**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Wed Nov 20 16:56:30 2024 Nov 20 16:56:30 * MorganK (~MorganKoe@host81-129-176-108.range81-129.btcentralplus.com) has joined Nov 20 17:05:04 * MorganK has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 20 17:11:06 * MorganK (~MorganKoe@host81-129-176-108.range81-129.btcentralplus.com) has joined Nov 20 17:17:42 * MorganK has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 20 17:21:16 * MorganK (~MorganKoe@host81-129-176-108.range81-129.btcentralplus.com) has joined Nov 20 17:21:28 * MorganK has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 20 17:38:39 * MorganK (~MorganKoe@host81-129-176-108.range81-129.btcentralplus.com) has joined Nov 20 18:03:32 * MorganK has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 20 18:10:29 * MorganK (~MorganKoe@host81-129-176-108.range81-129.btcentralplus.com) has joined Nov 20 18:48:53 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Nov 20 18:54:09 **he starts to dream. Everything had happened like reality up to the time they're outside the monastery in Castile. Instead of her spotting him walking around, he sees her as dusk is approaching stood underneath an oak tree watching the leaves fall He's due to leave tomorrow, to head back to Sudlachenburg and face into the situation. His things are packed, not that he's travelling with many.* Nov 20 18:55:16 * MorganK sighs, wandering toward her Nov 20 18:57:20 * Molly doesn’t notice, the leaves matching the red of her hair as the grey mist does with her cloak. If only he could paint, it would make a pretty picture Nov 20 18:58:06 * MorganK watches her quietly Nov 20 19:02:30 * Molly tries to catch a leaf, but it slips from her fingers Nov 20 19:08:16 Are you alright? Nov 20 19:08:25 * Molly looks surprised to see him Nov 20 19:09:20 Oh! Yes, I am. And you? Nov 20 19:09:33 You seem... pensive... Nov 20 19:11:23 * Molly picks the most vibrant leaf from the ground Nov 20 19:11:32 I was just thinking is all Nov 20 19:13:43 Oh? Nov 20 19:13:51 About who I am. Who I was, and who I will be. Nov 20 19:19:53 * MorganK nods Nov 20 19:19:59 I can understand those being confusing Nov 20 19:20:30 * Molly nods Nov 20 19:21:35 I don't -know- who I will be a year from now, or a month from now… I don't even know who I'll be an hour from now *she examines the leaf in her hand* Nov 20 19:21:52 * MorganK nods Nov 20 19:21:57 I don't think anyone knows that Nov 20 19:22:30 * Molly nods a little Nov 20 19:22:33 Something Colonel Dau said… Nov 20 19:23:24 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 19:23:27 What? Nov 20 19:23:51 He said it was lucky for Jaeger that he tied me down before any man could snatch me up, my ship included Nov 20 19:24:44 * MorganK scowls Nov 20 19:24:51 Shows what sort of man -he- is Nov 20 19:25:23 * Molly shrugs a little, running her finger over the vein in the leaf Nov 20 19:25:45 What if I do not want to be tied down like that? Nov 20 19:26:17 * MorganK sighs Nov 20 19:26:24 Then you have the perfect escape right now Nov 20 19:26:35 * Molly nods Nov 20 19:27:06 I do, don’t I? I could start over, make a new life and find myself Nov 20 19:29:27 * MorganK nods a ilttle Nov 20 19:30:35 I wouldn’t need to still be their cast-out sullied daughter... I wouldn’t need to still curtsey to people who think of me as even less than that. Nov 20 19:30:53 * MorganK nods, watching her Nov 20 19:31:56 * Molly looks around the large quiet gardens Nov 20 19:32:04 I could be something great Nov 20 19:33:08 * MorganK speaks quietly Nov 20 19:33:10 You already are Nov 20 19:33:45 * Molly smiles, blushing “That is very kind, thank you” Nov 20 19:34:02 I think we both know I am not kid Nov 20 19:35:01 * Molly shakes her head “You are wrong. You have helped me gain the confidence I’ve needed to consider this step away and into a new life as a self-made woman” Nov 20 19:35:28 I see Nov 20 19:36:32 * Molly smiles “I will never forget everything you’ve done for me, dear heart” Nov 20 19:36:52 * MorganK nods a little, looking out across the grounds Nov 20 19:38:38 Siegfried has asked if I will sail along the southern Castile and Vodacce coasts, perhaps even as far as the Empire Of The Cresent moon, to help look for his wife Nov 20 19:39:31 I see Nov 20 19:40:16 * Molly smiles “He will fund the voyages, but I will find some trade too. It’ll be a challenge, but an adventure too” Nov 20 19:40:52 I suppose it will Nov 20 19:41:17 I would write, if you wish? Nov 20 19:41:37 * MorganK shrugs Nov 20 19:41:39 If you wish Nov 20 19:42:01 * Molly nods, letting the leaf fall to the floor Nov 20 19:42:18 I would like to stay in touch with my friends Nov 20 19:42:53 * MorganK nods a little Nov 20 19:42:58 Im sure Nov 20 19:43:15 * Molly nods “where will you be? Nov 20 19:44:59 * MorganK shrugs Nov 20 19:45:08 I don't know. Perhaps I won't return to Avalon Nov 20 19:45:47 * Molly frowns a little, watching him “Oh... you may want to stay with your family again?” Nov 20 19:46:17 * MorganK shrugs Nov 20 19:46:21 I doubt it Nov 20 19:47:35 * Molly sighs quietly, watching the breeze pull more bright leaves from the tree “I hope you find happiness and peace” Nov 20 19:51:17 I don't see that happening... not anymore Nov 20 19:51:59 I will continue to pray for it regardless... *she watches him intently but with a pained frown* Nov 20 19:53:21 If you wish to Nov 20 19:53:58 * Molly plucks a leaf from the tree, now not making eye contact Nov 20 19:54:04 It matters to me. Nov 20 19:54:23 Does it? Nov 20 19:55:22 Yes, absolutely. *she concentrates on the leaf in her hand* The truth is, Morgan, I love you. Far, far more than I wanted to. Nov 20 19:55:37 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 19:55:42 What? Nov 20 19:55:52 * Molly winces Nov 20 19:56:05 Oh I definitely shouldn’t have said that. Nov 20 19:56:39 * MorganK turns to look at her Nov 20 19:57:03 *she is still looking down at the leaf* Nov 20 19:57:48 I see Nov 20 19:57:58 * Molly nods Nov 20 19:58:08 It is another reason I should go. Nov 20 19:59:26 Why? Nov 20 20:00:18 I have been through so much hurt and pain, I cannot let myself pine for a good, decent man who is still married in his heart Nov 20 20:01:04 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 20:01:05 I see Nov 20 20:01:48 * Molly nods “I think that would be best, for us both” Nov 20 20:02:38 Why? Nov 20 20:04:23 We saw in Carleon that I cannot be trusted not to put you in positions where you would be interested in kissing me. I admire your fidelity and loyalty. I envy that devotion and love. Nov 20 20:05:16 I see... if that is what you wish Nov 20 20:06:56 I cannot keep feeling for you like this. Loving someone else’s husband is not right, and it is painful Nov 20 20:08:47 I see Nov 20 20:09:15 * Molly nods Nov 20 20:09:36 I didn’t intend for it to happen, and I have tried my damndest not to Nov 20 20:10:46 You would prefer it not Nov 20 20:11:19 It is both futile and childish of me Nov 20 20:11:36 Alright. Nov 20 20:12:31 * Molly nods “I will treasure the time we shared in Carleon, and I am glad that my first kiss was so perfect” Nov 20 20:13:09 As you wish Nov 20 20:13:57 * Molly smiles gently “I only hope that those in my future come anywhere near close to it!” Nov 20 20:14:53 * MorganK scowls, looking at the horizon Nov 20 20:15:21 * Molly watches him with puzzlement “That makes you feel jealous?!” Nov 20 20:15:34 I don't see that matters Nov 20 20:15:54 I have been extremely truthful with you... Nov 20 20:17:28 Yes, I noticed Nov 20 20:18:13 But you do not wish to do the same? Nov 20 20:18:55 You've made it clear that you do not wish to feel anything for me, and that you wish to leave... I don't see there's anything I could say that makes any difference Nov 20 20:19:41 I suppose we will never know, will we? Nov 20 20:20:36 * MorganK sighs Nov 20 20:24:17 * Molly watches him a long moment Nov 20 20:27:36 How would you feel, having heard all that? Nov 20 20:28:37 Surprised. Though Curtis claims to love me, I’m not sure he loves me anything like this! Nov 20 20:30:40 No... I meant imagine I've just told you I loved you but I'm going away because I don't want to, maybe I'll write to you... and then I asked for your feelings? Nov 20 20:31:59 if I had already met and married the love of my life, I imagine I’d feel relieved Nov 20 20:32:25 .me scowls Nov 20 20:32:29 well... I don't Nov 20 20:32:47 oh. *she looks upset* I’ve hurt you? Nov 20 20:33:23 It doesn\t matter Nov 20 20:33:35 yes it does! Of course it does! Nov 20 20:34:32 You need to do what is best for your future Nov 20 20:35:15 * Molly wipes her eyes with the back of her hand Nov 20 20:35:46 I do, but that doesn’t stop it hurting right now Nov 20 20:37:03 * MorganK sighs frustratedly Nov 20 20:38:26 * Molly watches him, sighing “I shouldn’t have said anything, and just gone on my way without causing distress to you” Nov 20 20:41:08 * MorganK watches her for a moment Nov 20 20:41:15 If that is what you wish to do, I understand Nov 20 20:41:36 It is hard to love like this. Nov 20 20:41:54 * MorganK sighs, nodding Nov 20 20:44:46 Yes, it is Nov 20 20:48:04 * Molly watches him, giving up on keeping the feelings off her face, and she watches him with love and fondness and attraction written clear Nov 20 20:53:36 I’m Rey Nov 20 20:53:40 sorry* Nov 20 20:53:45 What for? Nov 20 20:54:01 Hurting you Nov 20 20:54:29 * MorganK nods a little Nov 20 20:54:32 I don't want you to leave Nov 20 20:55:04 Why? Nov 20 20:56:18 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 20:56:29 I don't wish to be without you Nov 20 20:57:26 You can make more friends, you’ve opened up so much Nov 20 20:57:46 * MorganK snorts Nov 20 20:58:34 * Molly blushes, looking awkward Nov 20 21:00:03 I've no interest in having friends Nov 20 21:00:22 But you will miss our friendship? Nov 20 21:01:57 * MorganK sighs, looking away Nov 20 21:02:27 Please, let’s be honest with each other Nov 20 21:02:50 I already have been, you are still leaving. Nov 20 21:03:46 I do not know what it is you want of me... Nov 20 21:04:03 I told you. I don't want you to leave Nov 20 21:04:55 But -why-? Nov 20 21:06:34 because... I care for you... you make me... -better- Nov 20 21:07:15 * Molly looks surprised “I do?!” Nov 20 21:09:14 * MorganK nods Nov 20 21:10:01 * Molly nods, smiling Nov 20 21:10:09 I am pleased I have helped Nov 20 21:12:16 * MorganK nods a little Nov 20 21:12:52 * Molly watches him before saying softly Nov 20 21:12:57 Come with me. Nov 20 21:13:26 No... you've made it clear you wish to leave alone Nov 20 21:14:05 * Molly comes to him, catching ahold of his hand “Come with me. Please.” Nov 20 21:15:48 I don't know. I need to see my family Nov 20 21:16:22 * Molly squeezes gently, looking up at him “But you’ll think about it?” Nov 20 21:16:48 * MorganK nods slightly Nov 20 21:17:11 We could learn to sail together Nov 20 21:17:55 * MorganK blinks Nov 20 21:18:08 I... might have a bit of an advantage there... Nov 20 21:18:48 You are naturally stronger, that would help. You can even pick me up, which is a feat of strength! Nov 20 21:18:58 * Molly blushes then, and looks away Nov 20 21:19:28 * MorganK shakes his head a little Nov 20 21:19:29 Its not that Nov 20 21:19:35 no? Nov 20 21:19:52 I have a little experience... Nov 20 21:20:00 * Molly smiles Nov 20 21:20:10 Well then I definitely need to have you! Nov 20 21:21:20 You need to find a captain Nov 20 21:21:53 * Molly nods Nov 20 21:22:06 Could you be my Captain? Nov 20 21:23:09 * MorganK shakes his head Nov 20 21:23:19 No... I'm not experienced enough Nov 20 21:23:34 * Molly nods Nov 20 21:23:48 Alright... I will find someone else Nov 20 21:24:38 Last thing you need is me ploughing the ship into a dock Nov 20 21:25:27 * Molly smiles Nov 20 21:25:33 I would forgive you Nov 20 21:25:50 * MorganK shrugs Nov 20 21:26:20 * Molly takes a deep breath before saying Nov 20 21:26:26 May I ask you something? Nov 20 21:26:37 * MorganK nods Nov 20 21:26:38 If you wish Nov 20 21:26:52 Do you wish you hadn’t kissed me that night? Nov 20 21:27:01 No Nov 20 21:27:37 Even knowing that I fell in love with you since? Nov 20 21:28:08 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 21:28:16 No... I should... but I don't Nov 20 21:28:27 * Molly nods Nov 20 21:28:40 If only things were different... Nov 20 21:29:59 How? Nov 20 21:30:53 If there was a hope that you could feel the same... if you could have been meant for me... Nov 20 21:31:32 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 21:31:39 Its difficult... I care for you, deeply Nov 20 21:31:49 I know, we are good friends Nov 20 21:32:08 For god sake, for someone so smart you can be so incredibly dense Nov 20 21:33:03 then speak plainly! Nov 20 21:33:30 I care for you, more than as a friend Nov 20 21:35:58 oh... like a Companion? Nov 20 21:36:15 * MorganK looks a little uncomfortable Nov 20 21:36:17 More Nov 20 21:38:13 * Molly blushes Nov 20 21:38:17 oh! Nov 20 21:40:24 * Molly smiles shyly “I never thought I’d be pretty enough for anyone to feel like that” Nov 20 21:40:52 Clearly you've been wrong at least twice Nov 20 21:41:05 twice. Nov 20 21:41:06 ? Nov 20 21:42:30 Jaeger... Nov 20 21:43:24 * Molly is micro expressions reveal disgust Nov 20 21:43:57 I try to never think of the wifely duties I would have to perform for him Nov 20 21:44:44 * MorganK nods Nov 20 21:44:48 Cant say I blame you Nov 20 21:45:27 it already sounds quite tedious, but with him it seems revolting Nov 20 21:46:21 Tedious? Nov 20 21:47:27 well yes. I lie on my back whilst he ummm mounts me, and then a few minutes later he is finished and I am done for a few days Nov 20 21:47:49 Someones doing it wrong then Nov 20 21:48:10 but that is how it is, my mother told me Nov 20 21:53:39 Then I pity your mother Nov 20 21:53:59 * Molly nods slowly Nov 20 21:54:06 It’s not like that? Nov 20 21:54:45 Not if its done right Nov 20 21:54:56 * Molly nods slowly Nov 20 21:55:08 And you would want to do it right, with me?! Nov 20 21:56:17 * MorganK blushes Nov 20 21:56:36 uhhhh... look, feeling, well... -anything- again is still new for me... Nov 20 21:56:51 * Molly nods Nov 20 21:57:41 This is very difficult and confusing, isn’t it? Nov 20 21:58:14 yes... it really is Nov 20 21:59:05 * Molly looks serious Nov 20 21:59:26 I do not seek to replace your wife. Nov 20 22:00:50 * MorganK nods solemnly Nov 20 22:00:53 I know Nov 20 22:02:04 I wish I could have that sort of devotion. I wish I was the sort of woman who could inspire a good man to such commitment and adoration Nov 20 22:05:43 * MorganK sighs, looking pained Nov 20 22:06:20 That wasn’t... I wasn’t asking for you to do that. Nov 20 22:06:50 I know... but it is difficult Nov 20 22:06:56 why? Nov 20 22:07:34 Because I don't feel its fair to you Nov 20 22:09:14 I am under no illusions that you could ever love me like that. Your heart will always be elsewhere. Nov 20 22:10:57 I was under no illusions that I would never care for anyone again, or even have friends... Nov 20 22:12:00 That is different. But I am not asking you to try. I can settle simply for being cared for, if the one caring is you... Nov 20 22:12:31 * MorganK nods a little Nov 20 22:13:41 For a while, we could be a bit more than friends Nov 20 22:14:00 * MorganK nods Nov 20 22:15:50 * Molly lets go of his hand gently “I should go, Colonel Dau invited me to be his partner for whist, and Lieutenant Kristoban had a map book to show me. I am suddenly popular!” Nov 20 22:16:18 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 22:16:22 I don't like him... Nov 20 22:16:27 why not? Nov 20 22:16:53 Haven't put my finger on it yet Nov 20 22:17:44 * Molly nods “I find them both quite charming, and it’s nice to be wanted” Nov 20 22:18:15 You already were Nov 20 22:19:02 * Molly watches him “For cards and company...”” Nov 20 22:22:15 * MorganK frowns Nov 20 22:22:19 Be careful. I don't trust them Nov 20 22:22:37 why not? what is it you think will happen? Nov 20 22:23:04 I'm not sure Nov 20 22:23:21 * Molly nods Nov 20 22:23:40 I shouldn’t really dally out here when I’m expected... Nov 20 22:23:56 If that is your wish Nov 20 22:24:30 You can think of a reason to stay out here longer? Nov 20 22:24:56 * MorganK shrugs Nov 20 22:25:46 * Molly nods, and gently kisses his cheek before stepping back “Will I see you before you go?” Nov 20 22:26:03 * MorganK nods Nov 20 22:26:05 Yes, you will Nov 20 22:26:38 * Molly moves back towards the monestary Nov 20 22:29:24 *he gets the chance to stop her, to take a moment in the empty gardens, or will have to let her go to her evening no doubt being flirted with by other men* Nov 20 22:30:27 * MorganK has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 20 22:49:29 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client)