**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Fri Mar 24 09:42:16 2023 Mar 24 09:42:16 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Mar 24 09:51:04 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 24 09:51:36 * Morgan climbs out of bed, picking up Amir and fetching the milk to feed him Mar 24 09:53:08 *Amir stays mostly asleep, heavy and warm. The milk is still slightly warm too, not as hot as it just had been at the source* Mar 24 09:53:40 * Morgan rocks him gently as he feeds him, yawning Mar 24 09:56:19 *the weight, the warmth, the tiredness, the scent of breast milk and lingering taste in his mouth all makes his mind wander to long ago, Jana at this age, soothing her in the dark of the cottage in the winter, her solid form defying the coolness of the room* Mar 24 09:58:19 * Morgan screws up his face momentarily before sniffing quietly, swaying the boy back and forth Mar 24 10:00:09 *still the baby doesn't fully wake, just safe and quietly feeding* Mar 24 10:00:47 * Morgan moves about the room quietly, rocking him as he moves Mar 24 10:02:38 *he's soon done and fully asleep* Mar 24 10:03:29 * Morgan gently puts him back in the crib before climbing back into bed himself Mar 24 10:03:51 * MollyK must be exhausted because she doesn't stir Mar 24 10:04:32 * Morgan tries once more to settle to sleep Mar 24 10:07:26 *he manages it. He dreams hazily that he's at Hafenlohr, a nice spot picked for building the cottage, close to the house but at the back so as not to be disturbed by noble guests. He and HH are working shirtless, and every time Morgan adds a brick another falls out. He wakes with the dawn watch* Mar 24 10:08:38 * Morgan stretches before climbing out of bed Mar 24 10:12:51 *his back feels a little damp* Mar 24 10:13:10 * Morgan looks over at Molly Mar 24 10:13:22 * MollyK is still asleep Mar 24 10:14:51 * Morgan pulls his trousers on before trying to find a towel to dry his back Mar 24 10:16:41 *he manages it* Mar 24 10:18:03 * Morgan gets dried off before pulling the rest of his clothes on, leaving quietly to get coffee Mar 24 10:20:10 *he finds HH already there doing likewise* Mar 24 10:20:15 * MollyK is now known as HH Mar 24 10:20:17 Hey Mar 24 10:20:25 Alright? Mar 24 10:23:19 Yeah, guess so. You? Mar 24 10:23:51 * Morgan nods Mar 24 10:23:56 Whats up? Mar 24 10:26:00 Bit o' trouble stayin' asleep Mar 24 10:26:29 nightmares? Mar 24 10:29:36 Nah, just... memories. What I shoulda seen, what I shoulda done. You know how it is Mar 24 10:30:49 And I also know you couldn't have known Mar 24 10:31:39 * HH shrugs Mar 24 10:32:50 Mebbie. Anyway, 'ow was Molly? *he gives Morgan some coffee* Mar 24 10:33:43 Not maybe. You'd be telling me the same. *he sips his coffee* she's fine. Still asleep, dribbling on the pillows when I came out Mar 24 10:36:15 * HH nods Mar 24 10:36:32 Wasn' sure if what I said last night 'ad really messed with her Mar 24 10:37:57 Not at all, actually. She was worried about you though Mar 24 10:40:32 * HH nods Mar 24 10:40:40 I'll be alright, man Mar 24 10:40:53 * Morgan nods Mar 24 10:42:14 Aye, I imagine so Mar 24 10:43:32 * HH nods, drinking some coffee Mar 24 10:43:46 Nightmares still gone? Mar 24 10:45:26 * Morgan nods Mar 24 10:45:42 Had a little dream, but... was just a dream Mar 24 10:47:02 Not sure if yer weird dreams are weirder than y' not havin' weird dreams anymore! Mar 24 10:47:42 * Morgan nods Mar 24 10:47:46 Its still freaking Claudia out Mar 24 10:49:50 * HH nods Mar 24 10:50:04 Whatcha reck'n, why's it 'appening? Mar 24 10:50:34 Because I'm too far from home I think Mar 24 10:51:46 Pretty weird, man Mar 24 10:51:52 * Morgan shrugs Mar 24 10:52:05 Its the only explanation I can come up with Mar 24 10:55:51 * HH nods Mar 24 10:56:10 Things a bit more peaceful 'tween you pair then? Mar 24 10:56:51 You do realise all married couples fight, right? Mar 24 10:57:46 We don't fight much, man. Think tha' first one was our only proper fight, an' tha's month's ago Mar 24 10:59:06 I've noticed Mar 24 11:01:33 * HH nods Mar 24 11:01:47 How y' findin' havin' the babe now? Mar 24 11:02:23 Difficult at times. Molly was sound asleep when he started fussing so I fed him... took me back, man Mar 24 11:04:39 * HH nods Mar 24 11:05:12 Unnerstandable. Bit different with Varick b'cause he's a big kid Mar 24 11:06:53 Yeah, though some of the dreams made it harder fr a while Mar 24 11:08:06 * HH nods "y' still glad y' took him on?" Mar 24 11:10:51 Yes, I am. I knew it wouldn't be easy. Mar 24 11:11:38 Prob'ly not gettin' better til he's older than she was? Mar 24 11:12:02 With the dreams, maybe not even then. Mar 24 11:13:50 * HH nods Mar 24 11:14:18 Sucks, man. You sure they're comin' back? Mar 24 11:15:03 Certain of it. I don't get to see Madchen until we're back... nightmares will return at the same time. Mar 24 11:17:01 * HH leans against the counter Mar 24 11:17:05 Miss her? Mar 24 11:17:41 Madchen? Mar 24 11:17:50 Yeah Mar 24 11:17:56 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:18:01 Yes, I do. Mar 24 11:18:24 That 'appen a lot with people in yer dreams? Mar 24 11:19:38 Nope, it doesn't. She's special. Mar 24 11:20:12 No idea when she's comin'? Mar 24 11:21:00 No... its a real test of my patience Mar 24 11:21:09 * HH chuckles Mar 24 11:21:23 No got as much o' that as y' used to ave Mar 24 11:22:02 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 24 11:22:05 Not by a long way Mar 24 11:22:30 Gon' be disappointed each time til it's her? Mar 24 11:23:24 No... Mar 24 11:24:00 Tha's good. Gotta have a coupla boy's first? Mar 24 11:24:09 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:24:17 Aye, I think so Mar 24 11:25:04 Four boys, man, including Varick an' Amir. Gon' be a lotta scraped knees! Mar 24 11:25:42 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:25:49 I reckon it'll be more than that, too Mar 24 11:26:16 * HH nods Mar 24 11:26:27 Whole house o' strapping lads Mar 24 11:26:42 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:29:02 Hopin' for a couple ourselves Mar 24 11:29:50 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:29:58 A HeinzHarold and a... Bert? Mar 24 11:30:10 Bert?! Mar 24 11:31:20 Its a good strong name.... Think it means... farts in E flat. Mar 24 11:31:30 * HH sniggers Mar 24 11:32:07 Not really picked out names. Gonna have at least nine months t' pick Mar 24 11:32:18 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:32:30 Aye... we're considering a few but... not really made any choices Mar 24 11:32:52 * HH nods "tough t' decide" Mar 24 11:33:00 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:33:04 yeah Mar 24 11:33:36 Inga was saying if it's this time they'd be comin' round our birthdays Mar 24 11:34:07 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:34:11 That'd be nice Mar 24 11:34:20 * HH nods Mar 24 11:35:14 'Spect I'll have my work cut out f' me this week. She's gotta good grasp o' which days are most likely thanks t' Molly and Beth Mar 24 11:35:46 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:35:57 Edward was looking quite weary for the same reason Mar 24 11:36:06 * HH chuckles Mar 24 11:36:29 Heavy burden, man. Yer gon' be just as bad come August Mar 24 11:36:43 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:36:46 I know Mar 24 11:37:09 * HH smiles Mar 24 11:37:29 Then accordin' to yer wife you get to take a year long break, huh? Mar 24 11:38:00 Uhhh. No. Mar 24 11:38:47 Cracked me up tha' she didn't wanna get pregnant when y' first did it so she could keep doin' it. Real sweet an' innocent Mar 24 11:39:11 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:39:20 That and she knew I wasn't ready for children just then Mar 24 11:39:26 * HH nods Mar 24 11:41:09 Y' knew it was both? *she'd had to admit about the herbs not long after they'd gotten to Die Dauerhaftigkeit when he'd mentioned having children in the near future, and she'd been quite embarrassed to admit that she'd been keen to just keep bedding him for the sake of lust, back when she was much shyer about her desire for him* Mar 24 11:41:29 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:41:33 She told me, yes Mar 24 11:43:25 Lucky really, tha' y' both had reasons to not pursue it Mar 24 11:43:30 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:43:35 At the time, yes Mar 24 11:43:57 Jus' kickin' yerself now Mar 24 11:44:09 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:44:20 Another consequence of my actions that I have to deal with Mar 24 11:44:46 Yer in it together though Mar 24 11:45:47 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:45:51 Yeah, we are Mar 24 11:46:17 Inga says she ain't gon' take them again til we got four Mar 24 11:47:14 No. I don't blame her at all Mar 24 11:47:37 Same for you guys? Mar 24 11:48:12 yeah Mar 24 11:49:15 * HH nods Mar 24 11:49:27 Gon' miss all this? Mar 24 11:50:25 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:50:40 Oh yeah, definitely. In some respects I envy Claudia in that Mar 24 11:51:59 Unshackled and free, sailin' around, casually swivin' whoever takes her fancy? Mar 24 11:52:15 The first part, yeah Mar 24 11:52:56 * HH nods "I'm gon' miss the sailin' a bit, but I don' want the rest" Mar 24 11:53:25 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:55:41 I'm happy being shackled to m' wife, tied down with some kids, findin' some useful work, makin' shit in the forge, being a part o' the community. Basic'ly, man, some'ow I've grown up enough t' be ready t' emulate my Da Mar 24 11:57:40 * Morgan nods Mar 24 11:58:30 Its already happenin' Mar 24 11:59:26 But you, you had tha' nailed down soon as we left th' battlefield. Y' were rebelling against yer Da by being more like mine, and I was rebelling by not settling down Mar 24 12:00:11 I'm not sure you're right... I wasn't rebelling by being like Da... he's... an integral part of who I am Mar 24 12:01:01 Yer like 'im, in a lotta ways Mar 24 12:01:21 Yeah? Mar 24 12:01:52 Protective, love yer kids and yer wife, care about people. Mar 24 12:02:21 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:03:48 Mebbie not quite as steady as 'im, but I reck'n yer gonna head that way Mar 24 12:04:13 Need to walk that line between him and my father Mar 24 12:05:43 * HH nods Mar 24 12:06:31 Politically like yer Da, socially and romantically like mine Mar 24 12:07:07 aye Mar 24 12:07:37 Lot t' live up to... Mar 24 12:08:02 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:08:10 Fuck saving the world, -thats- what scares me Mar 24 12:08:43 * HH drinks some coffee "yeah, man. I wanna be th' guy tha' my sons wanna be" Mar 24 12:09:24 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:09:31 yeah... thats a good aim Mar 24 12:09:40 * HH nods Mar 24 12:10:44 Saving th' world is either doable or it's not. But if we're goin' down I wanna do that as a man my wife is proud to 'ave picked, and my kids are proud t' have been sired by, Mar 24 12:11:50 * Morgan nods, frowning briefly Mar 24 12:12:28 Don't go frettin' yerself that it could be the end o' me, man Mar 24 12:12:54 * Morgan looks at him, a decision clearly made Mar 24 12:12:59 I'm not fretting Mar 24 12:13:14 I don' like that look, man... *he chuckles* Mar 24 12:14:17 But its the only face you've got... Mar 24 12:14:48 I mean it. Y' not tying me up an' locking me away at home while you get to do all the hero shit Mar 24 12:15:29 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Mar 24 12:16:48 Y' know how it is. We were raised t' stand an' fight an' prob'ly die for our ideals. If that's what fate's got in store for me, that's were I'll be Mar 24 12:17:23 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:17:33 I know. Not the ideal, mind... Mar 24 12:18:09 Nope. But I'm not the one y' gotta watch. The fuckin' wild card in all o' this is the same it's always been... Mar 24 12:19:06 Only one? Mar 24 12:19:14 The big one Mar 24 12:20:33 Not narrowing it down much... both Molly and Claudia can be... unpredictable Mar 24 12:21:47 Nah, Claudia isn't unpredictable. She's predictable -for Claudia-. She'll be hurling herself at whatever enemy, an' yeah, she'd give her life for any o' us. Mar 24 12:23:15 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:24:10 Molly's more o' the worry Mar 24 12:24:18 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:24:28 Yeah, she is. Gonn' have to keep a tight hold of her Mar 24 12:24:58 She's th' one I'd wanna leave tied up at 'ome Mar 24 12:25:23 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:25:27 Yeah Mar 24 12:25:59 Problem is, she's necessary Mar 24 12:26:13 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:26:16 Yeah, she is Mar 24 12:26:37 Get th' feeling she doesn' really take that as seriously as she needs to Mar 24 12:27:06 Not so sure about that anymore Mar 24 12:27:26 * HH shrugs Mar 24 12:28:22 Prone to martyrin' herself, 'specially like I said in that palace, when she sees parallels in the situation an' you losin' Dietlinde Mar 24 12:29:00 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:29:08 We've talked since then about it, though... Mar 24 12:30:12 Will it be enough though? We dunno what the enemy would be or know? What might she be willin' to trade away if you gettin' Dietlinde back was on offer, y' know? Mar 24 12:31:24 I'll talk to her Mar 24 12:32:42 * HH nods "don't get me wrong, man, I love Molly to bits, but... sometimes she scares me wi' her unpredictability, 'specially when your heart an' happiness relies on her" Mar 24 12:45:48 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:45:56 Yeah, I know what you mean Mar 24 12:50:22 Like with comin' outta that shield with th' ice bastard Mar 24 12:50:48 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:50:58 We've talked about that as well... how we have to work together Mar 24 12:51:04 * HH nods Mar 24 12:51:47 Five hundred years, they couldn't make her less impulsive? *he grin* Mar 24 12:52:19 They're not quite so in control as they think they are Mar 24 12:52:53 * HH nods Mar 24 12:53:09 Fantastic, ain't it? Mar 24 12:53:28 There is a certain pleasure to be taken in surprising them Mar 24 12:53:49 * HH chuckles Mar 24 12:53:55 Do that often? Mar 24 12:54:25 More often than they'd like Mar 24 12:55:32 Weird little buggers Mar 24 12:55:47 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:55:56 Yes, that they are Mar 24 12:56:55 Best get up, sun'll be up else, an' I got forenoon Mar 24 12:57:35 * Morgan nods, leading him up onto deck Mar 24 12:58:44 *it's alright warmish even in the pre-dawn* Mar 24 12:59:14 One more week, man Mar 24 12:59:50 * Morgan nods Mar 24 12:59:58 I'm not looking forward to the heat Mar 24 13:00:22 * HH nods Mar 24 13:00:34 Y' a bit of a delicate flower really Mar 24 13:00:48 No, I just prefer the cold Mar 24 13:01:17 Only stayin' a week or so, I hear Mar 24 13:02:02 Oh? I thought it was two Mar 24 13:02:15 * HH shrugs Mar 24 13:02:22 Might be wrong Mar 24 13:04:16 I know they're all keen to get headed home again Mar 24 13:04:57 * HH nods Mar 24 13:05:20 Time to build nests, innit? Mar 24 13:06:01 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:06:03 exactly Mar 24 13:06:46 * HH drinks his coffee as the sun comes up into a clear blue sky Mar 24 13:07:56 Lookin' like a good day Mar 24 13:08:10 * Morgan nods, looking at th water Mar 24 13:09:20 *it looks good and favourable* Mar 24 13:09:45 Right, gonna go say g'mornin' to my best girl b'fore work Mar 24 13:10:32 Alright man Mar 24 13:11:30 * HH goes below. The crew get the ship moving Mar 24 13:12:29 * Morgan goes to the rail, watching the water where it meets the hull for a little while Mar 24 13:16:28 *it all seems like a peaceful Sunday is in store for them* Mar 24 13:17:34 * Morgan goes below, getting a jug of coffee and cups, carrying them to his study Mar 24 13:19:15 *no one is in the study yet* Mar 24 13:19:32 * Morgan pours his own coffee, sipping it as he walks through into the bedroom Mar 24 13:19:39 * HH is now known as Molly Mar 24 13:21:26 * Molly is still asleep, on her side with the sheets pushed down. Amir is laid beside her at breast height, also sleeping but looks like he's fallen asleep on the breast. She has a protective arm over his body Mar 24 13:23:47 * Morgan smiles, watching them for a moment before going back into the study and sitting down, looking out of the window Mar 24 13:24:42 * Molly can be heard talking to the baby shortly afterwards, but not loudly enough to make out the words Mar 24 13:25:16 * Morgan gets back up, going back into the bedroom Mar 24 13:26:28 * Molly has switched to the other side, nursing the baby Mar 24 13:26:41 Oh! I didn't hear you return Mar 24 13:26:56 You were asleep Mar 24 13:27:15 * Molly smiles, stroking Amir's hair Mar 24 13:27:25 It's a tiring business, it seems! Mar 24 13:28:57 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:29:00 Apparently so Mar 24 13:29:29 This is very comfortable though Mar 24 13:30:22 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:30:26 good Mar 24 13:31:43 Are you well? Mar 24 13:32:18 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:32:27 Aye, I'm alright. You? Mar 24 13:32:56 * Molly nods Mar 24 13:33:01 How did you sleep? Mar 24 13:34:02 Soundly. Had a brief dream about building HeinzHarolds cottage but... it was just a dream Mar 24 13:34:30 * Molly nods Mar 24 13:34:40 It continues then... Mar 24 13:34:56 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:35:07 Aye. HeinzHarold tells me we're only staying a week... Mar 24 13:35:16 * Molly nods Mar 24 13:35:23 I was thinking about it Mar 24 13:36:29 right... Mar 24 13:37:39 We wish to go to Tawstock, Foxcroft, and Insel before going home, and I am concerned we won't be back in time for Sascha's delivery Mar 24 13:38:14 Even with the four weeks we'll have cut from our journey? Mar 24 13:38:47 * Molly nods Mar 24 13:39:06 It's twins... it's unpredictable, and if something happens... Mar 24 13:39:26 Alright love. You're going to have to work hard to secure an agreement in that time Mar 24 13:40:14 * Molly nods Mar 24 13:40:37 I know, believe me. I am going to be pushed right to my limits, I'm sure Mar 24 13:40:58 * Morgan nods slowly Mar 24 13:41:30 I wonder... is it worth talking to Betuana about it? Let her know the reason for the compressed timetable, see if some of it can be brokered before we arrive... Mar 24 13:41:37 * Molly nods Mar 24 13:41:46 That is an excellent idea, my love Mar 24 13:42:30 * Morgan shrugs Mar 24 13:42:42 I don't know how open to it she'll be... Mar 24 13:43:31 We shall see, I suppose. However, today is Sunday Mar 24 13:44:11 It is Mar 24 13:44:31 And it is a day for prayer, religious education, and family Mar 24 13:45:50 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:45:51 Aye Mar 24 13:47:51 * Molly nods, watching the baby fondly Mar 24 13:47:58 We've been very blessed Mar 24 13:48:04 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:48:07 Yes we have Mar 24 13:49:01 * Molly smiles as Amir comes off "done already, hmm?" Mar 24 13:50:49 * Molly sits up, lifting him to upright, and she glances at Morgan "how is it he just smells so good to me?" Mar 24 13:51:49 Probably a survival trait... makes you want to keep him safe... Mar 24 13:52:10 Interesting... I do like the smell of babies generally... Mar 24 13:53:06 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:54:44 Most people do Mar 24 13:55:28 But it's different since I started nursing him. He just smells better to me Mar 24 13:55:38 * Morgan nods Mar 24 13:55:50 Perhaps there's more to it then Mar 24 13:57:00 * Molly looks at Amir "what do you think, lammchen? Is it because you smell more of me now?" Mar 24 13:57:19 *Amir babbles happily* Mar 24 13:59:31 * Morgan smiles, drinking his coffee Mar 24 14:01:29 What about you, my love, does he smell better to you too? Mar 24 14:01:48 * Morgan shrugs Mar 24 14:01:53 You smell different now Mar 24 14:02:03 Do I? In a good way? Mar 24 14:02:17 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:02:18 Aye Mar 24 14:02:34 * Molly smiles Mar 24 14:02:40 What do I smell of? Mar 24 14:03:18 Its impossible to define. Mar 24 14:03:49 * Molly watches him fondly Mar 24 14:03:55 But you like it? Mar 24 14:04:43 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:04:45 I do, yes Mar 24 14:06:40 * Molly nods, smiling "do you think it is how I'll smell in Autumn?" Mar 24 14:08:19 maybe... I think its a bit different to when you're pregnant Mar 24 14:08:32 * Molly smiles Mar 24 14:08:45 I look forward to you finding that out... Mar 24 14:09:05 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:09:10 Aye, me too love Mar 24 14:10:49 * Molly nods, patting Amir's back to burp him before she hands him over "I need to get dressed, my love. I'm sure you're quite eager to have him back for a while?" Mar 24 14:11:58 * Morgan nods, bouncing the boy Mar 24 14:12:08 I'll take him in the study love Mar 24 14:12:49 *Amir looks pleased to see him* Mar 24 14:13:01 Thank you, I shan't be long Mar 24 14:14:08 * Morgan nods, taking Amir to the couch in the study, bouncing him on his lap Mar 24 14:14:15 Well now, how did you sleep? Mar 24 14:14:42 *Amir babbles back to him* Mar 24 14:15:22 * Morgan nods, chattering away to him Mar 24 14:16:50 *Ulysess comes running in, walking along the back of the couch and purring in Morgan's ear. Amir reaches for him excitedly* Mar 24 14:17:05 * Morgan fusses the cat briefly Mar 24 14:17:14 Hello furball Mar 24 14:18:13 A: buh! Buh! *he wriggles harder to get at the cat* Mar 24 14:19:34 Alright, Amir.. gently... gently... *he demonstrates by stroking the cat gently* Mar 24 14:20:17 *Amir grabs a handful of fur. Ulysses just gives Morgan a long look* Mar 24 14:21:39 * Morgan gently disengages Amir's hand Mar 24 14:21:43 Bit early for that huh Mar 24 14:22:27 *Ulysses takes himself off. Amir's bottom lip sticks out as he looks around "buh" Mar 24 14:23:42 * Morgan blows raspberries into the boys hand Mar 24 14:23:57 I know, I know, but you're not ready to eb gentle enough yet Mar 24 14:24:42 *he starts to chuckle. Varick comes in, sitting beside Morgan and doing the same to Amir's other hand* Mar 24 14:24:48 * Molly is now known as Varick Mar 24 14:25:12 * Morgan puts an arm around Varick, pulling him closer Mar 24 14:25:19 Morning Varick Mar 24 14:25:58 Vati, do you like having Amir more because he's a baby? Mar 24 14:26:42 More? More than what? Mar 24 14:27:03 Than me Mar 24 14:27:25 * Varick doesn't seem upset, making faces at the baby Mar 24 14:28:23 What makes you think that? Mar 24 14:28:33 You wanted a baby Mar 24 14:30:19 We want you. That hasn't changed at all. We love you, we love having you. Mar 24 14:32:01 Okay *he tickles Amir* Mar 24 14:32:28 Your mama and I were talking about how we wish we'd had you when you were younger Mar 24 14:33:51 Why? Mar 24 14:35:05 So we could've experienced all this with you... so you didn't have to deal with the things you've had to... Mar 24 14:37:17 * Varick nods, looking angry "I will never, ever let anyone hit my brother with a ruler or lock him in a cupboard." Mar 24 14:37:46 I know son, I know. He doesn't have to worry about that at all Mar 24 14:38:14 * Varick nods Mar 24 14:38:33 I will protect all my brothers and sisters Mar 24 14:39:28 Thats rather my job Varick. But I appreciate your help Mar 24 14:40:23 Brothers protect their siblings, Vati, it's one of the jobs! Like you and Uncle Edward Mar 24 14:40:52 You think we protect eachother? Mar 24 14:42:59 * Varick nods Mar 24 14:43:14 Yes. Because you're brothers Mar 24 14:43:21 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:43:26 I suppose you're right Mar 24 14:44:43 * Varick nods Mar 24 14:45:00 I want me and Amir to be as good brothers as you and Uncle Edward Mar 24 14:45:44 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:46:05 You'll have a lot of siblings to help me with Mar 24 14:47:43 * Varick nods Mar 24 14:47:53 I want lots Mar 24 14:48:28 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:48:30 That is the plan Mar 24 14:50:37 * Varick starts playing peekaboo with Amir. Molly joins them a few minutes later. Her blue blouse is gaping at the buttons where it didn't before Mar 24 14:51:46 M: Time for breakfast and then catechism, Mauschen Mar 24 14:52:25 * Morgan nods Mar 24 14:52:49 Aye, come on, lets get some breakfast sorted Mar 24 14:53:52 *they get this sorted, but he notices Amir staring at Molly's chest when she's sorting the the plates on the desk* Mar 24 14:54:56 [he's more obsessed with bubbies than HeinzHarold] Mar 24 14:55:35 [I dare say he spends more time with them in his mouth than Heinzharold...] Mar 24 14:55:52 [just] Mar 24 14:58:04 *she smiles a little. He notices throughout the morning that she doesn't seem quite as bright and cheerful as usual, though she works on the book and says the prayers with them. She holds Amir whilst he leads his family through it, and during the private prayer time* Mar 24 14:58:38 * Morgan watches her closely Mar 24 14:58:43 [what's wrong?] Mar 24 15:01:22 [I'm not entirely sure. I just feel a little ill-at-ease, but I'm unsure as to why] Mar 24 15:01:45 * Morgan frowns Mar 24 15:02:09 * Varick is keen to be playing on the floor with Amir once it is done, and she pours coffee Mar 24 15:02:14 * Varick is now known as Molly Mar 24 15:02:38 Would you like me to express for you to feed him next? Mar 24 15:03:26 No, thats alright Mar 24 15:04:50 * Molly nods a little, settling on the couch to watch them playing Mar 24 15:05:12 * Morgan looks out of the window Mar 24 15:05:19 How long have you felt ill at ease? Mar 24 15:05:32 Only since this morning Mar 24 15:06:02 * Morgan frowns again Mar 24 15:06:18 I... might have a little walk around on deck, just to check everything alright Mar 24 15:06:27 * Molly nods Mar 24 15:06:40 Alright, my love, we're quite fine here Mar 24 15:07:11 * Morgan nods, kissing her cheek briefly before getting up and going on deck Mar 24 15:08:51 *HH is in charge of one of the lines for the front sails, but it's all so quiet that there's very few commands being given, conditions perfect. It is properly warm in the sun, more like April than February Mar 24 15:09:26 * Morgan clambers up into the rigging, to the highest point on the mast, looking round the horizon Mar 24 15:10:06 *there's absolutely nothing out there, no ships, no land Mar 24 15:10:48 * Morgan drops back down, going to HeinzHarold Mar 24 15:10:54 Everything alright up here? Mar 24 15:11:16 * Molly is now known as HH Mar 24 15:11:36 Yep, smooth sailin'. Down there? Mar 24 15:11:52 Not sure. Molly's feeling ill at ease, and thats... uncommon. Mar 24 15:12:02 * HH frowns a little Mar 24 15:12:13 Think there's some danger? Mar 24 15:12:49 Not sure. Don't have any way of knowing, so figured I'd come and look Mar 24 15:13:11 * HH nods Mar 24 15:13:47 'Less mebbie she's upset bout what I said last night? Or you've said summit clumsy too? Mar 24 15:14:07 No... she was absolutely fine until a little while ago Mar 24 15:14:38 Weird. Bad dreams? Mar 24 15:14:46 Not that she's mentioned. Mar 24 15:15:09 Sometimes they're just moody Mar 24 15:15:23 Aye, maybe thats it Mar 24 15:17:16 Sometimes it jus' happens. Y' wake up in th' morning feelin' a bit off for no reason and can't place it. *last time he'd had that was in Graben, after spanking her and pleasuring her for three hours* Mar 24 15:18:13 Thats... a good point. Alright, I'm gonn' head back down, lemme know if anything happens Mar 24 15:18:50 * HH nods "will do, be down f' lunch in an hour anyway" Mar 24 15:19:17 * Morgan nods before heading back to the study Mar 24 15:20:03 *the children are still playing, Molly is knitting* Mar 24 15:20:57 * Morgan sits close beside her, speaking quietly Mar 24 15:21:05 Do you think... it could be due to last night... Mar 24 15:21:14 * HH is now known as Molly Mar 24 15:21:19 * Molly thinks Mar 24 15:21:25 Ohh... maybe Mar 24 15:23:04 * Morgan nods, putting at arm around her shoulders Mar 24 15:23:56 * Molly leans against him Mar 24 15:44:18 Its alright love Mar 24 15:44:34 * Molly nods Mar 24 15:44:44 It's... it's hard to explain really Mar 24 15:46:18 * Morgan nods Mar 24 15:46:22 Is it like the day after the lake? Mar 24 15:47:49 I felt fine that day Mar 24 15:49:18 No, you were definitely out of sorts then Mar 24 15:51:46 Perhaps then. *she speaks below the volume the children can hear* I feel... vulnerable... a little raw Mar 24 15:53:48 * Morgan nods, squeezing her to him Mar 24 15:56:02 * Molly leans more to him Mar 24 15:56:18 Maybe we should wait until quiet hour... Mar 24 15:56:29 Probably but... this helps? Mar 24 15:57:21 Absolutely Mar 24 15:58:04 * Morgan nods Mar 24 15:58:08 Then this'll do for now Mar 24 15:59:39 * Molly nods, watching their children play. Inga knocks on the door Mar 24 15:59:58 * Morgan calls for her to come in Mar 24 16:02:42 *Inga comes in, looking cheerful, but he sees her smile broaden at seeing them sat together like that* Mar 24 16:03:08 I: I thought I'd join you if that's alright Mar 24 16:03:26 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:03:33 I'd say so love... have a seat Mar 24 16:05:01 *Inga does so, starting some stitching Mar 24 16:05:14 I: they're getting on well, aren't they? Mar 24 16:05:34 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:05:38 Varick loves him fiercely Mar 24 16:06:58 *Inga smiles* It's nice they have each other Mar 24 16:07:32 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:08:13 Varick seemed to think that we like having Amir more than we do him... Mar 24 16:09:36 * Molly frowns a little Mar 24 16:10:05 I: he's your first together, that's really special. That's when you became a family Mar 24 16:10:43 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:11:26 I did tell him he's wrong about it, but I think perhaps some extra reassurance through the day might help him Mar 24 16:11:47 * Molly nods "that's a good idea" Mar 24 16:12:10 I: Molly said you've finished her chair Mar 24 16:12:56 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:13:08 Yes, I have. I'm going to get HeinzHarold to help me move it later Mar 24 16:15:14 I: That will be nice Mar 24 16:15:18 * Molly nods Mar 24 16:15:49 I'm looking forward to it, I'm sure it will get much use over the years Mar 24 16:16:18 Assuming I've done a good enough job on it Mar 24 16:17:26 I: ours is perfect Mar 24 16:17:51 * Morgan smiles Mar 24 16:17:54 I'm glad you like it Mar 24 16:18:14 I: we do Mar 24 16:18:41 * Molly smiles "hopefully it won't be too long until you're using it" Mar 24 16:19:11 I: *she smiles* sometime this year would be nice Mar 24 16:20:49 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:20:54 That would indeed be lovely Mar 24 16:22:00 *Amir crawls over to him and Molly* Mar 24 16:23:13 * Morgan leans down, hoisting him up with one arm Mar 24 16:27:08 *Amir rests against Morgan's chest* Mar 24 16:27:40 I: *she smiles* I think men with babies might be better than men with their sleeves rolled up Mar 24 16:28:18 Could roll my sleeves up as well... Mar 24 16:28:29 * Morgan looks to Varick, making sure he's ok Mar 24 16:29:42 * Molly giggles "oh dear, that would be distracting!" Mar 24 16:30:04 *Varick looks fine, Ulysses coming to play with him instead* Mar 24 16:31:47 * Morgan smiles slightly Mar 24 16:35:39 * Molly and Inga discuss the various appeals of men with babies as Amir inches closer and closer to her before grabbing at her breast. Molly winces then laughs Mar 24 16:40:13 [16:18:50] • ​Molly​ and Inga discuss the various appeals of men with babies as Amir inches closer and closer to her before grabbing at her breast. Molly winces then laughs Mar 24 16:40:42 Crafty... Mar 24 16:40:58 * Molly nods Mar 24 16:41:29 I think someone is rather determined today! Mar 24 16:42:48 * Morgan nods Mar 24 16:42:52 Seems so Mar 24 16:43:19 * Molly puts down her knitting before undoing her blouse, getting him latched Mar 24 16:43:35 *Inga smiles* You've picked it up so easily! Mar 24 16:44:26 * Molly smiles "Betuana says this is the easy bit, and it's the newborn stage that is hardest for feeding. By this age they know what to do already" Mar 24 16:46:12 * Molly has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Mar 24 16:48:05 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 24 17:33:30 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 24 19:09:19 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Mar 24 22:48:44 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 24 22:52:05 * MorganK (~madisonst@Madisons-Air.lan) has joined Mar 24 22:52:45 [16:26:46] Molly: *Inga smiles* You've picked it up so easily! Mar 24 22:52:56 [16:27:37] • ​Molly​ smiles "Betuana says this is the easy bit, and it's the newborn stage that is hardest for feeding. By this age they know what to do already" Mar 24 22:53:06 [16:29:59] Molly: I: you'll know what to do once you have a newborn now *he feels how Molly's body relaxes as Amir's suction becomes long swallows* Mar 24 22:53:51 * MorganK smiles slightly, going back to watching Varick Mar 24 22:54:14 *Varick is content* Mar 24 22:54:49 Oh I imagine I'll have no clue with a newborn! Amir does all of the work, I just have to relax and let it happen Mar 24 22:55:29 I'm sure you'll get the hang of it Mar 24 22:56:36 I: you'll have Morgan to help you figure it out too Mar 24 22:57:34 I'll do what I can *he doesn't sound convinced* Mar 24 22:58:10 I: didn't Dietlinde feed Jana herself? Mar 24 22:58:33 Of course Mar 24 22:58:52 I: You probably have lots of experience with it then Mar 24 22:59:07 * MollyK strokes Amir's hair Mar 24 22:59:44 Dietlinde was a very... private person. Figuring all that out was done with her mothers help Mar 24 22:59:58 I: Oh, sorry Mar 24 23:00:23 * MorganK shakes his head Mar 24 23:00:36 I was just a bit different then... thats all Mar 24 23:04:07 I: do you regret it now? Mar 24 23:04:38 I wish I'd been more involved, but it would've made her uncomfortable Mar 24 23:05:35 I: I can't imagine being that private Mar 24 23:05:52 * MollyK giggles "not with a husband like Heinzharold!" Mar 24 23:07:31 * MorganK smiles slightly Mar 24 23:09:20 I: there's not much privacy with him! Mar 24 23:10:22 He's going to be a wonderful father Mar 24 23:11:44 *Inga smiles* he will Mar 24 23:12:38 * MollyK settles a little more to Morgan, looking very relaxed, quieter than usual. Amir keeps gently kicking him Mar 24 23:12:59 * MorganK takes hold of his foot, stroking it with his thumb Mar 24 23:15:02 *Amir is on and off whilst they chat, and back to this same position when HH turns up* Mar 24 23:15:19 [would you prefer I move to the bedroom?] Mar 24 23:15:30 [Why would I?] Mar 24 23:16:20 [you haven't had to deal with other men around my bare breasts before] Mar 24 23:16:43 [I'm sure it'll be fine] Mar 24 23:18:26 * MollyK nods. HH brings the lunch with him, but Amir doesn't seem keen on letting Molly get up and eat Mar 24 23:18:53 * MorganK smiles slightly, getting up and fetching some lunch for her Mar 24 23:19:21 * MollyK smiles, thanking him Mar 24 23:21:08 *HH minds his own business, though when he makes her coffee he says "You want milk in this, or y' gon' see to it yerself?" Mar 24 23:21:47 * MollyK blushes "Just like normal, thank you" Mar 24 23:22:06 * MorganK chuckles quietly, getting himself some food Mar 24 23:25:40 * MollyK manages to get Amir settled enough to carry him through and put him in the crib for his nap. With Inga watching Varick, he has chance to get HH to move the chair with him Mar 24 23:26:10 * MorganK takes the opportunity, carefully manhandling the chair to the study Mar 24 23:27:18 HH: y' want it in th' bedroom or study? Mar 24 23:27:48 Uhhh... just in the study I think. I can probably manage it into the bedroom if needs be Mar 24 23:28:04 *They get it in fine* Mar 24 23:28:09 * MollyK is now known as Varick Mar 24 23:28:29 Can I sit on it? Mar 24 23:28:50 [Varick alright to sit in the chair?] Mar 24 23:29:03 [of course] Mar 24 23:29:07 * MorganK nods Mar 24 23:29:10 Aye, you can Mar 24 23:29:21 * Varick does, rocking Mar 24 23:29:28 This is really good! Mar 24 23:29:37 * MorganK smiles Mar 24 23:29:39 Thank you Mar 24 23:29:55 Will Mama feed Amir here? Mar 24 23:30:08 Thats the plan Mar 24 23:30:19 * Varick rocks more Mar 24 23:30:38 Why does goats milk taste worse than cows milk? Mar 24 23:31:05 * MorganK shrugs Mar 24 23:31:11 Tried the goats milk have you? Mar 24 23:31:36 I don't know. Maybe because they're so small? Mar 24 23:31:54 * Varick mulls this over Mar 24 23:32:41 So people milk would taste better than goats milk but worse than cows milk, because they're inbetween size? Mar 24 23:33:06 *HH starts chuckling* got some logic there, man Mar 24 23:33:55 It does make a certain amount of sense Mar 24 23:35:00 Does Amir like it more? He feeds alllllll the time! Mar 24 23:36:29 I suppose so... but I think mama's milk is better for him than cows milk at the moment Mar 24 23:36:41 Why? Mar 24 23:37:17 Ah now that I don't know Mar 24 23:38:55 My birth Mama fed me, and lots of other people did too Mar 24 23:39:05 * MorganK nods Mar 24 23:39:15 aye, I know Mar 24 23:39:30 Will lots of people feed Amir? Mar 24 23:39:58 No, I don't think so. Its not something I really agree with Mar 24 23:40:29 Why? Mar 24 23:40:45 * MorganK shrugs Mar 24 23:41:03 I just don't. I think its better for a babys mother to feed them Mar 24 23:42:25 Oh, okay Mar 24 23:42:59 * MorganK tousles his hair before pouring himself some coffee Mar 24 23:45:47 *Molly soon rejoins them, and Varick insists on sitting on her lap in the chair, which she does. With it being wider than the last it's easier. She smiles as she rocks, her eldest child much bigger but still starting to fall asleep in her arms Mar 24 23:46:18 * MorganK watches them thoughtfully Mar 24 23:47:44 *HH stands up* looks like nap time Mar 24 23:48:12 * MorganK nods Mar 24 23:48:16 Think you're right Mar 24 23:48:51 *HH smiles* we'll leave y' to it then, man Mar 24 23:50:01 * MorganK nods, seeing him and Inga out Mar 24 23:51:06 * Varick is asleep when he's done that Mar 24 23:52:19 Do you want me to carry him through? Mar 24 23:52:35 * Varick is now known as Molly Mar 24 23:52:40 Yes please Mar 24 23:52:53 * MorganK nods, gently picking the sleeping boy up Mar 24 23:53:53 *Varick doesn't wake at all* Mar 24 23:54:53 * MorganK carries him through to Morgans own bedroom, placing him gently on the bed Mar 24 23:55:40 * Molly is still gently rocking the chair when he gets back Mar 24 23:55:50 Aright? Mar 24 23:56:02 It's wonderful, thank you Mar 24 23:56:29 I'm glad you like it... but I was more asking how you are now Mar 24 23:56:39 * Molly shrugs Mar 24 23:57:22 I've been thinking, about the day after, in Graben. I felt listless and flat... Mar 24 23:57:37 * MorganK nods Mar 24 23:57:42 That sounds about right... Mar 24 23:58:00 This is more unsure and vulnerable Mar 24 23:58:14 But you cannot place why? Mar 24 23:58:48 You are correct I think, it's because of last night Mar 24 23:58:57 * MorganK nods Mar 24 23:59:07 How can I help? Mar 24 23:59:52 I... *she chews her lip* I need reassurance