**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Jun 15 00:00:32 2023 Jun 15 00:00:32 * Man tries to get free Jun 15 00:01:09 I've never ripped a mans ear off with my bare hands before... If you don't want me to find out if I can, I suggest you apologise then take your vitriol a -very- long way away Jun 15 00:02:23 I'm sorry! I didn't mean any harm! Jun 15 00:03:46 * Morgan turns him a little so he's face to face Jun 15 00:04:12 I chased a man across the country because he hurt a common girl who had nothing to do with me... what would I do to protect my wife? Jun 15 00:05:32 * Man looks scared Jun 15 00:05:39 I... I... Jun 15 00:06:08 * Morgan lets go, looking pointedly toward the far end of the docks Jun 15 00:06:56 * Man runs away in that direction Jun 15 00:07:16 * Morgan rolls his shoulders before making his way to the others Jun 15 00:08:06 * Man is now known as Molly Jun 15 00:08:35 My love... I see Claudia with the carriage. Will you meet us at Sunnymeade later? Jun 15 00:08:51 * Morgan nods Jun 15 00:08:55 That is my plan, yes Jun 15 00:10:06 * Molly kisses his cheek Jun 15 00:10:10 Goodbye then Jun 15 00:10:41 I'll see you soon my love Jun 15 00:11:24 * Molly smiles "take care, please" Jun 15 00:12:39 * Morgan nods Jun 15 00:12:41 Of course Jun 15 00:14:34 * Molly goes with the others, squeezing in, four children on their laps, HH opting to sit on top. They wave to him, Claudia and Uinise Jun 15 00:15:01 * Morgan waves them off before looking to Uinise Jun 15 00:15:03 Ready? Jun 15 00:16:31 *she is looking around. Men are watching her, but she looks at them with open disgust, and it seems to put them off* Jun 15 00:17:06 *Claudia smiles slightly* $she gets that from me$ Jun 15 00:17:22 $Good. She's got it nailed$ Jun 15 00:23:41 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 15 00:25:51 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 15 08:32:44 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 15 09:08:13 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 15 09:08:49 * MollyK is now known as Uinise Jun 15 09:09:36 * Uinise looks to Morgan, speaking Eisen still Jun 15 09:09:43 Now we go on the horse? Jun 15 09:10:10 * Morgan nods Jun 15 09:10:13 You'll ride with Claudia Jun 15 09:12:56 * Uinise smiles, looking at Claudia "Clowdia, do I go in front or behind?" Jun 15 09:13:34 *Claudia looks at Morgan a moment before saying* she'll have to be side saddle, won't she? Jun 15 09:13:45 * Morgan nods Jun 15 09:13:57 Aside from the social niceties, it'll be safer for her Jun 15 09:16:57 *Claudia nods, lifting her so she can reach the stirrup. Uinise laughs* Clowdia, you are very strong! Jun 15 09:17:57 * Morgan smirks, hauling himself into the saddle Jun 15 09:18:26 C: You're not much bigger than Varick. Sit near the front, get your knee around the knob Jun 15 09:19:26 $Thank god HeinzHarold didn't hear that$ Jun 15 09:20:04 $yes, he'd be a nuisance$ Jun 15 09:21:11 $I wouldn't do such a thing of course$ Jun 15 09:21:46 * Uinise smiles down at her, doing so. She looks a little off balance "it is very high!" Jun 15 09:22:25 *Claudia nods* "Hold tight" Jun 15 09:23:40 *Claudia comes to move her dress to cover her shins and ankles, and he sees a look pass between them as she does so* Jun 15 09:24:52 * Morgan watches them for a moment before looking round Jun 15 09:28:59 *no one looks that interested now. Claudia mounts up behind her Jun 15 09:29:18 You will have to hold me tightly, Clowdia Jun 15 09:29:29 * Morgan looks away, smirking Jun 15 09:29:39 C: I won't let you fall off Jun 15 09:30:10 *Claudia looks to Morgan* You ready? Jun 15 09:30:53 * Morgan nods Jun 15 09:30:57 aye Jun 15 09:39:46 *Claudia walks the horse on. Uinise makes a little sound of alarm, to which Claudia says "hey, you're alright... I've got you" Jun 15 09:40:30 First time I was on a horse I ended up in a bush on my back Jun 15 09:42:56 C: *she looks at him* helpful, Morgan. Thanks. Jun 15 09:43:12 Were you too heavy? Jun 15 09:43:34 My point... is that she shouldn't feel bad about being unbalanced... Jun 15 09:44:22 C: $by making me think of her on her back in the bushes?!$ she's smiling slightly Jun 15 09:44:46 * Morgan shrugs slightly Jun 15 09:45:13 No, horses just move in a way I wasn't used to at the time. Riding doesn't come as naturally to me as swimming does Jun 15 09:47:01 I like to swim. Everyone swims in Capperlucia Jun 15 09:47:28 * Morgan nods Jun 15 09:47:37 I'm not surprised... my brother sinks like a rock Jun 15 09:49:51 Oh no! He died?! Jun 15 09:50:02 *Claudia tries not to laugh* Jun 15 09:50:34 No, he just avoids the water now. I was trying to teach him before we left for Capperlucia. He made some progress but apparently its too cold for him to swim Jun 15 09:53:53 Everything here is cold, except Clowdia. She is warm behind me Jun 15 09:54:10 * Morgan nods Jun 15 09:54:12 I'll bet Jun 15 09:54:40 *Claudia says nothing* Jun 15 09:54:53 How far is it to the Catherine? Jun 15 09:56:30 Not too far. Shouldn't take us too long Jun 15 10:00:31 C: it's not a title, that's her name Jun 15 10:00:45 Is she pretty? Jun 15 10:01:16 *Claudia looks to Morgan with a shrug* I guess so? Jun 15 10:02:12 I suppose so. She's a duchess, and in Avalon the correct way to address her is 'your grace'. Jun 15 10:07:39 Is she graceful? Jun 15 10:08:29 C: $she will talk the full journey, be warned$ Jun 15 10:09:37 She can be. She's still young. Jun 15 10:10:36 Are you a Grace here? Jun 15 10:10:50 Strictly speaking, yes Jun 15 10:14:02 This is the town Molly is from? Jun 15 10:14:27 * Morgan nods Jun 15 10:14:31 Yes, it is Jun 15 10:15:29 And where you met her? Jun 15 10:15:42 * Morgan nods Jun 15 10:15:52 At the Torrington estate, yes... we both worked there Jun 15 10:16:02 What did you do there? Jun 15 10:16:16 I was the master at arms Jun 15 10:16:40 That is in charge of weapons and house defence? Jun 15 10:16:50 * Morgan nods Jun 15 10:17:01 But realistically I ran the estate Jun 15 10:20:03 Do you miss that work? Jun 15 10:20:54 Sometimes. Jun 15 10:28:26 Did you fall in love with Molly at first eyes Jun 15 10:28:37 C: it's first -sight- Jun 15 10:28:38 * Morgan smiles slightly Jun 15 10:28:50 no... that was hard fought and took time Jun 15 10:29:30 I think that happens more in books than life Jun 15 10:29:48 * Morgan shrugs Jun 15 10:29:57 Maybe. I'd imagine HeinzHarold would say otherwise Jun 15 10:31:10 Heinzharold falls into love easily? Jun 15 10:32:22 No, he doesn't Jun 15 10:33:10 I don't understand you Jun 15 10:33:59 HeinzHarold had never been in love until he met Inga... but it was immediate Jun 15 10:34:14 Were you jealous? Jun 15 10:35:53 No, not at all. Jun 15 10:36:10 I thought maybe you were lovers once Jun 15 10:36:20 Who? Jun 15 10:36:32 You with Heinzharold Jun 15 10:36:40 * Morgan laughs Jun 15 10:36:42 *Claudia laughs hard* what?! Jun 15 10:36:51 No... no he has been my friend since we were little boys Jun 15 10:37:34 * Uinise smiles "Did I make the good joke?" Jun 15 10:40:31 Its just... neither he nor I are that way inclined, and noones ever suggested it before Jun 15 10:41:13 C: *she rubs Uinise's arm* it was a good joke Jun 15 10:41:45 * Uinise smiles "In my homeland it is common" Jun 15 10:42:41 * Morgan nods Jun 15 10:44:42 That isn't the case anywhere else Jun 15 10:45:56 * Uinise nods, looking around "Heinzharold is like a blood brother" Jun 15 10:47:26 * Morgan nods Jun 15 10:47:31 Yes, exactly that Jun 15 10:49:22 Do people here find him handsome? Jun 15 10:49:33 People everywhere find him handsome Jun 15 10:51:40 * Uinise nods Jun 15 10:51:54 Do people find Clowdia handsome here? Jun 15 10:52:10 *Claudia rolls her eyes at Morgan* Jun 15 10:53:08 Some do, no doubt Jun 15 10:56:08 I think she is very beautiful Jun 15 10:56:57 * Morgan nods Jun 15 10:56:59 You're not wrong Jun 15 10:57:30 Did you ever be attracted to her? Jun 15 10:58:25 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 15 10:58:28 Not even slightly Jun 15 11:01:36 But you think she is beautiful Jun 15 11:01:41 * Morgan nods Jun 15 11:01:44 Yes, I do Jun 15 11:02:24 * Uinise turns to look over her shoulder "were you attracted to him or Heinzharold" Jun 15 11:04:23 C: God no. I told Heinzharold I'd hurt him if he even looked at me weird Jun 15 11:25:27 Never told me that... Jun 15 11:28:35 C $when I told him I'd rip his manhood off and shove it down his throat$ Jun 15 11:38:55 $I mean you've never told me you'd rip mine off if I looked at you weird$ Jun 15 11:39:32 C: Didn't need to, you weren't much of a flirt Jun 15 11:39:41 * Morgan nods Jun 15 11:39:44 Still aren't Jun 15 11:39:58 I still do not understand what exactly a flirt is Jun 15 11:40:23 C: $her, half the damned time.$ Jun 15 11:40:45 Maybe Claudia can explain it to you Jun 15 11:42:53 C: it's someone behaving like they want to bed someone, but mostly it is not real Jun 15 11:43:00 Ah, it is lying! Jun 15 11:43:33 Never thought of it like that Jun 15 11:44:03 C: *she looks at Morgan* that would explain -you- Jun 15 11:44:44 * Morgan smiles Jun 15 11:44:47 It would rather Jun 15 11:45:48 C: It's not lying as much as pretending. Like playing a part in a play. Unless you are actually interested Jun 15 11:46:20 But how do you know if someone is the flirt or if they really do want to bed you? Jun 15 11:47:13 I wouldn't know, I've very little experience of it Jun 15 11:49:24 Who should I ask who can do the flirting? Jun 15 11:49:43 C: $she's so blunt$ Jun 15 11:49:50 $its adorable$ Jun 15 11:50:05 C: $yeah$ Jun 15 11:50:27 uhhh... HeinzHarold's got a knack for it. It comes naturally to him. Jun 15 11:53:53 * Uinise nods Jun 15 11:54:02 I will ask him to show me Jun 15 11:54:19 $You might want to head that off with Inga$ Jun 15 11:54:39 C:$so she doesn't actually rip his manhood off?$ Jun 15 11:55:07 $indeed$ Jun 15 11:55:29 We don't do the flirt in Capperlucia. We would just tell someone we want to have sex with them Jun 15 11:56:01 That explains why I had such a peaceful week Jun 15 11:59:14 No one would ask the Ambassador's husband anyway, the Queen would have been displeased Jun 15 11:59:24 * Morgan nods Jun 15 11:59:36 Wouldn't want that Jun 15 11:59:50 Claudia chuckles: you wanted some guys to tell you they wanted to bed you, did you? Jun 15 12:00:23 Just might have been nice to have been asked, thats all I'm saying Jun 15 12:02:08 But you don't like to have sex with men? Jun 15 12:02:40 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 15 12:02:48 Not in my nature. Jun 15 12:03:12 * Uinise nods Jun 15 12:03:51 Some people like both, and some like one or another. Some people like none, or only someone they are already good friends with Jun 15 12:04:17 * Morgan nods Jun 15 12:04:57 Your goddess just wants her people to be happy and safe and loved Jun 15 12:10:34 * Uinise nods Jun 15 12:11:04 We are lucky Jun 15 12:12:35 * Morgan nods Jun 15 12:18:16 Why does your God care about it so much? Jun 15 12:18:52 I'm not sure he does. I suspect its one of those things that the men who wrote the holy book put in Jun 15 12:21:03 * Uinise nods Jun 15 12:21:23 You have seen in Capperlucia that it does not harm our society Jun 15 12:21:40 * Morgan nods Jun 15 12:22:00 Strictly speaking even contemplating the existence of a god other than my own is heresy Jun 15 12:24:27 Your God doesn't approve of thinking Jun 15 12:24:35 *Claudia laughs* Jun 15 12:25:21 The people who wrote the book didn't want us thinking for ourselves Jun 15 12:28:13 * Uinise nods Jun 15 12:28:28 Curiosity is important in Capperlucia Jun 15 12:28:49 * Morgan nods Jun 15 12:28:52 I noticed Jun 15 12:31:59 The men in the marketplace stared at me. They have lots of audacities Jun 15 12:32:15 * Morgan nods Jun 15 12:32:27 You are quite beautiful and it is the norm for them to do that here Jun 15 12:35:44 I did not think I would be beautiful here as I am so small Jun 15 12:36:37 * Morgan shrugs Jun 15 12:36:41 Clearly you were incorrect Jun 15 12:37:00 They were not attractive men Jun 15 12:37:26 C: $she's not wrong$ Jun 15 12:37:51 * Morgan tilts his head Jun 15 12:37:55 Do you find men attractive? Jun 15 12:42:17 No, I don't personally. I like women, but not many of them. I have only had sex with two people Jun 15 12:42:37 C: $she would be the death of Saint Morgan$ Jun 15 12:42:47 * Morgan nods, looking round Jun 15 12:43:27 *it's all peaceful, the weather reasonably good for March* Jun 15 12:44:26 Some people like me do get married to have children, but not very often Jun 15 12:45:04 * Morgan nods Jun 15 12:45:08 You don't intend to Jun 15 12:45:32 * Uinise shakes her head Jun 15 12:46:02 I never wanted to be a Mother. I like to sleep properly Jun 15 12:46:12 * Morgan laughs Jun 15 12:46:31 * Uinise looks at him "that was not a joke?" Jun 15 12:47:04 No, it wasn't. But it is something I can relate to, both as a parent and because of the nightmares I get. I don't sleep properly. Ever. Jun 15 12:49:23 Why did you choose to have babies then? Jun 15 12:50:45 Because they are wonderful... they give me a purpose, challenge me to be better. Jun 15 12:52:18 I have a purpose already, to learn and educate Jun 15 12:53:52 * Morgan nods briefly Jun 15 12:57:07 *they pass Sunnymeade on the way, and he can see the coach has gotten there safely* Jun 15 12:57:41 * Morgan looks at the place for a few moments as they pass before looking round again Jun 15 13:00:39 * Uinise chats most of the way. Uncommonly, Claudia doesn't complain, just rides occassionally adding to it. When they get to the village of Lower Tawstock, they are met with a tavern landlord throwing a drunk out Jun 15 13:01:24 Starting early... Jun 15 13:04:13 C: it's not even lunch time Jun 15 13:04:47 * Morgan nods, looking at the landlord Jun 15 13:04:50 Trouble already? Jun 15 13:05:22 LL: yep, this one's a problem *the man manages to pull himself up to standing, and it's John Daggett* Jun 15 13:05:41 * Morgan sighs, climbing down, taking hold of him Jun 15 13:05:51 John... what are you doing here at this hour man? Jun 15 13:08:45 C: want us to go on ahead? Jun 15 13:08:54 * Morgan nods Jun 15 13:08:59 Yeah, I'd best get him home Jun 15 13:09:29 * Uinise blinks, squinting at Morgan before grinning "Hey, I know you! Y' in the dead wives club too!" Jun 15 13:09:34 * Uinise is now known as John Jun 15 13:10:02 C: *she watches Morgan* or I can help bury him. Jun 15 13:10:21 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 15 13:10:26 I've got this Jun 15 13:11:18 *Claudia rides on with Uinise* Jun 15 13:11:44 Where's Molly? She not sick o' yer misery, eh?" Jun 15 13:11:57 * Morgan grips his shoulders Jun 15 13:12:13 Where's your daughter, John? Jun 15 13:12:46 At 'ome. She can't drink yet Jun 15 13:13:19 Come on, thats where we're headed Jun 15 13:13:26 You've got coffee there? Jun 15 13:13:48 * John shrugs Jun 15 13:13:56 Prob'ly Jun 15 13:14:14 You walk here? Jun 15 13:14:56 Uhhh... yeah, think so? Jun 15 13:15:21 * Morgan sighs Jun 15 13:15:26 Get on the horse Jun 15 13:16:19 * John tries, but he misses the stirrup twice Jun 15 13:16:50 * Morgan grabs him, throwing him over the saddle Jun 15 13:16:53 just... lie there Jun 15 13:17:23 * John nods "yeah" Jun 15 13:18:10 * Morgan leads the horse, heading for his house Jun 15 13:18:39 * John starts singing Jun 15 13:19:08 Talk to me, John, tell me what's going on... Jun 15 13:20:10 My new wife is borin', and she doesn' understand me Jun 15 13:20:53 How so? Jun 15 13:21:40 Wants me t' be over Eliza already Jun 15 13:22:47 You drinking yourself stupid isn't going to help matters Jun 15 13:25:45 Means I might forget who she's not Jun 15 13:26:10 Do you love her, John? Jun 15 13:28:22 Who? Jun 15 13:28:34 Your wife... and your daughter Jun 15 13:29:40 Kathleen, o' course... Jun 15 13:29:58 You think this is showing her that? Jun 15 13:31:44 She's a baby, she don't know Jun 15 13:32:08 bullshit. She'll be able to tell you're not there... you hold her? Jun 15 13:32:43 Yeah, a couple times a day Jun 15 13:33:14 Not good enough. You think her mother would be happy with how you're behaving? Jun 15 13:35:25 * John starts to cry, sobbing loudly Jun 15 13:36:07 * Morgan sighs, stopping the horse and pulling him down, holding him at arms length Jun 15 13:36:43 It hurts... I know Jun 15 13:37:21 You don't! You have Molly, an' she's a good wife. Gets it. Not like mine Jun 15 13:40:17 I don't? I DON'T?! My wife and daughter were MURDERED while I failed to protect them. I spent -years- trying to get myself killed so I could be with them, but not even the monsters in this bloody place could do it. How do you think I feel, knowing full well that every damn day I behaved in a way that Dietlinde would have abhorred? How... -ashamed- I am? Jun 15 13:42:36 Yeah, but now it's all okay for you! Jun 15 13:42:55 * Morgan lets go of him Jun 15 13:43:27 Its never okay... you adapt to it. Jun 15 13:45:25 I don't want to *he sobs* I just want her back Jun 15 13:46:07 I know. I'm sorry, but you can't. You -have- to go on, Kathleen needs you to Jun 15 13:46:57 I gotta drink sometimes, makes it duller Jun 15 13:47:22 I spent my time avoiding that pain. All it gained me was more time to feel it. Jun 15 13:48:26 I don't wanna get better. I didn' ask for any o' this. God is punishin' me Jun 15 13:49:02 I know that feeling. He's either punishing you, or he doesn't care, right? Jun 15 13:50:01 Yeah Jun 15 13:50:38 Does your daughter need you any less for feeling that? Jun 15 13:52:57 She doesn't need me much. Helen looks after her more Jun 15 13:53:40 So balls to her, let someone else care for your daughter Jun 15 13:56:02 If she'd be better, yeah Jun 15 13:57:10 She wouldn't. She -needs- her father. Not this drunk. Jun 15 13:58:16 This drunk is all there's left Jun 15 13:58:30 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 15 13:58:36 I don't believe that. Jun 15 14:00:03 Ask people, e'eryone says it Jun 15 14:01:05 Because thats all they're seeing. Fuck what they say. You have to sort yourself out, bear the pain and be there for Kathleen Jun 15 14:02:35 You don't know how hard that is! Jun 15 14:02:52 Don't I/ Jun 15 14:03:43 No! Jun 15 14:03:56 Why? Jun 15 14:06:31 You had th' choice t' die, but app'rently I can't Jun 15 14:07:25 Because you still have something to live for. Someone who needs you to keep her safe, guide her as she grows Jun 15 14:13:41 I'm not fit for tha'. Jun 15 14:14:39 John, I believe you're a good man... there's very -very- few I think that of. You can do it, be all that little girl needs. Make her mother proud Jun 15 14:17:01 I can't! I can't do it! Jun 15 14:17:22 * Morgan watches him sympathetically Jun 15 14:17:38 You can. It'll hurt and it'll take a lot of strength, but you can. And you will. Jun 15 14:19:23 * John shakes his head, sitting down Jun 15 14:19:29 It's too much! Jun 15 14:19:56 I understand it feels that way. But it isn't. Jun 15 14:22:02 * John puts his face in his hands Jun 15 14:22:09 It is for me Jun 15 14:22:25 * Morgan sits down cross legged in front of him Jun 15 14:22:29 Tell me why Jun 15 14:24:17 I am weak. I was weak when I let them tell me Molly was a slut an'a whore Jun 15 14:24:40 * Morgan grinds his teeth momentarily Jun 15 14:24:54 Yes, you were. Jun 15 14:26:05 But its time to put that aside. Jun 15 14:27:04 I don't know how t' survive Jun 15 14:27:32 One day at a time. Can you cook? Jun 15 14:29:18 A little Jun 15 14:30:21 As long as each day ends with you and Kathleen fed, warm and dry, with no major disasters, that day was a success. Jun 15 14:31:36 Helen doesn't think that Jun 15 14:32:14 Thats another problem. Come on, lets get you home with your daughter and some coffee and we'll try to work our way through this Jun 15 14:34:20 * John gets up, staggering still Jun 15 14:34:57 * Morgan starts moving again, keeping John moving by pulling him along when needed Jun 15 14:36:08 *it's going to take about an hour to John's house* Jun 15 14:36:46 Lets try the horse again, yeah? Jun 15 14:39:53 * John manages to get in the saddles, but he's even less stable that Uinise was Jun 15 14:40:24 * Morgan hauls himself up behind him, holding him in place as they set off Jun 15 14:42:04 *about twenty minutes later he says* I think I pissed myself... yeah, definitely pissed myself again Jun 15 14:42:43 * Morgan sighs Jun 15 14:42:51 This ends now, John. You understand me? Jun 15 14:44:29 No? Jun 15 14:44:59 You're going to sort yourself out, stay off the booze, look after your daughter. Jun 15 14:45:16 I can't promise that Jun 15 14:45:43 You'll do it or I'll take your child from you Jun 15 14:46:18 You can't Jun 15 14:46:45 You've just pissed yourself on my horse, you couldn't stop me Jun 15 14:47:55 Take her where?! Jun 15 14:48:44 Wherever I want, obviously Jun 15 14:50:11 But you can't! That's illegal! Jun 15 14:51:00 * Morgan shrugs Jun 15 14:51:14 So? You don't want me to take her? Jun 15 14:53:16 No, she's the last I've got of Eliza Jun 15 14:53:32 * Morgan jabs him behind the ear with his thumb Jun 15 14:53:39 Then fucking act like she matters to you Jun 15 14:56:41 Oww! Jun 15 14:57:46 * Morgan holds him in place, picking up speed Jun 15 15:01:19 * John stays thankfully quiet the rest of the way Jun 15 15:02:06 * Morgan climbs down before hauling John down as well Jun 15 15:02:12 Get inside, cleaned up and changed Jun 15 15:03:49 *He goes to a small house near the main one of his father Sir John Daggett* Jun 15 15:04:26 * Morgan finds some water to rub down the horse and saddle Jun 15 15:06:25 *he hears a young woman's voice from the house* Oh John, not again! Jun 15 15:06:54 * Morgan ties the horse before heading for the house Jun 15 15:11:33 *It's newly built, small but decorated with daffodils in pots outside. The windows look spotless Jun 15 15:12:06 * Morgan taps on the door Jun 15 15:13:44 *a brunette who he has seen at the christening and briefly in passing but has never spoken to opens the door* Jun 15 15:14:03 * John is now known as Helen Jun 15 15:14:12 You must be Helen Jun 15 15:14:19 * Helen nods Jun 15 15:14:31 You're Molly's husband, aren't you? Jun 15 15:14:35 * Morgan nods Jun 15 15:14:37 Yes, I am Jun 15 15:16:31 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jun 15 15:18:00 * Helen has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jun 15 17:18:41 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Jun 15 19:20:51 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Jun 15 19:21:12 * MollyK is now known as Helen Jun 15 19:21:41 * Helen is fairly plain, in her early twenties Jun 15 19:21:58 Thank you for bringing him home Jun 15 19:22:15 * Morgan nods slightly Jun 15 19:22:20 He's in a difficult place Jun 15 19:22:31 * Helen nods Jun 15 19:22:42 Do you want a cup of tea? Jun 15 19:22:55 please Jun 15 19:25:27 * Helen lets him in. The big kitchen she takes him to has a dining table and chairs, as well as chairs by the fire. There's a crib there too Jun 15 19:25:59 Have a seat. How do you take your tea? Jun 15 19:26:14 Strong with a dash of milk please Jun 15 19:26:18 * Morgan wanders over to the crib Jun 15 19:30:56 * Helen starts making it. Baby Kathleen is lovely, with blonde curls like Eliza had, and one of those very plump and soft looking babies that always look happy. She is placidly sleeping under a blanket Jun 15 19:31:30 Things are difficult for you at the moment Jun 15 19:32:34 * Helen nods "they are" Jun 15 19:33:16 What do you think would help that? Jun 15 19:34:32 He needs to stop drinking, for one. *she puts some tea on the table for him* Jun 15 19:34:52 * Morgan nods, sitting down and picking up the cup Jun 15 19:35:20 and Jun 15 19:35:38 And he needs to just get on with it Jun 15 19:35:56 * Morgan watches her over the rim of his cup Jun 15 19:35:59 How do you mean? Jun 15 19:36:27 All of this fuss. He needs to concentrate on our daughter and the future Jun 15 19:37:09 I see. Have you lost anyone? Jun 15 19:38:16 * Helen nods Jun 15 19:38:51 You don't end up as a full time wet nurse if you haven't Jun 15 19:39:13 I wouldn't know about that Jun 15 19:41:49 I had a husband, a daughter, and a son Jun 15 19:43:08 Then you know it isn't as easy as just... getting on with it. Jun 15 19:44:38 It has to be. I am doing it Jun 15 19:44:51 I couldn't Jun 15 19:45:40 He has to -try-. He's not trying. He's wallowing Jun 15 19:46:36 He doesn't know how. Jun 15 19:49:55 I didn't either, but I didn't have that luxury Jun 15 19:50:20 Have you tried explaining it to him? Jun 15 19:54:09 Yes. He knows Jun 15 19:54:41 * Morgan sighs Jun 15 19:54:56 I want to help him. I know the pain he feels intimately, the... despair... Jun 15 19:56:28 * Helen nods Jun 15 19:57:09 It does hurt a lot, but life has to go on. Their lives would have. Jun 15 19:57:46 Thats not something he can see right now. All he sees is this... massive, enormous challenge ahead of him and he can't see any way around or through it Jun 15 19:59:01 * Helen shrugs Jun 15 19:59:54 I don't know what to do for him. I have the house to look after and Kathleen to raise, and I'm doing it all myself. I'm mourning too, but I have to function, people depend on me Jun 15 20:00:46 * Morgan nods, sipping the tea Jun 15 20:01:44 What do you think he needs to help him through it? Jun 15 20:01:51 *Kathleen starts to make a cooing noise* Jun 15 20:02:02 To be stronger Jun 15 20:02:15 * Morgan shakes his head Jun 15 20:02:30 Thats too vague... strong for what? Jun 15 20:03:08 His daughter, and his responsibilities. He wanted to get married again, so I agreed Jun 15 20:03:38 When did you lose your husband and children? Jun 15 20:07:00 Two weeks before Kathleen was born Jun 15 20:07:38 * Morgan nods Jun 15 20:07:45 I'm sorry. How did it happen? Jun 15 20:09:35 * Helen sips her tea Jun 15 20:10:12 The whole household got throat distemper. They died one after another over twelve hours, the baby first Jun 15 20:11:38 * Morgan nods slowly Jun 15 20:11:56 how... how do you feel about John? Jun 15 20:13:55 When he's not drunk or morose, I like him. He's smart, and handsome Jun 15 20:14:34 You feel he is more... a friend... companion... Jun 15 20:16:31 He's my husband. He needed a wife, and I needed a permanent home Jun 15 20:18:04 You do not love him Jun 15 20:19:54 It's hard to love someone when they wish you were someone else Jun 15 20:20:20 Be honest with me... do you not wish he was your late husband? Jun 15 20:21:57 No. I miss my late husband a lot, but that's not my life now. What good would it do me to spend every day wishing for that? It's cruel Jun 15 20:22:10 * Morgan nods Jun 15 20:22:11 Alright Jun 15 20:23:24 *Kathleen coos louder, so Helen goes to get her out. She's about six weeks younger than Emil, but not far from his size* Jun 15 20:25:42 * Morgan looks at her, sipping his coffee Jun 15 20:26:55 * Helen brings her to the table. The baby is all smiles Jun 15 20:27:33 Do you have advice for me? Jun 15 20:28:19 Given you seem to handle it better than I ever did... Jun 15 20:29:56 * Helen kisses the baby's head Jun 15 20:30:38 You just have to make the best of what life gives you Jun 15 20:32:10 What of his work? Jun 15 20:33:48 He's got his own fields and livestock to manage, but he's letting it get out of hand Jun 15 20:34:58 * Morgan nods Jun 15 20:36:14 That needs to be tended to as well then Jun 15 20:37:04 Sir Daggett is starting to see the problems Jun 15 20:37:19 *Kathleen smiles at him* Jun 15 20:38:08 And what is he doing about it? Jun 15 20:39:28 Nothing, but I think he will very soon Jun 15 20:39:37 How so? Jun 15 20:45:18 I think he will insist on overseeing it himself. Once John isn't working, his drinking will get worse too Jun 15 20:48:16 Then his father needs to stay out of it Jun 15 20:50:19 But the animals will not thrive and the crops will die like this Jun 15 20:50:47 If he gets involved, John will get worse. You agree? Jun 15 20:54:03 Yes Jun 15 20:55:06 Then it cannot be allowed Jun 15 20:57:47 * Helen nods Jun 15 20:58:26 I can't do more than I'm already doing. We see to the chickens and milk the cows, but I don't have time to deal with the sheep too Jun 15 20:58:48 * Morgan nods Jun 15 20:59:01 I think we need to get John involved, don't you? Jun 15 20:59:12 * Helen nods Jun 15 20:59:23 He's probably passed out though Jun 15 21:00:19 Then he needs to be woken. Its time for him to start dealing with this Jun 15 21:04:29 * Helen stands up Jun 15 21:04:41 Could you look after Kathleen? Jun 15 21:05:16 * Morgan nods, putting down his tea Jun 15 21:06:00 * Helen hands the baby to him. She doesn't seem to mind at all Jun 15 21:06:21 * Morgan rocks her gently while he waits Jun 15 21:06:25 * Helen goes out of the kitchen, leaving him with Molly's goddaughter Jun 15 21:06:48 *Kathleen babbles quietly* Jun 15 21:06:59 * Morgan talks to her quietly Jun 15 21:09:04 *she smiles, copying his expressions. She's about Emil's weight Jun 15 21:10:20 * Morgan smiles, rocking her, holding her hand Jun 15 21:12:16 *she squeezes it. She doesn't make any fuss at all, still contented when her father and stepmother come down ten minutes later. He looks cleaned and dressed, but still a bit drunk* Jun 15 21:12:39 Coffee, for you I think Jun 15 21:16:30 * Helen gets it. Neither seems concerned about leaving their daughter in his arms Jun 15 21:18:09 * Morgan watches them for a moment, sipping his tea before putting it back on the table Jun 15 21:19:35 From here on, John, you are going to be different. Jun 15 21:20:15 * Helen gives John coffee Jun 15 21:20:19 * Helen is now known as John Jun 15 21:20:43 I know you normally get to boss anyone around, but it's not that easy Jun 15 21:22:02 I don't -get- to boss people around... I just -do-. I would prefer you work with me on this Jun 15 21:24:35 * John rubs his beard stubble Jun 15 21:24:51 No one is willing to give me time Jun 15 21:25:20 What have you done with the time you've taken so far? The time this young lady has been missing out on with her father? Jun 15 21:27:23 * John just shrugs Jun 15 21:28:07 Come on. What have you done? Jun 15 21:31:50 I don't know. Got married Jun 15 21:35:04 So... you got married, drunk yourself stupid over and over and kept pissing on yourself, while this little girl goes without you, while your crops start to fail and your flock ails... Jun 15 21:37:53 I'm grieving! Jun 15 21:38:35 And Helen is not? While she raises your daughter, keeps your house and has no time to go get piss drunk? Jun 15 21:39:32 That's different! Jun 15 21:40:14 Really? Mourning a love -and- two children is so much easier than mourning just the one while your child lives? Jun 15 21:40:49 I don't have to listen to you lecturing me! Jun 15 21:41:18 Very well. I'll go talk with your father, he can take over management of the lands, Helen can mourn in peace and this young one will come with me Jun 15 21:42:38 You're not taking my daughter! I don't care if she's your wife's goddaughter, you're not taking her! Jun 15 21:43:16 I cannot in good conscience leave her here for you to ignore and neglect because you want to drown your sorrows. Jun 15 21:44:07 Give her to me. Jun 15 21:44:47 * Morgan glances at him Jun 15 21:45:56 Would you hand a child over to a man with no intention of doing anything to support her? Who married a woman in mourning then makes her carry that pain alone? Jun 15 21:46:31 I'm going to support her. Just... just give her back. *he looks genuinely worried* Jun 15 21:47:02 How? How are you going to support either of them from the gutter? Jun 15 21:52:11 I don't know yet! Jun 15 21:52:33 H: First you're not going to the taverns anymore. Jun 15 21:54:54 * John groans Jun 15 22:09:04 * Morgan nods, watching them Jun 15 22:16:58 Alright Jun 15 22:17:15 H: And you need to go to church every Sunday. Jun 15 22:17:36 * John looks at Morgan "that seems pointless" Jun 15 22:18:14 I know. But... I have found it at least a little therapeutic. Jun 15 22:21:23 * John sighs "alright" Jun 15 22:23:01 You have to tend to the animals properly. God knows the sheep would die twice if they could Jun 15 22:23:43 * John laughs a little at this Jun 15 22:23:48 Yeah Jun 15 22:24:13 * Morgan nods slightly, looking at Helen briefly Jun 15 22:24:35 You two may not love eachother, but you are married... you need to support eachother... Jun 15 22:25:13 H: I've tried that Jun 15 22:26:12 Laying blame now isn't going to help. Think of it as a new chapter. The two of you from here are companions and must act as one Jun 15 22:27:18 * John and Helen nod Jun 15 22:29:04 I have your words on that? Jun 15 22:31:37 H: yes, we will Jun 15 22:31:42 * John nods Jun 15 22:31:58 What else needs to change? Jun 15 22:35:18 H: he just needs to stop talking about her all the time. I'm fed up of always hearing her name. He has to let her be at peace Jun 15 22:37:02 * John seems to entirely shut down at this, expressionless Jun 15 22:38:18 Bit much... how about... each day, you both spend ten minutes telling eachother the things about those you've that made you smile... that way you can both mourn together, let them rest and celebrate their lives Jun 15 22:38:54 I could do that Jun 15 22:39:27 H: I can, if I get some help with everything! I can't do an extra job on top of everything else Jun 15 22:40:05 I know you're frustrated at how things have been... we're moving past that, aren't we John? You're going to be pulling your weight... Jun 15 22:41:20 Yeah Jun 15 22:42:35 * Morgan looks to Helen Jun 15 22:43:07 I know its tough... but changing his behaviour means you have to let go of the things that have angered you this far... Jun 15 22:44:49 *she nods* Jun 15 22:45:41 * Morgan nods slowly Jun 15 22:46:35 Its going to be tough, and painful... the two of you need to remember that you have to support eachother, not blame eachother... and part of that support is not wallowing when the misery tries to overtake you Jun 15 22:47:46 *Helen and John nod again* Jun 15 22:49:51 * Morgan watches them closely for a moment before picking up his cup, sipping it Jun 15 22:50:57 * John looks at her "I'm sorry. You've had to do to much, it's not been fair" Jun 15 22:52:08 H: *she nods* I know you're struggling John. Maybe we shouldn't have rushed into it, but I think once you're trying to move on it could be good. Molly and Morgan seem to have managed it Jun 15 22:54:43 * Morgan nods, looking down at the baby Jun 15 22:55:05 Its not easy. But it is worth it. Jun 15 22:55:39 *Kathleen Jun 15 22:55:48 Smiles up at him* Jun 15 22:56:01 H: how did you make it work? Jun 15 22:57:50 We work at it constantly. We work -together-. You both need to lean on eachother, its the only way you can finally see brighter days Jun 15 22:59:14 * John nods, patting her shoulder a little "we'll try" Jun 15 22:59:38 * Morgan nods Jun 15 22:59:45 I'll be keeping an eye on the situation here Jun 15 23:01:58 H: how? Jun 15 23:02:11 * Morgan smiles slightly Jun 15 23:03:18 I spent years fending off monsters and magicians... keeping abreast of things is easy in comparison Jun 15 23:04:34 I don't want to be spied on Jun 15 23:04:58 Think of it as... keeping in touch. Jun 15 23:07:45 H: We will Jun 15 23:08:54 I'll send instructions how to reach us. I'd very much like to see you all happier next time I see you Jun 15 23:10:35 * John nods Jun 15 23:10:46 H: how is your wife and family? Jun 15 23:11:58 Very well. We have adopted another child and are on our way home to make the house we have purchased into a proper home Jun 15 23:14:27 H: how many children do you have now? Jun 15 23:14:41 Two now, both boys Jun 15 23:17:04 H: when will you have one of your own? Jun 15 23:17:23 As soon as we can... I'm reckoning she'll catch pregnant in autumn Jun 15 23:19:20 H: that's some time away, did you have trouble conceiving before Jun 15 23:20:13 No... I wanted to avoid children for a long while... I couldn't face it, so Molly used some herbs... Jun 15 23:20:31 H: Oh. Jun 15 23:21:08 Eliza and I conceived immediately. Jun 15 23:21:29 H: *she just sips her tea quietly* Jun 15 23:21:37 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:22:05 I imagine it would have been quick with Molly if I had not made the choice I did. Jun 15 23:23:16 H: I hope you will be blessed soon Jun 15 23:23:26 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:23:30 Me too Jun 15 23:24:23 * Morgan finishes his tea Jun 15 23:24:31 I suppose... I'd best be on my way Jun 15 23:25:04 * John stands, waiting to take the baby Jun 15 23:26:27 * Morgan stands up, gently handing her over Jun 15 23:27:26 * John holds her Jun 15 23:27:42 Are you in Tawstock long? Jun 15 23:28:09 No... Molly is visiting her brother, I -was- taking an envoy to meet Lady Torrington when I encountered you Jun 15 23:29:18 She's not coming up to see her goddaughter? Jun 15 23:29:51 I imagine that is on her list of things to do... Jun 15 23:31:42 * John nods Jun 15 23:31:58 Who knows when you'll ever come back Jun 15 23:33:53 Difficult to say. I will have lands to run, events to tolerate... but... we have a way to stay in contact... quicker than you'd think, too. Jun 15 23:34:37 * John seems a bit distracted by the baby Jun 15 23:34:48 H: I'll show you out Jun 15 23:35:22 * Morgan nods, squeezing Johns shoulder as he moves toward the door Jun 15 23:36:40 * John is now known as Helen Jun 15 23:36:48 * Helen speaks quietly in the hall Jun 15 23:36:54 Thank you for coming Jun 15 23:37:44 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:37:48 I hope things improve Jun 15 23:38:50 We'll have to wait and see Jun 15 23:39:15 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:39:24 I'll bring Molly along later Jun 15 23:40:40 * Helen nods Jun 15 23:40:51 Would you like to come for dinner? Jun 15 23:41:04 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:41:08 I think she might like that, yes Jun 15 23:42:03 * Helen nods Jun 15 23:42:12 Your children are welcome too Jun 15 23:42:27 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:42:30 Thank you Jun 15 23:43:04 * Helen nods Jun 15 23:43:12 Goodbye for now Jun 15 23:44:10 * Morgan inclines his head, moving outside and heading for the horse Jun 15 23:46:21 *it's happily eating grass* Jun 15 23:46:38 * Morgan untethers it, getting mounted back up to head to Catherines Jun 15 23:49:02 *the ride is very peaceful. Going back to the estate again, there are not just all the memories of what actually happened, but also the recent dreams of him being here looking after Florrie, and Molly coming here to be tutored by him Jun 15 23:49:29 * Morgan looks the house over as he rides into the grounds Jun 15 23:51:20 *there's a few servants going about their work, but they all look new in the four months since he was last there* Jun 15 23:51:46 * Morgan heads for the stables to leave the horse Jun 15 23:53:22 *he knows the groom here, an older man named Sam* Jun 15 23:53:28 * Helen is now known as Sam Jun 15 23:53:43 Your Grace... Jun 15 23:53:52 Sam... how are you? Jun 15 23:54:29 Well thank you. Who's that lovely girl with your friend? Not your mistress? Jun 15 23:55:19 She's an envoy... you remember that crazy monk Sigfried? Jun 15 23:56:13 * Sam nods "heard he was coming to find you" Jun 15 23:56:20 * Morgan nods Jun 15 23:56:40 Turns out he really is the crown prince of some far off land... we found his wife and took him home... Uinise is one of their people Jun 15 23:57:13 * Sam laughs Jun 15 23:57:28 Him, a prince?! What?! Jun 15 23:58:24 I know... I always liked him but even I thought he was a few sandwiches short of a picnic, but apparently not