**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Fri Mar 22 16:04:47 2024 Mar 22 16:04:47 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Mar 22 16:05:58 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 22 19:23:00 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Mar 22 20:28:02 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Mar 22 20:30:10 *Theyre still sat as they were* Mar 22 20:30:23 Ve: is Molly alright, dear boy? Mar 22 20:30:42 * Morgan nods, fiddling with his cuffs Mar 22 20:30:56 Yes mother, fine. She's just finishing feeding Mar 22 20:32:50 *Verity nods. Mina looks a little pensive* Mar 22 20:33:30 Are you alright Mina? Mar 22 20:35:43 *Mina nods politely* Yes, and yourself? Mar 22 20:36:49 You know how it is, waiting for everyone... Mar 22 20:38:06 *She nods* I do Mar 22 20:39:50 *Florrie comes over to Morgan, holding her arms up* Mar 22 20:40:13 * Morgan smiles at her a moment before doing the same for a few seconds before speaking Mar 22 20:40:23 Oh,you want to be picked up? I thought you wanted me to be a tree Mar 22 20:40:51 *Florrie laughs* No tree, Ballhead! Mar 22 20:41:38 * Morgan nods, picking her up Mar 22 20:42:58 *Florrie hugs him, talking about the bluies. Verity watches them sadly Mar 22 20:44:19 Y'know, your grandma really liked the bluies... Mar 22 20:45:42 Ve: They were very good Mar 22 20:45:58 *Florrie nods* Make more? Mar 22 20:46:24 Soon, sweetheart... Mar 22 20:49:05 *Florrie nods. There’s a knock on the door, a maid with tea for the children. Mina stands* M: If you’ll excuse me, I am going to find Edward Mar 22 20:49:26 Would you like me to walk you down, Mina? Mar 22 20:52:18 * Molly is now known as Mina Mar 22 20:52:32 * Mina smiles “That would be lovely, thank you” Mar 22 20:52:49 * Morgan nods, looking at Florrie Mar 22 20:52:57 Alright sweetheart,I'll be back soon Mar 22 20:54:35 *Florrie nods* Okay Ballhead Mar 22 20:54:51 * Morgan kisses her cheek before putting her down and offering his arm to Mina Mar 22 20:57:09 * Mina takes it Mar 22 20:57:24 Ill not be long, mother Mar 22 21:00:27 *Verity smiles, nodding* Mar 22 21:00:47 * Morgan leads Mina from the room, heading toward where he thinks Edward is Mar 22 21:03:09 * Mina sighs when they get out of the room Mar 22 21:03:50 What's wrong little sister? Mar 22 21:05:07 It’s still very difficult to be around them Mar 22 21:05:36 * Morgan nods Mar 22 21:06:02 Have you considered perhaps trying to make a connection with them? Mar 22 21:08:52 I am doing the best I can Mar 22 21:09:42 It wasn't a criticism, Mina. Just a suggestion Mar 22 21:10:19 * Mina nods Mar 22 21:10:30 I apologise, I am sensitive today Mar 22 21:11:22 * Morgan nods Mar 22 21:11:25 I understand Mar 22 21:14:44 I do not look forward to Edward telling his friends Mar 22 21:15:13 No... neither does he. What about it troubles you? Mar 22 21:15:53 They will treat me differently Mar 22 21:16:36 That is possible... its also possible they won't Mar 22 21:18:19 I fear it will diminish me in their eyes Mar 22 21:19:28 Why? Mar 22 21:22:00 Edward had a child with another woman, not with me Mar 22 21:23:39 yes... but given their, lets say, social activities, they are all aware that could happen to any of them... and I'm sure Edward will tell them he thought you were beyond reach... Mar 22 21:24:09 And, lets not forget... yes, he fathered a child, but he -chooses-, -wants- children with you Mar 22 21:25:05 * Mina nods slightly “I appreciate your kindness. I feel embarrassed by it” Mar 22 21:26:07 Its not kindness. Its... truth. Embarrassed by his being a father? Mar 22 21:27:37 Embarrassed that he acted in such a way, and embarrassed that they know my own reluctance to go so far helped seal his fate Mar 22 21:28:19 No it didn't Mar 22 21:30:25 It did. Mar 22 21:30:42 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 22 21:31:09 He didn't sleep with Alice because you allowed him to... he slept with her because you were lost to him. Mar 22 21:31:54 I disagree Mar 22 21:33:04 Why? Mar 22 21:35:10 Edward would have married me if we had been intimate, this could have been avoided. Mar 22 21:36:05 * Morgan stops, taking her hands Mar 22 21:36:31 He would've married you if he hadn't been running round fixing the damage I was causing. Your not being intimate had nothing to do with it Mar 22 21:38:07 * Mina watches him “It’s difficult, being so out of step with them and their ways. They used to tease him about me, saying that if I really liked him I would.” Mar 22 21:38:20 * Morgan glances round Mar 22 21:38:23 They're full of shit Mar 22 21:39:34 * Mina nods “I was waiting, that is right. But that isn’t how they lived” Mar 22 21:40:04 No, it isn't. Their ways are not how Edward should have behaved. Mar 22 21:41:27 * Mina nods solemnly, then smiles a little “I should have developed a tendre for you instead” Mar 22 21:41:59 * Morgan squeezes her hands briefly before returning her arm to his and moving slowly Mar 22 21:42:19 You would not have been happy with me Mar 22 21:43:25 Nor you with me. I’m too heavily starched and not very fun Mar 22 21:43:50 Oh but you have a wicked streak I very much like Mar 22 21:45:34 * Mina smiles “do you? Most find me too cold and they never see beneath it” Mar 22 21:46:14 That is their loss Mar 22 21:47:22 Perhaps, though... it would serve you well to let people in a little more readily... Mar 22 21:48:29 * Mina shakes her head Mar 22 21:48:33 No, I think not Mar 22 21:49:13 * Morgan shrugs Mar 22 21:49:17 That is your choice Mar 22 21:51:47 * Mina nods Mar 22 21:52:02 I save my wickedness for those who earn it Mar 22 21:52:39 * Morgan nods Mar 22 21:52:41 Fair enough Mar 22 21:54:19 How are -you- handling it all? Mar 22 21:54:53 * Morgan looks thoughtful Mar 22 21:55:00 I feel... torn Mar 22 21:55:36 Why is that? Mar 22 21:57:04 Leaving aside the difficulty of her looks... part of me feels like I shouldn't like Alice, like I'm doing you a disservice, betraying you... but another part of me sees that is... unreasonable Mar 22 21:57:28 * Mina nods Mar 22 21:57:48 It isn’t easy to see how well you all like her Mar 22 21:58:39 * Morgan nods Mar 22 21:59:13 The thing is though... us liking her is no reflection on you Mar 22 21:59:58 I feel surplus to requirements at present. She would fit in in my place. Mar 22 22:00:13 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 22 22:01:09 Not at all. As I've said numerous times, she and Edward would ill suit eachother in the long term, and you are an integral part of this family Mar 22 22:02:03 She is the mother of his child, and to whom he turned in his darkest hour. Mar 22 22:03:10 Because he could not turn to the woman he wanted to... because he was not -allowed- to. They will always be tied, yes, as will you to them... but in the quiet moments of life, his soul calls for you Mar 22 22:04:43 * Mina nods a little “It has been hard” Mar 22 22:05:05 I've no doubt Mar 22 22:06:03 I hope when Edward and I are in expectation of a happy event it will ease Mar 22 22:06:30 I'd hope it starts to ease before that Mar 22 22:06:54 For now I hope that it gets no worse Mar 22 22:07:48 I suppose, the other thing to remember is that Edward is not interested in Alice, nor she in him Mar 22 22:10:08 Forgive me, but it is not so simple when one’s spouse has been intimate with someone you then spend time with. It is difficult not to speculate on the events between them. Be thankful that you do not have that with Molly Mar 22 22:11:30 These dreams I get... you know I sometimes see what is coming... but most often its... how things could have been... Mar 22 22:12:11 Eddie has told me a few things Mar 22 22:13:09 One of the many -many- things I've seen that have distressed me... was seeing Molly lust after someone... throw our marriage to the side for them... Mar 22 22:15:19 * Mina squeezes his arm gently, nodding with empathy Mar 22 22:15:35 I’ve dreamt of them together, in graphic detail. Mar 22 22:16:04 * Morgan nods Mar 22 22:16:11 I rather expected the to be the case Mar 22 22:17:13 Is that what you dream too, of them being intimate with each other? Mar 22 22:19:15 I see the growing desire... the little touches, the looks... then, I caught them together and was told its not fair for me to be angry... that its not about me... Mar 22 22:21:11 * Mina nods Mar 22 22:21:45 That is how I feel, that I’m not being fair to be angry Mar 22 22:22:42 Its a little different in your case, though. Mar 22 22:23:08 why? Mar 22 22:24:07 Because the thing you're angry about wasn't done -instead- of being with you, but when all hope of seeing you again was gone Mar 22 22:25:07 I never knew it was over to him. For me we were still together, he was just not visiting Mar 22 22:26:07 * Morgan nods Mar 22 22:26:21 I know... but I'm afraid the blame for that lies with someone else Mar 22 22:27:20 it wasn’t Potts, was it? Mar 22 22:27:38 No, it wasn't Mar 22 22:28:11 * Mina nods Mar 22 22:28:18 Nor Heinzharold? Mar 22 22:28:29 no... though I've seen -that- as well Mar 22 22:28:50 Did that make it hard when you saw them together “ Mar 22 22:29:09 * Morgan glances at her Mar 22 22:29:28 Them, not so much... the other person... I still have trouble trusting them, but have no reason for that other than my dreams Mar 22 22:31:09 * Mina looks shocked and unsettled “You keep saying them.., Do you dream of Molly intimate with a woman?!” Mar 22 22:31:48 * Morgan laughs Mar 22 22:31:57 No, no... I'm just... good at not giving it away Mar 22 22:32:26 * Mina nods Mar 22 22:32:37 Will you have to see him again? Mar 22 22:33:27 * Morgan nods Mar 22 22:33:30 Oh yes. Soon. Mar 22 22:34:17 Are you anxious? Mar 22 22:34:37 About a great many things Mar 22 22:34:53 * Morgan looks at her sidelong Mar 22 22:34:59 Can I ask you something? Mar 22 22:35:22 * Mina nods Mar 22 22:35:37 yes Mar 22 22:35:53 Did Rief's... ability... make you feel differently about him? Love him less, for example... Mar 22 22:37:07 * Mina shakes her head “He was my cousin, and I suppose it was exciting to have a secret like that” Mar 22 22:37:32 But... it went against everything you were raised to believe was good... Mar 22 22:39:15 I was very young then. It couldn’t be bad, because Rief wasn’t bad Mar 22 22:39:29 I see Mar 22 22:40:21 why do you ask? Mar 22 22:41:14 Curiosity... I suppose... if you'd been older it would've been harder to accept Mar 22 22:41:33 * Mina nods Mar 22 22:42:20 It would, and it would have been after the great loss of my mother and brother, where I had drawn into myself more Mar 22 22:42:58 * Morgan nods Mar 22 22:43:00 Of course Mar 22 22:43:23 * Mina nods Mar 22 22:43:37 I miss her now in some ways more than ever Mar 22 22:43:48 * Morgan nods Mar 22 22:44:06 I know its not the same but... my mother is always there for you... Mar 22 22:48:47 * Mina has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Mar 22 22:50:07 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Mar 22 22:51:02 I know its not the same but... my mother is always there for you... Mar 22 22:53:02 It isn’t, because my mother would not have had divided loyalties as you all do Mar 22 22:53:43 I don't have divided loyalties at all Mar 22 22:54:57 * Molly is now known as Mina Mar 22 22:55:24 You are loyal to Edward, and you wish to protect him from my anger Mar 22 22:56:15 You think so? I wish to protect your marriage, your relationship. Be angry with him, if its reasonable Mar 22 23:00:10 I am trying not to be, but dreaming of how he is with her, what they do together, that does make it hard to let go of Mar 22 23:00:21 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:00:48 Oh yes. The feelings definitely linger... but you need to try to remember that it is just a dream Mar 22 23:02:53 But it is not for me. It is something that happened Mar 22 23:03:29 Yes... but what you imagine it to be could be miles from the truth. Do you know what he told me after your first night together? Mar 22 23:04:38 I am unsure Mar 22 23:05:35 He was stood with something akin to a dazed look on his face... said something along the lines of every other experience he'd ever had paled into insignificance Mar 22 23:07:02 * Mina blushes Mar 22 23:07:21 I am glad he felt that way Mar 22 23:08:51 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:09:14 That includes the mother of his child... Mar 22 23:11:00 * Mina nods Mar 22 23:11:07 I suppose it would Mar 22 23:11:16 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:13:54 Im not as dense as I seem Mar 22 23:14:32 I don’t think you are. I am surprised he was so candid with you though Mar 22 23:14:51 We've worked exceptionally hard to overcome our past Mar 22 23:16:43 * Mina nods Mar 22 23:16:59 It’s been difficult for Edward Mar 22 23:17:22 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:17:25 I expect so Mar 22 23:19:34 He talks about you very often Mar 22 23:19:59 Does he? How so? Mar 22 23:22:30 He wonders how you are and what you are doing each day Mar 22 23:22:51 * Morgan smiles a little Mar 22 23:22:58 I am the same Mar 22 23:24:20 * Mina smiles Mar 22 23:24:35 I am pleased for you both Mar 22 23:24:56 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:25:06 It has been hard won. We still end up at odds regularly Mar 22 23:25:23 * Mina nods Mar 22 23:25:51 I believe that’s how siblings can be Mar 22 23:26:05 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:26:09 I believe so Mar 22 23:27:46 *they get to the door where he expects Edward to be* Mar 22 23:28:09 * Morgan knocks Mar 22 23:28:37 *Edward calls for them to come in* Mar 22 23:28:51 * Morgan pushing the door open, letting Mina in Mar 22 23:30:38 * Mina goes on through Mar 22 23:31:53 * Morgan follows her in Mar 22 23:33:29 *Edward looks very pleased to see her, taking her hand and kissing her knuckles. DeeDee looks clean and smart* Mar 22 23:34:06 * Morgan looks them both over before speaking to DeeDee Mar 22 23:34:19 Barely recognise you without half the roads from here to Graben all over you Mar 22 23:34:54 *DeeDee smiles* I was tempted to dip in the lake to get it all off Mar 22 23:35:04 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:35:18 I've spent some time in there... though that'll be curtailed for the time being Mar 22 23:36:25 *DeeDee nods* might I have a word? Mar 22 23:36:32 * Morgan nods Mar 22 23:36:35 Of course Mar 22 23:37:14 *DeeDee inclines his head to the others before going into the hall* Mar 22 23:41:28 * Mina has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer)