**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Jul 1 00:43:34 2023 Jul 01 00:43:34 * HH has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jul 01 14:52:15 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jul 01 15:21:27 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jul 01 15:22:16 * MollyK is now known as HH Jul 01 15:22:30 Be a good thing, right? Jul 01 15:22:48 I can see benefits to both ways... Jul 01 15:22:56 Howsat? Jul 01 15:23:47 Well, they'd potentially be born sooner so older when the shit hits the fan, and of course it'd mean less time for Molly to be pregnant... Jul 01 15:24:11 * HH chuckles Jul 01 15:24:40 But also, it'd be less time for Molly to be pregnant? Jul 01 15:25:01 * Morgan makes a clicking noise, using a single 'finger gun' while winking at him Jul 01 15:25:03 You got it Jul 01 15:25:09 * HH laughs Jul 01 15:25:33 Lucky for you she's supposed t' be having so many Jul 01 15:26:22 It'll be tough but I'll have to endure it Jul 01 15:28:36 Hard life, eh? Jul 01 15:28:49 Or something Jul 01 15:29:43 * HH chuckles, just as Inga comes back in Jul 01 15:30:07 I: *she watches them* Am I interrupting something? Jul 01 15:30:49 No, love, its fine, we're just being daft Jul 01 15:31:36 I: *she smiles* that's good. Mina's gone now Jul 01 15:31:46 * Morgan nods Jul 01 15:31:49 How's she doing? Jul 01 15:32:31 I: She's very sad. She thought it would have happened already. Molly says they might be having too much intercourse Jul 01 15:32:41 * HH chuckles Jul 01 15:33:01 Sure Edward will be really pleased she said tha'! Jul 01 15:33:16 I told him as much a few weeks ago Jul 01 15:36:16 I: I think they've thought the more you do it the better the chances Jul 01 15:37:53 It would make a certain amount of sense, even if it is wrong Jul 01 15:38:13 Mebbie they're just tryin' too hard an' need to relax Jul 01 15:40:23 * Morgan nods Jul 01 15:42:47 I: Molly told them no more than once a day Jul 01 15:43:18 I seem to recall hearing it should be less than even that Jul 01 15:45:22 * HH grins Jul 01 15:45:56 If it is, you keep yer big mouth shut around my lil darlin. I don' wanna be on short rations! Jul 01 15:48:08 Aye aye cap'n Jul 01 15:50:42 I: *she kisses Heinzharold's crown before looking to Morgan* I'll get him out of your hair Jul 01 15:51:10 Alright love Jul 01 15:52:45 * HH goes with her after saying goodnight Jul 01 15:53:09 * Morgan sighs, gathering his drink and heading to his study Jul 01 15:55:48 * HH is now known as Molly Jul 01 15:56:09 * Molly is getting ready for bed already Jul 01 15:56:15 Good evening, my love Jul 01 15:56:39 Hello love... are you alright? Jul 01 15:59:31 * Molly nods Jul 01 16:00:30 Yes, I am. The trip is organised, Mina is writing to the staff in the Hapsburg townhouse, so there will be a crib and everything I need Jul 01 16:03:14 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:03:22 I'll have to make my little journey fairly sharpish then Jul 01 16:07:17 * Molly nods Jul 01 16:07:27 You will indeed Jul 01 16:07:44 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:07:47 How is Mina? Jul 01 16:10:15 Hurting, I'm afraid Jul 01 16:10:32 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:10:41 I can understand why Jul 01 16:11:15 I'm going to ask Uinise to write home and have some of their medicines to help with conception sent with the Rose Jul 01 16:13:57 * Molly nods Jul 01 16:14:31 That will help them feel they are doing something productive Jul 01 16:14:58 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:19:29 She is not angry with Edward for it, nor him with her Jul 01 16:21:47 No, of course... its just very painful for them, and she feels she is failing him... and everyone else. Jul 01 16:25:16 * Molly nods Jul 01 16:25:31 There is much pressure when the land needs an heir Jul 01 16:27:18 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:27:20 yes Jul 01 16:30:43 Do you feel that too, or do you feel set that if something happens to us now Varick will be the Grafs one day? Jul 01 16:31:07 Both, actually Jul 01 16:31:27 Edward asked why we had not considered Jarvie or my father as godparents... Jul 01 16:32:18 Jarvie doesn't wish to be tied with children, and Edward, Mina, Heinzharold and Inga will all be in the right phases of their lives to raise our sons with their children Jul 01 16:33:31 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:33:37 That's rather what I thought Jul 01 16:36:32 * Molly nods, taking off her shift Jul 01 16:36:41 You are happy with it? Jul 01 16:37:33 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:37:41 My only worry is that the boys will be separated. Jul 01 16:40:18 * Molly nods "perhaps that is just a discussion to have with all parties?" Jul 01 16:41:09 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:41:12 I suppose so Jul 01 16:42:37 * Molly nods, getting into bed Jul 01 16:43:25 They have different roles to fulfil, I think... though it could be argued they would have a Grafdom each if it was just them Jul 01 16:43:43 True... Jul 01 16:43:54 * Morgan finishes his drink before getting undressed and into bed Jul 01 16:46:56 Would you be alright with Emil ruling Sudlachenburg, as he doesn't share a drop of our blood? Jul 01 16:47:46 * Morgan frowns Jul 01 16:47:59 As long as he shares our values... Jul 01 16:48:58 * Molly nods Jul 01 16:49:30 Heinzharold and Inga will help instil those Jul 01 16:49:47 * Morgan nods Jul 01 16:49:48 Aye Jul 01 16:50:31 HeinzHarold has been thinking about James and Elsie... Jul 01 16:53:17 * Molly smiles, watching him Jul 01 16:53:32 Hmm, I think they're both a little old to be adopted... Jul 01 16:54:25 You know that isn't what I meant Jul 01 16:54:32 besides... Heidi got adopted Jul 01 16:57:58 That is true... was he thinking about her healing? Jul 01 16:58:26 About James line not continuing... Jul 01 17:01:25 * Molly nods Jul 01 17:01:29 Yes Jul 01 17:02:16 He must -really- like James... Jul 01 17:04:19 Why? Jul 01 17:05:24 Because he's considering floating the idea of Inga being their middle mother... Jul 01 17:07:54 * Molly frowns a little Jul 01 17:08:09 I see. That is asking a lot of his wife Jul 01 17:08:39 He's not asking it of her... he's thinking about giving it thought... which is a damn sight more than he would for anyone else Jul 01 17:10:25 He would do it for you, I am sure Jul 01 17:11:11 * Morgan shrugs Jul 01 17:11:12 maybe Jul 01 17:12:48 What do you think of it? Jul 01 17:13:25 I'm not sure any of them would be willing... and I don't think HeinzHarold understands the bond James has with his son Jul 01 17:15:07 Perhaps Heinzharold's own desires to pass on his blood is clouding his perceptions? Jul 01 17:16:11 * Morgan nods Jul 01 17:16:14 Quite possibly Jul 01 17:18:27 * Molly nods Jul 01 17:18:50 It's sweet that he would consider it Jul 01 17:19:12 * Morgan nods Jul 01 17:19:20 Yes... have you spoken to Elsie about your plan? Jul 01 17:20:29 * Molly nods Jul 01 17:20:49 I have, though it will not fix that she cannot have another baby Jul 01 17:21:18 No, but... it'll give them some normality Jul 01 17:24:22 * Molly nods, smiling Jul 01 17:25:12 It must be very difficult for James, given his upbringing and that he is not supposed to waste his seed according to his faith Jul 01 17:25:21 * Morgan nods Jul 01 17:25:28 When will you attempt to heal her further? Jul 01 17:32:37 Tomorrow, I think, if that suits everyone? Jul 01 17:32:59 * Morgan nods Jul 01 17:33:00 alright Jul 01 17:36:54 * Molly nods slowly Jul 01 17:37:08 I umm... could use some help though Jul 01 17:37:18 Oh? Jul 01 17:42:06 I will need to do an examination... Jul 01 17:43:55 of... Jul 01 17:44:16 Elsie's scar tissue, and afterwards Jul 01 17:44:23 right... Jul 01 17:46:27 Out of Heinzharold and Claudia, who do you think has most experience of being that intimate with women that I can ask about what it should feel like, how much stretch there should be, and so on? Jul 01 17:46:52 Claudia. It'll be very... awkward for her though Jul 01 17:49:04 * Molly nods Jul 01 17:49:45 Yes, I'll have to be very careful Jul 01 17:50:11 I'll talk to Claudia first thing Jul 01 17:52:15 Thank you. I don't want to try it and ruin everything for them, and I can't think of another way to find out Jul 01 17:52:21 * Morgan nods Jul 01 17:52:29 No, I think its the right thing to do Jul 01 17:54:54 * Molly nods Jul 01 17:55:14 If you'd speak to Claudia I would be grateful Jul 01 17:55:35 * Morgan nods Jul 01 17:55:39 I will, first thing Jul 01 17:58:19 Thank you. I hope it'll only take an hour or two. There's no risk to her life at all, but scar tissue is very difficult to work with for me Jul 01 17:59:19 Is it still, do you think? Jul 01 18:02:19 * Molly shrugs Jul 01 18:02:28 Perhaps so. We will see tomorrow Jul 01 18:02:40 * Morgan nods Jul 01 18:02:42 Alright love Jul 01 18:03:13 * Molly kisses his cheek Jul 01 18:03:26 You are ready to sleep? Jul 01 18:03:46 * Morgan nods Jul 01 18:03:46 Aye Jul 01 18:06:18 Goodnight, my love Jul 01 18:06:44 G'night blossom Jul 01 18:10:32 * Molly sings to him softly until he is asleep Jul 01 18:29:02 *he finds himself in his old cottage, in the sewing room on the lower floor. It's fuller than before, and only lit by moonlight. He knows this is a dream, but it's impossible to make out the tone of the light.* Jul 01 18:30:01 * Morgan looks round sadly Jul 01 18:31:25 *he can see fire light coming from the open door into the main room, and he hears coughing of a baby, mixed with the child's pained whimpers, sounding too sore to properly cry* Jul 01 18:32:00 * Morgan rubs at his face, getting up and heading for the sound Jul 01 18:34:37 *In the room, the grown-up Jana he has seen on a few occasions now is pacing before the fireplace, a baby wrapped up in multiple blankets in her arms. Jana's hair is down, still in a nightgown, the mantle clock reading two in the morning. The stair near the top squeaks a little as someone is coming down* Jul 01 18:35:01 * Morgan sighs Jul 01 18:35:03 Ah. Jul 01 18:35:53 *she doesn't hear him, but is quietly praying to Theus* Jul 01 18:35:59 * Molly is now known as Jana Jul 01 18:36:23 Please, Heavenly Father, please let her get better Jul 01 18:36:53 * Morgan moves, staying out of her eyeliner, looking over her shoulder Jul 01 18:37:55 *Baby Sonnenshien has bright, glassy eyes, and the redness of fever. When she's not coughing she's breathing very fast and sounds congested* Jul 01 18:38:16 Oh darling... Jul 01 18:40:20 *The descender appears, HH in just a shirt and breeches, candle in a holder. Though Sonnenshien looks to be about Emil's age, Heinzharold doesn't look any different than when Morgan last saw him in the dreams, a beard and starting to go grey. He comes in* Jul 01 18:40:40 HH: Hey Nani-Bear, can't sleep either? Jul 01 18:41:32 * Morgan frowns again, backing away Jul 01 18:41:54 * Jana starts to cry "She's sick, Papa. She sounded a bit rattly in the coach, but I thought it was just this bad weather" Jul 01 18:43:15 *HH hugs her, kissing her forehead* You want Muti wakin', or Tomas? Jul 01 18:43:49 * Jana shakes her head "not yet" Jul 01 18:44:02 * Morgan frowns, scouring his memory for anything that might help Jul 01 18:44:35 *HH strokes the baby's face. Jana seems to be doing the right thing by keeping her warm* Jul 01 18:45:21 HH: Yeah, gotta fever alright, an' that's a pretty nasty cough Jul 01 18:46:50 * Morgan watches them quietly, rubbing at his face Jul 01 18:48:27 * Jana nods, looking worried "I'm scared. The twins weren't ever sick like this!" Jul 01 18:49:11 *HH nods* Yeah... right, I'm Gon' get my coat an' ride on up t' the big house Jul 01 18:51:22 * Morgan moves around them into her eyeline Jul 01 18:52:16 * Jana looks surprised, holding the baby closer "Oh... you've come to look after her..." Jul 01 18:52:33 *HH looks in that direction, but sees nothing* Jul 01 18:52:38 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 01 18:53:42 HH: he's here, huh? Prob'ly why I woke up, was always findin' jobs for me *he smiles, but Morgan can tell he's worried* Jul 01 18:54:13 $Where's Molly?$ Jul 01 18:54:54 She's at the Big House Jul 01 18:55:14 * Morgan frowns Jul 01 18:55:20 $Why?$ Jul 01 18:55:31 HH: Which is where I'm goin' *he kisses both of them before leaving the room* Jul 01 18:56:14 They came with Tomas and I to help with the children. We always come to Sudlachenburg for your birthday Jul 01 18:56:25 *The baby continues to cough* Jul 01 18:56:40 $She can help$ Jul 01 18:57:36 * Jana looks at the baby as the door quiet closes behind HH, the rain pouring outside. She speaks quietly "Oh Vati, what if she can't this time?!" Jul 01 18:58:18 * Morgan steps closer Jul 01 18:58:28 $It'll be alright, she's strong$ Jul 01 18:59:27 *Sonnenshien tries to cry again, but it only comes out as a whimper again. Jana cries again* What if she's not strong enough? Jul 01 18:59:51 * Morgan gets closer again, looking down at the child Jul 01 19:01:38 *she looks very poorly. She looks like Jana had when she'd had a bad infection when she was young and Morgan had sat up in the old couch he liked best by the fire through the whole night. The couch hasn't been replaced* Jul 01 19:02:28 $She got an infection?$ Jul 01 19:03:45 Maybe... I don't know. She's very hot Jul 01 19:04:15 $You were like this once. Had an infection. Held you on the couch all night$ Jul 01 19:04:36 * Jana looks at him "you did? All the night?" Jul 01 19:04:48 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:05:09 $That couch in there... saw sunset, saw sunrise, just sat with you$ Jul 01 19:05:40 * Jana smiles "I wish I could remember that" Jul 01 19:05:59 * Morgan nods, looking back at the baby briefly Jul 01 19:06:33 $near the fire, get a big pot of water on it. The steam will help$ Jul 01 19:06:45 *she looks so uncomfortable, pulse very fast* Jul 01 19:07:41 * Jana nods, setting her gently on the couch with cushions to stop her falling, though the baby looks too sick to even attempt it Jul 01 19:08:16 * Morgan kneels by the couch Jul 01 19:08:32 I know its difficult little one, but you need to stay here Jul 01 19:09:57 *She looks right at him. He can hear Jana in the kitchen getting water* Jul 01 19:10:42 ah. Like your Muti, huh... They need you here little lady, and Molly will help I'm sure Jul 01 19:13:30 *she still watches him, coughing occassionally. Jana gets the pot over the fire before taking her over to sit on the floor for the best benefit* Jul 01 19:13:55 Now what, Vati... what did you do that night you sat up with me? Jul 01 19:14:23 $I held you, I rocked you, I sang to you$ Jul 01 19:14:53 * Jana smiles Jul 01 19:15:16 Muti said you used to sing and play your guitar to me Jul 01 19:15:30 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:15:48 $Yes, I did, when you weren't running round smearing jam in my beard$ Jul 01 19:18:00 * Jana smiles "I was a mischievous baby?" Jul 01 19:18:16 $Curious. You were into everything$ Jul 01 19:19:35 * Jana nods "both twins are like that, Morgan a little more. Heinzharold is more mischief" Jul 01 19:20:12 $That sounds appropriate$ Jul 01 19:23:58 * Jana nods "will you stay with me, Vati, until she's either better or..." Jul 01 19:24:40 $I'll try. I... don't have much say in it my darling$ Jul 01 19:25:52 And if she... *she takes a deep breath* ... you'll take her to heaven, to Theus? Jul 01 19:26:09 $She won't$ Jul 01 19:28:41 *the baby continues to cough, the rattling sounding deep and wet* Jul 01 19:28:52 Why have you not gone to heaven? Jul 01 19:29:35 *the steam makes it hard to see her as easily, the fire is hot and crackles occassionally, the only noise in the house* Jul 01 19:30:05 * Morgan shrugs a little Jul 01 19:30:10 $I'm not ready to$ Jul 01 19:30:36 You want to stay with us? Jul 01 19:30:59 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:31:08 $I'm not always here$ Jul 01 19:31:34 Where do you go when you're not here? Jul 01 19:32:08 $I don't know$ Jul 01 19:32:37 Won't you go to heaven without us? Jul 01 19:33:48 $I imagine I'll meet you there$ Jul 01 19:35:08 * Jana strokes the baby's face Jul 01 19:35:18 I hope so Jul 01 19:36:35 * Morgan nods, looking at the baby Jul 01 19:37:31 $we'll have to wait and see$ Jul 01 19:39:39 I wish I could have known you Jul 01 19:40:04 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:40:12 $Me too. I missed out on so much$ Jul 01 19:45:21 Papa tried so hard to look after us Jul 01 19:45:41 $He loves you$ Jul 01 19:46:03 * Jana nods "like if I was his blood" Jul 01 19:46:34 $A long way back, you are$ Jul 01 19:46:52 Am I? Jul 01 19:46:55 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:47:44 * Jana smiles Jul 01 19:48:14 $The first Sonnenshien, she connects us all$ Jul 01 19:48:20 He'll like that. He never admitted that he wanted a baby, but I know he did Jul 01 19:48:30 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:48:48 $He's too good with children to have not wanted to$ Jul 01 19:48:55 * Jana nods Jul 01 19:49:19 He loves the twins. It's a shame he and Muti couldn't Jul 01 19:49:35 $couldn't? Or wouldn't?$ Jul 01 19:50:57 *she whispers* Something happened to Muti after the fire, and she had some trouble, and then she couldn't conceive again Jul 01 19:51:10 * Morgan frowns Jul 01 19:51:14 $What happened?$ Jul 01 19:51:25 She lost a baby Jul 01 19:51:39 * Morgan nods a little Jul 01 19:51:57 $She was pregnant before the fire$ Jul 01 19:52:05 * Jana nods Jul 01 19:52:53 She doesn't talk about it, you know how private she is, Molly told me Jul 01 19:53:24 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:53:30 $Its not her fault$ Jul 01 19:54:13 No, it's just how she is and how my grandparents are. Tomas' family are more open Jul 01 19:54:42 * Morgan nods Jul 01 19:54:45 $I know$ Jul 01 19:55:24 I don't think Uncle Edward will come down Jul 01 19:56:24 $No?$ Jul 01 19:56:44 He's not good with these things Jul 01 19:57:21 $Illness?$ Jul 01 19:58:01 Anything really. If anyone is hurt or in danger, he says the last thing they need is him involved. He says he's a jinx Jul 01 19:58:21 $I wish I could talk to him$ Jul 01 20:00:15 He doesn't know about uou Jul 01 20:00:18 You* Jul 01 20:00:33 $Growing up here, it'd send him screaming for the hills$ Jul 01 20:03:25 * Jana nods Jul 01 20:04:08 I wish he could be happy, but Muti says he never has been really, apart from when Auntie Mina was his wife Jul 01 20:04:22 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:04:29 $He's loved her for so long$ Jul 01 20:05:56 * Jana nods Jul 01 20:06:30 *the baby coughs hard a moment, struggling to catch her breath after. Jana looks so worried* Jul 01 20:07:22 * Morgan frowns briefly, looking at the baby Jul 01 20:07:39 Alright little one, slow and steady breaths, there's no race here... Jul 01 20:10:09 * Jana wipes her eyes Jul 01 20:10:24 It's hard loving them this much Jul 01 20:10:33 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:10:43 $Yes, it is. Always$ Jul 01 20:12:45 * Jana nods "I wished Uncle Edward would get married again and be happy again" Jul 01 20:13:18 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:13:32 $Yes... he is being hard on himself$ Jul 01 20:17:18 Muti said you two didn't get on very well, but you would have eventually Jul 01 20:17:32 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:17:49 $We weren't as close as we should have been. I regret that$ Jul 01 20:20:52 * Jana nods. He can faintly hear horses outside, and notices the tone has shifted to yellow Jul 01 20:21:29 $they're coming love$ Jul 01 20:22:18 * Jana nods, standing up "will you stay?" Jul 01 20:22:58 $As long as I can$ Jul 01 20:24:47 *HH is the first in. He's absolutely soaked, his coat over Molly's head, her cloak dripping* Jul 01 20:25:23 HH: Got her. Rosie's gettin' the horses settled Jul 01 20:27:15 * Jana looks relieved, taking the baby to Molly who pulls off her cloak and hands it to HH. Riding on horseback in this rain as heavily pregnant as she is doesn't seem like a good idea at all, but here she is with a big bump and just her nightdress and boots on Jul 01 20:28:28 * Morgan gets up off the floor, watching them Jul 01 20:31:07 M: Alright, let's have a look at you, little one... *she takes Sonnenshien, putting her hand on the baby's forehead. Everyone waits quietly* Jul 01 20:33:07 * Morgan stands completely still, waiting Jul 01 20:34:36 *Molly nods a little* Alright... *she unwraps the baby* she needs to be cool, not warm... I've healed the infection in her lungs, and settled her fever and racing heart... Jul 01 20:35:08 * Jana looks so relieved "She'll be alright now?" Jul 01 20:35:10 * Morgan frowns, muttering to himself Jul 01 20:38:14 M: *she nods, handing the baby back. She looks so much better already* It is more common in spring, but she's fine now. We'll keep her in a good position so she can cough up any remaining fluid, but she's not in danger now Jul 01 20:39:23 * Jana hugs Molly "thank you so much!" Molly holds her "there's no need to thank me" Jul 01 20:39:52 *HH looks around as if this time he might manage to see Morgan, but looks right through him* Jul 01 20:40:05 * Morgan sighs Jul 01 20:40:08 I know man Jul 01 20:40:36 * Jana sits to feed the baby, and Molly excuses herself to make some tea in the kitchen Jul 01 20:41:28 $I think its time for me to go$ Jul 01 20:44:41 * Jana speaks in a whisper "Already?" Jul 01 20:46:17 $You don't need me my darling, you've got everyone here for you$ Jul 01 20:46:44 I'll always need you, Vati Jul 01 20:48:47 $You've got one enormous family around you. You're related to Molly and Sebastien through blood, and HeinzHarold... Jul 01 20:49:08 You'll always be my Vati though Jul 01 20:49:39 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:49:46 $I'll always carry you in my heart$ Jul 01 20:50:01 You're going forever now?! Jul 01 20:50:21 $I never know if I'm coming back, it isn't up to me$ Jul 01 20:50:56 I don't want you to not go to heaven, but I also still want to see you Jul 01 20:51:25 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:51:55 $I know. I want to come back, as scary as it is seeing the little one sick, I get to see you$ Jul 01 20:52:34 * Jana smiles, looking at the baby before looking back to him "she looks fine now, doesn't she?" Jul 01 20:52:47 * Morgan nods Jul 01 20:52:53 $She does, as I expected$ Jul 01 20:53:28 *Molly brings Jana a cup of tea, but he can see pain in her micro-expressions. He can also very clearly smell the scent of her being pregnant when she walks through him, despite the fact here it is not even his baby she's carrying* M: "lucky she wasn't younger, it's not nice for the smaller ones" Jul 01 20:54:00 $Ask her what's hurting$ Jul 01 20:54:17 * Jana looks to Molly Jul 01 20:54:30 My Vati asks what's hurting you? Jul 01 20:54:57 M: *she smiles* Nothing, I'm fine Jul 01 20:55:40 * Morgan rolls his eyes Jul 01 20:56:04 * Jana nods. Molly walks through him again as she goes back to the kitchen again. Jul 01 20:56:28 $must pay more attention to where I'm standing. Somethings causing her pain.$ Jul 01 20:56:44 She says she's fine Jul 01 20:58:21 $Alright... $ Jul 01 21:00:58 Maybe you could check on her, unless you want to see Muti or the twins? Jul 01 21:01:19 $She can't see me sweetheart$ Jul 01 21:03:25 But you can see she's fine Jul 01 21:03:38 * Morgan nods, wandering through to the kitchen Jul 01 21:04:54 *Molly has one hand on her lower back and the other on her belly, breathing slowly. She whispers to her stomach* you can't go around sneaking up on people, now is not a good time... Jul 01 21:05:57 Oh... really? Now? Jul 01 21:06:28 *She doesn't hear him, of course. He does hear the squeaky step squeak* Jul 01 21:06:56 * Morgan moves away from the staircase Jul 01 21:08:57 *Dietlinde comes down with a big woollen wrap over her nightgown, it's old now, he'd bought it for her their first married Prophets Mass. Her hair is braided as she used to have it. She looks concerned* Jul 01 21:11:51 HH: *he goes to her, kissing her temple* Hey honey, you alright? Jul 01 21:12:41 * Morgan watches them Jul 01 21:13:05 *Dietlinde nods* Why are you wet? Jul 01 21:14:53 *HH doesn't make the sort of comment he would to Inga in reality. It doesn't even look like it occurs to him at all. Instead he calmly explains the situation, and Molly brings her some tea as well as some for Heinzharold, nothing on her face to reveal anything, but again she passes right past Morgan and he can smell it again* Jul 01 21:16:36 * Morgan follows her back into the other room before moving out of the way Jul 01 21:17:04 * Jana brings the baby to Dietlinde, showing her that all is well now. Seb lets himself in, even more soaked than HH, but looks pretty relaxed. Jul 01 21:17:12 S: Everything sorted? Jul 01 21:18:30 *Molly smiles, nodding* All fine. We'll sit up with her and keep her comfortable so everyone else can rest. Jul 01 21:18:48 * Morgan puts himself out of the way Jul 01 21:20:56 S: *he looks proud of her* My Elritzelein to the rescue again. Don't suppose you can lend a man some trousers, Breadbox? Jul 01 21:21:35 HH grins: I can give you some, but I don' want 'em back after Jul 01 21:22:24 S: No, they'd be stretched out *HH chuckles but just winks at him* Jul 01 21:22:50 $I see neither of them made it past puberty$ Jul 01 21:23:19 * Jana nods slightly Jul 01 21:26:40 $I might take a quick peek at the twins$ Jul 01 21:27:27 *She nods again, taking a candle. Goodnights are said all around, and soon Jana, HH, and Dietlinde are retiring, leaving Molly and Seb with the baby downstairs* Jul 01 21:27:59 * Morgan makes his way to see the twins Jul 01 21:30:29 *In the room that was Jana's nursery is a double bed with her sleeping husband in, a crib, and a small low bed where the two boys are asleep hugging each other. She smiles at Morgan and gestures $your grandsons$ Jul 01 21:31:10 * Morgan nods, going to look closely at them Jul 01 21:31:26 $They're perfect$ Jul 01 21:32:00 *theyre impossible to tell apart, and such a mix of the four grandparents* Jul 01 21:32:12 $they are$ Jul 01 21:32:49 * Morgan sighs Jul 01 21:32:57 $Its late, you need to rest$ Jul 01 21:33:15 $thank you for being here$ Jul 01 21:34:28 * Morgan nods Jul 01 21:34:44 $Any chance I get, I'll be here$ Jul 01 21:35:02 $I love you$ Jul 01 21:35:22 $And I you, deeper than the sea$ Jul 01 21:35:41 $and higher than the stars$ Jul 01 21:36:24 * Morgan nods, moving toward the door, taking a good look at her with a smile before leaving the room and trying to wake Jul 01 21:36:42 *he wakes easily* Jul 01 21:37:13 * Morgan pulls his pillow from under his head, wrapping himself around it and sobbing quietly Jul 01 21:37:42 *he manages not to wake Molly for a change* Jul 01 21:38:05 * Morgan eventually wipes his face, checking the time Jul 01 21:38:41 *it's about six, rapidly heading towards half-light* Jul 01 21:39:00 * Morgan gets out of bed, pulling his clothes on Jul 01 21:39:27 * Jana is now known as Molly Jul 01 21:39:45 *him getting up disturbs her* hmm? Jul 01 21:40:00 Its alright, I'm getting up Jul 01 21:40:35 Oh, alright, my love Jul 01 21:41:58 * Morgan finishes getting dressed, quietly leaving to get coffee and go on deck Jul 01 21:42:40 *both Claudia and Sorgi are up here* Jul 01 21:42:48 * Molly is now known as Claudia Jul 01 21:44:02 * Morgan climbs into the rigging, quite low, letting the rope take all his weight Jul 01 21:44:16 * Claudia follows him up Jul 01 21:44:18 Hey Jul 01 21:44:22 hey Jul 01 21:44:33 You okay? Jul 01 21:44:57 * Morgan takes a deep breath Jul 01 21:45:04 Not especially. I'll be alright. Jul 01 21:45:15 Nightmare Jul 01 21:45:24 * Morgan nods, rubbing at his face Jul 01 21:45:48 * Claudia offers her flask Jul 01 21:46:16 * Morgan takes it, taking a mouthful before swallowing, then another, before handing it back Jul 01 21:47:35 * Claudia drinks some Jul 01 21:47:42 You want to tell me? Jul 01 21:48:25 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 01 21:48:38 No. I want to ignore it, until it doesn't hurt so much Jul 01 21:50:00 That normally works well Jul 01 21:50:10 * Morgan frowns Jul 01 21:50:27 I just... need time to let the worst of the pain go. Jul 01 21:50:38 * Claudia nods Jul 01 21:50:43 Alright Jul 01 21:51:15 I need to talk to you... and its a conversation neither of us really want to have Jul 01 21:51:28 Go on Jul 01 21:52:25 Molly is going to try to heal Elsie so she and James can, y'know... Jul 01 21:53:06 * Claudia nods Jul 01 21:53:10 I know Jul 01 21:53:30 She needs some information... Jul 01 21:53:51 You can't tell her about sex? Jul 01 21:54:46 She needs to know about what its supposed to feel like, inside... how much stretch, what the skin feels like... Jul 01 21:55:10 * Claudia grimaces Jul 01 21:55:20 You can't tell her that? Jul 01 21:55:37 I can tell her what she and Dietlinde felt like... but thats it. Jul 01 21:55:59 Ah yeah, that is pretty awkward Jul 01 21:56:11 * Morgan nods Jul 01 21:56:31 It was either you or HeinzHarold... Jul 01 21:56:55 Heinzharold would prob'ly just volunteer Inga as a test subject Jul 01 21:57:49 * Morgan nods Jul 01 21:58:58 I know its awkward but... she really needs your help. It could change their lives. Jul 01 21:59:10 I know Jul 01 22:01:58 Will you do it? It needs to be today, fairly soon. Jul 01 22:02:20 Trying to think how. But it's hard to describe Jul 01 22:03:03 She might be able to guide exactly what she needs to know Jul 01 22:03:39 * Claudia nods, drinking some from the flask Jul 01 22:04:05 I wonder if Uinise might be willing to help... Jul 01 22:06:23 Possibly, she's... sweet. Jul 01 22:07:16 They have medical checks done that way in Capperlucia Jul 01 22:08:02 That would be very helpful Jul 01 22:10:36 Then Molly can fully get to grips with it before trying to heal Jul 01 22:11:47 * Morgan nods Jul 01 22:11:48 Yeah Jul 01 22:14:45 Makes sense. I want to help, but I can't do -that- Jul 01 22:16:14 Wait, no... she wants you to -tell- her how it feels, not... Jul 01 22:16:25 Otherwise asking HeinzHarold would be utterly pointless Jul 01 22:18:55 No, but Uinise will be able to let her see Jul 01 22:19:02 * Morgan nods Jul 01 22:19:22 Worth asking... can I leave it with you to talk to Uinise and Molly? No point asking her if Molly isn't willing to do that Jul 01 22:19:36 * Claudia nods Jul 01 22:19:48 Yeah... you going to hole up somewhere? Jul 01 22:20:31 Can't. Too much to do. *he sighs heavily* Got a feeling I've seen the last of Jana grown up Jul 01 22:21:55 How come? Jul 01 22:22:28 Things changed. Like they do when it ends. Sort of. Its just... brutal. Jul 01 22:22:37 Shit Jul 01 22:23:10 * Morgan nods Jul 01 22:26:21 Doesn't seeing her all the time in these dreams make it harder to grieve? Jul 01 22:27:17 Yes and no Jul 01 22:27:26 It keeps making it... fresher... Jul 01 22:30:50 Is it giving you any closure? Jul 01 22:31:42 I don't know. But I do know I don't have any choice in it Jul 01 22:32:55 * Claudia nods Jul 01 22:33:13 Maybe you're wrong, maybe you will see her again Jul 01 22:33:37 * Morgan shrugs Jul 01 22:33:39 Maybe Jul 01 22:36:46 Would it have been better to never see these other points of her life? Jul 01 22:37:46 I don't know. Thats the awful thing. I know none of this happened but... its real when I'm in it. Jul 01 22:39:14 * Claudia nods Jul 01 22:39:47 You shouldn't have to go through it Jul 01 22:39:55 * Morgan sighs Jul 01 22:40:11 Its not fair. None of it is. Jul 01 22:41:55 No. It's fucking bullshit. Jul 01 22:42:05 * Morgan nods, wiping his face Jul 01 22:43:49 * Claudia leans over to hug him Jul 01 22:44:30 * Morgan leans his head against her shoulder, closing his eyes Jul 01 22:45:44 If I ever find out whose fault this is I am going to beat them to death Jul 01 22:48:19 That might be a bit beyond even you Jul 01 22:49:41 Wouldn't stop me trying Jul 01 22:50:07 * Morgan nods, sitting up and taking a mouthful of coffee Jul 01 22:53:07 * Claudia sits where she was Jul 01 22:53:18 How's everything else? Jul 01 22:54:37 -aside- from having a girl who looks just like my own onboard... alright. Jul 01 22:56:03 Need to avoid her today? Jul 01 22:56:23 I can't. Its not fair to her Jul 01 22:57:47 Just be busy. There's work you can do. Sorgi will give you a nest watch Jul 01 22:58:51 I need to be around for Molly when she tries to heal Elsie Jul 01 22:59:05 Why? Jul 01 22:59:37 She can draw on me for energy Jul 01 23:00:07 Can't she call you? Jul 01 23:01:01 Not if I'm on watch... Jul 01 23:02:00 * Claudia nods Jul 01 23:02:03 Alright Jul 01 23:02:49 I appreciate the thought though Jul 01 23:04:14 * Claudia shrugs Jul 01 23:04:23 Not much we can do Jul 01 23:04:56 * Morgan shakes his head Jul 01 23:04:59 No, not really Jul 01 23:07:16 * Claudia nods. She stays with him as the ship sails out before then excusing herself to go and find Molly and Uinise Jul 01 23:09:46 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jul 01 23:43:50 * Claudia has quit (Ping Timeout)