**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon Jul 3 00:05:13 2023 Jul 03 00:05:13 * HH has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 03 09:03:52 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jul 03 09:11:45 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 03 09:15:04 no Jul 03 09:15:04 Reck'n she'll be done by lunch? Jul 03 09:15:04 * Morgan shrugs Jul 03 09:15:04 I've absolutely no idea Jul 03 09:15:04 Gon' be tired? Jul 03 09:15:06 Yeah I expect so Jul 03 09:15:08 Better'an in Capperlucia though Jul 03 09:15:10 Why's that? Jul 03 09:15:12 They were tired all th' time then Jul 03 09:15:14 Yeah, thats very true Jul 03 09:19:10 Now they get t' just be pretty an' dote on us, none of that politics nonsense Jul 03 09:19:15 * MollyK is now known as HH Jul 03 09:19:37 Until we get home Jul 03 09:23:32 Gon' be busy dealing with family politics instead? An' I'm gonna be busy persuading my Ma that she don' need to come live with us Jul 03 09:25:20 I dunno... I -think- things are fairly settled... but we need to start establishing ourselves in political circles if we're to make a success of Gottkirchen Jul 03 09:29:01 Gotta lotta schmoozing to do at the baptisms an' Heidi's weddin'? Jul 03 09:30:55 * Morgan nods Jul 03 09:31:01 Definitely. I'm not looking forward to it Jul 03 09:32:46 * HH nods Jul 03 09:33:07 Not yer sorta thing. Reck'n you can rope Edward in to help? Jul 03 09:34:40 I hope so, and my father. I can see that us working together will be quite... imposing. Jul 03 09:36:29 * HH nods Jul 03 09:36:34 United front Jul 03 09:36:38 * Morgan nods Jul 03 09:36:48 And we'll control quite a swathe of Eisen Jul 03 09:37:03 * HH nods Jul 03 09:37:17 A helluva lot of the Konigsreich Jul 03 09:37:38 * Morgan nods Jul 03 09:37:39 quite Jul 03 09:40:36 Lotsa responsibility Jul 03 09:40:57 * Morgan nods Jul 03 09:40:59 Yeah, it is Jul 03 09:44:43 But you got me, an' yer family. You'll be alright. He'll, y' might e'en be great Jul 03 09:46:02 unlikely Jul 03 09:48:30 Universe thought you were worth makin', man Jul 03 09:49:28 Thought I was... useful. Jul 03 09:50:22 If I make a hammer a specific shape f' a specific job, ain't that worth makin'? Jul 03 09:52:10 There's an apt description of me... an instrument of blunt force with no finesse Jul 03 09:53:39 * HH chuckles Jul 03 09:53:48 Yeah, that what she said Jul 03 09:53:59 * Morgan nods Jul 03 10:01:46 *Florrie looks at Morgan's sanding* How do? Jul 03 10:02:08 You want to sand something? Jul 03 10:03:09 F: where sand? *she looks around on the floor* Jul 03 10:03:20 * HH chuckles Jul 03 10:03:39 * Morgan smiles Jul 03 10:03:47 No sweetheart, doing this, its called sanding it Jul 03 10:11:16 *she looks at the paper* there sand! Stuck! Jul 03 10:12:29 * Morgan nods Jul 03 10:12:31 Thats right Jul 03 10:13:57 F: how do? Jul 03 10:14:14 * Morgan holds out a piece of wood, showing her how to sand it Jul 03 10:14:17 See, makes it smooth Jul 03 10:21:08 *Florrie uses the sandpaper to try and copy him, though it's obviously difficult for her* Jul 03 10:21:37 * Morgan patiently helps her with it Jul 03 10:25:01 *Florrie moves to sit in his lap to make it easier. For a girl who he was told didn't really do much physical contact, this happens without any hesitation* Jul 03 10:25:48 Thats easier, huh Jul 03 10:31:55 *Florrie nods. HH watches them, forgetting his own work* Jul 03 10:32:28 * Morgan glances at him Jul 03 10:32:32 $Difficult isn't it$ Jul 03 10:34:54 $yeah$ Jul 03 10:35:47 * Morgan nods slightly Jul 03 10:36:01 Are you looking forward to meeting your Vati? Jul 03 10:37:24 F: *she nods* No mirror, no see Jul 03 10:37:34 * Morgan nods Jul 03 10:37:46 Would you like me to arrange a time so you can see him before we get there? Jul 03 10:41:18 F: nods see Vati Jul 03 10:42:03 Alright, I'll sort it out sweetheart Jul 03 10:45:45 *Florrie seems very focused on the sanding, and keeps going. HH gets back to work too. About twenty minutes later he hears [All done, my love] Jul 03 10:46:36 [how did it go?] Jul 03 10:49:14 [well. How much detail do you wish?] Jul 03 10:49:43 [as much as you wish to give. It will help you settle from it] Jul 03 10:57:31 [I think I have managed to get her to where she was originally, with a little more sensitivity and with a slight restoration of her maidenhead so that they get to experience that together on their wedding night] Jul 03 11:00:55 [thats fantastic my love. How does Elsie feel about it?] Jul 03 11:02:29 [she's very pleased and grateful, despite me telling her it is really no problem at all and I am glad to help] Jul 03 11:03:00 [how is she going to tell James?] Jul 03 11:05:34 [that she is healed?] Jul 03 11:06:36 [and that they can.... You know] Jul 03 11:08:35 [he knew that was the aim, so I assume she'll tell him it was successful] Jul 03 11:08:59 [I see... and hope he doesn't twig its magic] Jul 03 11:12:28 [indeed, but if he does I will just rely on Sorgi's idea that it is my gift from Theus] Jul 03 11:13:10 [alright. Well done my love] Jul 03 11:14:01 [thank you. It has been healing for me] Jul 03 11:14:38 [Yes, I would imagine it has] Jul 03 11:14:45 * Morgan looks at HeinzHarold Jul 03 11:14:49 They're done Jul 03 11:20:13 Yeah? Everyone okay? Jul 03 11:20:28 * Morgan nods Jul 03 11:20:34 Went very well apparently Jul 03 11:22:41 * HH smiles Jul 03 11:22:54 Tha's great, y' need to go see her? Jul 03 11:24:03 Might be an idea Jul 03 11:25:12 Think we can manage down 'ere Jul 03 11:25:26 You gonn' stay with HeinzHarold sweetheart? Jul 03 11:29:49 *Florrie gets up, keeping her sanding* stay Uld. Jul 03 11:30:08 * Morgan nods, kissing her crown Jul 03 11:30:20 Alright... I'll see you in a little while Jul 03 11:32:22 *She nods, sitting down where he'd been sat* Jul 03 11:33:00 * Morgan leaves, heading off to find Molly Jul 03 11:34:14 * HH is now known as Molly Jul 03 11:34:42 *he finds her laying on the window seat with Emil sleeping on her* Jul 03 11:35:09 * Morgan approaches them quietly Jul 03 11:38:17 * Molly is snoozing too Jul 03 11:38:42 * Morgan quietly sits down, gathering the things to sketch them Jul 03 11:39:44 *his sketch book has several sketches he hasn't managed to finish, including ones of Jana and her brother from dreams, and many of Molly partly undressed or in erotic moments* Jul 03 11:40:11 * Morgan sighs, setting about finishing the ones of Jana and her brother Jul 03 11:44:19 *As often happens, he gets engrossed in it. The children are at different ages in different sketches, but he is able to recall them animated and alive in his dreams, little Hans and his paper boat called Dan Don Barkle where he couldn't copy Morgan's Abandoned Barnacle, Jana's bread rolls for the Schattenmann, her statement last night about always Jul 03 11:44:19 needing him in her life* Jul 03 11:47:38 * Morgan sighs, wiping at his face Jul 03 11:49:38 *neither Molly nor Emil wake, so he gets chance to finish off four of the nearly completed sketches before his stomach rumbles* Jul 03 11:50:31 * Morgan packs the the sketchpad away before getting up and going to arrange lunch for everyone Jul 03 11:53:28 *The galley is busy but cheerful, Cook giving orders to the junior sailors, and Morgan is easily able to make arrangements for his expanded party. On the way out he bumps into Elsie* Jul 03 11:53:34 * Molly is now known as Elsie Jul 03 11:53:45 Well now... how are you feeling? Jul 03 11:53:50 * Elsie smiles Jul 03 11:53:58 Really well, thank you Jul 03 11:54:19 * Morgan smiles Jul 03 11:54:29 Good... I am thrilled for you Jul 03 11:57:04 * Elsie nods Jul 03 11:57:25 It will make so much difference to our lives, it's like a fresh start Jul 03 11:58:08 * Morgan nods Jul 03 11:58:15 That was very much the intention I think Jul 03 11:58:53 * Elsie nods "James is pleased too" Jul 03 11:59:30 I would imagine so... he doesn't know -how-? Jul 03 11:59:50 No, he didn't want the details Jul 03 12:00:21 * Morgan nods Jul 03 12:00:26 Probably easier for him Jul 03 12:02:59 * Elsie nods Jul 03 12:03:18 I'm so grateful to you, both of you Jul 03 12:04:10 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 03 12:04:15 We're just putting things right Jul 03 12:06:46 * Elsie hugs him Jul 03 12:07:02 Most would have just seen me as worthless Jul 03 12:07:16 * Morgan squeezes her gently Jul 03 12:07:28 Most would have been wrong Jul 03 12:08:11 It's okay, you won't hurt me Jul 03 12:08:37 * Morgan chuckles quietly, hugging her firmly Jul 03 12:13:24 Will you come to the wedding if you can? I know it's two nights away from your home, but I'd love to have you give me away Jul 03 12:14:18 * Morgan looks surprised Jul 03 12:14:27 Oh... ummm... are you sure? Jul 03 12:16:37 * Elsie nods Jul 03 12:17:04 I am. I'd ask you to be Thomas' godfather, but that has to be someone Vaticine Jul 03 12:22:18 * Morgan nods Jul 03 12:22:29 Of course. Have you had any thoughts on that? Jul 03 12:23:14 No, James' mother will be his godmother, but we will have to find two men Jul 03 12:25:41 * Morgan nods Jul 03 12:25:47 I can't say I know many... Jul 03 12:27:52 We'll find someone Jul 03 12:30:26 * Morgan nods Jul 03 12:30:39 I'm sure... James must have friends from his company... Jul 03 12:31:21 I don't think so, he was a bit too shy for them Jul 03 12:32:05 * Morgan nods Jul 03 12:32:09 I can imagine Jul 03 12:37:52 Don't worry, Molly says there is a good congregation in... Koln? Jul 03 12:46:23 * Elsie has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 03 12:57:13 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 03 12:57:27 * MollyK is now known as Elsie Jul 03 12:59:18 There is, yes... Jul 03 13:00:17 It should be easy to make new friends Jul 03 13:01:14 Should be fairly easy in Gottkirchen too... its currently a Vaticine Grafdom Jul 03 13:06:31 Do you know anyone? *the only people that come to mind are Faulk, Isiah, Sorgi And Karlsruhe* Jul 03 13:07:33 The Eisenfurst and his son... Sorgi... and Karlsruhe, he'll be my overseer... Jul 03 13:08:13 They're a bit fancy for me, and won't Sorgi be busy? Jul 03 13:08:54 He'll be sailing, its his calling... I'll introduce you to Karlsruhe... I have an immense amount of respect for that man Jul 03 13:10:10 Is he nice? Jul 03 13:11:19 I think so... he's a -good- man Jul 03 13:14:02 * Elsie nods Jul 03 13:14:17 I'd like to meet him then. Does he like children? Jul 03 13:16:19 I don't know actually Jul 03 13:16:53 Does he have any? Jul 03 13:19:16 * Morgan nods Jul 03 13:19:28 He and I share that... Jul 03 13:19:39 He lost one? Jul 03 13:20:08 Four... murdered when his home was annexed Jul 03 13:20:34 Poor man Jul 03 13:20:42 * Morgan nods Jul 03 13:23:11 Aye. Jul 03 13:29:00 Is he married? Jul 03 13:29:16 * Morgan shakes his head, moving her to a quiet room Jul 03 13:29:52 The actions of troops in the war were... reprehensible... his wife threw herself to her death rather than live with what had happened to her Jul 03 13:30:05 Karlsruhe got home just in time to see it Jul 03 13:30:39 That's very sad. Was it long ago? Jul 03 13:31:06 *just after end of the war so six years* Jul 03 13:31:25 About six years now Jul 03 13:33:00 * Elsie nods Jul 03 13:33:33 It's good he has a purpose working for you Jul 03 13:34:28 It was touch and go for a while... but I'm glad he's agreed to work with me Jul 03 13:35:49 He lives on your estate now? Jul 03 13:38:13 We're still working the details out Jul 03 13:38:49 * Elsie nods Jul 03 13:39:05 Might I might him when we get there then? Jul 03 13:39:16 * Morgan nods Jul 03 13:39:23 I expect so, yes. Jul 03 13:43:52 How long will we stay before we go on to Innesbruck? Jul 03 13:45:11 There's a couple of things I need to do there... HeinzHarold wants me to lay the first foundation stone for their house, and I need to speak with all the staff Jul 03 13:48:01 A couple of days then? Jul 03 13:48:19 * Morgan nods Jul 03 13:48:22 I expect so Jul 03 13:49:59 * Elsie nods Jul 03 13:50:53 Then we'll be able to live with Theresa while we wait for the wedding Jul 03 13:51:31 * Morgan nods Jul 03 13:51:47 If you like... it may take us a while to get your cottage sited and built Jul 03 13:54:53 * Elsie nods "we don't mind, we don't want to be a nuisance, and thanks to the money I get for Thomas we will be fine. I want to pay for our cottage though" Jul 03 13:55:19 We can talk about that Jul 03 13:56:13 * Elsie nods Jul 03 13:56:29 I should get back for Thomas Jul 03 13:56:57 * Morgan nods Jul 03 13:56:59 Of course Jul 03 13:59:03 * Elsie goes to do this Jul 03 14:00:00 * Morgan heads back to fetch the lunch, carrying it back to his cabin Jul 03 14:01:14 * Elsie is now known as Molly Jul 03 14:02:05 * Molly is awake, and Emil is still laid on her babbling "eee-bah! Bah. Ooo" Jul 03 14:02:56 * Morgan places the trays on the desk Jul 03 14:02:59 I agree Jul 03 14:03:50 * Molly smiles Jul 03 14:04:06 I'm not sure what he is saying, but he's certainly convicted! Jul 03 14:04:21 E- Vah-eee! Jul 03 14:04:40 Hello little man Jul 03 14:06:58 E: *he pushes up a little on to his knees, making Molly wince* Vah-eee bah! Jul 03 14:07:38 Bah? Jul 03 14:07:44 * Morgan moves to them, picking him up Jul 03 14:08:19 * Molly sits up Jul 03 14:08:28 I think he wants you to sing Jul 03 14:08:45 Do you, young mister? You want me to sing? Jul 03 14:09:08 *Emil cuddles up* Jul 03 14:10:53 Or are you just wanting to cuddle, hmm? Jul 03 14:11:29 E: bah bah Jul 03 14:11:37 That one? Really? Jul 03 14:11:52 * Molly smiles, watching them as she gets up and stretches Jul 03 14:12:03 He loves that one, don't you, Lammchen? Jul 03 14:12:20 *he looks at her when he hears his nickname* Jul 03 14:14:48 * Morgan blows raspberries on the boys neck Jul 03 14:17:02 *Emil squeals with laughter. Molly watches them, smiling* Jul 03 14:17:48 Got you, didn't I? Jul 03 14:18:41 * Molly grabs his braids, putting his mouth on Morgan's cheek but not getting how to either blow raspberries or kiss Jul 03 14:18:51 Emil* Jul 03 14:19:00 * Morgan laughs Jul 03 14:19:02 Oh, nearly Jul 03 14:21:00 * Molly smiles "you are so attractive to me when you are being light-hearted with the children..." Jul 03 14:21:11 Oh? Jul 03 14:21:38 It's wonderful. It's such a sign of your progress Jul 03 14:21:52 *Emil drools all over him* Jul 03 14:23:38 I suppose it is.... Would you hand me a handkerchief... Jul 03 14:26:30 * Molly pulls her favourite one from her neckline Jul 03 14:26:43 Someone's rather dribbled on me Jul 03 14:27:07 * Molly hands it to him Jul 03 14:27:16 He does that to me all the time Jul 03 14:28:13 * Morgan nods, drying himself Jul 03 14:29:31 At least yours hasn't ended up in your navel Jul 03 14:30:01 No... thankfully Jul 03 14:36:44 * Molly nods Jul 03 14:36:50 E: bah bah Jul 03 14:37:01 * Molly pours some coffee Jul 03 14:40:23 * Morgan sighs, singing baa baa black sheep Jul 03 14:41:32 * Molly smiles. There's a knock on the door Jul 03 14:41:54 * Morgan calls for them to come in Jul 03 14:44:29 *All the others come in, bringing noise and more food, filling up the available seats. The only one missing is Alice. Florrie goes to the bookshelf and gets down one of Molly's books on herbs* Jul 03 14:45:37 Come on lad, lets get you something to eat... Florrie, coming to eat? Jul 03 14:48:35 *She takes the book to sit on the couch by the window* see plants Jul 03 14:48:48 * Morgan nods Jul 03 14:48:54 Want a sandwich while you look? Jul 03 14:49:11 *Florrie nods* okay Jul 03 14:49:51 * Morgan nods, picking up a sandwich and taking it to her Jul 03 14:49:55 We're just over here ok? Jul 03 14:50:34 F: okay ballhead Jul 03 14:50:53 * Morgan sits at the desk, picking up bits of food to feed Emil Jul 03 14:51:24 U; why are you called Ballhead? To our people this would mean you have testicles on your head Jul 03 14:51:58 * Molly smiles, sipping her coffee, and HH helps as Inga kicks him under the table, wiping his smirk off* Jul 03 14:53:33 Molly has on occasion a nickname for me in Montaigne... its little cabbage. Florrie made the connection with a certain breed of cabbage, and thats what she calls me Jul 03 14:54:38 U: *she nods, looking at Molly* why do you call him a cabbage? Jul 03 14:54:56 HH grins, looking at Morgan Jul 03 14:56:06 * Morgan sighs quietly, feeding Emil Jul 03 14:58:01 It is a term of endearment, like when I call the children little mouse or little lamb. They aren't mice of lambs, it is just something we say that means we love them Jul 03 14:58:16 HH: Hey Morgan? I love you, you cabbage. Jul 03 14:58:36 *this makes Varick laugh, which makes Emil laugh too* Jul 03 14:59:18 * Morgan rolls his eyes Jul 03 15:00:16 U, to Morgan: you do not like being a cabbage? Jul 03 15:00:24 *Hh chuckles* Jul 03 15:00:52 HeinzHarold likes to make fun of me Jul 03 15:01:27 U: why? Jul 03 15:01:39 Its his way of showing me affection Jul 03 15:02:12 U: why do people here in Theah Main play so many games? Why not just say you care for each other? Jul 03 15:02:44 * Morgan shrugs Jul 03 15:02:49 Its just the way we are Jul 03 15:05:14 *she nods. The door opens again, and Alice comes in with Morgan's old guitar, the one that followed him through the end of the War and then into married life and parenthood, loss and then through Bridgewater to Avebury* Jul 03 15:22:55 * Morgan looks over at her, then the guitar, watching her Jul 03 15:23:19 A: Your friend sent this on, you singing reminded me Jul 03 15:24:03 * Morgan blushes Jul 03 15:24:12 I didn't realise I could be heard Jul 03 15:25:26 A: *she nods, as do the others* Jul 03 15:25:43 Ah. I see. Jul 03 15:25:55 * Molly smiles Jul 03 15:26:01 You sing well, liebling Jul 03 15:26:31 *there are nods at this too* Jul 03 15:26:37 Kind of you to say so Jul 03 15:26:38 A: where do you want this? Jul 03 15:27:44 * Morgan hands Emil to Molly before going to take the guitar from Alice gently Jul 03 15:27:53 I'll, uhhh... I'll just put this away Jul 03 15:29:25 * Molly kisses the baby. Florrie looks up from her book "what doing?" Jul 03 15:30:51 I'm just putting this away sweetheart Jul 03 15:32:14 F: what that? Jul 03 15:32:21 Its my guitar Jul 03 15:32:38 F: what it do? Jul 03 15:32:53 *Alice watches them with a smile* Jul 03 15:33:51 In most hands it makes noise... in the right ones it makes music Jul 03 15:34:12 F: how? Jul 03 15:34:59 * Morgan runs his thumb gently over the strings Jul 03 15:35:56 A bit like that Jul 03 15:37:26 F: *she watches it* see more? Jul 03 15:38:06 * Morgan looks torn for a moment before sitting down, setting the guitar in place and tuning it Jul 03 15:38:25 * Molly watches this all intently Jul 03 15:40:58 * Morgan takes a few chords slowly Jul 03 15:41:01 Like that... Jul 03 15:41:56 * Molly is now known as Florrie Jul 03 15:42:01 Me do? Jul 03 15:42:16 Gently, ok? Jul 03 15:42:51 * Florrie touches the strings, but doesn't move them Jul 03 15:42:54 Broken Jul 03 15:43:11 Want my help? Jul 03 15:45:20 * Florrie nods Jul 03 15:45:23 Help Jul 03 15:45:35 * Morgan nods, taking her hand and running her finger over the strings Jul 03 15:47:51 * Florrie smiles Jul 03 15:47:54 Make noise Jul 03 15:48:00 * Morgan nods Jul 03 15:51:19 Make song? Jul 03 15:51:38 It can do, yes Jul 03 15:52:34 * Florrie nods Jul 03 15:52:50 Sleep now? Jul 03 15:53:14 * Morgan nods Jul 03 15:53:21 Yes, its going to sleep for a bit now Jul 03 15:55:06 * Florrie nods, going back to the book and her sandwich Jul 03 15:55:49 * Morgan quietly gets up, taking the guitar into the bedroom and packing it away safely before sitting on the bed, staring into space Jul 03 15:56:27 *the door quietly opens then closes a few minutes later* Jul 03 15:56:31 * Florrie is now known as Molly Jul 03 15:56:48 * Molly comes to him, wrapping her arms around him Jul 03 15:57:37 * Morgan leans against her Jul 03 16:00:33 * Molly kisses his crown, speaking quietly Jul 03 16:00:40 A lot of memories, hmm? Jul 03 16:02:12 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:02:13 yeah Jul 03 16:03:48 It's alright to feel sad of what isn't -and- happy for what is Jul 03 16:04:02 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:04:05 Its difficult Jul 03 16:04:42 Of course it is, my love. The only way it would not be would be if you hadn't loved her so much, and that would not have been worth it Jul 03 16:05:15 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:07:13 Would you like me to leave you to yourself a while? Jul 03 16:07:33 * Morgan sighs, shaking his head Jul 03 16:07:45 No... I'm hungry, I'd best come and eat Jul 03 16:09:38 * Molly nods Jul 03 16:09:43 Alright, my love Jul 03 16:11:12 * Morgan draws a deep breath before getting up Jul 03 16:12:22 * Molly takes his hand "You are not alone, my love. Your friends and family know the grief of her loss too, just not as intense" Jul 03 16:12:33 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:12:41 Yes... I know... Jul 03 16:13:58 * Molly nods solemnly "Alright, let's get you fed" Jul 03 16:14:14 * Morgan nods, squaring his shoulders Jul 03 16:15:38 * Molly leads the way, and as soon as he's back at the table Varick comes to sit in his lap, eating. No one points out anything, and Molly keeps them all chatting so that he doesn't become the focus Jul 03 16:16:14 * Morgan cuddles Varick as he eats Jul 03 16:18:45 *one by one, the four children show signs of being ready for their naps, and the noise reduces as each set of people leaves until it's just him, Molly, and the boys Jul 03 16:20:20 * Morgan gently rocks Varick Jul 03 16:21:06 V: Vati, is it nap time? Jul 03 16:21:13 Yes, son, it is Jul 03 16:21:31 V: Will you put me for my nap? Jul 03 16:22:11 * Morgan nods, getting up to carry him through Jul 03 16:23:00 V: it's a lot busier now Jul 03 16:23:48 * Morgan nods, sitting him on the bed Jul 03 16:23:55 It is, yes. Jul 03 16:24:16 It's nice that we have friends Jul 03 16:25:20 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:25:34 Aye. We're lucky to have such good friends Jul 03 16:26:46 *Varick nods, taking his boots off* our house will be full of love Jul 03 16:26:51 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:27:11 Yes, it will. James and Elsie will be living on the grounds in their own house, like HeinzHarold and Inga... Jul 03 16:28:13 *he smiles* I will have a big family Jul 03 16:28:41 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:28:44 Thats right Jul 03 16:29:34 V: that is good Jul 03 16:30:02 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:30:09 Yes, it is, it's very good Jul 03 16:31:38 *he nods, lying down* And then my children will have a huuuuuge human family Jul 03 16:32:15 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:32:17 Absolutely Jul 03 16:32:55 *he closes his eyes, smiling* that means they'll be happy Jul 03 16:36:04 aye. That'll be good Jul 03 16:36:39 *he nods, not saying anymore* Jul 03 16:36:56 * Morgan strokes his forehead Jul 03 16:36:59 Sleep well son Jul 03 16:39:00 *Varick smiles as he's drifting off* Jul 03 16:39:21 * Morgan waits until he's asleep before leaving, going back into the main room Jul 03 16:41:06 * Molly is sat on the couch nursing Jul 03 16:41:38 I think he's almost done... unless you would benefit from taking a snooze with him? Jul 03 16:41:52 I'm alright Jul 03 16:44:11 Is there anything you do need? Jul 03 16:44:22 * Morgan sighs, shrugging Jul 03 16:44:24 I don't know Jul 03 16:44:40 Is there something more than just the guitar? Jul 03 16:45:39 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:45:58 I dreamed of Jana grown... your dream, it seems. I don't think I'll see her again Jul 03 16:47:06 Oh my love... I'm sorry Jul 03 16:47:19 * Morgan nods, sitting by the window Jul 03 16:47:43 It's like another loss of her...? Jul 03 16:48:06 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:48:15 Yes, it is. And then seeing Florrie, and the guitar... Jul 03 16:48:53 * Molly nods Jul 03 16:49:04 It's so very unfair Jul 03 16:49:15 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:49:19 I thought so Jul 03 16:49:55 * Molly nods Jul 03 16:50:18 I wish I could help, take the pain from you and carry it a while Jul 03 16:50:36 I know love... Jul 03 16:52:00 * Molly nods, taking the sleeping baby off Jul 03 16:52:29 I'd have liked a magic that helps the mind, not just the body Jul 03 16:52:52 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:53:00 I'd have liked to be able to move things Jul 03 16:54:03 * Molly smiles Jul 03 16:54:23 That would be practical. We will hope for a child that can do that? Jul 03 16:54:46 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:54:59 That isn't -too- mischevious Jul 03 16:56:11 * Molly smiles "indeed, though as a product of us..." Jul 03 16:56:22 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:56:31 Shouldn't be too hopeful of it then Jul 03 16:57:38 No... eight unpredictable, rebellious children Jul 03 16:58:00 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:58:11 Its going to be bedlam Jul 03 16:58:57 * Molly nods Jul 03 16:59:35 And by the last few it will be chaos of many children and me trying to corral them whilst increasing! Jul 03 16:59:46 * Morgan nods Jul 03 16:59:52 Yes... Jul 03 17:00:00 But...? Jul 03 17:00:39 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 03 17:00:48 * Molly smiles Jul 03 17:01:06 Wondering how I will manage all that -and- you? Jul 03 17:01:38 The thought might have occured Jul 03 17:01:45 * Molly smiles Jul 03 17:01:57 I will be having a nursery nurse or two Jul 03 17:02:20 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:02:23 Thats probably a good idea Jul 03 17:03:05 Don't worry, my love, I promise I won't forget what you will need Jul 03 17:04:29 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:05:46 * Molly stands with the baby, looking at him "he's so beautiful, isn't he?" Jul 03 17:07:03 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:07:06 Yes, he is Jul 03 17:07:27 We were so lucky Jul 03 17:08:31 We worked hard for him Jul 03 17:09:03 * Molly nods Jul 03 17:09:31 We went through a lot of pain to get him, much as normally has to happen Jul 03 17:09:49 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:09:50 Aye Jul 03 17:10:07 I'll put him in the crib Jul 03 17:10:46 Alright love Jul 03 17:11:54 * Molly takes him through Jul 03 17:13:37 * Morgan looks out of the window while he waits Jul 03 17:14:50 *there's some coast on the starboard side, bits on Avalon he's never seen before, but apart from that just the sea* Jul 03 17:21:28 * Morgan watches the cost move by Jul 03 17:22:38 * Molly comes back quietly, wrapping her arms around him from behind Jul 03 17:22:47 What would you like to do? Jul 03 17:23:25 * Morgan shrugs Jul 03 17:23:29 I haven't planned anything Jul 03 17:23:57 Would you like to lay down and cuddle a while? Or I could read to you? Jul 03 17:24:36 * Morgan shrugs Jul 03 17:24:50 We need to ensure we make ourselves available for James and Elsie's wedding Jul 03 17:26:09 That will be a few weeks away, won't it? Jul 03 17:26:13 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:26:24 Yes. Time for the Banns to be read and whatnot Jul 03 17:28:29 * Molly nods Jul 03 17:29:05 It'll be three weeks from our arrival to the baptism, so that will be a week or two later. That should be fine Jul 03 17:29:25 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:29:40 If you do not wish to be away from home, I'll understand, but... I must attend Jul 03 17:32:11 I will of course come with you. I would like to be on hand in case she has any medical concerns, but we also may be needed in Sudlachenburg around then Jul 03 17:32:25 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:32:31 She wants me to give her away Jul 03 17:34:35 That's wonderful! Jul 03 17:35:04 * Morgan nods Jul 03 17:35:07 Yes... it is... Jul 03 17:36:27 You are pleased? Jul 03 17:37:06 Of course... if it hadn't been for the dream I'd be thrilled... its just a bit difficult today Jul 03 17:38:13 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jul 03 17:40:29 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 03 18:01:12 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 03 18:04:01 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 03 22:13:10 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jul 03 22:13:13 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 03 22:16:32 I will of course come with you. I would like to be on hand in case she has any medical concerns, but we also may be needed in Sudlachenburg around then Jul 03 22:16:32 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:16:32 She wants me to give her away Jul 03 22:16:32 That's wonderful! Jul 03 22:16:32 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:16:35 Yes... it is... Jul 03 22:16:37 You are pleased? Jul 03 22:16:39 Of course... if it hadn't been for the dream I'd be thrilled... its just a bit difficult today Jul 03 22:18:45 I didn't know you were there Jul 03 22:20:14 No, I know. In that thread I was killed in the fire, by a falling beam. Edward married Mina, but she died... he considered himself a jinx after that Jul 03 22:23:13 * MollyK nods Jul 03 22:23:47 I remember all of that, all the people in it... I just did not realise you were there in the dream Jul 03 22:25:02 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:27:27 When she sees your ghost, that is sometimes you in the dream Jul 03 22:27:37 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:27:42 So it seems Jul 03 22:31:31 * MollyK nods, sitting on the window seat Jul 03 22:31:40 Did you see Madchen? Jul 03 22:31:56 No... Jul 03 22:32:06 Oh that's a pity Jul 03 22:33:13 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:33:15 Yes, it is Jul 03 22:35:19 She could have at least told you whether it was the end Jul 03 22:35:48 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:35:54 Yeah. I hope she's alright Jul 03 22:36:54 * MollyK nods Jul 03 22:37:06 Me too Jul 03 22:39:31 Those are the dreams she is in most... there are very few others. There was one recently at Hafenlohr, when you were out on the lake? Jul 03 22:40:08 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:40:11 Yes, thats right Jul 03 22:42:32 Maybe she will find you in other dreams... or maybe that thread isn't over? I was in early labour, it seemed Jul 03 22:42:56 * Morgan shrugs Jul 03 22:43:06 Maybe it isn't over but... it felt like it. Jul 03 22:44:09 Why? Jul 03 22:44:55 * Morgan shrugs Jul 03 22:44:59 I don't know, it just... did. Jul 03 22:46:55 * MollyK nods sadly Jul 03 22:47:07 The baby was very poorly Jul 03 22:47:18 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:47:26 Yes, she was. Jul 03 22:48:45 I recall Jana being so sick, with an infection... I sat up all night with her Jul 03 22:48:59 That must have been terrifying Jul 03 22:49:10 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:49:13 Yes, it was Jul 03 22:50:03 Were you able to talk to her much? Jul 03 22:50:16 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:50:28 HeinzHarold had taught her Jul 03 22:53:22 * MollyK nods Jul 03 22:55:47 Was that helpful? Jul 03 22:56:05 * Morgan nods Jul 03 22:56:38 We talked quite a bit, about how I used to sing to her Jul 03 22:59:02 * MollyK nods slowly Jul 03 22:59:07 Ohhh I see Jul 03 22:59:55 What? Jul 03 23:01:19 The guitar coming today specifically Jul 03 23:02:01 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:02:18 It was always going to be difficult, but with the dream... Jul 03 23:02:41 * MollyK nods Jul 03 23:03:01 It's harder Jul 03 23:03:10 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:03:12 Yes, it is Jul 03 23:03:50 She would want you to still love it, and to still play Jul 03 23:04:19 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:04:37 I know. Its just difficult. Like... a reminder. Jul 03 23:04:51 * MollyK nods Jul 03 23:05:14 You could store it for a few days, until you feel more ready Jul 03 23:05:21 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:05:31 She's packed away safely Jul 03 23:05:42 * MollyK nods Jul 03 23:07:43 Would you wish to keep seeing this life of hers? Jul 03 23:08:56 * Morgan screws up his face Jul 03 23:08:58 I don't know Jul 03 23:10:06 * MollyK takes his hand Jul 03 23:12:35 Its... like... a torture, knowing what she could've been like, but it isn't... -real- Jul 03 23:13:45 * MollyK nods Jul 03 23:14:16 But it feels real when you're there... it's when you wake up that it seems like it was a dream Jul 03 23:15:07 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:15:33 And then I know that I've lost her... and somehow losing her again Jul 03 23:15:59 * MollyK nods sadly Jul 03 23:16:43 Yes, I can understand that Jul 03 23:17:04 * Morgan wipes his face Jul 03 23:17:12 How much grief must I endure? Jul 03 23:17:54 * MollyK stands up to hold him Jul 03 23:18:10 I wish I knew. I wish I could stop this Jul 03 23:19:34 * Morgan leans his head against her, nodding Jul 03 23:20:19 I want the nieblungen to try to take the dreams away. It is not worth this pain for the occassional help we get Jul 03 23:21:05 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:21:21 I can see the appeal in that Jul 03 23:21:34 * MollyK nods Jul 03 23:21:57 I don't know if they can help, but they have to try! Jul 03 23:23:12 * Morgan nods disconsolately Jul 03 23:23:49 * MollyK holds him tightly Jul 03 23:24:16 This is not... it's not the life I wanted for you. It's not what you deserve Jul 03 23:25:11 It is the life we have Jul 03 23:25:51 Because of what we are. What they made us to be, and what they want from us Jul 03 23:27:26 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:27:31 I know Jul 03 23:28:20 * MollyK nods "If there was any way to spare you... why must saving the world come at so much cost!" Jul 03 23:29:35 Its a consequence of the changes they made Jul 03 23:30:03 But it's too much... it's too painful Jul 03 23:30:41 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:32:01 I can't... I can't stand for this to go on. Something has to be done Jul 03 23:32:22 I'm sorry Jul 03 23:34:21 It's not your fault at all, but I am so very angry that you have to suffer for all this, and that we have to meet and love so many people who cannot be Jul 03 23:35:01 * Morgan nods, breathing slowly Jul 03 23:36:25 * MollyK bites her lip "I can do so much with my magic, and not this!" Jul 03 23:36:40 This is enough Jul 03 23:37:19 * MollyK sobs briefly "it's not. It's not enough!" Jul 03 23:37:47 * Morgan puts his arms around her waist, squeezing her Jul 03 23:38:03 How would this have affected me a year ago? Jul 03 23:38:15 I... I don't know... Jul 03 23:39:19 I do. It would have brought me to my knees, I'd have hidden away for days. The ones on the way to Capperlucia, they'd have destroyed me. Jul 03 23:40:34 * MollyK sniffs a little "you are stronger than before, but I feel so very useless" Jul 03 23:40:47 I am stronger because of you Jul 03 23:41:24 I am not sure how, I do not feel at all like I have any strength in this matter! Jul 03 23:42:09 Because... I know that when I reach this point, I can be like this... I don't have to crush it all down... I can feel these things and not have to hide from it Jul 03 23:42:48 * MollyK nods Jul 03 23:43:01 You never have to do that with me Jul 03 23:43:06 exactly Jul 03 23:44:06 I love you just as much when you are sad and hurting Jul 03 23:44:29 .me nods Jul 03 23:44:32 I know Jul 03 23:45:35 I am glad you feel secure in that Jul 03 23:45:46 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:45:49 And thats down to you Jul 03 23:47:05 Is it? All I have ever tried to do is to show you that I am here and that you can be vulnerable and distressed without losing my respect and admiration Jul 03 23:47:54 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:48:06 I could not be this way until you. Jul 03 23:48:41 You were very closed off after the fire, perhaps even from yourself Jul 03 23:49:21 * Morgan nods Jul 03 23:49:23 Completely Jul 03 23:49:59 I am glad you no longer are Jul 03 23:51:30 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)