**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon Mar 4 19:27:32 2024 Mar 04 19:27:32 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Mar 04 19:31:22 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Mar 04 19:31:54 Alright... Mar 04 19:31:54 * Molly watches him “I Umm... I thought you might stand rather than me ummm sitting in your lap” Mar 04 19:31:54 * Morgan nods, getting up Mar 04 19:31:54 * Molly watches him in the firelight, and opens her arms to him Mar 04 19:31:54 * Morgan moves to her, wrapping his arms about her Mar 04 19:31:55 *me puts hers around his waist. She feels right, physically, despite all his misgivings, and she smells good, the lingering scent of pregnancy, the new scent of nursing. Mar 04 19:32:01 I'm going to keep you both safe Mar 04 19:32:03 Until we’re in Eisen? Mar 04 19:32:05 I'm not going to abandon the two of you Mar 04 19:32:07 *She seems to fit right under his chin, her body warm to his. It’s been a long time since he’s had such sustained touch* Mar 04 19:36:24 * Morgan frowns as he holds her Mar 04 19:37:12 * Molly sighs “Oh, it’s been a while...” Mar 04 19:37:49 * Morgan nods Mar 04 19:37:51 yes Mar 04 19:39:47 * Molly nods, just staying there comfortably. He feels his own heart rate and breathing start to low, and it’s quite relaxing physically Mar 04 19:41:04 * Morgan draws a deep breath before loosening his grip Mar 04 19:41:19 I'm going to fetch some coffee... do you want anything? Mar 04 19:41:48 No, thank you Mar 04 19:41:59 * Morgan nods, letting go Mar 04 19:42:04 I'll not be long Mar 04 19:42:26 * Molly nods, her arms going around herself Mar 04 19:42:27 yes Mar 04 19:42:41 * Morgan lets himself out, going to get some coffee Mar 04 19:45:54 *in reality, her turning wakes him, but he’s immediately asleep again in the same dream. The first week passes. Molly is up and about now, though keeps a low profile. As with any other baby, there's tiredness and broken sleep, but for a man used to less than four hours, it isn't too bad. MTF Mar 04 19:46:24 **He's quickly regained all his skills of changing, bathing, and burping the baby, which brings a mix of calm, even perhaps happy moments, and deep aching longing for his daughter. He and Molly chat. She's not widely read, but she's smart. She sews quite well, and she has a lovely singing voice. MTF Mar 04 19:47:32 **They never talk about their pasts, and not really about the future. He hasn't decided yet what they will do and where they will go. Every night now he dreams that same thing, of nursing from her, of her tender maternal touch, and every time he wakes he is very hard. He excuses himself when she nurses now as often as he can, because his eyes find her breasts compulsively, and when he sees them he feels a mix of that lovely warm peace of his dream as well as Mar 04 19:48:53 *the arousal he wakes. He’s changing the baby just before lunch on eighth day when there’s a knock* Mar 04 19:49:05 Yes? Mar 04 19:51:12 *The servant sent to the bank in Carleon enters* Master Hockridge? Mar 04 19:51:32 * Morgan looks at them Mar 04 19:51:37 You know that... Mar 04 19:53:05 man: Here’s the letter from your bank... Mar 04 19:53:19 * Morgan nods, taking it Mar 04 19:53:21 Thank you Mar 04 19:55:25 *the man excuses himself. Molly comes to finish off the nappy cloth* Mar 04 19:55:35 Did you need some privacy for that? Mar 04 19:56:36 * Morgan shrugs, opening the letter Mar 04 19:58:36 *Inside it addresses him as Veisgraf Koertig, despite the outside saying Master Hockridge” Mar 04 20:01:26 * Morgan frowns, reading it Mar 04 20:02:07 *It informs him that his account contains two thousand, three hundred and seventy five guilders* Mar 04 20:02:34 * Morgan lets out a low whistle Mar 04 20:05:16 * Molly looks over from where she’s swaddling the baby “is all well?” Mar 04 20:08:52 Its a little more than I expected, thats all Mar 04 20:11:03 Is it enough to get us to Eisen? Mar 04 20:11:22 Yes. Without doubt. Mar 04 20:12:30 I was going to barter my working aboard to get us there but... I won't need to Mar 04 20:15:28 * Molly smiles, bringing the baby over “And we’ll go to your village?” Mar 04 20:16:01 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:16:17 Yes... it'll be most likely where my friend is Mar 04 20:17:51 * Molly smiles “I know she’s young, but if we are somewhere quiet and we can rest, I think we can go very soon?” Mar 04 20:18:41 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:18:44 Possibly, yes Mar 04 20:24:55 I’ve sailed before, I know what to expect Mar 04 20:25:47 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:25:54 There'll be some travel overland as well Mar 04 20:28:16 * Molly nods “I’ve done that as well” Mar 04 20:28:41 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:28:58 Its likely to be difficult for me... Mar 04 20:32:46 * Molly nods Mar 04 20:32:52 You are grieving Mar 04 20:33:11 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:33:27 Yes. Relations with my family are... well, non existent since the fire Mar 04 20:36:07 * Molly nods sadly, looking at the child “I understand how that is” Mar 04 20:37:31 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:38:28 * Molly looks up at him Mar 04 20:38:39 You aren’t going without a friend Mar 04 20:39:24 * Morgan nods, tucking the letter in his pocket Mar 04 20:43:13 * Molly smiles, the baby rooting again Mar 04 20:43:24 How can she still be hungry?! Mar 04 20:43:48 Its hard work, growing Mar 04 20:45:26 * Molly nods, taking her to the chair Mar 04 20:45:54 will you be finding us passage to Eisen now? Mar 04 20:46:45 I suppose I best had... Mar 04 20:47:31 * Molly sits, starting to undo her dress Mar 04 20:47:38 Do you not want to go? Mar 04 20:48:31 Its the right thing for me to do... I'm just... concerned about it Mar 04 20:50:15 * Molly ‘s bared skin is still hard to look away from Mar 04 20:50:20 what worries you? Mar 04 20:51:19 I didn't leave on good terms with my family Mar 04 20:54:31 Do we have to see them just to visit your friend? Mar 04 20:54:47 * Morgan nods Mar 04 20:54:57 I cant leave my mother not knowing if I'm alive or not Mar 04 20:55:04 * Molly brings the baby to her breast, sighing happily when she’s latched Mar 04 20:55:10 Haven’t you written? Mar 04 20:55:42 What would I say? Sorry for not telling you where I am, I'm still alive...? Mar 04 20:56:47 Of course Mar 04 20:57:17 I don't think that'd work Mar 04 20:58:50 At least they would want to know you are alive... Mar 04 20:59:46 maybe... but it'd barely arrive before we do Mar 04 21:01:42 * Molly nods “I’ll leave it in your capable hands” Mar 04 21:02:30 * Morgan nods Mar 04 21:02:33 I'll think about it Mar 04 21:04:29 * Molly yawns, stroking the baby’s hair “What port will we dock at?” Mar 04 21:05:05 Freiburg Mar 04 21:05:34 That’s not on the coast, is it? it’s down the big river Mar 04 21:05:44 Thats right... Mar 04 21:08:17 * Molly nods, yawning again “She looks so sweet like this” Mar 04 21:08:40 * Morgan nods Mar 04 21:08:42 She does Mar 04 21:10:26 would you mind getting some tea? Mar 04 21:10:36 No, of course... Mar 04 21:10:44 * Morgan moves, going to find some Mar 04 21:11:51 *he doesn’t feel hugely welcome here now, and Catherine isn’t at home. The servants aren’t deferential like they were, but still a bit afraid of him Mar 04 21:13:00 * Morgan shrugs to himself, fetching the tea Mar 04 21:13:58 * Molly is singing when he gets back, he can hear her through the door. She’s singing in Eisen Mar 04 21:16:02 Wo willst du hin, so ganz allein, treibst du davon. Wer hält deine Hand, wenn es dich, nach unten zieht? ((Where do you want to go, so completely alone, you are drifting away. Who holds your hand, when it pulls you under?)) Mar 04 21:16:43 * Morgan goes into the room, frowning Mar 04 21:16:47 Where did you hear that? Mar 04 21:16:59 * Molly stops, watching him Mar 04 21:17:02 in Durham Mar 04 21:17:17 You learned an Eisen song... in Durham... Mar 04 21:17:23 yes Mar 04 21:17:33 How?! Mar 04 21:17:41 From someone Eisen Mar 04 21:18:23 * Morgan puts the cup down Mar 04 21:18:39 Get a lot of Eisen trade in Durham? Mar 04 21:20:32 A little Mar 04 21:20:54 * Molly looks at the baby, smoothing her hair back Mar 04 21:22:05 So... just a sailor then... Mar 04 21:22:39 * Molly chews her lip “just a little trade ship” Mar 04 21:22:59 What are you not telling me? Mar 04 21:23:10 * Molly sighs Mar 04 21:23:21 Hope’s Father... he’s Eisen Mar 04 21:23:46 I see. Do you recall his name? Mar 04 21:24:00 yes, but we are -not- finding h8m. Mar 04 21:24:47 Why? Mar 04 21:25:17 I don’t want him in her life, nor does he want her in his. Mar 04 21:25:37 He told you such? Mar 04 21:26:25 He told me that the first time was safe, and there could never be another time because he couldn’t be having a child Mar 04 21:26:47 I see. Whats his name? Mar 04 21:33:13 Why does it matter? Mar 04 21:33:20 Indulge me Mar 04 21:33:41 You promise you will not try to contact hi:? Mar 04 21:33:44 him? Mar 04 21:34:22 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 21:34:53 If I must Mar 04 21:35:05 yes, you must Mar 04 21:35:16 As you wish Mar 04 21:36:05 His name is Rainer Mar 04 21:36:35 * Morgan nods Mar 04 21:36:40 Long way for a little trade Mar 04 21:36:56 * Molly shrugs Mar 04 21:37:19 I think he traded with Vesten and Vendel too Mar 04 21:38:18 * Morgan nods Mar 04 21:38:50 Like I said, I have family not too ar from Durham, wouldn't be entirely unheard of for my family or friend to dock there... Mar 04 21:39:42 If they were looking for you... Mar 04 21:39:56 Or just visiting my uncle Mar 04 21:41:01 Oh... He has a big scar if that helps? Mar 04 21:41:44 Not especially... where? Though... most Eisenmen have scars Mar 04 21:44:08 diagonally across his body, pretty much hip to shoulder Mar 04 21:44:34 Lucky his innards didn't fall out Mar 04 21:47:03 * Molly wrinkles her nose, smiling Mar 04 21:47:12 I wasn’t thinking of that Mar 04 21:47:52 * Morgan frowns Mar 04 21:47:55 Just a sailor? Mar 04 21:48:50 * Molly nods Mar 04 21:49:18 huh Mar 04 21:51:31 why? Mar 04 21:52:39 Sailors tend to stick to brothels... less hassle to get what they want Mar 04 21:53:24 * Molly frowns a little Mar 04 21:53:30 I suppose so Mar 04 21:54:13 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 21:54:29 Its not a name I know, so its unlikely we'll bump into him... did he say where he was from? Mar 04 21:55:45 * Molly shakes her head Mar 04 21:58:40 * Morgan nods Mar 04 21:58:42 Alright Mar 04 22:02:20 * Molly sits the baby up and burps her gently “There’s no point worrying about the past, only in looking to the future” Mar 04 22:02:42 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 22:02:46 Easier said than done Mar 04 22:03:17 * Molly nods Mar 04 22:03:32 Would you like to hold her, that seems to cheer you? Mar 04 22:03:52 * Morgan nods Mar 04 22:03:55 Yes, I think so Mar 04 22:04:22 * Molly brings him the tiny baby all small and scrunched up Mar 04 22:04:35 She looks like me, I think Mar 04 22:04:42 * Morgan takes her gently, looking at her Mar 04 22:05:31 I suppose she does, yes Mar 04 22:05:59 she has my hair and eyes Mar 04 22:06:12 * Morgan nods Mar 04 22:06:13 That she does Mar 04 22:06:33 It’s unfortunate about the hair, it makes it so hard to not be noticed Mar 04 22:08:05 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 22:08:20 I don't know... people will get used to it Mar 04 22:09:20 * Molly smiles Mar 04 22:09:32 I always wished it was just brown Mar 04 22:10:03 * Morgan nods Mar 04 22:10:18 I think its normal to wish things were different from what we know Mar 04 22:10:28 * Molly looks at him Mar 04 22:10:38 what would you change about yourself? Mar 04 22:11:31 What I was born into Mar 04 22:12:19 * Molly frowns Mar 04 22:12:21 why? Mar 04 22:12:32 Because... I would've been left alone Mar 04 22:13:18 I don’t understand Mar 04 22:14:21 In some circumstances, there are expectations laid upon you... and limitations, unfair ones. Mar 04 22:15:31 * Molly nods Mar 04 22:15:36 like what? Mar 04 22:15:47 like... who you can marry, for a start Mar 04 22:16:43 * Molly watches him Mar 04 22:16:57 it’s alright, you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to Mar 04 22:18:07 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 22:18:19 You'll find out soon enough... its not like I can hide it once we arrive Mar 04 22:19:52 * Molly watches his expression, hers serious Mar 04 22:19:59 You’re a nobleman... Mar 04 22:20:03 * Morgan nods Mar 04 22:20:06 I am. Mar 04 22:21:34 * Molly nods Mar 04 22:21:42 That’s okay, no one is perfect Mar 04 22:21:52 * Morgan smiles a little Mar 04 22:21:54 Quite Mar 04 22:22:44 * Molly smiles too “They call you My Lord, and me That Whore...” Mar 04 22:24:01 They won't Mar 04 22:25:13 what will we say when we’re there? Mar 04 22:25:46 I haven't decided yet. I'm going to try to find my friend, assuming he'll speak to me... he's smart, he'll have an idea Mar 04 22:27:23 * Molly nods “I am glad you’re coming with me” Mar 04 22:28:07 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 22:28:10 I thought I'd die here Mar 04 22:29:00 * Molly nods “Now you don’t have to” Mar 04 22:29:08 * Morgan shrugs Mar 04 22:29:12 Another thing I've failed Mar 04 22:29:28 * Molly looks quite pained Mar 04 22:30:05 If you still intend to, wouldn’t it be better to be back there, where you can be buried in the soil of your forefathers? Mar 04 22:31:00 * Morgan frowns Mar 04 22:31:20 I hadn't considered that I'd be doing to my mother what I have endured... I can't... I can't do that to her Mar 04 22:32:32 * Molly nods, putting a hand gently on his shoulder “If she loves you, you should let her” Mar 04 22:32:55 * Morgan sighs Mar 04 22:55:05 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Mar 04 23:33:48 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)