**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sun Dec 8 11:09:50 2024 Dec 08 11:09:50 * dans9_ (~dans9@192.168.1.81) has joined Dec 08 11:10:08 * MorganK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Dec 08 11:59:13 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Dec 08 13:16:32 * dans9_ has quit (Quit: Leaving) Dec 08 14:07:01 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Dec 08 14:07:39 Dec 07 17:38:58 It won't be long Dec 08 14:07:39 Dec 07 17:40:13 * Molly nods but she doesn’t look so sure Dec 08 14:07:39 Dec 07 17:40:38 I have to get used to these absences Dec 08 14:07:39 Dec 07 17:41:02 * MorganK sighs, nodding Dec 08 14:07:39 Dec 07 17:43:01 And as you’re going to keep my so well-bred all the time, it’ll often happen whilst I’m pregnant Dec 08 14:07:42 Dec 07 17:43:24 well, possibly, yes Dec 08 14:07:44 Dec 07 17:43:35 You do not intend to? Dec 08 14:07:46 Dec 07 17:44:20 be away? No, not if I can help it Dec 08 14:07:48 Dec 07 17:45:26 or you’ll take me too? Dec 08 14:07:50 Dec 07 17:46:03 * MorganK nods Dec 08 14:07:54 Dec 07 17:46:53 * Molly nods Dec 08 14:07:56 Dec 07 17:47:30 I can stand that, but we’ll be having to find ourselves some quiet clearings, yes? *she smiles fondly* Dec 08 14:07:58 Dec 07 17:48:12 * MorganK nods Dec 08 14:08:00 Dec 07 17:48:16 I would expect so, yes Dec 08 14:08:02 Dec 07 17:48:49 * Molly nods Dec 08 14:08:04 Dec 07 17:49:16 You needn’t worry about us. We’re safe here, we have company Dec 08 14:08:06 Dec 07 17:49:55 I'll worry all the same Dec 08 14:08:08 Dec 07 17:51:18 please try not to, my darling Dec 08 14:08:10 Dec 07 17:51:57 I don't really have much of a say in it I'm afraid Dec 08 14:09:13 * Molly nods “Are you disappointed not to be in Hafenlohr tonight?” Dec 08 14:10:55 * Morgan nods Dec 08 14:10:58 I am, yes Dec 08 14:11:20 * Molly nods Dec 08 14:11:56 me too. I was looking forward to it. How are things there? Dec 08 14:12:38 Aside from the poachers, fine. The house isn't far off done, they're starting on the garden... Dec 08 14:13:03 * Molly ‘s eyes light up Dec 08 14:13:43 how far are they? *they were talking about finishing the fence and then they’ll start the little cottage* Dec 08 14:15:04 About to finish the fence then they'll start on the little cottage Dec 08 14:16:02 * Molly looks excited Dec 08 14:16:18 That’s wonderful. It won’t be very long before we can enjoy it Dec 08 14:16:42 No, not long at all Dec 08 14:18:13 * Molly smiles with mischief Dec 08 14:18:34 Of course, if you wish to go and enjoy there alone before that... Dec 08 14:19:27 No, I think not Dec 08 14:20:41 * Molly smiles “only in my fantasies then” Dec 08 14:22:20 * Morgan smiles a little Dec 08 14:22:23 I'm afraid so my love Dec 08 14:25:06 perhaps you’ll be lucky and dreaming of me doing so there? Dec 08 14:25:23 That'd be nice Dec 08 14:28:29 * Molly nods Dec 08 14:28:38 much better than nightmares Dec 08 14:28:46 * Morgan nods Dec 08 14:28:52 I remain sceptical though Dec 08 14:29:01 * Molly sighs Dec 08 14:29:19 me too. Dec 08 14:30:32 It is what it is Dec 08 14:31:16 I should be there to hold you Dec 08 14:31:58 Unfortunately it was no an option Dec 08 14:33:12 Not with the babies Dec 08 14:33:28 No, definitely not Dec 08 14:35:36 but then I’ll be able to follow you, until I must return here for this one *she rubs her stomach* Dec 08 14:36:20 * Morgan nods Dec 08 14:37:32 * Molly talks to her belly as she does “I think your Daddy is missing you, little one” Dec 08 14:37:52 * Morgan nods sadly Dec 08 14:37:53 I am Dec 08 14:38:52 * Molly nods “I hope it is not too long” Dec 08 14:39:05 * Morgan nods Dec 08 14:39:24 So do I... as nice as the Grafin is, I'd rather be on my way back already Dec 08 14:42:28 * Molly looks like she’ll say something rude, then simply says “Perhaps tomorrow with give you enough progress to do so?” Dec 08 14:42:51 We can hope Dec 08 14:43:29 * Molly nods “I will leave a note to tell you how Sascha is” Dec 08 14:44:26 Me nods Dec 08 14:44:28 I'd appreciate that Dec 08 14:47:14 * Molly nods “I hope to find they aren’t planning to beat you to it” Dec 08 14:48:42 * Morgan nods Dec 08 14:48:53 I hope not, but their safety and yours is paramount Dec 08 14:49:30 * Molly nods Dec 08 14:49:37 I will keep us all safe Dec 08 14:50:19 * Morgan nods Dec 08 14:50:23 Thank you Dec 08 14:52:44 * Molly sighs “I should let you get to bed” Dec 08 14:52:57 * Morgan sighs Dec 08 14:52:59 I suppose so Dec 08 14:54:44 * Molly nods “You didn’t get much last night” Dec 08 14:58:20 No, I really didn't. Has Yensid turned up? Dec 08 14:59:51 * Molly frowns Dec 08 15:00:04 No... I don’t think I’ve seen him at all today Dec 08 15:00:10 * Morgan frowns Dec 08 15:00:30 He followed me out of Sudlachenburg, went as far as the inn I stopped at, but when I got up he was gone Dec 08 15:02:28 I will look for him in the morning, if you like? Dec 08 15:05:54 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:05:57 please Dec 08 15:07:23 I’ll sneak around in my special way Dec 08 15:07:53 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:07:56 Alright love. Be careful Dec 08 15:08:48 Always. *She smiles* Should I leave you my drawing? Dec 08 15:09:21 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:09:26 Just In case, yes Dec 08 15:12:19 * Molly nods Dec 08 15:12:32 Incase your dreams are very nice indeed? Dec 08 15:12:44 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:12:45 Quite Dec 08 15:13:45 I dearly hope so, my love Dec 08 15:14:17 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:14:18 Me too Dec 08 15:16:58 I’m already missing your warmth and solidness, mon petit chou Dec 08 15:18:39 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:18:44 Hopefully I can be back with you soon Dec 08 15:20:54 * Molly nods, smiling “Very soon, or I will regret giving our device to Alice!” Dec 08 15:21:44 * Morgan nods Dec 08 15:21:47 As soon s I can Dec 08 15:23:05 * Molly nods, looking him over a minute “well, goodnight, my love” Dec 08 15:23:19 Goodnight my darling Dec 08 15:23:49 I’ll be thinking of you... Dec 08 15:24:15 Likewise love Dec 08 15:25:06 * Molly blows him a kiss before covering the mirror with her naughty drawing Dec 08 15:25:36 * Morgan sighs, covering the mirror and putting it away before finishing his coffee and getting ready for bed Dec 08 15:26:19 *he manages this with ease. The sheets are very nice quality, smooth and cool Dec 08 15:27:03 * Morgan tries to settle to sleep Dec 08 15:31:01 **At first he starts to dream back at Catherine's. It's the day after Molly fell in the pool. He's tired. It had been difficult to sleep last night, those memories of the white fabric wet and clinging to her breasts, and the softness of her bottom when she'd stripped naked whilst he tried (and failed) to keep his eyes to himself. MTF Dec 08 15:31:21 **He'd gone to train on the roof, his body feeling more pent up than it rightly should. He'd been yet again trying to draw his thoughts from her when he'd noticed from a distance the shutter hanging wonky on her window. He goes inside, gathering some tools. (done) Dec 08 15:31:52 * Morgan heads toward her room, knocking Dec 08 15:35:23 Uhhh! Ummm... Yes? Dec 08 15:37:51 I noticed our blind was in need of fixing... Dec 08 15:38:14 It’s fine! Dec 08 15:49:12 * Morgan frowns Dec 08 15:49:14 You are sure? Dec 08 15:50:13 Yes! Later is fine! Dec 08 15:50:42 * Morgan scowls, moving awy Dec 08 15:51:20 *His hearing is sharp enough that he picks up a sound of feminine pleasure and relief* Dec 08 15:51:34 * Morgan frowns, moving away quicker Dec 08 15:53:52 *he’s left somewhat at a loose end, which makes him start to ponder whether her fiancé is in there with her, whether he is getting to cause pleasure to that lovely body Morgan had gotten a brief glance at* Dec 08 15:54:44 * Morgan scowls, moving around the house to get coffee Dec 08 15:55:25 *He finds Jaeger in the dining room working on correspondence* Dec 08 15:56:05 * Morgan nods to him as he goes to fill his cup Dec 08 15:56:14 * Molly is now known as Jaeger Dec 08 15:56:52 Good afternoon, Morgan. Have you seen my fiancee anywhere? *he beams with pride at the mention of her* Dec 08 15:57:25 I've not seen her in a while Dec 08 15:58:26 That is a shame, I have some good news for her Dec 08 15:58:47 Oh? Dec 08 15:59:51 My parents have a house for us in Sussex, and we will be moving there next month Dec 08 16:00:26 * Morgan stops Dec 08 16:00:29 I'm sorry? Dec 08 16:01:52 * Jaeger smiles “I expected them to be resistant to it, but they’d prefer we just move back to my family estate than chase around after details from the past” Dec 08 16:02:06 I see... Dec 08 16:04:10 * Jaeger grins “The banns will be read on Sunday. We’ll have to turn down the invitation to Castile, I’m afraid, we’ll be married on November Third” *this is Morgan’s birthday* Dec 08 16:04:56 I see... right... Dec 08 16:06:15 * Jaeger nods “Once I have spoken to Molly I will explain to Lady Torrington. I trust Molly can be spared from her duties, I will want to take her shopping for all the clothing she’ll need when we leave” Dec 08 16:07:16 Do you indeed Dec 08 16:08:38 * Jaeger nods, getting up from the table “I’m going to look for her. Thank you again, Morgan, for all your assistance. Molly will be very happy in our new life, thanks to you” Dec 08 16:08:57 * Morgan nods a little, moving into the kitchen Dec 08 16:09:23 *Jaeger doesn’t follow. The kitchen is empty and quiet” Dec 08 16:09:45 * Morgan scowls, pouring his tea away Dec 08 16:12:11 *he’s soon left with an empty cup. The silence feels huge and oppressive, and soon without this friend of his he is going to be faced with it everyday Dec 08 16:12:53 * Morgan throws the cup at the wall before walking out the side door into the courtyard Dec 08 16:14:30 *the late summer air is still warm, things still blossoming. How has it come to this, where someone else’s absence feels like physical pain?! Dec 08 16:16:02 * Morgan stands in the entryway, scowling down the driveway Dec 08 16:21:16 *Very, very soon, he is going to have to get in a carriage with Lady Torrington for the trip to Castile, and bid Molly goodbye. Once she has married, it’s less seemly for her to write to a single man. And once she is married, she will get pregnant. The thought of her pregnant, in a wet shift clinging to her body, brings with it intense feelings of both jealousy and desire. Dec 08 16:22:02 * Morgan thumps the stone of the archway Dec 08 16:24:03 *this hurts his hand, obviously. It doesn’t really deaden it. He’d distractedly said he could do much worse than have her as a mistress, perhaps he’d been right Dec 08 16:24:30 * Morgan swears, doing it again Dec 08 16:25:55 *it’s starting to bleed* Dec 08 16:26:42 * Morgan does it again before going inside to clean his knuckles Dec 08 16:27:29 *It pops into his mind; If Jaeger hadn’t been with her, what could have inspired her to that alone in the middle of the day...* Dec 08 16:27:51 *the door opens behind him* Dec 08 16:28:55 * Morgan glances over his shoulder Dec 08 16:29:10 * Jaeger is now known as Molly Dec 08 16:29:44 * Molly is watching his hand with a frown “My goodness, what happened?!” Dec 08 16:30:05 Nothing of import Dec 08 16:31:09 * Molly looks concerned, coming over to him. She smells like freshly applied rosewater, but she’d smell much better to him if she was pregnant... Dec 08 16:31:23 I can bandage that for you? Dec 08 16:31:39 If you wish Dec 08 16:32:15 * Molly nods “We’ll do it in the servant’s dining room?” Dec 08 16:32:31 * Morgan nods Dec 08 16:32:33 Aye, alright Dec 08 16:33:57 * Molly gets some supplies and leads the way. As he follows behind her, he can recall following her yesterday, how the fabric had clung to the parts of her that he cannot see but knows the soft shape of Dec 08 16:34:32 * Morgan scowls, pressing his thumb into the scraped parts of his knuckles Dec 08 16:36:11 *this also hurts. She lets him in, waiting for him to sit Dec 08 16:36:24 * Morgan thumps down onto the bench Dec 08 16:39:13 * Molly concentrates as she gets everything ready to clean and tend him. A curl comes down from behind her ear, resting against her forehead. She mustn’t have had much time to fix her hair again... Dec 08 16:39:29 * Morgan frowns, watching her Dec 08 16:39:45 * Molly glances up at him, smiling slightly Dec 08 16:39:53 I’ll be gentle, I promise Dec 08 16:40:40 * Morgan nods Dec 08 16:40:41 Alright Dec 08 16:42:27 * Molly takes his right hand in her left, and gently cleans the knuckles with her right. As she’s right handed, it’s hard to watch the dexterity of her ministrations without being reminded of those she was so recently making Dec 08 16:43:10 Have you seen your betrothed? Dec 08 16:43:40 No... *she looks up at him with a slight frown* Is he hurt? Dec 08 16:44:33 No... he was looking for you to tell you his good news Dec 08 16:45:32 Oh? *Its stings badly all of a sudden* Dec 08 16:46:02 * Morgan hisses Dec 08 16:47:29 * Molly looks so pained by this, full of compassion “Oh I am so sorry!” Dec 08 16:47:53 Its fine, just unexpected Dec 08 16:48:48 * Morgan watches her a moment Dec 08 16:49:18 * Molly watches him too, then blushes a little, finding a bandage Dec 08 16:49:40 I... don't think he'd appreciate me telling you his news Dec 08 16:50:22 why? *she cups his hand gently to wrap the fabric around it* Dec 08 16:51:10 I suspect he'd be cross he didn't get to make the grand announcement Dec 08 16:52:31 * Molly nods “I suppose that would be the case. It is good news though?” Dec 08 16:53:34 He feels so Dec 08 16:55:52 * Molly nods, working carefully. when she’s done, she doesn’t pull her hand out from beneath his, she just looks at him “You do not?” Dec 08 16:56:44 It is... good for you I think Dec 08 16:57:36 * Molly smiles gently “Very well. Will you still wish to take me to Carleon?” Dec 08 16:59:54 I... don't believe so... your banns are to be read soon, and you will be gone before Lady Torrington goes to Castille... Jaeger is off arranging for you to be released from your duties Dec 08 17:00:19 * Molly frowns, shaking her head “It’s supposed to be February...” Dec 08 17:02:23 His family have secured a house for you... you will be wed first week of November Dec 08 17:04:47 Oh. Dec 08 17:06:51 * Molly looks at the table a long moment. She looks so young, so burdened already for a girl who isn’t even twenty yet. Dec 08 17:07:00 You should be happy Dec 08 17:07:33 * Molly nods Dec 08 17:07:54 I should be. I will be. I am fortunate. Dec 08 17:08:51 * Molly still has her left hand beneath his. He can feel her fingertips against his palm Dec 08 17:09:10 I'll arrange for youth be moved to a nicer room... Dec 08 17:09:43 * Molly shakes her head “Mine is fine... It’s unlocked, if you still want to see to the blind” Dec 08 17:10:17 *whatever she’s thinking, a flush spreads across her cheekbones* Dec 08 17:10:26 I'd best get it seen to Dec 08 17:11:48 * Molly gently squeezes his hand from beneath, speaking softly “Be careful with yourself, please” Dec 08 17:12:15 I'll be alright Dec 08 17:12:29 * Molly nods, biting her lip “mmhmm” Dec 08 17:12:55 * Molly looks like she might cry Dec 08 17:13:43 Whatever is wrong? Dec 08 17:14:34 * Molly takes a deep breath before quietly saying “I didn’t know I’d have to go away” Dec 08 17:15:14 No... nor did I really Dec 08 17:16:02 * Molly nods, tears threatening to flow Dec 08 17:16:09 I have to go. Dec 08 17:18:17 * Morgan watches her Dec 08 17:18:21 You'll be safe away from here Dec 08 17:18:42 * Molly watches him, searching his expression before she looks away Dec 08 17:18:48 Yes, I will. Dec 08 17:19:05 * Morgan sighs Dec 08 17:19:26 I don't know exactly when it'll be but... I would imagine you'll not be actively working any longer Dec 08 17:19:41 * Molly nods Dec 08 17:20:00 I understand. Dec 08 17:20:30 * Morgan sighs Dec 08 17:20:58 I don’t want to leave y-... -here-. I don’t want to leave here. Dec 08 17:21:39 * Morgan frowns a little Dec 08 17:21:41 Why? Dec 08 17:22:07 My friends are here. But I must follow him, he will be my husband, with all that entails. Dec 08 17:22:26 * Morgan nods Dec 08 17:22:28 We will miss you Dec 08 17:23:59 *That jealousy returns, Jaeger undressing her, having her. But almost worse, Jaeger getting to hold her hand without any subterfuge, without them both purposefully ignoring a lingering touch* Dec 08 17:24:48 * Morgan frowns, looking down at the table Dec 08 17:25:34 I... I should get on with the milking... Dec 08 17:26:50 * Morgan sighs Dec 08 17:26:52 Aye probably Dec 08 17:27:27 * Molly watches him “Morgan...” Dec 08 17:27:39 Yes? Dec 08 17:28:08 * Molly ‘s gaze drops to his mouth a moment before she looks away Dec 08 17:28:19 I’ll make you some tea before I go. Dec 08 17:29:59 I don't think thats what you were going to say Dec 08 17:30:38 * Molly shakes her head Dec 08 17:30:41 no Dec 08 17:31:41 What was it? Dec 08 17:32:33 I don’t think I ought to say. Right now, we can both proceed just as we are. We can part as friends who wish each other future happiness and companionship Dec 08 17:33:49 * Morgan frowns Dec 08 17:33:52 If that is your wish Dec 08 17:35:02 I do not want to harm our friendship. *she looks at him, her guard let down* I don’t want to hurt or scare you. Dec 08 17:35:40 That isn't something worth worrying about Dec 08 17:36:16 * Molly chews the corner of her lip Dec 08 17:36:29 I wish I was marrying someone more like you. Dec 08 17:36:57 Why? Dec 08 17:37:38 *Her comment sounds very cherry picked when she says* You’re more engaging, more responsible, more mature Dec 08 17:38:03 Sounds like half a story Dec 08 17:39:18 * Molly looks a little wary when she says “I find you much more attractive* She quickly follows this with “I prefer taller and broader, it makes me feel smaller, more feminine” Dec 08 17:39:38 I see Dec 08 17:40:18 * Molly gently slides her hand out from beneath his “I think I should go now” Dec 08 17:40:38 * Morgan nods Dec 08 17:40:42 I understand Dec 08 17:40:53 No, you don’t. Dec 08 17:41:03 Don't I? Dec 08 17:41:48 No. Because these feelings are complicated, and my loyalties are divided. Dec 08 17:42:06 What loyalties? Dec 08 17:42:34 What I should and must do, and what I would do if things were different. Dec 08 17:42:52 You're right, I don't understand Dec 08 17:44:13 * Molly nods, standing up slowly “I envy you, in your commitment, in the love you had” Dec 08 17:47:06 * Morgan watches her Dec 08 17:47:15 I'd ask that you explain that Dec 08 17:48:49 I know it’s extremely painful for you, but I envy that you got to experience something so beautiful and profound that you have a commitment that lasts beyond this parting Dec 08 17:50:39 * Morgan watches her intently Dec 08 17:53:42 * Molly watches him back, her expression soft Dec 08 17:55:46 I don't wish to make things more difficult for you Dec 08 17:57:01 how could you? Dec 08 17:57:22 * Morgan shakes his head slightly Dec 08 17:57:25 Itd be unfair to you Dec 08 17:58:16 * Molly looks puzzled Dec 08 17:58:21 I don’t understand Dec 08 17:58:33 I know... Dec 08 17:59:21 * Molly nods, just watching him. He can see the fondness, the attraction, seep into her expression just before she stands up Dec 08 17:59:30 I’ll see to your tea Dec 08 17:59:35 * Morgan nods a little Dec 08 18:00:19 * Molly lets herself out quietly, shutting the door behind her Dec 08 18:00:33 * Morgan scowls, muttering, berating himself Dec 08 18:01:25 *He gets five minutes to do this before she opens the door, carrying the cup he most commonly uses, one he’s never made a point to ask for Dec 08 18:02:16 * Morgan watches her Dec 08 18:02:19 Why that cup? Dec 08 18:03:04 * Molly smiles shyly “I think it might be your favourite? This is the one you usually use” Dec 08 18:03:18 Unusual thing for you to notice... Dec 08 18:03:32 * Molly blushes “I’m just observant” Dec 08 18:04:56 * Morgan nods, watching her intently Dec 08 18:06:13 * Molly watches him intently too before quickly setting it on the table, accidentally sloshing some on her hand. She winces Dec 08 18:06:41 Cold water on that Dec 08 18:06:57 * Molly nods, walking out into the kitchen Dec 08 18:07:24 * Morgan takes the cup, sipping the tea Dec 08 18:09:00 *She hasn’t returned by the time he’s finished it* Dec 08 18:09:09 * Morgan takes the cup out washout Dec 08 18:10:31 * Molly isn’t there either Dec 08 18:11:11 * Morgan frowns, going looking for her Dec 08 18:13:51 *he finds her up in the cow shed, milking the cow. The milk isn’t the only thing flowing, big tears on her cheeks as she works Dec 08 18:14:11 Oh blossom, whatevers wrong? Dec 08 18:15:44 * Molly shakes her head “I’ll be fine, don’t worry” Dec 08 18:17:56 Thats not what I asked Dec 08 18:18:45 * Molly wipes her eyes on her sleeve “I am a foolish, silly girl.” Dec 08 18:18:59 Why? Dec 08 18:19:55 * Molly doesn’t look up “Because I am due to get married, and I am falling in love with another man” Dec 08 18:20:38 * Morgan scowls Dec 08 18:20:39 oh Dec 08 18:22:38 * Molly glances at him, seeing this expression, and looks away “please, leave me alone.” Dec 08 18:24:03 * Morgan nods Dec 08 18:24:05 As you wish Dec 08 18:24:46 * Molly nods “I do not want your anger or your pity. I will be gone soon enough and won’t be a problem anymore” Dec 08 18:25:32 You have neither Dec 08 18:26:09 Then why do you scowl like that? Dec 08 18:28:20 It doesn't matter Dec 08 18:28:56 Yes, it does. It matters to me Dec 08 18:30:55 It makes no difference, your feelings are clear Dec 08 18:32:35 I’ve confided something in you that could easily ruin my life... Dec 08 18:33:28 I have no duty to tell Jaeger Dec 08 18:34:25 I know you never would. Dec 08 18:35:38 So you need not worry about that Dec 08 18:36:24 Then why will you not trust me so in return? Dec 08 18:36:33 * Molly keeps milking the cow Dec 08 18:37:16 Its not that I do not trust you... its that it does not matter Dec 08 18:38:34 But it does! It matters. I wish to know. Dec 08 18:38:49 * Morgan sighs Dec 08 18:39:26 I scowl because... You are falling in love with someone, and are ever more lost to me than you were an hour ago Dec 08 18:40:18 * Molly glances at him Dec 08 18:40:31 You know who I meant, don’t you? Dec 08 18:41:02 * Morgan shrugs Dec 08 18:41:05 no Dec 08 18:43:27 * Molly opens her mouth, then closes it, looking back to the udders Dec 08 18:43:44 I am “lost to you?” Dec 08 18:43:55 * Morgan looks out of the door Dec 08 18:43:57 Yes. Dec 08 18:56:43 *there’s no one around * Dec 08 18:56:53 I’ll always be your friend Dec 08 18:58:14 Yes... well Dec 08 18:58:35 that’s not what you mean? Dec 08 18:59:14 No... despite the lingering commitment, I find myself -deeply- attracted to you Dec 08 19:00:38 * Molly ‘s brows shoot up, and she manages to spray the milk all over her lap as she looks towards him Dec 08 19:01:00 Really?! Dec 08 19:01:25 As I said... it does not matter Dec 08 19:01:33 * Molly looks at her lap a moment Dec 08 19:02:16 It does. How could a man like you be attracted to someone chubby and plain like me? Dec 08 19:02:29 * Morgan frowns Dec 08 19:02:37 You are beautiful, and clever, and kind Dec 08 19:03:08 * Molly blushes, trying to shake off the milk Dec 08 19:04:01 it doesn’t matter because you’re married, and I soon will be? Dec 08 19:04:21 It doesn't matter because you're soon to wed and falling in love with someone else Dec 08 19:04:39 * Molly mutters something quietly Dec 08 19:04:46 I'm sorry? Dec 08 19:05:09 I said “with you, you idiot!” Dec 08 19:05:41 * Morgan looks surprised Dec 08 19:05:46 What? Dec 08 19:05:53 * Molly blushes hard Dec 08 19:06:09 I’m sorry, that was rude and disrespectful Dec 08 19:06:37 It was a little, yes.... But so am I so I cant complain too loudly Dec 08 19:07:01 * Molly just nods, wiping her dress with a cloth Dec 08 19:10:08 * Morgan sighs Dec 08 19:10:14 I did not wish to complicate things for you Dec 08 19:10:21 * Molly nods Dec 08 19:10:31 nor I You, but... Dec 08 19:10:44 But? Dec 08 19:11:10 well... *she smiles up at him* it -is- very flattering Dec 08 19:11:53 * Morgan nods a little Dec 08 19:13:15 * Molly dries her hands, probably as she had between Morgan interrupting her, and her arriving in the kitchen... Dec 08 19:13:29 * Morgan blushes, looking away Dec 08 19:13:44 what did I say? Dec 08 19:14:03 nothing... Dec 08 19:14:22 You don’t blush oft Dec 08 19:14:39 No, I don't Dec 08 19:15:15 Were you thinking of doing something you should not? Dec 08 19:15:45 ummm... sort of Dec 08 19:16:14 like shutting the door and kissing me? Dec 08 19:16:43 uhhhh... no, that wasn't it Dec 08 19:17:07 * Molly nods, smiling slightly as she says “oh well” Dec 08 19:18:11 * Morgan nods a little Dec 08 19:19:11 my leaving will at least free -you- from these feelings? Dec 08 19:19:42 No... but what it leaves me should not be your concern, but your future Dec 08 19:20:08 I am capable of having more than one concern Dec 08 19:21:31 Even so... Dec 08 19:22:18 Attraction will fade when you can no longer see me Dec 08 19:23:31 I don't believe so Dec 08 19:24:20 * Molly stands up, picking up the milk Dec 08 19:24:40 What can I do to help? I could dress more modestly? Dec 08 19:25:36 You could wear burlap and I'd still think you beautiful Dec 08 19:27:14 * Molly blushes, smiling shyly Dec 08 19:27:17 Truly? Dec 08 19:27:36 * Morgan nods Dec 08 19:29:01 * Molly nods, smiling “You could wear nothing, and I’d find you attractive” She suddenly blushes hard “That’s Umm... I didn’t mean...” Dec 08 19:29:21 I'm sure thats not what you meant Dec 08 19:29:35 no... no, it wasn’t... Dec 08 19:29:54 * Morgan nods Dec 08 19:32:26 * Molly looks at him “I really do need to go back to work, before I do something we’ll regret” Dec 08 19:32:37 Oh? Dec 08 19:33:50 * Molly wets her lower lip slightly with the tip of her tongue “I mustn’t, but I want to kiss you.” Dec 08 19:34:35 It would be bad form Dec 08 19:35:57 * Molly nods “it would be. And yet...” Dec 08 19:36:36 * Morgan nods Dec 08 19:36:37 I know Dec 08 19:38:02 * Molly watches him intently. He can see her pulse racing in her throat Dec 08 19:38:39 I don’t want to hurt you Dec 08 19:39:24 Nor I you... nor risk your future Dec 08 19:40:06 * Molly nods “But the wanting is strong?” Dec 08 19:40:44 * Morgan nods Dec 08 19:40:45 It is Dec 08 19:41:53 * Molly watches him “What if we never get to feel this again?” Dec 08 19:42:22 I wasn't expecting to Dec 08 19:43:28 * Molly nods “Not after Evie?” Dec 08 19:43:55 I didn't... I didn't feel this for her Dec 08 19:46:26 Oh! But you kissed her... Dec 08 19:46:59 yes... once, I think Dec 08 19:48:30 * Molly nods Dec 08 19:48:37 Lucky Evie. Dec 08 19:48:49 * Morgan shrugs Dec 08 19:50:03 * Molly sighs Dec 08 19:50:13 I haven’t kissed Curtis Dec 08 19:50:23 No? Dec 08 19:52:13 * Molly shakes her head “Sometimes it seems like he wants to, but I don’t do it” Dec 08 19:52:21 Why? Dec 08 19:54:16 Because I don’t like the thought of it. I do not want to feel his lips upon mine Dec 08 19:55:33 That could be an issue long term, unless you expect him to take mistresses Dec 08 19:57:13 I imagine he will, isn’t that what noblemen expect to be able to do? Dec 08 19:57:35 * Morgan shrugs Dec 08 19:57:38 Not where I grew up Dec 08 19:58:39 * Molly watches him a long moment Dec 08 19:58:51 No... you wouldn’t take a mistress... Dec 08 20:00:01 thats... complicated Dec 08 20:00:19 Why? Dec 08 20:02:10 Taking a mistress while married is...wrong, I think. Dec 08 20:03:19 * Molly nods Dec 08 20:03:48 But before you were married...? Dec 08 20:05:32 I no longer have a wife... Dec 08 20:06:05 * Molly frowns slightly “Yes, you do. You might not be with her, but won’t she always be your wife?” Dec 08 20:07:00 well... yes... Dec 08 20:08:03 * Molly nods Dec 08 20:08:17 So you’ll not have a mistress...? Dec 08 20:08:52 I... think I possibly would... Dec 08 20:09:39 * Molly nods Dec 08 20:10:05 I hope you’ll find the perfect woman to be such Dec 08 20:10:42 * Morgan watches her thoughtfully Dec 08 20:12:29 * Molly watches him, her breathing shallow. She very quietly says “What are you thinking?” Dec 08 20:12:48 That I think I already have Dec 08 20:14:42 * Molly doesn’t set the bucket down gently, she drops it with a clang and a splash as she suddenly moves and kisses him firmly Dec 08 20:15:29 * Morgan makes a noise, returning her kiss Dec 08 20:16:46 * Molly pulls away, looking up at him, breathing hard “Oh god.” Dec 08 20:17:43 I'm sorry... Dec 08 20:18:47 I’m not. *she kisses him again with that same passion* Dec 08 20:19:45 * Morgan pulls away Dec 08 20:19:49 We cant.... Dec 08 20:21:25 * Molly shakes her head “No... but I want to” Dec 08 20:21:54 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:21:55 Me too Dec 08 20:22:46 * Molly exhales slowly Dec 08 20:23:06 We should stop this... Dec 08 20:23:11 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:23:12 Aye Dec 08 20:25:41 * Molly looks at him a moment before she gently rests her forehead to his chest. She quietly says “This is hard” Dec 08 20:26:31 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:26:33 Yes, it is Dec 08 20:27:12 Maybe I should leave the estate sooner Dec 08 20:27:52 * Morgan sighs, nodding Dec 08 20:27:53 Perhaps Dec 08 20:30:01 * Molly pulls away, looking up at him “I’d have been your mistress.” Dec 08 20:30:53 But... you won't be. Dec 08 20:31:16 I do not see how I can be now Dec 08 20:31:32 Because you are to wed Dec 08 20:33:34 I have to now, don’t I? Dec 08 20:34:10 Bceause you said you would Dec 08 20:34:35 * Molly nods Dec 08 20:34:58 It’s well-known I am to wed. My reputation would be ruined even further here Dec 08 20:35:09 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:35:11 I understand Dec 08 20:36:41 * Molly looks at him solemnly “I’m sorry” Dec 08 20:37:18 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:37:20 As am I Dec 08 20:38:00 * Molly looks emotional again “I wish I could be with you” Dec 08 20:38:13 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:38:16 As do I Dec 08 20:38:45 *A maid calls his name* Dec 08 20:39:04 * Morgan sighs, moving to the door Dec 08 20:39:06 Yes? Dec 08 20:39:54 *She tells him they need some help moving furniture* Dec 08 20:40:10 I'll be there moentarily Dec 08 20:41:06 *the maid acknowledges this* Dec 08 20:41:17 * Morgan looks back to Molly Dec 08 20:41:19 I have to go Dec 08 20:41:40 * Molly nods, sadly “I have to clean up the spilled milk* Dec 08 20:42:35 * Morgan nods Dec 08 20:44:11 * Molly rallies a little, smiling Dec 08 20:44:20 There’s no use crying over it... Dec 08 20:44:56 * Morgan nods, moving toward the door Dec 08 20:45:24 I truly hope you find happiness... Dec 08 20:46:19 And I You Dec 08 20:47:13 * Morgan smiles sadly Dec 08 20:47:18 That ship has sailed Dec 08 20:50:18 I have an awful feeling it has for me also. Though perhaps I’ll at least be a mother, and I will love that *It hurts in his chest, the thought of her pregnant and blossoming, of the tenderness of seeing her cradle a newborn, radiant with love and joy. How maybe that could have been with him, not Jaeger* Dec 08 20:51:02 * Morgan scowls Dec 08 20:51:05 I'm sorry, I need to go Dec 08 20:51:22 * Molly nods sadly “Yes, sir.” Dec 08 20:51:57 * Morgan quietly leaves, biting at his cheek as he goes to find wherever the furniture needs moving from Dec 08 20:52:42 *he finds it, and the physical work is welcome, but before long it is done, and he’s left at a loose end near her room with the broken blind Dec 08 20:54:08 * Morgan goes in to fix it Dec 08 20:58:00 *the room smells of her perfume, but also something more intriguing, more natural and feminine. The eiderdown is a little crumpled, and there’s a shift on the floor* Dec 08 20:58:26 * Morgan scowls, getting on with the blind Dec 08 20:59:52 *it’s extremely hard to focus on his work, and not how he’s in the room of the woman who said she wished she could be his mistress, knowing what he knows about what happened here earlier. Possibly, probably, was she thinking of him as she did it? Dec 08 21:01:52 * Morgan scowls, concentrating Dec 08 21:02:24 *try as he might, he feels his body stir regardless* Dec 08 21:04:08 * Morgan ignores it Dec 08 21:08:05 *he manages to get the blind fixed. He avoids mealtimes, managing to avoid both Molly and Jaeger until well after bedtime, though not the thoughts of their leaving, nor the thoughts of how intensely she’d kissed him. He’s just going into his room when she comes out. She’s in a dressing gown and slippers, her long hair unbound like it had been yesterday after the pool. it glows in the light of the two candles they’re carrying Dec 08 21:08:09 Oh! Dec 08 21:08:53 * Morgan watches her Dec 08 21:09:27 * Molly blushes Dec 08 21:09:39 Sorry, I was just going to get some tea Dec 08 21:10:21 In my room... Dec 08 21:11:33 I was leaving you something Dec 08 21:12:23 Why? Dec 08 21:12:51 A token of my affection... *this is what he’d said the mirror would be* Dec 08 21:13:13 * Morgan frowns Dec 08 21:15:16 it’s nothing much Dec 08 21:16:29 But -why-? You've made it clear where your future lies... once you are gone, it'd be deeply frowned upon to even write to me Dec 08 21:16:54 Precisely. So you will always have something to remember me by Dec 08 21:17:12 A reminder of what I want but can never have Dec 08 21:19:27 * Molly sighs Dec 08 21:19:36 It was a stupid idea. I’m sorry Dec 08 21:21:06 I understand the desire to... Dec 08 21:21:46 * Molly nods, stepping back into his room Dec 08 21:22:02 * Morgan waits outside Dec 08 21:23:03 *she’s back in a minute. She looks serious* I will ask Curtis tomorrow to find me a small cottage to live in until I am gone. Dec 08 21:23:20 As you wish Dec 08 21:23:54 * Molly looks at him so sadly “I wish you didn’t seem to hate me now” Dec 08 21:25:18 I don't. But this... it -hurts- and I can do nothing about it. Dec 08 21:26:32 * Molly nods “I am not -choosing- this. I have no choice” Dec 08 21:26:57 I didn't say otherwise Dec 08 21:27:29 * Molly nods Dec 08 21:27:38 It’s important that you know that Dec 08 21:28:04 And yet it can make no difference Dec 08 21:28:31 No. Yet you’ve taken up all my thoughts the remainder of the day Dec 08 21:29:37 * Morgan nods Dec 08 21:31:38 * Molly watches him before she says “goodnight, Morgan” Dec 08 21:32:12 Goodnight Molly Dec 08 21:33:19 * Molly looks pained by him not calling her blossom as he usually does, and moves past him Dec 08 21:34:23 * Morgan goes into his room, muttering to himself Dec 08 21:35:38 *he manages to get ready for bed, but whatever she’d brought in must have smelled of her and been left on his pillow, because all he can smell is her now. Dec 08 21:36:45 * Morgan scowls, throwing the pillow on the floor and lying atop the covers Dec 08 21:39:29 *he hears her door open and then close. He’s tormented by the thoughts of her preparing for bed, the intimacy of that, the sweetness of a life shared, as well as whether she sleeps in a nightdress or naked, her kiss earlier, and how she’s now going to be in that bed, possibly tormented by thoughts of him too Dec 08 21:39:51 * Morgan rolls onto his side, curling up Dec 08 21:41:34 *Even this doesn’t help, her body could tuck up in front of his like this, those lovely hips, her soft bottom that had tormented him last night now well and truly back in his mind’s eye Dec 08 21:42:37 * Morgan sighs, rolling off the bed and rubbing his face roughly before leaving to go to the kitchen Dec 08 21:43:50 *he manages to get what he wants downstairs. Evie is just coming in from the gardens, but no one else is around Dec 08 21:44:08 * Morgan nods to her, sitting down at the table Dec 08 21:44:16 * Molly is now known as Evie Dec 08 21:45:11 * Evie reads this as an invite, so grabs some tea and biscuits and sits across from him “You alright, love?” Dec 08 21:45:40 As I ever am Dec 08 21:45:49 Can’t sleep? Dec 08 21:45:57 Even less than normal Dec 08 21:46:10 * Evie nods Dec 08 21:46:18 You heard about Molly then? Dec 08 21:46:24 Whats that? Dec 08 21:46:51 she’s not going to live in Tawstock like she thought Dec 08 21:47:01 No... Essex. Dec 08 21:47:16 No fecking idea where that is Dec 08 21:47:36 Its about as Far East as you can get without leaving Avalon Dec 08 21:47:44 * Evie nods Dec 08 21:48:08 I knew it was a long way. I guess we won’t see her much Dec 08 21:49:34 I don't imagine we'll ever see her again Dec 08 21:49:44 * Evie sighs heavily Dec 08 21:49:51 I really don’t want her going Dec 08 21:49:58 No? Dec 08 21:50:16 * Evie shakes her head Dec 08 21:50:50 I’ve not had a friend like that in ages, not since I was a girl. I’m going to miss her Dec 08 21:51:04 * Morgan nods Dec 08 21:51:11 You could probably find work over that way Dec 08 21:51:24 * Evie smiles Dec 08 21:51:49 yeah! maybe. Maybe she’ll put in a word for me with his family Dec 08 21:52:10 Possibly, aye Dec 08 21:52:28 Maybe she’d do it for you too? Dec 08 21:52:43 No, I have to stay here Dec 08 21:53:14 Molly might need your help there though? And you’re really good friends, I bet she’d miss you Dec 08 21:54:27 She doesn't need me, she'll ave her husband... and I've a duty here Dec 08 21:54:42 * Evie looks around Dec 08 21:55:01 Between you an me, I don’t think she really seems to love him Dec 08 21:55:17 No? Dec 08 21:56:13 They never hold hands, or kiss or anything Dec 08 21:56:25 Cant say I'd want to with him either Dec 08 21:59:49 My mum said that some kissing and stuff is important when you love someone. *she eats a biscuit* That’s how you know they love you, you can feel it in how they kiss you... or not. *she crumbles some of the biscuit on the plate* Dec 08 22:00:42 So I gather Dec 08 22:02:22 * Evie nods sadly “well, maybe they kiss when I’m not watching, and they do really love each other. What do you think?” Dec 08 22:02:45 * Morgan shrugs, sipping his coffee Dec 08 22:02:57 Cant say I've seen them Dec 08 22:03:34 * Evie nods Dec 08 22:03:49 She wouldn’t marr6 him unless she wanted to though, right? Dec 08 22:04:04 * Morgan shrugs Dec 08 22:04:18 For safety and security perhaps Dec 08 22:05:48 I think deserves better Dec 08 22:05:51 she* Dec 08 22:06:29 * Morgan nods Dec 08 22:06:34 She deserves to be happy Dec 08 22:06:39 * Evie nods Dec 08 22:06:50 I don’t think she’ll be happy with him Dec 08 22:07:01 No, possibly not, but that is her choice Dec 08 22:07:19 People don’t always have choices though Dec 08 22:07:46 So I'm told Dec 08 22:08:14 * Evie sighs, resting her cheek on her hand Dec 08 22:08:29 can’t we do someth8ng? Dec 08 22:08:39 Like? Dec 08 22:09:06 Persuade her to stay? She has to work here, but that’s not that bad Dec 08 22:09:55 Calling off the betrothal would damage her reputation Dec 08 22:10:49 * Evie sighs again “I wish I was rich. Then Molly and I could go somewhere else and start a shop, and no one would know her anyway” Dec 08 22:11:38 That'd be nice Dec 08 22:11:53 * Evie nods Dec 08 22:12:10 I could find her a good husband, one she’d really love Dec 08 22:12:25 * Morgan nods Dec 08 22:12:32 She deserves that Dec 08 22:13:02 * Evie nods, thinking Dec 08 22:13:31 Hey! I know! I could ask Captain Tsaylur, maybe she can find us work! Dec 08 22:13:49 * Morgan nods Dec 08 22:13:53 That could work Dec 08 22:14:57 * Evie nods, grinning “As long as she’s out of Tawstock and not hanging out with nobles, her reputation won’t matter much” Dec 08 22:15:48 Thats... true... Dec 08 22:17:02 * Evie smiles “I know he’d be a bit upset, but maybe we could even go to Montaigne, or Vendel. It can’t be that fecking hard to learn another new language” Dec 08 22:17:26 * Morgan smiles a little Dec 08 22:17:32 Could be right Dec 08 22:18:35 * Evie nods, looking excited “Okay... I just have to do it before she leaves, right? Can I borrow some money to send a letter?” Dec 08 22:18:52 * Morgan nods Dec 08 22:18:56 aye Dec 08 22:19:34 * Evie downs her tea Dec 08 22:19:46 I’m going to go and ask Molly right now! Dec 08 22:20:06 At this hour? Dec 08 22:20:58 * Evie looks deflated Dec 08 22:21:11 yeah, I guess it’s pretty late Dec 08 22:21:28 She might still be up... Dec 08 22:22:00 Do you think I should? Dec 08 22:23:13 * Morgan shrugs Dec 08 22:23:33 I could hear her move about before I came down Dec 08 22:23:41 * Evie nods “Thanks love. Night” Dec 08 22:23:51 Goodnight Eiblinn Dec 08 22:24:02 * Evie goes off, leaving him alone Dec 08 22:24:20 * Morgan stays where he is, drinking his coffee slowly Dec 08 22:25:20 *It’s definitely given him something to consider. Could he leave again, set up somewhere new, if it meant having Molly at his side?* Dec 08 22:46:27 * Evie has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Dec 08 23:26:19 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)