**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Jun 18 00:01:01 2024 Jun 18 00:01:01 I don't believe it is... Molly and I... we were fated to have -something- to do with eachother, just not necessarily this... our feelings for eachother are ours, noone elses Jun 18 00:01:41 You don’t ever worry that that’s not real? That you or she haven’t been nudged? Jun 18 00:02:18 no, not any more Jun 18 00:02:28 but you did at first? Jun 18 00:03:05 I'm a -deeply- suspicious person... but I've seen so many different ways it could've been. My feelings are my own Jun 18 00:03:27 You ever worried that with you and Dietlinde? Jun 18 00:03:53 We were... nudged toward eachother, but again... our feelings were just that... ours Jun 18 00:04:58 Don’t you find that grating? You were a pretty logical person, not that much of a rebel then, shouldn’t you have ended up with Mina? Jun 18 00:05:20 * MorganK nods Jun 18 00:06:24 I've seen -that- too... its why I've never scoffed at the idea of love at first sight... I had a crush on Mina but... I -adored- Dietlinde from the moment I met her, same as HeinzHarold did with Inga Jun 18 00:07:04 I think it’s horseshit Jun 18 00:07:13 * MorganK shrugs Jun 18 00:07:29 Thats up to you. Jun 18 00:08:12 Attraction and chemistry at first sight, sure. Love comes after that, I reckon Jun 18 00:08:23 * MorganK shrugs Jun 18 00:08:40 I'm not discounting that at all... its just not how it felt for me Jun 18 00:08:55 because you’re a hopeless romantic Jun 18 00:09:08 * MorganK shrugs Jun 18 00:09:10 maybe Jun 18 00:09:24 * MorganK has quit (Quit: Konversation terminated!) Jun 18 00:28:41 * Claudia has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 18 19:10:10 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 18 19:11:17 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 18 19:13:19 M: much as you’ll be pissed at me for saying it... it’s more than just attraction Jun 18 19:14:11 C: I don’t actually know I disagree, but I don’t trust it isn’t some of the supernatural horseshit Jun 18 19:15:52 * Molly is now known as Claudia Jun 18 19:16:14 Uinise I definitely felt that attraction to right away Jun 18 19:16:27 Oh yeah, that was obvious Jun 18 19:17:29 * Claudia walks along “I’ll be glad when he’s fucked off on Tuesday” Jun 18 19:17:45 Yeah, I imagine you will Jun 18 19:18:13 you must have had that with Molly too, right? Jun 18 19:18:49 Being glad she fucked off? Jun 18 19:19:20 Being glad when you were apart, when you first started to realise you fancied her Jun 18 19:20:01 I'm not sure you want me to answer that Jun 18 19:21:25 * Claudia looks at him “would I ask if I didn’t?” Jun 18 19:22:07 If you realised the potential implications, maybe not... what if I felt relieved to begin with... but it gnawed at me more and more... and we ended up here... Jun 18 19:23:17 * Claudia shrugs Jun 18 19:23:22 I don’t know Jun 18 19:24:43 alright... yes, I was relieved, even as soon as she was out of sight... but then she started appearing in my thoughts more and more... and each time I saw her the attraction was worse Jun 18 19:27:10 Why didn’t you just leave? Jun 18 19:27:48 * Morgan glances around Jun 18 19:28:03 Wasn't going to find anywhere else in Avalon with as good a chance of getting killed... Jun 18 19:29:42 * Claudia laughs Jun 18 19:29:54 That would have fixed the attraction problem too Jun 18 19:30:51 * Morgan nods Jun 18 19:31:06 I wasn't in any rush to get to hell but... I didn't want to be alive anymre Jun 18 19:32:13 * Claudia nods Jun 18 19:33:12 I don’t want to have to die to avoid him Jun 18 19:34:19 No... you've too much to live for Jun 18 19:35:31 * Claudia nods Jun 18 19:36:07 When did it change from you fighting it to wanting to be able to follow through on it? Jun 18 19:36:39 * Morgan looks thoughtful Jun 18 19:36:57 y'know... I'm not entirely sure Jun 18 19:37:42 * Claudia nods Jun 18 19:37:45 fair enough Jun 18 19:38:11 When I took her to Carleon... I think probably then... Jun 18 19:38:40 Didn’t you realise how risky that was?! Jun 18 19:39:06 Which bit? Jun 18 19:40:20 taking her somewhere where you’d be with her constantly Jun 18 19:40:43 Yeah but... I couldn't let her be in danger Jun 18 19:41:43 she could have been poked at by a midwife or doctor in Tawstock though. Why go away with her for two weeks? Jun 18 19:42:52 because... I had told her if she couldn't find a mirror for her dresser in Tawstock, I'd take her to Carleon to get one Jun 18 19:43:25 sounds like part of you actually wanted to get her alone and away to me Jun 18 19:44:00 Sometimes the heart wants what the head doesn't... Jun 18 19:45:53 * Claudia glances at him Jun 18 19:46:04 And you reckon thanks my problem too? Jun 18 19:46:52 Yes, I do... you've gone past being attracted to him... you actually care about him, and got angry with one of your oldest friends because he upset him... Jun 18 19:48:00 * Claudia huffs, just walking Jun 18 19:48:14 I'm not attacking you Jun 18 19:48:34 no, but it still feels like shit Jun 18 19:49:08 * Morgan nods Jun 18 19:49:10 Yeah, it does Jun 18 19:50:05 You still feel it now? Jun 18 19:54:11 Which part? Jun 18 19:54:36 feeling like shit that your attraction got the better of you Jun 18 19:55:18 The reason was important... I felt like that because I felt like I was betraying Dietlinde... and then because I didn't -deserve- to have someone again... Jun 18 19:57:20 why didn’t you? Jun 18 19:59:56 Why would I deserve that when I failed Dietlinde and Jana so -so- terribly? Jun 18 20:01:19 I think you’re wrong, but I know how hard that sort of guilt is Jun 18 20:01:32 * Morgan nods Jun 18 20:02:43 When did -that- stop? Jun 18 20:03:01 Not long ago... most of the time Jun 18 20:04:11 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:04:48 I think you deserve them, for whatever that’s worth. Jun 18 20:05:03 * Morgan nods Jun 18 20:05:18 Its worth a great deal. Most of the time I agree. Jun 18 20:06:51 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:07:01 when don’t you? Jun 18 20:08:28 Usually after nightmares... those sort of feelings drag on... Jun 18 20:09:45 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:10:07 did you finish those ones about Dietlinde still being alive? Jun 18 20:10:20 * Morgan nods, frowning Jun 18 20:10:26 yes... it was... brutal Jun 18 20:12:57 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:13:17 it’s not been that bad again? Jun 18 20:13:34 That was... probably the worst so far... Jun 18 20:14:28 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:15:01 What’s the current one? Jun 18 20:16:12 Uhh... there's one where I died in the fire instead of Dietlinde and Jana... though I don't know that one will continue... and one where I married before meeting Dietlinde... and I wasn't there when Kaufmann was going to attack the cavalry in the rain Jun 18 20:17:01 * Claudia nods “How did that turn out?” Jun 18 20:18:20 Ten survived... Grendlik and I went as soon as we got word,I defended the survivors from wolves... Jun 18 20:20:10 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:20:30 Would have turned out worse if you hadn’t stopped it then Jun 18 20:20:48 * Morgan nods Jun 18 20:21:40 I'd have gotten promoted... what was left of my unit gave me a nickname... Jun 18 20:23:24 What was it? Jun 18 20:23:59 Bear in mind I'd just killed three wolves, and was covered in their blood... after having swallowed some of it... they called me wolfblood Jun 18 20:25:02 Grim, but better than Breadbox Jun 18 20:25:09 * Morgan nods Jun 18 20:26:59 it gets points for intimidation Jun 18 20:27:07 * Morgan nods Jun 18 20:27:23 * Morgan sighs Jun 18 20:27:54 It felt strange... being accepted by them... obviously I was shunned after I showed Kaufmann up Jun 18 20:30:12 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:30:49 But fewer lived. Did Dietlinde marry Heinzharold then, if you married Molly? Jun 18 20:31:01 I didn't marry Molly Jun 18 20:34:35 * Claudia looks at him Jun 18 20:34:45 You better not say you married me? Jun 18 20:34:59 Didn't know you Jun 18 20:36:26 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:37:04 Was I with him? Jun 18 20:37:27 Wouldn't know... I didn't know you Jun 18 20:37:43 I have, however, seen that in other dreams Jun 18 20:38:20 * Claudia nods Jun 18 20:38:32 I remember you said something like that. Jun 18 20:40:00 * Morgan nods Jun 18 20:42:08 who did you marry? Jun 18 20:42:19 * Morgan speaks quietly Jun 18 20:42:21 Mina... Jun 18 20:43:57 * Claudia laughs Jun 18 20:44:02 Sounds boring Jun 18 20:44:14 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 18 20:44:24 Not exactly Jun 18 20:46:19 * Claudia looks at him, smirking “Okay then” Jun 18 20:46:42 I know things about her now that I was quite comfortable not knowing. Jun 18 20:48:48 * Claudia nods “Awkward. I take it you’re not telling Molly or Edward” Jun 18 20:49:21 No. I don't see it'd do anything but cause issues Jun 18 20:50:40 Agreed. Jun 18 20:53:29 * Claudia continues to walk around the small manor grounds. It all seems quiet Jun 18 20:56:17 *When they get back to the entrance, Uinise is sat on the doorstep* Jun 18 20:56:31 hey Jun 18 20:56:37 * Claudia looks concerned “What”s wrong? why are you sat out here?” Jun 18 20:56:59 Uinise: I was just hot inside Jun 18 20:57:12 * Morgan tilts his head Jun 18 20:57:21 Are you feeling alright? You're usually cold here... Jun 18 20:57:53 *It’s not very clear in the low light, but it looks like Claudia might be blushing* Jun 18 20:58:13 U: I am fine, It was just hot by the fire Jun 18 20:58:44 * Morgan nods, sitting beside her Jun 18 20:59:06 I want to ask you something... and I want you to answer only the question I ask and nothing more... okay? Jun 18 21:01:00 *Uinise nods* Okay Jun 18 21:01:42 Has being given a separate room to Claudia unsettled you in any way? Jun 18 21:03:01 U: Yes, I miss her. Jun 18 21:03:22 Then I'll see to it you're rooms are changed and a single one is arranged Jun 18 21:06:16 *Uinise smiles* If Clowdia wants that, yes Jun 18 21:08:56 * Claudia nods Jun 18 21:11:28 I'll deal with it Jun 18 21:13:37 *Uinise nods* Thank you Morgan Jun 18 21:14:30 * Morgan nods Jun 18 21:14:31 Of course Jun 18 21:18:20 Uinise: Clowdia, are you finished walking? Jun 18 21:18:50 * Claudia nods “I think so, unless you want to come with me?” Jun 18 21:19:07 *Uinise nods, standing up* I will walk with you Jun 18 21:19:49 $Is this just for a walk, or...?$ Jun 18 21:20:06 Uinise, would you like me to leave the two of you alone? Jun 18 21:26:11 U: I might like to kiss Clowdia, and your people do not approve of that Jun 18 21:33:09 * Claudia is definitely blushing now Jun 18 21:33:38 It doesn't bother -me- but I will give some privacy Jun 18 21:34:12 U: Thank you Jun 18 21:37:41 * Claudia has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 18 21:45:43 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 18 21:46:21 (c&p when you can pls) Jun 18 21:46:35 *Uinise nods* Thank you Morgan Jun 18 21:46:35 * Morgan nods Jun 18 21:46:35 Of course Jun 18 21:46:35 Uinise: Clowdia, are you finished walking? Jun 18 21:46:35 * Claudia nods “I think so, unless you want to come with me?” Jun 18 21:46:37 *Uinise nods, standing up* I will walk with you Jun 18 21:46:39 $Is this just for a walk, or...?$ Jun 18 21:46:41 Uinise, would you like me to leave the two of you alone? Jun 18 21:46:43 U: I might like to kiss Clowdia, and your people do not approve of that Jun 18 21:46:45 * Claudia is definitely blushing now Jun 18 21:46:47 It doesn't bother -me- but I will give some privacy Jun 18 21:46:49 U: Thank you Jun 18 21:48:17 * Morgan nods, inclining his head Jun 18 21:48:33 $I’ll be careful$ Jun 18 21:50:13 $I know you will$ Jun 18 21:51:34 See you for training in the morning Jun 18 21:52:17 * Morgan nods Jun 18 21:54:19 *Uinise is chatting away when they go off into the night* Jun 18 21:54:41 * Morgan smiles a little, going inside Jun 18 21:58:19 *he finds the others in the drawing room. they’re gathered around. Molly has her hand casually on her bump, and is sat talking with Mina* Jun 18 21:58:40 They really are very pretty. I wish I’d bought some too Jun 18 21:59:09 Whats that? Jun 18 22:02:26 *Mina sips her drink, smiling. Molly looks relaxed* Embroidered stockings, my love. There was some in Freiburg, they had different flowers going up them Jun 18 22:02:43 Ah... Jun 18 22:03:28 Mina: I will give you the direction of the Miliners they came from if you would like to order some for Molly Jun 18 22:04:48 * Morgan nods Jun 18 22:05:08 Yes, please Jun 18 22:05:44 Mina speaks quietly: I will show them to you tomorrow, if you like, but I don’t think Eddie would want me to show you now... Jun 18 22:06:10 * Molly giggles Jun 18 22:09:13 No, I suspect he wouldn't Jun 18 22:09:37 * Molly smiles “They’re love though. They have forget me nots at the top” Jun 18 22:09:42 lovely* Jun 18 22:10:29 * Morgan nods Jun 18 22:10:34 Sounds it Jun 18 22:13:21 Are you having some blokners, my love? Jun 18 22:13:38 [I cannot imagine you need me again?] Jun 18 22:14:16 Yes, please Jun 18 22:16:25 [not right at the moment love] Jun 18 22:16:42 * Molly pours him some, and makes space beside her. DeeDee is stood talking with Edward and James, HH, Ma, Ruth, Inga and Elsie are chatting too, Walder Theresa and Jacques have gone* Jun 18 22:17:02 [I must be doing a very good job then] Jun 18 22:17:08 * Morgan sits down, sipping his drink Jun 18 22:17:11 [indeed] Jun 18 22:17:46 Mina: What will you be doing tomorrow, Morgan? It seems Molly has a busy day planned for herself Jun 18 22:18:38 I'm not actually sure... Jun 18 22:20:18 I thought I would go to the market, visit the family whose children were so poorly in December, look over the books with Heinrich, and then cook dinner Jun 18 22:20:46 You want to cook dinner... Jun 18 22:20:54 * Molly smiles Jun 18 22:21:09 It has been a long time since I’ve been able to do so Jun 18 22:21:43 You know our staff would stand aside if you wished to cook... Jun 18 22:23:51 Of course, but here I know the kitchen already from when we have stayed before Jun 18 22:24:36 * Morgan nods Jun 18 22:24:44 I've cooked in Hafenlohr... Jun 18 22:24:50 * Molly nods, smiling Jun 18 22:26:04 You are a good cook... *she smiles, sending him the image of her sat in his lap in their first cottage kissing, the first time they’d gone so far, the day she first made this for him* How about blackberry crumble? Jun 18 22:26:51 * Morgan nods, smiling Jun 18 22:26:54 That'd be lovely Jun 18 22:27:06 * Molly nods Jun 18 22:27:14 Very well, my love Jun 18 22:47:25 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 18 23:27:44 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)