**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Sep 16 19:22:10 2023 Sep 16 19:22:10 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Sep 16 19:30:39 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Sep 16 19:31:19 * MollyK is now known as Christopher Sep 16 19:32:35 She is such an endearing child, if Mina will give her a chance mayhap her heart will soften Sep 16 19:32:46 * Morgan shrugs Sep 16 19:33:04 I just don't know. Molly has been quite blunt with her recently about it Sep 16 19:37:01 * Christopher smiles Sep 16 19:37:17 I cannot picture your wife being blunt Sep 16 19:38:13 * Morgan smiles Sep 16 19:38:20 It doesn't happen often Sep 16 19:39:42 She retired early, is she well? Sep 16 19:40:12 I suspect she is troubled by the situation with her cousin and aunt... she was not looking forward to seeing him if I'm honest Sep 16 19:40:49 It was very sudden, wasn't it, dear boy? Quite disconcerting, no doubt Sep 16 19:41:01 * Morgan nods, sipping his port Sep 16 19:41:16 Yes indeed. She was certainly not expecting to meet anyone from her family Sep 16 19:41:46 * Christopher nods Sep 16 19:42:28 I hope it has not spoiled her enjoyment of Hafenlohr Sep 16 19:42:35 Foxcroft* Sep 16 19:42:51 No, not at all. Though I think she's taken as much enjoyment seeing me so relaxed Sep 16 19:43:08 * Christopher nods Sep 16 19:43:32 She always seems more buoyant when you are in good spirits Sep 16 19:44:32 * Morgan nods Sep 16 19:44:38 You're not the first to say so Sep 16 19:47:07 You must be looking forward to settling down together in your new home Sep 16 19:47:50 * Morgan nods Sep 16 19:48:07 It'll be nice to be settled in one place. I had thought it would be in Sudlachenberg... Sep 16 19:51:43 * Christopher nods Sep 16 19:52:03 You will have more freedom in Hafenlohr Sep 16 19:52:39 Perhaps so. When I went back to Eisen, I was looking forward to going to my home, you know? Sep 16 19:53:08 * Christopher nods Sep 16 19:53:27 Life doesn't often go as we expect, does it? Sep 16 19:54:12 Not so I've noticed, no Sep 16 19:54:46 * Christopher smiles Sep 16 19:55:04 Sometimes it's much worse and sometimes it's much better Sep 16 19:55:22 * Morgan nods Sep 16 19:55:25 Quite so Sep 16 19:59:10 You seem even happier than when I saw you at Prophets Mass, I am glad to see it. Sep 16 19:59:28 * Morgan nods Sep 16 19:59:48 Yes, I am. I still have bad days... I get some godawful nightmares Sep 16 20:07:13 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:07:48 Your Mother mentioned your nightmares Sep 16 20:08:12 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:08:25 It is what it is Sep 16 20:10:03 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:10:46 It is indeed Sep 16 20:12:06 * Morgan shrugs, sipping his port Sep 16 20:13:14 Will you be attending church, or leaving before then? Sep 16 20:14:04 I think we'll have to think about it... the majority of us aren't Avalon citizens and our faith is just different enough for it to be an issue Sep 16 20:17:43 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:18:11 Are you sailing out tomorrow? Sep 16 20:18:29 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:19:00 Yes, we are. I'll be talking to Edward with Florrie, then before we sail I'm going to pay a visit to Molly's aunt Sep 16 20:20:16 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:20:43 You will want to leave early, the trip to Durham is not short Sep 16 20:21:04 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:21:13 On my own I can get a bit more of a move on though Sep 16 20:22:23 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:22:45 Will you go on ahead to find the aunt? Sep 16 20:24:03 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:24:13 I expect so. I don't want to delay sailing too much Sep 16 20:25:58 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:26:36 A baptism takes much preparation, thought I am sure your Mother has it well in hand Sep 16 20:26:56 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:27:05 I'm very grateful to have her help in arranging it Sep 16 20:27:22 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:27:36 She tells me she is pleased to be involved Sep 16 20:28:18 I wonder if there is an element of not being involved last time in that Sep 16 20:28:25 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:28:32 I believe so Sep 16 20:29:02 * Morgan nods sadly Sep 16 20:31:50 It is time to make amends Sep 16 20:33:20 She needn't blame herself... my... near exile was not her doing Sep 16 20:34:37 No one knows how to handle these things well Sep 16 20:34:48 No, I suppose not Sep 16 20:36:19 People can not control love, only God can do that Sep 16 20:36:33 probably Sep 16 20:38:25 I am sure if it could be your Father would not have married your Mother Sep 16 20:38:45 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:39:09 He says when he realised he was in love he went off to try to get himself killed Sep 16 20:39:35 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:40:10 It was a strange thing indeed Sep 16 20:40:48 Strange? Sep 16 20:41:57 For him to suddenly reappear six years later wanting to marry her after just three hours acquaintance Sep 16 20:42:14 That is a bit peculiar Sep 16 20:44:13 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:44:29 Love at first sight Sep 16 20:46:00 I can relate to that Sep 16 20:46:15 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:46:41 That is how it was for you? Sep 16 20:47:01 The first time round, yes Sep 16 20:49:37 This time was more of a slow-burn? Sep 16 20:49:59 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:50:03 It definitely developed over time Sep 16 20:50:31 I spent a long time feeling intensely guilty, like I was betraying Dietlinde, when I started feeling things for Molly Sep 16 20:51:20 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:51:43 I imagine it felt like an infidelity Sep 16 20:52:36 * Morgan nods Sep 16 20:52:38 Very much so Sep 16 20:53:50 How did you get past that? Sep 16 20:55:31 It felt that way for a long time, even until relatively recently. I had arranged, before we decided to come back to Eisen, for her to be my mistress, I couldn't marry her... Sep 16 20:56:45 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:56:57 What was your rational for that? Sep 16 20:57:33 I was already married. Doing so again would be that betrayal, and I wasn't capable of taking that step again Sep 16 20:58:26 * Christopher nods Sep 16 20:58:55 Having children outside wedlock would have been less so? Sep 16 20:59:23 Oh, there would be no children. It was not something I could bring myself to allow Sep 16 21:01:19 * Christopher nods "that was not a tough sell?" Sep 16 21:01:37 She accepted that if thats what it took to be with me, so be it Sep 16 21:02:29 Do you find that difficult to accept now you are seeing her as a mother? Sep 16 21:03:43 It was a cruel requirement but... I could not have faced being a father again at that point Sep 16 21:05:53 * Christopher nods Sep 16 21:06:31 She clearly loves being a mother. What a painful but generous sacrifice to make Sep 16 21:06:47 * Morgan nods Sep 16 21:06:49 quite Sep 16 21:09:00 She must have been greatly relieved when she knew you wanted a child together Sep 16 21:10:34 She was surprised. I had relented in that if we married, children would be required but... after we were in Avalon last, when I got back to her I had realised how much I wanted children again, and not just in the future... as soon as was possible Sep 16 21:11:14 * Christopher smiles Sep 16 21:11:29 I hope you are blessed very very soon Sep 16 21:12:17 * Morgan nods Sep 16 21:12:19 Me too Sep 16 21:12:58 Perhaps another daughter? Sep 16 21:13:17 * Morgan shrugs Sep 16 21:13:31 I think my father would be happier if I have a couple of sons first Sep 16 21:15:56 * Christopher nods Sep 16 21:16:12 I expect he would Sep 16 21:17:17 * Morgan nods Sep 16 21:17:27 He'll get what he's given Sep 16 21:17:40 * Christopher nods Sep 16 21:17:50 What does Molly want? Sep 16 21:19:39 Both I think Sep 16 21:21:52 * Christopher smiles Sep 16 21:21:54 Twins? Sep 16 21:22:49 That'd be nice I think... but no, I think she's happy with either providing we have boys and girls in the long run Sep 16 21:24:44 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Sep 16 21:33:37 * Christopher has quit (Read error: EOF from client)