**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Jul 17 17:17:34 2025 Jul 17 17:17:34 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.101) has joined Jul 17 17:18:01 If I had a wife like yours, I wouldn’t be out of bed this early. Jul 17 17:18:01 Ah... but you don't. Jul 17 17:18:01 Not yet. It’s customary to wait until an heir and a spare have been produced... Jul 17 17:18:01 * Morgan watches him levelly Jul 17 17:18:01 It must be upsetting, encountering someone not in the least intimidated by you Jul 17 17:18:04 * Karsten laughs “No, I’ve met many such fools” Jul 17 17:18:06 Think what you like, your opinion matters little Jul 17 17:18:08 Sudlachenburg needs Gottkirchen as an ally. Don’t go ruining your homeland’s reputation because you’re Cuntstruck, again. Jul 17 17:18:10 * Morgan laughs hard Jul 17 17:18:12 Oh dear lord, you're an idiot. Jul 17 17:19:33 * Molly is now known as Karsten Jul 17 17:19:59 At least this one is gentry, even if she is secondhand. Jul 17 17:20:24 * Morgan nods a little Jul 17 17:20:32 Wouldn't want there to be any claims to lands in the future... Jul 17 17:21:19 * Karsten nods “Keep Sudlachenburg Koertig, for as long as you can, at least” Jul 17 17:21:30 * Morgan smiles Jul 17 17:21:39 I wasn't talking about Sudlachenburg Jul 17 17:22:35 what are you wittering about? have you failed to perform and are wandering the halls in disgrace? Jul 17 17:23:14 * Morgan grins Jul 17 17:23:49 I'll leave you to ponder, I have things to be doing... Jul 17 17:24:53 * Karsten nods “Good morning, -Veisgraf-“ Jul 17 17:26:02 * Morgan just walks away Jul 17 17:27:04 *he bumps into Claudia heading towards the kitchen* Jul 17 17:27:11 morning Jul 17 17:30:31 * Karsten is now known as Claudia Jul 17 17:30:33 hey Jul 17 17:30:43 You alright? Jul 17 17:30:52 * Claudia nods Jul 17 17:30:59 bad night, you? Jul 17 17:31:36 aye Jul 17 17:32:26 coffee? Jul 17 17:32:48 Please... I need to wash the taste of speaking to an asshole out of my mouth Jul 17 17:33:21 * Claudia nods. They get coffee and go to sit in the library Jul 17 17:33:31 which asshole? Jul 17 17:34:58 A particular Graf Jul 17 17:35:14 * Claudia sips her coffee Jul 17 17:35:18 prick. Jul 17 17:36:23 * Morgan nods Jul 17 17:36:25 totally Jul 17 17:36:44 he shouldn’t be a parent Jul 17 17:37:03 No, he shouldn't Jul 17 17:37:37 if we were at war, we could do that kid a favour... Jul 17 17:38:26 The thought crossed my mind... Jul 17 17:38:34 * Claudia nods Jul 17 17:38:39 Maybe he could go for a swim... Jul 17 17:38:44 * Claudia smiles Jul 17 17:38:49 A forever swim. Jul 17 17:40:09 * Morgan nods a little Jul 17 17:42:52 * Claudia shrugs Jul 17 17:43:18 couldn’t have been us, we were sat in the library drinking coffee and catching up Jul 17 17:43:38 I distinctly remember doing that Jul 17 17:45:13 * Claudia nods “same” Jul 17 17:47:06 * Morgan sighs Jul 17 17:47:25 I should've killed him when I had chance Jul 17 17:48:07 * Claudia nods Jul 17 17:48:32 How long is he staying? Hunting accident sounds good Jul 17 17:48:53 * Morgan shrugs Jul 17 17:49:01 He talks to me like that again he won't eb staying any longer... Jul 17 17:51:44 what did he say? Jul 17 17:52:05 It wouldn't be gentlemanly of me to say Jul 17 17:52:48 * Claudia nods Jul 17 17:53:04 wait and see then Jul 17 17:53:47 * Morgan nods Jul 17 17:53:51 yeah Jul 17 17:55:48 what ruined your night? Jul 17 17:55:56 Weird dreams Jul 17 17:58:06 * Claudia nods Jul 17 17:58:30 I get nightmares. They’re better than they used to be, but that’s still really bad Jul 17 17:59:01 * Morgan nods Jul 17 17:59:05 I have since the fire Jul 17 18:01:57 Ofthe fire? Jul 17 18:02:24 Mostly, yeah Jul 17 18:02:34 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:03:05 Mine’s... I feel bad for not telling you before... but during the War I was raped. A lot. Jul 17 18:03:44 * Morgan frowns Jul 17 18:03:53 Jesus... I... I don't know what to say Jul 17 18:05:06 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:05:22 Yeah, I know. Heinzharold and DeeDee were the same Jul 17 18:05:33 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:05:35 I'm not surprised Jul 17 18:06:46 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:06:53 All of them are dead now Jul 17 18:07:21 * Morgan nods grimly Jul 17 18:07:22 good Jul 17 18:08:25 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:08:34 Sorry I didn’t tell you back then Jul 17 18:09:15 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:09:20 Sorry I couldn't stop it Jul 17 18:10:28 * Claudia shakes her head Jul 17 18:10:59 The last time was not long before I met you, but all of them died that night. Jul 17 18:11:21 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:11:25 They deserved worse Jul 17 18:12:36 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:12:49 yeah, but it was death or nothing Jul 17 18:12:55 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:15:02 I’m doing okay now. Explains a lot though, right? Jul 17 18:15:18 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:15:22 Yeah... I suppose it does Jul 17 18:16:29 The fact you never saw me interested in any guys? Jul 17 18:17:45 That you were never interested in HeinzHarold, actually Jul 17 18:18:19 * Claudia laughs Jul 17 18:18:48 he looked like he was going to flirt with me when we first met Jul 17 18:20:04 Well... yeah Jul 17 18:21:26 I told him that if he even looked at me in that way, I’d rip of his manhood and make it so the only mouth it ever ended up in was his own Jul 17 18:21:29 off* Jul 17 18:21:53 * Morgan laughs Jul 17 18:23:27 * Claudia sips her coffee Jul 17 18:24:14 I told DeeDee if he didn’t stop staring at me I was going to rip out his eyes and stuff them so far down his throat he could watch himself suffocate to death Jul 17 18:24:50 Didn't put him off... Jul 17 18:26:33 * Claudia shakes her head “No, but he didn’t push me. We were out on the road for months searching for you. One night we got drunk, really drunk, and I impulsively went to kiss him. I’ve never seen a man sober up so quick* Jul 17 18:27:01 * Morgan smiles Jul 17 18:27:04 He's a good man Jul 17 18:27:41 * Claudia nods “Found a maid to put me to bed, slept sat up outside my door all night” Jul 17 18:28:21 * Morgan smiles Jul 17 18:28:23 Thats nice Jul 17 18:30:04 * Claudia nods, sipping her coffee “He told me the next morning that beautiful as I was, he would never take advantage of a drunk woman, and if I wanted to take him to bed, I’d have to approach him when I was sober and clearheaded” Jul 17 18:30:32 I'm impressed Jul 17 18:30:39 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:31:14 I wasn’t. I told him to go fuck himself, that I wasn’t even vaguely interested in him, and it had just been the drink talking... Jul 17 18:31:58 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:32:02 Not ready then Jul 17 18:32:46 * Claudia smiles “Nope. And the cheek of him, he just replies with a smug smile, and an “Exactly, Madame.” Jul 17 18:34:23 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:35:44 Which naturally put my back up. I wasn’t fun to travel with for the next month, and then I started to get irritated by his respectfulness. Did he think he was too hot for me? Did he think he was better than me? Jul 17 18:37:17 * Morgan chuckles Jul 17 18:38:05 * Claudia smiles “So of course -then- I had to set out to seduce him, but making no overt move” Jul 17 18:38:48 Sounds complicated Jul 17 18:39:58 * Claudia chuckles “Yeah... I let him in emotionally, he did the same. I was playing the game, he was just bidding his time. By the time it came to a head, I was attached.” Jul 17 18:42:45 * Claudia sips her coffee “I’ve told Heinzharold, but he’s a bit more sexually worldly than you” Jul 17 18:43:35 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:43:38 yeah Jul 17 18:45:29 The clean version is that I saw him in an intimate way and felt excited rather than afraid. That was where it started, a clearing by a stream on the East Road Jul 17 18:47:24 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:49:23 We travelled around for a few more months. One room was cheaper, and we got close. When it became obvious we weren’t finding you and should go home, he proposed. We lived in the shack a year or so before we moved to Dorff and opened up the bodyguard school Jul 17 18:50:28 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:51:11 It would've been understandable to have found it too difficult to overcome Jul 17 18:51:19 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:51:29 It took work and trust Jul 17 18:54:40 * Morgan nods Jul 17 18:54:42 Sounds like it Jul 17 18:55:36 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:55:44 How did you and Molly come about? Jul 17 18:56:22 * Morgan takes a deep breath Jul 17 18:56:36 She was the first person to reach me... I was trying to get myself killed... Jul 17 18:59:05 * Claudia nods Jul 17 18:59:17 Figured you’d be self-destructive Jul 17 18:59:45 Oh yeah, very Jul 17 19:03:13 how long have you been together? Jul 17 19:04:03 Not long... we were interested in one another but... I couldn't bring myself to do anything about it, so she married some minor lordling who was... -horrific- to her Jul 17 19:04:16 rape? Jul 17 19:07:14 Not far from it... every time he came home from his mistress, he'd take the switch to her as punishment for not having another son... Jul 17 19:07:38 tell me you killed him? Jul 17 19:08:42 No... I didn't know about any of it until I heard he'd gotten himself killed after gambling all their money away Jul 17 19:09:11 you’d have killed him if you’d known. Jul 17 19:09:53 Good chance, yes Jul 17 19:10:57 how is she doing with it all now? Jul 17 19:11:15 Better mostly Jul 17 19:11:42 * Claudia nods Jul 17 19:11:53 Healing is a revenge of its own Jul 17 19:12:18 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:12:21 Yeah, I suppose it is Jul 17 19:12:38 how you dealing with Edward now? Jul 17 19:12:54 Its... difficult Jul 17 19:13:00 * Claudia nods Jul 17 19:13:10 I wanted to kill him when I found out Jul 17 19:13:19 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:13:22 Why didn't you? Jul 17 19:13:40 Heinzharold made me promise not to Jul 17 19:13:49 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:14:47 He said we had to let him live, because you’d be mad if you came back Jul 17 19:15:34 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:15:41 And then they became the best of friends... Jul 17 19:15:56 * Claudia shakes her head Jul 17 19:16:29 Heinzharold wanted Sudlachenburg safe, then he came to pity Edward Jul 17 19:16:58 * Morgan nods, rolling his shoulders Jul 17 19:17:33 it’s been complicated. we needed you. Jul 17 19:19:08 Yeah... I let everyone down, I know Jul 17 19:20:28 You were dealing with it as best you could Jul 17 19:20:42 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:21:51 Now you’re back, getting married, two children who rely on you Jul 17 19:23:09 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:23:10 Aye Jul 17 19:23:31 * Claudia watches him speculatively Jul 17 19:23:45 Or is it three? Jul 17 19:25:40 Fairly sure I'd have noticed if she'd brought a third along Jul 17 19:25:54 They start off really small... Jul 17 19:27:02 Yes, I remember Jul 17 19:27:42 The way she looks at Gretchen. and Edward’s boys, she’s either knocked up or extremely broody Jul 17 19:30:46 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:30:49 They're cute kids Jul 17 19:31:18 * Claudia laughs “Alright, you keep your secrets, but I will say I told you so” Jul 17 19:31:53 * Morgan smiles a little, nodding Jul 17 19:31:56 Its not common knowledge Jul 17 19:32:06 * Claudia smiles Jul 17 19:32:08 Pleased? Jul 17 19:32:12 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:32:15 Yeah, mostly Jul 17 19:32:40 Feeling bad because it’s not Dietlinde? Jul 17 19:33:45 Already failed to protect a wife and child once... Jul 17 19:36:19 We’re going to be much more vigilant this time Jul 17 19:38:02 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:38:36 DeeDee has already talked to your father about the land for our school Jul 17 19:38:42 Oh? Jul 17 19:39:15 He’s suggested where your house was, but I said not a hope in hell unless you wanted that Jul 17 19:40:18 * Morgan takes a deep breath Jul 17 19:40:21 They aren't there... Jul 17 19:40:50 No, Heinzharold buried them in the churchyard Jul 17 19:41:32 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:44:08 But we won’t build there if you want to put something there, or you want to leave it Jul 17 19:44:42 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:44:45 I'll think about it Jul 17 19:45:05 * Claudia nods Jul 17 19:45:32 Reckon you’d like to teach a bit now and then? Jul 17 19:45:50 Think I'm a bit too unorthodox... might clash with your training plans Jul 17 19:46:11 * Claudia shrugs Jul 17 19:46:16 I can work with it Jul 17 19:46:43 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:46:46 I'll think about that too Jul 17 19:47:37 * Claudia nods Jul 17 19:48:04 I should go back up, she’ll be wanting a feed soon Jul 17 19:48:20 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:48:23 I'll see you later Jul 17 19:49:07 * Claudia comes behind him and hugs him round the shoulders “I’m glad you’re home. I missed you” Jul 17 19:49:36 * Morgan nods, hanging his head a little Jul 17 19:49:39 I missed you too Jul 17 19:50:06 Now you’re stuck with me, and Heinzharold, forever Jul 17 19:51:44 * Morgan nods Jul 17 19:51:45 Good Jul 17 19:52:13 * Claudia goes, leaving him in the empty library Jul 17 19:52:32 * Morgan sips his coffee before wandering the ground floor again Jul 17 19:52:54 *it’s all quiet, not even servants yet* Jul 17 19:53:04 * Morgan goes outside Jul 17 19:54:36 *it’s dark and peaceful, the only light from the Sudlache Jul 17 19:55:15 * Morgan stares out over the lake Jul 17 19:58:10 *He’d done that with Dietlinde from further down the shore several evenings, careful to help her over uneven ground. Their silence had been peaceful, restful and content together. And stood here, just alone, he can recall that ease clearly, feel that peace, knowing for certain now that she and Jana are in Theah’s arms and wanting for nothing. Not afraid, not resenting him. Jul 17 19:59:34 * Morgan takes a deep breath, holding it for a few seconds before letting it out Jul 17 20:00:07 *This feels cleansing, releasing* Jul 17 20:01:59 * Morgan stands there quietly Jul 17 20:02:31 *he feels more and more peaceful, lighter, freer* Jul 17 20:02:39 * Morgan frowns a little Jul 17 20:04:13 *the only thing that changes is that he hears Molly say Jul 17 20:04:17 * Claudia is now known as Molly Jul 17 20:04:21 Morgan? Jul 17 20:04:43 * Morgan looks around Jul 17 20:06:24 * Molly is wrapped in his robe, hair loose. The blue of the Sudlache makes the red mesmerising Jul 17 20:06:41 You aren’t going to do something dangerous, are you? Jul 17 20:07:27 Why would you think that? Jul 17 20:09:17 you’re out here alone near the lake, and we were... parted last night Jul 17 20:10:42 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 17 20:10:44 Just... thinking Jul 17 20:11:33 Would you have me go? Jul 17 20:11:44 Not if you don't want to Jul 17 20:12:50 * Molly comes to him, taking his hand. So far, her fingers are still very warm, and he can’t help the thought of having left her last night when these hands were on her own body Jul 17 20:13:56 what were you thinking? Jul 17 20:15:40 Claudia was asking if you're with child... Jul 17 20:16:04 * Molly smiles Jul 17 20:16:08 I am, yes Jul 17 20:16:18 Well -I- know that Jul 17 20:16:47 did you tell her? Jul 17 20:17:32 eventually Jul 17 20:17:55 * Molly squeezes gently Jul 17 20:18:06 Are you proud to say it? Jul 17 20:18:48 * Morgan nods Jul 17 20:18:50 Of course Jul 17 20:20:07 * Molly smiles “I am proud to carry your child... and your future children” Jul 17 20:20:36 * Morgan nods Jul 17 20:21:44 I don’t mind you telling her *She puts his hand on her bare stomach within the robe* Soon everyone will see it Jul 17 20:22:51 * Morgan nods Jul 17 20:22:52 aye Jul 17 20:23:55 * Molly watches him “what do you need? I feel a gap is opening between us in a way we have not had since we were reunited” Jul 17 20:24:19 Its just difficult at the moment Jul 17 20:24:35 Would you tell me why? Jul 17 20:25:42 Because... I was there when Dietlinde and Jana passed over... I got to speak to them, after a fashion... Jul 17 20:25:54 Isn’t that good? Jul 17 20:27:49 Of course it is but... it means they've been stuck here for years... because of me... and its quite brutal feeling that loss again... not to mention the fact I was able to is at best unnatural Jul 17 20:28:44 I’m so sorry. If I’d realised... *she gently removes his hand, recovering her nakedness* Jul 17 20:29:13 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Jul 17 20:29:46 Karsten Eldreich has already intimated he's going to try to have his way with you once the succession is secured... Jul 17 20:30:15 * Molly looks worried “You won’t let that happen?” Jul 17 20:32:00 Like hell will I... Claudia and I have already discussed alibis... Jul 17 20:33:35 * Molly nods Jul 17 20:33:57 I do not wish to be treated that way. I’ve been through enough pain Jul 17 20:34:17 * Morgan nods Jul 17 20:34:19 I know Jul 17 20:35:24 * Molly nods “I am grateful for the protection you’ve given me and the children “ Jul 17 20:35:34 * Morgan nods a little Jul 17 20:35:49 I'll see him floating face down in the lake before he gets near any of you Jul 17 20:36:10 Thank you. You’ve been so kind. Jul 17 20:38:05 * Morgan shrugs Jul 17 20:38:11 Not really in keeping with my character Jul 17 20:39:00 * Molly sighs “You’ve always been better than you believed” Jul 17 20:39:54 * Morgan sips his coffee Jul 17 20:41:29 * Molly watches him sadly “I think you’d prefer to be alone tonight” Jul 17 20:41:47 I don't think it counts as tonight anymore so much as this morning Jul 17 20:42:03 * Molly nods “I’ll go” Jul 17 20:42:12 If thats what you want Jul 17 20:42:21 * Molly chews her lip Jul 17 20:42:40 It isn’t! But I fear I am unwelcome right now Jul 17 20:43:24 No... you're not Jul 17 20:45:03 I don’t know how to help you grieve her when my presence, my carrying your child, might feel like you’re betraying her Jul 17 20:45:59 No... no I don't think it does... Jul 17 20:47:28 * Molly looks very vulnerable, unsure of herself “I can’t lose you Morgan... I can’t lose you to that sadness again” Jul 17 20:48:31 I... I just need to be allowed to feel it, get used to it, alright? Jul 17 20:49:15 I will do what you say, but what am I to do? Should I move to the other bedroom? Jul 17 20:49:59 No thank you... Jul 17 20:50:26 * Molly nods Jul 17 20:50:57 When you are ready, I will be here still. I always will. Jul 17 20:51:17 * Morgan nods Jul 17 20:51:21 Good... I need you Jul 17 20:52:29 * Molly nods “And I you” Jul 17 20:54:42 * Morgan nods, looking around Jul 17 20:57:06 *it’s getting a little lighter to the east* There is nothing I could do? Jul 17 20:57:19 Just... be here. Jul 17 20:58:35 May I hold you? Jul 17 20:58:57 * Morgan nods, holding out an arm Jul 17 20:59:31 * Molly comes to stand with him, arms around his waist Jul 17 20:59:48 * Morgan puts his arm around her Jul 17 21:00:00 I love you Morgan. I love you so very much Jul 17 21:00:46 And I you Jul 17 21:01:56 * Molly cries against his jacket. Through all the stories of the inflicted horrors in her marriage, there were no tears, yet now she weeps. Jul 17 21:03:32 * Morgan holds her gently Jul 17 21:03:35 You've no need to worry Jul 17 21:03:49 I cry for you, for your pain. Jul 17 21:03:59 * Morgan nods a little Jul 17 21:05:34 I know it will get better, we just need to have faith Jul 17 21:06:59 * Morgan nods Jul 17 21:07:00 Aye Jul 17 21:07:45 You’ve come so far, you can keep going Jul 17 21:09:16 I hope so Jul 17 21:09:38 We’re going to love you so hard that it’s impossible to not Jul 17 21:10:22 * Morgan nods Jul 17 21:13:21 * Molly stays where she is, and the sun starts to come up, the first day where he can be sure his girls are safe and unafraid again Jul 17 21:14:04 * Morgan watches the sun rise quietly Jul 17 21:15:56 * Molly stays at his side, and it starts to feel right, like that’s where she should be Jul 17 21:17:54 Should get you inside and dressed Jul 17 21:18:06 * Molly nods Jul 17 21:18:15 The children will wake soon Jul 17 21:18:51 * Morgan nods Jul 17 21:18:52 Aye Jul 17 21:21:14 *they’re about to head inside when He sudden finds himself alone on the shore of the Sudlache in daylight, knowing that it was just a dream* Jul 17 21:22:20 * Morgan takes a few deep breaths, before trying to wake up Jul 17 21:23:05 *He manages this. Molly isn’t touching him, but she makes a soft sound of pleasure in her sleep* Jul 17 21:43:43 * Molly has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer)