**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Jun 24 10:35:01 2023 Jun 24 10:35:01 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 24 10:44:37 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 24 13:17:30 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 24 18:53:08 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 24 18:53:43 That's not... alright, my love Jun 24 18:54:02 I don't understand Jun 24 18:54:13 * MollyK smiles Jun 24 18:54:24 That you and I will not go there Jun 24 18:54:49 To... the brothel... Jun 24 18:57:11 Yes Jun 24 18:57:23 I'm confused Jun 24 18:57:58 I was making the point that you and I cannot really go to the brothel as we did before because my family will hear of it Jun 24 18:59:50 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:00:12 No, indeed, but that was not in the plans anyway, even before encountering Daggett Jun 24 19:04:11 * MollyK nods sadly Jun 24 19:04:36 I hear Inga and Heinzharold had an entertaining evening Jun 24 19:05:03 * Morgan pulls a face Jun 24 19:05:24 They encountered Bran Piram... pompous jumped up inbred little weasel Jun 24 19:05:34 * MollyK laughs Jun 24 19:05:45 He was quite taken with Inga, it seems! Jun 24 19:06:06 Thats not -that- surprising... Jun 24 19:06:31 Oh? *she smirks* now why would that be, hmm? Jun 24 19:07:14 There is no denying she's a beautiful woman with... notable assets... Jun 24 19:08:44 Oh, I don't think he'd -seen- her by then, just -heard- her! Jun 24 19:09:13 Huh... having heard her, I'm still not surprised Jun 24 19:09:24 * MollyK giggles Jun 24 19:10:31 I suppose if she'd been ugly he could have kept it dark... Jun 24 19:12:04 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:12:48 Are you impressed Heinzharold didn't hurt him? Jun 24 19:13:07 I'm surprised he took no for an answer Jun 24 19:16:14 * MollyK nods Jun 24 19:16:18 Me too Jun 24 19:16:52 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:16:57 Come on, you're missing time with your family Jun 24 19:18:29 * MollyK walks beside him Jun 24 19:18:56 Do you want me to take her? Jun 24 19:19:21 Only if you want to Jun 24 19:20:35 If you're enjoying carrying a small baby, that is fine with me, my love. I only want your comfort Jun 24 19:21:11 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:21:12 I'm fine Jun 24 19:23:27 * MollyK smiles Jun 24 19:23:43 It'll be good practice again, hmm? Jun 24 19:25:49 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:25:53 I suppose it will Jun 24 19:27:05 * MollyK watches him sidelong Jun 24 19:27:29 You seem distracted, my love Jun 24 19:28:20 * Morgan shrugs Jun 24 19:28:26 Beth seemed... concerned about me Jun 24 19:28:38 Did she? Jun 24 19:29:57 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:32:59 She did fish a little, asking how things were between us... Jun 24 19:34:57 Figured as much Jun 24 19:35:57 We weren't in as good a place before we left as we are now, I think Jun 24 19:36:08 No, we weren't Jun 24 19:37:43 And now... I suppose we're a lot more settled than before Jun 24 19:38:20 I think Inga described it quite well, that there was a void that opened up, where we were so wary of upsetting eachother... Jun 24 19:40:51 * MollyK nods Jun 24 19:41:04 Yes. We were Jun 24 19:42:07 I don't think that is the case anymore Jun 24 19:48:20 No... Occassionally after your dreams, but I think that is all now Jun 24 19:48:51 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:49:07 The feelings linger, the shock of the loss... its... difficult Jun 24 19:49:44 * MollyK nods Jun 24 19:50:30 You move backwards, emotionally, back to where you couldn't let yourself be with me. It's hard Jun 24 19:51:42 * Morgan sighs Jun 24 19:51:59 I just... I need to shut myself off so I can deal with those feelings Jun 24 19:52:07 * MollyK nods Jun 24 19:52:25 I know, my love. I try to give you that space... Jun 24 19:54:19 * Morgan nods Jun 24 19:54:22 I'm doing the best I can Jun 24 19:56:50 * MollyK nods Jun 24 19:56:59 I know, my love Jun 24 20:00:27 * Morgan nods, looking round Jun 24 20:03:43 *the garden is empty. She sighs* I just hope one day we can move forward, and not have that strain. Jun 24 20:04:11 As do I... but there is little control I have over it Jun 24 20:07:20 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:07:50 I know. And I remind myself that it is temporary, and when it passes you will be here with me as you chose to be Jun 24 20:09:02 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:12:09 * MollyK wanders toward the house Jun 24 20:12:19 We will be taking the children too... Jun 24 20:13:15 Yes, I know Jun 24 20:15:02 Varick likes it here Jun 24 20:15:46 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:15:51 He likes being around other children Jun 24 20:16:46 Especially now he has his own baby to show off Jun 24 20:17:37 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:17:38 indeed Jun 24 20:18:37 I did remind him that the things he knows about making babies are things the others will know one day when their parents think the time is right Jun 24 20:18:52 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:18:56 I was a little concerned about that Jun 24 20:19:18 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:19:20 Me too Jun 24 20:22:58 I'm thinking I'll send a mirror back to Catherine Jun 24 20:24:02 Do you think she will be alright with it? Jun 24 20:24:53 In what respect? Jun 24 20:27:45 It is rather unusual magic Jun 24 20:27:52 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:28:06 She's walked through a portal, I'm sure she'll be fine Jun 24 20:28:15 * MollyK smiles Jun 24 20:28:26 And ended up on Morgan's Rock... Jun 24 20:29:39 No... -she- ended up on a sunny beach some place... -he- ended up there Jun 24 20:30:08 Oh, I forgot. It's been a rather intense time since then! Jun 24 20:30:43 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:30:45 That much is true Jun 24 20:31:39 Maybe when we are settled and look back on all this travelling we'll think how odd it was to be forever moving Jun 24 20:32:23 I'm finding it a difficult situation Jun 24 20:33:50 Settling with me? Jun 24 20:35:27 No... sailing is... for a long time it was all I wanted, then I met Dietlinde... then after the fire, I was on the move again, a lot... and now we've travelled so far, for so long, which is exactly what a part of my soul always wants... but there's a part of me that just wants to go home, and... -be-. Jun 24 20:36:45 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:37:06 I worry it will never be enough. It was enough before, but maybe it wouldn't ,be enough now Jun 24 20:40:37 I know. I am worried how much I will miss sailing, particularly given the experience I've had this last couple of months Jun 24 20:40:48 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:41:12 I won't be a woman that holds you back. I refuse to. Jun 24 20:42:37 I have no desire to be disappearing off for months... Jun 24 20:43:19 Then what, my love? Jun 24 20:45:12 I don't know... just... to be able to go and sail for a little while... I've no desire to head off to Capperlucia again unless its absolutely necessary Jun 24 20:45:29 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:45:51 I will not easily be able to follow unless we have no more babies Jun 24 20:46:10 I know... I don't see it being necessary Jun 24 20:47:16 No, at all. Once Heinzharold and Inga have babies, we cannot expect them to come on holidays with us and help Jun 24 20:47:32 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:47:39 I suppose you're right Jun 24 20:47:52 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:48:23 I am preparing that I will not be travelling whilst you will still be going to your duties and some sailing Jun 24 20:50:22 The former is quite unavoidable Jun 24 20:54:11 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:54:49 I will have a household to run, staff to oversee, and children to care for. I will be busy, but I will miss you Jun 24 20:55:01 * Morgan nods Jun 24 20:55:10 Such is the duty we have I'm afraid Jun 24 20:56:27 * MollyK nods Jun 24 20:56:52 Do you wish we didn't? That we could just have a small house like this, and a farm? Jun 24 20:57:11 Sometimes, yes. Jun 24 20:59:02 You would not find that too dull? Jun 24 20:59:33 I don't think so. But that is not our destiny Jun 24 21:02:19 No, it isn't. Jun 24 21:05:48 Besides... I can't help our people from a farmstead Jun 24 21:06:14 * MollyK smiles Jun 24 21:06:23 A few, but not many Jun 24 21:07:21 * Morgan nods Jun 24 21:07:24 quite Jun 24 21:09:40 I will need to see John alone Jun 24 21:10:43 Why? Jun 24 21:13:48 Because I want to use magic on him Jun 24 21:14:28 * Morgan nods Jun 24 21:14:35 alright Jun 24 21:16:13 Besides, he can talk to me in ways he might not be able to with anyone else because of our shared love for her Jun 24 21:16:28 * Morgan nods Jun 24 21:16:35 That is a good point Jun 24 21:17:37 * MollyK nods Jun 24 21:18:00 You needn't worry, I've no feelings for him h8m nor any other man Jun 24 21:19:58 I wasn't worried Jun 24 21:20:18 You are very secure? Jun 24 21:22:33 * Morgan nods Jun 24 21:22:35 I am, yes Jun 24 21:22:49 * MollyK looks happy Jun 24 21:22:56 I am very glad to hear that Jun 24 21:24:31 * Morgan nods Jun 24 21:24:33 good Jun 24 21:25:13 And you feel that even when we will see Seb next week? Jun 24 21:25:39 Thats more difficult Jun 24 21:30:15 Is it? Jun 24 21:31:10 * Morgan nods Jun 24 21:31:14 Because of their meddling... Jun 24 21:34:14 You do not trust that they might decide he and I are to be more useful together? Jun 24 21:35:08 Its a possibility Jun 24 21:36:25 * MollyK shakes her head Jun 24 21:36:33 I won't stand for it. Jun 24 21:39:40 Do you think that would be enough? Jun 24 21:40:17 I would never leave you *she watches him* Jun 24 21:43:43 * Morgan sighs, nodding Jun 24 21:43:46 Alright love Jun 24 21:43:57 You do not sound sure Jun 24 21:44:21 just... they wield power on behalf of Theus... Jun 24 21:46:51 I won't be party to that. I won't have you having to live with me being with him instead. Jun 24 21:48:15 * MollyK has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Jun 24 22:21:04 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 24 22:21:25 Do you think that would be enough? Jun 24 22:21:25 I would never leave you *she watches him* Jun 24 22:21:25 * Morgan sighs, nodding Jun 24 22:21:25 Alright love Jun 24 22:21:25 You do not sound sure Jun 24 22:21:28 just... they wield power on behalf of Theus... Jun 24 22:21:30 I won't be party to that. I won't have you having to live with me being with him instead. Jun 24 22:21:32 * Morgan nods Jun 24 22:21:34 alright Jun 24 22:23:15 * MollyK doesn't spend much longer with her family before it's time for goodbyes, hugging each of the children in turn. Peter offers Morgan his hand Jun 24 22:23:20 * MollyK is now known as Peter Jun 24 22:23:27 It was good to see you Jun 24 22:23:36 * Morgan shakes his hand firmly Jun 24 22:23:47 Likewise. You seem much happier here Jun 24 22:23:58 * Peter nods Jun 24 22:24:08 It's always been home Jun 24 22:24:35 * Morgan nods Jun 24 22:25:01 Its good to see Jun 24 22:25:31 * Peter speaks quietly "don't forget to take good care of my sister" Jun 24 22:26:04 * Morgan nods Jun 24 22:26:06 That is the plan Jun 24 22:27:45 * Peter nods. Beth comes to him next, hugging him Jun 24 22:28:08 B: I wish you could stay longer Jun 24 22:28:35 * Morgan hugs her firmly Jun 24 22:28:50 Me too... but we've got baptisms to arrange and people to meet Jun 24 22:30:22 B: It's too far for us at short notice, but I hope you have a lo day Jun 24 22:30:26 Lovely* Jun 24 22:30:37 * Morgan nods Jun 24 22:30:53 We'd have a given more warning had we known ourselves... hopefully at some point you'll visit... Jun 24 22:34:28 B: we might do Jun 24 22:34:38 * Morgan nods Jun 24 22:34:44 I reckon we can find space for you Jun 24 22:35:28 B: *she smiles* Molly said it's got a lot of bedrooms Jun 24 22:36:12 * Morgan nods Jun 24 22:36:19 It does, quite a few Jun 24 22:42:47 *Elsie comes to hug Beth. With the younger woman leaving Avalon to settle in Eisen, the goodbye is very heartfelt between the girl who was going to die and the woman who was going to adopt her orphaned baby* Jun 24 22:43:50 * Morgan moves out of the way, watching them Jun 24 22:46:52 *James shakes Peter's hand before also hugging Beth. Then Inga and HH say goodbye, heading outside. Molly gives a look around the kitchen once more before hugging her brother and sister in law. She looks back over her shoulder once they're outside, looking at the house* Jun 24 22:47:01 * Peter is now known as Molly Jun 24 22:48:36 Its not forever love Jun 24 22:49:33 Maybe it is... Jun 24 22:50:03 Unlikely... Jun 24 22:52:33 * Molly shrugs Jun 24 22:53:13 Maybe it is time for me to really let go of these last few things from the past Jun 24 22:53:45 I'm not so sure it is letting go... just... letting someone else look after it all Jun 24 22:54:26 * Molly shrugs Jun 24 22:54:30 I suppose so Jun 24 22:55:33 * Morgan watches her for a moment before sighing Jun 24 22:56:43 * Molly looks back at him Jun 24 22:56:49 What's wrong? Jun 24 22:59:19 I know I cannot console you right now Jun 24 23:00:48 We are expected anyway, my love. We should send the others on to Kingston now Jun 24 23:01:35 * Morgan nods Jun 24 23:01:38 yes Jun 24 23:05:02 *they do this, until it is just him, Molly and the boys in their coach. Varick doesn't stop talking about his time with his cousins, but Emil is mostly quietly nursing on the way to John's Jun 24 23:06:19 * Morgan chats with Varick about what he's been doing as he waits for the journey to end Jun 24 23:08:31 *it's half after six when they get to the house* Jun 24 23:09:26 * Morgan climbs out of the carriage before helping the others out Jun 24 23:09:36 * Molly looks around Jun 24 23:09:47 Oh... they got their own house... Jun 24 23:10:05 That is a problem? Jun 24 23:10:16 * Molly shakes her head Jun 24 23:10:37 No... just... it was what we'd planned Jun 24 23:11:00 It is understandable for anyone getting married... Jun 24 23:12:08 * Molly nods Jun 24 23:12:35 Indeed. *she wraps Emil in her cloak*shall we? Jun 24 23:12:59 * Morgan nods Jun 24 23:13:04 Strength my love Jun 24 23:14:19 * Molly nods Jun 24 23:17:05 V: Why do we have to come here, Vati? Jun 24 23:17:53 Because it is only right that your mama sees her goddaughter before we leave Jun 24 23:19:37 V: everyone has a baby, and now we have one too Jun 24 23:20:09 Thats true Jun 24 23:21:12 V: I would still like a small baby too Jun 24 23:21:41 * Morgan nods Jun 24 23:21:43 Me too Jun 24 23:23:39 * Molly leads the way, knocking on the door. Helen lets them in, taking everyone's cloaks. Molly has Emil on her hip. John sounds a little slurred already Jun 24 23:23:57 J: that's a very brown baby! Jun 24 23:24:14 * Morgan fixes him with a stare Jun 24 23:24:18 * Molly inhales slowly Jun 24 23:24:49 *varick watches the grown ups* Jun 24 23:25:22 Drunk is not a good look on you, John... Jun 24 23:27:01 J: I'm not drunk *he rubs his nose* I've only had a couple Jun 24 23:27:22 *Helen gets on with dinner, the baby asleep in the crib* Jun 24 23:27:32 A couple too many I think... wouldn't want you falling into something and getting hurt Jun 24 23:28:35 J: Are you threatenin' me? Jun 24 23:29:29 [Do you want to take the children while I explain the difference between what I said and a threat?] Jun 24 23:29:58 [you might be best to take him outside away from his wife also] Jun 24 23:30:15 * Morgan nods, looking at John Jun 24 23:30:18 You'd best come with me Jun 24 23:32:26 * Molly is now known as John Jun 24 23:32:38 * John follows him out Jun 24 23:33:21 * Morgan moves away from the house Jun 24 23:33:45 You're drunk, and you've offended my wife. Jun 24 23:34:43 'M not drunk! And I didn't say she was looking fatter, or anything Jun 24 23:35:13 * Morgan grabs him, pulling him close, staring hard at him Jun 24 23:35:37 Let me be clear John... you carry on like this, I'll beat the fuck out of you and your daughter will come with me. Now -that- is a threat. Jun 24 23:36:39 * John is more drunk than he claims, so he stupidly shoves Morgan Jun 24 23:37:15 Very well. Give it your best shot. Jun 24 23:39:49 * John shoves him again "I'm gonna stop drinking tomorrow, so stop riding my ass" Jun 24 23:40:26 Coward. Tomorrow you'll find another pathetic excuse, and you'll do so until you're all alone, sat in a puddle of your own vomit, pitying yourself Jun 24 23:41:57 You think you're so much better than me, jus' b'cause you had Molly to rescue you from wallowing Jun 24 23:42:50 What do you think Helen is trying to do? She's trying to save you from yourself. Jun 24 23:44:54 She's not as good Jun 24 23:45:52 You're not letting her... and she is carrying her own grief as well, and you're being a selfish child Jun 24 23:48:02 * John shoves past him Jun 24 23:48:15 I'm going back inside Jun 24 23:49:23 * Morgan grabs hold of him, pulling him further from the house Jun 24 23:49:47 Hey! Get your hands off me! Jun 24 23:50:39 * Morgan hurls him to the floor Jun 24 23:50:44 You don't know how lucky you are Jun 24 23:51:31 my wife is dead! That's not lucky! Jun 24 23:52:36 You've got people who care about you, who want to help you... you've managed to dull the pain with drink... I had -none- of that. If I were the same man I was, you'd already be dead for your behaviour. Jun 24 23:54:13 Yeah, well maybe you'd be doin' me a favour Jun 24 23:55:02 I'm -trying- to do you a favour... you still have your daughter man, you've no idea how precious that is... *he sits down in front of John* Jun 24 23:55:43 Its a tragedy, that you lost her... it really is, and I'm sorry you've had to feel that pain... but she would -hate- the way you're acting when Kathleen needs you Jun 24 23:55:59 * John sits up, pulling out a flask Jun 24 23:56:32 I didn' ask to have to do it alone Jun 24 23:57:16 I didn't ask for my wife to be murdered just because I married her, or my daughter to burn to death. Jun 24 23:57:59 You're better now, I'm not getting better Jun 24 23:58:40 You're not trying to. You're not letting anyone help you. You're just getting drunk and neglecting Kathleen. And I'm not better. Jun 24 23:59:17 You are Jun 24 23:59:51 You don't get over it. You adapt to it.