**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Wed May 1 20:07:24 2024 May 01 20:07:24 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined May 01 20:08:28 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined May 01 20:09:17 * Molly nods, and the baby stirring takes her attention, freeing him from explaining. He gets an escape when she starts nursing, and waits until well after it’s dark before sneaking in and removing just his boots and heavy coat before lying on his bed. Again he has to wade through the thoughts to get to sleep, and again the nightmare (Mtf) May 01 20:09:17 *When he wakes suddenly it’s facing the cabin wall. She’s behind him on the bed, once more shaking him firmly by the arm “Morgan, it’s alright... it’s a nightmare, nothing more.” May 01 20:09:17 * Morgan breathes slowly, wiping at his face May 01 20:09:17 * Molly strokes his arm “let me hold you a minute? I always think that’d be helpful” May 01 20:09:18 * Morgan sighs heavily, nodding May 01 20:09:20 * Molly shifts so that she’s wrapped around him from behind. Her arm goes around his waist, her lower leg just over his. He can feel her head tuck in at the back of his neck, and feel the warmth of her breath on his nape. She smells nice, and her can feel her breasts against his back, as firm as his persistent thoughts had suggested May 01 20:09:26 * Morgan sighs, trying to relax May 01 20:09:28 *it happens much easier than he expected after about half a minute, his breathing slowing, heart rate too, and his muscle tension dropping May 01 20:09:35 * Morgan takes a few deep breaths May 01 20:10:25 * Molly ‘s voice is soft, soothing “There now, isn’t that a little better...” May 01 20:10:29 * Morgan nods May 01 20:10:32 Aye, it is May 01 20:12:37 * Molly continues to hold him. His awareness of her only grows, noting her breathing, the places down his back where they meet that are soft, the ones that are firm. It’s been a full year since he’s had such sustained contact with anyone, except the baby May 01 20:13:12 * Morgan frowns May 01 20:13:17 What time is it? May 01 20:13:25 I haven’t a clue May 01 20:13:47 * Morgan sighs May 01 20:13:53 I think I might get up May 01 20:14:10 But it’s nighttime May 01 20:14:58 Its dark, doesn't meant its nighttime... besides... I don't sleep much May 01 20:16:13 * Molly inhales deeply, and he feels a little tease of cool air on his nape as she does “If you wish... this is very comfortable though” May 01 20:16:30 It is May 01 20:17:15 * Molly yawns softly “You do not wish me to sing you back to sleep?” May 01 20:17:26 * Morgan sighs May 01 20:17:29 You can I suppose May 01 20:17:44 Are you comfortable this way around? May 01 20:19:13 * Morgan nods May 01 20:19:16 Yes, I am May 01 20:22:10 * Molly nods, and starts to sing quietly, a soft lullaby. He falls asleep, only to dream as he had been, of her breasts in his hands, milk in his mouth, a comfort and a desire, with her quietly moaning his name. When he wakes suddenly he’s achingly, urgently hard, and she is still wrapped around him from behind, fast asleep May 01 20:22:47 * Morgan scowls, using one hand to pinch the skin on his arm hard May 01 20:24:45 *it hurts, but the slight movement makes her nuzzle against him, her hand making a single light stroke of his belly* May 01 20:24:59 * Morgan pinches harder May 01 20:25:31 *it hurts more, but doesn’t entirely settle him* May 01 20:26:06 * Morgan scowls, mentally berating himself May 01 20:27:51 * Molly fidgets a little, sighing gently. It’s caresses the back of his neck May 01 20:28:09 * Morgan bites the inside of his cheek May 01 20:29:02 *he settles further, but he knows he’s going to be left with physical aching for the rest of the day* May 01 20:31:29 * Morgan closes his eyes trying to go back to sleep May 01 20:31:40 * Molly ruins this peace by sleepily kissing the nape of his neck May 01 20:31:57 * Morgan fidgets, trying to move away from her May 01 20:32:46 *There’s not really much space to go to, but it makes her turn over in her sleep May 01 20:33:17 * Morgan sighs, laying quietly May 01 20:36:16 *he manages to fall asleep once more. He dreams of a campfire, sat with men he doesn’t recognise but does like, and an unfamiliar tall woman runs through the clearing with a man’s breeches on, laughing. When he wakes again, he’s moved right up behind Molly, her derrière lightly against him, and his hand just beneath her breast. May 01 20:36:59 * Morgan bites his cheek once more, turning to lay on his back May 01 20:37:57 *it’s a blessing that it’s dark, because he knows he’d be tenting the blanket that’s over him in an undeniable fashion May 01 20:39:00 * Morgan sighs, shaking his head slightly May 01 20:39:43 *He hears the baby start to fidget in her little box May 01 20:39:58 * Morgan makes quiet sshhh noises May 01 20:41:01 *Molly turns back over, her body against his side. She’s very warm May 01 20:42:40 * Morgan lays in the dark quietly, listening to them breathing May 01 20:43:37 *it’s familiar, just like when Jana was little and in their room* May 01 20:44:29 * Morgan frowns, trying to get an idea for the time May 01 20:44:53 *it’s got to be almost five. Hope fusses more* May 01 20:45:22 * Morgan fidgets, trying to get off the bed without disturbing Molly May 01 20:46:31 * Molly instinctively catches hold of him, eyes opening May 01 20:47:10 Oh! Sorry! *she lets go* I thought it was Hope falling off the bed May 01 20:47:47 * Morgan shakes his head, moving to the floor May 01 20:47:57 She was fussing, thought I'd try to settle her May 01 20:48:13 She probably wants my breasts May 01 20:48:21 * Morgan nods May 01 20:48:25 Most likely May 01 20:48:43 *the baby starts to cry* May 01 20:49:05 * Morgan gently picks her up, bringing her to Molly May 01 20:51:08 I'm going to go up on deck May 01 20:52:13 You needn’t on my account, you could hardly see anything anyway May 01 20:53:52 I want some air... I'd normally be up by now May 01 20:55:58 Alright *He hears the rustle of her dress being undone, and it’s difficult not to picture her revealed skin and how it would feel under his tongue, though he can’t see anything, as she predicted* May 01 20:58:51 * Morgan quietly leaves the room, heading up on deck May 01 21:02:43 *it’s still dark. It gets lighter before dawn, and yet he still doesn’t go down there again. Nor does the ache leave him, not when they wait together to dock, nor when he’s driving a very small coach he’s hired. By the time they get to the inn, where he’s chosen seperate rooms to prevent a repeat of last night, it’s deeply unpleasant May 01 21:04:27 * Morgan drinks quietly May 01 21:05:26 *Molly knocks on his door* May 01 21:06:01 Yes? May 01 21:08:18 *the door opens, and a tiny baby hand appears in the gap. Molly does a little high pitch voice “Hello? Can I visit you? I was missing you and crying “ May 01 21:08:40 * Morgan smiles a little despite himself May 01 21:08:42 Come in May 01 21:09:00 * Molly carries the baby in May 01 21:10:11 Here he is, little one, you favourite person in the world *She smiles, bringing the wide awake baby to him* May 01 21:10:44 * Morgan takes her gently May 01 21:11:29 Hello little lady May 01 21:11:33 *She smiles a little up at him* May 01 21:11:56 I think I know enough Eisen to get us food May 01 21:13:54 * Morgan nods May 01 21:13:56 Alright May 01 21:14:29 * Molly goes, leaving him with the baby who cooes May 01 21:14:41 * Morgan nods May 01 21:14:48 Yes, I know... but its not too far now May 01 21:16:19 *her tiny nails catch his attention, so small and yet so intricate, perfect* May 01 21:17:11 * Morgan smiles, looking at them May 01 21:19:26 *He’s not sure how long he does this, but he’s still doing it when she returns with hot meals and a whole jug of ale. When she tells him the barman had said it made more sense than going up and down, he feels deja by that he can’t place. They eat companionably, having travelled for more than a week now it’s familiar. But it’s not long after they’re done that Hope fusses* May 01 21:19:56 Oh,you're hungry now? May 01 21:23:51 *She draws a sharp breath, then shivers. Though he knows the reactions are a side-effect of her nursing, the baser part of his brain can’t help but notice the reaction is much like it has been in his dreams* May 01 21:25:18 I uhh I think it’s time for me to take her for the night May 01 21:27:07 * Morgan nods May 01 21:27:11 Aye, best had May 01 21:28:36 * Molly holds the baby close. She watches him “If you have a nightmare and you need some company, I’m only next door” May 01 21:28:49 * Morgan nods May 01 21:28:51 Thank you May 01 21:29:01 Goodnight Morgan May 01 21:30:51 Goodnight May 01 21:31:23 * Molly goes, taking the baby with her. The room seems so much barer, so much colder, without them in it May 01 21:31:37 * Morgan sighs, finishing his drink May 01 21:33:11 *He doesn’t settle easily tonight, in the dark his thought veering between anger and disgust at himself, and his desire and yearning for comfort. He tosses and turns for quite some time, and the aching does so too May 01 21:33:52 * Morgan sighs, sitting up, moving so he's leaning against the wall May 01 21:35:16 *He hears through the wall when the baby cries, and is quickly soothed, probably by the breasts that are causing him issues. He starts to fall asleep when he hears her singing. May 01 21:35:34 * Morgan does't fight it May 01 21:39:49 *Unsurprisingly he dreams again of her, more sexual than maternal, lying beside her in the dark to suckle at her, her murmuring his name in the dark, her knee gently pressed against his hardness. He wakes in the little inn very hard again* May 01 21:40:09 * Morgan mutters 'for fuck sake' May 01 21:40:40 *everything is very quiet* May 01 21:41:04 * Morgan sighs, listening hard May 01 21:41:48 *it’s peaceful rather than alarming. it’s earlier than he’d like to wake, but only by an hour* May 01 21:42:26 * Morgan sighs, getting dressed and heading down and outside, practicing with his sword May 01 21:46:42 *it doesn’t help him with his more intimate burdens, but it’s nice, right up until a male voice says “Your Father does that move better” May 01 21:47:15 * Morgan frowns, looking round May 01 21:47:21 * Molly is now known as Yensid May 01 21:47:43 * Yensid is leaning against the building, making the 0lace look infinitely dirtier May 01 21:49:17 maybe May 01 21:49:35 Wondered if you’d turn up today. May 01 21:49:44 Why would you think that? May 01 21:50:11 Going to the graves, it’s been a year. May 01 21:50:25 It wasn't intentional May 01 21:50:36 * Yensid shrugs May 01 21:50:40 They’re hopeful May 01 21:50:53 Well, no doubt I'll disappoint them again May 01 21:51:15 * Yensid nods “could be, yes” May 01 21:52:00 * Yensid tilts his head towards the building “The baby yours?” May 01 21:52:10 How did you know about that? May 01 21:52:32 * Yensid grins, his full sleazy gloriousness May 01 21:52:46 It’s what retainers do May 01 21:53:08 * Morgan 's lip curls, looking mildly disgusted May 01 21:53:14 No, she's not May 01 21:53:35 The woman’s pretty enough. She yours? May 01 21:53:55 no May 01 21:54:05 * Yensid grins again “Great.” May 01 21:54:19 Keep your filthy hands to yourself May 01 21:54:39 * Yensid shrugs “That’ll be the lady’s choice” May 01 21:55:01 You'll keep away or I'll make you May 01 21:55:25 * Yensid chuckles “Got mean, didn’t you?” May 01 21:55:45 * Morgan looks him up and down May 01 21:55:47 very May 01 21:56:04 Going to break my nose like you did Edward’s? May 01 21:56:19 If I have to May 01 21:56:30 * Yensid nods May 01 21:56:49 Ahhh, she isn’t yours but you want her to be. May 01 21:57:21 You're still talking May 01 21:57:54 I guess I could escort you, for a few May 01 21:57:57 fee* May 01 21:58:12 You''re a retainer, ask your employer May 01 21:58:58 * Yensid nods May 01 21:59:29 Right then. Guess I’ll see you there, after I’ve caught him up on my latest knowledge of his sons May 01 21:59:49 * Morgan frowns May 01 21:59:59 Where is my brother? May 01 22:00:12 At home May 01 22:01:54 Then my father won't need catching up on it, will he May 01 22:02:00 * Yensid chuckles May 01 22:02:05 Not their h9me, his home May 01 22:02:18 What? Where? May 01 22:02:37 Graben, Hapsburg land May 01 22:02:44 Why? May 01 22:03:10 Generally wives prefer it if her husband shares a roof with her, and a bed... May 01 22:03:19 He married?! May 01 22:03:43 Fuck me, did you get hit in the head with a brick? You were never this slow before May 01 22:04:23 * Morgan starts scowling May 01 22:04:33 Yet somehow my father doesn't know? May 01 22:04:59 Course he does, he and Verity went their for the wedding in December May 01 22:05:03 there* May 01 22:05:26 Big happy family then... so what about him doesn't he know? May 01 22:05:34 * Yensid looks at him May 01 22:05:40 What’s it worth to you? May 01 22:05:54 Potentially not beating the shit out of you... May 01 22:06:06 * Yensid chuckles May 01 22:06:51 what he doesn’t know is that Good Ol’ Eddie has started a Koertig heir. His wife had the quickening last week May 01 22:07:12 * Morgan drops his sword May 01 22:07:24 I see May 01 22:07:46 * Yensid nods May 01 22:08:04 Her father is over the moon, despite how it all came about May 01 22:08:25 How do you mean May 01 22:10:16 Well, after you beat him and went off, so did he, straight to Graben, wanting to see Freiarr Hapsburg. Only, the Freiarr had been called up to Fischler to see His Grace, so he wasn’t home. The lady, however, was, and the welcome was very warm. Too warm. May 01 22:10:56 * Yensid gives him another sleazy grin May 01 22:11:02 Oh that weasley little fucker May 01 22:11:10 * Yensid chuckles May 01 22:11:32 Weaseled himself right into the parson’s noose. May 01 22:11:49 * Morgan bends, picking his sword up May 01 22:12:26 Not seen hide nor hair of him in Sudlachenburg ever since that day, same as you May 01 22:12:50 * Morgan nods, scowling May 01 22:13:02 I'd rather my parents don't know I'm coming May 01 22:13:49 That’d mean me wasting some time hereabouts. Either beer or brothel, and both cost a few guilders... May 01 22:14:07 Or you could just keep your mouth shut May 01 22:14:33 Why would I want to do that, when the Graf would want me to do otherwise? May 01 22:15:34 You've offered to do it for money, so don't pull that honour bound bullshit May 01 22:15:46 stop being so cheap then May 01 22:17:14 Ah, go and tell them, be responsible for their disappointment when I don't turn up May 01 22:18:06 I don’t reckon you’re mean enough to do that to them, not after abandoning them this long May 01 22:18:24 But am I mean enough to do that to -you-... May 01 22:18:51 Making it so everything you say in the future will be viewed as suspect... or unreliable... May 01 22:20:31 * Yensid rolls his eyes May 01 22:20:46 Fine. But I’m wooing your girl any chance I get. May 01 22:21:01 It'll be tough to do with no fucking teeth May 01 22:21:35 * Yensid grins “only if she’s really turned 9n by biting” May 01 22:21:50 * Morgan puts his sword away, clenching his fists May 01 22:22:43 * Yensid grins, goading him more “She is, is she? Not your girl, just a passing fancy and some mutual satisfaction...” May 01 22:23:13 * Morgan 's eyes go flat as he starts walking towards Yensid May 01 22:23:44 * Yensid grins “You wouldn’t be so angry if there wasn’t a kernel of truth in it” May 01 22:24:18 * Morgan lashes out suddenly May 01 22:24:51 * Yensid isn’t ready for it so gets hit. But he still laughs May 01 22:25:31 oh yeah, you definitely have a hard-on for this one then May 01 22:25:44 * Morgan swings for him again May 01 22:26:09 * Yensid expects it this time, sidestepping May 01 22:26:57 You want to go home and show them how you clocked me as well as your brother? May 01 22:27:34 Fuck off, Yensid, you disgusting shit. May 01 22:28:21 * Yensid takes a coin from his pocket, flicking it to land at Morgan’s feet “Here, you need the brothel more than me. See you in Sudlachenburg.” May 01 22:29:01 * Morgan picks it up before hurling it at Yensid May 01 22:29:25 * Yensid scarpers, leaving behind him just mocking laughter May 01 22:30:03 * Morgan twists and stretches so his back pops loudly May 01 22:30:51 *From the room up above, he hears Hope crying, able to already distinguish her from any other baby* May 01 22:31:21 * Morgan looks up at the building May 01 22:31:42 *he can’t see anything of note* May 01 22:32:13 * Morgan goes inside May 01 22:32:43 *he still hears the crying when he gets to the door* May 01 22:32:53 * Morgan knocks May 01 22:32:59 * Yensid is now known as Molly May 01 22:33:01 yes? May 01 22:33:15 Sorry... I heard Hope crying May 01 22:33:33 She’s okay, just having trouble latching May 01 22:33:47 * Morgan nods May 01 22:33:50 Ah, alright May 01 22:34:12 We’ll manage. May 01 22:34:22 I'll fetch some coffee May 01 22:34:35 Do we need to leave soon? May 01 22:34:47 Aye, if we can May 01 22:35:06 Alright, we’ll be down soon May 01 22:35:35 Alright, I'll see you soon May 01 22:37:16 * Molly and Hope are ready fairly soon. There’s no sign of Yensid any of the trip to Sudlachenburg, Morgan sat up alone on the top of the cart. Heinzharold’s house is closer to the road they’re on than his parents house, and that’s where DA’s voice in his head had told him to go for help May 01 23:27:03 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) May 01 23:38:54 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)