**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Jul 25 00:00:00 2023 Jul 25 00:00:00 What would you get from it? Jul 25 00:01:55 Aside from the arousal... it... it is something I enjoy Jul 25 00:03:18 * MollyK nods Jul 25 00:03:31 But not something you have much experience of? Jul 25 00:04:19 * Morgan smirks slightly Jul 25 00:04:22 It is Jul 25 00:05:31 You said you'd only been as intimate as passionate kissing with your wife... Jul 25 00:06:05 No, I didn't... I said aside from you, I'd only been that intimate with her... not that I was -only- that intimate with her. Jul 25 00:07:49 Oh, no, we are confusing each other! I meant that you do not have experience with a variety of women Jul 25 00:08:08 No... I do not Jul 25 00:09:28 * MollyK nods "I didn't mean you hadn't done it before" Jul 25 00:10:30 * Morgan nods Jul 25 00:11:46 * MollyK bites her lip Jul 25 00:12:06 I know we logically should not... Jul 25 00:12:24 indeed Jul 25 00:13:28 ... and yet... Jul 25 00:13:51 * Morgan blushes Jul 25 00:18:08 I would be lying if I said I did not want it. Jul 25 00:18:33 You'd regret it Jul 25 00:20:08 But you wouldn't? Jul 25 00:20:40 Possibly when your uncle had to try to kill me... Jul 25 00:21:28 I don't think he would, you're too useful Jul 25 00:22:12 Not really... my family think I'm dead, so it wouldn't be out of the realm of possibility to try to get rid of me, and the contract is for you to marry the Veisgraf, which my brother would become... Jul 25 00:23:44 And I would throw the mother of all tantrums, and they would find that difficult Jul 25 00:24:20 That wouldn't be their biggest obstacle Jul 25 00:25:23 No? What would? Jul 25 00:25:36 I'm -very- difficult to kill Jul 25 00:25:46 * MollyK giggles Jul 25 00:25:56 I am glad of it Jul 25 00:26:07 * Morgan nods Jul 25 00:27:22 * MollyK watches him Jul 25 00:27:41 Why do you think I would regret it? Jul 25 00:28:02 Because if we are successful in our aim, you may not experience it again... Jul 25 00:29:11 I don't understand Jul 25 00:29:44 If you are freed from your obligation, you could marry someone who is not as... enthusiastic about doing it Jul 25 00:30:34 So I should not experience perfection now, because what awaits me will always be inferior? Jul 25 00:30:49 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 00:30:58 Something like... Jul 25 00:31:08 * MollyK looks intrigued Jul 25 00:31:22 You really -do- enjoy giving pleasure... Jul 25 00:31:35 I don't say things for the sake of saying them... Jul 25 00:31:51 No, but I imagine it's very uncommon Jul 25 00:32:00 So do I Jul 25 00:34:21 What about you? What if you never get the opportunity again once you are freed of me? Jul 25 00:35:02 * Morgan shrugs a little Jul 25 00:35:07 If that is what I must do Jul 25 00:35:43 * MollyK watches him Jul 25 00:35:53 Never have it again, or be freed of me? Jul 25 00:36:37 The former... the latter is beside the point since it is you we are working to free Jul 25 00:38:00 You would not regret passing up pleasuring me, in the years ahead? Jul 25 00:38:55 Of course but... my life is full of regrets. Jul 25 00:39:15 * MollyK nods Jul 25 00:39:26 Will you regret setting me free? Jul 25 00:40:25 If you are happy, no. Jul 25 00:42:55 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jul 25 00:44:27 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 25 15:37:37 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.150) has joined Jul 25 15:39:21 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 25 15:39:44 And if I am not? Jul 25 15:40:33 Then I have failed in my task Jul 25 15:42:09 * MollyK smiles Jul 25 15:42:23 You've made it your mission to make me happy? Jul 25 15:43:00 Well... happier than you would be married to my brother at any rate Jul 25 15:43:14 * MollyK giggles Jul 25 15:43:23 It sounds like that would not be hard! Jul 25 15:44:28 quite Jul 25 15:45:13 * MollyK nods, watching him Jul 25 15:45:41 Is that a euphemism? An impotent husband could be very useful Jul 25 15:46:00 It wasn't, but you make a good point Jul 25 15:46:08 * MollyK nods Jul 25 15:46:43 I could be divorced. And with my own money, I could go somewhere and start over Jul 25 15:47:15 * Morgan nods Jul 25 15:47:16 quite Jul 25 15:48:19 * MollyK smiles playfully Jul 25 15:48:34 Thanks to you, I will never need a man in my bed Jul 25 15:49:45 * Morgan nods Jul 25 15:49:49 Indeed Jul 25 15:52:10 * MollyK gets up, giggling as she grabs her shawl and turns her back, fidgeting. When she turns back, she's stuffed the whole shawl in her bodice, ribbons loosened, the stuffing making her look very pregnant. She smiles "this would be an impossibility though!" Jul 25 15:52:32 Not really, I'm sure you can get another shawl in the future Jul 25 15:53:26 * MollyK laughs, smoothing the dress over the big curve so it's clearer "being with child, silly!" Jul 25 15:53:36 oh... yes that would be difficult Jul 25 15:54:20 * MollyK nods, bringing him the little mirror pointed towards her "hold that." Jul 25 15:54:39 * Morgan takes it Jul 25 15:55:05 * MollyK steps away, looking at her body in the mirror. Her nose wrinkles Jul 25 15:55:21 How awful! I'm as deep as I am tall Jul 25 15:56:00 Could be worse, you could be so short you'd be wider than tall Jul 25 15:56:10 * MollyK nods Jul 25 15:57:30 If I had twins I probably would be! *she turns front on, shaking her head* you can even see from the front Jul 25 15:57:42 * Morgan looks at her before nodding Jul 25 15:59:48 How is one even to bend properly?! *she bends down to try to touch the floor, but it's awkward, the contained shawl hanging low, and he also gets a flash of cleavage* Jul 25 16:00:00 Not like that Jul 25 16:01:39 * MollyK tries keeping her knees together, bending as ladylike as possible, but it 's just awkward, and she manages to fall on her bottom with a laugh Jul 25 16:01:45 Not like that either? Jul 25 16:02:06 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 25 16:02:07 no Jul 25 16:03:19 * MollyK lies on the floor, hair spread out, the shawl making her laced bodice the highest point, like a little hill. She's still giggling Jul 25 16:03:37 It feels nice down here, you can feel the ship move Jul 25 16:03:46 * Morgan nods Jul 25 16:03:54 I know Jul 25 16:04:29 * MollyK lifts an arm, pointing the back of her hand towards him before crooking her finger Jul 25 16:04:34 Come join me? Jul 25 16:05:44 * Morgan shrugs, getting on the floor Jul 25 16:06:35 * MollyK is laid on her back, facing up towards the ceiling, she turns her head to smile at him. She looks relaxed, light-hearted Jul 25 16:06:37 Hi. Jul 25 16:07:11 Its not quite as nice as the feel of the way she moves up in the rigging Jul 25 16:07:27 * MollyK nods Jul 25 16:07:45 But up there, you don't have the pleasure of being next to me... Jul 25 16:08:56 I suppose not Jul 25 16:11:03 * MollyK smiles mischievously Jul 25 16:11:32 I suppose we could go up there right now, like this... *she pats the fake bump* Jul 25 16:12:11 I can't imagine you'd be all that good at climbing like that... Jul 25 16:12:31 * MollyK shrugs Jul 25 16:12:40 I'm not very good at it anyway Jul 25 16:12:53 No? Jul 25 16:14:07 * MollyK shakes her head Jul 25 16:14:23 I'm surprisingly ungraceful Jul 25 16:16:22 * Morgan nods Jul 25 16:16:35 Thats worth knowing for when you meet others Jul 25 16:16:42 Why? Jul 25 16:19:39 No point trying to sweep them off their feet with something that'll have you tripping over yours Jul 25 16:20:14 * MollyK smiles Jul 25 16:20:34 Do I make you feel like you're tripping over yours? Jul 25 16:20:50 Sometimes Jul 25 16:21:04 And right now? Jul 25 16:21:54 Can't trip over when I'm lying down Jul 25 16:23:38 * MollyK smiles Jul 25 16:23:45 I like lying down with you Jul 25 16:25:02 * Morgan sniggers Jul 25 16:26:19 * MollyK smiles warmly Jul 25 16:26:27 Did I just make you laugh?! Jul 25 16:26:40 No. I sniggered. Jul 25 16:26:58 Because of what I said. That is making you laugh Jul 25 16:27:38 Sadly it isn't Jul 25 16:29:06 Then why did you snigger? Jul 25 16:30:54 Oh I was sniggering at what you said, but it is not a laugh Jul 25 16:31:19 Yes it is! Sniggering is laughing at something rude or naughty Jul 25 16:31:42 I don't think so Jul 25 16:32:05 * MollyK shrugs Jul 25 16:32:26 Be wrong if you please *She sticks her tongue at him* Jul 25 16:33:27 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 16:35:06 Do you never laugh? Jul 25 16:36:19 Not for a long time Jul 25 16:36:50 Maybe I will endeavour to do that... Jul 25 16:37:13 If you feel you must Jul 25 16:37:24 * MollyK nods, thinking Jul 25 16:38:25 Oh no, the baby is coming! *she feigns a groan of discomfort , back arching, but it looks and sounds more like pleasure than pain* Jul 25 16:40:08 * Morgan looks up at the ceiling Jul 25 16:40:11 It doesn't sound like that Jul 25 16:41:25 No? Not intense enough? *she makes a sharp inhale through gritted teeth before blowing out slowly. This sounds more like trying to hold back from climax rather than childbirth* Jul 25 16:42:31 uhhh... no Jul 25 16:44:08 * MollyK sighs dramatically "what about..." *she moans intensely but quietly "oh god!". This definitely sounds more like sex than childbirth Jul 25 16:46:59 * Morgan blushes Jul 25 16:47:05 No, thats... definitely not it Jul 25 16:47:12 * MollyK smiles innocently "not like that?" Jul 25 16:48:42 No, thats more... sex than childbirth Jul 25 16:49:34 * MollyK giggles Jul 25 16:49:43 Oh dear, oops a daisy, silly me! Jul 25 16:52:07 quite Jul 25 16:52:50 * MollyK watches him Jul 25 16:53:04 You know, I think it might actually not be a baby... Jul 25 16:53:11 No? Jul 25 16:56:01 Nuh uh. I suppose one of us ought to find out what it really is... Jul 25 16:56:32 * Morgan nods Jul 25 16:56:33 Go on then Jul 25 16:59:03 * MollyK smiles with mischief, slowly undoing her bodice, the shawl between that and her shift below. She watches his expression Jul 25 16:59:19 * Morgan blushes, looking away Jul 25 16:59:45 I am not going to get naked... Jul 25 17:00:54 Even so Jul 25 17:01:15 You do not want me to undo anything? Jul 25 17:02:05 I think it is clear that is not true... but you should not. Jul 25 17:02:25 I'm not very good at doing what I should... Jul 25 17:02:39 I have noticed Jul 25 17:03:05 * MollyK pulls the shawl out Jul 25 17:03:23 Tada! It's not a baby! Jul 25 17:04:16 Thats lucky Jul 25 17:04:22 * MollyK nods Jul 25 17:04:40 That would really ruin my supposed marriage to your brother! Jul 25 17:04:56 * Morgan nods Jul 25 17:04:58 Yes, it would Jul 25 17:05:30 * MollyK chucks the shawl at him with a giggle Jul 25 17:05:38 Oops! My bad! Jul 25 17:05:49 oops... indeed. Jul 25 17:06:00 * MollyK watches his expression closely Jul 25 17:06:31 My hand must have slipped! Jul 25 17:07:00 * Morgan smirks Jul 25 17:07:01 Evidently Jul 25 17:07:24 That's unfortunate, isn't it? Jul 25 17:07:48 very Jul 25 17:08:33 * MollyK reaches for it, the back of her hand grazing his chest. she watches his eyes Jul 25 17:08:42 Oops, my hand slipped again Jul 25 17:09:19 So it did Jul 25 17:09:35 I have clumsy hands, hmm? Jul 25 17:10:08 You certainly do Jul 25 17:10:32 I will endeavour to keep them to myself... Jul 25 17:11:28 * Morgan nods Jul 25 17:11:31 Probably a good idea Jul 25 17:12:25 * MollyK smiles Jul 25 17:12:31 Only probably? Jul 25 17:12:45 * Morgan nods Jul 25 17:14:20 * MollyK nods, smiling as she looks up at the ceiling "it doesn't sound as much fun though" Jul 25 17:14:30 No, I suppose it doesn't Jul 25 17:15:01 And definitely not as much fun as helping me? Jul 25 17:16:47 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 25 17:16:49 No... Jul 25 17:17:32 Mmhmm *she smiles, thoughtfully* Jul 25 17:19:29 * Morgan watches her from the corner of his eye Jul 25 17:19:31 What? Jul 25 17:20:12 I was thinking about whether you are ambidextrous, and what your hand would feel like against my thighs Jul 25 17:21:40 I don't see what one has to do with the other Jul 25 17:22:15 Because you are laid on the wrong side of me, unless you are ambidextrous Jul 25 17:25:21 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jul 25 18:01:45 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 25 19:45:14 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.150) has joined Jul 25 19:48:56 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 25 19:49:19 Mmhmm *she smiles, thoughtfully* Jul 25 19:49:19 * Morgan watches her from the corner of his eye Jul 25 19:49:19 What? Jul 25 19:49:19 I was thinking about whether you are ambidextrous, and what your hand would feel like against my thighs Jul 25 19:49:19 I don't see what one has to do with the other Jul 25 19:49:22 Because you are laid on the wrong side of me, unless you are ambidextrous Jul 25 19:49:27 Its not that difficult to lay a hand on a thigh Jul 25 19:50:26 * MollyK watches him a moment with a little smile Jul 25 19:50:34 What if I need proof? Jul 25 19:53:13 Can you put either hand on your own thigh without too much trouble? Jul 25 19:53:26 * MollyK smiles Jul 25 19:53:28 No Jul 25 19:55:31 You really are clumsy Jul 25 19:56:21 *she smiles* In this case, my hands are too heavy, I can't lift them from the floor! See? *she feigns effort* no, it's hopeless. Jul 25 19:58:28 Oh, thats a shame isn't it. That'll make having dinner quite difficult Jul 25 20:00:40 * MollyK giggles Jul 25 20:00:47 You'll have to feed me Jul 25 20:01:17 No, that's your uncles responsibility, I'm just a master at arms Jul 25 20:01:40 A Master Of Arms? Well that sounds perfect! *she smirks* Jul 25 20:03:06 Master -at- arms Jul 25 20:03:39 Mmm nope, I am still hearing Master Of Arms... maybe you should come closer... Jul 25 20:04:15 You think I'm going to fall for that? Jul 25 20:04:38 * MollyK nods "I think you'd enjoy having a reason to" Jul 25 20:04:49 Do you? Jul 25 20:05:27 * MollyK nods, and the confidence would look completely convincing to anyone less perceptive Jul 25 20:05:29 I do Jul 25 20:07:07 * Morgan turns his head to look at her Jul 25 20:07:21 You don't need to try so hard... Jul 25 20:07:30 * MollyK watches him Jul 25 20:07:52 Then what do I need, because you are giving me mixed signals. Jul 25 20:08:37 I'm not... I don't respond to hints or teasing very well... Jul 25 20:08:51 Why not? Jul 25 20:09:44 I just don't. I'm not good at social interactions. Jul 25 20:10:48 I'm not good at being seductive. I'm used to farm boys who grab uninvitedly at my breasts and bottom whilst kissing me! Jul 25 20:11:09 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 20:11:15 I am not a farm boy Jul 25 20:11:29 No, but that is an invite. Jul 25 20:20:15 An invite or a request? Jul 25 20:33:48 * MollyK bites her lip Jul 25 20:34:01 Would it be dreadful if it were the latter? Jul 25 20:35:10 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 20:35:17 There's no shame in asking for what you want Jul 25 20:40:49 There is no shame for you to either. Jul 25 20:42:56 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 20:44:15 * MollyK moves a little closer and brushes her lips lightly over his Jul 25 20:44:48 * Morgan smiles a little Jul 25 20:47:46 * MollyK leans back a little to make eye contact "is that trying too hard?" Jul 25 20:48:29 I don't think so Jul 25 20:50:15 * MollyK smiles "your turn, I think" Jul 25 20:51:19 My turn? Jul 25 20:52:03 Mmhmm, to show me what you'd like Jul 25 20:53:40 * Morgan frowns briefly before kissing her gently Jul 25 20:54:49 * MollyK brings her hand to his cheek, returning the kiss a little firmer Jul 25 20:56:54 * Morgan puts a hand to her waist Jul 25 20:57:44 * MollyK shuffles a little closer, body inline with his Jul 25 20:59:55 * Morgan smiles slightly Jul 25 21:01:16 * MollyK looks at him Jul 25 21:01:20 I felt that Jul 25 21:01:46 Felt what? Jul 25 21:01:55 You smiling Jul 25 21:04:29 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 21:04:39 It's nice Jul 25 21:06:29 I'm pleased you think so Jul 25 21:07:12 * MollyK nods, and he can feel her breathing from the movement of her chest against his Jul 25 21:07:27 I want to make you smile again... Jul 25 21:07:51 Why? Jul 25 21:08:19 Because... because I want you to feel something good Jul 25 21:09:00 Already did Jul 25 21:09:06 What? Jul 25 21:09:40 I wouldn't be kissing you if it didn't feel good Jul 25 21:10:00 You might feel you cannot say no? Jul 25 21:13:06 Do I seem the sort to accept things meekly? Jul 25 21:13:20 No... do I? Jul 25 21:13:35 Not really... Jul 25 21:13:58 * MollyK nods Jul 25 21:14:25 Good... do you wish to be kissed again? Jul 25 21:14:40 * Morgan nods Jul 25 21:14:41 I do Jul 25 21:16:27 * MollyK nods, kissing him again, seeming to relax into it more this time, her lips softer Jul 25 21:17:51 * Morgan sucks her bottom lip between his teeth, sucking it for a moment Jul 25 21:18:45 * MollyK 's stomach twitches against his, and she makes a little sound of enjoyment Jul 25 21:20:23 * Morgan releases it Jul 25 21:21:13 * MollyK gasps, suddenly kissing him very passionately Jul 25 21:21:56 * Morgan makes a noise of surprise before matching her Jul 25 21:25:12 * MollyK tilts her head a little more before sweeping her tongue against his, her hand moving to grasp his upper arm Jul 25 21:25:32 * Morgan pulls her closer, pressing her against him Jul 25 21:27:41 * MollyK grasps his arm firmer, kissing him harder and deeper, bordering on desperately Jul 25 21:28:03 * Morgan kisses her hard, holding her firmly against him Jul 25 21:29:03 * MollyK presses her body against him harder, almost enough to push him over Jul 25 21:29:49 * Morgan shifts his lower leg to stay stable Jul 25 21:31:37 * MollyK draws out enough to murmur against his mouth "you are the most incredible thing I've ever experienced" Jul 25 21:32:18 * Morgan draws back a little, looking at her Jul 25 21:33:17 * MollyK blushes, watching his eyes Jul 25 21:33:21 Sorry... Jul 25 21:33:40 I was... I'm not used to people saying anything nice about me Jul 25 21:34:01 There's so much nice to say... Jul 25 21:34:28 * Morgan shakes his head sadly Jul 25 21:37:47 There is. You are upheaving your whole life for a silly, too-forthright girl who is in a mess. You were so patient teaching me, and acerbically witty. You are gorgeous. My heart misses a beat and my stomach gets all fluttery around you Jul 25 21:39:13 You are young, thats all Jul 25 21:39:35 I'm not so young that I do not know my heart. Jul 25 21:41:52 Perhaps Jul 25 21:43:34 * MollyK smiles playfully, caressing his arm "you're old, do you know yours?" Jul 25 21:45:04 I did Jul 25 21:45:22 And now? Jul 25 21:45:42 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 21:46:33 * MollyK nods a little Jul 25 21:47:15 But it would like me to kiss you again? Jul 25 21:47:32 * Morgan nods Jul 25 21:47:33 yes Jul 25 21:48:29 * MollyK does so, once more it is passionate and her grip is firm on his arm Jul 25 21:48:45 * Morgan pulls her against him once more Jul 25 21:49:31 * MollyK moans softly into his mouth, pressing her breasts to his chest Jul 25 21:51:48 * Morgan moans quietly Jul 25 21:53:12 * MollyK moves her hand down from his arm and onto his flank, her tongue intertwined with his, her mouth so warm and soft against his Jul 25 21:56:52 * Morgan continues too kiss her hard Jul 25 21:58:46 * MollyK moans, her insistent fingers pressing against his flesh, only separated by a few layers of clothing. She pulls him closer, pressing her lower body to his too Jul 25 22:00:53 * Morgan pulls away Jul 25 22:01:09 If your uncle catches us like this, there'll be hell to pay Jul 25 22:02:25 * MollyK watches him with flushed cheeks and very wide pupils, looking aroused Jul 25 22:02:34 I want to care, I really do... Jul 25 22:02:40 But you don't Jul 25 22:02:50 I am trying Jul 25 22:04:32 * Morgan kisses her gently before moving away a little Jul 25 22:05:39 * MollyK looks frustrated Jul 25 22:05:49 Alright... Jul 25 22:10:01 * MollyK sighs, sitting up. She pulls her hair all over to the opposite shoulder, twisting it Jul 25 22:14:39 * Morgan sighs, sitting up Jul 25 22:16:50 * MollyK blows out a hard breath Jul 25 22:17:20 I don't know what to do now. Jul 25 22:18:36 Don't take it as a rejection, that is not what it is Jul 25 22:19:40 I know. You are being sensible Jul 25 22:20:57 * Morgan nods Jul 25 22:21:01 I am protecting you Jul 25 22:21:46 * MollyK nods Jul 25 22:22:07 You are. I am appreciative of that, truly, it's just... Jul 25 22:22:28 In the heat of the moment you want more Jul 25 22:22:42 So much. Jul 25 22:22:46 * Morgan nods Jul 25 22:22:47 I know Jul 25 22:23:34 * MollyK draws her knees up, resting her arms on them before resting her cheek there and watching him "what about you?" Jul 25 22:23:44 * Morgan smiles slightly Jul 25 22:23:49 I am not so unmoved as I appear Jul 25 22:24:09 No? How moved are you? *she smiles* Jul 25 22:24:34 * Morgan sighs Jul 25 22:24:41 More than I would have expected Jul 25 22:24:52 That is bad? Jul 25 22:25:03 It is... unexpected. It is unusual. Jul 25 22:25:15 Why? Jul 25 22:25:54 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 22:26:03 I am used to being more or less numb Jul 25 22:26:15 And you do not feel numb now? Jul 25 22:26:47 * Morgan shakes his head, looking troubled Jul 25 22:27:25 * MollyK looks concerned "how can I help?" Jul 25 22:28:24 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 22:28:28 I'm not sure you can Jul 25 22:34:53 * MollyK nods sadly Jul 25 22:35:16 I'm sorry. Do you wish you'd never met me? Jul 25 22:36:19 Yes and no Jul 25 22:39:41 Tell me why? Jul 25 22:43:19 I was comfortable in my task and isolation, feeling very little... you have disturbed that Jul 25 22:43:55 Have Jul 25 22:43:57 I? Jul 25 22:47:38 * Morgan nods Jul 25 22:47:40 Yes, you have Jul 25 22:49:33 How do I make you feel? Jul 25 22:50:16 * Morgan sighs Jul 25 22:51:06 Its hard to describe... I've been going through life in a quiet, dark cloud... I've been content in there... but now there's a ray of sunshine, and suddenly I'm seeing more Jul 25 22:51:20 * MollyK smiles Jul 25 22:51:41 I don't think anyone's ever described me as a ray of sunshine before Jul 25 22:55:08 * Morgan nods Jul 25 22:58:00 * MollyK nods Jul 25 22:58:27 I wonder if maybe I should just accept my fate and let you on your way Jul 25 22:58:43 No point Jul 25 23:00:57 You could find a quiet cloud again Jul 25 23:02:07 Too difficult now. Word of my living will reach my family and nowhere will be beyond their reach Jul 25 23:03:19 * MollyK bites her lip, nodding Jul 25 23:03:37 God, I am so sorry. Jul 25 23:03:45 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 25 23:03:47 It was my choice Jul 25 23:04:09 Which you wouldn't have had to make if I hadn't shown up Jul 25 23:04:50 Or if I hadn't gotten annoyed at how your uncle was treating you Jul 25 23:05:03 * MollyK nods Jul 25 23:05:16 Why did you? I was not important Jul 25 23:06:17 Because those of noble blood forget that people are not pawns to be moved to their advantage... they are living people with their own dreams and fears, and the arrogance of it boils my blood Jul 25 23:06:27 * MollyK nods Jul 25 23:06:40 You'd have done all this for any other girl? Jul 25 23:07:25 No. I'd have pulled him up short, probably, but... you've grown on me, more than anyone has since I've been in Avalon Jul 25 23:08:02 * MollyK giggles "like moss?" Jul 25 23:08:09 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 23:08:10 If you like Jul 25 23:08:29 * MollyK nods "what do we do now?" Jul 25 23:09:50 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 23:10:31 What do you want? Do you wish to go back to your room to be alone? Jul 25 23:10:36 I should be trying to find a way out of this for you... and you should still be learning the nonsense you'll be expected to conform to in Eisen Jul 25 23:11:52 * MollyK watches him a long moment "yes... you're right. I should concentrate on that" Jul 25 23:13:06 It'll be useful Jul 25 23:13:29 * MollyK nods, taking a deep breath before standing Jul 25 23:13:56 Alright. I have some reading I have been given to do Jul 25 23:14:24 * Morgan nods, immediately recognising his dismissal, standing Jul 25 23:14:29 Alright. Jul 25 23:15:29 * MollyK looks him over head to toe before sighing "I don't want this. But I know you are talking sense" Jul 25 23:16:23 What do you -want-? Jul 25 23:16:53 * MollyK blushes "Are you sure you want to ask that?" Jul 25 23:17:23 I believe I just did. Jul 25 23:18:37 * MollyK sucks her lower lip Jul 25 23:19:40 I want to lock the door, and kiss you til we're both crazed by it, and then have you help me... Jul 25 23:20:03 * Morgan blushes Jul 25 23:20:55 * MollyK blushes hard Jul 25 23:21:02 I shouldn't have said that. Jul 25 23:21:22 * Morgan smiles slightly Jul 25 23:21:36 Probably not Jul 25 23:21:58 * MollyK watches him Jul 25 23:22:09 And you? What do -you- want? Jul 25 23:22:53 * Morgan sighs Jul 25 23:23:06 That sounds like heaven... but I simply cannot trust my self control with you Jul 25 23:23:21 Why not? Jul 25 23:24:39 The temptation is simply too strong. Jul 25 23:24:48 To do what? Jul 25 23:24:56 anything. Everything. Jul 25 23:25:20 * MollyK blushes more, licking her lip and noticeably swallowing Jul 25 23:25:27 -everything-? Jul 25 23:26:58 I'm supposed to be finding you a way out of this... Jul 25 23:27:06 * MollyK giggles Jul 25 23:28:01 That would be a way out of marrying your brother! The laws of consanguinity, no intimacy with family members, you know... Jul 25 23:28:30 Yes, but... your reputation would be ruined, and your family's, and the ramifications for both our families... Jul 25 23:28:44 * MollyK nods Jul 25 23:29:08 And they have read the banns. A date is set for me to wed the Veisgraf... Jul 25 23:29:22 * Morgan nods Jul 25 23:29:23 Indeed Jul 25 23:29:56 We would be in essence married by De Futuro betrothal... Jul 25 23:30:28 Yes, we would... which is not getting you your freedom Jul 25 23:31:00 No, but I think it would feel very, very nice? Jul 25 23:32:15 Its supposed to... Jul 25 23:32:45 * MollyK nods "and if you imagine it, does it?" Jul 25 23:33:45 I've tried not to Jul 25 23:35:26 Why? Jul 25 23:35:49 Because I shouldn't want that Jul 25 23:37:08 But you do? Jul 25 23:37:25 I suppose so Jul 25 23:38:28 * MollyK frowns slightly Jul 25 23:39:01 Well, I don't think imagining is a bad thing. No one gets hurt Jul 25 23:40:11 perhaps... but I shouldn't be Jul 25 23:41:24 Because you were married? Jul 25 23:42:06 its... difficult... feeling these things. Jul 25 23:42:46 * MollyK nods Jul 25 23:43:46 Would you have wanted her to feel this level of distress about it if it had been the other way around, or would you have wanted her to be happy and not at war with herself? Jul 25 23:45:09 No, of course I wouldn't want her feeling distress Jul 25 23:46:24 Then why would she want that for you? Jul 25 23:46:46 * Morgan sighs, looking unhappy Jul 25 23:47:43 I'm not asking you to take me to bed, Morgan, but you should be kinder and more tolerant of yourself, like she'd have wanted Jul 25 23:48:07 Its... just another example of how I fail her, both of them Jul 25 23:48:24 * MollyK shakes her head Jul 25 23:48:34 No. That's really too harsh Jul 25 23:50:02 I don't believe so Jul 25 23:50:46 I do. You've been grieving, that's really hard. You can't expect perfection through suffering Jul 25 23:52:37 * Morgan shrugs Jul 25 23:52:38 Perhaps Jul 25 23:52:46 * MollyK watches him Jul 25 23:52:59 Would you let me hold you? Jul 25 23:53:12 If you wish Jul 25 23:54:32 * MollyK comes to him, hugging him hard. It's nothing like their embracing on the floor, an offer of comfort not an invitation to eroticism Jul 25 23:55:27 * Morgan puts his arms around her, resting his face against her head Jul 25 23:55:50 * MollyK soothingly strokes his back Jul 25 23:57:04 Each new day is chance to do better, to find a little more joy, to notice something beautiful in nature that she'd have enjoyed. You can stay connected to her without only ever feeling awful Jul 25 23:57:33 * Morgan sighs Jul 25 23:57:35 I don't know how Jul 25 23:59:14 Maybe you need to start by not telling yourself you're failing. Jul 25 23:59:44 I can't do that Jul 25 23:59:51 Yes, you can