**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Wed Jan 3 19:13:11 2024 Jan 03 19:13:11 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jan 03 19:26:21 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jan 03 19:27:24 * Morgan nods Jan 03 19:27:24 aye Jan 03 19:27:24 * Edward nods, sipping the coffee Jan 03 19:27:24 You cannot always have first bash at everything Jan 03 19:27:24 No, I know that... I just... I don't want to feel I am walking in someone else's suit Jan 03 19:27:26 You have to make it your own, in your own head too. In Innesbruck you have Uncle Hans house, and in Sudlachenburg you’ll have Father’s house. That is the way of things passing from the past to the future Jan 03 19:27:28 * Morgan nods Jan 03 19:27:32 You're right Jan 03 19:27:34 As usual Jan 03 19:28:15 * Morgan shrugs Jan 03 19:28:17 If you say so Jan 03 19:28:55 I have been right about your wife many times. A pity only that my own seems to be so unfathomable Jan 03 19:29:09 * Molly is now known as Edward Jan 03 19:29:49 You are going to let me talk with her before you present her with her choice... Jan 03 19:36:10 I have already agreed to this, once certain matters have been seen to Jan 03 19:36:29 * Morgan nods Jan 03 19:36:31 Just checking Jan 03 19:38:36 what is it you intend to say? Jan 03 19:39:50 That depends on what she says... I'm going to tell her about what I have seen of the future... Jan 03 19:43:15 * Edward nods Jan 03 19:43:41 I wouldn’t like to say whether it will help Jan 03 19:44:08 * Morgan shrugs Jan 03 19:44:11 Time will tell Jan 03 19:45:10 * Edward nods Jan 03 19:46:17 I expect they will around around four or five tomorrow afternoon Jan 03 19:46:29 * Morgan nods, sighing Jan 03 19:46:35 I had hoped for earlier Jan 03 19:49:53 * Edward smiles “Ten to disembark, time to load their no doubt sizeable chests, and then five hours Jan 03 19:50:50 Don't let HeinzHarold hear you talking about that Jan 03 19:51:20 He believes he can do it faster? Jan 03 19:51:36 I was referring to sizeable chests... Jan 03 19:51:43 * Edward snorts Jan 03 19:51:54 He would know about that! Jan 03 19:52:01 * Morgan nods Jan 03 19:52:24 I drew Inga in a state of... lets say semi dressed... Jan 03 19:53:38 Why? Jan 03 19:54:17 It was the first time he took her to a brothel... I drew them to give as a gift Jan 03 19:55:53 Did he appreciate you scrutinising his wife’s body? Jan 03 19:56:23 Wasn't like that Jan 03 19:57:35 You saw her breasts though? Jan 03 19:57:42 * Morgan nods Jan 03 19:58:53 They are as big as they appear then? Jan 03 19:59:04 If anything bigger Jan 03 19:59:11 * Edward nods Jan 03 19:59:28 what would you even do with that much?! Jan 03 19:59:57 I'd manage Jan 03 20:01:30 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:02:06 She is one of the other women you’ve dreamt about? Jan 03 20:02:16 * Morgan blushes Jan 03 20:02:19 Maybe Jan 03 20:02:26 * Edward chuckles Jan 03 20:03:02 You really are like a randy teenager, only a decade late Jan 03 20:03:10 * Morgan nods Jan 03 20:03:15 Seems so Jan 03 20:04:35 How will you handle it in Die Dauerhaftigkeit with Father lurking around? Jan 03 20:05:00 I've got no idea at all... Jan 03 20:06:24 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:07:05 I do not envy you Jan 03 20:07:23 * Morgan shrugs Jan 03 20:07:34 Thats because you're a stick in the mud Jan 03 20:08:14 * Edward chuckles Jan 03 20:08:18 How?! Jan 03 20:08:31 * Morgan shrugs Jan 03 20:08:37 I'm sure I can come up with something Jan 03 20:08:43 * Edward snorts Jan 03 20:08:54 -That’s- the problem! Jan 03 20:09:28 * Morgan laughs, looking toward the window Jan 03 20:12:04 This time tomorrow you’ll be hanging out of that hoping for any sight of her Jan 03 20:12:20 I'll have to find something to do Jan 03 20:13:56 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:14:15 A very cold bath, perhaps Jan 03 20:14:43 * Morgan nods Jan 03 20:14:50 Maybe... I do like cold water Jan 03 20:15:15 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:15:44 Why are you not making the best of your childfree time? Jan 03 20:16:51 Doing...? Jan 03 20:18:28 swimming, building, exploring your land? Jan 03 20:18:49 I felt... this was important Jan 03 20:19:19 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:20:19 I appreciate the time. If we are honest, these times we speak face to face will be very rare Jan 03 20:20:30 * Morgan nods Jan 03 20:20:34 I detest that thought Jan 03 20:21:47 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:22:03 Even though I annoy you often Jan 03 20:22:55 You lash out when you feel vulnerable I think Jan 03 20:23:27 It is a possibility Jan 03 20:23:36 * Morgan nods Jan 03 20:24:16 I don't understand why it affects me so much Jan 03 20:25:59 You care more about my respect and admiration than other people’s Jan 03 20:26:23 * Morgan frowns a little Jan 03 20:26:41 I don't want your admiration... Jan 03 20:27:26 No? Jan 03 20:29:11 Its nice, don't get me wrong... your respect is important to me, yes... when you antagonise me, that disappears but its more that you've gone out of your way to try to hurt me. It sends me to a dark place I don't want to be, makes me want to say things I -hate- to even think about saying Jan 03 20:30:46 * Edward nods seriously Jan 03 20:30:59 That is not what I want Jan 03 20:32:14 Nor I Jan 03 20:33:32 * Edward nods Jan 03 20:33:43 I will aim to antagonise you less Jan 03 20:33:55 * Morgan nods Jan 03 20:34:12 Thank you... as for your admiration... its nice... but I am much more interested in your pride Jan 03 20:35:40 why? Jan 03 20:39:02 Imagine letting me down as I have you so often... what would you give for me to be proud of you? Jan 03 20:52:13 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 03 20:52:26 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Jan 03 20:52:30 Imagine letting me down as I have you so often... what would you give for me to be proud of you? Jan 03 20:52:40 * Molly is now known as Edward Jan 03 20:52:55 * Edward sighs Jan 03 20:53:09 I understand Jan 03 20:53:29 Why do you sigh? Jan 03 20:55:25 Because the failure was mine, as you well know Jan 03 20:56:34 My failure was putting you in that position. Jan 03 20:58:52 You were doing what you thought was best Jan 03 20:59:27 And you did the only thing you thought you could Jan 03 21:02:05 There is not a day goes by where I do not feel the weight of it Jan 03 21:03:17 I know. I cannot change that Jan 03 21:04:04 No. It is done, and nothing we have now would exist if it was not. Jan 03 21:04:29 * Morgan nods, looking at his coffee Jan 03 21:04:53 Possibly... the Nieblungen could reduce the weight of it but... I feel that would be robbing you of something important... Jan 03 21:07:37 Actions have consequences, and we do not learn true responsibility until we bear them Jan 03 21:08:44 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:08:50 I would ask them, though, if you wished Jan 03 21:09:35 I appreciate it, but I have to come to terms with it Jan 03 21:10:16 I don't think so... but you're on your way I think Jan 03 21:11:27 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:11:42 I do not forget them. Jan 03 21:11:55 No.. I know Jan 03 21:13:47 * Edward finishes the last of his coffee Jan 03 21:14:34 Will you send Mina my love when you leave a note, please? Jan 03 21:14:55 Of course. You have changed your mind about seeing the... scars...? Jan 03 21:18:12 My apologies, it slipped my mind. Go ahead Jan 03 21:18:27 If you are no longer wishing to, I understand Jan 03 21:21:21 Let’s do it before we have other distractions Jan 03 21:22:42 * Morgan nods, finishing his coffee before pulling off his shirt Jan 03 21:23:50 * Edward looks solemn Jan 03 21:24:38 * Morgan holds his arms out in front of him, showing his forearms Jan 03 21:26:27 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:26:33 they are worse in person Jan 03 21:26:52 * Morgan smiles slightly, nodding Jan 03 21:27:27 My back is by far the worst... the combination of burns and Kauffmans punishment are... extensive. Jan 03 21:28:37 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:29:32 * Morgan flexes a couple of muscles, the skin pulling tighter than it should, before he lifts his arm, showing a much fresher scar Jan 03 21:30:16 That ones Capperlucia Jan 03 21:30:42 From climbing? Jan 03 21:30:46 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:30:49 Making history Jan 03 21:31:00 Molly could have healed that, surely? Jan 03 21:31:05 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:31:08 Yes, she could Jan 03 21:32:52 why didn’t she? Jan 03 21:33:46 Because I didn't want her to. I was still trying to not be ashamed of the scars I already carried... then... I carried one that marked something I am proud of Jan 03 21:34:16 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:34:36 I presume you are keeping all the others? Jan 03 21:34:46 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:35:04 What does it teach my sons if I erase the marks of my experiences? Jan 03 21:36:42 does Molly mind them? Jan 03 21:37:05 Not in the least. I am not... I am not the freak I always believed myself to be because of them Jan 03 21:38:35 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:38:57 I am glad you feel that Jan 03 21:39:08 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:39:17 I've got a scar on my leg from my encounter with Alarice... Jan 03 21:41:57 It still comes sme nights in small bursts Jan 03 21:42:06 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:42:22 The Nieblungen have no idea why Jan 03 21:44:16 Maybe that is the magic I have ended up with? *he smiles* I cannot be brainwashed. Jan 03 21:44:41 * Morgan watches him for a moment Jan 03 21:45:02 I think... Theus decided you should know what happened Jan 03 21:46:56 * Edward nods “He does work in mysterious ways” Jan 03 21:47:19 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:47:23 Are you ready to see my back? Jan 03 21:48:40 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:49:24 * Morgan nods, taking out his flask and putting it deliberately within Edwards reach before turning round Jan 03 21:49:46 * Edward winces Jan 03 21:49:56 They went to town on you, didn’t they? Jan 03 21:50:04 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:50:39 Kauffman said afterwards he didn't want it getting infected, so alongside working as normal, it was cleaned, vigorously, daily... Jan 03 21:51:40 It healed well, considering that Jan 03 21:51:59 * Morgan nods Jan 03 21:52:16 Molly healed it a little when she first started being able to... this is... better than it was Jan 03 21:54:03 * Edward nods Jan 03 21:54:16 How many people have you shown this to? Jan 03 21:55:06 Anyone in Capperlucia who was near the climbing wall... father, HeinzHarold Inga and Claudia... Alice and Florrie. Jan 03 21:55:45 It is no longer a big source of shame then? Jan 03 21:56:17 No... no I don't think so. I still worry what people will think, though. I was worried it would scare Florrie Jan 03 21:57:39 Did it? Jan 03 21:58:09 Not at all. She tried to kiss it better Jan 03 22:00:04 * Edward chuckles Jan 03 22:00:36 She has a kind heart Jan 03 22:00:54 * Morgan nods, turning to face him again before tapping the straight scar on his torso Jan 03 22:00:58 There's that one too Jan 03 22:01:14 * Edward nods Jan 03 22:01:17 War wound? Jan 03 22:01:22 * Morgan nods Jan 03 22:01:49 When I was captured. That was supposed to be the end of me. Sewed it up after I escaped with the cord I use for my coat Jan 03 22:02:28 It was lucky you avoided an infection Jan 03 22:02:47 Extremely Jan 03 22:23:26 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 03 23:08:25 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)