**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon Jun 26 00:00:22 2023 Jun 26 00:00:22 * Claudia nods Jun 26 00:00:42 Better not then Jun 26 00:01:14 * Morgan nods Jun 26 00:01:15 Indeed Jun 26 00:01:45 Not much to be done, I guess Jun 26 00:02:22 No... quite... Jun 26 00:25:21 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 26 09:04:21 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 26 10:12:11 I volunteered to take over from Sorgi at the brothel, you coming? Jun 26 10:12:40 [Will you be alright if I go with Claudia to keep an eye on the men?] Jun 26 10:13:09 [yes. I am going to bed soon anyway] Jun 26 10:13:21 * Morgan nods Jun 26 10:13:25 Aye, I'll come with Jun 26 10:18:45 * Claudia nods, heading into the town Jun 26 10:18:54 They're at the same one as before Jun 26 10:19:04 * Morgan nods Jun 26 10:19:10 Worked alright last time Jun 26 10:19:33 * Claudia nods Jun 26 10:19:44 I wonder if Gisela is still there Jun 26 10:20:44 Probably, there's not a lot changes round here Jun 26 10:21:02 * Claudia nods Jun 26 10:21:28 Going to miss the place? Jun 26 10:22:12 * Morgan looks round Jun 26 10:22:26 No... not really. Jun 26 10:23:06 * Claudia nods Jun 26 10:25:08 *the brothel is indeed unchanged. Sorgi is quick to leave, and Claudia gets them drinks and sets up a card game. The crew are quite loud but there's no trouble, just lots of laughter, singing, and bare breasts* Jun 26 10:27:06 * Morgan gets settled into his seat Jun 26 10:28:25 I could've been in his place, drinking myself stupid... if the drink here was stronger than weak ale Jun 26 10:29:57 Could have gone somewhere better Jun 26 10:30:24 This seemed like as good a place as any to die. Jun 26 10:32:58 The universe had other plans Jun 26 10:33:46 * Morgan nods Jun 26 10:34:05 I wonder if thats why all the drink here is remarkably similar to water Jun 26 10:35:43 To save your sorry ass? *she smirks, also winning the hand* Jun 26 10:36:19 clearly. Makes as much sense as anything else Jun 26 10:40:00 Could just be that they're weak here Jun 26 10:40:28 * Morgan nods, dealing another hand Jun 26 10:40:29 Could be Jun 26 10:43:13 *they're tying fairly well when Gisela comes over and gently touches Claudia's shoulder. He sees the negative reaction in his friend's expression, but she manages to not outwardly flinch* Jun 26 10:44:04 G: Good evening, are you looking for company? *the short girl is softly and quietly spoken* Jun 26 10:44:49 $go on, I'll keep watch$ Jun 26 10:45:09 Gisela... nice to see you Jun 26 10:49:36 * Claudia shakes her head "Not tonight, thanks" Jun 26 10:50:22 *Gisela nods, taking it gracefully. She looks to Morgan with a smile* how about you? Would you like to go upstairs with me? Jun 26 10:51:02 * Morgan smiles faintly Jun 26 10:51:12 As before, no, thank you Jun 26 10:54:46 *she nods, going to other people. Claudia watches her go before looking at her hand of cards again* Jun 26 10:55:08 * Morgan watches her Jun 26 10:55:11 Now why did you do that Jun 26 10:56:14 The usual reasons Jun 26 10:56:38 * Morgan nods Jun 26 10:57:59 Screws up your sex life Jun 26 10:58:16 * Claudia nods Jun 26 10:58:35 Too many options that aren't really options Jun 26 10:59:14 They're all options, should you choose to take any of them Jun 26 11:00:39 But not without consequences Jun 26 11:01:09 That is, of course, the rub Jun 26 11:03:01 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:04:09 I don't want to lead anyone on or hurt them Jun 26 11:04:49 I know Jun 26 11:07:22 It's a mess Jun 26 11:08:56 * Morgan nods Jun 26 11:08:58 Yes, it is Jun 26 11:11:15 Sometimes I think about just disappearing from everyone Jun 26 11:11:27 * Claudia drinks a mouthful of ale Jun 26 11:12:06 * Morgan watches her Jun 26 11:15:02 I'd really rather you didn't Jun 26 11:15:49 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:15:52 I know Jun 26 11:17:22 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 11:17:27 If thats what you need to do... Jun 26 11:20:32 * Claudia shrugs Jun 26 11:20:36 We'll see Jun 26 11:21:44 * Morgan nods, looking extremely unhappy Jun 26 11:22:18 It's not personal. It's just a lot. I've gotten used to not dealing with this bullshit Jun 26 11:23:21 I know its not personal. I don't like it. I got used to not mattering, to being alone. Jun 26 11:24:50 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:25:01 It's easier only thinking of yourself Jun 26 11:26:11 Aye. Things change. Jun 26 11:27:08 You never miss it? Jun 26 11:28:20 A little now and then. Jun 26 11:29:59 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:30:31 If I'm going, it won't be without warning Jun 26 11:31:15 * Morgan opens his mouth before closing it again and sipping his drink Jun 26 11:33:40 What " Jun 26 11:33:43 ? Jun 26 11:33:53 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 11:34:00 Warning or not, I won't like it. Jun 26 11:34:54 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:35:26 Once the Rose is back and it's time to take Uinise back I'll be gone anyway Jun 26 11:36:32 * Morgan scowls Jun 26 11:36:34 I know Jun 26 11:39:13 You'll have Heinzharold. I'm leaving him in your care, and he's going to be your problem *she smiles* Jun 26 11:39:55 * Morgan nods, scowling Jun 26 11:40:50 He's annoying, but we wouldn't be without him Jun 26 11:41:24 No. Jun 26 11:45:08 Looking forward to seeing your uncle? Jun 26 11:45:23 Looking forward to Florrie seeing the hot house Jun 26 11:48:55 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:49:42 He seems like he'd like little kids Jun 26 11:50:09 * Morgan nods Jun 26 11:50:21 He was always fun to visit when I was younger Jun 26 11:52:23 * Claudia nods Jun 26 11:52:44 Getting the hell out of Eisen fighting for a bit Jun 26 11:54:07 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 11:54:14 Any excuse to sail when I was that age Jun 26 11:54:54 That only stopped with Dietlinde Jun 26 11:55:39 * Morgan nods Jun 26 11:55:43 yeah Jun 26 11:59:23 Now you're back to it Jun 26 11:59:46 For another few days Jun 26 12:02:11 The need to sail is back though, which you didn't have when they were alive Jun 26 12:02:26 Maybe it'll fade once I'm home Jun 26 12:06:32 That how it happened before? Jun 26 12:06:54 I just... I wanted to be there more than I wanted to be at sea Jun 26 12:11:08 This time you're not so sure? *she loses the hand* Jun 26 12:11:34 It never occurred to me before I'd be giving it up for good Jun 26 12:13:57 When you married Dietlinde? Jun 26 12:14:04 * Morgan nods Jun 26 12:14:46 Think it all just went to your head and you forgot the big picture Jun 26 12:15:24 Thats... probably a fair statement Jun 26 12:16:33 You're more sensible now Jun 26 12:16:51 Yeah, I suppose Jun 26 12:29:07 You've got more duties now Jun 26 12:37:48 I don't think so... Jun 26 13:14:31 Two kids, big estate, imminently going to be a Graf, a fleet to oversee Jun 26 13:15:35 Was going to be a Graf, was a father, was a husband... and the fleet... between Witts and James, I doubt I'll have much input Jun 26 13:17:35 Yeah but you weren't actually preparing to be the Graf like you will be now Jun 26 13:17:49 No... Jun 26 13:18:48 You'll be fine, but it's a lot more than it was Jun 26 13:19:30 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 13:19:32 maybe Jun 26 13:23:24 * Claudia nods. They play a little while, and eventually the landlord kicks them all out. The ship is very quiet when they get back Jun 26 13:24:51 * Morgan heads quietly to his cabin Jun 26 13:25:32 *Molly is indeed already asleep* Jun 26 13:26:41 * Morgan undresses and carefully gets into bed Jun 26 13:28:09 * Claudia is now known as Molly Jun 26 13:32:58 * Molly doesn't wake, and he's soon asleep. He dreams again of tutoring her, and for three weeks now she has visited each day except sundays. At first he was watching the time and dreading her arrival, but then he found he was more resigned. In recent days, he finds himself watching it and waiting to have her peculiar insights, her naivety, and her Jun 26 13:32:58 friendliness, though the attraction still perturbs him. He has arranged for the piano to be tuned as she casually mentioned being able to play a little, and this rainy Thursday he's had it moved to the great hall where they're supposed to be looking at how she should behave at parties. She's already ten minutes late Jun 26 13:34:14 * Morgan paces, muttering Jun 26 13:38:16 * Molly pushes the inside door open, dripping on the floor. Even with her hair wet and some of her makeup smudged beneath her eyes, his heart still skips a moment Jun 26 13:38:29 * Morgan frowns Jun 26 13:38:55 Sorry sorry! My horse didn't like the rain, and nor did I really! Jun 26 13:39:37 * Morgan nods, pulling on bell pull for a servant Jun 26 13:40:12 *a man appears immediately* Jun 26 13:41:32 A towel for Lady Rosenkrantz, and hot tea Jun 26 13:43:09 *he inclines his head and goes* Jun 26 13:43:24 My cloak is sodden! Jun 26 13:45:16 Thats generally what happens. Hang it over the chair *he nods to a chair* Jun 26 13:45:49 * Molly takes it off. Her dress beneath is Eisen style, only wet at the hem Jun 26 13:46:08 I see your uncle has provided you with clothes... Jun 26 13:46:15 * Molly nods Jun 26 13:46:40 I am apparently to dress like an Eisenwoman from now on! Jun 26 13:46:53 That makes sense Jun 26 13:48:47 *she takes the towel and tea when the servant comes, then stands looking from the window as she unbinds her hair to dry it. It's an uncommonly intimate thing to see a grown woman's hair completely undone like this, and the light coming in makes its long lengths more vibrant* Jun 26 13:49:22 I brought dancing shoes in my bag, they thought you might like to help me with my dancing Jun 26 13:49:47 I don't dance Jun 26 13:49:59 * Molly nods Jun 26 13:50:38 I said I didn't think you seemed quite built for it... *she glances over her shoulder, smiling mischievously* Jun 26 13:51:01 No, I am not. Jun 26 13:53:02 Mmhmm... I'd say you're more built for power than for agility and fluidity Jun 26 13:53:22 Would you Jun 26 13:53:27 * Molly nods Jun 26 13:53:42 It's alright, you can't help that Jun 26 13:54:04 * Morgan nods Jun 26 13:54:05 quite Jun 26 13:54:17 * Molly dries the ends "not everyone-can- dance..." Jun 26 13:55:23 No, that is correct Jun 26 13:56:51 * Molly swishes her hair "they'll have to find someone else to teach me that" Jun 26 13:57:12 * Morgan nods Jun 26 13:57:24 I'd suggest Lady Torrington but no doubt she'd expect me to help Jun 26 14:00:10 Yes, we'd need a man. Still, as you cannot, someone else will. It isn't long until we leave Jun 26 14:00:33 No... it isn't Jun 26 14:01:12 * Molly braids her hair Jun 26 14:01:18 Then you'll be free of me Jun 26 14:02:02 I suppose so Jun 26 14:02:52 * Molly smiles, eventually tying it off Jun 26 14:03:08 That will be nice, won't it? You'll have all your free time back Jun 26 14:04:04 I don't get free time, I'm working. And I imagine Lady Torrington will find other ways to make me her project Jun 26 14:08:01 You're a project? I thought the project was making me into a lady an Eisenman would want! Jun 26 14:09:37 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 14:09:40 A little of that Jun 26 14:12:29 * Molly smiles Jun 26 14:12:58 Let's hope she does better than I have done at improving then! Jun 26 14:13:13 You've done fine Jun 26 14:14:33 * Molly blushes a little, smiling shyly Jun 26 14:14:37 You think so? Jun 26 14:15:09 * Morgan nods Jun 26 14:15:32 I'm not the kind to give false praise Jun 26 14:17:30 * Molly nods Jun 26 14:18:14 I noticed. So, Professior Morgan, what do you want to teach me today? Jun 26 14:18:46 * Morgan frowns Jun 26 14:19:00 How to behave at parties Jun 26 14:19:20 * Molly giggles Jun 26 14:19:34 Alright... do I flirt? Jun 26 14:20:49 Without being too obvious, yes. You want to engage people without giving any promises... Jun 26 14:21:43 * Molly looks thoughtful Jun 26 14:21:54 I don't really know how to do it Jun 26 14:22:37 You have the benefit of being young and pretty... you won't need to be obvious or work at it Jun 26 14:24:19 * Molly looks at him earnestly Jun 26 14:24:26 You think I am pretty? Jun 26 14:25:09 I suppose so Jun 26 14:26:59 * Molly frowns slightly Jun 26 14:27:09 What should I do to be more pretty? Jun 26 14:27:39 Nothing. Leave the -trying- to be pretty to those who are past it Jun 26 14:28:03 * Molly nods Jun 26 14:28:29 To flirt, I will just need to look like this and pay attention to a man? Jun 26 14:29:32 More or less, yes... and of course there's the eye contact thing... Jun 26 14:30:16 Eye contact thing? Jun 26 14:30:57 When you want a mans attention, you watch him until you catch his eye, and as soon as eye contact is made, you look away, and down. Jun 26 14:32:48 * Molly nods, watching him Jun 26 14:34:34 Once you've done that a few times chances are they'll get the message and come to talk to you Jun 26 14:35:57 * Molly continues watching him, waiting for him to look Jun 26 14:37:22 * Morgan glances at her Jun 26 14:37:44 * Molly doesn't look away, she just keeps watching him Jun 26 14:38:25 What? Jun 26 14:38:51 * Molly suddenly blinks, then looks away Jun 26 14:39:07 Uhh... sorry... I got distracted Jun 26 14:39:18 * Morgan looks confused Jun 26 14:39:40 Your eyes. They're lovely. Jun 26 14:40:12 They're the same ones I've had this whole time Jun 26 14:40:47 I know, but you don't really look into mine much Jun 26 14:41:12 No. I tend not to make eye contact Jun 26 14:42:00 Why? Jun 26 14:44:31 Because people don't want their servants holding their gaze Jun 26 14:46:04 Oh, that's horrible! I am -never- doing that with my husband's staff Jun 26 14:47:46 * Morgan nods Jun 26 14:47:50 That'll make some waves Jun 26 14:49:09 I don't care. It's wrong that noble people behave that way. Jun 26 14:49:19 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 14:49:22 Not my place to say Jun 26 14:49:48 * Molly looks frustrated by this Jun 26 14:50:13 Sometimes this is very lonely! I am caught alone between two worlds! Jun 26 14:50:32 * Morgan nods, sighing Jun 26 14:50:40 I can imagine Jun 26 14:52:23 Can you? You seem very happy saying nothing whilst I lament how you and your fellow servants are treated! Jun 26 14:53:42 What good would it do to complain? Jun 26 14:55:09 For a sense of unity with others, to get confirmation that not all people think that way? To see that you matter and are valued? Jun 26 14:57:20 I will not get a sense of unity... I am not liked, and I -know- not all people think that way, and I know what it costs. Jun 26 14:57:42 * Molly frowns, fetching him some tea Jun 26 14:58:00 Why don't we talk? I can learn to flirt tomorrow Jun 26 14:58:17 No, you're limited on time, and you have much to learn Jun 26 14:59:57 * Molly pouts a little Jun 26 15:00:07 Please? Jun 26 15:00:39 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 15:00:42 Fine Jun 26 15:02:46 * Molly smiles, moving to sit Jun 26 15:02:58 Why don't you tell me about yourself " Jun 26 15:03:00 ? Jun 26 15:03:24 I don't see what good it would do Jun 26 15:04:25 Because I'm curious... you say you are not liked, but I like you Jun 26 15:05:02 You've only had to deal with me a short time and, as a noblewoman, you are to be treated more... gently than most. Jun 26 15:06:25 You don't strike me as a man who isn't kind and gentle to all women Jun 26 15:06:40 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 15:06:50 You'd have to ask the staff about that Jun 26 15:08:37 Sit, please Jun 26 15:09:46 * Morgan looks like he might argue before pulling a chair over Jun 26 15:36:05 * Molly smiles Jun 26 15:36:11 Are you local? Jun 26 15:36:27 Do I sound local? Jun 26 15:37:08 * Molly tilts her head, watching him Jun 26 15:37:25 No... you sound a bit posh, actually Jun 26 15:37:36 Posh? Jun 26 15:39:43 * Molly smiles Jun 26 15:39:52 Mmhmm, like, formal. Jun 26 15:40:12 I deal with nobility, I represent the household Jun 26 15:40:53 But other places they sound like it's more studied Jun 26 15:41:15 Ah, you think it comes naturally to me Jun 26 15:43:59 Does it? Jun 26 15:44:22 Interesting idea Jun 26 15:44:43 * Molly smiles "non-commital response" Jun 26 15:47:26 Beggin' yer par'n m'lady, I dun fink you gots it quoit roit... Jun 26 15:49:54 * Molly watches his mouth as he talks before suddenly looking away Jun 26 15:50:07 So... umm... you're not local Jun 26 15:50:38 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 26 15:50:50 No, definitely not Jun 26 15:51:11 * Molly nods, swirling the tea in her cup Jun 26 15:51:20 Are you from the big cities? Jun 26 15:51:29 Which ones? Jun 26 15:54:42 Londinium or Carleon Jun 26 15:55:20 No, I'm not from either of those... Jun 26 15:56:39 Where are you from? Jun 26 15:58:04 Would you believe me if I said not Avalon? Jun 26 15:59:51 * Molly nods Jun 26 16:00:13 You have long hair like the Vesten men do Jun 26 16:01:11 You know of Vestenavemennjarr? Jun 26 16:02:05 * Molly nods Jun 26 16:02:09 A little bit Jun 26 16:04:00 * Morgan nods Jun 26 16:04:07 Interesting people... but no. Jun 26 16:08:09 * Molly smiles, watching him Jun 26 16:08:16 Montaigne? Jun 26 16:08:38 Are you just going to guess countries and hope I confirm it? Jun 26 16:08:45 * Molly giggles Jun 26 16:08:50 Maaaaaybe Jun 26 16:09:20 Actually, you can't be Montaigne because you can't dance... Jun 26 16:10:27 * Morgan nods Jun 26 16:10:29 indeed Jun 26 16:10:50 * Molly nods Jun 26 16:11:08 Castillean then? Jun 26 16:11:38 Was it my tan skin gave it away? Jun 26 16:12:23 You might be tanned where I cannot see, and using white powder where I can... Jun 26 16:12:42 Bit elaborate for a servant, even a posh one Jun 26 16:14:00 * Molly nods Jun 26 16:14:12 I know! You're Vodacce! Jun 26 16:15:15 Or maybe I'm Avalonian and just having you on Jun 26 16:16:03 * Molly giggles, looking into his eyes Jun 26 16:16:12 No... I don't think so... Jun 26 16:17:22 No? Jun 26 16:18:18 You're too interesting Jun 26 16:18:58 To be Avalonian? Jun 26 16:19:37 * Molly nods Jun 26 16:19:56 By far Jun 26 16:20:11 Can you keep a secret? Jun 26 16:21:20 * Molly nods eagerly, leaning forward a little "yes!" Jun 26 16:21:59 If this gets out, I'll have to leave my life here... Jun 26 16:23:24 * Molly watches him Jun 26 16:23:54 Maybe I could take you with me? My own personal assistant? Jun 26 16:24:07 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 26 16:25:33 Insel... north coast of Eisen, not far from a fort that was destroyed during the war when the objectionists overrun it... why would I know that in such detail? Jun 26 16:26:08 * Molly shrugs Jun 26 16:26:17 You might like military history? Jun 26 16:26:46 Of my homeland... Jun 26 16:26:57 You're Eisen too?! Jun 26 16:27:05 Mostly Jun 26 16:27:17 Well, that doesn't seem too bad Jun 26 16:30:03 Yes, well... I don't want anyone knowing Jun 26 16:30:33 Why? Jun 26 16:31:35 Because I'd have to leave Jun 26 16:35:13 Oh, she doesn't know, and she won't want you here if she knows you weren't honest? Jun 26 16:36:22 She might... but that is not something I intend to find out Jun 26 16:37:37 * Molly nods Jun 26 16:37:59 I won't tell Jun 26 16:38:07 * Morgan nods Jun 26 16:38:08 Thank you Jun 26 16:38:45 Thank you for trusting me Jun 26 16:39:14 * Morgan nods Jun 26 16:40:58 * Molly smiles Jun 26 16:41:08 So, why are you here and not there? Jun 26 16:42:15 I had to leave. I'm hiding here until I encounter something I can't best Jun 26 16:42:26 * Molly frowns deeply Jun 26 16:42:31 But you'll die Jun 26 16:43:37 Thats generally how it works, yes Jun 26 16:44:43 * Molly looks at him sadly Jun 26 16:44:51 But why? Jun 26 16:46:09 Because my job is to keep Lady Torrington safe Jun 26 16:46:42 Don't you want to do something safer, or more fun? Jun 26 16:47:37 Not really. Jun 26 16:47:55 What -do- you do for fun? Jun 26 16:50:06 Uhhh... I don't Jun 26 16:50:56 What, nothing?! Jun 26 16:51:53 Not really, no Jun 26 16:55:41 Not reading, or riding, or bird watching? Jun 26 16:55:52 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 26 16:55:56 When I am awake, I work Jun 26 16:56:25 That sounds boring! Do you play or sing? Jun 26 16:56:47 Years ago. Now all I do is work Jun 26 16:57:10 * Molly shakes her head sadly Jun 26 16:57:33 You need to find some joy, something beautiful that makes your heart sing Jun 26 16:58:10 * Morgan shrugs, sipping his tea Jun 26 16:58:17 I had it once. It was taken from me. Jun 26 17:00:00 * Molly reaches out and puts her hand on his arm "I am truly very sorry that whatever made you so happy is gone, but you have to find some happiness in your life" Jun 26 17:01:22 I appreciate your sympathy, but it is pointless to try to persuade me Jun 26 17:01:51 Have others tried to? Jun 26 17:02:07 No. Most stay well away from me Jun 26 17:04:13 That sounds lonely Jun 26 17:04:24 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 17:05:08 Do you truly like being alone? Jun 26 17:05:23 Its safer Jun 26 17:05:34 That's a crappy answer Jun 26 17:05:53 Its the truth Jun 26 17:06:14 But it isn't an actual answer, it is a dodge. Jun 26 17:06:29 Not at all Jun 26 17:07:16 Yes it is! I asked if you truly liked it. The answer is a yes or a no Jun 26 17:07:52 No. I don't. But its necessary. Jun 26 17:08:44 Why? Jun 26 17:08:51 * Molly sips her tea Jun 26 17:10:11 * Morgan scowls Jun 26 17:10:15 Because its safer Jun 26 17:11:18 * Molly looks like she'll argue, but then just shuts up Jun 26 17:12:00 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 17:12:09 I had a wife, a daughter. They died. Jun 26 17:12:49 That's awful, I am sorry Jun 26 17:13:11 * Morgan nods Jun 26 17:13:48 It is what it is Jun 26 17:15:04 Wouldn't you like to have a family again? Jun 26 17:17:10 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 17:18:27 I couldn't risk that. Back home I'm known as the crazy Veisgraf, and that is not inaccurate. Losing them broke me. Jun 26 17:18:50 So heal. Live. Isn't that what they'd want? Jun 26 17:19:24 They'd want to not be dead. Jun 26 17:21:49 Well obviously, but what would they want for you now? -this- life? Jun 26 17:22:05 * Morgan shrugs, looking away Jun 26 17:22:07 Doesn't matter Jun 26 17:22:24 * Molly sighs Jun 26 17:23:03 I'm trying to help, but you obviously don't want it Jun 26 17:24:51 I don't see how I -can- be helped. Every day I live, I'm without them, and the guilt of that nearly brings me to my knees. Jun 26 17:29:19 What good is all three of you dying, when there's still joy to be found in the world and joy to give to others? Jun 26 17:30:02 * Morgan sighs, finishing his tea Jun 26 17:30:11 I shouldn't have mentioned it Jun 26 17:30:48 I'm not going to tell anyone Jun 26 17:32:26 * Morgan nods Jun 26 17:32:28 good Jun 26 17:32:40 * Molly nods Jun 26 17:32:51 Could I... would you accept a hug? Jun 26 17:35:14 If it would help you, I suppose Jun 26 17:35:32 It would Jun 26 17:35:39 * Morgan nods Jun 26 17:35:40 * Molly stands Jun 26 17:35:41 Very well Jun 26 17:36:23 * Molly waits for him to stand too Jun 26 17:37:18 * Morgan does so Jun 26 17:38:43 * Molly wraps her arms around his waist. She's short enough that she fits under his chin. It's been a long time since he's had such close contact with a woman. She smells nice, like roses. She doesn't let go Jun 26 17:39:27 * Morgan waits quietly Jun 26 17:40:17 *fifteen seconds pass, then twenty. He feels his body unintentionally relax, a biological human mechanism from close contact* Jun 26 17:40:44 If you're done... Jun 26 17:41:10 Not quite *she sounds a little amused* Jun 26 17:42:18 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 17:43:17 * Molly gently lets go Jun 26 17:43:25 That wasn't so bad, was it? Jun 26 17:44:38 I suppose not Jun 26 17:44:49 * Molly smiles Jun 26 17:45:07 Will they want me to sing at parties? Jun 26 17:45:36 It would help you stand out to suitors Jun 26 17:45:58 Is it important for me to have a wife that can sing well? Jun 26 17:47:19 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 17:47:37 Depends on the husband... Jun 26 17:48:08 What sort of things should I sing? Jun 26 17:49:07 * Morgan gives her the names of a few Eisen songs Jun 26 17:49:24 I don't know any of those Jun 26 17:52:14 I imagine your uncle could teach you Jun 26 17:52:30 Shall I sing something, then you can work out which of those songs they should to teach me first? Jun 26 17:53:38 * Morgan nods Jun 26 17:53:40 If you like Jun 26 17:55:52 * Molly starts to sing Kosk Yn Ta, the mix of Avalonian and Vesten something he hasn't heard since being a young boy at Catterick on holiday Jun 26 17:56:42 * Morgan sits back down, rubbing at his jaw as she sings Jun 26 17:57:09 * Molly finishes, chewing her lip Jun 26 17:57:17 Sorry, it wasn't good? Jun 26 17:57:42 It was. Its a song I've not heard in a long while, thats all Jun 26 17:57:53 But one you like? Jun 26 17:58:18 * Morgan nods Jun 26 17:58:22 My mother used to sing it to me Jun 26 17:59:32 * Molly smiles sadly Jun 26 17:59:49 I'm sorry, were you young when you lost her? Jun 26 18:02:47 To the best of my knowledge she is still alive Jun 26 18:06:06 But you're hiding from her? Jun 26 18:07:02 From everyone Jun 26 18:08:16 Don't you love them anymore? Jun 26 18:09:48 Of course I do. Jun 26 18:10:28 That's confusing Jun 26 18:11:17 I'm sorry but... its just something you'll have to take at face value Jun 26 18:11:58 * Molly nods Jun 26 18:12:21 It just seems that you are punishing yourself and punishing your loved ones unfairly Jun 26 18:13:16 Yes, well, you are not in possession of all the facts Jun 26 18:14:21 * Molly watches him a moment before she shrugs and says "okay. How many songs will they expect me to sing?" Jun 26 18:14:42 Probably best to know five... but I'd be surprised if they wanted more than two or three Jun 26 18:15:55 * Molly nods Jun 26 18:17:01 Do I sing well enough? Shall I sing you something else? Jun 26 18:18:10 You do... you have a very nice voice Jun 26 18:19:04 * Molly smiles, blushing Jun 26 18:19:09 Thank you Jun 26 18:20:11 * Morgan nods, looking distracted Jun 26 18:22:16 * Molly watches him Jun 26 18:22:26 Did I do something wrong? Jun 26 18:22:45 * Molly has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Jun 26 18:27:13 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 26 18:27:24 [18:22:26] Molly: Did I do something wrong? Jun 26 18:27:40 No... its just been a long time since I've had to think about my family Jun 26 18:28:21 Sorry. Do you want me to go home now? Jun 26 18:30:04 No... no... you've not much time left, best not waste it Jun 26 18:33:09 I know another Vesten song, if you want to hear it? Jun 26 18:34:15 * Morgan nods Jun 26 18:35:31 * MollyK sings a lullaby. He's not heard it before, and he can just about put the words together (https://www.mamalisa.com/?t=es&p=5557) Jun 26 18:39:10 * Morgan waits until she has finished before nodding slowly Jun 26 18:39:32 I don't understand most of it, but it's pretty Jun 26 18:40:02 It is... not a happy song Jun 26 18:40:37 Do you understand it? Jun 26 18:40:49 Just abouts Jun 26 18:41:15 Would you tell me? Jun 26 18:41:35 * Morgan recites it in Avalonian Jun 26 18:42:12 That's rather dark Jun 26 18:42:24 * Morgan nods Jun 26 18:42:26 Yes... it is Jun 26 18:42:39 * MollyK nods Jun 26 18:42:57 I heard it in the docks in the north, a place called Durham Jun 26 18:43:20 I know Durham. I have family not too far from there Jun 26 18:44:33 * MollyK 's eyes light up Jun 26 18:44:36 Me too! Jun 26 18:44:53 Oh? Jun 26 18:45:45 My mother's twin sister, two uncles, another aunt, two cousins Jun 26 18:47:01 * Morgan nods slowly Jun 26 18:47:05 A large family Jun 26 18:48:18 * MollyK laughs Jun 26 18:48:43 My Mama is one of eight and my father one of seven. I'm their thirteenth Jun 26 18:49:05 * Morgan looks surprised Jun 26 18:49:16 My family is nothing like so big Jun 26 18:49:47 No? How many siblings do you have? Jun 26 18:50:31 Just one. My mother has a brother, my fathers brother passed Jun 26 18:51:14 That is small! Are you parents not very attracted? Jun 26 18:52:36 Thats just how many children they had Jun 26 18:52:57 That's unlucky Jun 26 18:54:14 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 18:58:55 I like children. And I'll be expected to have many Jun 26 19:00:39 * Morgan nods Jun 26 19:00:41 probably Jun 26 19:03:40 * MollyK doesn't bring up his family or sadness again. When she leaves it is drier, and she waves from the saddle as her exit leaves him stood alone at the outer gates Jun 26 19:04:09 * Morgan gives her a brief wave as he watches her Jun 26 19:05:36 * MollyK is a confident rider, and he can still recall the exact feel of her when she hugged him even when she is out of sight Jun 26 19:05:55 * Morgan sighs heavily, going back toward the house Jun 26 19:06:39 *the chime of an indoor clock wakes him for dawn* Jun 26 19:08:02 * Morgan gently rolls out of bed, before standing and rubbing his face Jun 26 19:08:50 *he manages not to wake her* Jun 26 19:09:52 * Morgan quickly gets dressed before going to get coffee and heading up on deck Jun 26 19:10:22 * MollyK is now known as Sorgi Jun 26 19:10:37 * Sorgi is on watch Jun 26 19:11:02 * Morgan wanders over to him Jun 26 19:11:03 Captain Jun 26 19:11:30 M'lord, good morning Jun 26 19:11:59 You left quickly last night... Jun 26 19:13:40 I knew I was on at four Jun 26 19:14:05 * Morgan nods Jun 26 19:14:09 As long as all is well... Jun 26 19:14:35 It is. How was Claudia? Jun 26 19:15:05 Alright, mostly. She is worrying me a little. Jun 26 19:15:21 Why? Jun 26 19:16:50 I'm worried she'll just disappear to escape the burden of her emotional issues Jun 26 19:17:25 She won't vanish, but I think part of her wants to pull away Jun 26 19:17:38 * Morgan nods Jun 26 19:17:46 She's used to hiding from her emotions Jun 26 19:19:05 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:19:07 She is Jun 26 19:20:37 * Morgan sighs, looking round Jun 26 19:21:44 *it's still quite dark* Jun 26 19:22:05 Pushing on after we collect Alice and Florrie? Jun 26 19:22:40 * Morgan nods Jun 26 19:22:45 Reckon so, aye. Time to go home Jun 26 19:24:12 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:25:00 Briefly stopping for a visit to you uncle and then Molly's uncle? Jun 26 19:25:07 * Morgan nods Jun 26 19:25:13 Aye. Jun 26 19:25:25 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:25:45 Do you want the animals slaughtered and butchered on the way? Jun 26 19:26:21 I'll ask Alice when get to the island... no point killing them if she can use them on the island Jun 26 19:26:58 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:27:14 Very well, m'lord. How long will it take to get them aboard? Jun 26 19:27:57 Shouldn't imagine it'll take too long... they're both used to sailing Jun 26 19:29:07 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:29:22 Do you want to resume some watches? Jun 26 19:29:52 Let me get back to you on that Jun 26 19:30:00 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:30:03 Of course Jun 26 19:30:45 I've got some things to build before we get back Jun 26 19:33:10 * Sorgi nods Jun 26 19:33:25 I can crew her fine without you Jun 26 19:33:34 * Morgan nods Jun 26 19:33:39 I have no doubt Jun 26 19:34:06 Let me know then Jun 26 19:34:18 /me nods Jun 26 19:34:22 Aye cap'n Jun 26 19:36:25 * Sorgi nods. Very soon it is time to get underway, starting the ninety minute trip out of the estuary and towards the island Jun 26 19:36:57 * Morgan keeps out of the way Jun 26 19:37:34 *at about eight, he hears* [my love?] Jun 26 19:37:46 [yes?] Jun 26 19:41:08 [are you working?] Jun 26 19:41:25 [no, just watching the water go by] Jun 26 19:42:43 [is everything alright?] Jun 26 19:43:23 [I believe so. Are you?] Jun 26 19:48:25 [I think so] Jun 26 19:48:52 [I'll bring you some coffee] Jun 26 19:50:33 [thank you, but I am still naked!] Jun 26 19:51:06 [oh well] Jun 26 19:51:14 * Morgan heads down to the galley to make the coffee Jun 26 19:52:24 *no one interrupts him* Jun 26 19:53:40 * Morgan takes it back to his cabin Jun 26 19:54:38 * Sorgi is now known as Molly Jun 26 19:55:14 * Molly is sat up in bed, sheets covering her breasts. She smiles a little Jun 26 19:55:19 Good morning Jun 26 19:56:12 * Morgan carefully hands her a cup of coffee Jun 26 19:56:15 Morning love Jun 26 19:57:49 * Molly takes it Jun 26 19:57:55 How was your night? Jun 26 19:58:51 The brothel was fine. I dreamed once I was asleep, as expected Jun 26 20:00:15 * Molly sighs Jun 26 20:00:23 What was it? Jun 26 20:00:51 I was tutoring you Jun 26 20:01:03 You told me about your relatives in Durham Jun 26 20:04:17 Oh? I knew them? Jun 26 20:04:53 * Morgan nods Jun 26 20:05:33 Two aunts, two uncles and two cousins. One of the aunts is a twin. Jun 26 20:06:48 * Molly nods "that would be my aunt Cecily, and the cousins are probably Lucinda who died, and Richard who is a solicitor in Londinium. I don't know anything of the others though" Jun 26 20:07:00 * Morgan nods Jun 26 20:09:28 You've had this thread three times now? Jun 26 20:11:25 Uhhh, yes, I think so Jun 26 20:12:32 * Molly nods Jun 26 20:12:45 You are still feeling that attraction? Jun 26 20:13:02 * Morgan nods Jun 26 20:13:03 yes Jun 26 20:13:25 * Molly nods seriously Jun 26 20:14:13 It seems that we're always put in that position. That we've always been steered Jun 26 20:14:32 * Morgan nods Jun 26 20:14:33 aye Jun 26 20:17:29 Sometimes that grates on me Jun 26 20:17:36 I know Jun 26 20:18:52 I don't like that the attraction could have been manufactured for you with me Jun 26 20:19:42 * Morgan nods Jun 26 20:19:45 Nor do I Jun 26 20:20:05 * Molly sighs Jun 26 20:20:36 What if you'd have felt nothing if they had not forced it, you know? Jun 26 20:21:20 I don't think that is the case Jun 26 20:24:16 * Molly shrugs Jun 26 20:24:37 Perhaps *she sips the coffee* I'm sorry, I am still out of sorts Jun 26 20:25:23 I noticed Jun 26 20:26:52 I'm so sad for her... if I'd been here... Jun 26 20:27:28 We cannot change what has already happened Jun 26 20:29:07 No, but it feels much like it is my fault Jun 26 20:29:30 It isn't, not at all Jun 26 20:31:49 * Molly drinks her coffee Jun 26 20:32:12 Maybe he'll change. Maybe what I did will help Jun 26 20:32:57 Maybe. Write to him, tell him what she needs and that its down to him and his conscience Jun 26 20:36:38 I did that last night Jun 26 20:37:01 Then its up to him Jun 26 20:40:11 * Molly nods Jun 26 20:40:26 There's nothing more we can do, I know... Jun 26 20:41:17 * Morgan nods Jun 26 20:41:20 I'm afraid not Jun 26 20:42:56 * Molly nods sadly Jun 26 20:43:22 How are you handling it? Jun 26 20:44:12 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 20:44:21 I hate it, but I cannot fix it Jun 26 20:48:08 I meant how are you feeling for yourself? Is it particularly difficult Jun 26 20:48:19 Yes, it is. Jun 26 20:51:54 Would you sit and tell me? Jun 26 20:54:19 * Morgan sighs, sitting down Jun 26 20:55:50 It could so easily have been me Jun 26 21:02:36 Becoming a drunk? Jun 26 21:02:52 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:03:34 You have dreamt that before, I think? Jun 26 21:05:16 I think so Jun 26 21:06:01 * Molly nods Jun 26 21:06:20 I think you still had Jana... I was your nursery nurse Jun 26 21:07:38 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:07:40 Yes, thats right Jun 26 21:08:17 You were certainly unhappy enough in reality Jun 26 21:08:24 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:09:08 He shouldn't have remarried so soon Jun 26 21:09:32 No, he shouldnt Jun 26 21:10:23 I think I will write to Beth, and ask her and Peter to be nosey and get involved... Jun 26 21:11:47 Bit much to ask them isn't it? Jun 26 21:12:49 For the sake of my Goddaughter's well-being? No. Jun 26 21:14:04 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:14:06 alright Jun 26 21:14:55 * Molly looks at him Jun 26 21:15:10 It was difficult not to just bring her with us. Jun 26 21:15:45 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:15:47 I know Jun 26 21:17:30 I really could not face your Father with two extra babies though! Jun 26 21:18:17 No, he would be livid Jun 26 21:20:06 * Molly nods, taking his hand Jun 26 21:20:14 She's beautiful though Jun 26 21:21:30 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:21:32 Yes she is Jun 26 21:22:21 Helen can manage, can't she? Jun 26 21:22:47 If he doesn't sort himself out soon, his father will have to step in Jun 26 21:23:34 * Molly nods Jun 26 21:24:01 But with Kathleen... she's a competent mother? Jun 26 21:25:41 Yes, she is Jun 26 21:26:02 * Molly nods Jun 26 21:26:17 So I do not need to feel bad about leaving her? Jun 26 21:26:53 No, love, you don't. And we have more than enough to be dealing with Jun 26 21:28:26 * Molly nods Jun 26 21:28:51 What is it about the potential of being like him that most troubles you? Jun 26 21:39:58 Their disappointment... that I could have kept them here Jun 26 21:42:27 * Molly nods Jun 26 21:42:36 That would be even harder Jun 26 21:43:30 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:52:50 She must have had confidence that you would make it through Jun 26 21:53:00 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 21:53:02 perhaps Jun 26 21:53:17 * Molly watches him Jun 26 21:53:28 You know she loved you very much Jun 26 21:54:00 * Morgan nods Jun 26 21:54:04 I know Jun 26 21:54:20 You do not need to worry that she didn't stay Jun 26 21:54:43 No... Jun 26 21:54:51 But...? Jun 26 21:55:21 * Morgan sighs, shrugging Jun 26 21:55:40 My love... there's clearly something Jun 26 21:56:47 They'd have been so disappointed in me. Jun 26 21:57:04 If you'd been like John...? Jun 26 21:57:17 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 26 21:57:36 I couldn't afford to get that drunk.... No, the way I behaved... Jun 26 21:57:55 * Molly puts her coffee aside, opening her arms Jun 26 21:58:30 * Morgan moves into them, leaning his head against her Jun 26 21:59:41 She'd have understood that you were suffering, that you were trying to be with them Jun 26 22:00:30 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 22:00:53 * Molly kisses his temple Jun 26 22:01:06 Be gentle with the man I love, please Jun 26 22:01:23 I'm trying to Jun 26 22:01:30 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:02:25 You had an awful time of it. You made irrational choices. But now you have healed some you are able to fully live and honour them Jun 26 22:04:12 * Morgan nods, sitting up Jun 26 22:05:09 * Molly watches him seriously "are you withdrawing?" Jun 26 22:05:38 I'm trying to carry on Jun 26 22:06:33 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:06:48 You are not a drunk, and they are at peace Jun 26 22:07:17 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:07:25 Couldn't afford to be a drunk Jun 26 22:07:32 * Molly smiles Jun 26 22:07:42 You have a large capacity Jun 26 22:08:34 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:09:46 If you'd stayed in Eisen it would have been easier Jun 26 22:10:51 Because we have alcohol there Jun 26 22:11:36 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:11:41 Indeed we do Jun 26 22:14:40 * Morgan sighs Jun 26 22:14:52 I need to ask Alice if she wants the livestock for the island Jun 26 22:15:04 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:15:29 Alright, my love. We will be there quite soon? Jun 26 22:15:35 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:15:39 yes Jun 26 22:15:58 I'd best dress then Jun 26 22:16:16 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:16:19 I'd say so love Jun 26 22:17:30 * Molly nods, pushing down the sheets. She glances at her breasts Jun 26 22:17:48 I'd say it looks like feeding is rather needed Jun 26 22:18:20 Shall I get Emil? Jun 26 22:18:54 * Molly giggles Jun 26 22:19:04 Unless you are offering assistance, yes Jun 26 22:19:25 I sus[ect he'd be put out about that Jun 26 22:19:49 The amount I make I doubt he'd even notice! Jun 26 22:20:00 * Morgan chuckles, getting up Jun 26 22:20:03 I'll not be long Jun 26 22:20:12 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:20:21 Alright Jun 26 22:20:42 * Morgan wanders into the boys room to get him Jun 26 22:21:51 *the boys are both still asleep* Jun 26 22:22:17 * Morgan gently picks up Emil, carrying him through to Molly Jun 26 22:22:50 *Emil wakes up on the way, then breaks into a smile at seeing Morgan* Jun 26 22:22:58 Hello little man Jun 26 22:23:13 E: *he grins more* Jun 26 22:24:45 * Morgan carries him through, singing quietly to him((Through these fields of destruction Jun 26 22:24:45 Baptisms of fire Jun 26 22:24:45 I've witnessed your suffering Jun 26 22:24:45 As the battle raged higher Jun 26 22:24:45 And though they did hurt me so bad Jun 26 22:24:47 In the fear and alarm Jun 26 22:24:49 You did not desert me Jun 26 22:24:51 My brothers in arms)) Jun 26 22:26:24 *Emil watches him raptly* Jun 26 22:27:44 * Morgan hands him over to Molly Jun 26 22:28:25 * Molly laughs as she is immediately manhandled and latched on to Jun 26 22:30:09 You're as bad as your uncle Heinzharold! Jun 26 22:31:06 -that- statement could be taken the wrong way... Jun 26 22:31:16 * Molly looks confused Jun 26 22:31:19 How so? Jun 26 22:31:37 Sounds like he's been doing the same thing... Jun 26 22:32:41 You are surely not concerned? Jun 26 22:33:26 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 26 22:33:33 No... even though I've dreamed it Jun 26 22:34:02 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:34:26 He's more like a brother Jun 26 22:34:50 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:34:52 I know Jun 26 22:36:05 It is only you and your son who may do this to me Jun 26 22:36:35 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:36:47 For now... then it'll be other sons and daughters Jun 26 22:37:06 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:37:17 It will be rare when it is only you Jun 26 22:38:26 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:38:29 That it will Jun 26 22:40:59 * Molly smiles Jun 26 22:41:08 You'll always be welcomed Jun 26 22:42:15 * Morgan nods, humming to himself before sipping his coffee Jun 26 22:43:05 * Molly lovingly feeds the baby, stroking his hair Jun 26 22:43:39 How long til we arrive? Jun 26 22:43:50 * Morgan checks the time Jun 26 22:43:59 Less than an hour, probably closer to half Jun 26 22:44:38 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:44:50 Could you help me dress? Jun 26 22:44:58 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:45:01 I expect so Jun 26 22:45:10 * Molly smilesz Jun 26 22:45:30 Unlike this young man, I'm sure you'll keep your hands to yourself Jun 26 22:46:37 I'll manage, I expect Jun 26 22:46:45 * Molly smiles Jun 26 22:47:05 Except for in my imagination, naturally Jun 26 22:47:26 * Molly climbs off the bed, carrying the baby at her chest Jun 26 22:47:29 * Morgan nods, moving to find her some clothes Jun 26 22:48:37 *she directs him to a shift, petticoat, an underbust corset, and a dress that laces at the front* Jun 26 22:49:10 * Morgan lays them out, ready Jun 26 22:49:34 * Molly smiles Jun 26 22:49:46 The shift will be the hardest bit Jun 26 22:50:03 * Morgan nods Jun 26 22:50:07 Alright Jun 26 22:51:10 * Molly manages to get in it with minimal disruption and plenty of aid. Jun 26 22:51:41 Did well... Jun 26 22:51:59 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:52:09 Would you do my corset? Jun 26 22:52:56 * Morgan nods, fetching it and helping her into it Jun 26 22:54:08 * Molly waits patiently Jun 26 22:54:18 Is that as snug as it will go? Jun 26 22:54:29 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 26 22:54:32 No... Jun 26 22:54:44 A little tighter then, please Jun 26 22:55:04 * Morgan nods, pulling it tighter Jun 26 22:55:21 * Molly makes a brief, familiar sound Jun 26 22:55:30 Mmhmm that's better Jun 26 22:56:15 * Morgan nods, tugging it a little before tying it off Jun 26 22:56:56 I've gained weight there and definitely in my hips, bottom and thighs! Jun 26 22:57:26 * Morgan shrugs Jun 26 22:57:37 There was much food to try in Capperlucia Jun 26 22:57:47 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:58:24 Inga has gained a little too. Heinzharold says it's just more of her to grab and squeeze Jun 26 22:58:49 Thats because he only has one thing on his mind Jun 26 22:58:56 * Molly nods Jun 26 22:59:06 It must be a peaceful way to be Jun 26 22:59:42 Dim? Jun 26 23:01:00 He's a simple man Jun 26 23:01:11 * Morgan nods Jun 26 23:01:59 * Molly sighs softly Jun 26 23:02:10 Alright, petticoat please Jun 26 23:02:17 * Morgan nods, fetching it Jun 26 23:02:55 * Molly needs help with this and then the dress which she leaves open for access Jun 26 23:03:06 There we are, decent enough Jun 26 23:03:20 * Morgan nods Jun 26 23:03:27 I suppose I'd better wake Varick Jun 26 23:03:34 * Molly nods Jun 26 23:03:40 Yes. Thank you Jun 26 23:04:05 * Morgan nods, going to wake Varick Jun 26 23:04:28 * Molly is now known as Varick Jun 26 23:04:45 * Varick looks peaceful Jun 26 23:04:59 * Morgan rouses him gently Jun 26 23:05:18 * Varick yawns Jun 26 23:07:03 We'll be getting to the island soon to get Florrie and Alice Jun 26 23:07:11 * Varick nods Jun 26 23:07:24 Okay Vati... is Mama still sad Jun 26 23:07:42 A little bit, yes. It was very upsetting for her. How are you feeling about it all? Jun 26 23:08:21 I am sad I couldn't help and that Mama is sad Jun 26 23:08:38 * Morgan nods Jun 26 23:08:46 And what about what Helen said? Jun 26 23:09:25 I am still sad about that too Jun 26 23:09:34 You know she's wrong, don't you? Jun 26 23:10:10 Captain Ulysses and Bir aren't family because they are different Jun 26 23:10:44 Thats different... and besides, I think of Captain Ulysses, and my dog, and Bir as family Jun 26 23:12:21 But they aren't brothers Jun 26 23:13:45 Aren't they? Jun 26 23:14:08 I don't know Jun 26 23:16:06 I think they are... they're family, whether other people think so or not Jun 26 23:16:26 * Varick sighs Jun 26 23:16:40 I just want him to be my brother Jun 26 23:16:56 He is Jun 26 23:17:45 But not with blood Jun 26 23:18:11 That doesn't matter Jun 26 23:18:32 Why? Jun 26 23:20:13 Because its how we feel in here *he touches Varicks chest* that matters. You love him as your brother, so thats what he is. And, as far as the law is concerned, you're both my sons, that makes you brothers Jun 26 23:20:27 * Varick nods Jun 26 23:20:34 Okay Vati, I trust you Jun 26 23:20:56 * Morgan leans in, kissing the boys crown Jun 26 23:20:58 Thank you Jun 26 23:21:20 Where is he? Jun 26 23:21:58 He's with mama, feeding Jun 26 23:22:47 Will there be milk for me? Jun 26 23:23:34 [Can you express some milk for Varick? He's feeling a little sad] Jun 26 23:23:37 Probably Jun 26 23:23:56 [of course] Jun 26 23:24:20 * Varick gets up, starting to dress Jun 26 23:25:23 * Morgan sits on his bed, waiting for him Jun 26 23:25:40 * Varick sits beside him when he is done Jun 26 23:26:36 * Morgan wraps his arms around him, hugging him tightly Jun 26 23:26:52 * Varick hugs him back Jun 26 23:27:16 Why won't John be better so she can rest? Jun 26 23:27:41 Its very hard when you're that sad Jun 26 23:28:01 But he has to try! That's what we did! Jun 26 23:29:21 Its difficult... before I came home I spent years trying to hide from it all... Jun 26 23:31:34 But you wouldn't make your new wife so sad or not spend time with you kid, Vati! Jun 26 23:32:07 No... but I had longer, didn't I? They got married far too quickly Jun 26 23:32:30 You still would be kinder Jun 26 23:33:23 He's not trying to be unkind... he's just overwhelmed by it all Jun 26 23:33:59 He drinks too much, that's what she says Jun 26 23:34:46 For him it makes it... number Jun 26 23:36:24 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)