**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Fri Jun 23 18:30:26 2023 Jun 23 18:30:26 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 23 18:55:26 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 23 18:58:29 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 23 19:10:58 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 23 19:14:01 *his ride to Sunnymeade is straightforward, much drier than that awful night where she had come back soaked through and then lost her memory. It's going to be a lot of travelling to take Molly and the boys to John's and then on to Kingston, but having said the men could stay a second night there it is unavoidable. He ties up the horse, seeing the Jun 23 19:14:01 carriage from the morning still there* Jun 23 19:14:53 * Morgan stretches before waiting for Claudia to help Uinise down before leading them toward the door Jun 23 19:21:27 * Morgan wanders toward the door, knocking Jun 23 19:27:05 *from inside there's plenty of noise and laughter. Peter opens the door* Jun 23 19:27:09 * MollyK is now known as Peter Jun 23 19:27:48 * Morgan looks at him Jun 23 19:27:58 I understand my wife is here Jun 23 19:29:07 * Peter smiles, opening the door for him Jun 23 19:29:33 Come in, Beth is looking forward to seeing you Jun 23 19:29:51 Well, that'll pass Jun 23 19:29:57 * Morgan goes through the door Jun 23 19:33:27 * Peter smiles Jun 23 19:35:53 *in the kitchen, the children are playing. HH and Jame are supervising the rowdiness, which with William, Varick, Petey, Lila, Mary, Emil, and Thomas is quite great. Beth, Inga, and Elsie are sat at the table drinking tea. Molly and baby Cecily are absent* Jun 23 19:36:21 My wife absconded with your youngest? Jun 23 19:37:16 *Emil is the first to respond* Vah-eee! Jun 23 19:37:38 * Peter looks around "looks like it" Jun 23 19:37:56 * Morgan nods, moving to pick up Emil Jun 23 19:40:58 V: *he briefly looks at Morgan before going back to playing happily. Emil rests against him* Jun 23 19:41:12 * Peter is now known as Beth Jun 23 19:42:39 * Beth comes to Morgan to hug him Jun 23 19:42:54 * Morgan hugs her firmly Jun 23 19:46:06 * Beth hugs back "it's good to see you" Jun 23 19:46:21 I'm reliably informed that feeling passes Jun 23 19:49:06 * Beth smiles, pulling away to stroke Emil's hair Jun 23 19:49:46 What a surprise this was! No one was expecting you to come back from your trip with a baby Jun 23 19:50:07 No... we certainly weren't either Jun 23 19:53:18 He's very sweet. Molly took Cecily out for some fresh air, I'll take you out to her Jun 23 19:53:50 * Morgan nods Jun 23 19:57:16 * Beth tells the others and Elsie takes Emil from him. Beth waits until they're outside before she says Jun 23 19:57:33 How are you, Morgan? How are you -really-? Jun 23 19:58:38 Better than I was by a long way Jun 23 20:01:34 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:01:51 That's good to hear Jun 23 20:02:14 Whats got you concerned? Jun 23 20:03:13 You were still struggling a bit with moving on when you were here in November Jun 23 20:03:32 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:03:57 The nightmares are still bad, but I'm further along the path of healing Jun 23 20:06:42 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:08:52 Eventually it feels less painful. I am always going to miss Michael, but the rawness is gone. The pain can't overtake me anymore. This is my life now. I'm happy again Jun 23 20:09:09 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:09:29 I'm getting there... feeling that loss each time I wake thanks to the nightmares is... difficult Jun 23 20:09:54 Is that the only time you feel it? Jun 23 20:10:25 For Dietlinde, I suppose so. For Jana, thats... all the time Jun 23 20:12:12 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:13:59 It's harder with children, because you knew your spouse got to grow up and be an adult, and you knew who they were. But with the little ones... *she sighs* ... with them you're mourning someone you should have gotten to know. Mourning someone you would have shaped and been shaped by Jun 23 20:14:19 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:14:23 Yes... Jun 23 20:16:36 But I know I'll see my Levi again in heaven Jun 23 20:17:14 I'm glad you feel that way Jun 23 20:17:55 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:18:19 I do. I know that both Michael and Levi are safe and peaceful in paradise Jun 23 20:19:28 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:19:32 How are you? Jun 23 20:20:48 * Beth smiles Jun 23 20:21:26 I'm well. We're happy here at Sunnymeade, Pete is enjoying finally being the owner Jun 23 20:21:53 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:22:03 He seemed a little more... settled than last we were here Jun 23 20:24:07 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:25:16 Having another baby has been good for him, and really, so has all those days he spent with Molly when you were away Jun 23 20:25:46 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:26:27 I'm glad some good things came from it Jun 23 20:26:39 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:27:06 Seeing that she got through all the revelations about their sister has helped too Jun 23 20:27:54 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:28:28 Aye... that was quite the relief for their parents Jun 23 20:29:38 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:29:50 Does she talk about it much? Jun 23 20:31:01 Now and then... but not often Jun 23 20:32:25 Is that good, or bad? Jun 23 20:33:05 I -think- its good Jun 23 20:34:43 * Beth smiles Jun 23 20:35:03 Maybe she's just busy being a mother again Jun 23 20:35:15 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:35:20 She has very much enjoyed it Jun 23 20:36:41 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:36:57 I'm impressed that she's been able to nurse him Jun 23 20:37:25 She tell you who does the nursing in Capperlucia? Jun 23 20:38:53 No Jun 23 20:39:24 The men are given herbs to be able to nurse the children Jun 23 20:41:14 * Beth laughs Jun 23 20:41:20 And they really do it?! Jun 23 20:41:31 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:41:37 Gladly. Jun 23 20:43:40 Oh Pete would never do that! Jun 23 20:43:47 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 23 20:43:57 I can't say I would. Everything's different there Jun 23 20:46:55 I don't think I'd like it Jun 23 20:47:18 No? It is part of your identity as a mother? Jun 23 20:50:07 No, seeing a man feed a baby Jun 23 20:51:08 It takes some getting used to... but since they didn't stare at my scars, it was only fair I didn't stare at them feeding Jun 23 20:53:42 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:54:02 Will you and Molly wait a while now for another baby? Jun 23 20:54:51 We're hoping to conceive in the autumn Jun 23 20:55:39 * Beth nods Jun 23 20:56:14 A two year age gap is about right Jun 23 20:57:46 * Morgan nods Jun 23 20:59:04 With me being older though, we can't waste any time, and Pete would like another boy Jun 23 21:00:28 How do you feel about that? Jun 23 21:01:30 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:02:56 I don't mind. I've healed a great deal emotionally since having Cecily. Jun 23 21:03:27 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:03:28 good Jun 23 21:06:23 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:06:59 Caro and James are hoping for another now Jun 23 21:08:27 That doesn't surprise me Jun 23 21:09:12 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:09:33 Joseff is a year old now Jun 23 21:09:45 * Morgan sighs Jun 23 21:09:49 Time passes so quickly Jun 23 21:11:17 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:11:32 Cecily is four months now, and Thomas Jun 23 21:12:01 * Morgan nods, looking round Jun 23 21:12:18 I won't recoil from them, any of them, anymore Jun 23 21:14:38 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:14:46 Mary is bigger now Jun 23 21:15:21 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:15:26 Thats how its supposed to go... Jun 23 21:16:12 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:16:24 She won't be hard for you to be around now Jun 23 21:17:32 Florrie rather forced the issue... Jun 23 21:19:29 She's a shy little girl, but very pretty Jun 23 21:20:12 She's identical to Jana, barring the eyes. And her mother looks a little like Dietlinde, from certain angles. Its jarring. Jun 23 21:21:28 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:22:03 For a moment you almost forget, like your heart suddenly feels at home again, then it all comes crashing back down Jun 23 21:22:12 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:22:27 Its like getting kicked in the chest... and thats a feeling I know Jun 23 21:24:11 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:24:43 It's tough, isn't it? It hurts even when you're where you should be now Jun 23 21:25:13 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:27:10 Nearly drives you to your knees sometimes Jun 23 21:27:40 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:28:05 It gets a tiny bit better every day Jun 23 21:28:59 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:29:05 I was hiding from it Jun 23 21:30:36 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:32:09 It doesn't work. Life will drag you along into the future whether you try to stay on your feet or lie down and scream. You'll still end up there, but you'll be more intact if you don't fight it Jun 23 21:33:23 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:33:27 yeah... I'm getting that Jun 23 21:36:04 * Beth nods Jun 23 21:36:56 I don't do it for myself, I do it because every needs me, and because Michael wouldn't want me to let down my children and husband that way Jun 23 21:37:11 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:37:16 Thats a difficult realisation Jun 23 21:38:54 Do you feel that? Jun 23 21:39:40 When I'm rational about it, yes... though people needing me and -wanting- me around... I still struggle with that Jun 23 21:41:45 Do you sometimes wish you'd stayed alone then? Jun 23 21:42:56 It was... easier. But... awful. Jun 23 21:43:58 Everything's a compromise sometimes Jun 23 21:48:20 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:48:32 As difficult as it is and has been... I am happy. Jun 23 21:57:11 Forresters make good spouses Jun 23 21:59:00 * Morgan nods Jun 23 21:59:07 I can't say I disagree Jun 23 22:01:22 Or Rosenkrantzs... whoever they really are Jun 23 22:01:46 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:01:49 Complicated stuff Jun 23 22:07:07 I don't really understand it, but we're happy here Jun 23 22:07:40 Going back a ways, the Rosenkrantz line crosses mine... and, as it turns out, HeinzHarolds... Jun 23 22:08:04 You're all related? Jun 23 22:08:37 distantly Jun 23 22:10:24 * Beth nods Jun 23 22:11:05 Inga looks happy. The sunshine suited her, she looks a little tanned Jun 23 22:12:20 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:12:25 They had a very good time there Jun 23 22:12:47 Molly said the deal went well Jun 23 22:13:37 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:13:49 Very. I made a bit of history Jun 23 22:16:01 How? Jun 23 22:16:30 There's a wall... only two people have climbed it, and never a foreigner. No-one has ever climbed it twice. Jun 23 22:18:17 But you did? Jun 23 22:18:32 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:18:36 eventually Jun 23 22:18:52 That's very good Jun 23 22:19:43 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:20:30 They've put something in the museum about it Jun 23 22:21:09 You're in a museum?! Jun 23 22:21:25 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:21:39 Noone has ever climbed it twice. Until me. Jun 23 22:22:24 * Beth nods Jun 23 22:22:32 Molly must be very proud Jun 23 22:22:49 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:23:06 She did an exceptional job, getting that agreement in place Jun 23 22:26:00 She's very smart. Smarter than her brothers, I reckon Jun 23 22:26:40 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:26:42 I reckon so Jun 23 22:28:14 * Beth nods, pointing to the end of the garden Jun 23 22:28:21 She's over there Jun 23 22:28:50 She ok? Jun 23 22:30:05 I think so. Cecily was fussing so she said she'd take her for a little walk Jun 23 22:30:27 * Morgan nods, moving toward Molly Jun 23 22:32:11 * Beth goes back to the house. He can hear Molly talking quietly Jun 23 22:32:33 * Beth is now known as Molly Jun 23 22:33:07 * Molly talks to her in Eisen, despite the fact the child won't have heard it Jun 23 22:33:57 ... which is about all I can recall. But I'm sure they will tell you about her, about all the thing I don't recall Jun 23 22:34:28 * Morgan clears his throat Jun 23 22:36:43 * Molly turns around, the ginger haired baby wrapped in a long white shawl in her arms Jun 23 22:36:51 My love... Jun 23 22:37:21 Are you alright blossom? Jun 23 22:37:58 * Molly nods, smiling Jun 23 22:38:11 Just talking to my niece about her namesake Jun 23 22:38:41 I figured you might be Jun 23 22:42:15 * Molly nods, bringing the baby to show him. She definitely favours Martha's side, her eyes the same shade as Molly's. Both sets regard him Jun 23 22:42:54 * Morgan reaches out, gently stroking the childs cheek Jun 23 22:44:20 Hello little lady Jun 23 22:45:06 *the baby yawns. Molly smiles, watching Morgan still. She speaks quietly Jun 23 22:45:18 We could make a baby that looks like this... Jun 23 22:46:00 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:46:01 maybe Jun 23 22:47:46 Beautiful, isn't she? Jun 23 22:48:37 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:48:41 Aye, she is Jun 23 22:49:24 Do you want to hold her? Jun 23 22:50:06 * Morgan nods Jun 23 22:50:39 * Molly gently hands her over Jun 23 22:50:54 * Morgan takes her, settling her in the crook of his arm Jun 23 22:52:40 * Molly looks, sighing wistfully Jun 23 22:53:10 At the end of next year... it suits you, holding infants Jun 23 22:54:13 Think so? Jun 23 22:54:56 * Molly nods Jun 23 22:55:16 Oh yes. It makes my heart all aflutter *she smiles* Jun 23 22:55:36 * Morgan smiles, rocking the child gently Jun 23 22:57:37 That will be more difficult with twins Jun 23 22:58:19 Not really... got two arms, see Jun 23 22:59:09 * Molly giggles Jun 23 22:59:24 Best hope you never get triplets on me! Jun 23 23:00:26 That would be a little awkward, yes Jun 23 23:03:20 * Molly nods "I'd be huge! My dresses are already a little tight after all the good food in Capperlucia and on the way back! We will need to work that off in the privacy of our new land" Jun 23 23:04:22 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:04:26 aye Jun 23 23:04:51 Now, why are we having dinner with John, of all people? Jun 23 23:05:27 * Morgan sighs Jun 23 23:05:54 I ran into him being thrown out of a tavern... he's been getting blind drunk all the time, trying to deal with the pain Jun 23 23:07:43 Oh. Oh dear... Jun 23 23:07:58 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:08:47 I've pushed him toward making amends with Helen... but its not going to be pretty or easy... I didn't want to agree to dinner but, when he asked if you were leaving without seeing your goddaughter... Jun 23 23:09:14 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:09:20 I ought to Jun 23 23:10:08 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:10:11 So... I agreed Jun 23 23:11:04 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:11:22 Maybe I can subtly make him averse to the drink Jun 23 23:11:29 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:11:40 I... might... have threatened to take Kathleen from him... Jun 23 23:11:57 Did he believe you? Jun 23 23:12:47 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:12:49 I believe so Jun 23 23:14:36 I wouldn't like to see your Father's face if we came home with two new children! Jun 23 23:15:28 No... well... yes... but no, it wouldn't be a good idea Jun 23 23:16:12 No. Eliza's parents and sister would miss Kathleen Jun 23 23:16:26 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:16:30 He needed the push Jun 23 23:17:52 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:18:06 I knew I should have told him not to rush like this Jun 23 23:18:30 It is the decision the two of them made... they need to adjust to it now, for the childs sake Jun 23 23:20:44 * Molly nods, looking at Cecily Jun 23 23:20:54 It's never so easy as just don't do it... Jun 23 23:21:38 No... Jun 23 23:22:53 * Molly looks thoughtful Jun 23 23:23:04 I'm sure it will be well Jun 23 23:24:28 I hope so Jun 23 23:24:36 Claudia wanted to beat him to death... Jun 23 23:26:34 Why? Jun 23 23:27:06 She took exception to him recognising me and saying 'I know you! You're part of the dead wives club too' Jun 23 23:27:17 * Molly grimaces Jun 23 23:27:25 You should have let her. Jun 23 23:27:57 I figured you'd be angry Jun 23 23:28:30 I am. Jun 23 23:29:56 With me, if I beat him Jun 23 23:31:12 Uh no. What he said was disgusting. Jun 23 23:31:25 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:31:33 He was drunk... and in pain Jun 23 23:33:43 Well I still disapprove Jun 23 23:34:07 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:36:22 No doubt he will not even remember his cruelty Jun 23 23:36:51 I hope not Jun 23 23:39:10 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:39:32 We aren't supposed to stay with them, are we? Jun 23 23:39:57 No, we'll stay in Kingston Jun 23 23:42:00 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:42:15 Because the men are at the brothel again? Jun 23 23:42:23 * Morgan nods Jun 23 23:42:41 It'll put us in the right place for moving out early to collect Alice and James Jun 23 23:44:32 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:44:52 You are not needed to supervise though? Jun 23 23:45:05 I wasn't planning to, no Jun 23 23:46:15 * Molly nods Jun 23 23:46:45 And you would not want to go there so close for rumours to reach our family... Jun 23 23:47:11 No... Jun 23 23:48:07 Or rather, you -wouldn't- Jun 23 23:49:24 I had planned to be back on the island, so I am not needed there Jun 23 23:51:10 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 23 23:53:07 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client)