**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sun Oct 15 21:01:37 2023 Oct 15 21:01:37 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Oct 15 21:08:49 * Molly (~u931732@192.168.1.127) has joined Oct 15 21:11:16 We can hope Oct 15 21:11:16 * Molly nods Oct 15 21:11:16 goodnight, my darling Oct 15 21:11:16 Goodnight my love Oct 15 21:11:16 * Molly settles to his chest, singing a sailing song. Soon it becomes the sounds of waves in his mind, and he is asleep Oct 15 21:13:11 *he starts to dream. She hadn’t come back up the stairs, and he wasn’t sure if he was relieved or disappointed. There’d been no sleep to be had, so at first light he’d walked along the coastline. He approaches a small hidden cove, only the sounds of the sea and the dawn light going with him Oct 15 21:13:32 * Morgan wanders along quietly Oct 15 21:15:06 *He catches sight of movement, Molly facing away from him. She’s been swimming, the white shift plastered down her back, her bottom and thighs. There’s an odd deja vu, and feeling of possessiveness Oct 15 21:15:22 * Morgan scowls, turning to look away Oct 15 21:15:59 * Molly turns, catching sight of him “oh! good morning” Oct 15 21:16:51 * Morgan inclines his head Oct 15 21:16:52 morning Oct 15 21:17:30 *the front of her shift is no less see through. She watches him a moment Oct 15 21:17:37 did you come to swim? Oct 15 21:17:53 I was just out for a walk Oct 15 21:18:29 * Molly nods, watching the water “You could not sleep?” Oct 15 21:18:39 * Morgan sighs, shaking his head Oct 15 21:18:53 * Molly nods Oct 15 21:18:56 nor me Oct 15 21:19:23 * Morgan nods slightly Oct 15 21:19:36 That is unfortunate Oct 15 21:21:03 * Molly nods Oct 15 21:21:25 it is. I kept wondering, should I have kept walking, or returned. Oct 15 21:21:33 Why? Oct 15 21:21:57 why what? Oct 15 21:22:08 Why should you have returned Oct 15 21:25:42 * Molly watches him Oct 15 21:26:16 because for me, there is an attraction that I have never felt before, and it fascinates me Oct 15 21:26:59 I see Oct 15 21:28:27 * Molly nods slowly, then looks away Oct 15 21:28:41 it is not mutual. I apologise. Oct 15 21:28:58 It does not matter if its mutual. You are married Oct 15 21:31:26 Yes, and that has never felt quite so unfair as it does right now. Oct 15 21:31:38 * Morgan sighs, nodding Oct 15 21:32:36 * Molly picks up a towel Oct 15 21:32:56 I didn’t ever expect to feel this Oct 15 21:33:08 No? Oct 15 21:34:43 I’ve never felt something that strong, like lightning Oct 15 21:35:05 * Morgan nods Oct 15 21:35:15 It is... difficult Oct 15 21:37:51 * Molly nods, drying her hair Oct 15 21:38:45 And now I’m left to wonder, how will the rest of my life feel when I don’t feel that again? when I wonder how it might have felt to be in your arms... Oct 15 21:39:51 That is a dangerous line of thought to be following Oct 15 21:40:01 why? Oct 15 21:40:35 Because... temptation lies down that road Oct 15 21:41:40 * Molly pauses her drying, watching him a moment Oct 15 21:41:51 You assume it is not already here. Oct 15 21:42:16 It would be... unwise. Oct 15 21:43:06 oh yes... but... Oct 15 21:44:49 * Morgan sighs Oct 15 21:44:51 We cannot Oct 15 21:45:05 * Molly nods Oct 15 21:45:14 Probably not Oct 15 21:46:37 * Morgan nods Oct 15 21:47:09 but I will always wonder. Oct 15 21:47:19 * Morgan nods Oct 15 21:47:21 I'm sorry Oct 15 21:47:50 what are you sorry for? not being able to kiss me, or being so attractive to me Oct 15 21:47:51 ? Oct 15 21:48:08 * Morgan sighs Oct 15 21:48:09 Yes Oct 15 21:48:21 * Molly nods Oct 15 21:48:41 I’m sorry for both also Oct 15 21:50:11 At least the temptation will disappear once we're on our way Oct 15 21:50:50 no, only the risk of it. the temptation itself will remain for me Oct 15 21:51:08 Better than nothing Oct 15 21:53:01 * Molly dries the ends Oct 15 21:53:25 will you forget all about it once you’ve sailed off? Oct 15 21:53:56 I think that unlikely Oct 15 21:54:55 * Molly nods, watching him Oct 15 21:55:38 I will be unable to forget you. I suspect you’ll inhabit more of my thoughts than you should for quite some time Oct 15 21:55:50 * Morgan nods Oct 15 21:55:59 I think that an apt statement on my part Oct 15 21:56:48 * Molly nods, wetting her lower lip with her tongue before biting it Oct 15 21:57:01 I should be sorry for that Oct 15 21:57:10 But you're not Oct 15 21:58:51 No, if I cannot kiss you in real life, I hope at least your imagination of me gets that pleasure Oct 15 21:59:12 I... suspect it will Oct 15 22:00:07 you only suspect? *she smiles warmly* Oct 15 22:01:14 * Morgan shrugs Oct 15 22:01:31 I don't wish to make things more difficult Oct 15 22:02:46 for whom? Oct 15 22:03:25 Primarily you. Oct 15 22:03:43 why would that do so? Oct 15 22:04:23 * Morgan shrugs Oct 15 22:04:37 It'd make it more difficult for me were it the other way round Oct 15 22:05:03 you wouldn’t wish to know? Oct 15 22:05:28 And make the temptation worse? Oct 15 22:07:05 Could it even be worse? Oct 15 22:08:55 possibly Oct 15 22:09:30 * Molly shrugs Oct 15 22:09:53 Once you’ve left, you’ll not need to come again, unless you wish to Oct 15 22:10:53 I don't think whether or not I wish to is in question Oct 15 22:11:31 isn’t it? You are worried about being tempted, perhaps you’ll want to never see me again Oct 15 22:12:00 I don't think so Oct 15 22:12:18 * Molly nods Oct 15 22:13:08 I need to change my shift. You can look away if you wish, though my body after six children would certainly banish all temptation and admiration from you! Oct 15 22:14:24 * Morgan turns away Oct 15 22:14:29 I doubt that very much Oct 15 22:15:18 * Molly is quite a little while before she says “done” Oct 15 22:15:47 * Morgan nods, turning back Oct 15 22:16:15 * Molly is in a shift with a dresssing gown on top Oct 15 22:16:37 You’re going to sail out with Seb this morning... Oct 15 22:17:19 * Morgan nods Oct 15 22:17:21 Yes, we are Oct 15 22:17:39 * Molly nods, coming towards him Oct 15 22:18:05 I have to keep the children busy so they aren’t upset by his leaving Oct 15 22:18:41 * Morgan nods Oct 15 22:18:51 Aye, wouldn't want them being upset Oct 15 22:19:37 * Molly approaches him, and puts a hand on his arm. She looks up at him “Safe travels then Oct 15 22:19:52 * Morgan inclines his head slightly Oct 15 22:19:53 Thank you Oct 15 22:20:17 * Molly watches him a moment, searching his expression Oct 15 22:20:31 tell me something... Oct 15 22:21:00 What? Oct 15 22:21:02 how does it feel to kiss someone you feels this attracted to? Oct 15 22:21:53 Like your heart might burst Oct 15 22:22:10 * Molly sighs wistfully Oct 15 22:22:16 that sounds good Oct 15 22:22:32 * Morgan nods Oct 15 22:22:33 yes Oct 15 22:22:59 * Molly nods a long moment Oct 15 22:24:10 I wish I could feel that Oct 15 22:24:25 * Morgan nods Oct 15 22:24:33 I'm sorry... I cannot. Oct 15 22:24:45 * Molly nods sadly Oct 15 22:25:28 I’m sure. *she removes her hand* goodbye, Morgan Oct 15 22:25:54 Goodbye Molly Oct 15 22:26:50 * Molly wanders very slowly back towards the house, slow enough he could easily call her to stop Oct 15 22:27:22 * Morgan watches her go, frowning Oct 15 22:28:30 * Molly glances over her shoulder before she continues on Oct 15 22:29:31 * Morgan sighs, kicking at the stones on the ground Oct 15 22:30:25 *his calculations of her speed and distance makes him aware that the last moment to call her back is nigh* Oct 15 22:30:57 * Morgan pinches at the skin on his palm, letting her go Oct 15 22:32:17 *He doesn’t see her again, not at breakfast or when they leave the house, only when he’s in the rigging with a spyglass does he see her face, up in the tower and watching the ship sadly Oct 15 22:32:59 * Morgan sighs heavily, watching her for a few moments before turning his gaze to where he's supposed to be looking Oct 15 22:33:59 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Oct 15 22:51:36 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client)