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That No Man's Land doesn't seem as big now Mar 13 12:24:25 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:24:33 Aye... its shrinking, slowly Mar 13 12:25:23 * Inga nods Mar 13 12:25:52 I think sometimes it might be why Heinzharold and I are so open with each other Mar 13 12:26:15 Why's that? Mar 13 12:26:36 Because we don't ever want to have a no man's land in our marriage Mar 13 12:27:07 * Morgan nods, looking troubled Mar 13 12:27:45 Don't worry about Molly, I'll distract her this evening, she'll be alright Mar 13 12:28:55 Thank you Mar 13 12:30:07 It's a scary thing what is going to come, it's understandable she's scared. And there's Amir too, and having him means -choosing- to take him into it Mar 13 12:32:02 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:32:20 I -hate- that we have to drag our children into it... our friends into it. Mar 13 12:33:32 But if that's what it's going to take, to save everything, then it's better that we're together and ready. Mar 13 12:33:58 * Morgan hangs his head, nodding Mar 13 12:34:30 Don't blame yourself Mar 13 12:35:22 Easier said than done Mar 13 12:37:36 Heinzharold would follow almost anyone into this, you know he would. *she smiles* chance to be the golden-haired hero of the day and save the world? Of course he would Mar 13 12:38:06 Maybe Mar 13 12:39:29 It'd be something his Da would be proud of Mar 13 12:40:33 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:40:54 Da would be proud of him already... he'd have adored you Mar 13 12:41:08 * Inga smiles Mar 13 12:41:36 I hope so. I hope he'd think I'm a good enough match for him Mar 13 12:42:28 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:42:33 He would, without a doubt Mar 13 12:42:44 * Inga smiles Mar 13 12:42:58 Would he have liked Molly for you? Mar 13 12:43:05 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:43:10 I reckon so, aye. Mar 13 12:43:41 I suppose he was gone before you and Dietlinde were courting? Mar 13 12:43:48 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:44:02 Yeah, he was Mar 13 12:44:46 I think they all knew each other in the village though Mar 13 12:45:03 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:45:43 I think... things would have been very different if he'd been alive Mar 13 12:46:28 Have you dreamt that? Mar 13 12:47:20 No, just... I think I could have gone to Da where I couldn't go to my father... Mar 13 12:47:52 He would have helped you marry her and smooth it over with everyone? Mar 13 12:48:50 I -think- he'd have told me I couldn't do it, but he'd have helped me understand -why- Mar 13 12:49:20 Would you have listened though. Mar 13 12:49:22 ? Mar 13 12:49:51 I think I'd have done something different... I just don't know what Mar 13 12:50:28 There wasn't many options, was there? It seems unfair Mar 13 12:51:13 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:51:43 What I asked of her was unfair. She never wanted to live in the big house, separated from the people she thought of as her own Mar 13 12:52:57 But I bet she didn't want to live there with them without you either Mar 13 12:53:08 No, perhaps not Mar 13 12:54:33 * Inga drinks some whiskey Mar 13 12:55:49 It's like our world run alongside each other but they never really touch. When you're a servant it seems like the nobility are almost blind to you, and you become almost blind to them too Mar 13 12:56:17 * Morgan nods Mar 13 12:57:40 And then you've got the other folks who live in the village like Heinzharold's family. They don't understand either world Mar 13 12:58:16 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:01:30 -they- think the servants have it really good and because of that we're spying and always tattling to our betters. They think nobles just don't care to understand them, and laze around drinking tea and gossiping. They don't see how much work nobles like you and Molly have to do for politics with other nobles Mar 13 13:02:18 The decent ones, at least Mar 13 13:03:01 * Inga nods Mar 13 13:04:11 It isn't easy when you seem to move around all the different worlds. I think sometimes you stop being just yourself and start to be lots of different people Mar 13 13:04:45 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:04:50 Feels like that, yeah Mar 13 13:07:25 It's how you cope with it all. You can't be the servant at a noble ball, and you can't be one of the townsfolk with their gossiping when you work below stairs, and if you're a noble in the tavern on feast day's you're a guest, not a normal person fitting in Mar 13 13:07:53 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:09:16 Its difficult... how do I find -me- in all that? Mar 13 13:09:25 * Inga nods Mar 13 13:10:00 That's why I have to start small, with Inga the wife and Inga the friend Mar 13 13:11:19 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:12:46 *He can hear Molly and Heinzharold laughing in the corridor* Mar 13 13:13:14 Thats a better sound Mar 13 13:13:22 * Inga smiles Mar 13 13:13:30 I'm glad to hear it Mar 13 13:14:03 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:14:04 Me too Mar 13 13:14:32 Could I... would you mind some advice? Mar 13 13:14:46 * Morgan watches her Mar 13 13:14:48 Go on Mar 13 13:16:26 Try your best to keep some touch going between you. Sometimes when Heinzharold is fragile I imagine he's like a boat in a dock, and touch is like a mooring rope that stops him drifting off into his own head Mar 13 13:16:42 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:16:46 alright... I'll try Mar 13 13:17:23 *Molly and HH come in, carrying trays* Mar 13 13:17:44 HH: can y' move yer coat, I've got a wet bottom Mar 13 13:18:03 * Morgan nods, moving the coat and hanging it up Mar 13 13:18:55 *They put the trays down, and Inga comes to serve them* Mar 13 13:19:19 M: He was complaining about his bottom all down the hall Mar 13 13:19:40 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:19:45 He's always done that Mar 13 13:21:01 M: I can't blame him, I suppose, when he's always had yours to compare it too *she smiles a little* Mar 13 13:21:40 /me blushes Mar 13 13:22:39 Thats why his face is so pretty, to make up for it Mar 13 13:23:06 *Molly smiles* I think that's just a matter of opinion Mar 13 13:24:35 Hear that man, she doesn't think you've got a pretty face Mar 13 13:25:16 HH: Already knew she didn' see well when she chose t' marry you Mar 13 13:26:14 * Morgan purses his lips, nodding Mar 13 13:26:25 That sits about right Mar 13 13:26:29 M: Even if I couldn't see his face, I'd have married him because I could see his heart Mar 13 13:26:53 HH: Aye, you probably could, open him up and poke around at his insides Mar 13 13:27:14 From a distance... Mar 13 13:28:11 *Molly smiles* I opened him up in a way that required no magic. I'm content with that Mar 13 13:29:13 HH: Hear that, man? She's "content" with you. Mar 13 13:29:19 * Morgan ndos Mar 13 13:29:34 Well, its not the first time I've been told I'll suffice... Mar 13 13:30:19 HH: *he laughs* y' been sufficing as a friend for se'enteen years Mar 13 13:31:37 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:31:50 God looked down when I was born and said 'eh, you'll do' Mar 13 13:32:17 M: I really think we all know that's untrue Mar 13 13:32:45 HH: Five hundred years o' work, an' you are what they came up with Mar 13 13:33:15 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:33:22 No-one said they were any -good- at it Mar 13 13:35:32 HH: yeah, but then look at this fine specimen they made! *he goes to Molly as if presenting her. He touches her hair* good man, bright eyes... *he makes her open her mouth, which she does with amusement* good teeth Mar 13 13:37:07 Perhaps then they put actual effort in with her, and I was an afterthought? Mar 13 13:37:45 M: perhaps your most notable attributes are ones Heinzharold can't easily make you display? Mar 13 13:38:13 Are we talking my political skills or my massive... capacity for compassion? Mar 13 13:38:27 *she suddenly realises how bad it sounds, blushing and covering her face whilst HH and Inga laugh* Mar 13 13:39:03 HH: She was definitely talking bout yer capacity! Mar 13 13:39:29 Certainly sounded like it Mar 13 13:39:53 M: I meant your honour and decency! Mar 13 13:40:11 *HH chuckles* yer -indecency-, man Mar 13 13:40:46 I'm not indecent Mar 13 13:41:32 M: Sadly not! Mar 13 13:42:20 *Inga giggles* Mar 13 13:42:41 I could roll my sleeves up... Mar 13 13:43:03 *Molly and Inga exchange a glance, both smiling* Mar 13 13:43:17 HH: Gonna take more than yer sleeves, man Mar 13 13:44:12 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 13:44:18 I'm not so sure Mar 13 13:44:42 *the girls shake their hands* Mar 13 13:44:48 It's hot Mar 13 13:46:33 See? Mar 13 13:46:57 HH: *he looks disbelieving* sleeves?! What? Mar 13 13:47:34 * Inga shrugs "It just is" Mar 13 13:47:53 'Tween you an' me, man, I'm skeptical about it Mar 13 13:48:51 HH: me too, man. Seems like they're trickin' us Mar 13 13:49:56 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:50:15 I'm tol' s'like them rollin' down stockings... Mar 13 13:50:54 HH: ahhh that's different, see Mar 13 13:51:23 I reckon so too Mar 13 13:53:31 HH: gen'rally If yer seein' her do her stockings it's because yer about to get it on Mar 13 13:54:27 M: Morgan saw me putting them on on a normal day before the wedding, he certainly looked at me in that way then! Mar 13 13:54:39 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:54:40 True Mar 13 13:55:15 [that was a moment that did me the world of good] Mar 13 13:55:31 [oh really?] Mar 13 13:55:44 HH: But sleeves can be any time Mar 13 13:56:09 [it was gratifying and reassuring to see your desire] Mar 13 13:57:14 * Morgan nods Mar 13 13:57:23 I know... Mar 13 13:58:17 M: no, it's not. You don't do it in church, or in a ballroom. It's informal and usually precedes physical work Mar 13 14:00:32 I used to know a man who would roll up his sleeves any time he had to do any planning... Mar 13 14:00:49 M: who, my love? Mar 13 14:00:56 * Inga is now known as HH Mar 13 14:01:54 I forget his name... he was responsible for planning troop movements, couldn't think with his sleeves rolled down Mar 13 14:02:27 Overheated his brain, I reck'n Mar 13 14:02:31 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:02:42 He was not the brightest of men Mar 13 14:03:22 *Molly smiles* we'd probably still like it Mar 13 14:04:33 * Morgan shrugs, sitting down Mar 13 14:04:41 I wonder what we've got to eat tonight Mar 13 14:05:16 *Molly comes to sit by him* You'll not believe the surprise, my love! Mar 13 14:05:29 Steak? Mar 13 14:05:48 * HH grumbles "I wish it -was- steak" Mar 13 14:06:08 *Molly watches him playfully* much wetter... Mar 13 14:06:55 Oh. That is a surprise. Mar 13 14:07:55 M: Indeed. I was completely aghast Mar 13 14:08:35 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:08:38 Its shocking Mar 13 14:10:14 M: such is the burden of a sailor Mar 13 14:10:43 He avoids th' worst sailor's burden Mar 13 14:11:21 Do I? Mar 13 14:12:32 Sailor's biggest burden is havin' no pretty ladies aboard Mar 13 14:13:01 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:13:05 Thats a good point Mar 13 14:13:10 *the others settle to eat* Mar 13 14:13:30 We got th' two prettiest in th' world 'ere Mar 13 14:15:01 *the girls both blush* Mar 13 14:15:13 Smooth man Mar 13 14:16:09 That's me Mar 13 14:18:37 *As they're eating Inga gives Morgan a pointed glance, nodding slightly in Molly's direction* Mar 13 14:19:23 * Morgan shifts his chair, pressing his leg against Molly's Mar 13 14:20:17 *She looks briefly surprised before smiling at him, pressing back* Mar 13 14:21:28 M: I was thinking of getting some fabric myself in Capperlucia, to make a dress for Amir's christening, to keep that link to his past Mar 13 14:21:37 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:21:43 Thats a nice idea Mar 13 14:22:31 *Molly smiles* will your mother help make a christening gown for him? Mar 13 14:23:34 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:23:41 I would imagine she will, yes Mar 13 14:25:53 *She looks to Heinzharold* do you think your mother might like to make him a little bonnet? I'd like the link between your family and ours to be recognised, in memory of how much your father meant to my husband Mar 13 14:26:47 *HH pushes his chair back, and comes to take her from hers, hugging her tightly* Think we'd all love that, lassie Mar 13 14:27:20 *Inga smiles at Morgan, mouthing "they're huggers"* Mar 13 14:27:25 * Morgan sighs quietly Mar 13 14:28:11 * HH reseats her before sitting back down Mar 13 14:29:18 *she looks to Morgan* I know it might be close to time, but do you think Sascha might make something too? A sash, perhaps? Mar 13 14:30:03 I don't know... maybe. Mar 13 14:30:30 M: I could ask Mama to ask her... Mar 13 14:30:41 $that's sort then!$ Mar 13 14:31:40 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:31:43 That'd probably work Mar 13 14:32:08 I: Do you think a big party? Mar 13 14:33:00 *Molly tilts her head* Yes... like a combination of housewarming and introducing Amir... that would be hard to resist going to, wouldn't it? Mar 13 14:33:24 $uh oh, this looks like trouble!$ Mar 13 14:33:51 It'd probably be frowned upon to avoid it... Mar 13 14:34:00 $And there's a streak of her mothers deviousness$ Mar 13 14:35:21 M: *she smiles sweetly* it would... people would notice if one avoided it... it wouldn't be good noble etiquette to avoid one's nephews' christenings... Mar 13 14:35:52 $scary, man$ Mar 13 14:36:11 No... it wouldn't be... Mar 13 14:37:47 M: And I am new to hosting such events. What I really need, so very much, is an experienced hand to show me the way... Mar 13 14:38:03 $if I snigger am I gonna catch a slap?$ Mar 13 14:38:12 $try it, find out$ Mar 13 14:38:47 *HH sniggers. It gets him only a mildly disappointed look* Mar 13 14:39:02 $Ouch$ Mar 13 14:39:12 You'll need to be careful. Mar 13 14:39:19 $would have preferred the slap$ Mar 13 14:39:32 M: My love, when am I not careful? Mar 13 14:40:14 Frequently. Particularly when you get an idea in your head... Mar 13 14:40:39 *Molly looks slightly wounded but sips her drink* Mar 13 14:40:49 * Morgan takes her hand Mar 13 14:41:21 You are enthusiastic, my darling, I don't want you getting caught up in what you -hope- will happen and not accepting for what -might- happen Mar 13 14:41:57 M: *she nods solemnly* I know she might still say no Mar 13 14:42:20 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:42:23 Maybe. Mar 13 14:43:00 *she squeezes his hand gently, rubbing his skin with her thumb* I'll go carefully with it, but I really do want her to be there Mar 13 14:43:10 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:43:12 So do I love Mar 13 14:45:07 I: I think it's a good idea, Molly. Mina does need to meet both Amir and Florrie. The more she avoids her, the worse it'll get Mar 13 14:46:07 You're not wrong Mar 13 14:47:46 M: *she smiles, kissing Morgan's knuckles before giving him his hand free again* Mar 13 14:48:29 This gon' mean breeches for sure, man Mar 13 14:48:41 * Morgan nods Mar 13 14:48:54 You can do that whole open shirt thing, keep the girls happy Mar 13 14:49:52 I: *she looks at Molly* That's hot too Mar 13 14:50:37 *Molly looks distracted, smiling to herself* hmm? Oh, yes... I don't think I've been treated to it yet Mar 13 14:51:28 Edward told me I should do that, get my hair cut similar... he doesn't know... *he taps his upper chest* and I didn't want to look like I'm wearing a mop Mar 13 14:52:11 Only works on sexy people anyway Mar 13 14:53:56 *Molly sends him an image. She's wearing his breeches and shirt, undone but only parted a little so there's just a line of bare skin from her neck to navel revealed* Mar 13 14:54:14 [alright, that is very sexy] Mar 13 14:55:31 *Molly smiles* [better with my black negligee vest beneath?] Mar 13 14:55:52 [No, I think as is is just right] Mar 13 14:56:25 [another day and I shall do that] Mar 13 14:56:47 * Morgan nods slightly Mar 13 14:57:01 M: your scars are no deterrent for me Mar 13 14:57:44 No... but for everyone else. Mar 13 14:57:53 * Morgan tilts his head Mar 13 14:57:57 That could be useful Mar 13 14:58:01 M: *she smirks* oh? Mar 13 15:01:18 Could keep people away Mar 13 15:01:55 M: You're considering parading your body, mon petit chou? Mar 13 15:02:09 * Morgan frowns Mar 13 15:02:17 No... no perhaps not Mar 13 15:03:20 *She smiles* I'd not like to have to glare at people for coveting what is mine Mar 13 15:03:32 You wouldn't need to Mar 13 15:03:43 Unless we invite blind people... are we inviting blind people? Mar 13 15:04:07 M: Do we know any blind people? Mar 13 15:04:36 Well, then noone is going to be coveting what is yours Mar 13 15:05:10 I: I don't think she's actually wrong Mar 13 15:05:32 That we don't know any blind people? Mar 13 15:05:57 I: that women might fancy you Mar 13 15:07:04 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 13 15:07:13 unlikely Mar 13 15:08:28 $someone shoulda taught you how to take compliments from women$ Mar 13 15:08:54 $Not good at taking compliments from anyone$ Mar 13 15:10:01 $life's more fun when y' do$ Mar 13 15:10:15 * Morgan shrugs slightly Mar 13 15:10:35 I: You could invite DeeDee... *she watches Molly* Mar 13 15:11:58 M: *she smiles at Inga* I could... with the Rose running so fast, the Storm Dancer would be under less pressure to travel..l Mar 13 15:12:17 $what are they up to?$ Mar 13 15:12:56 $Isn't it obvious? They've already seen how to put two people together, now they're working on another two$ Mar 13 15:13:33 $but it's Claudia, man$ Mar 13 15:14:37 $I know.$ Mar 13 15:15:02 $should we stop it in its tracks?$ Mar 13 15:15:46 $Why?$ Mar 13 15:16:24 $you want a kick in the chest from Claudia again$ Mar 13 15:18:04 * Morgan sighs Mar 13 15:18:09 HeinzHarold thinks its a bad idea Mar 13 15:19:49 $throwing me under the carriage wheels!$ Mar 13 15:20:27 Don' think she'd like it. Why not pick some other match-makin' to work on, eh? Mar 13 15:20:32 * Morgan shrugs slightly Mar 13 15:20:55 I: I know! Isiah and Ilena! Mar 13 15:21:37 M: Oh... I umm... hadn't thought of inviting the Rosenkrantzs... Mar 13 15:22:03 Invite DeeDee. I'll talk to Claudia. Mar 13 15:22:32 I think we should invite th eRosenkrantzs... it'd be a good opportunity for your parents to meet them Mar 13 15:22:52 *Molly looks at him* All of them? Mar 13 15:23:30 Yes. He and I have much to talk about Mar 13 15:24:55 *Molly nods a little* yes, liebes herz Mar 13 15:25:48 It is only right he meets his family Mar 13 15:26:24 *Molly nods. HH is the one who looks most pleased* Mar 13 15:27:09 * Morgan watches him for a moment Mar 13 15:28:28 Shame we won't have th' cottage by then, keep him outta yer hair Mar 13 15:43:05 I've gotta find some kind of peace with him man Mar 13 15:46:22 *Molly looks a little guilty at this* If he wasn't my cousin... Mar 13 15:47:30 But he is... and there's a possibility he will be instrumental. He and I can bond over our fondness of the sea, and blaming imaginary creatures for things Mar 13 15:47:49 *she nods* Mar 13 15:48:36 * HH and Inga glance at each other a moment before going back to eating Mar 13 15:48:51 Sounds like it's gettin' rough out there Mar 13 15:49:52 $what's with the look?$ Mar 13 15:50:10 Yeah... I won't be surprised if Sorgi orders the sails to stay furled Mar 13 15:50:49 $you two and Rosie, not nice to think of you handing over the reins$ Mar 13 15:50:55 * HH nods Mar 13 15:51:19 Startin' t' feel her movin' from the wind Mar 13 15:53:11 $I've no intention of it. If he can know everything, he can help$ Mar 13 15:53:21 Not a nice thing to say about your wife... Mar 13 15:56:29 *they laugh. The chatter becomes easier, but the storm definitely gets rougher. It's about ten when HH says* We're gonna give y' some time while I get ready f' the deluge. I'll send Inga back to y', Molly Mar 13 15:58:40 * Morgan nods Mar 13 15:58:44 I'll see you on deck man Mar 13 15:58:56 * HH and Inga go Mar 13 15:59:01 * HH is now known as Molly Mar 13 15:59:34 * Molly looks from their window. The ship is definitely rolling a little Mar 13 15:59:53 I pray it will be no worse Mar 13 16:00:01 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 16:00:08 It is what it is love Mar 13 16:00:36 * Molly nods, quietly watching. She has her back to him Mar 13 16:00:47 What is it love? Mar 13 16:01:44 I'm sorry, about earlier Mar 13 16:02:01 When? Mar 13 16:02:19 When I made your pain about me and my fears Mar 13 16:02:47 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 13 16:02:57 I'm sorry I didn't realise how to help you Mar 13 16:03:41 * Molly shakes her head "It's fine, Heinzharold cheered me up" Mar 13 16:04:12 Inga... I think she told me off... I'm not sure. Mar 13 16:05:55 * Molly turns, smiling Mar 13 16:06:04 Inga would never dare tell you off Mar 13 16:06:18 I'm not so sure about that Mar 13 16:06:26 What did she say? Mar 13 16:06:57 That it seems like I don't know you very well sometimes Mar 13 16:08:18 * Molly frowns Mar 13 16:08:41 I see Mar 13 16:10:02 Don't do that... I can't do what HeinzHarold would do, and I don't know how else to help you Mar 13 16:11:16 I do not like her saying things like that to you Mar 13 16:12:10 She's probably right. I forget how important touch is to you Mar 13 16:12:50 I know it is not something that comes naturally to you. I will never push for it. Mar 13 16:13:41 I know... but I should do better Mar 13 16:15:24 I do not wish you to feel I am a burden. I am more sensitive today because of my course, and seeing our boys reminds me of the duty we have. Mar 13 16:16:30 You are not a burden my love Mar 13 16:17:42 No, but the way I am best comforted can be when it isn't natural to you... Mar 13 16:18:16 * Morgan moves, putting his hands on her arms Mar 13 16:18:24 Its not what I am used to thats all Mar 13 16:19:39 * Molly nods, watching him with a little frown, but he sees some of the tension go from her shoulders Mar 13 16:20:07 If I ask what it is you are used to, what was easier for you, I will feel a need to emulate it. Mar 13 16:21:22 Then don't. I try to give reassurance but I will not lie to do so... you thrive on touch and I should do better with providing that Mar 13 16:23:28 * Molly nods slightly "You do not lie... but nor did Heinzharold" Mar 13 16:23:43 No? Mar 13 16:28:45 He told me that yes, our children are going to face what is coming, likely a War the like of which has never been seen. But they are not going to go alone as naive young boys as you both did, but with -us-, with care and comfort and protection and consolation. They have an advantage you never did, because they have -you- as a Father to lead them, Mar 13 16:28:45 and me as a Mother to love them. He couldn't promise that everything will be alright, but he could promise that our children will not suffer as you and he did Mar 13 16:29:47 * Morgan sighs heavily Mar 13 16:29:50 I should've said that Mar 13 16:30:10 * Molly shakes her head Mar 13 16:30:17 You were upset too Mar 13 16:30:56 Even so Mar 13 16:31:02 * Molly puts her hands on his flanks, squeezing gently Mar 13 16:31:42 It's alright, my love Mar 13 16:32:00 No, love, it isn't. I will try harder Mar 13 16:34:11 * Molly looks sad "I hate how I make you question yourself, make you feel you aren't doing enough" Mar 13 16:35:15 You don't make me do that blossom Mar 13 16:35:41 It seems that you feel that in your assertions of trying harder Mar 13 16:36:50 It is not you that makes me feel that way Mar 13 16:37:26 Then what, my love? Mar 13 16:37:55 Its me. Mar 13 16:38:08 * Molly watches up at him. The wind howls outside now, rain pelleting the window Mar 13 16:38:12 Why? Mar 13 16:39:17 Because it is... I am aware that I could be doing more to help you when you are struggling Mar 13 16:40:36 What is it that prevents you? If you're afraid your touch will be rejected, it is never so Mar 13 16:41:13 No... I want to reassure you but don't see a way to do it without lying... then I get stuck on that Mar 13 16:41:46 * Molly nods Mar 13 16:42:57 I don't ask that you lie, my love. I asked that once, and I will never make such an awful request again Mar 13 16:43:41 * Morgan nods, kissing her crown Mar 13 16:44:24 * Molly rests her cheek to his chest Mar 13 16:46:07 I know it might not all be alright. I know the danger is high that it won't be. But then, maybe it will. And expecting the worst will only cloud our judgement when we need clear heads Mar 13 16:46:18 * Morgan nods Mar 13 16:46:22 Yes, it will. Mar 13 16:47:08 * Molly nods Mar 13 16:48:02 We have now, and we have each other. No one knows what danger could be around the corner for them and their children. Nothing in life is promised to us by this present moment Mar 13 16:48:19 But this present moment* Mar 13 16:48:34 * Morgan nods Mar 13 16:48:37 Indeed Mar 13 16:49:32 * Molly nods, arms encircling him Mar 13 16:50:33 My love? Mar 13 16:50:39 Yes? Mar 13 16:50:48 Might I kiss you? Mar 13 16:51:09 Of course Mar 13 16:51:40 * Molly goes on her tiptoes, kissing him Mar 13 16:51:53 * Morgan presses his lips to hers briefly Mar 13 16:52:44 * Molly sighs, tension washing out of her Mar 13 16:53:52 Thank you, my love Mar 13 16:53:59 * Morgan nods Mar 13 16:54:46 * Morgan watches her seriously for a moment Mar 13 16:55:14 perhaps... you would... like to know why Dietlinde taught me to sew? Mar 13 16:55:26 * Molly nods Mar 13 16:55:28 I would Mar 13 16:55:52 * Morgan nods, backing up a little and lifting his shirt, showing the small straight scar Mar 13 16:56:36 She saw this... and said whoever sewed it clearly stitched it with their eyes shut... Mar 13 16:56:46 * Molly smiles Mar 13 16:56:54 You'd done it yourself " Mar 13 16:56:56 ? Mar 13 16:57:29 * Morgan nods Mar 13 16:58:41 * Molly crouches down in front of him to look Mar 13 16:58:53 Did you use a curved needle? Mar 13 16:59:26 No... I used one like the one I used for mending my coat... Mar 13 16:59:46 ((A basic sewing needle?)) Mar 13 17:00:24 ((Leatherwork needle, so bigger than a normal needle, sturdier)) Mar 13 17:00:47 * Molly shakes her head, smiling, before kissing the scar Mar 13 17:01:13 Then I pronounce that both your sewing -and- first aid skills needed work Mar 13 17:01:23 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:01:26 Quite. Mar 13 17:01:38 * Molly stands up, watching him Mar 13 17:01:50 Would you have me teach you that? Mar 13 17:02:14 Sewing? I already know... the patches in my coat speak to that Mar 13 17:02:42 No, never that. First aid Mar 13 17:03:16 I think it'd be useful. Mar 13 17:04:46 Then when we are on our way home to Hafenlohr, and I can concentrate on being wife and mother again, then I'll teach you, and Varick. Inga too perhaps Mar 13 17:05:00 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:05:42 Thats a good idea Mar 13 17:05:51 * Molly nods, smiling Mar 13 17:06:49 Now, do we have time to talk about how you'll have to have some plans when you examine my naked body for cuts and bruises, or must you start preparing? Mar 13 17:07:24 I should get ready really... Mar 13 17:07:50 * Molly smiles Mar 13 17:07:55 You should indeed Mar 13 17:09:10 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:09:31 * Molly kisses his cheek "I'll have a baby to feed very shortly, when the milk comes" Mar 13 17:09:40 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:09:52 Hopefully he'll carry on sleeping afterwards Mar 13 17:10:23 He usually does. It'd be more a guarantee at the breast, wouldn't it? Mar 13 17:10:40 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:10:42 I think so, yes Mar 13 17:11:08 I'm still considering it Mar 13 17:11:13 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:12:18 * Molly squeezes him a moment Mar 13 17:12:52 I'm going to talk to Inga about it tonight, see if talking it through with her helps me find a position Mar 13 17:13:03 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:13:06 Good idea Mar 13 17:13:21 I will not make the decision alone Mar 13 17:14:24 I know love. Inga's surprisingly wise Mar 13 17:14:56 I doubt she'd recognise that in herself, but I agree Mar 13 17:15:10 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:15:16 Yeah, she won't see it Mar 13 17:15:35 What was the wisdom that struck you? Mar 13 17:16:43 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 17:16:58 She's very observant... she's got a good grasp of how you and HeinzHarold tick Mar 13 17:18:36 She spends a lot of time with us Mar 13 17:19:02 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:19:07 Aye, she does... Mar 13 17:19:51 Perhaps she will have some useful insight for me about you Mar 13 17:20:06 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 17:20:07 Maybe Mar 13 17:22:30 * Molly smiles Mar 13 17:22:40 You're very complicated Mar 13 17:23:26 perhaps Mar 13 17:24:21 You do not think so? Mar 13 17:24:28 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 17:24:33 Damaged, perhaps Mar 13 17:25:14 * Molly chews her lip Mar 13 17:25:28 You do know I do not think you are damaged? Mar 13 17:40:28 Do you not? The Nieblungen themselves call me broken Mar 13 17:41:11 No, I do not. You are progressing, my love. You are not damaged, you are healing Mar 13 17:41:48 * Morgan sighs, nodding Mar 13 17:41:50 I suppose so Mar 13 17:42:48 Do you think me damaged? One could argue that some of the things I do show a damage left by my parents' rejection Mar 13 17:43:15 No love... pained, yes... not nearly so shaped by your past as you were Mar 13 17:44:37 I am healing too, thanks to you Mar 13 17:44:47 I wouldn't say its thanks to me at all Mar 13 17:44:55 It absolutely is. Mar 13 17:45:42 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 17:46:05 You gave me something I had not had in so long... Mar 13 17:46:35 Oh? Mar 13 17:48:39 When I told you what had happened, up in the servants quarters, I told you they thought I had lain with someone. And you said "but you had not." It wasn't a -question-. It was a statement of surety that I was being truthful, that I was pure. You trusted me, without suspicion. Mar 13 17:49:05 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:49:24 That meant worlds to me Mar 13 17:49:55 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:51:23 It I'd seen distrust in that moment, I do not think we'd be here. I'd have stayed so closed, so -scared- Mar 13 17:51:28 If* Mar 13 17:51:35 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:52:03 That would have been understandable Mar 13 17:53:57 Fortunately, despite your suspicion of people generally back then, you trusted me... why was that? Mar 13 17:54:09 * Morgan shrugs Mar 13 17:54:19 I don't know actually... it just... felt right. Mar 13 17:54:30 * Molly smiles Mar 13 17:55:13 It turns out, it all was. My initial thought that you were so beautiful, and that that day I wanted to kiss you Mar 13 17:55:58 * Morgan nods Mar 13 17:57:21 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 13 17:57:43 * Molly has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Mar 13 18:32:11 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 13 18:34:49 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Mar 13 22:37:49 * MorganK (~madisonst@Madisons-Air.lan) has joined Mar 13 22:37:52 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 13 22:40:56 *he has time to get ready whilst she sits on the edge of the bed in the darker bedroom and feeds the baby. It's not Morgan's first storm at sea by a long way, but never with such a small vulnerable passenger. She sings him a lullaby and there's a flash outside the window followed half a minute later by a rumble. It's not quite eleven, but idling is Mar 13 22:40:56 doing him no good* Mar 13 22:41:43 I'm going to go up on deck love, waiting around is grating on me Mar 13 22:43:59 Alright liebling, be safe please. Don't be so proud that you won't move to storm watches with one of the others instead *the half hour on the helm, half hour off, instead of a solid four hours, is rare unless in hurricane conditions* Mar 13 22:44:53 I don't think we're at that point yet. I'll try not to wake you when I come back Mar 13 22:47:40 You assume I'll sleep, which I possibly won't. Inga almost certainly will be sick unless I intervene, the children also. Mar 13 22:48:06 * MorganK nods Mar 13 22:48:15 Alright love. Call on me if you need to Mar 13 22:49:47 And you with me, if anyone is horrendously poorly I'll come and knock them out Mar 13 22:50:05 * MorganK nods, kissing her cheek, then Amir's head Mar 13 22:50:09 I'll see you later Mar 13 22:51:24 Yes my love Mar 13 22:51:47 * MorganK smiles before pulling his coat on and heading up on deck Mar 13 22:55:54 *It's already very unpleasant, the spray is sharp as nettles on the skin, the rain very heavy. The wind is against them, and they're likely to lose ground. They're presently under no sail, anchor weighed, but even the weight of masts and rigging with see the wind pushing them back. The deck already feels unsteady beneath his feet. Sorgi and Claudia Mar 13 22:55:54 are both up here already Mar 13 22:56:34 * MorganK scowls as he moves towards them Mar 13 22:57:06 * MollyK is now known as Sorgi Mar 13 22:57:49 M'lord Mar 13 22:58:21 Captain. Mar 13 22:58:57 I expect it to clear during your watch, but we've a hard few hours ahead Mar 13 22:59:33 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:01:07 I'm sure we've all seen worse, but it's a lot more unpredictable with this ship Mar 13 23:01:28 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:01:46 On the plus side, she's probably the strongest any of us will ever sail Mar 13 23:02:32 Eisen's greatest resource is about to get tested in ways it likely has never been before Mar 13 23:03:22 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:03:28 What do you want of me captain? Mar 13 23:04:40 Get some coffee, get something to eat. Come back up in half an hour, we'll see how that wind sits relative to course Mar 13 23:05:12 * MorganK frowns but nods Mar 13 23:05:16 Aye cap'n Mar 13 23:05:28 * MorganK does as he's told, heading to the galley Mar 13 23:05:45 * Sorgi is now known as HH Mar 13 23:06:18 * HH is in there, stuffing his face with bread dipped in olive oil they took on in Jura Mar 13 23:06:46 * MorganK pours coffee for them both, putting one in front of HeinzHarold Mar 13 23:07:11 *he says with a full mouth* 'anks ma' Mar 13 23:07:35 * MorganK nods, sitting down and pulling some bread off Mar 13 23:08:21 Sebastien needs to be prepared for the future, in case things go awry... aside from that... *he chews his thumb* Mar 13 23:08:44 *the cups start to slide a little on a noticeable roll Mar 13 23:08:54 Aside from tha', what? Mar 13 23:09:35 I want to trust him... I want to -like- him. I want to know him. Mar 13 23:11:13 B'cause he's yer wife's cousin, or her possible next husband? Mar 13 23:11:45 Because he's your friend. Because you care about him. Mar 13 23:12:36 * HH sighs Mar 13 23:12:48 It's a tough situation Mar 13 23:12:57 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:13:08 He deserves to know what he could be facing Mar 13 23:14:13 * HH nods Mar 13 23:14:24 You an' Molly talked about it? Mar 13 23:14:38 No, not yet. Mar 13 23:15:04 Gon' be awkward, ain't it? Mar 13 23:17:07 Start him off on something small... not overwhelm him all at once... *he sighs* I know me and you we've got -so much- between us... but I think I'm jealous of him Mar 13 23:17:54 Y' don't need t' be, man. We got on well in th' War, but it's not like me an' you. Mar 13 23:18:56 I know... but I don't need to be scared of spiders, but still... he... he is closer to how I would have been, if it weren't for the fire Mar 13 23:19:08 So? Mar 13 23:23:17 He\s who I could have been if I wasn't so messed up... I could be -easy- to know Mar 13 23:23:45 Compare yerself to him a lot, huh? Mar 13 23:24:16 Now and then. Mar 13 23:26:26 Y' fine as you are, man. He's not perfect Mar 13 23:27:15 No, I'm not. I'm getting better though. Mar 13 23:28:25 * HH nods. There's another peal of thunder, and some expected creaking from the wood Mar 13 23:28:56 You sure you aren't transferrin' the jealousy you feel about her and Rosie to me an' Rosie? Mar 13 23:29:19 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:30:09 I am sure. He's still getting invited, mind. Like I said, I want to get over this jealousy Mar 13 23:30:24 * HH nods Mar 13 23:30:33 Molly didn' seem keen Mar 13 23:30:53 I think she's concerned I will feel threatened Mar 13 23:32:04 Reck'n ya will? Mar 13 23:32:49 Tough to say.. but I don't -think- so Mar 13 23:32:58 * HH nods Mar 13 23:33:05 Bit resigned to it now? Mar 13 23:34:31 To some extent... I know that she wants me, that she has no interest in him or anyone else. Mar 13 23:35:24 * HH nods Mar 13 23:35:36 Certainly true fr'm what I hear Mar 13 23:35:57 * MorganK nods, looking at him solemnly Mar 13 23:36:08 Can I tell you something without you getting all guilt ridden? Mar 13 23:36:18 Yeah, reck'n so Mar 13 23:36:37 I was more hurt than I let on that you confused the two of us Mar 13 23:36:48 * HH nods Mar 13 23:36:52 Yeah Mar 13 23:38:48 Its just a sign that he's like I used to be... it still hurts, but its understandable Mar 13 23:39:56 It's not tha' so much man, but sometimes the ol' War memories get tangled up, y' know? What happened where, who y' were with, what date it was Mar 13 23:41:02 Just unfortunate it was me and him then? Mar 13 23:42:31 * HH nods Mar 13 23:44:57 Done it plenty with some o' the others, but when y' see 'em dead on battlefields or beaches, y' stop mixin' them up s' much. Mar 13 23:46:08 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:46:25 I don't really have that... spent most of my time alone Mar 13 23:47:18 Y'd think that'd be better, but y' know what? Some o' the best night o' my life were spent with guys who are only up 'ere now *he taps his head* Mar 13 23:47:35 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:47:49 I've never really told anyone this but... it was so lonely man Mar 13 23:48:54 * HH nods "I always wished y' were with me, 'cept the night like this when th' Nauti was wrecked. Then I was fuckin' glad you were far away Mar 13 23:49:55 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:50:19 We're going to have our work cut out for us tonight Mar 13 23:52:49 * HH nods Mar 13 23:53:05 How's Molly now? She worryin' bout it? Mar 13 23:53:44 Not really... she's expecting your wife and the boys to be sick Mar 13 23:54:52 Pretty much a guarantee Inga will. She can't even do four hours straight outta port without pukin' Mar 13 23:55:19 I still think thats in her head man Mar 13 23:56:06 * HH nods Mar 13 23:56:31 Me too. So she's gon' be bad tonight b'cause she knows everyone hurls in a storm Mar 13 23:56:43 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:56:44 Makes sense Mar 13 23:57:01 'Cept you, obviously! Mar 13 23:57:11 * MorganK nods Mar 13 23:57:20 Realistically, I could be in the nest in this and still be fine Mar 13 23:57:30 * HH nods Mar 13 23:57:41 Always said yer not quite right in th' head Mar 13 23:58:34 I don't think there's anyone that would argue with you there Mar 13 23:59:23 How's she doin' about her moment o' worryin' earlier? Mar 13 23:59:37 Much better, thanks to you