**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon Sep 2 19:09:50 2024 Sep 02 19:09:50 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Sep 02 19:44:57 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Sep 02 19:45:13 *she looks relaxed as the children all gather around the basket, even Emil under Verity’s supervision. It’s nice and warm, and his home is peaceful aside from the chatting children, the Sudlache sparkly and lapping at the shore. Sep 02 19:45:13 * Morgan watches the children Sep 02 19:45:13 *Florrie isn’t looking at him directly, she’s showing an apple to Adalbrecht, but for a moment she looks so much like Jana that it’s dizzying. Why couldn’t they have done this then?* Sep 02 19:45:13 * Morgan shakes his head a moment, looking away Sep 02 19:45:15 * Molly squeezes gently Sep 02 19:45:17 [it’s alright, my love] Sep 02 19:45:19 [I don't know I can deal with it] Sep 02 19:45:21 * Molly looks to the others Sep 02 19:45:23 Will you excuse us? I need to stretch my legs a little. We won’t be long Sep 02 19:45:25 *They all nod. No one smirks, surprisingly* Sep 02 19:45:27 * Morgan gets up, offering his hand Sep 02 19:45:29 * Molly takes it, standing up. She makes a show of pressing her hand to her lower back before they move off towards the maze Sep 02 19:48:00 * Molly looks around to check they’re out of sight of anyone before she embraces him Sep 02 19:49:33 * Morgan leans into her, drawing deep, ragged breaths Sep 02 19:53:34 * Molly holds him tightly [magic?] Sep 02 19:53:50 * Morgan nods a little Sep 02 19:55:36 *his neck prickles, and his body relaxes* Sep 02 19:56:08 * Morgan tries to slow his breathing Sep 02 19:57:30 it’s naturally to be upset, my love Sep 02 19:57:39 * Morgan nods Sep 02 19:57:41 I suppose so Sep 02 19:58:24 I imagine everyone is feeling complicated feelings Sep 02 19:58:36 * Morgan nods Sep 02 19:58:53 I'm trying to see past my pain to theirs but... I just can't right now Sep 02 20:00:54 * Molly nods Sep 02 20:01:11 what can I do to help? Sep 02 20:01:19 * Morgan shrugs Sep 02 20:01:21 I don't know Sep 02 20:02:59 * Molly nods, just holding him Sep 02 20:03:59 * Morgan sighs heavily Sep 02 20:04:16 Its like... I was thinking. Why couldn't they have done this for Jana... but I know why Sep 02 20:05:59 Because the social rules are ridiculous and unkind. Sep 02 20:07:04 * Morgan nods Sep 02 20:09:33 * Molly sighs “it is unfair, I know. Florrie was born on the wrong side of the blanket, but he can acknowledge her and everything is fine...” Sep 02 20:10:26 * Morgan nods, scowling Sep 02 20:13:43 Perhaps you should talk to them? Sep 02 20:13:53 And spoil their joy? Sep 02 20:16:25 * Molly sighs Sep 02 20:16:29 I suppose not Sep 02 20:16:48 * Morgan nods Sep 02 20:16:51 I'll be alright Sep 02 20:17:50 I know you will, my love. You are very str9ng Sep 02 20:18:21 * Morgan shrugs Sep 02 20:18:29 Doesn't really feel that way Sep 02 20:21:19 You are. Sep 02 20:21:32 * Morgan shakes his head Sep 02 20:24:03 you are maintaining your temper with them, and not rejecting Florrie Sep 02 20:24:32 I suppose so Sep 02 20:27:45 And you have not taken your horse and run away, as I likely would Sep 02 20:28:08 Because -my- horse is a days ride away Sep 02 20:29:24 * Molly smiles slightly “Any horse will do in a pinch” Sep 02 20:29:36 * Morgan shrugs Sep 02 20:30:36 perhaps it would be a good time to walk to see how Sascha is? Sep 02 20:31:01 I'm not sure... Sep 02 20:33:01 I would come with you, if you needed me? Sep 02 20:33:24 * Morgan looks torn Sep 02 20:34:32 I just... I don't know. I feel like I should endure it and stay here Sep 02 20:36:52 it is tough to know what would be the best thing for you Sep 02 20:37:42 * Morgan nods Sep 02 20:37:44 Yes it is Sep 02 20:40:19 if we were at home I’d suggest a swim Sep 02 20:40:28 Definitely not doing that Sep 02 20:44:33 * Molly smiles Sep 02 20:44:46 That would give you a whole other range of problems! Sep 02 20:44:55 * Morgan nods Sep 02 20:44:57 Aye Sep 02 20:46:43 * Molly squeezes him gently “I will do whatever you wish” Sep 02 20:47:12 * Morgan nods, sighing Sep 02 20:47:15 I just don't know Sep 02 20:49:49 Maybe we’ll just walk around the house, and see how you feel when we get back towards them? Sep 02 20:49:59 * Morgan nods Sep 02 20:50:01 Alright love Sep 02 20:56:54 *This is what they do, hand in hand. He does feel a little more settled by the time they get as far as the graveyard archway Sep 02 20:57:27 * Morgan looks toward the graveyard Sep 02 20:57:32 I told them about Hirschen Sep 02 20:59:09 * Molly nods “How was that?” Sep 02 20:59:47 * Morgan shrugs Sep 02 21:00:11 Perhaps when I am not so down I will feel they understand Sep 02 21:03:20 * Molly nods “I am sure they would. From what people say of her, I cannot imagine Dietlinde anything other than pleased that you were going to be giving your wonderful fathering to more children” Sep 02 21:03:38 Probably not, no Sep 02 21:07:19 * Molly nods Sep 02 21:07:48 Did you wish to visit the graves again? Sep 02 21:08:09 No... Not today Sep 02 21:08:18 * Molly nods Sep 02 21:09:13 would drawing help? Sep 02 21:10:55 Maybe... I don't know I could concentrate Sep 02 21:11:06 * Molly nods Sep 02 21:11:32 It is a shame Claudia and Heinzharold are both at home, and you’ll not train with me Sep 02 21:11:40 correct Sep 02 21:11:45 Its too big a risk Sep 02 21:11:58 * Molly nods Sep 02 21:12:05 oh, what about DeeDee? Sep 02 21:12:25 thats... not a bad idea actually Sep 02 21:12:35 * Molly smiles happily Sep 02 21:12:58 Great! Shall I go back and send him to you? Sep 02 21:13:34 No, we'll both go... I will not hide away Sep 02 21:14:19 * Molly nods, but she keeps holding his hand even when they get there Sep 02 21:16:09 Verity: *She smiles* Are you feeling better now, Molly? Sep 02 21:16:30 * Molly smiles “I am, thank you” Sep 02 21:16:53 *The children are playing to one side, even Emil is toddling along* Sep 02 21:18:14 * Morgan watches them for a moment Sep 02 21:18:20 Could I borrow DeeDee for a few minutes? Sep 02 21:18:42 *DeeDee looks surprised, but stands up* Yes, your Excellency Sep 02 21:19:39 * Morgan inclines his head before heading away from the others Sep 02 21:19:45 * Molly is now known as DeeDee Sep 02 21:20:24 * DeeDee follows before quietly saying “I know I was sat beside Alice, but I swear I am not pursuing her” Sep 02 21:20:55 * Morgan shakes his head Sep 02 21:20:57 I need your help Sep 02 21:21:19 of course, my Lord Sep 02 21:21:48 I'm having a few... issues... with all this today... normally I'd grab HeinzHarold or Claudia to train but... Sep 02 21:22:29 * DeeDee nods Sep 02 21:22:38 I can stand in Sep 02 21:22:59 I'd appreciate that... it gives me something to focus on, clears my mind a little Sep 02 21:23:17 * DeeDee nods, letting Morgan find a good spot Sep 02 21:23:46 * Morgan does so, drawing his falchion, looking it over Sep 02 21:24:17 * DeeDee takes out his own sword Sep 02 21:24:44 * Morgan salutes him Sep 02 21:24:50 In your own time Lieutenant Sep 02 21:26:18 * DeeDee salutes him before launching into an attack. He’s quite good, though nothing like as good as HH and Claudia. But he’s less predictable as Morgan has almost never fought him Sep 02 21:27:09 * Morgan works to match him Sep 02 21:27:50 *It’s a good workout, and the novelty makes a nice distraction* Sep 02 21:28:21 * Morgan eventually slows before backing up Sep 02 21:29:17 * DeeDee stretches it out Sep 02 21:29:53 * Morgan sheaths his sword before doing similar Sep 02 21:30:09 Thank you, DeeDee... its an unusual way to find some peace but... it helps me Sep 02 21:30:18 * DeeDee smiles Sep 02 21:30:43 You’re welcome. It helps me too Sep 02 21:30:57 * Morgan nods Sep 02 21:31:01 How are your nightmares now? Sep 02 21:31:13 They are still absent Sep 02 21:32:26 * Morgan smiles Sep 02 21:32:28 Excellent Sep 02 21:32:49 * DeeDee nods “it is” Sep 02 21:34:21 * Morgan nods Sep 02 21:34:24 I'm glad Sep 02 21:34:43 * DeeDee nods Sep 02 21:34:51 It makes everything easier Sep 02 21:36:05 I'd imagine it does Sep 02 21:36:54 * DeeDee nods Sep 02 21:37:39 Keeping Tiggy and his lady safe will be much simpler when I am not distracted by that pain Sep 02 21:37:58 * Morgan nods Sep 02 21:40:01 * DeeDee puts his sword away Sep 02 21:40:23 * Morgan rolls his neck Sep 02 21:42:07 Is there anything else I can do? I could go to find Claudia or Heinzharold? Sep 02 21:43:49 * Morgan shakes his head Sep 02 21:43:57 No, thank you... I think I'll be alright now Sep 02 21:44:19 * DeeDee nods Sep 02 21:45:29 Shall we join the others? Sep 02 21:46:09 * DeeDee nods, going with him. As usual, he isn’t particularly chatty, but it’s an easy quiet Sep 02 21:46:28 * Morgan wanders back toward the others Sep 02 21:47:43 *The children are still playing. Adalbrecht and Verity have gone indoors Sep 02 21:48:57 * Morgan moves near Molly, watching the children Sep 02 21:50:15 *the breeze of the lake means the scent of her will be a problem if he stays this close. The children are rolling a ball to each other Sep 02 21:51:35 * Morgan moves a little Sep 02 21:52:43 *Edward notices this, frowning slightly as he watches both Morgan and Molly* Sep 02 21:52:53 * Morgan looks at him questioningly Sep 02 21:54:42 Ed: Is all well, brother? Sep 02 21:55:00 * DeeDee then looks up, concerned Sep 02 21:55:03 * Morgan nods it is Sep 02 21:56:29 [how do you feel now?] Sep 02 21:56:37 [calmer] Sep 02 21:57:06 [wonderful] Sep 02 21:57:28 [bit of a different challenge with him] Sep 02 21:57:46 *Emil comes over to Morgan, laughing when he gets to his legs* Sep 02 21:57:57 * Morgan smiles, picking him up Sep 02 21:58:00 Well hello little man Sep 02 21:58:57 *Emil grins, not even slightly burdened by the things that were burdening Morgan* Sep 02 22:20:06 * DeeDee has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Sep 02 22:59:40 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)