**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Wed Jul 5 08:36:30 2023 Jul 05 08:36:30 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jul 05 08:45:08 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jul 05 10:16:59 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jul 05 11:56:45 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 05 11:58:31 Martha visits them every day too Jul 05 11:58:37 * MollyK is now known as Verity Jul 05 11:58:54 * Morgan nods Jul 05 11:58:57 How is she? Jul 05 12:04:06 * Verity nods "She's very happy, though she misses her other children, naturally. She writes to them" Jul 05 12:04:18 * Morgan nods Jul 05 12:04:43 Once things are a bit more settled we'll try to arrange passage for them to have them visit.. I'm sure between us we'll have enough rooms Jul 05 12:07:46 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:08:31 That's a nice thought, dear boy Jul 05 12:12:15 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 12:12:20 Its just the right thing to do Jul 05 12:14:55 It's been very difficult not telling her about Emil Jul 05 12:15:11 * Morgan looks at her sympathetically Jul 05 12:15:20 She'd have great difficulty keeping it to herself Jul 05 12:17:01 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:17:28 She will be very excited. Have you thought about having her and David meet you at Hafenlohr Jul 05 12:17:40 [only in my nightmares...] Jul 05 12:17:46 * Morgan glances at Molly Jul 05 12:18:10 We hadn't, no... I think we'd like a little time to get used to the place, and we'll have guests as it is Jul 05 12:22:26 M: *she smiles* We've not been settled properly for more than a year. We've always been on one journey or another since we first left Tawstock. I am very much feeling a need to be somewhere now that will be our home and our childrens' home, and that will be easiest if we can just settle in by ourselves Jul 05 12:22:30 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:22:42 Of course, and we'll all be there for the baptism Jul 05 12:22:52 * Morgan nods Jul 05 12:23:04 Would it be worth me taking UInise to Sudlachenberg? Jul 05 12:26:00 She would be welcome if you think she would enjoy that Jul 05 12:26:25 I'll talk to her about it later Jul 05 12:29:17 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:29:52 I'm looking forward to seeing you all, and to seeing Edward at the baptism Jul 05 12:30:43 * Morgan nods Jul 05 12:30:46 I miss him greatly Jul 05 12:32:46 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:32:59 He's all grown up now over in Graben Jul 05 12:33:08 * Morgan nods Jul 05 12:33:35 Now and then when we talk, he doesn't realise I've arrived and he's still working... reminds me of father in his study Jul 05 12:35:08 * Verity nods, smiling Jul 05 12:36:52 He makes me think of those times when your Father would be home on leave and working as a Graf should be. For a few weeks or months I knew he had peace that he did not have when he was deployed Jul 05 12:40:56 * Morgan nods Jul 05 12:42:20 As much as we all try to show otherwise, war leaves marks on us we can't ever heal Jul 05 12:42:54 V: Vati has a lot of scars Jul 05 12:43:53 * Verity nods "Most men who went to War do" Jul 05 12:44:35 I've come away from Capperlucia with another one Jul 05 12:47:39 How did you do that? Jul 05 12:48:26 I slipped when I was climbing the wall the first time... caught my arm on a rock Jul 05 12:51:27 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:52:00 You've always been hard to keep on the ground Jul 05 12:52:43 I was telling Varick and Florrie about having to cut the tree by the house down when I was little... Jul 05 12:56:24 * Verity nods Jul 05 12:56:53 Oh yes, that was so high and dangerous! I felt my heart stop when I would see you up there Jul 05 12:57:24 I'd like to say I grew out of it but... Jul 05 13:00:46 * Verity smiles Jul 05 13:01:02 It's part of who you have always been, dear boy Jul 05 13:01:41 * Morgan nods thoughtfully Jul 05 13:03:15 M: There are many, many trees for him to climb at Hafenlohr, I'm told Jul 05 13:04:30 Don't like forests Jul 05 13:06:13 V: We have lots of woods to play and hunt in. I want Uncle Edward to hunt with us too Jul 05 13:07:40 We'll have to see what time we can find Jul 05 13:08:37 *Varick nods* Jul 05 13:09:38 He's going to be very busy with Florrie, isn't he? Jul 05 13:09:44 * Morgan nods Jul 05 13:09:47 I expect so, yes Jul 05 13:12:52 V: Everyone will be busy with Florrie and Emil... Jul 05 13:13:04 * Morgan cuddles him firmly Jul 05 13:13:11 Don't be thinking we'll forget about you young man Jul 05 13:13:50 V: I'm not new like them, I am just old Varick Jul 05 13:14:40 * Verity smiles "Yes, I remember Morgan saying similar about Edward" Jul 05 13:16:15 Its a common complaint of the older children? Jul 05 13:17:52 * Verity nods Jul 05 13:17:59 In my experience, yes Jul 05 13:18:49 * Morgan nods Jul 05 13:20:21 Varick, perhaps we can arrange some things that you can do with your Grandfather and I just us? I would like to spend time with you, and so would he Jul 05 13:21:06 That sounds good doesn't it? Jul 05 13:21:43 *Varick nods* we can go on the lake! But I do want to hunt too Jul 05 13:22:09 * Morgan nods Jul 05 13:22:11 Definitely Jul 05 13:23:30 V: you will have Xantha to ride now Jul 05 13:24:21 If I can pry him from Aurora's side, yes Jul 05 13:24:54 V: is he stuck? Jul 05 13:25:36 He's very protective of her Jul 05 13:31:03 Would you like me to have someone take Varick's pony up too? Jul 05 13:31:36 What do you think son? Jul 05 13:34:18 V: yes! I want him to live with us Jul 05 13:34:40 * Morgan nods Jul 05 13:34:44 Please, mother Jul 05 13:38:03 * Verity nods Jul 05 13:38:24 I'll send someone after church tomorrow Jul 05 13:38:51 * Morgan nods Jul 05 13:38:53 Thank you mother Jul 05 13:42:36 * Verity nods Jul 05 13:43:09 Are you still Captaining the ship sometimes? Jul 05 13:44:00 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 05 13:44:11 No, I've got too much else to do really Jul 05 13:49:29 What are you doing with your free time now? Jul 05 13:49:44 A bit of woodwork Jul 05 13:54:12 * Verity smiles Jul 05 13:54:21 That's nice, what are you making? Jul 05 13:54:52 At the moment... cribs. Then a chair. Then rattles. Jul 05 13:57:54 * Verity looks hopeful Jul 05 13:58:17 That is very proactive of you Jul 05 13:58:49 For Sascha and Otto, mother... well... for their children, anyway Jul 05 14:00:24 * Verity nods Jul 05 14:00:54 I remember you mentioned it now. Do you have everything you need for Emil? Jul 05 14:01:18 What do you think blossom? Jul 05 14:03:36 M: He has three cribs to choose from, and I already have a chair. Morgan has been so good at making things Jul 05 14:05:45 The crib that was made in Capperlucia is very clever Jul 05 14:09:59 Is it? Jul 05 14:11:06 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:11:21 You can lower the side, and change the height of the bed part Jul 05 14:15:03 * Verity smiles Jul 05 14:15:23 That must be nicer for your back, especially when they get very big Jul 05 14:17:17 I imagine so Jul 05 14:18:54 Are you making them that way too? Jul 05 14:19:16 I'm aiming to try... but its a little complex Jul 05 14:22:30 I imagine so, dear boy, but you have done complex things before, and I know you will figure it out Jul 05 14:22:59 We'll see, I suppose Jul 05 14:26:26 * Verity nods Jul 05 14:27:03 I will let your Uncle know you are underway and will be with him early in the week Jul 05 14:28:16 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:28:19 Thank you mother Jul 05 14:30:13 * Verity nods Jul 05 14:30:33 I hope the journey goes smoothly Jul 05 14:32:54 We'll speak again in a few days? Jul 05 14:39:31 * Verity nods "maybe once you are all together? I am going to spend a day or two clearing some of the attic space, and you know how your Father feels about the bad luck of throwing things away!" Jul 05 14:40:05 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:40:12 He will be quite trying about it Jul 05 14:41:40 * Verity nods Jul 05 14:41:59 It is gentler for him if he isn't upset by any of it Jul 05 14:42:15 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:42:27 Alright mother. We'll find time with Uncle Christopher then Jul 05 14:46:37 * Verity nods "take care, I love you all very much" Jul 05 14:46:47 And us you mother Jul 05 14:48:45 * Verity says goodbye before going. Varick gets down Jul 05 14:48:56 V: Can I go and find Florrie now? Jul 05 14:49:31 If you want to Jul 05 14:53:19 *Varick does. The cat follows him out, and Bir tries to go too But is too slow and ends up landing on the desk instead* Jul 05 14:53:23 * Verity is now known as Molly Jul 05 14:53:30 Your Mother seems well Jul 05 14:54:18 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:54:21 She does, doesn't she Jul 05 14:56:36 * Molly nods Jul 05 14:56:50 And Mama and Sascha sound happy Jul 05 14:57:02 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:57:11 * Molly bounces Emil gently on her hip Jul 05 14:57:12 They do... your mother is clearly missing having her family around her... Jul 05 14:57:24 * Molly nods Jul 05 14:57:39 She was used to having Peter and James not far away Jul 05 14:57:45 * Morgan nods Jul 05 14:59:48 Now she will just have us for her attentions! Jul 05 15:00:02 You say that but you love her really Jul 05 15:00:29 I do, of course... but she likes to be very involved... Jul 05 15:00:48 Well, if needs be we will have to remind her that we live our own lives now Jul 05 15:04:13 * Molly nods, looking at Emil "we will tell Grandma that, won't we, Lammchen? But will she listen, hmm?" Jul 05 15:04:39 *Emil grins* Mmmmmm Jul 05 15:05:15 * Molly smiles, looking at Morgan "he is skeptical too" Jul 05 15:05:39 Is he Jul 05 15:48:11 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 05 16:03:23 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 05 16:04:58 * MollyK smiles warmly at the baby "You're not sure, are you, my darling... you think Grandma will want to spend all her time at our home too, don't you?" Jul 05 16:05:36 E: *he grabs her hair, squealing excitedly* Jul 05 16:09:28 * Morgan smiles, watching them Jul 05 16:11:41 * MollyK covers his face in kisses Jul 05 16:11:54 Oh Lammchen, I could just eat you all up! Jul 05 16:12:50 That could lead to some awkward conversations... Jul 05 16:18:39 * MollyK giggles, which makes Emil chuckle Jul 05 16:19:11 Molly, why are you the size of a house?! Jul 05 16:22:18 * Morgan nods, finishing his coffee Jul 05 16:23:12 *Emil tries to latch on her nose* Jul 05 16:23:52 Has it been more than six and a half seconds since he fed last? Jul 05 16:27:23 * MollyK laughs Jul 05 16:27:38 It must be at least twenty five minutes Jul 05 16:27:50 That'll explain that then Jul 05 16:30:10 * MollyK nods, sitting down Jul 05 16:30:29 He certainly has no embarrassment about making his wants known! Jul 05 16:32:20 No, he doesn't Jul 05 16:34:19 * MollyK undoes her dress Jul 05 16:34:58 You needn't stay if you are busy, liebling, there's not much you can do to help with this bit Jul 05 16:35:42 * Morgan nods Jul 05 16:35:49 I might get some more done to the crib Jul 05 16:36:18 Alright, my love Jul 05 16:36:41 * Morgan kisses her cheek before heading for the hold Jul 05 16:42:48 *he gets peace to get on with it. Like last night, Florrie goes in the bed with the boys, and Molly then takes her to Alice. Dinner is cheerful, HH is entertaining. Molly helps Morgan undress before undressing herself and getting in to bed* Jul 05 16:43:06 Edward's note said he could be there at eleven Jul 05 16:43:13 * Morgan nods Jul 05 16:43:21 Alright, that should be doable Jul 05 16:53:38 * MollyK nods Jul 05 16:56:48 How are you tonight? Jul 05 16:57:28 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 16:57:40 I'm alright. Not particularly looking forward to sleeping... Jul 05 16:57:59 * MollyK nods Jul 05 16:58:29 I know. I hope you dream something simple Jul 05 16:59:26 * Morgan nods Jul 05 16:59:27 Me too Jul 05 17:00:13 Perhaps about the secret garden? Jul 05 17:00:26 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 17:00:32 We'll see won't we Jul 05 17:00:50 * MollyK nods Jul 05 17:01:20 I'll take anything that doesn't involve you getting hurt Jul 05 17:02:04 * Morgan nods Jul 05 17:02:06 It'd be nice Jul 05 17:10:32 * MollyK kisses him gently Jul 05 17:10:42 Are you ready to try to sleep? Jul 05 17:10:56 * Morgan nods, sighing Jul 05 17:13:18 Wake me, please. Jul 05 17:14:25 * Morgan nods Jul 05 17:14:26 alright Jul 05 17:19:32 * MollyK kisses his forehead Jul 05 17:19:39 I'll sing to you Jul 05 17:21:43 * Morgan nods Jul 05 17:21:44 Thank you Jul 05 17:25:44 * MollyK sings Kosk Yn Ta, but he just catches her say "Please, if you're listening, please let him dream something easy" as he falls asleep Jul 05 17:32:52 *What he dreams is that he's in the woods at Hafenlohr, near the boundary of his land, and he is hunting a beautiful big stag. It's brown with hints of red, and the leaves are yellow and orange on the trees. It's cool but not cold. The stag keeps eluding him, always just a move ahead, skilled. But it's hard to be frustrated with it, because every Jul 05 17:32:52 time he catches a glimpse he sees how strong and handsome it is. Eventually he seems to have it in his sights, but then Molly is beside him in the woods, her hand on his back, and she smells so good, and soon the stag is forgotten as they sink together onto the ground of fallen leaves, the kisses warm where the day is not. Then the dawn watch wakes Jul 05 17:32:52 him* Jul 05 17:33:48 * Morgan rolls out of bed, pulling on his clothes Jul 05 17:34:12 * MollyK murmurs "it's alright... shhh..." Jul 05 17:34:38 * Morgan stretches before smoothing her hair Jul 05 17:35:35 * MollyK sighs happily Jul 05 17:39:23 * Morgan gets the rest of his things on before heading out to get coffee and up on deck Jul 05 17:40:43 * MollyK is now known as Claudia Jul 05 17:40:47 * Claudia has watch Jul 05 17:41:50 cap'n Jul 05 17:44:00 Hey, bad night? Jul 05 17:45:41 * Morgan sips his coffee Jul 05 17:45:45 Surprisingly, no Jul 05 17:47:07 * Claudia looks surprised Jul 05 17:47:27 Yeah, that is surprising Jul 05 17:47:56 * Morgan nods Jul 05 17:48:07 After last night, I figured I'd be in for another awful one... Jul 05 17:50:22 * Claudia nods Jul 05 17:50:30 Usually how it goes Jul 05 17:50:54 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Jul 05 17:51:56 I don't know how to explain it. I'm just grateful Jul 05 17:52:45 For me having an easier night? Jul 05 17:52:51 Yes Jul 05 17:53:55 Sometimes I underestimate you Jul 05 17:54:09 Why? Jul 05 17:55:27 Because I forget how very gentle you can be Jul 05 17:56:38 * Claudia grimaces Jul 05 17:56:44 Yuck. Jul 05 17:56:56 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 17:57:00 Just take it will you Jul 05 17:57:44 I'm not gentle, I don't care about most people Jul 05 17:58:24 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 17:58:31 Speaking of which... I wanted to ask you something Jul 05 17:59:49 What? Jul 05 18:00:45 If this thing with DeeDee could be taken away... would you want it to be? Jul 05 18:03:24 Yep Jul 05 18:05:08 No hesitation at all? Jul 05 18:06:29 No. I don't want it, I never did Jul 05 18:07:14 * Morgan nods Jul 05 18:07:18 And Uinise? Jul 05 18:08:29 * Claudia smiles, shrugging Jul 05 18:08:38 I don't know Jul 05 18:09:02 Its obvious you both care for eachother, more than you do anyone else Jul 05 18:13:05 She's funny... she's beautiful Jul 05 18:14:02 * Morgan nods Jul 05 18:14:15 I'm going to ask the Nieblungen if they can deal with it Jul 05 18:16:14 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:16:38 Doesn't seem very likely, but it's worth a try. Jul 05 18:17:50 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 18:18:15 I had almost hoped you would be able to deal with your attraction to DeeDee... Jul 05 18:20:24 I -am- dealing with it, I haven't done anything to encourage him, or tried to contact him Jul 05 18:22:29 No, I mean... come to terms with it, accept it... but it isn't going to happen I think Jul 05 18:23:40 * Claudia sighs Jul 05 18:24:00 I've tried. Jul 05 18:24:06 * Morgan nods Jul 05 18:24:11 I know. Jul 05 18:25:09 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:25:26 He still going to the baptism? Jul 05 18:25:36 * Morgan nods Jul 05 18:25:39 As far as I know Jul 05 18:26:24 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:26:41 Sorgi thinks he seemed like a good man Jul 05 18:27:32 I'm inclined to agree. Its... helpful, to know someone who struggles in the same way as I do, right down to not being able to see it isn't his fault. Jul 05 18:28:03 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:28:21 Yeah Jul 05 18:30:26 * Morgan takes a mouthful of coffee Jul 05 18:31:34 See what they say I suppose Jul 05 18:32:00 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:32:30 Probably that it's some destiny horseshit Jul 05 18:33:01 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 18:33:06 maybe. Wouldn't surprise me Jul 05 18:38:03 Not going to happen, sorry Jul 05 18:38:28 No point apologising to me. I just want you to be happy Jul 05 18:43:17 I know Jul 05 18:45:55 I'm thinking I'll take Uinise with me when we go to Innesbruck and Sudlachenberg... let her meet the Graf... Jul 05 18:54:37 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:54:58 What do you want me doing then? Jul 05 18:55:27 I figured you'd come with us... I'll have things to do and you are her security detail... Jul 05 18:56:45 * Claudia nods Jul 05 18:56:49 Okay Jul 05 19:02:30 * Claudia has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 05 19:26:30 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 05 19:26:56 You think I'm weak for not beating it myself? Jul 05 19:32:03 Do you really need an answer to that? Jul 05 19:34:39 No. Guess if you couldn't do it with Molly... Jul 05 19:36:15 There's nothing to be ashamed of in needing help with things Jul 05 19:37:25 * MollyK is now known as Claudia Jul 05 19:37:41 When you're self-reliant like me there is Jul 05 19:38:21 I disagree Jul 05 19:39:38 If you needed a new sword and couldn't make it yourself, would you berate yourself for asking, say, HeinzHarold to help? Jul 05 19:42:12 That's different, it's not a mental thing Jul 05 19:42:57 It isn't different. Should Dekker be ashamed for accepting my help? Jul 05 19:44:42 * Claudia looks to be struggling for an argument in response, then she says "shut up." Jul 05 19:45:18 * Morgan turns to look at her Jul 05 19:45:25 I'm sorry... but answer me Jul 05 19:51:42 Fine... it's not something to be ashamed of Jul 05 19:53:06 * Morgan nods Jul 05 19:53:17 Should the Nieblungen be ashamed for needing my he... actually don't answer that Jul 05 19:53:24 * Morgan smiles slightly Jul 05 19:57:16 * Claudia looks at him Jul 05 19:57:40 They should be ashamed of everything they didn't prevent Jul 05 19:58:04 * Morgan nods Jul 05 19:58:12 I rather think Theus should be Jul 05 19:58:28 * Claudia nods Jul 05 19:58:45 Do you think he can feel shame? Jul 05 19:59:24 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 19:59:27 I've no idea Jul 05 20:03:48 * Claudia nods Jul 05 20:04:37 Think Uinise is on to something, believing in a God people have actually met? Jul 05 20:04:59 You believe her then? Jul 05 20:08:21 Not sure. There's a lot of evidence of people's dreams of her and how they helped people Jul 05 20:09:11 * Morgan nods, looking toward the horizon Jul 05 20:09:14 Appealing, isn't it Jul 05 20:15:51 * Claudia nods "guess so" Jul 05 20:16:44 course... if they're right... does that mean we're wrong? Or there's more than one god? Jul 05 20:18:06 * Claudia shrugs Jul 05 20:18:28 Wherever Theus is, he doesn't seem to be paying us much attention Jul 05 20:19:07 That varies... I've had occasions where I've felt... something... Jul 05 20:22:02 It's Theus? Jul 05 20:22:28 I don't know... maybe? Jul 05 20:23:56 * Claudia shrugs Jul 05 20:24:22 Could be, I guess. I've never felt his presence, even when I begged for it Jul 05 20:31:00 Presence for his people is not something he's known for Jul 05 20:32:58 * Claudia nods Jul 05 20:33:15 I've tried explaining it to Uinise, but she doesn't get it Jul 05 20:33:50 They are completely secure in their beliefs Jul 05 20:44:46 * Claudia nods Jul 05 20:45:19 She finds our War fascinating Jul 05 20:45:44 Because we fought over how we're supposed to worship? Jul 05 20:46:40 Yeah, over things that make little sense when you don't have priests or churches Jul 05 20:47:39 * Morgan nods Jul 05 20:49:38 * Claudia smiles Jul 05 20:49:54 The men in dresses is the same though Jul 05 20:50:42 I dunno... they seem less self serving in Capperlucia than -our- men in dresses Jul 05 20:50:56 * Claudia nods Jul 05 20:51:17 People there just work together Jul 05 20:52:41 * Morgan nods Jul 05 20:52:44 Its unnatural Jul 05 20:52:58 Is it though? Jul 05 20:55:26 No, I'm just being facetious Jul 05 20:55:42 * Claudia nods Jul 05 20:55:52 There's no denying it work Jul 05 20:55:58 Works* Jul 05 20:56:02 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 05 20:59:13 Apart from them marrying foreigners... Jul 05 21:00:45 Yeah... strict ain't the word... Jul 05 21:00:56 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:02:13 Her Grandparents were treated badly Jul 05 21:03:23 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:03:41 Yes... I think... in that regard the rules are... barbaric. Jul 05 21:05:30 I know it's to protect the children, but you could do that with making the incomer give up their former citizenship and settle for a few years first Jul 05 21:06:27 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:06:36 Its cruel, I think Jul 05 21:06:57 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:07:33 I can understand them not wanting boat loads of people from Theah Main arriving and destabilising things though Jul 05 21:08:39 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:08:56 It is quite peaceful there... Jul 05 21:09:37 If you didn't have all the duty, would you go? Jul 05 21:12:54 I don't -think- so. There is still an imbalance in society there, and I don't think I could tolerate it long term Jul 05 21:16:42 You'd get bored being home looking after the children all day Jul 05 21:17:02 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:17:14 Always the challenge of climbing a rock face that changes... Jul 05 21:21:46 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:22:21 It doesn't rain all the time, you can swim Jul 05 21:32:20 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:32:21 True Jul 05 21:34:06 There is an attraction regardless... I sleep peacefully, for the most part Jul 05 21:34:57 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:35:12 It seemed good for you Jul 05 21:35:20 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:35:27 I was decidedly less... tense. Jul 05 21:37:01 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:37:32 Do you need more of the tobacco? I still have some Jul 05 21:37:49 I'm alright for the minute Jul 05 21:40:07 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:40:33 The offer is there, and for talking in the night. You know the drill, nice and loud Jul 05 21:40:49 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:40:53 I haven't forgotten Jul 05 21:41:42 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:41:58 I'm usually there, but if not, try Sorgi's room Jul 05 21:42:22 * Morgan smiles Jul 05 21:42:33 Sorry to disturb you captain, I need Claudia to tell me I'm not crazy Jul 05 21:43:34 It's Sorgi. He'd say "Anything I can help you with, m'lord?" Jul 05 21:45:16 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:49:09 Molly wondered if Uinise would like to sit in with us this morning, see how we observe our faith... Jul 05 21:49:37 * Claudia nods "most likely. I'm on until eight, so I'll be sleeping after that" Jul 05 21:50:27 I'll find her once we reach a more acceptable hour Jul 05 21:52:41 * Claudia nods Jul 05 21:53:07 She's an academic, so she isn't an early riser usually Jul 05 21:55:53 * Morgan nods Jul 05 21:56:11 I gave up lie ins when I was about eight Jul 05 21:57:51 * Claudia nods "I suspect if she ever settles down with someone they will have to be part of lie ins" Jul 05 21:58:12 * Morgan nods Jul 05 22:03:45 * Claudia nods "she hasn't so far though" Jul 05 22:07:59 Tried her luck? Jul 05 22:13:54 With me? Jul 05 22:14:32 Is that not what we're talking about? Jul 05 22:14:54 I was talking about her future back in Capperlucia Jul 05 22:15:34 Oh... yes, I suppose so... what about you? Would you be part of that future? Jul 05 22:19:19 I just don't know. It might be something that fizzled out even if we tried Jul 05 22:22:06 Maybe. I don't know, it seems there's.... -more- with her for you Jul 05 22:23:13 I care about her. I enjoy her company a lot Jul 05 22:23:40 * Morgan nods Jul 05 22:24:52 She's interesting and articulate. It's funny how she has so many questions about things Jul 05 22:26:20 You care about Gisella? The same way, I mean... Jul 05 22:27:18 No. I don't think about her really Jul 05 22:27:49 Maybe then... it isn't all that complicated after all Jul 05 22:28:51 * Claudia laughs Jul 05 22:29:19 You're telling me romantic entanglements aren't complicated?! Jul 05 22:31:30 Just... not as complicated as you think... You're attracted to DeeDee but have no interest in pursuing it, so... its a part of you you need to accept but there's nothing to -do- about it, so just... let it be. You clearly care for Uinise, and she you so... Jul 05 22:32:10 But you and I know I'm not in the right place for a relationship Jul 05 22:32:38 Nor was I, Claudia. Jul 05 22:34:25 Uinise doesn't have that same self-sacrificing patience Molly does. I couldn't ask her to wade through all the shit of me Jul 05 22:35:30 Why don't you ask her? Open up to her a bit Jul 05 22:39:06 Because she doesn't need the burden. She's here to experience Theah Main. She deserves better than me dumping all my baggage in her lap Jul 05 22:39:48 * Morgan sighs Jul 05 22:39:51 Its up to you of course Jul 05 22:39:57 * Claudia nods Jul 05 22:40:19 I know, and you just want to see me happy and not being hard on myself. I get it Jul 05 22:40:42 * Morgan nods Jul 05 22:41:08 I think at some point you have to let yourself. Its not easy. Jul 05 22:44:58 My focus is just on sorting myself out. Complicated Claudia takes some getting to know Jul 05 22:46:22 * Morgan nods Jul 05 22:46:32 She does. And I'm very proud of her and to know her Jul 05 22:46:48 * Claudia smiles slightly Jul 05 22:46:58 I preferred Simple Claudia Jul 05 22:48:59 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 22:49:12 We cannot move backwards Jul 05 22:50:52 No. You're moving forwards all the time Jul 05 22:51:39 You've got to come with me Jul 05 22:53:26 I know. But I don't have to like it Jul 05 22:54:06 No, I suppose not Jul 05 22:54:47 Maybe one day I'll be glad of it, but right now it's just hard Jul 05 22:55:46 * Morgan nods Jul 05 22:55:50 Its really difficult Jul 05 22:58:48 You've done well though, from what the rest of us see. You and Molly seem very solid now Jul 05 22:59:28 * Morgan nods Jul 05 22:59:31 I think so, yes Jul 05 23:00:47 Heinzharold says you don't have so much dancing around each other now Jul 05 23:03:01 * Morgan nods Jul 05 23:03:29 Inga said it'd be like there was a great big hole between us where we were trying so hard not to upset the other Jul 05 23:03:54 Was the hole called "your past"? Jul 05 23:04:19 * Morgan looks hurt Jul 05 23:04:23 I know. Jul 05 23:06:06 Sorry. Jul 05 23:07:07 * Morgan nods a little Jul 05 23:07:22 I know I'm the cause of the issues we had Jul 05 23:08:56 * Claudia shakes her head "I don't think it was just you. Molly wasn't making it any better from what I've heard" Jul 05 23:10:49 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 23:10:52 She had her moments Jul 05 23:12:08 You can't blame it all on yourself Jul 05 23:12:21 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 23:14:30 Doesn't matter anyhow Jul 05 23:15:12 Seems like you've overcome it Jul 05 23:15:32 * Morgan shrugs Jul 05 23:15:39 We've worked at it, thats all Jul 05 23:16:58 I don't want anyone to have to struggle and work at something for me Jul 05 23:18:03 You've got to have support, love. I know you don't like the idea, but its the reality of it Jul 05 23:19:56 * Claudia shrugs Jul 05 23:20:02 I have you and Heinzharold Jul 05 23:20:44 * Morgan nods Jul 05 23:20:45 Alright Jul 05 23:21:51 There's weeks yet before I have to do anything about Uinise anyway Jul 05 23:22:23 Or you could spend that time actually letting her in, rather than dancing around and then lamenting the time you missed Jul 05 23:25:05 You wish you'd done that with Molly? Jul 05 23:25:38 With a few people Jul 05 23:27:30 * Claudia nods Jul 05 23:27:43 It's not easy Jul 05 23:28:12 No, it isn't. Jul 05 23:31:29 * Claudia looks around Jul 05 23:32:04 Looks light enough to get the crew up. Best get to work, she won't sail herself Jul 05 23:32:15 * Morgan smiles slightly Jul 05 23:32:19 Not this close to land anyway Jul 05 23:37:45 * Claudia nods, ringing the bell to assemble the crew Jul 05 23:37:59 Too much land around here though Jul 05 23:38:21 * Morgan nods Jul 05 23:39:05 I'll leave you to it Jul 05 23:41:04 * Claudia nods Jul 05 23:41:20 See you later Jul 05 23:41:37 * Morgan nods before going below Jul 05 23:43:32 *several sailors pass him ready to get the ship moving* Jul 05 23:45:27 * Morgan greets each of them before getting more coffee and heading to his cabin Jul 05 23:47:51 * Claudia is now known as Molly Jul 05 23:48:51 * Molly is still in bed, in the middle and all spread out, just a sheet barely covering her and red hair messy, sleeping Jul 05 23:49:25 * Morgan smiles, going to check on the boys before settling at his desk, working on some of the unfinished sketches Jul 05 23:51:32 *he has several to choose from, but the one of Jana as a pregnant grown up when he first saw her with Molly and Seb's son rubbing her feet and discussing names isn't complete yet Jul 05 23:51:58 * Morgan chooses that one, working as meticulously as he can Jul 05 23:52:52 * Molly appears a little later in just her dressing gown, the ship moving by then Jul 05 23:52:55 My love? Jul 05 23:53:24 Morning blossom Jul 05 23:55:39 * Molly smiles Jul 05 23:55:57 What are you drawing? Is it something illicit and wonderful? Jul 05 23:56:08 No love... its... Jana Jul 05 23:57:51 Oh, alright, would you like me to let you go on? Jul 05 23:58:35 Would you like to see? Jul 05 23:59:14 * Molly nods, smiling Jul 05 23:59:17 Yes, please Jul 05 23:59:58 * Morgan moves to the couch, taking the sketchbook with him