**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Jun 29 00:04:38 2024 Jun 29 00:04:38 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 29 00:42:35 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 29 10:22:47 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 29 10:28:53 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 29 10:29:33 I would consider asking her to ask you anything she wishes. You could always tell her it is too personal to answer, but you can reassure her where you can. Jun 29 10:29:33 * Morgan sighs Jun 29 10:29:33 It goes against my better judgement Jun 29 10:29:33 why? Jun 29 10:29:33 What could there possibly be to gain from it? Jun 29 10:29:38 * Edward sips his coffee again Jun 29 10:29:40 If a first officer has questions about where the ship is headed, why you chose a particular sail position, or how much rum you have on board, would you tell them? Jun 29 10:29:42 None of those would be answered by saying where I sailed a previous ship or how Jun 29 10:29:44 * Edward smiles faintly Jun 29 10:29:46 My point, brother, is that when you give her the space to ask, you are being a Captain she can take her questions to. It is an indicator that you are steady and there doesn’t need to be fear in asking you questions. She might not get an answer, but she can rely on you to handle it kindly Jun 29 10:29:50 * Morgan sighs, nodding Jun 29 10:29:52 I know the Captain/First Officer dynamic is not your preference, but it seems perhaps with the increasing challenges of her pregnancy a firmer hand is needed to guide her through the choppier waters Jun 29 10:29:55 Perhaps Jun 29 10:29:57 Is it possible she is feeling unsettled about her attractiveness now that her body is changing? Jun 29 10:29:59 That is... unlikely... Jun 29 10:30:01 Unlikely, but not impossible Jun 29 10:30:03 I suppose not Jun 29 10:30:37 * Molly is now known as Edward Jun 29 10:32:06 I have appreciated since wedding that Mother and Father have done an excellent job in making marriage look much easier than it is Jun 29 10:32:20 * Morgan nods Jun 29 10:32:22 Yes, they do Jun 29 10:33:10 Perhaps in time our son will say the same of us Jun 29 10:34:13 We can hope, I suppose Jun 29 10:35:59 * Edward nods. Morgan’s neck starts to prickle Jun 29 10:36:33 * Morgan rubs at it Jun 29 10:36:37 [is something wrong?] Jun 29 10:39:25 [no, I am examining Elsie and tweaking her sensitivity] Jun 29 10:39:49 * Morgan nods slightly, sipping his coffee Jun 29 10:40:12 *He hears footsteps * Jun 29 10:40:23 * Morgan looks toward the door Jun 29 10:42:25 *Mina comes in. She looks relaxed* Good afternoon, Morgan Jun 29 10:43:19 Mina Jun 29 10:45:11 *She smiles* I came for my coffee Jun 29 10:46:18 * Morgan smiles a little, looking to Edward, waiting for him to pick it up Jun 29 10:47:41 * Edward hands her the cup Jun 29 10:48:45 *Mina smiles briefly* I wanted to see Molly now that Quiet Hour has completed, but I cannot find her Jun 29 10:50:31 She'll be with Elsie, checking her over before the wedding... Jun 29 10:51:40 M: Is Elsie unwell? Jun 29 10:52:39 No love... an old injury is all Jun 29 10:54:33 *Mina nods* Are you looking forward to the weddings and baptisms tomorrow? Jun 29 10:55:00 * Morgan nods Jun 29 10:55:14 I am... though I didn't think I'd be giving anyone away for a long time Jun 29 10:55:41 M: I think it’s lovely that you were asked to Jun 29 10:56:11 * Morgan nods Jun 29 10:56:20 As do I. It was quite the surprise though Jun 29 10:59:34 *Mina nods* I am very glad my Father was able to do that for me before his passing Jun 29 11:00:10 * Morgan nods Jun 29 11:00:14 He was so proud Jun 29 11:00:43 *Mina smiles* Yes he was. Jun 29 11:01:17 * Edward moves to her side. It looks instinctive and supportive Jun 29 11:02:22 * Morgan sips his coffee Jun 29 11:02:58 I'm going to be sending a ship to Vesten.... Jun 29 11:04:40 I would have expected you would prefer to be on it Jun 29 11:04:52 I don't see that being an option Jun 29 11:05:26 M: what are you sending the ship for? Jun 29 11:05:38 hairbrushes Jun 29 11:06:45 * Edward smiles Jun 29 11:07:01 M: why would you need hairbrushes? Jun 29 11:07:36 * Morgan smiles a little Jun 29 11:07:42 I'll let your husband explain that one Jun 29 11:08:09 * Edward looks at her, smiling Jun 29 11:08:38 They allegedly make hairbrushing much more pleasurable Jun 29 11:10:30 Mina nods, blushing slightly: They might sell well? Jun 29 11:10:43 I would imagine so... Jun 29 11:12:37 Mina: where did you hear of them? Jun 29 11:13:22 Hannalore Jun 29 11:15:45 *Mina nods* I wish you luck with your venture Jun 29 11:16:33 * Morgan inclines his head Jun 29 11:16:46 I've a sneaking suspicion that Molly is going to ask you to test the theory... Jun 29 11:17:29 * Edward smiles faintly “is it effect on men, brother? perhaps I’ll buy one” Jun 29 11:18:52 Uhhh... it is -very- nice... it -might- work... maybe Mina can brush your hair... Jun 29 11:19:47 * Edward nods “I would allow that” Jun 29 11:20:05 *Mina sips her coffee* Do you have one? Jun 29 11:20:30 * Morgan nods Jun 29 11:25:11 * Edward nods “I’d like to borrow that from you for an evening” Jun 29 11:25:28 *Mina looks at Edward with a smile before nodding slightly* Jun 29 11:26:10 I rather suspect that was Molly's plan anyway... no point importing them if they don't work, right? Jun 29 11:26:58 M: It works for Molly? Jun 29 11:27:43 * Morgan smiles Jun 29 11:27:44 Oh yes Jun 29 11:29:29 *Mina nods again. Edward smiles* We will happily test this for you, brother Jun 29 11:29:41 * Morgan nods Jun 29 11:30:07 I'll let her know... unless Mina still wishes to see her, then of course she can Jun 29 11:32:15 M: Do you know how long it will take her to be done? Jun 29 11:33:17 [Mina is looking for you...willyou be long?] Jun 29 11:34:12 [five more minutes at this, then five more to clean up and be ready] Jun 29 11:34:32 I'd give her ten minutes Jun 29 11:36:03 *Mina nods* Where is Inga? Jun 29 11:36:20 Probably finishing having her hair brushed... Jun 29 11:37:08 * Edward chuckles, but Mina blushes a little Jun 29 11:42:19 * Morgan smiles a little Jun 29 11:42:41 Emmilene and Ruthie have been watching the boys so Ingaand HeinzHarold could have some time together Jun 29 11:43:47 I imagine they are now on their own quest towards starting a family, as they are back on dry land Jun 29 11:44:07 * Morgan nods Jun 29 11:44:25 They decided a long while back that if we sailed again, they wouldn't be joining us Jun 29 11:44:48 * Edward nods Jun 29 11:45:17 Molly will not be sailing for quite some time now? Jun 29 11:45:45 No... Jun 29 12:06:45 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 29 12:46:16 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 29 16:19:15 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 29 16:23:53 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 29 16:26:31 I'll let her know... unless Mina still wishes to see her, then of course she can Jun 29 16:26:31 M: Do you know how long it will take her to be done? Jun 29 16:26:31 [Mina is looking for you...willyou be long?] Jun 29 16:26:31 [five more minutes at this, then five more to clean up and be ready] Jun 29 16:26:31 I'd give her ten minutes Jun 29 16:26:34 *Mina nods* Where is Inga? Jun 29 16:26:36 Probably finishing having her hair brushed... Jun 29 16:26:38 * Edward chuckles, but Mina blushes a little Jun 29 16:26:40 * Morgan smiles a little Jun 29 16:26:44 Emmilene and Ruthie have been watching the boys so Ingaand HeinzHarold could have some time together Jun 29 16:26:46 I imagine they are now on their own quest towards starting a family, as they are back on dry land Jun 29 16:26:48 * Morgan nods Jun 29 16:26:50 They decided a long while back that if we sailed again, they wouldn't be joining us Jun 29 16:26:52 * Edward nods Jun 29 16:26:54 Molly will not be sailing for quite some time now? Jun 29 16:26:56 No... Jun 29 16:27:33 Mina: It is important that she and the baby are safe Jun 29 16:27:42 * Molly is now known as Mina Jun 29 16:28:28 * Morgan nods Jun 29 16:28:33 Yes... yes it is Jun 29 16:29:58 E: Let me refill the coffees sweetheart and we’ Jun 29 16:30:15 we’ll take them somewhere more comfortable Jun 29 16:30:31 * Morgan smiles a little Jun 29 16:30:40 Give Molly ten minutes, then she'll be ready for you Jun 29 16:30:45 *Edward does this* Am I pouring one for Molly, brother? Jun 29 16:30:58 Please, Edward Jun 29 16:32:59 *He does this too, and they move to the library. Edward makes himself comfortable on a couch, an arm along behind Mina. He glances around at the paintings* Jun 29 16:33:16 * Mina looks at Edward “Did you come here often?” Jun 29 16:35:14 Edward nods: Fairly when we were young, because Father and Uncle Hans we’re away, and Mother and Aunt Mathilde were close. More so once Morgan was at school, and it has always been a practical place to stop when travelling Jun 29 16:35:46 * Morgan nods Jun 29 16:35:57 I didn't spend as much time here, obviously Jun 29 16:36:04 [we're in the library when you're ready] Jun 29 16:36:20 * Mina nods “You learned to shoot here, Morgan?” Jun 29 16:36:40 *Edward watches her a moment before looking to Morgan* Jun 29 16:36:46 * Morgan nods Jun 29 16:36:57 Uncle Hans taught me. I have his pistol. Jun 29 16:37:14 When will you teach your sons? Jun 29 16:37:27 * Morgan shrugs Jun 29 16:37:35 I'm not sure... not just yet Jun 29 16:39:18 Ed: You haven’t perfected teaching Molly yet! Jun 29 16:40:09 No... I'm hoping Varick at least doesn't shoot me Jun 29 16:41:10 *they both laugh* Jun 29 16:41:17 * Mina says quietly Jun 29 16:41:26 I could shoot by Varick’s age Jun 29 16:41:37 Really? Jun 29 16:41:42 * Mina nods Jun 29 16:42:00 *Edward looks to Morgan* She is very good Jun 29 16:43:12 * Morgan nods slowly, looking to Mina Jun 29 16:43:39 Why say it so quietly? Jun 29 16:44:05 It is not ladylike Jun 29 16:44:34 You've met Jarvie, right? Jun 29 16:44:47 I have, but we are very different Jun 29 16:45:04 * Morgan nods Jun 29 16:45:14 I don't think you ever need fear disapproval with us love Jun 29 16:47:12 My mother taught me. Her people were from tiny Freiarrdom right on the border, in the mountains. It is dangerous territory for wildlife there Jun 29 16:50:39 * Morgan nods a little Jun 29 16:51:48 Ed: You should let her show you before we leave next week Jun 29 16:51:58 * Morgan nods Jun 29 16:52:01 I'd like that Jun 29 16:54:28 * Mina smiles, and sips her coffee Jun 29 16:55:02 Do you have a piece of paper for the details for the milliners to order Molly those stockings? Jun 29 16:55:39 * Morgan smiles a little, pulling a square piece of paper from his pocket Jun 29 16:56:00 I've almost always got some paper Jun 29 16:57:35 * Mina gives him the details Jun 29 16:57:44 * Morgan notes it down Jun 29 16:57:49 Ed: What are you buying, brother? Jun 29 16:58:01 Stockings... Jun 29 17:00:24 * Mina smiles at Edward Jun 29 17:00:45 Those with the flowers that lead up Jun 29 17:01:00 *Edward nods, smiling* An excellent choice... Jun 29 17:01:29 I'm looking forward to receiving them... Jun 29 17:02:08 * Mina nods Jun 29 17:02:27 I am sure they’ll be appreciated Jun 29 17:02:32 * Morgan nods Jun 29 17:02:35 I reckon so Jun 29 17:03:03 *Edward smiles. Molly knocks on the door* Jun 29 17:03:56 * Morgan gets up, going to open the door Jun 29 17:06:59 *Molly smiles, but she looks slightly on edge to him* May I join you? Jun 29 17:07:38 Of course love... there's some coffee for you Jun 29 17:09:50 *She comes in. Edward watches the two of them* Jun 29 17:10:29 * Morgan takes her to the chair, letting her sit before handing her her coffee Jun 29 17:12:00 *Molly lets her fingers brush his as she takes it, watching his reaction* Jun 29 17:12:26 * Morgan smiles a little before sitting down Jun 29 17:14:19 Was Elsie well, Molly? Jun 29 17:15:20 *Molly smiles* Yes, she is, and looking forward to the wedding tomorrow. *She looks to Morgan* Should I offer to look after Thomas and Jacques after the ceremonies? Jun 29 17:16:00 I would imagine that'd be welcomed, they're going to be a little busy... Jun 29 17:18:00 *they all nod* Jun 29 17:18:26 Molly: it is sensible for it to be me, as I can express if milk if needed Jun 29 17:18:44 A good point Jun 29 17:20:57 M: I think it is nearly time for your visitors, liebes herz Jun 29 17:21:54 * Morgan nods Jun 29 17:21:56 Must be Jun 29 17:23:27 Ed: I will come with you, I want to see DeeDee Jun 29 17:23:54 * Morgan nods, standing and kissing Molly's crown Jun 29 17:24:09 I'll go find Bir Jun 29 17:26:01 *Molly looks up, smiling gratefully* Yes, my love. Jun 29 17:26:24 * Morgan nods, smiling at Mina before heading for the door Jun 29 17:27:04 *Edward stands too, kissing Mina’s knuckles* Jun 29 17:28:45 * Mina is now known as Edward Jun 29 17:28:53 * Edward follows Morgan out Jun 29 17:30:50 Apparently he slept well... Jun 29 17:31:23 Who? Jun 29 17:32:46 DeeDee Jun 29 17:34:20 Oh, yes. I was just excusing myself to follow you. Jun 29 17:34:25 Why? Jun 29 17:34:45 firstly, they want to gossip, secondly to see how you are Jun 29 17:35:15 * Morgan shrugs Jun 29 17:35:18 I'll be alright Jun 29 17:35:50 If you're mostly just getting out of their way, you can come help me Jun 29 17:36:29 * Edward nods Jun 29 17:36:38 Lead the way Jun 29 17:37:03 * Morgan nods, going to find Bir before collecting treats for her Jun 29 17:39:19 *Bir is more than happy to go along, and Ballard and Ulysses follow along as well* Jun 29 17:41:07 Where would you think best for a group of children? Jun 29 17:41:33 On the lawn Jun 29 17:42:06 * Morgan nods Jun 29 17:42:18 I'll need someone to bring them drinks and maybe some fruit... Jun 29 17:42:57 Where are your maids? Jun 29 17:43:15 Probably in the kitchens... Jun 29 17:43:59 I suppose I could relay the message to them Jun 29 17:44:27 If you go find one, get them to come out in a few minutes... I want your help with the children Jun 29 17:46:40 * Edward nods, turning back. On the lawn Alice is there with Florrie, Ruth, Emmilene, and the three boys. There’s no sign of the visitors or HH and Inga yet, not of Claudia, Uinise, or DeeDee Jun 29 17:46:59 * Morgan heads toward them Jun 29 17:49:03 * Edward is now known as Emmilene Jun 29 17:49:15 * Emmilene is the first to notice him Jun 29 17:49:27 Is Heinzharold with you? Jun 29 17:50:15 No, I've not seen him since before quiet hour Jun 29 17:51:43 * Emmilene nods, smiling Jun 29 17:52:55 Ruth: Are they -really- doing work on the house? It looks like it’s all new anyway Jun 29 17:53:13 *Alice glances at Morgan, smirking slightly* Jun 29 17:53:53 Oh, probably wanting it to be just right... they didn't get much time to make it theirs before we left last time Jun 29 17:55:13 R: But they aren’t going to live there anyway Jun 29 17:55:29 * Morgan sits down next to her Jun 29 17:56:34 Its... hard to explain. Its their first home together, its... special. Jun 29 17:57:31 * Emmilene smiles Jun 29 17:59:05 Never underestimate how long newlyweds can spend in their first home fluffing around the place. For the first few years, they don’t really need anything at all but somewhere quiet to be and each other Jun 29 17:59:36 * Morgan nods Jun 29 17:59:38 Thats true Jun 29 18:02:04 Ruth: But you’re not like that, Morgan Jun 29 18:02:59 I don't really have a choice... besides, we spent a lot of time together in Avalon, then coming here, then -all- the way to Capperlucia... we take time to just be with one another Jun 29 18:04:30 Ruth: You’ve been married longer than Heinzharold too, so I suppose you’re not newlyweds now Jun 29 18:04:40 Still feels like it though Jun 29 18:04:58 Ruth: How long will that last? Jun 29 18:05:22 * Emmilene smiles “If they’re lucky, the rest of their lives” Jun 29 18:05:57 We can hope Jun 29 18:07:35 Florrie comes to Morgan: what doing, Ballhead Jun 29 18:08:00 Waiting, sweetheart... a family from the village is coming to visit so they can see Bir Jun 29 18:09:43 *Florrie nods, looking around* ‘Arold coming Jun 29 18:10:01 * Morgan looks Jun 29 18:12:35 *Heinzharold and Inga are arm in arm. Her hair is definitely different than this morning. She looks a little unsure of herself* Jun 29 18:13:20 $She ok? She looks a bit unsettled$ Jun 29 18:27:48 $Upset that she told Molly your dream$ Jun 29 18:28:02 $She doesn't need to worry about it$ Jun 29 18:29:00 $talk to her, will you? I managed to distract her for an hour, but she’s worrying again$ Jun 29 18:29:46 $Of course$ Jun 29 18:29:59 [Inga is deeply worried and upset] Jun 29 18:31:01 [why?] Jun 29 18:31:31 [I suspect she's worried she's caused trouble and that you or I are angry with her] Jun 29 18:32:22 [Send her to me, I will talk to her] Jun 29 18:32:47 [I think I'll talk to her first] Jun 29 18:37:26 * Emmilene has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 29 18:46:44 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 29 18:48:48 [I think I'll talk to her first] Jun 29 18:49:08 [alright] Jun 29 18:49:45 * Morgan looks to Emmilene Jun 29 18:49:55 Would you excuse me? I want to get Inga's help with something Jun 29 18:51:08 *Emmilene nods* Jun 29 18:51:20 * Morgan gets up, heading for HeinzHarold and Inga Jun 29 18:53:11 *Inga stays tightly at Heinzharold’s side* Jun 29 18:53:33 * Morgan smiles a little at them Jun 29 18:53:48 Come on love, lets get this cleared up Jun 29 18:55:46 *HH brings her to Morgan, putting her hand on his arm instead* Jun 29 18:56:16 * Morgan puts his hand on hers gently Jun 29 18:56:20 We won't be long man Jun 29 18:57:49 *HH nods, heading to his Ma* Jun 29 18:57:54 * Molly is now known as Inga Jun 29 18:58:44 * Morgan walks her away from the others Jun 29 18:59:14 Tell me your worries and I'll see if I can assuage them Jun 29 19:00:14 I told Molly something that was secret, and now you’ll be mad and she’ll be upset Jun 29 19:01:03 She's a bit upset with me, yes... but we were heading that way anyway, so its not like you're the cause of it... and I'm not in the least bit angry Jun 29 19:03:19 it just came out. I’m so sorry Jun 29 19:03:45 That, my dear friend... is what she said Jun 29 19:04:09 * Inga smiles, squeezing his arm Jun 29 19:04:35 I didn’t mean to make things worse Jun 29 19:04:49 Don't worry at it love. It'll be fine Jun 29 19:05:10 I didn’t want her being upset with you Jun 29 19:05:25 She already was, love, thats not on you at all Jun 29 19:05:52 Are you badly at odds now? Jun 29 19:06:01 A little... we'll work it out Jun 29 19:06:38 how can I help? Jun 29 19:06:52 * Morgan shrugs Jun 29 19:07:06 I'm not sure you can... she wants to see you though, to reassure you Jun 29 19:08:20 It’s not just the dream you’re fighting about? Jun 29 19:08:40 No, absolutely not... well... not just -that- dream anyway Jun 29 19:10:40 * Inga nods sadly Jun 29 19:11:03 Should I go to see her now? Jun 29 19:12:15 Yeah, go on. Get it all sorted so you can go back to being the happy, relaxed pregnant woman we all love Jun 29 19:14:09 * Inga shushes him “If -she- hears you we’ll never get any peace! She only left us alone because she hopes he’ll get me pregnant!” Jun 29 19:15:21 Trust me, I can't hear them, there's no way they can hear us Jun 29 19:15:53 * Inga smiles Jun 29 19:16:19 You couldn’t hear me in Quiet Hour from here, could you? Jun 29 19:16:45 well... I was asleep against a tree, so... no... Jun 29 19:17:48 * Inga looks concerned Jun 29 19:18:15 It’s bad enough that you didn’t... you know... in Quiet Hour?! When she’s -pregnant-?! Jun 29 19:18:27 I'm afraid so Jun 29 19:18:38 * Inga looks very worried Jun 29 19:18:59 That’s really not good... But you did this morning, before you fell out? Jun 29 19:19:16 No, I needed to get out into the fresh air after my nightmare Jun 29 19:19:59 I’m worried about you both now Jun 29 19:20:07 We'll be alright Jun 29 19:21:34 * Inga giggles “When I see you or her with lovebites, then I’ll relax” Jun 29 19:23:07 * Morgan nods Jun 29 19:23:11 That sounds reasonable actually Jun 29 19:24:01 * Inga nods Jun 29 19:24:32 where is she? Jun 29 19:24:43 In the library with Mina last I saw Jun 29 19:24:50 I’ll go there Jun 29 19:24:54 * Morgan nods Jun 29 19:24:55 Alright love Jun 29 19:26:15 * Inga goes, looking more at ease. HH is watching him Jun 29 19:26:35 HH: $not sure how you did it, but good job$ Jun 29 19:26:45 * Morgan shrugs a little, walking back toward him Jun 29 19:28:36 * Inga is now known as HH Jun 29 19:29:02 * HH moves away from Ma Jun 29 19:29:10 how’s it gone down up here? Jun 29 19:29:28 Just the icing on the cake man Jun 29 19:31:05 Highs are really high, lows are really low? Jun 29 19:31:12 * Morgan nods Jun 29 19:31:13 Yeah Jun 29 19:32:59 * HH nods Jun 29 19:33:14 What are you doing out here rather’an working it out? Jun 29 19:33:42 We're busy Jun 29 19:35:28 * HH nods, watching Florrie trying to play with the boys but getting left out Jun 29 19:36:04 She's really coming out of her shell with the boys Jun 29 19:38:12 * HH nods Jun 29 19:38:31 She’s doing well man, way better than that first day Jun 29 19:39:37 * Morgan nods, looking down towards the gate Jun 29 19:43:00 *the family are coming up towards the, Jun 29 19:43:03 them* Jun 29 19:45:09 Ah, there they are Jun 29 19:45:26 * Morgan starts walking toward them Jun 29 19:47:30 *The children look to have been scrubbed within an inch of their little lives, now in their Sunday bests. The baby has on a clean white bonnet Jun 29 19:48:16 * Morgan smiles as he gets closer Jun 29 19:48:22 Well now, here we are Jun 29 19:50:30 Sarah: I hope we’re not late, your Excellency Jun 29 19:51:03 Not at all Sarah... there really was no need to change, its not church... I thought perhaps we'd sit on the lawn for a bit Jun 29 19:53:06 *She nods. The baby is awake and looking around, and the four older ones are stood nicely Jun 29 19:53:40 * Morgan smiles, tickling the baby's chin Jun 29 19:54:02 Lets go sit over with the others... Jun 29 19:54:09 * Morgan leads them toward the others Jun 29 19:55:37 *the oldest boy spots Bir in the tree* There it is! Jun 29 19:56:27 * Morgan smiles, handing the boy a piece of fruit Jun 29 19:56:32 Hold onto that a minute Jun 29 19:57:28 *The boy looks like it’s a struggle not to eat it Jun 29 19:58:00 * Morgan leads them to the others before sitting down, waiting until everyones sat before calling to Bir Jun 29 19:59:39 *Bir flies down to them. Sarah and her children look shocked. Varick, Rickon , and Jacques come to sit with them Jun 29 19:59:56 * Morgan looks at the oldest boy Jun 29 20:00:03 If you hold out that fruit, she'll take it from you Jun 29 20:03:28 *he does so, and Bir comes over to take it. The children look completely blown away as Bir eats it Jun 29 20:03:47 * Morgan smiles, stroking Bir's back Jun 29 20:03:59 Now, before we do anymore... would anyone like some fruit and a drink? Jun 29 20:05:10 *the children look shyly at their mother* S: Yes please, Your Excellency Jun 29 20:05:28 Is milk alright? Jun 29 20:07:17 *She nods* Yes your Excellency Jun 29 20:07:28 Would you care for some coffee, or tea? Jun 29 20:07:43 *Edward is heading their way with a maid* S: Coffee, please Jun 29 20:07:58 *the boys and Florrie also want these things Jun 29 20:08:25 * Morgan nods, waiting until the maid arrives before asking for the drinks and snacks for everyone Jun 29 20:10:14 *she goes back to the house, and Edward settles with them Jun 29 20:10:37 Edward, this is Sarah... Sarah, this is my brother Edward, Freiarr of Graben Jun 29 20:11:43 *She looks shy* Good afternoon, my Lord Jun 29 20:12:58 *Edward smiles warmly* Good afternoon. Jun 29 20:14:10 * Morgan holds out a small nut for Bir Jun 29 20:14:18 Isn't she lovely? Jun 29 20:16:04 *Bir takes it with her claws, checking it over* Jun 29 20:16:19 Boy: She’s really big! Jun 29 20:16:28 * Morgan nods Jun 29 20:16:42 $hey man, what’s the bird of wisdom?$ Jun 29 20:17:08 $What?$ Jun 29 20:17:24 $what bird is associated with wisdom?$ Jun 29 20:17:47 * Morgan watches the children for a moment before saying "who's pretty?" Jun 29 20:18:03 $Owls, generally, but they're actually thick as a post$ Jun 29 20:18:12 Bir: pretty Bir *she wolf-whistles* Jun 29 20:18:20 *the children laugh* Jun 29 20:18:28 * Morgan smiles, handing her some fruit Jun 29 20:18:32 Clever girl Jun 29 20:18:34 $yep. What’s the bird of superstition?$ Jun 29 20:18:50 $It varies. Magpies or crows$ Jun 29 20:19:45 *Bir takes it and eats it* Jun 29 20:20:04 $was a magpie. What’s the bird of love?$ Jun 29 20:20:18 $I'm not sure$ Jun 29 20:20:35 *he smirks a little* $a swallow.$ Jun 29 20:21:05 * Morgan looks down at his knees for a moment, taking a breath before looking back at the children Jun 29 20:21:15 $Dickhead$ Jun 29 20:21:37 $don’t blame me, Inga told me it this afternoon$ Jun 29 20:21:57 $That shouldn't surprise me I think$ Jun 29 20:22:10 $yeah$ Jun 29 20:23:34 *Varick takes over in showing the children Bir’s tricks, which he has the magical advantage with. The food and drink is brought to them by one maid and also Hildegarde Jun 29 20:23:56 * Morgan thanks them, looking to Hildegarde Jun 29 20:23:59 You alright love? Jun 29 20:24:45 *She nods, greeting Sarah too, who she clearly knows well* H: I’m here to see her Excellency Jun 29 20:25:47 Last I saw she was in the library Jun 29 20:26:55 *She nods, heading back to the house* Jun 29 20:27:15 * HH moves to sit by Morgan and eat a little of the fruit Jun 29 20:27:22 what’s Molly want her for? Jun 29 20:27:50 Measuring... apparently the size of the bump can be used to guess the size of the baby... or something like that Jun 29 20:28:07 * Morgan hands the food and drinks to the children before handing Sarah her coffee Jun 29 20:29:24 * HH nods Jun 29 20:29:35 Keeps her out of mischief, I guess Jun 29 20:29:53 $or the four of them start gossiping$ Jun 29 20:32:22 $boasting about our prowess$ Jun 29 20:32:33 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Jun 29 20:33:42 $well, mine, anyway. No much to boast about with you$ Jun 29 20:34:00 $No, probably not$ Jun 29 20:34:10 * Morgan smiles a little, watching the children with Bir Jun 29 20:37:51 *Playing with Bir makes the group of children gather together. Florrie hovers at the edge of the group, but doesn’t fully retreat. Sarah’s youngest son looks to be about Florrie’s age, and she watches him above the others. Edward moves to Sarah Jun 29 20:38:10 Ed: May I hold the baby so you can drink your coffee? Jun 29 20:38:53 $he beaten you to the line there? Everyone knows you love holding babes$ Jun 29 20:39:08 $Didn't used to$ Jun 29 20:39:19 *Sarah hands her over. Edward holds her carefully* Jun 29 20:39:32 $you’ve come a long way$ Jun 29 20:39:41 $Yeah. I have$ Jun 29 20:40:35 Is there anything you'd like to do while you're here, Sarah? Look round the house? Raise any problems you might have or know about? Jun 29 20:41:26 S: It’s very generous, your Excellency, but I’ll need to get home to start dinner before my Husband arrives Jun 29 20:41:51 * Morgan nods Jun 29 20:41:52 *Edward and Alice share a little look, but it’s brief* Jun 29 20:42:26 $you see that?$ Jun 29 20:43:18 Perhaps another time. It seems Bir is quite the talking point for the children Jun 29 20:43:51 HH $yeah...$ Jun 29 20:44:11 *Sarah nods, drinking her coffee* Jun 29 20:44:59 $he’s not going to fuck it all up after making so much progress, right?$ Jun 29 20:45:14 $No. I'll badger him about it shortly$ Jun 29 20:46:59 Its funny... for all the differences... the Eisenfurst had the exact same reaction to her... Jun 29 20:47:06 * HH nods slightly Jun 29 20:47:22 S: She’s amazing, like from a fairytale Jun 29 20:47:50 * Morgan nods Jun 29 20:48:08 I was extremely surprised when she sort of jumped out of a bush in Capperlucia Jun 29 20:50:00 S: Are they wild there? Jun 29 20:50:11 * Morgan nods Jun 29 20:50:12 $Claudia would be the one to ask...$ Jun 29 20:50:18 Absolutely Jun 29 20:50:36 $Did I tell you mother thought I was having sex with Uinise?$ Jun 29 20:50:52 $yes, hard to picture!$ Jun 29 20:55:00 $That was rather awkward$ Jun 29 20:57:27 $she’s too small for me, I’d break her$ Jun 29 20:58:14 * Morgan looks to Florrie, watching her Jun 29 20:58:49 *She seems to be slowly interacting with the boy* Jun 29 20:58:59 * Morgan nudges Edward gently Jun 29 20:59:18 *Edward nods, smiling* Jun 29 20:59:59 What does your husband do, Sarah? Jun 29 21:01:30 S: He’s a wheelwright Jun 29 21:02:17 Oh, yes, I recall the young man telling me earlier, I'm sorry... Jun 29 21:03:51 *She smiles* it’s not a problem, your Excellency Jun 29 21:05:53 * Morgan smiles, looking at the children Jun 29 21:06:49 *The children play a while longer, Florrie still shyer but actively engaging with the boy. Sarah eventually tells them that it’s time to go home* Jun 29 21:07:09 * Morgan gets up, offering to help her up from the ground Jun 29 21:08:44 *She accepts the help. The children come to her side* Jun 29 21:09:30 * Morgan looks to Edward, taking the baby from him and handing it back to Sarah Jun 29 21:09:48 I want to thank you for coming. I hope everyone has enjoyed themselves... Jun 29 21:11:26 *They all nod. The baby is very sweet, especially in her bonnet. He seems to have held many boys late Jun 29 21:11:35 y, but not many girls Jun 29 21:13:10 Perhaps next time I'll be able to have a cuddle with this young lady... *he tickles the baby's chin* Jun 29 21:13:41 *Sarah nods* You’re always welcome to, your Excellency Jun 29 21:14:26 * Morgan nods, smiling Jun 29 21:14:28 I look forward to it Jun 29 21:16:23 *She says goodbye to the others before heading back towards the village. Varick, Rickon, and Jacques go off to play again Jun 29 21:17:32 * Morgan calls to Bir Jun 29 21:18:16 *Bir flies to him* Jun 29 21:20:19 * Morgan strokes her beak gently Jun 29 21:20:26 Good girl... you're such a good bird Jun 29 21:20:33 B: clever Bir Muah Jun 29 21:20:46 * Morgan chuckles, kissing her head gently Jun 29 21:21:09 You gonna go indoors, or stay with HeinzHarold? Jun 29 21:21:37 *She doesn’t seem to know what he’s saying* Jun 29 21:21:53 Come on, lets go back inside... Edward, with me please Jun 29 21:22:11 * Morgan gently puts Bir up on his shoulder before looking to Edward and starting to walk Jun 29 21:23:39 * HH is now known as Edward Jun 29 21:23:44 * Edward follows on Jun 29 21:23:58 * Morgan waits until they're well out of earshot before speaking Jun 29 21:24:01 What was the look about? Jun 29 21:24:47 With Alice? Jun 29 21:24:51 * Morgan nods Jun 29 21:25:10 That I did not get to hold Florrie at such an age Jun 29 21:25:33 * Morgan nods, hugging him suddenly Jun 29 21:27:06 * Edward hugs him back Jun 29 21:28:37 Its unfair Jun 29 21:29:20 It is what it is. Jun 29 21:30:10 * Morgan nods Jun 29 21:30:14 We can only make the best of the future Jun 29 21:31:11 * Edward nods Jun 29 21:31:23 I will hold my next child all the more for it Jun 29 21:33:30 * Morgan nods Jun 29 21:33:37 aye Jun 29 21:34:02 * Edward lets go Jun 29 21:34:34 There is nothing between Alice and I of a sexual or romantic nature Jun 29 21:34:39 I know Jun 29 21:37:57 Good. I love my wife, and my intimate life with her is perfect. What Alice and I shared was long ago now, and I do not want anyone thinking I’d prefer to be with her instead Jun 29 21:38:43 * Morgan nods Jun 29 21:40:22 * Edward nods, heading for the house Jun 29 21:40:44 * Morgan walks alongside him Jun 29 21:40:51 Am I here to keep Mimi and Inga busy so you can talk to your wife? Jun 29 21:41:17 No, actually, I wanted to check on you... if they're still busy, I shall wait Jun 29 21:42:38 I am fine, brother Jun 29 21:42:49 * Morgan nods Jun 29 21:42:50 good Jun 29 21:44:10 *They arrive back to the library. The door is ajar, but there’s plenty of giggling from inside Jun 29 21:44:28 * Edward smiles at it Jun 29 21:46:09 It sounds like fun in there Jun 29 21:46:15 * Morgan nods Jun 29 21:46:26 It does... sort of makes you dread to hear what they'er saying though Jun 29 21:47:45 * Edward shrugs “I am not fragile with women” Jun 29 21:48:12 Unless there's blood... Jun 29 21:48:51 * Edward grimaces “Indeed” Jun 29 21:49:13 * Morgan nods, smiling a little Jun 29 21:49:54 * Edward taps on the door before entering. The giggling quiets Jun 29 21:50:54 I hope you are not playing that game about which of my friends you’d be intimate with to save the world, because I shall have you know that some of them are very sensitive about being left out! Jun 29 21:51:26 *This does make the three of them laugh again, and Edward sits himself next to Mina* Jun 29 21:52:01 * Morgan goes in to sit next to Molly, putting Bir on the back of the couch Jun 29 21:54:12 Mina: We weren’t discussing that Jun 29 21:55:22 * Edward nods, smiling “what are we discussing?” Jun 29 21:55:54 *Molly smiles, glancing at Morgan* Actually, I need to start making dinner Jun 29 21:58:32 Would you like some help? Jun 29 21:59:27 *Inga and Mina are both trying not to giggle, and Molly shoots them a warning look with a little headshake* Jun 29 21:59:34 * Edward is now known as Molly Jun 29 21:59:42 Yes, that would be nice, my love Jun 29 22:00:07 * Morgan nods, standing back up Jun 29 22:02:01 * Molly stands also, and heads to the kitchen, which is empty. She finds an apron Jun 29 22:02:12 would you like coffee before we start? Jun 29 22:03:07 Please... what was the warning look for? Jun 29 22:04:26 That today is not a good day for insinuating anything Jun 29 22:05:15 * Molly puts the apron on as she boils the water. The long straps wrap around twice, once above and once below her bump, then she ties it off Jun 29 22:05:57 * Morgan shrugs Jun 29 22:06:00 We need to move past it Jun 29 22:07:39 * Molly nods, making his coffee before putting the cup before him Jun 29 22:08:47 * Morgan thanks her, sipping it Jun 29 22:09:17 I hate to be at odds. It makes it hard for me to concentrate Jun 29 22:09:48 * Molly gets the chicken and puts it on a tray Jun 29 22:09:58 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:10:01 Me too Jun 29 22:12:07 * Molly pours oil from a bottle on to it Jun 29 22:13:01 I brood on it, what I said, what I did, how much what we have may be harmed by it... Jun 29 22:13:43 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:13:52 You were cruel. I do not appreciate it Jun 29 22:14:34 * Molly nods Jun 29 22:15:13 I did not deliver it in a good way, despite my best intentions, and I am deeply sorry for it Jun 29 22:15:31 *she rubs the oil into the skin* Jun 29 22:15:54 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:15:56 Alright then Jun 29 22:16:45 * Molly nods, continuing Jun 29 22:17:14 could you bring me the rosemary in that jar there? Jun 29 22:17:24 * Morgan nods, fetching it Jun 29 22:18:32 * Molly holds her oiled hands away from it “could you put some on it?” Jun 29 22:20:02 * Morgan nods, sprinkling some over it Jun 29 22:20:48 * Molly nods, rubbing it in Jun 29 22:20:53 a little more, please Jun 29 22:21:07 * Morgan nods, adding a little more Jun 29 22:21:20 * Molly rubs this in too Jun 29 22:21:27 Alright, that’s good Jun 29 22:21:33 * Morgan nods, putting the jar back Jun 29 22:22:16 * Molly goes to the bucket of water to wash her hands off Jun 29 22:22:27 Did you wish to discuss this further? Jun 29 22:22:57 What, exactly? Jun 29 22:23:36 Our conflict today Jun 29 22:23:56 I get the feeling we should but... I don't know Jun 29 22:24:10 I don’t think I want to Jun 29 22:24:26 * Molly rubs the soap in her hands to get the oil off Jun 29 22:24:35 alright Jun 29 22:24:47 * Molly nods Jun 29 22:24:55 I would prefer to just be relaxed Jun 29 22:25:04 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:25:09 Me too. You and Inga are alright? Jun 29 22:26:18 * Molly nods Jun 29 22:26:21 yes, we are Jun 29 22:28:13 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:28:13 Good Jun 29 22:29:44 I just wish to put it behind us all. It happens sometimes Jun 29 22:30:12 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:30:22 * Molly dries her hands before putting the chicken in the oven Jun 29 22:30:40 If it happens again, I would prefer to know Jun 29 22:31:06 Very well. But I will brook no attitude about it... Jun 29 22:32:04 * Molly nods, biting her lip Jun 29 22:32:07 yes, my love Jun 29 22:32:28 * Morgan nods slightly, sipping his coffee Jun 29 22:33:00 * Molly smiles, getting vegetables out to chop Jun 29 22:34:53 Would you like to do it? Jun 29 22:35:12 Do what? Jun 29 22:35:26 Chop the vegetables, my love Jun 29 22:35:34 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:35:36 If you like Jun 29 22:36:37 * Molly nods, moving to start the pastry for the pudding. It doesn’t take her long to be kneeding the dough on the floured side Jun 29 22:37:47 * Morgan starts chopping, albeit very slowly Jun 29 22:37:54 I have made a decision... Jun 29 22:38:38 Oh? what is it, my love? Jun 29 22:39:10 These questions you have... you can ask them... I cannot promise I will answer them, but I will give it serious consideration Jun 29 22:39:24 * Molly nods Jun 29 22:39:43 And if I have decided that it is not in either of our best interests to ask? Jun 29 22:40:15 Thats up to you... but if you want to know, ask Jun 29 22:40:58 would you prefer I do? Jun 29 22:41:07 If you wish to Jun 29 22:41:38 * Molly stays quite a few minutes as she works the dough Jun 29 22:42:44 * Morgan suddenly picks up the speed of his chopping Jun 29 22:43:10 * Molly glances at him Jun 29 22:43:20 Alright. Jun 29 22:43:28 Alright? Jun 29 22:43:35 I have two questions Jun 29 22:43:54 okay Jun 29 22:44:14 * Molly takes the pie tray, pressing the pastry into it Jun 29 22:45:08 Did she know that you were aroused by pregnancy, or just that you had become more affectionate and frequent in that time? Jun 29 22:45:44 I'm not aroused by pregnancy... it doesn't affect me when its other people... Jun 29 22:46:42 * Molly nods “But you are with me, and we’re with her” Jun 29 22:47:38 * Morgan nods Jun 29 22:48:02 Indeed. I cant say I knew it'd be the case until it happened, so... no, she didn't know until we both did Jun 29 22:48:35 * Molly nods, spooning the filling in Jun 29 22:48:40 Alright Jun 29 22:49:58 And the other? Jun 29 22:51:09 Did you touch her belly as you have done with mine, or was that something that you felt uncomfortable about? Jun 29 22:51:25 * Morgan tilts his head Jun 29 22:52:39 I'd have to think about that... certainly it was a part of the overall intimacy but... Jun 29 22:52:57 But...? Jun 29 22:53:25 But I'm not sure if I did it during -being- intimate... Jun 29 22:54:54 * Molly nods “and not specifically-because- it was arousing, even if you did?” Jun 29 22:55:30 No, I don't think so Jun 29 22:56:56 * Molly nods “Was it something you had wanted to do but weren’t able to?” Jun 29 22:57:30 I don't think so. It wasn't really something that came to mind Jun 29 22:58:07 * Molly nods, cutting the pastry Jun 29 22:58:09 And now? Jun 29 22:58:20 Bit different now isn't it Jun 29 22:58:55 That is what I am trying to understand, my love. Why is it different, how would you like to proceed? Jun 29 22:59:23 Oh... I think because I am different... I'm more... worldly I suppose Jun 29 23:00:34 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:01:01 You are more open-minded Jun 29 23:01:55 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:02:53 But it is something you wish to continue? Jun 29 23:03:31 If you have no objection... Jun 29 23:03:58 * Molly smiles Jun 29 23:04:15 No objection at all, I would welcome as much of that as you wish Jun 29 23:04:27 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:04:29 Very well Jun 29 23:05:52 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:06:14 * Molly starts laying the strips on the pie Jun 29 23:06:25 That was all. Jun 29 23:06:29 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:06:41 There is something that has occurred to me that I believe you will not like... Jun 29 23:06:50 yes? Jun 29 23:07:31 The brush... Hannalore did my hair. Jun 29 23:07:49 what about it? Jun 29 23:08:09 She did my hair with -that- brush... Jun 29 23:08:29 Yes. You found it arousing that she was doing so? Jun 29 23:08:48 Not in the least. It was pleasant, certainly, but not like that Jun 29 23:08:56 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:09:20 It would have been equally as pleasant if it had been Edward or Heinzharold brushing it? Jun 29 23:09:31 I daresay Jun 29 23:09:42 Then why are you worried, my love? Jun 29 23:11:11 Because of the effect it has on you and the fact it was her doing it. Jun 29 23:12:22 But it did not have that affect on you. And although Inga enjoyed it greatly, it did not take her over the edge Jun 29 23:13:10 Could that be because she was upset? Jun 29 23:14:05 I’m not sure, but she gets no pleasure from regular hairbrushing Jun 29 23:14:14 * Molly adds more strips Jun 29 23:14:33 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:14:36 Edward has asked to borrow it Jun 29 23:15:14 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:15:26 That is fine, providing it comes back safely Jun 29 23:16:12 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:17:00 It is something I enjoy, and would like to continue experiencing with you Jun 29 23:18:25 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:18:26 Alright Jun 29 23:19:03 You enjoy it? Jun 29 23:19:47 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:19:49 Of course Jun 29 23:20:58 * Molly nods, watching him a moment Jun 29 23:21:09 My love, do you need to come and hold me? Jun 29 23:21:18 I think that may be a good idea Jun 29 23:21:44 I have dirty hands, so either from behind, or I can wash them? Jun 29 23:22:31 From behind will be fine Jun 29 23:22:45 * Morgan puts his knife down, moving behind her and wrapping his arms around her Jun 29 23:23:54 * Molly leans her head back to him, and she exhales slowly Jun 29 23:24:00 oh, that’s better! Jun 29 23:25:17 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:25:20 It is Jun 29 23:26:34 * Molly puts her elbows over his arms and squeezes, still keeping her hands away from them both Jun 29 23:26:44 I love you, liebes herz, so much Jun 29 23:26:49 And I you Jun 29 23:27:12 * Molly turns her head to place a kiss on his jawline Jun 29 23:27:32 * Morgan smiles a little Jun 29 23:29:37 * Molly shifts slightly more, tucking her nose beneath his chin and inhaling Jun 29 23:31:29 You smell good, my love Jun 29 23:32:02 Do I? Jun 29 23:32:49 Mmhmm... what you said earlier, about brooking no attitude... Jun 29 23:33:17 Yes? Jun 29 23:33:29 That was a little hot Jun 29 23:33:39 Was it? Jun 29 23:33:46 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:34:04 yes, and I’m not entirely sure I could explain quite why Jun 29 23:34:36 Maybe it'd be worth thinking on that Jun 29 23:35:30 * Molly nods, quiet a moment “Perhaps it is the control... or the implication of punishment” Jun 29 23:35:51 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:35:57 I'm not sure I understand the latter Jun 29 23:36:34 Nor do I, really. It just -is- Jun 29 23:36:52 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:37:48 * Molly sighs Jun 29 23:38:04 I should finish off the pie... Jun 29 23:38:10 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:38:16 Otherwise all this work would be for nought Jun 29 23:38:40 mhmm but you behind me this way is a very pleasant distraction Jun 29 23:40:09 Come on, lets get the food cooked Jun 29 23:40:42 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:40:51 You’d best let me go then Jun 29 23:40:58 * Morgan nods, doing so Jun 29 23:42:26 * Molly gets back on with the pie, but she looks much happier and more relaxed as she does Jun 29 23:42:43 The children seemed to enjoy seeing Bir Jun 29 23:43:58 She is quite amazing Jun 29 23:44:20 * Morgan nods Jun 29 23:44:22 That she is Jun 29 23:45:13 * Molly nods, looking around for some milk Jun 29 23:45:28 I am glad they enjoyed visiting Jun 29 23:46:48 * Morgan nods, finding the milk Jun 29 23:46:58 * Molly takes it, smiling Jun 29 23:47:26 Thank you, I didn’t think anyone would enjoy a homemade version! Jun 29 23:47:39 It'd end up a bit sweet Jun 29 23:48:01 * Molly nods, smiling Jun 29 23:48:30 it would, though thankfully our son does not have your preference for less sweet things Jun 29 23:50:16 Just as well I think Jun 29 23:50:34 is it? Jun 29 23:51:02 * Molly starts brushing the milk on the pie Jun 29 23:51:11 It'd be a nightmare trying to get him fed if he didn't like sweet milk Jun 29 23:51:54 Oh, yes. I thought you might mean that a greater preference for sweetness for you might mean I needed to make twice as much Jun 29 23:53:00 Well, yes, that would be the case I suppose Jun 29 23:54:27 * Molly nods, blushing a little, saying no more whilst she works Jun 29 23:54:57 * Morgan goes back to chopping before drinking his coffee Jun 29 23:55:34 * Molly glances at him, then puts this in the oven too Jun 29 23:57:44 I measured Hildegarde, and we established that her measurement is perfect for when she conceived Jun 29 23:58:45 Excellent Jun 29 23:59:20 * Molly nods Jun 29 23:59:33 Now I know how to, it will be easier to measure me