**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Jan 11 19:59:57 2024 Jan 11 19:59:57 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jan 11 20:39:53 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jan 11 20:40:02 * Molly is now known as Edward Jan 11 20:40:51 The fact that you brought her from Avalon already does that Jan 11 20:40:51 * Morgan sighs Jan 11 20:40:51 God forbid anyone actually asks my motivations before deciding them for me... Jan 11 20:40:51 She bears you no resentment, brother Jan 11 20:40:51 * Morgan shrugs, rolling his shoulders Jan 11 20:40:53 * Edward sighs standing Jan 11 20:40:57 I am on noones side but Florries Jan 11 20:40:59 This has gone as well as it usually does. I will say goodnight and see you on the morrow Jan 11 20:41:01 Sit down, Edward. Jan 11 20:41:03 * Edward grudgingly does Jan 11 20:41:09 Why do you give up on us so quickly? Jan 11 20:42:13 I do not like throwing energy at situations that have gone south Jan 11 20:43:11 I think, brother, we are a situation we need to not abandon so easily. We've fought hard to get where we are Jan 11 20:43:20 * Edward nods Jan 11 20:44:00 I am torn between my wife and my child, I do not want more conflict added to that Jan 11 20:44:27 We are not in conflict, not really. Jan 11 20:45:28 You and Mina might become so though Jan 11 20:46:33 That will be her choosing... and I'd rather she withdraw from me and embrace you and Florrie than keep the openness she has granted at your expense Jan 11 20:47:59 * Edward nods Jan 11 20:48:42 I want her to just accept that I am what I told her I was before we wed; a man who loves her deeply but who comes with a past and a daughter. Jan 11 20:49:11 * Morgan nods Jan 11 20:50:02 I know. I will make it clear to her that I have not chosen to support Alice over her... Jan 11 20:51:39 I do not know that will work, but I hope so Jan 11 20:54:14 * Morgan shrugs Jan 11 20:54:29 I can only tell her the truth, whether or not she believes it is up to her Jan 11 20:55:04 You did give her a house and a community to lead Jan 11 20:55:55 And have dictated that, even if she marries, that house goes to Florrie... Jan 11 20:58:15 * Edward nods Jan 11 20:58:50 It is clear you are facilitating and encouraging my relationship with Florrie, and therefore Alice, to continue Jan 11 21:02:57 One cannot be separated from the other... and if needs be I will ask her under what circumstance she'd be willing to be separated from her child Jan 11 21:04:56 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:05:22 She will understand better when she has a child Jan 11 21:05:39 Yes, she will... you are certain you wish me to be vague about timings? Jan 11 21:06:58 I think so. I watched you struggle with your Autumn time frame Jan 11 21:07:35 * Morgan nods Jan 11 21:07:43 I will tell her she will know by... my birthday Jan 11 21:07:53 That leaves it very vague Jan 11 21:08:45 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:09:39 it does Jan 11 21:13:36 * Morgan nods Jan 11 21:13:38 Alright then Jan 11 21:14:29 Just... have to convince her Jan 11 21:14:53 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:15:05 And face telling her that Molly is with child Jan 11 21:15:25 * Morgan shrugs Jan 11 21:15:36 Only once she believes me I think Jan 11 21:16:29 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:16:52 Are you bursting with the news? Jan 11 21:17:17 In truth I am more concerned about the state of play with Mina... its weighing on me Jan 11 21:17:26 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:17:38 I know the feeling all too well Jan 11 21:18:10 * Morgan nods Jan 11 21:18:14 I'm sure you are Jan 11 21:26:38 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:26:58 I seem to be forever waiting for her to leave Jan 11 21:27:07 * Morgan sighs Jan 11 21:27:15 See if we can fix that Jan 11 21:27:49 * Edward nods Jan 11 21:30:54 we will see. I am going to retire, brother Jan 11 21:32:58 * Morgan nods Jan 11 21:33:08 alright... hopefully you'll sleep. Well Jan 11 21:33:24 * Edward nods, standing Jan 11 21:33:43 You too, brother Jan 11 21:33:54 * Morgan nods, letting him go Jan 11 21:34:11 * Edward takes himself off Jan 11 21:36:21 * Morgan gets undressed and into bed, sighing heavily Jan 11 21:37:19 *it’s cold beneath the sheets, but there isn’t the addition of icy feet to his shins making that worse Jan 11 21:37:46 * Morgan says a quick prayer for their safety and asking for guidance before trying to settle to sleep Jan 11 21:40:32 *He starts to dream. He’s in warm sunshine, and walking through a wheat field. The sky is a lovely blue, not blotched with a single cloud. It’s not hazy, it’s almost hyper-real Jan 11 21:41:00 * Morgan makes a huh noise, looking around Jan 11 21:41:45 *he hears a rustle in the wheat at his two o’clock Jan 11 21:41:57 * Morgan looks in that direction Jan 11 21:42:20 *He sees the tall wheat move, but not what makes it move Jan 11 21:42:38 Hello? Jan 11 21:43:38 *The movement stops. From behind him he hears “Hello, Little One” Jan 11 21:43:53 * Morgan turns Jan 11 21:46:47 *The woman stood there is blonde, very buxom and full-figured, hair in two plaits. Her eyes match the sky. She wears a tunic like a peasant farmer’s wife or daughter, and it’s beautifully embroidered with fruits and flowers Jan 11 21:47:13 What are we calling you here? Jan 11 21:47:29 *She smiles* Here you call me Volla Jan 11 21:47:34 * Edward is now known as Volla Jan 11 21:47:40 * Morgan nods Jan 11 21:47:46 I wasn't expecting to see you for a long while Jan 11 21:47:57 I am just passing through Jan 11 21:48:12 * Morgan frowns a little Jan 11 21:49:27 I have not tired of my search for your god Jan 11 21:49:37 Still can't find him? Jan 11 21:50:02 He is elusive, but others now look for him too Jan 11 21:50:39 * Morgan nods Jan 11 21:50:53 sometimes... when I pray... I feel what I -hope- is His presence... Jan 11 21:51:04 * Volla nods Jan 11 21:51:13 You are very fond of him... Jan 11 21:51:31 * Morgan sighs Jan 11 21:51:52 For a time I hated him... how could he let what happened happen... Jan 11 21:52:04 * Volla nods Jan 11 21:53:08 I was raised with a strong faith though... and when the anger started to ebb a little... its like wanting your parent to still be there for you even when you're angry with them Jan 11 21:53:24 * Volla nods, smiling Jan 11 21:53:41 I feel my people have that Jan 11 21:54:11 It seems that way to me Jan 11 21:55:07 Much is weighing on you, how about a blueberry? Jan 11 21:55:17 * Morgan smiles, nodding Jan 11 21:55:20 That'd be nice Jan 11 21:55:29 * Volla holds out a handful Jan 11 21:56:22 * Morgan takes some, thanking her Jan 11 21:56:44 I feel... at a loss. I don't know how to fix things with Mina Jan 11 21:57:00 * Volla eats one Jan 11 21:57:09 Two things can be true at once. Jan 11 21:57:30 Like? Jan 11 21:58:29 That your brother regrets having intercourse with Alice and making offspring with her, but also that he loves his daughter and is glad she is in his life Jan 11 21:59:39 * Morgan nods Jan 11 22:00:01 But making Mina understand that, -accept- it... I worry for their marriage Jan 11 22:02:06 * Volla nods “People will often act against their best interests when high emotions are involved. It is the blessing and the curse of humans” Jan 11 22:03:01 * Morgan nods, looking unhappy Jan 11 22:03:04 How do I fix it? Jan 11 22:03:46 Oh Little One... you don’t have to fix everything for everyone. Sometimes you must let them find their way Jan 11 22:04:45 But its causing so much -pain- Jan 11 22:05:08 * Volla nods Jan 11 22:05:19 Maybe they’d like some blueberries... Jan 11 22:05:35 * Morgan sighs Jan 11 22:05:39 If only it were that simple Jan 11 22:06:21 You carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. That is also a blessing and a curse Jan 11 22:07:34 I'm failing to see how its a blessing right now Jan 11 22:08:37 Because from what you have learned, one day the world will need to rely on you to save it. If you did not care so much, why would you fight to save it? Jan 11 22:09:00 So its not a blessing for me Jan 11 22:10:44 In your feelings, no, perhaps not. For your soul and your Self, it might be. It is a duty and an honour... Jan 11 22:11:25 Doesn't feel like much of an honour Jan 11 22:12:27 * Volla takes his hand Jan 11 22:12:52 Keep the faith, Little One. Not in Him, but in yourself. Jan 11 22:13:04 Its difficult Jan 11 22:13:12 * Volla smiles Jan 11 22:14:00 The most rewarding things in your life have usually been the challenging things that you’ve overcome Jan 11 22:16:39 * Morgan sighs Jan 11 22:16:53 I suppose so... what's that? *he points toward where the rustling came from* Jan 11 22:17:24 Just a goat Jan 11 22:17:55 * Morgan nods Jan 11 22:17:56 alright Jan 11 22:18:11 They used to sacrifice many goats to me Jan 11 22:18:29 Offerings to appease our gods Jan 11 22:18:59 In the olden times when Eisen was wilder Jan 11 22:19:44 * Morgan nods Jan 11 22:24:44 *the goat appears at Her feet. It’s very friendly but simple looking* Jan 11 22:25:26 * Morgan looks at it briefly before sighing Jan 11 22:25:59 I ave so much responsibility... what if I'm not up to it? Jan 11 22:26:29 * Volla kisses his forehead Jan 11 22:26:32 You are. Jan 11 22:26:52 We're having a baby Jan 11 22:27:00 * Volla smiles Jan 11 22:27:02 I know Jan 11 22:27:25 He was conceived in Capperlucia Jan 11 22:27:48 She was already pregnant when we came to Capperlucia Jan 11 22:27:54 * Volla nods Jan 11 22:28:06 yes she was Jan 11 22:31:11 Now you will ask why I did not tell you? Jan 11 22:31:47 I suspect it was something to do with having to go through something without knowing Jan 11 22:32:45 Himans believe they want Gods involved very closely in their lives, but sometimes you find more joy with each other than out input could give Jan 11 22:32:50 our* Jan 11 22:33:55 Its conflicting... part of me wishes I'd known sooner... a lot of pain could've been spared, but that moment of joy when we discovered it... Jan 11 22:34:07 * Volla nods, smiling Jan 11 22:34:23 two things can be true at once Jan 11 22:34:55 * Morgan nods Jan 11 22:56:02 * Volla has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 11 23:36:23 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)