**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Fri Aug 23 20:10:32 2024 Aug 23 20:10:32 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Aug 23 20:10:34 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Aug 23 20:11:06 You’re doing well. She’d be proud to see the boys and the light in your eyes again Aug 23 20:11:06 * Morgan nods, breathing slowly Aug 23 20:11:06 Twenty five years ago today, I first felt her move. That’s why I came today Aug 23 20:11:06 * Morgan nods Aug 23 20:11:06 You're sure you don't' want some privacy? Aug 23 20:11:09 * Otto smiles “I’m fine like this” Aug 23 20:11:11 * Morgan nods quietly Aug 23 20:11:13 * Otto stays quiet a few minutes too before he says “I need to get back, I don’t like to leave her, even with Martha” Aug 23 20:11:15 * Morgan nods Aug 23 20:11:17 Of course... give her my love Aug 23 20:11:21 * Otto smiles “I will. She’s been out in the garden to cut those, now that her ‘exercises’ are helping her hips Aug 23 20:11:23 * Morgan nods, smiling a little Aug 23 20:11:25 Good, I'm glad its easier... Aug 23 20:11:27 * Otto nods Aug 23 20:11:29 It is. Thank Molly for me, please Aug 23 20:11:31 * Morgan nods Aug 23 20:11:33 I will Aug 23 20:11:35 * Otto stands up “I hope your burdens reduce” Aug 23 20:11:37 Thank you Otto Aug 23 20:11:39 * Otto inclines his head before leaving Aug 23 20:12:52 *Morgan faintly catches him saying* Apologies, my Lady Aug 23 20:15:27 * Morgan sighs, staying where he is Aug 23 20:16:15 * Molly is now known as Mina Aug 23 20:16:55 * Mina comes into the unfamiliar graveyard, looking around the tombstones as if trying to spot him Aug 23 20:18:19 * Morgan rolls his eyes, looking back at the headstone Aug 23 20:18:41 I suppose I'll have to talk to you later Aug 23 20:19:38 *Nothing changes there, it’s all restful and peaceful* Aug 23 20:19:58 * Morgan rolls his shoulders, standing up and brushing off his knees Aug 23 20:22:58 * Mina sees him. She stops at a distance, though her manner is less formal that one might expect given their conflict and her unfamiliar surroundings Aug 23 20:23:29 * Morgan glances at the headstone before moving toward her Aug 23 20:24:21 * Mina waits patiently Aug 23 20:32:49 * Morgan stops near her, watching her Aug 23 20:33:20 I wanted to talk Aug 23 20:33:32 Why? Aug 23 20:34:12 I’ve hurt you. It wasn’t my intention, but it’s my responsibility to fix Aug 23 20:34:26 * Morgan shrugs Aug 23 20:34:32 Why? Aug 23 20:35:15 Because I was at fault, and because you are my brother and I love you. Aug 23 20:37:31 Cant say it feels much like that Aug 23 20:38:34 I know. I underestimated how you would be suffering here Aug 23 20:40:06 Molly gave you an earful? Aug 23 20:41:01 no, we had a discussion Aug 23 20:43:59 * Morgan watches her, waiting Aug 23 20:44:31 * Mina watches him Aug 23 20:45:21 How do you intend to 'fix' it?? Aug 23 20:47:17 That is something I will need your help with. I do not know what would suffice. In our world, the options are for you as the offended party to accept my humblest apologies, or for you to ask me to name my champion for a duel Aug 23 20:48:10 I think there's been quite enough of other people being hurt because of your actions Aug 23 20:48:41 * Mina remains stoic at this, through years of training Aug 23 20:48:57 How would you prefer to resolve it? Aug 23 20:49:57 * Morgan shrugs Aug 23 20:50:12 I don't know. I've never felt -used- by someone I love before Aug 23 20:51:22 * Mina nods “A surefire sign that you were not born female.” Aug 23 20:53:53 * Morgan raises an eyebrow Aug 23 20:55:20 It was not my intent to use you, only to put you and Edward together here so that you could find a closure together from the animosity you shared Aug 23 20:57:11 * Morgan watches her, obviously weighing something up Aug 23 20:58:50 * Mina waits as patiently as she would in a tedious ballroom where male partners are severely outnumbered by female ones Aug 23 21:01:21 It was not my intent to put everyone and everything in danger... but I had to pay a heavy price for it regardless of my intentions Aug 23 21:02:06 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:02:10 Yes, you did Aug 23 21:04:06 * Morgan shrugs a little, looking away Aug 23 21:04:50 If there is a heavy price you intend for me to pay, then that is what I must do. Aug 23 21:06:12 Much as some believe otherwise... I am not cruel Aug 23 21:06:52 I would hope you were not Aug 23 21:09:41 I have not heard any apology Aug 23 21:11:18 I am very sorry. I want to continue the relationship we have been establishing. I have confided in you beyond the confidences I have given to your wife. Aug 23 21:11:41 Do you understand why I am so angry? Why I am so hurt? Aug 23 21:12:23 I was forcing your hand, and steering you like a rider steers a horse Aug 23 21:13:40 My hand gets forced all the time and -everyone- is trying to steer me one way or another... -you- used me, manipulated my feelings cavalierly to further your own agenda, when I -trusted- you. Aug 23 21:14:31 * Mina nods seriously Aug 23 21:14:48 I understand Aug 23 21:17:15 Do you? Aug 23 21:17:34 I’ve betrayed you Aug 23 21:17:55 * Morgan nods a little Aug 23 21:17:59 That is very much how it feels Aug 23 21:19:01 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:19:23 I am sorry for that. I understand that you will no longer trust me Aug 23 21:19:37 * Morgan moves closer, holding out his hands Aug 23 21:19:58 * Mina puts hers in his Aug 23 21:20:24 I am so angry because I love you so damn much... please -please- never make me feel this way again Aug 23 21:20:36 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:20:45 I will try my best Aug 23 21:21:08 * Morgan nods, kissing the back of her hand briefly Aug 23 21:21:17 I'm hurting... but I will try to move past it Aug 23 21:21:59 * Mina moves, hugging him, very much against her formal upbringing Aug 23 21:22:13 * Morgan hugs her firmly, carefully Aug 23 21:24:09 *his dream comes back to him, how they’d been married, how they’d lost a child whilst separated for months, and how that distance had pained him alongside the grief* Aug 23 21:25:00 * Morgan breathes in through his nose slowly Aug 23 21:25:07 Lets not do this again please... Aug 23 21:25:47 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:26:12 I would prefer not to, especially when Eddie and I have certain matters to attend to Aug 23 21:26:29 * Morgan nods, letting her go Aug 23 21:26:54 * Mina steps back Aug 23 21:27:50 I hope we can count the conflict concluded, even if the hurt feelings will take longer to disperse Aug 23 21:28:07 * Morgan nods a little Aug 23 21:28:10 I think so Aug 23 21:29:47 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:29:50 Thank you. Aug 23 21:31:12 Gentlemen may not drink spirits early, but when it takes as much to get drunk as it does for me, you drink because you like the flavour Aug 23 21:32:46 * Mina smiles slightly “It is just what we are taught, is it not?” Aug 23 21:33:10 We must adapt to the situation we are in Aug 23 21:34:45 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:34:56 I shall mention it no further Aug 23 21:35:40 * Morgan sighs Aug 23 21:36:15 I think... this morning helped Edward Aug 23 21:36:36 His note was brief, and he has not come to me since Aug 23 21:37:11 I think... perhaps he has reached a turning point Aug 23 21:38:04 I hope so. He needs to. He makes progress, but then some days he is more burdened by the guilt than others Aug 23 21:38:13 * Morgan nods Aug 23 21:38:30 I have that with the grief... and the guilt... it ebbs and flows Aug 23 21:38:39 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:39:08 I feel the same over my Father’s passing, though it has only been four months Aug 23 21:39:31 The grief does not get smaller... we grow around it Aug 23 21:39:43 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:40:34 I have Edward now, and our future to think of. I hope we will one day be held with the same esteem as my parents were Aug 23 21:41:53 Only you can make it so Aug 23 21:42:26 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:43:47 Edward will be making an announcement in Graben about Florrie, so that when the gossip spreads eastwards it is understood that he is not keeping it from the people Aug 23 21:44:14 * Morgan nods Aug 23 21:44:25 I think, realistically, its right that she is acknowledged... Aug 23 21:45:32 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:48:12 The Nobility have long accepted by-blows are created by its young men. His reputation would only be ruined by a dereliction of that duty to his offspring. Aug 23 21:48:41 I think it'd help if you stopped using that terminology... Aug 23 21:49:31 What would you prefer? Aug 23 21:50:05 Its not what I prefer... but what makes Alice and, in time, Florrie feel more... accepted. Aug 23 21:52:49 Alice will always struggle with acceptance. A woman’s reputation is the most beautiful and most brittle of all human things, my Mother used to say Aug 23 21:53:48 It is -our- acceptance that matters Aug 23 21:53:55 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:54:46 I am trying to be civil. Sometimes the feelings re-emerge when I do not expect them Aug 23 21:55:14 * Morgan nods Aug 23 21:55:22 I can understand that... probably better than most Aug 23 21:56:15 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:56:57 I do believe that, for the most part, Edward’s introduction to his daughter has been a success Aug 23 21:57:16 * Morgan nods Aug 23 21:57:25 He's going to need your absolute support when you leave... Aug 23 21:57:32 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:57:49 He will be despondent, but he will rally. Edward is strong. Aug 23 21:58:19 * Morgan nods Aug 23 21:58:33 I was surprised when she came to you... Aug 23 21:59:13 * Mina nods Aug 23 21:59:39 As was I. But sometimes children can be extremely perceptive Aug 23 21:59:48 How do you mean? Aug 23 22:00:39 I did not want to be on that stage. I did not want to feel that pity. In Graben, people do not have a reason to pity me Aug 23 22:02:06 You think she saw in you what she was feeling? Aug 23 22:03:05 I think it is possible Aug 23 22:03:32 Why not go to her mother? She was feeling the same, and Florrie know she loves her and will keep her safe... Aug 23 22:03:53 I do not know Aug 23 22:04:24 She likes you. Aug 23 22:04:55 * Mina nods Aug 23 22:06:01 I am not opposed to small children, especially those with nice manners Aug 23 22:07:29 * Morgan nods, looking around Aug 23 22:08:11 *it’s just the two of them* Aug 23 22:09:10 I believe your Mother wished to show me the family portraits today Aug 23 22:11:18 Best get you back to the house to find her then Aug 23 22:11:25 * Mina nods Aug 23 22:12:21 I would see if Molly might join us, but she stated an intention to take a brief nap when I left. Being enciente looks tiring Aug 23 22:12:43 * Morgan nods Aug 23 22:13:01 It is... Aug 23 22:13:57 Perhaps you’d escort me as far as the Veisgraf Wing? I know you are prone to concern over her Aug 23 22:14:19 * Morgan nods, moving a little to offer her his arm Aug 23 22:14:21 I am Aug 23 22:15:58 * Mina thanks him, walking on his arm Aug 23 22:16:18 Edward already frets over me, and we are many months from that Aug 23 22:17:05 Are you stating opinion or fishing for information? Aug 23 22:18:17 The former Aug 23 22:19:38 * Morgan nods Aug 23 22:20:42 We both hold concerns of childbed fever Aug 23 22:21:09 That is understandable... Aug 23 22:22:26 * Mina nods, progressing toward the archway Aug 23 22:23:19 It is a necessity for a nobleman’s wife, but I do not think we will ever not be apprehensive Aug 23 22:26:00 You will have Marta attend you? Aug 23 22:26:41 It is far for her to travel, but Edward will decide what he feels is best Aug 23 22:27:10 I believe Molly intends to be there... Aug 23 22:27:19 * Mina nods, smiling Aug 23 22:27:30 I do hope that will be the case Aug 23 22:28:11 Would you ever consider allowing a healer to help? Aug 23 22:29:42 I would need to discuss it with Edward. I doubt they are particularly talented at midwifery though Aug 23 22:30:16 You realise I mean of the less... mundane variety? Aug 23 22:31:03 Yes, but I believe healers are only really skilled in preventing the loss of life, a little like a medic Aug 23 22:31:37 Their ability would not bother you? Aug 23 22:32:22 I have had to dealt with such from a very tender age because of Rife Aug 23 22:32:43 * Morgan nods Aug 23 22:32:50 And other forms of it? Aug 23 22:33:25 There is little I can do to change it, so one must accept it Aug 23 22:33:52 Interesting... Aug 23 22:34:43 * Mina smiles “I will discuss it with my husband” Aug 23 22:35:42 * Morgan nods Aug 23 22:36:08 I know of a very talented one... it really would give you and your child the best chance Aug 23 22:37:08 Perhaps Edward would benefit from knowing the particulars before he makes any decisions Aug 23 22:38:32 * Morgan nods Aug 23 22:38:49 I always rather liked the idea of being able to move things with my mind... Aug 23 22:39:07 * Mina smiles Aug 23 22:39:43 I think I would like to be able to be invisible Aug 23 22:40:15 Oh? Bit of eavesdropping? Aug 23 22:41:43 Some, yes, or for those moments where you are obliged to dance with a gentleman who is boring or has halitosis Aug 23 22:43:26 Get Edwards friends on the case, they're pretty good at keeping your dance card full enough to not need to dance with anyone else Aug 23 22:44:21 * Mina smiles Aug 23 22:44:34 I am spared much of it now I am wed Aug 23 22:45:05 *The smell of the stables is pleasantly familiar as they pass it, the next stop being the doors into the Veisgraf Wing* Aug 23 22:45:36 * Morgan nods Aug 23 22:46:19 It is one of my five favourite things about married life Aug 23 22:46:30 Five? Aug 23 22:46:36 * Mina nods Aug 23 22:47:16 No longer being pursued by bachelors, companionship, love, the promise of children... Aug 23 22:47:28 And not having to dance with halitosis herbert Aug 23 22:47:53 that was included in the first Aug 23 22:48:29 Whats the fifth? Aug 23 22:51:05 * Mina smiles “Hand in hand strolls across sunlit hills, before heading to the grassy parks to see the river and the monument to the god Priapus... Ideally during an impromptu mid-morning nap...” Aug 23 22:51:45 * Morgan looks confused Aug 23 22:52:46 * Mina stops by the Veisgraf Wing door, and whispers “He’s the god of cockstands...” Aug 23 22:53:06 * Morgan blushes Aug 23 22:53:08 I see... Aug 23 22:53:27 I will see you both at lunch? Aug 23 22:53:37 Probably yes Aug 23 22:54:10 * Mina laughs softly, curtseying slightly before going toward the main house Aug 23 22:54:42 * Morgan shakes his head, going into the Veisgraf wing Aug 23 22:54:53 *It’s extremely quiet* Aug 23 22:56:50 * Morgan sighs, casting his magic to find out where people are Aug 23 22:57:19 *There’s only one person here, in his and Molly’s room Aug 23 22:57:47 * Morgan heads that way Aug 23 22:58:01 *the door is shut* Aug 23 22:58:28 * Morgan opens it quietly Aug 23 22:58:34 *it’s locked* Aug 23 22:58:39 * Mina is now known as Molly Aug 23 22:58:41 * Morgan frowns, knocking Aug 23 22:58:52 Oh! Just a moment Aug 23 22:59:16 * Molly comes to unlock the door Aug 23 22:59:49 * Morgan waits quietly Aug 23 23:00:09 * Molly opens it. She’s fully dressed Aug 23 23:00:15 Sorry, my love Aug 23 23:00:23 Why was the door locked? Aug 23 23:00:29 * Molly blushes Aug 23 23:00:52 I required a little privacy, and then forgot it was still locked Aug 23 23:01:26 So napping is not what you were doing... Aug 23 23:01:46 * Molly moves back into the room a little Aug 23 23:01:53 Uhh no... it wasn’t Aug 23 23:02:30 I see Aug 23 23:03:48 I did not wish to be a nuisance. Inga implied your thoughts might have been running in that direction, but then, of course, Mina ruined that, just as Edward had ruined your mood yesterday Aug 23 23:27:46 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client)