**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon May 29 12:33:53 2023 May 29 12:33:53 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined May 29 12:37:52 * Morgan has quit (Quit: Leaving) May 29 19:34:53 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined May 29 19:35:07 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined May 29 19:35:17 * MollyK is now known as Edward May 29 19:36:58 * Morgan nods May 29 19:37:13 But you don't wish to... May 29 19:38:59 It is just something I have done for many years May 29 19:39:32 A habit... habits can change, particularly if there is a need to May 29 19:42:06 You think I should then May 29 19:42:19 I see no reason not to May 29 19:43:18 * Edward nods May 29 19:43:50 Father will say I shouldn't let my wife control my actions May 29 19:45:33 * Morgan watches him May 29 19:46:22 I could push you on that, are you going to have your marriage dictated by him, et cetera... but... would you be giving it up because she told you to, or would you be giving it up -for- her? May 29 19:47:48 The latter, but also for the sake of our children. I would not want them to smoke as Father does May 29 19:48:33 Then does it matter what father will say? May 29 19:49:39 No, it does not. *he sips his drink* How is your own Ship? May 29 19:50:19 * Morgan nods May 29 19:50:28 Fine. Looking forward to more time together May 29 19:51:11 * Edward nods May 29 19:51:44 She misses you, I can see it when I speak to her May 29 19:52:00 * Morgan nods May 29 19:52:05 Its only another day or so now May 29 19:52:48 * Edward nods, smiling May 29 19:53:18 Florrie tells me each day that you will soon be in "Morgan's Sock" May 29 19:53:31 * Morgan nods May 29 19:54:18 She is such a sweet girl May 29 19:54:59 * Edward nods "she is very funny. I think she gets it from our side" May 29 19:55:27 * Morgan nods May 29 19:55:37 Alice's family don't exactly sound like a riot May 29 19:57:17 No, they aren't May 29 19:58:35 * Morgan nods, yawning May 29 19:58:59 Sorry... I wanted to talk to you about meeting Florrie May 29 19:59:20 Am I keeping you up? May 29 20:00:08 No, its just been a lot of shifts in a short time May 29 20:00:42 Let's keep it brief then May 29 20:01:05 No, I'm ok Edward. We'll take as long as is needed May 29 20:01:36 I will have to be prompt for dinner though. Go on May 29 20:03:08 * Morgan nods May 29 20:04:03 I think it would be best if you didn't come right away... I think it best for Florrie if she has a little while to settle in before she meets you May 29 20:44:36 * Edward has that same sort of serious look their Father gets May 29 20:44:53 I see. How long are you anticipating such a delay to be? May 29 20:45:30 I was thinking for you to arrive around the twentieth... there or there abouts May 29 20:45:47 That is quite a delay May 29 20:46:02 Yes. I know. May 29 20:51:06 It is your house, brother. If that is when I am invited to attend, that is when I will attend. May 29 20:52:36 You know thats not how it is, Edward. I would -love- to get the two of you together immediately, but we are bringing her a great distance, with great change... with the way her mind works, at least a part of her needs to be settled before we unsettle another May 29 20:53:50 I am not happy about that, I am sure you can imagine. May 29 20:55:20 Of course. I'm not particularly. Trust me when I tell you I want this to be successful, and that I truly believe this is the best way to achieve that. May 29 20:56:38 I understand you. It is not your desire for me to feel I am being prevented from being with my daughter whilst you get to be with her May 29 20:57:03 But that is how you feel May 29 20:57:20 I am frustrated by it, yes May 29 20:58:38 * Morgan watches him speculatively May 29 20:58:54 You feel perhaps I am doing it as some sort of... recompense... May 29 21:00:55 * Edward 's jaw ripples May 29 21:01:15 No, this is not about Jana, this is about -Florrie- May 29 21:01:55 Good. I would be most upset if you thought I would behave in such a way. May 29 21:03:01 You want to move forward. To do that we need to stop making this automatic link between them. May 29 21:03:13 * Morgan nods May 29 21:04:25 I'm glad you can see that I am not that sort of person. May 29 21:05:56 I know May 29 21:06:03 * Morgan frowns May 29 21:06:59 I was not accusing you... it would be reasonable for you to feel that was my motive... I asked only so that I could assuage that feeling if it were there. May 29 21:08:57 It isn't *he sips his drink* It's a big disappointment May 29 21:09:04 * Morgan nods May 29 21:10:10 I know. I am disappointed. Can you see the sense in what I'm saying? May 29 21:12:36 I can, yes. I want her to be happy May 29 21:12:48 * Morgan nods May 29 21:13:05 I want that for both of you. Can I be brutally frank, Edward? May 29 21:15:49 Yes, of course May 29 21:16:21 I don't want you coming away from this thinking 'I should've listened'. That shit will haunt you, and I don't want that for you May 29 21:19:13 I know, Morgan. I get it. This is best for my daughter. May 29 21:20:00 For the both of you. Let me talk with Alice, she knows her best, perhaps she won't need so long to get settled May 29 21:21:02 * Edward nods "very well, brother" May 29 21:21:29 * Morgan watches him sadly May 29 21:22:01 Be angry at me, Edward. Its understandable... its right. It won't change our bond for me May 29 21:23:50 I am not angry with you. It is not about you, it is about not being able to see my daughter for even longer May 29 21:24:42 I know... but if you're angry at me you've got a focus for it. I've always found that helps May 29 21:29:21 For Theus' sake, Morgan! I am not angry with you May 29 21:29:55 * Morgan smiles slightly May 29 21:30:02 You are now. God I admire you May 29 21:31:42 For? May 29 21:33:09 Your strength. Your calm. Your willingness to accept that my suggestion is what's best for her, despite it being utterly against what you want May 29 21:34:40 What will I gain from throwing a tantrum over it? I know it is sensible for Florrie May 29 21:35:08 You might feel a little better. It seems to work for father. May 29 21:37:09 * Edward smiles May 29 21:37:26 It is a waste of his energies, as you well know May 29 21:37:37 * Morgan smiles slightly May 29 21:38:37 I'm a devious sort, it stands to reason I was able to exploit it May 29 21:39:05 * Morgan scratches his chin May 29 21:39:16 I do have a serious question, though, now I think of it... May 29 21:40:45 Yes? May 29 21:41:01 Would it be easier for you if you do not see us together in the meantime? May 29 21:42:29 No, not at all. I will continue to speak with her every other day May 29 21:43:49 You sure? I'll make sure I've made myself scarce when you speak to her, I don't want to exacerbate your unhappiness at waiting May 29 21:46:29 You are taking this too personally, brother May 29 21:46:51 Not at all... I am trying to make things easier for you, nothing more May 29 21:50:36 Once you have spoken to Alice, confirm a date for me. Mother says the Baptism is the twenty seventh, it will be before that for definite? May 29 21:51:02 Oh, god yes. At the latest I was thinking the twentieth... I'd like it to be earlier May 29 21:54:57 * Edward nods, taking a drink May 29 21:55:05 How are -your- children? May 29 21:56:15 Emil is growing like a weed... I've missed a fair bit this last month. Varick.... He keeps having to make concessions, lose time with me because of work, or because Emil wants me... its difficult May 29 21:58:15 * Edward nods May 29 21:58:48 The roles we serve are always going to mean our children having less of us than we wish May 29 21:58:56 * Morgan nods May 29 21:59:51 As long as it is more than recently, we will manage. Varick is dead set on being a good older brother, keeps using me as a yardstick for it. I find that... hard May 29 22:03:27 * Edward sips his drink again "Moving on with your relationship with me, and with Father, after everything that happened, also requires you to move on in your relationship with -yourself-" May 29 22:03:39 * Morgan nods May 29 22:05:15 Yes, it does. I'm coming to realise that we were not as close as I would have liked, looking back... but I also realise that is... a part of being boys. I'm hoping to foster a closer relationship in my children without stifling their independence. And then, for an easier task, I'm going to save the world May 29 22:07:11 * Edward nods May 29 22:07:22 Easier than successfully parenting ten May 29 22:08:00 I had a dream that you and I were surrounded by children, trying to work out who was whose... May 29 22:10:41 I think we could just sort them by eye colour May 29 22:11:51 You assume they'll all have your eye colour? May 29 22:13:57 Or Mina's brown eyes May 29 22:14:20 * Morgan nods May 29 22:14:52 Ideally we'd recognise our children without needing to resort to that... though, being honest, until recently that has been the only way I could tell May 29 22:16:49 * Edward nods May 29 22:16:58 But she is growing fast May 29 22:17:04 * Morgan nods May 29 22:17:20 She's... thriving now. They both seem to be May 29 22:19:20 Both...? Ah, Florrie and -Alice- May 29 22:19:42 * Morgan nods May 29 22:20:18 Aye. I'm not so delusional as to start thinking my dreams are real May 29 22:20:47 Molly mentioned that they have returned May 29 22:20:58 * Morgan nods May 29 22:21:06 Some difficult ones at the moment. May 29 22:23:17 Why is that? May 29 22:24:05 I encountered Florrie without having even known Molly. I was still very... broken. May 29 22:25:57 * Edward looks a little protective "I can appreciate that would be difficult" May 29 22:26:17 * Morgan nods May 29 22:27:29 She was just the same age as Jana... it was quite jarring. May 29 22:28:04 What did you do? May 29 22:29:32 I went back to see her... Molly, who was caring for her, was kidnapped and I ended up with her... someone tried to burn the house with her in it. Predictably I did not react well to that May 29 22:32:19 * Edward nods May 29 22:32:37 I see May 29 22:32:48 * Morgan nods May 29 22:33:24 Long story short, I discovered my magic, ended up having to care for Florrie and met Sebastien all in one day. May 29 22:36:30 But without you and Molly being involved that last cannot have been a problem? May 29 22:36:45 Not yet. We'll see how it turns out May 29 22:41:07 * Edward nods "just remember, if something happens to Florrie in it, it is not real" May 29 22:41:15 * Morgan nods May 29 22:41:34 I know. Its difficult, the feelings linger. May 29 22:46:22 * Edward nods May 29 22:46:42 Your dreams go beyond normal people's dreams May 29 22:46:58 That, my brother, may be something of an understatement May 29 22:48:09 * Edward nods "you did not have them in Capperlucia, I'm told" May 29 22:48:21 No, not a one May 29 22:52:31 A pity it did not last May 29 22:52:40 * Morgan shrugs May 29 22:52:45 That was never on the cards May 29 22:55:35 * Edward nods May 29 22:56:00 A time to return to the tobacco, perhaps? May 29 22:56:44 maybe. It'll be easier when things are a bit less tiring May 29 23:01:13 * Edward nods May 29 23:01:55 I should go to dinner, brother May 29 23:02:12 Yes, of course May 29 23:04:15 We will speak again soon on your mirror or theirs May 29 23:04:56 * Morgan nods May 29 23:05:02 As you wish. Take care Edward May 29 23:06:35 And you, brother. I love you. May 29 23:06:44 And I you, so very much May 29 23:09:43 * Edward smiles "my love to all" May 29 23:09:52 * Morgan nods May 29 23:09:55 Likewise, please May 29 23:12:26 * Edward nods "goodnight, Morgan" May 29 23:13:19 * Morgan bids him goodnight, covering the mirror May 29 23:15:10 *it's all quiet* May 29 23:16:07 * Morgan yawns, stretching May 29 23:17:14 *it's about ten minutes later that Molly brings in dinner* May 29 23:17:18 * Edward is now known as Molly May 29 23:17:38 Sorry, my love, I was talking with Sorgi May 29 23:18:13 Oh? May 29 23:22:15 Just seeing how he feels about taking command again, and asking him if perhaps he should work less May 29 23:22:28 Oh? How did that go? May 29 23:22:34 * Molly puts the plates on the desk before sitting down May 29 23:22:55 He is happy to be Captain again, but doesn't want to redistribute the shifts May 29 23:23:14 Doesn't want to... May 29 23:25:02 No. He isn't wanting to give anyone more work May 29 23:25:10 Why? May 29 23:28:13 He doesn't mind the workload, and he wants you to rest now May 29 23:28:43 I see May 29 23:30:30 * Molly starts eating May 29 23:30:55 How was Edward? May 29 23:31:08 Unhappy at the delay May 29 23:34:16 * Molly nods May 29 23:34:20 As expected May 29 23:34:57 * Morgan nods May 29 23:35:05 I feel for him May 29 23:35:44 * Molly nods May 29 23:35:51 As do I, but... May 29 23:36:54 It is necessary. I think it worth trying to get that delay as small as possible though May 29 23:42:05 * Molly nods May 29 23:42:34 Yes May 29 23:44:40 I think we should speak to Alice, see how long she suggests May 29 23:45:47 If you wish, my love. I just want the children to be settled in May 29 23:46:02 * Morgan nods May 29 23:46:04 Indeed May 29 23:53:56 I hope I haven't made things difficult for you May 29 23:54:14 A little... but its the right thing to do May 29 23:55:31 * Molly nods May 29 23:55:51 I love Edward dearly, but our boys come first May 29 23:56:17 I don't think it'll take long for them to get settled in May 29 23:56:33 Look how quickly they settled at the house in Capperlucia May 29 23:59:03 I suppose so