**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Feb 8 00:06:53 2024 Feb 08 00:06:53 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 08 17:43:05 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Feb 08 18:18:54 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Feb 08 18:23:50 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Feb 08 18:25:24 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Feb 08 18:25:55 I think I’ll read a few more minutes before dressing Feb 08 18:25:55 * Morgan nods, watching her Feb 08 18:25:55 Alright love Feb 08 18:25:55 * Molly stays in this position, getting the book. She lifts a little through the hips in a show of getting comfortable, and her toes wiggle a little. Feb 08 18:25:55 * Morgan shakes his head, straightening himself Feb 08 18:25:58 * Molly glances back at him Feb 08 18:26:00 Is everything alright? Feb 08 18:26:05 Yes, fine... just... taking a moment to become presentable Feb 08 18:26:45 * Molly smiles, pushing strands of her hair from her face Feb 08 18:27:11 you look perfectly well-dressed. I see nothing unpresentable at all Feb 08 18:27:26 * Morgan nods, fidgeting with his placket Feb 08 18:27:33 Alright, I'll see you in a while Feb 08 18:28:47 * Molly watches this with undisguised interest “and in your mind, you’ll see me constantly all afternoon?” Feb 08 18:28:56 * Morgan nods Feb 08 18:28:58 As alwasy Feb 08 18:29:26 But like -this-, half naked and with my derrière on show? Feb 08 18:29:41 * Morgan nods Feb 08 18:30:10 * Molly smiles Feb 08 18:30:27 have a pleasant afternoon, mon petit chou! Feb 08 18:30:44 Undoubtedly. My love Feb 08 18:31:01 * Molly nods, letting him go Feb 08 18:31:12 * Morgan goes to get his sketches Feb 08 18:37:24 *in the book is a sketch of the day he met her, her under the trees on their wedding day, her silhouetted by the window heavily pregnant, and loosely in the back a draft sheet of her nude, as well as many not quite finished sketches of Jana, one of Jana with Dietlinde, Sascha and Otto outside the cottage, Ballard as a puppy, the cottage that final summer. Feb 08 18:37:58 *theres a gap where he cut out the sketch of Da he’d asked Edward to paint* Feb 08 18:38:08 * Morgan leaves the slightly lewd ones packed safely away, taking the others Feb 08 18:39:21 *he’d not gotten around to showing Edward the ones of Jana as a baby despite his agreement to when they were in Graben Feb 08 18:39:36 * Morgan takes them as well Feb 08 18:39:57 * Molly is now known as Alice Feb 08 18:40:15 * Alice is found in the nursery with Florrie Feb 08 18:40:31 * Morgan wanders in Feb 08 18:43:34 * Alice looks up from the book she’s reading aloud Feb 08 18:44:06 I hope I'm not interrupting... Feb 08 18:44:18 Not at all. I don’t have any coffee already, sorry Feb 08 18:44:34 * Morgan shakes his head Feb 08 18:44:48 Its fine, I'm probably a little early anyway... I'll ring for some Feb 08 18:48:32 * Alice nods, and Florrie demands she reads the book while they wait Feb 08 18:48:51 * Morgan rings for coffee, sitting down to watch Florrie Feb 08 18:50:49 ... the little goat walked over, and the loud voice of the Troll said... Feb 08 18:51:21 F: WHO DAT TRAPTRAP MY BRIDGE?! Feb 08 18:51:30 * Morgan chuckles quietly Feb 08 18:51:39 * Alice smiles, glancing at Morgan Feb 08 18:54:14 *Florrie goes through the whole story doing all the shouting of the troll. When it is time for the biggest billy goat to charge at the Troll to win, she puts her head down and charge straight at Morgan Feb 08 18:55:38 * Morgan puts the sketches aside, jumping from his seat to catch her, throwing her above him before catching her Feb 08 18:58:04 *Florrie shrieks loudly, sounding a little scared* Feb 08 18:58:16 * Morgan pulls her close, cradling her Feb 08 18:58:25 Oh sweetheart, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you Feb 08 18:59:27 F: *she nods* okay Ballhead Feb 08 18:59:46 * Morgan kisses her cheek, cuddling her a little longer before letting her down Feb 08 19:00:39 F: Again? Feb 08 19:00:48 Again what? Feb 08 19:03:45 F: throw again Feb 08 19:03:54 * Morgan glances at Alice Feb 08 19:06:56 Uhhh, okay, if you want to Feb 08 19:08:26 *Florrie holds her arms up Feb 08 19:08:32 * Alice shrugs, smiling Feb 08 19:10:05 * Morgan pickers her up Feb 08 19:10:07 Ready? Feb 08 19:10:56 *Florrie nods* Feb 08 19:11:08 * Morgan gently throws her in the air, catching her Feb 08 19:13:19 *Florrie laughs* again, Ballhead! Feb 08 19:14:45 Alright, once more Feb 08 19:15:00 * Morgan throws and catches her again Feb 08 19:16:59 *Florrie grins* one more! Feb 08 19:17:10 Ok, -really- last one Feb 08 19:17:13 * Morgan does it again Feb 08 19:18:13 *Florrie laughs again* Feb 08 19:18:46 * Morgan kisses her forehead, putting her down Feb 08 19:18:58 Maybe you could do that with Aspen? Feb 08 19:22:20 *Florrie goes to find the doll* Feb 08 19:22:29 * Alice looks at Morgan Feb 08 19:22:40 She really trusts you Feb 08 19:23:05 * Morgan nods solemnly Feb 08 19:23:13 I didn't mean to scare her Feb 08 19:26:25 it’s alright, noones ever played with her like that before Feb 08 19:27:32 * Morgan nods Feb 08 19:27:39 I'm going to miss her badly Feb 08 19:28:18 * Alice nods Feb 08 19:28:39 She’ll miss you too Feb 08 19:29:23 Of course she will, I'm a breath of fresh air Feb 08 19:30:32 * Alice smiles Feb 08 19:30:43 You seem much happier than when we first met Feb 08 19:31:55 * Morgan nods, sitting down Feb 08 19:32:01 I am... I am much more... me. Feb 08 19:33:03 how? Feb 08 19:33:29 This is closer to the man I was when I was younger, before the fire Feb 08 19:33:35 Before all the anger Feb 08 19:34:23 * Alice nods Feb 08 19:34:43 Are you happy to be like this again? Feb 08 19:34:52 * Morgan nods Feb 08 19:35:02 Yes, I am Feb 08 19:36:18 * Alice nods, listening to Florrie throwing the doll. The coffee is brought and served Feb 08 19:36:44 Do you think you’ll have a boy or girl this time? Feb 08 19:37:33 If I were a betting man, I'd say boy Feb 08 19:38:53 Did you want a girl now, after Varick and Emil? Feb 08 19:40:22 * Morgan smiles Feb 08 19:40:37 I wouldn't have complained... but I am just grateful to be having another child Feb 08 19:41:06 * Alice smiles Feb 08 19:41:19 the first of quite a lot, isn’t it? Feb 08 19:42:53 * Morgan nods, smiling Feb 08 19:43:12 Yes... eight. Assuming of course its eight children and not eight pregnancies... twins, maybe... Feb 08 19:43:37 There’s a lot of that in her family isn’t there? Feb 08 19:44:34 Not so much as we thought, since her line isn't quite what we were led to believe Feb 08 19:46:09 * Alice nods Feb 08 19:46:19 would you like twins? Feb 08 19:46:54 * Morgan shrugs Feb 08 19:47:28 I will accept whatever Theus grants us Feb 08 19:49:01 do you think you’ll realise earlier next time? Feb 08 19:49:26 Couldn't realise much later Feb 08 19:52:29 has it sunk in now? Feb 08 19:52:51 * Morgan smiles Feb 08 19:52:53 Not totally Feb 08 19:53:27 I was in denial for weeks with Florrie Feb 08 19:55:53 It must have been difficult Feb 08 19:56:36 It was confusing! how could I be pregnant when... well, you know. Feb 08 19:57:01 Aye, I have, I was told Feb 08 19:58:01 I couldn’t see how I could be pregnant, but I was sick every day, and once I started growing there was no denying it Feb 08 20:03:39 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:03:46 Tough to ignore at that point Feb 08 20:10:48 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:10:59 I doubt it’ll have any more Feb 08 20:11:08 No? Feb 08 20:11:32 seven months of being sick every single day, would you? Feb 08 20:12:43 No... no I don't think I would Feb 08 20:14:00 I wouldn’t be without her, but it was hard Feb 08 20:14:19 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:14:27 Its... unimaginable, you having to do all that alone Feb 08 20:14:37 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:15:07 It was tough to juggle being the captain and having an infant Feb 08 20:15:33 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:15:52 Truth be told I never really appreciated how difficult being a captain is at the best of times, let alone when raising a child Feb 08 20:16:04 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:16:19 both jobs mean being constantly on call Feb 08 20:17:27 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:18:57 * Alice nods “It looks easy. You’re the boss, you get to call all the shots” Feb 08 20:20:12 But everything in the end comes back to you, how much water you've got, food, shifts, fallings out... Feb 08 20:20:49 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:21:10 You’re more in service to your men than they are to you Feb 08 20:21:45 Its called servant leadership... What is it we, as captains, need to do so that our crews can do their jobs Feb 08 20:22:01 * Alice nods, smiling Feb 08 20:22:08 I like that Feb 08 20:22:57 * Morgan smiles Feb 08 20:26:19 do you miss it. Feb 08 20:26:42 Yes, I do... I know you do Feb 08 20:26:57 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:28:26 I usually do Feb 08 20:28:35 Usually? Feb 08 20:29:35 when I haven’t done it for a few weeks Feb 08 20:32:53 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:34:04 * Alice looks to the book Feb 08 20:34:12 Is that your sketches? Feb 08 20:34:15 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:34:19 Some of them, yes Feb 08 20:34:31 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:35:10 * Morgan shifts, sitting closer to her and opening the book Feb 08 20:36:40 * Alice looks at the early ones Feb 08 20:36:49 You’re good Feb 08 20:37:18 I wasn't bad Feb 08 20:38:11 You really liked ships... Feb 08 20:38:38 My father tells people that when I was five I had to be pried away from the mast of a ship when it was time to go ashore Feb 08 20:38:58 * Alice laughs Feb 08 20:39:02 I can imagine that Feb 08 20:39:13 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:39:16 Not much has changed Feb 08 20:39:49 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:40:41 Will you go to see The Rose each time she’s back? Feb 08 20:40:54 I might do... she's a bit special Feb 08 20:41:07 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:41:20 She’s a beauty Feb 08 20:42:14 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:42:26 Scared the hell out of all of us when she started sailing on her own Feb 08 20:42:36 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:42:48 There’s something terrifying about that Feb 08 20:42:57 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:43:11 Given how superstitious the people of Eisen are, its a wonder any of them stayed aboard Feb 08 20:43:35 There wasn’t much choice out there though? Feb 08 20:43:51 We could've tried to get her back to Castille Feb 08 20:44:18 it doesn’t Sitwell with any sailor to turn back Feb 08 20:44:29 No, it doesn't Feb 08 20:46:03 * Alice looks at the picture of Heinzharold Feb 08 20:46:07 is that...? Feb 08 20:46:14 HeinzHarold Feb 08 20:48:02 * Alice smiles Feb 08 20:48:24 He looks like a little troublemaker Feb 08 20:48:39 Oh, totally... absolutely a bad influence on me Feb 08 20:49:39 You’ve been friends a long time Feb 08 20:49:49 * Morgan nods, smiling Feb 08 20:50:16 Aye, we have. Aside from the fact I have very few friends... he's my oldest friend... we've more or less grown up together Feb 08 20:50:43 it’s nice your wives are good friends too Feb 08 20:51:17 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:51:57 Inga was one of the maids in my fathers house... They connected quite quickly... not quite so quickly as HeinzHarold fell in love with her, mind... Feb 08 20:52:43 I’ve heard it was like lightening Feb 08 20:52:53 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:53:01 Exactly... the second he saw her... Feb 08 20:55:16 * Alice nods “it sounds like something from a book” Feb 08 20:55:53 Me nods Feb 08 20:56:09 It was just like that... I've never seen him lost for words til that moment Feb 08 20:57:30 * Alice nods Feb 08 20:57:38 I’ve never felt it Feb 08 20:57:48 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:57:51 I have Feb 08 20:58:25 is it strange? Feb 08 20:58:50 * Morgan nods Feb 08 20:59:02 Yes, it is... its like... everything else becomes muted Feb 08 20:59:42 That wouldn’t be ideal for a ship’s captain Feb 08 21:00:53 I wasn't a captain then... just a sailor... a *he thinks*... Midshipman back then I think Feb 08 21:01:08 I meant for myself Feb 08 21:01:49 oh... it, ummm... it doesn't stay that way... things go back to normal, its just... in that moment, everything else is just... quiet... grey... Feb 08 21:02:57 *the timing is good, because the next page is his sketch done that day, Dietlinde on the doorstep of Otto’s house that morning Feb 08 21:03:14 * Morgan looks it over Feb 08 21:03:30 Thats... thats the first time I saw her Feb 08 21:03:59 * Alice looks at it Feb 08 21:04:14 She was a beautiful woman Feb 08 21:04:20 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:04:23 Yes, she was Feb 08 21:04:54 Inga said her hair was the same shade as mine Feb 08 21:05:07 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:05:41 yes... there've been occasions when you were facing away, holding Florrie... it tricked my mind into seeing her with Jana Feb 08 21:05:55 Sorry Feb 08 21:06:11 * Morgan smiles, shaking his head Feb 08 21:06:30 Its not your doing... don't fret at it Feb 08 21:06:56 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:07:12 Her house was quite small Feb 08 21:07:30 Its her parents house... they still live there Feb 08 21:07:43 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:08:01 it was love at first sight for her too? Feb 08 21:08:29 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:08:39 She always said so Feb 08 21:08:53 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:09:15 Did you plan to wed her then, or did that take time? Feb 08 21:09:48 ummm... I'm not sure it was a conscious thought... I just knew right then I wanted to spend my life with her Feb 08 21:10:27 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:11:19 Then after the War you wed Feb 08 21:12:24 Sneaked away into the woods and had a priest I'd bribed perform the ceremony Feb 08 21:13:40 * Alice nods. The next picture shows this event Feb 08 21:13:54 She looks very happy Feb 08 21:14:02 * Morgan nods, smiling Feb 08 21:14:05 She was... we were Feb 08 21:14:22 *Florrie comes back in, carrying her doll. She looks* Who dat? Feb 08 21:14:49 Thats Dietlinde... Feb 08 21:14:55 F: Who? Feb 08 21:15:09 You know Molly is my wife? Feb 08 21:15:20 *Florrie nods* Lee wife. Feb 08 21:15:24 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:15:33 Dietlinde was my wife before... a long time ago now Feb 08 21:15:50 F: where gone? Feb 08 21:16:14 * Morgan looks at Alice Feb 08 21:16:38 She died, and now she’s in heaven, Florrie Feb 08 21:16:53 F: *she nods* okay Feb 08 21:18:20 * Morgan smiles a little, turning the page Feb 08 21:20:12 *The next is one of Jana asleep in her first few days. He’d watched her downstairs so Dietlinde could get some rest, fascinated by her peaceful face and tiny nails Feb 08 21:21:20 * Morgan sighs quietly Feb 08 21:21:31 F: baby. Feb 08 21:21:37 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:21:41 My little girl Feb 08 21:21:48 * Alice looks at the picture Feb 08 21:22:19 it could be a sketch of Florrie, she looked identical Feb 08 21:22:57 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:23:03 I'm not in the least bit surprised Feb 08 21:23:24 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:23:37 I wish I’d had someone draw her Feb 08 21:25:05 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:25:32 I imagine it won't be too long before there are paintings aplenty of her, though it won't be of then obviously Feb 08 21:25:56 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:26:10 Edward has said he’ll do one Feb 08 21:26:21 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:26:26 He's always been talented like that Feb 08 21:26:38 You’re talented too Feb 08 21:27:31 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:27:43 I know... but only ever black and white Feb 08 21:27:58 *There are many more, Jana doing all manner of things. But it’s when he gets to the one of her with Dietlinde and her grandparents that Florrie says “That me!” Feb 08 21:28:17 * Morgan smiles sadly Feb 08 21:30:02 No, it isn't sweetheart Feb 08 21:30:11 No Florrie, that was your cousin, but you look like her Feb 08 21:30:57 F: *she frowns* Not me? Feb 08 21:32:16 No... she just looked exactly like you do Feb 08 21:33:15 F: *she looks at the couple* Who that? Feb 08 21:33:41 Jana's grandma and grandad Feb 08 21:34:36 F: Varicks mam-ma and Dan-dad? Feb 08 21:35:39 No, they're not Feb 08 21:37:27 F: *she nods, but looks confused* Feb 08 21:37:49 I know, sweetheart, its confusing isn't it Feb 08 21:39:47 F: *she nods* Feb 08 21:40:11 You’ll see both of Varick’s grandmas today or tomorrow Feb 08 21:40:26 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:40:33 One of them is -your- grandma Feb 08 21:41:31 F: I have mam-ma? Feb 08 21:41:46 * Morgan glances at Alice Feb 08 21:42:39 * Alice nods Feb 08 21:42:55 She is your Vati’s mother Feb 08 21:43:05 * Morgan nods, whispering to Florrie Feb 08 21:43:09 And my mother too Feb 08 21:44:20 F: like flowers? Feb 08 21:44:52 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:44:54 Oh yes Feb 08 21:45:11 F: like bluies? Feb 08 21:45:34 I should think so Feb 08 21:46:16 F: I get flowers and bluies. Feb 08 21:47:14 * Morgan nods, looking at Alice Feb 08 21:47:29 You thought perhaps I had exaggerated their similarity? Feb 08 21:56:50 I thought it might just be their ages and they’d be different before Feb 08 21:57:03 * Morgan shakes his head Feb 08 21:57:05 Just the eyes Feb 08 21:57:46 Even then it’s just the colour. The shape and position and size are the same Feb 08 21:57:55 * Morgan nods Feb 08 21:57:57 aye Feb 08 22:00:22 * Alice looks at the picture Feb 08 22:00:27 your house was nice Feb 08 22:00:40 * Morgan nods Feb 08 22:00:49 It was small, and cosy... Feb 08 22:02:55 Do you still miss it? Feb 08 22:03:08 * Morgan nods Feb 08 22:03:44 Aye. It was the first place that was truly mine... where no-one could tell me what to do Feb 08 22:04:36 * Alice nods Feb 08 22:04:51 The Blessing was that for me Feb 08 22:05:29 * Morgan nods Feb 08 22:05:56 It changes things, doesn't it Feb 08 22:07:08 * Alice nods Feb 08 22:07:19 it changes everything Feb 08 22:07:53 * Morgan nods, looking at the page Feb 08 22:08:39 The cottage is gone now... the ruins were still there but... when people needed to be welcomed into Sudlachenburg, I made the decision to have them removed so a house could be built Feb 08 22:08:52 * Alice nods Feb 08 22:09:09 Better to have happiness there than a shrine Feb 08 22:09:16 * Morgan nods Feb 08 22:09:27 David and Martha live here now Feb 08 22:09:30 there* Feb 08 22:10:42 * Alice nods Feb 08 22:11:40 F: Got carnations *she points them out. Morgan had planted them from bulbs from Christopher to surprise Verity with* Feb 08 22:11:52 * Morgan nods Feb 08 22:12:15 Uncle Christopher gave me the bulbs to grow for when my mother visited... *he looks very sad* Feb 08 22:13:12 F: Carnations good. Healthy. Feb 08 22:13:27 * Morgan nods, looking at the page Feb 08 22:15:35 *They all look good, healthy, no idea how their lives would change only a few weeks later. She was probably already pregnant by then* Feb 08 22:17:04 * Morgan sighs a little Feb 08 22:18:26 * Alice puts a hand on his arm gently. Florrie looks at him Feb 08 22:18:54 F: Ballhead, what wrong? Feb 08 22:19:10 I'm just a little sad sweetheart. I miss them very much Feb 08 22:20:18 *Florrie puts Aspen down before climbing up into his lap* Feb 08 22:20:45 * Morgan cuddles her Feb 08 22:23:25 *Florrie cuddles close to him. Her flaxen hair just under his chin, the weight of a child in his arms is both soothing and painful Feb 08 22:35:15 * Morgan rocks her, kissing her crown Feb 08 22:44:29 * Alice puts a gentle hand on Morgan’s arm, giving him a consoling smile Feb 08 22:48:15 * Morgan clears his throat Feb 08 22:50:49 F: You’re okay, I look after you Feb 08 22:51:48 * Morgan closes his eyes, biting his lip for a moment Feb 08 22:52:15 * Alice says quietly “It’s okay, we don’t mind” Feb 08 22:53:25 * Morgan shakes his head slightly Feb 08 22:55:06 *Florrie stays cuddling him* Feb 08 22:55:31 * Alice whispers “do you want me to see if Molly is free?” Feb 08 22:56:58 No... no I'm fine... I'll be okay Feb 08 22:57:26 * Alice nods Feb 08 22:57:47 Thank you for showing us Feb 08 22:58:07 * Morgan nods, turning a page Feb 08 23:47:22 * Alice has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer)