lower lip Mar 21 19:49:45 What you said, when you were ending it with Evie... You said no one could ever take your wife’s place, that your affections for anyone would only extend as far as a hug, or a mere kiss... Mar 21 19:50:38 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 19:51:08 I thought you knew, and that you were warning me to stay away... Mar 21 19:52:21 No. I didn't know I even could feel more but... I did, then... it was gone. Mar 21 19:52:51 Oh... *she watches his expression* Mar 21 19:54:41 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 19:56:05 * Molly puts her face in her hands “I had feelings for you months ago, before I even -met- Curtis...” Mar 21 19:56:18 Don't... Mar 21 19:56:30 don’t what? Mar 21 19:57:28 Don't show me what I could've had... its... unfair at best Mar 21 19:58:05 * Molly uncovers her face, looking at him “You don’t see that you’ve just shown me the same?” Mar 21 19:58:33 -you- wouldn't stop asking. -you- wanted to know. Mar 21 19:59:17 I did. I just had no idea that you could look at me and see something worth wanting Mar 21 19:59:43 Thats irrelevant now Mar 21 20:00:00 to you, maybe Mar 21 20:01:04 No, entirely. You are happy, you are married, you have a future Mar 21 20:02:19 * Molly watches him a long moment. It’s hard to predict from her expression what she’ll say next, and then she eventually says “What should I say to that that would give you the most peace?” Mar 21 20:02:39 There is no peace for me Mar 21 20:02:54 Why? Mar 21 20:03:57 If there was meant to be any peace for me, I'd have had it by now. I am destined to be miserable until the day I die Mar 21 20:04:53 * Molly looks sad, and before she’s even realised she’s going to she puts a tender hand on his cheek “Oh, Morgan...” Mar 21 20:05:58 * Morgan backs away a little Mar 21 20:06:43 * Molly looks at her hand a moment before she says “Ohhh...” Mar 21 20:07:42 I'm sorry. I cant. Mar 21 20:08:02 * Molly nods solemnly “I know.” Mar 21 20:12:10 * Morgan nods a little Mar 21 20:13:17 * Molly blinks back tears “I... I think you should probably go...” Mar 21 20:13:46 * Morgan nods, moving toward the door Mar 21 20:13:56 I'll tell her ladyship you wish someone else to come next time Mar 21 20:14:07 You’d lie to her? Mar 21 20:14:52 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 20:15:27 * Molly nods “Thank you for helping me” Mar 21 20:15:42 * Morgan nods Mar 21 20:15:43 Of course Mar 21 20:15:56 Take care of yourself, please. Mar 21 20:16:29 * Morgan nods Mar 21 20:16:32 I'll do what I can Mar 21 20:16:59 * Molly nods “And I’ll keep an eye out for open doors” She gives a half-hearted smile Mar 21 20:17:26 That would be wise Mar 21 20:17:58 * Molly nods. She lets him leave without interruption Mar 21 20:18:22 * Morgan heads back to the house Mar 21 20:18:32 * Molly is now known as Catherine Mar 21 20:18:54 * Catherine is in the dining room when he passes through, and she looks to be waiting for him Mar 21 20:18:58 Well? Mar 21 20:20:10 She's managed to walk into a door, given her a nosebleed. Aside from that, she's fine. If you intend to check on her again, someone else needs to go Mar 21 20:20:20 why? Mar 21 20:22:07 That is her wish Mar 21 20:22:14 * Catherine shrugs Mar 21 20:22:33 Fine. Horatio should be back this week, so it shouldn’t matter anymore Mar 21 20:22:49 If he bothers to turn up on time Mar 21 20:23:09 He’s not very reliable, is he? Mar 21 20:23:54 No Mar 21 20:24:28 I wouldn’t want to have a child with someone who wasn’t there so much! Mar 21 20:25:10 Yes, well, thats whats happening Mar 21 20:25:22 * Catherine frowns Mar 21 20:25:36 What?! She’s having a baby already?! Mar 21 20:26:40 I believe so Mar 21 20:27:06 * Catherine smiles “That’s great news, isn’t it?!” Mar 21 20:29:05 Wonderful with him being absent Mar 21 20:29:21 He’ll surely be back soon if he knows Mar 21 20:29:51 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 20:30:11 Buggered off without a mention of his undying love for her though, didn't he Mar 21 20:30:21 * Catherine smiles Mar 21 20:30:33 I never thought you the romantic type! Mar 21 20:30:57 I'm not Mar 21 20:31:32 I’ll send someone else to check on her in a few days. She shouldn’t be completely isolated in her condition Mar 21 20:32:29 I'm not sure she knows Mar 21 20:32:41 How can you know if she doesn’t?! Mar 21 20:33:17 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 20:33:21 I'm good at what I do Mar 21 20:33:47 * Catherine nods “we’ll keep it quiet until they make the big announcement then” Mar 21 20:34:14 * Morgan nods Mar 21 20:34:19 That'd be best Mar 21 20:36:29 * Catherine nods, leaving him to his duties. That night he dreams of telling his parents and Molly’s the happy news of them having a surprise baby, but in the two weeks that follows he doesn’t dream of her at all. He overhears the gossip that she’s okay and has her own piano but that her husband hasn’t returned yet, but it’s four weeks since he last saw her before he hears that piano on his patrol Mar 21 20:36:57 *The tune is beautiful, and something he’s never heard before, but full of sorrow* Mar 21 20:37:40 * Morgan watches toward the building but not going toward it Mar 21 20:38:20 *There’s no sign of children, despite it being the time they’d be due to arrive for their schooling* Mar 21 20:39:48 * Morgan looks around Mar 21 20:42:42 *the school house looks emptier now the weather at the end of November has stolen the flowers. There’s even fewer a fortnight later when he hears the music again. It’s gotten more intricate, more sad. He can almost hear singing, though there’s a background sound of the chapel across the valley doing a bell practice for the upcoming Prophet’s Mass service. There’s still no sign of Horatio. He’s been absent two and a half months now Mar 21 20:44:14 * Morgan glares at the sky for a moment before moving toward the schoolhouse Mar 21 20:45:49 *he can hear the tune start over as he approaches, and then the first words of the song. He’s never heard her sing before. It starts with “How could he know this new dawn’s light would change his life forever?” Mar 21 20:46:34 * Morgan frowns Mar 21 20:47:42 *she starts over, changing a couple of notes on the piano, repeating the words* Mar 21 20:48:20 * Morgan carries on moving slowly Mar 21 20:49:41 *she does that aga8n before adding in the next bit “Set sail to sea but pulled off course, by the light of golden treasure...” Mar 21 20:50:41 * Morgan goes to knock on the door Mar 21 20:51:09 *The music suddenly stops. He notices the windows are open despite the cold outside Mar 21 20:51:55 * Catherine is now known as Molly Mar 21 20:53:01 * Molly opens the door. She’s in a very simple gown, but it looks loose, and she seems to have lost weight. She’s barefoot, her hair is carelessly pinned up Mar 21 20:53:28 * Morgan looks serious Mar 21 20:53:30 Whats happened? Mar 21 20:53:53 * Molly shrugs “I’m with child, and it’s awful.” Mar 21 20:54:13 Why? Mar 21 20:54:44 Because it feels like my skin is on fire and everything aches Mar 21 20:55:21 * Morgan frowns Mar 21 20:55:23 Thats not normal Mar 21 20:56:18 The midwives say it’ll be fine once my husband comes home, so until then I busy myself with my piano and hope not to lose my mind. Will you come in? Mar 21 20:56:46 If you wish... Mar 21 20:57:13 * Molly nods, letting him in. the school room looks tidy but unused Mar 21 20:57:48 You are not teaching Mar 21 20:58:07 * Molly shakes her head, going through to the kitchen Mar 21 20:58:34 I do not have the patience for it. I am awful company, everyone says so Mar 21 20:58:36 Why? Mar 21 21:00:24 I cannot concentrate. I feel constantly unsettled and ill-at-ease in my body. It’s the strain of my husband’s absence they say, but I don’t think it is. I think it’s being pregnant. Mar 21 21:01:29 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 21:01:34 No word from him? Mar 21 21:02:19 I had a letter three weeks ago. He expects it’ll be some time in January *she puts the kettle on a little stove that she didn’t have before* Mar 21 21:02:37 Selfish Mar 21 21:03:08 * Molly doesn’t jump to his defence, just shrugging Mar 21 21:05:08 He’ll arrive when suits, no doubt Mar 21 21:05:15 As usual Mar 21 21:06:24 * Molly nods a little, then stretches her lower back. There’s nothing to see yet in her shape, but based on when he smelled it first and when she wed, she must be around three months along now Mar 21 21:06:46 He doesn’t know. Mar 21 21:09:08 Well, I wouldn't imagine so Mar 21 21:09:47 I could have tried to tell him, but it doesn’t feel very joyful right now, it feels like torture Mar 21 21:09:59 *she starts making the tea* Mar 21 21:10:20 Sounds like it Mar 21 21:12:30 * Molly nods “I don’t understand how any woman does it more than once! Nothing is comfortable. If I sit too long, the pressure and the aching makes me wish to tear out my hair, but if I walk around I get the oddest little zaps of sensation through my lower body. If I lie down I am not distracted enough, and I can’t escape the warm prickliness of my skin! Mar 21 21:13:55 * Morgan nods Mar 21 21:13:58 Sounds like torture Mar 21 21:15:52 * Molly nods “It is. I feel guilty saying that, but I hate being pregnant. I feel like I am always wound tight like a metal coil, and I’ve tried avoiding hot baths and hot drinks, I keep the house cold and have no sheets or blankets when I sleep, but nothing is getting rid of the problems Mar 21 21:16:18 Strange Mar 21 21:16:40 * Molly nods, pouring the tea into the cups Mar 21 21:17:47 I don’t understand how having Horatio home will help. I still read as we used to in the evenings, and I do keep busy. I am alone, but even in company that won’t change my body, will it? Mar 21 21:18:48 I suspect its something to do with attention a husband could provide... Mar 21 21:19:20 * Molly hands him. The tea doesn’t really mask the scent, but it does reduce it a little Mar 21 21:20:07 Horatio doesn’t pay me that much mind really. We do play chess sometimes, or we talked about what we’ve read together, but he does like a lot of time to study by himself Mar 21 21:21:09 * Morgan rolls his eyes Mar 21 21:22:28 * Molly frowns “There’s nothing wrong with chess and reading!” Mar 21 21:23:34 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 21:24:46 * Molly adds some cold water to the small amount of tea in her cup Mar 21 21:25:27 But if he spent more time talking to me, rather than reading or studying, do -you- think that would help? Mar 21 21:26:24 More like... if he spent time doing what he did to get you in -that- state... it'd help. Mar 21 21:26:40 * Molly looks surprised Mar 21 21:27:10 You mean... intimately? Mar 21 21:28:44 * Morgan nods Mar 21 21:29:37 oh... *she sits, leaving him the seat at the head of the table* Mar 21 21:30:14 * Morgan moves to a different seat Mar 21 21:30:49 I don’t think that will work Mar 21 21:31:18 Not if he's not here, no Mar 21 21:33:11 No, I mean... *she blushes a little* It was only three or four times before he went, but it always ended with me feeling more pressure that took hours to fade away Mar 21 21:33:46 So he's as useless in those areas as he is as an attentive husband then Mar 21 21:34:07 Useless at what? I -am- pregnant, isn’t that the point of it? Mar 21 21:34:21 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 21:35:15 It wasn’t as bad as my mother said it would be, but it wasn’t anything like the novels I’ve read hint at Mar 21 21:37:07 Maybe its an Avalon thing... Mar 21 21:37:55 * Molly frowns “I don’t enjoy it as much as I would if I wasn’t Avalonian?” Mar 21 21:38:19 I suspect its more that avalonian men aren't any good at not being selfish in the bedroom Mar 21 21:39:04 He’s not unkind. He tells me I’m beautiful, and he isn’t rough at all Mar 21 21:39:39 * Morgan rolls his eyes Mar 21 21:40:20 * Molly watches him “Speak plainly, is that a sign he doesn’t really like me?” Mar 21 21:40:51 No, its a sign he's useless in bed, or selfish Mar 21 21:41:15 * Molly sighs “So What should he be doing better?” Mar 21 21:42:27 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 21:42:30 Not for me to say really Mar 21 21:43:21 * Molly tilts her head back, sighing “I am doomed to feel this way until the child comes!” Mar 21 21:43:51 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 21:44:01 Maybe one of the girls in the house could give you some advice... Mar 21 21:44:24 None of them will have been pregnant Mar 21 21:44:47 No, but I imagine most of them will know what you need to know Mar 21 21:45:01 * Molly looks frustrated Mar 21 21:45:18 why will you not tell me, if -you- know?! Mar 21 21:46:23 Because its not something a man should talk about to another mans wife Mar 21 21:47:20 Then perhaps the other man should actually be home to ever see his wife, instead of chasing after something that cannot be found! Mar 21 21:47:54 * Molly looks ashamed of herself then, speaking quietly “I shouldn’t have said that.” Mar 21 21:47:59 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 21:48:07 You're not wrong... not that I think he'd be any use were he here Mar 21 21:48:40 But you could tell him, if you cannot tell me? Mar 21 21:49:09 No man would want to hear that he is no satisfying his wife Mar 21 21:50:24 So the poor wife must just suffer for her husband’s ego? Mar 21 21:50:46 Seems to be the way of it here Mar 21 21:50:57 * Molly sighs heavily Mar 21 21:51:14 This must be why women have affairs. Mar 21 21:53:02 It would't surprise me Mar 21 21:53:35 * Molly nods, sipping her tea. She fidgets a little “What made you come?” Mar 21 21:53:59 It seemed odd, windows open on a cold day, the sad music... Mar 21 21:54:08 * Molly nods Mar 21 21:55:15 It is odd, I suppose. People do not seem to dislike pregnancy so much. Still, I am playing, and for the most part I enjoy it Mar 21 21:56:11 * Morgan nods Mar 21 21:56:42 I am writing a song Mar 21 21:57:11 I figured... Mar 21 21:57:24 it is early days Mar 21 21:58:40 It takes time Mar 21 21:59:25 * Molly nods, shifting her weight to the other side Mar 21 21:59:32 have you written songs before? Mar 21 22:01:14 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 22:02:00 * Molly sighs, standing up Mar 21 22:02:23 This is the first, but I’ll write more, when it’s done Mar 21 22:03:49 * Morgan nods Mar 21 22:03:54 You should... its good Mar 21 22:05:11 * Molly blushes Mar 21 22:05:16 Thank you. Mar 21 22:06:25 * Morgan nods, sipping his tea Mar 21 22:06:51 How have -you- been? Mar 21 22:06:58 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 22:07:00 I'm still alive Mar 21 22:07:09 That is good Mar 21 22:07:15 * Morgan shrugs Mar 21 22:07:53 It is to me. You may not wish to see me, but I would still grieve for you Mar 21 22:11:03 You'd be alone in that I expect Mar 21 22:11:25 I’d shed more tears than a hundred mourners comb8ned. Mar 21 22:11:36 I'm not worth that much Mar 21 22:11:45 That’s not for you to decide Mar 21 22:12:50 I suppose not Mar 21 22:12:59 * Molly nods Mar 21 22:13:14 You should know... Mar 21 22:13:57 * Morgan watches her Mar 21 22:14:18 Lady Torrington invited my to Prophet’s Mass dinner Mar 21 22:15:14 Sounds about right for her Mar 21 22:16:26 I’ve said no Mar 21 22:17:40 Bet she liked that Mar 21 22:19:34 * Molly smiles, moving to lean against the dresser Mar 21 22:19:56 Well, what I said was No thank you, I’m to have dinner at my Parent’s House Mar 21 22:23:39 * Morgan nods Mar 21 22:24:04 And they think I’m doing it with friends I worked with Mar 21 22:24:22 I see Mar 21 22:24:30 You shouldn't be alone on prophets mass Mar 21 22:24:39 I’m not good company, Morgan Mar 21 22:25:26 Nor am I but thats never mattered to her Mar 21 22:25:35 * Molly nods Mar 21 22:25:55 But you can sit in one place without feeling like you’ll explode any moment Mar 21 22:26:05 * Morgan nods Mar 21 22:26:19 I'll talk to the staff, see if someone can give you some advice Mar 21 22:26:31 * Molly shrugs Mar 21 22:27:00 I don’t believe anything can help me for the next few months Mar 21 22:27:55 You're wrong Mar 21 22:28:04 I am resigned Mar 21 22:28:55 Alright, I won't bother then Mar 21 22:29:25 * Molly smiles slightly “I warned you... I am more argumentative than normal” Mar 21 22:29:46 No, you're not argumentative, you're just being difficult, but I'm not going to try to convince you Mar 21 22:29:59 * Molly nods Mar 21 22:30:15 I’ve said no to the New Year’s Eve party too Mar 21 22:31:06 Thats your choice Mar 21 22:31:40 it would be too tragic, wouldn’t it? Married in the autumn, and not even getting kissed at midnight! Mar 21 22:32:19 I suppose so Mar 21 22:32:55 * Molly smiles faintly “Not That I’ve ever been kissed at midnight before anyway!” Mar 21 22:33:24 I suppose the timings haven't been right Mar 21 22:34:30 No, I just... I haven’t ever kissed anyone properly, like other couples do Mar 21 22:35:19 But... you're married... Mar 21 22:35:37 * Molly nods slightly “I recall” Mar 21 22:36:33 So he did his duty but didn't kiss you?! Mar 21 22:37:21 He did, but like... *she kisses the back of her hand, her lips together, like one would a relation* Mar 21 22:38:06 Oh for crying out loud. If he returns I'll beat the daylights out of him Mar 21 22:38:15 * Molly giggles Mar 21 22:38:53 That won’t make him want it! He says he doesn’t see the appeal Mar 21 22:39:03 He's a moron Mar 21 22:39:19 * Molly smiles, looking more relaxed Mar 21 22:39:48 But that’s how you’d kiss, in the Montaigne fashion? Mar 21 22:40:19 Don't even know what the Montaigne fashion is... I've no time for their nonsense Mar 21 22:40:42 that’s the one with mouths open and tongues touching Mar 21 22:41:37 Oh. Yes. Mar 21 22:41:53 * Molly nods slowly, looking thoughtful Mar 21 22:43:05 interesting... Mar 21 22:45:00 Is it? Mar 21 22:45:07 mmhmm. Mar 21 22:46:00 * Morgan shrugs, sipping his tea Mar 21 22:48:09 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 21 23:33:08 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client)