**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Mar 9 00:00:48 2023 Mar 09 00:00:48 M' shirts would be bustin' my buttons *much like Molly's servant's dress had been in his dream* Mar 09 00:01:22 * Morgan nods Mar 09 00:01:41 Yeah, all bulgy and shit Mar 09 00:02:15 Hot on women, not hot on men Mar 09 00:02:42 * Morgan nods Mar 09 00:02:44 quite Mar 09 00:02:50 Wonder what Claudia thinks about it... Mar 09 00:03:31 You should ask 'er, man Mar 09 00:03:53 * Morgan nods Mar 09 00:03:57 Aye, I think I will later Mar 09 00:04:03 * HH chuckles Mar 09 00:04:10 G'luck Mar 09 00:04:26 They'll hear her fist hitting my face from Eisen Mar 09 00:05:31 * HH nods Mar 09 00:05:46 Yer wife won't be 'appy Mar 09 00:06:05 I suspect she'd understand Mar 09 00:07:33 Night b'fore her course?! *he chuckles* Mar 09 00:07:47 * Morgan nods Mar 09 00:07:55 She'd want to hit me as well probably Mar 09 00:08:06 * HH nods Mar 09 00:08:14 Some like it rough, eh? Mar 09 00:08:27 Soooo not answering that Mar 09 00:08:35 * HH laughs Mar 09 00:09:55 I'd prob'ly better not either Mar 09 00:11:17 Probably safer not to Mar 09 00:11:33 * HH nods Mar 09 00:12:41 *someone gives a call to ask for the Captain's opinion on something. The last of the watch is brief, and soon he's free to go, HH tagging along* Mar 09 00:12:52 Right, where's my fair lassie? Mar 09 00:13:10 * Morgan shrugs Mar 09 00:13:21 Dunno man... can't tell her apart from everyone else Mar 09 00:14:06 She's the one with th' massive bubbies Mar 09 00:14:19 From a heat source point of view, I can't really tell Mar 09 00:18:56 * MorganK (~madisonst@Madisons-Air.lan) has joined Mar 09 00:19:03 Should be able t', she's the hottest on th' ship Mar 09 00:20:00 * MorganK rolls his eyes, feeling for someone Varick sized Mar 09 00:20:10 *and how many are with him* Mar 09 00:20:42 *Varick's in the study with two adults* Mar 09 00:20:59 I'd put money on her being in with Molly Mar 09 00:23:39 * HH nods, making quick work of going to the study where he hugs Inga. She looks pleased to see him Mar 09 00:24:26 * HH is now known as Molly Mar 09 00:24:50 * Molly watches them fondly a moment. Varick hugs Morgan Mar 09 00:25:01 * MorganK hugs the boy Mar 09 00:25:08 V: We had to give him back, Papa Mar 09 00:25:22 I know Varick. You must be sad Mar 09 00:26:47 * Molly nods Mar 09 00:27:05 V: I cried Papa Mar 09 00:27:22 * MorganK nods, holding him tighter Mar 09 00:27:26 Thats alright Mar 09 00:27:38 V: It doesn't feel alright Mar 09 00:28:03 I'm going to fetch lunch, I'll be back soon. Mar 09 00:28:21 * Molly goes out, shutting the door quietly Mar 09 00:28:50 I know it doesn't. It hurts Mar 09 00:29:38 *Inga looks at Morgan* should I help with lunch, do you think? Mar 09 00:30:07 I think she might appreciate it... Mar 09 00:30:29 *Inga goes too* Mar 09 00:30:34 * Molly is now known as Varick Mar 09 00:30:53 Do you think he can stay again soon? Mar 09 00:31:56 I don't know Varick. I'm not sure it'd be a good idea Mar 09 00:32:35 But it was fun, Papa Mar 09 00:32:46 Yes it was... until we had to let him go Mar 09 00:33:12 * Varick sighs Mar 09 00:33:26 Now we can't see him anymore? Mar 09 00:35:52 I just... I don't want it to be more painful for you or mama Mar 09 00:36:42 But sometimes it hurts when you love someone. If it doesn't, you didn't really love them Mar 09 00:37:04 *HH watches this* Lad's gotta point Mar 09 00:37:40 * MorganK nods Mar 09 00:37:44 Oh I know Mar 09 00:39:17 * Varick goes to find the cat Mar 09 00:39:21 * Varick is now known as HH Mar 09 00:39:42 Fuckin' shit show. Gonna lean on 'im hard Mar 09 00:39:55 * MorganK nods Mar 09 00:40:08 I hate seeing him hurt like this Mar 09 00:40:16 * HH nods Mar 09 00:40:28 He's had it tough so far Mar 09 00:41:04 * MorganK nods Mar 09 00:41:11 He's come a long way though... Mar 09 00:41:30 He's had you t' steer him through, tha's why Mar 09 00:42:16 Whats with all the fulsome praise? Mar 09 00:43:08 Y' prefer it when I'm a dick? Mar 09 00:43:46 Just... I dunno, feels like we're at odds or something Mar 09 00:44:39 Nope, we're good Mar 09 00:44:54 * MorganK nods Mar 09 00:45:25 alright Mar 09 00:46:02 You good, man? A lot on yer plate when they're hurtin' an' y' can't stop it Mar 09 00:46:31 Feeling decidedly like a failure again Mar 09 00:47:17 * HH opens his arms Mar 09 00:47:25 C'mon, hug it out Mar 09 00:48:12 * MorganK immediately goes to him, hugging him hard Mar 09 00:48:43 * HH hugs him, hand on the back of his neck like his Da used to Mar 09 00:49:37 Y' can't fix it all, but y' can give 'em all th' love to see 'em through it Mar 09 00:50:40 * MorganK nods Mar 09 00:50:57 I suppose so Mar 09 00:51:09 I believe in you, man. Mar 09 00:52:02 * MorganK sobs suddenly Mar 09 00:52:33 * HH holds him tighter Mar 09 00:53:55 * MorganK stays there for a minute before pulling away, wiping his face Mar 09 00:54:54 * HH pats his shoulder "gonna get through it, man" Mar 09 00:56:01 * MorganK nods Mar 09 00:56:05 Yeah. Somehow Mar 09 00:56:33 * HH nods Mar 09 00:58:22 *he gets a few minutes to get straightened up before lunch comes, but when he checks himself in the mirror in their room the crib is absent, a baby mitten on the floor beside the bed* Mar 09 00:59:07 * MorganK picks it up, running his thumb over it Mar 09 01:00:02 *the knitting isn't perfect, but he knows Molly made it for him with love* Mar 09 01:00:29 *Molly comes in quietly* Mar 09 01:00:35 * HH is now known as Molly Mar 09 01:00:44 Lunch is ready, my love Mar 09 01:01:00 * MorganK nods, putting the mitten in his pocket Mar 09 01:02:00 * Molly glances at the space where the crib was for a few moments Mar 09 01:02:30 It's fish. We've finished everything from Jura... Mar 09 01:02:58 Joy. If it isn't too painful... how was he, going? Mar 09 01:03:15 He was alright Mar 09 01:03:54 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:04:31 * Molly brings her chin up, shoulders squared Mar 09 01:04:39 Alright, let's eat Mar 09 01:05:48 *the meal topics are varied, all trying to avoid the painful subject, but Varick looks sad when he goes for his nap* Mar 09 01:05:53 * Molly is now known as Varick Mar 09 01:06:03 I don't think it's fair, Papa Mar 09 01:06:16 What isn't son? Mar 09 01:06:53 We want him much more than she does Mar 09 01:07:05 What makes you say that? Mar 09 01:07:44 Because we do. She didn't cry when he came to us, but we cried giving him back Mar 09 01:08:05 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:08:11 I don't think its fair either Mar 09 01:09:10 It should be fair Mar 09 01:09:16 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:09:20 Fairness is important Mar 09 01:09:38 * Varick nods Mar 09 01:09:55 So why can't she be fair? Mar 09 01:10:09 She might think she is being fair Mar 09 01:10:23 But she isn't! Mar 09 01:11:25 Maybe not Mar 09 01:12:41 How do we make her see, Papa?! Mar 09 01:13:32 I don't know son... I'm working on it... we all are. Mar 09 01:13:59 * Varick sighs Mar 09 01:14:16 Okay. I'll sleep now Mar 09 01:14:28 * MorganK nods, kissing his forehead Mar 09 01:14:31 alright Mar 09 01:14:33 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 09 01:15:55 * Varick goes to sleep. It's a sad reminder of the dream in a dream where both their sons were tucked in at Hafenlohr, Molly beside him with child Mar 09 01:16:52 * MorganK watches him for a moment before wandering through the study to check the mirrors Mar 09 01:18:48 * Varick is now known as Molly Mar 09 01:20:46 * Molly is alone in there. There's a note from David "Sascha thinks there might have been a Sonnenshien, but more than a hundred years ago. She thinks you're thinking of it as a name to pay tribute to Dietlinde and their family, and that it might be a sign Molly is in the family way" Mar 09 01:21:07 For fuck sake Mar 09 01:21:16 * Molly glances at him Mar 09 01:21:19 Hmm? Mar 09 01:22:12 Sascha thinks there was a Sonnenshien over a hundred years ago... she thinks we're thinking of it as a name to honour Dietlinde and her family, and that you are increasing Mar 09 01:23:56 If only. The era seems right though Mar 09 01:25:08 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:25:12 Yes, it does. Mar 09 01:25:44 * Molly sits in the window seat Mar 09 01:26:11 That's one more problem to solve when we get home Mar 09 01:26:26 * MorganK shrugs Mar 09 01:26:41 We need to hear from Koln Mar 09 01:27:46 No... that they think I'm with child Mar 09 01:27:55 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:28:07 Aye. Not a great deal we can do to remedy it now Mar 09 01:28:50 * Molly shakes her head Mar 09 01:29:36 No. I asked Walder to see Hildegarde and go to Koln, so I expect an answer tomorrow evening Mar 09 01:29:47 * MorganK nods, sighing Mar 09 01:29:49 alright Mar 09 01:30:15 * Molly rests her head back against the window edge Mar 09 01:30:43 How was your command? Mar 09 01:30:49 smooth Mar 09 01:31:02 Thank god something is! Mar 09 01:31:18 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:31:39 * Molly sighs "I'm sorry, I'm in ill-humour today" Mar 09 01:32:05 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:32:08 Its understandable Mar 09 01:32:25 The timing isn't ideal, I'm afraid Mar 09 01:33:02 No, I know Mar 09 01:33:27 * Molly watches him Mar 09 01:33:56 Will you come and rest with me? I never sleep well the night my course starts Mar 09 01:34:04 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:34:13 If thats what you need my love Mar 09 01:35:01 I'd appreciate it, unless you need to be elsewhere Mar 09 01:35:13 * MorganK shakes his head, going to sit with her Mar 09 01:35:29 * Molly lies her head on his lap Mar 09 01:35:36 How did you sleep? Mar 09 01:35:42 * MorganK shrugs Mar 09 01:35:54 Alright I suppose. Had a dream Mar 09 01:36:05 Oh? Would you tell me? Mar 09 01:36:47 Ummm... I'm not sure... Mar 09 01:37:07 Oh... it's about the past... Mar 09 01:37:58 No... its weird... Mar 09 01:38:12 * Molly smiles, closing her eyes Mar 09 01:38:17 Surely not?! Mar 09 01:39:25 It was not long after I started at Lady Torrington, and you arrived... I started having dreams about you... of our life at Hafenlohr... like I said... weird Mar 09 01:40:03 That is odd indeed. The dreams of the paths happen on other paths Mar 09 01:40:42 * MorganK shrugs Mar 09 01:40:57 Not sure it was a path we dreamed of... because both of us had the dreams Mar 09 01:42:03 * Molly frowns even with her eyes closed Mar 09 01:42:09 What on Theah...? Mar 09 01:42:40 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:42:46 Aye, quite Mar 09 01:43:08 That must have been very confusing! Mar 09 01:44:00 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:44:03 extremely Mar 09 01:45:27 You must have been so distressed Mar 09 01:45:40 Not as much as you'd expect Mar 09 01:46:15 No? You were... eight months after the fire? Mar 09 01:46:32 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:48:00 We were happy at Hafenlohr, and madly in love, as I intend for us to be? Mar 09 01:48:19 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:48:22 yes Mar 09 01:49:16 It wasn't awfully painful? Mar 09 01:49:54 It was fucking confusing... but in the dream in the dream, I felt the happiness, the love... it still felt real, even in a dream. Mar 09 01:50:24 Very odd. What happened? Mar 09 01:50:53 I... don't think knowing would help you right now Mar 09 01:52:07 Oh... we did not end up liking each other then? Mar 09 01:52:47 Oh, in the dream.... Rather than the dream in the dream... we started getting along... we spoke about the dreams since we both had them... Mar 09 01:54:00 Did I feel the lingering love too? Mar 09 01:54:34 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:54:37 A bit aye Mar 09 01:55:33 * Molly smiles Mar 09 01:55:50 We did nothing inappropriate then Mar 09 01:56:59 No... you'd only just come to the house so were... incredibly anxious not to be thought badly of Mar 09 01:57:08 * Molly nods Mar 09 01:57:16 That was accurate! Mar 09 01:57:23 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:58:13 The first few months were so nerve-wracking until I'd proven myself Mar 09 01:58:23 * MorganK nods Mar 09 01:58:26 So I'm gathering Mar 09 01:59:09 I nearly dropped a stack of plates my first morning. Not heirlooms, just basic china Mar 09 02:00:12 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:00:17 I caused that, in the dream Mar 09 02:00:31 Did you? Mar 09 02:01:14 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:01:19 I made you jump Mar 09 02:01:25 * Molly smiles Mar 09 02:01:40 ''Twas lucky you did not appear then Mar 09 02:02:20 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:03:03 I kept my head down until I thought I'd proven myself too useful to be sent away Mar 09 02:03:11 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:04:28 Aye. I had a conversation with Mary about it all... incidentally... she was an agent of the order... Mar 09 02:04:49 * Molly nods Mar 09 02:04:55 Mmhmm... lucky... Mar 09 02:05:22 Lucky? Mar 09 02:06:10 Me, being allowed to stay and fall so desperately in love with you... Mar 09 02:06:21 * MorganK nods slowly Mar 09 02:06:29 Not sure that was anyones doing Mar 09 02:06:52 * Molly smiles Mar 09 02:07:20 Unfightable... could not be dismissed once it came Mar 09 02:07:32 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:08:33 When I love, there's never anything I can do about it Mar 09 02:08:55 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:09:00 I know love Mar 09 02:10:01 * Molly nods Mar 09 02:10:07 For the best, hmm? Mar 09 02:10:20 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:10:22 absolutely Mar 09 02:10:40 Was it a path? Was it blue? Mar 09 02:11:11 I don't see how... but it was clear, not hazy like a dream... and no, it wasn't blue Mar 09 02:12:15 Strange indeed Mar 09 02:12:24 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:12:26 aye Mar 09 02:13:25 * Molly smiles sleepily Mar 09 02:14:23 Will we realise we care for each other and begin a long courtship, or will we suddenly feel great desire for each other and end up abed together? Mar 09 02:14:56 I don' know love Mar 09 02:15:18 * Molly nods slower Mar 09 02:15:57 I think I'd prefer the second... delightful passions of the flesh... Mar 09 02:16:23 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:16:32 Aye Mar 09 02:17:13 * Molly nods barely any at all Mar 09 02:17:23 That's a nice thought... Mar 09 02:17:39 * MorganK nods, stroking her hair Mar 09 02:17:41 Aye love Mar 09 02:18:51 * Molly relaxes at the touch, and very soon she's asleep with her head on his lap, a respite from the struggle of trying to cling to the child that seems to be slipping from their grasp Mar 09 02:19:18 * MorganK sits still, stroking her hair while she sleeps Mar 09 02:20:19 *she wakes about fifteen minutes from the end of quiet hour with a sigh* hmm, sorry, I dozed off Mar 09 02:20:40 Its alright love... you clearly needed to Mar 09 02:21:34 I know, but our time is short before my course... Mar 09 02:21:59 Its alright... this closeness is enough love Mar 09 02:22:08 Is it? Mar 09 02:22:23 Why would it not be? Mar 09 02:22:54 There's not a release to it, emotionally or physically Mar 09 02:23:13 No, but there is a closeness, an intimacy Mar 09 02:23:28 * Molly nods Mar 09 02:23:49 There is Mar 09 02:24:27 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:25:59 As long as you're happy, my love Mar 09 02:26:09 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:26:12 Of course I am Mar 09 02:26:50 * Molly nods Mar 09 02:27:17 Good Mar 09 02:28:09 * MorganK continues stroking her hair Mar 09 02:29:03 * Molly smiles, watching him. It's not far off the look Amir was giving him Mar 09 02:30:17 * MorganK sighs Mar 09 02:30:28 I suppose I'd best get my things ready to train Mar 09 02:30:39 * Molly nods Mar 09 02:30:48 Yes, liebling Mar 09 02:31:24 * MorganK nods, watching her Mar 09 02:31:30 Come on then, I need to move Mar 09 02:31:40 * Molly blushes Mar 09 02:31:49 Sorry *she sits up* Mar 09 02:32:11 * MorganK smiles, standing up and stretching Mar 09 02:33:23 * Molly watches him, smiling Mar 09 02:34:01 You'll let me know what happens with Xsarlac? Mar 09 02:34:15 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:34:18 Aye, of course Mar 09 02:34:29 * MorganK picks up his sword belt, strapping it on Mar 09 02:35:36 Good luck, my love Mar 09 02:35:51 * MorganK nods Mar 09 02:36:02 Thank you love... I'll see you in a while Mar 09 02:37:02 * Molly nods, blowing him a kiss, but he can see it's not the light and playful way in which she usually does so Mar 09 02:38:10 * MorganK smiles at her sadly before leaving the room, heading to Betuana's room Mar 09 02:38:42 * MorganK has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 09 02:44:16 * Molly has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Mar 09 04:27:08 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 09 04:32:09 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Mar 09 06:27:06 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Mar 09 06:30:16 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Mar 09 09:50:45 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Mar 09 09:51:27 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 09 10:09:07 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Mar 09 10:24:14 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 09 10:25:04 * MollyK is now known as Betuana Mar 09 10:25:18 * Betuana answers it, Amir on her hip Mar 09 10:25:27 A: Bah bah! Mar 09 10:25:59 * Morgan smiles slightly, tickling under the boys chin Mar 09 10:26:17 HeinzHarold and I are going to train, we wondered if Xsarlac would like to join us Mar 09 10:30:04 * Betuana nods "I'm sure he would" Mar 09 10:30:21 *Amir holds out his arms to Morgan* Mar 09 10:31:05 * Morgan nods, putting his finger in Amir's hand Mar 09 10:33:27 *Xsarlac brings a sword. Betuana kisses his cheek as he goes out* Mar 09 10:34:24 * Morgan makes way for him, stroking Amir's hand briefly before extracting himself and moving towards HeinzHarolds room Mar 09 10:36:34 *HH joins them and they go to the ballroom* Mar 09 10:36:52 $how you going to play this, man?$ Mar 09 10:37:44 $NOt sure yet. Lets get some training in then we'll talk while we have a break?$ Mar 09 10:39:15 * Betuana is now known as Xsarlac Mar 09 10:40:38 * Xsarlac hasn't changed style much since Morgan saw him go off at full tilt against monsters at Lady Torrington's house, and HH seems quite happy just to engage with it when he's approached. It doesn't seem much of a challenge to HH Mar 09 10:42:18 * Morgan watches them for a few minutes before drawing his own sword Mar 09 10:44:00 * Xsarlac waits to engage Morgan, knowing his style better so more able to adapt to it Mar 09 10:45:22 * Morgan salutes him, keeping his style quite simple, not incorporating any of the other styles he's learned Mar 09 10:47:13 *they go one like this for a while, eventually taking a break* Mar 09 10:47:41 * Morgan takes his flask, offering it to Xsarlac Mar 09 10:48:44 * Xsarlac takes it, sipping some with thanks Mar 09 10:49:40 * Morgan nods, sipping it before putting it away Mar 09 10:49:48 How are you finding it? Mar 09 10:50:09 She's certainly fast Mar 09 10:51:12 I was more referring to having Betuana back... Mar 09 10:51:48 * Xsarlac smiles Mar 09 10:51:58 It's like a dream come true Mar 09 10:52:26 * Morgan nods, leaning against a table Mar 09 10:52:42 You are not finding it difficult to adjust after having searched for so long? Mar 09 10:53:48 * Xsarlac shakes his head Mar 09 10:53:58 No, it's as if she hadn't left Mar 09 10:54:40 * Morgan nods Mar 09 10:54:48 The change in her is quite profound Mar 09 10:56:50 She's back to herself. Zareen was the change for me Mar 09 10:57:32 And yet you were willing to care for her. That must've been difficult for you Mar 09 10:58:53 * Xsarlac nods "it was, but when you love someone it keeps going even if they change. I just didn't find her attractive" Mar 09 10:59:29 Makes little sense does it Mar 09 11:00:52 Not really, no. I'm glad she's home Mar 09 11:02:14 * Morgan nods, testing the edge of his sword with his thumb Mar 09 11:02:21 $Might need some help here$ Mar 09 11:02:41 We enjoyed having Amir last night Mar 09 11:03:06 $I think you're doing good, man$ Mar 09 11:03:13 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 11:03:27 It was quieter without him Mar 09 11:03:45 Quieter? Mar 09 11:04:57 Babies are nice but they take a lot of entertaining. It gave us more time to catch up and talk about the future Mar 09 11:06:40 Interesting... I wouldn't have thought there needs much discussing... she'll be back on the throne and things will go back to normal, surely? Mar 09 11:08:48 Yes, but we want a better balance of her work and time together. We've been apart a long time, and we aren't getting younger Mar 09 11:11:12 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:11:22 A toddler won't help that Mar 09 11:12:35 No, it won't. It was not in our plan to have more children after our youngest was born Mar 09 11:12:42 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:13:03 I recall you saying so. Mar 09 11:14:22 It must be difficult for you... Mar 09 11:14:37 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 11:15:35 It is. In Capperlucia a man has to earn this privilege. He'd be put to death for coercing a woman who was suffering a mental disorder Mar 09 11:16:15 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:16:57 It can't be easy, facing having to raise a child conceived like that. Mar 09 11:18:45 It isn't. It isn't Amir's fault, and I don't blame Betuana, she wasn't knowingly unfaithful, but it's difficult to think of another man, an -unworthy- man, having my wife Mar 09 11:18:57 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:19:05 *HH keeps an eye on Morgan* Mar 09 11:21:06 He was a disgusting man. If it wasn't going to destabilise the region... and I hadn't been bitten by one of their fucking spiders, I'd have killed him Mar 09 11:22:33 Zareen told me how much it nearly cost you Mar 09 11:25:07 * Morgan hoiks a thumb at HeinzHarold Mar 09 11:25:17 He's keeping an eye to make sure I don't lose my shit over it now Mar 09 11:27:15 *HH nods* Mar 09 11:27:48 Betuana would like to kill him too Mar 09 11:28:56 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:29:54 I know. She told me. Is she aware of how you feel about it all? About your distaste for feeding him and so on? Mar 09 11:33:08 * Xsarlac nods "she is. We've talked about the burdens of raising another child. There are blessings too, of course, but it's a lot of work for me when I am at the age where I'm waiting to be a grandfather, not a father again" Mar 09 11:33:45 What do you think she should do? Mar 09 11:35:15 It's tough to say. In our culture children are sacred. People don't hand over their children to others, but I don't really want to do it all again, and I know that with her work the majority of the care and nurturing is on me Mar 09 11:36:19 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:37:15 I would not be asking if we did not love him as we do. He deserves to feel love, not just care. Mar 09 11:37:33 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 11:38:30 She feels strongly connected to him by blood, but I don't think it's the same as with our children Mar 09 11:39:04 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:39:28 I was wondering if perhaps she is confusing remembering the feeling of loving him with loving him -now- Does that make sense? Mar 09 11:40:10 It does make sense. It's like it's a step removed. She loves her nieces and nephews the same as this Mar 09 11:40:40 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:40:49 We do not. Mar 09 11:41:02 * Morgan takes his flask, drinking some again before offering it to Xsarlac Mar 09 11:41:13 * Xsarlac sips some Mar 09 11:41:24 You want me to talk her around Mar 09 11:43:24 When I was feeding him this morning, he's laying in my arms, looking at me the same way my daughter did. That same love, the attachment. Mar 09 11:44:29 * Xsarlac nods, sipping again Mar 09 11:45:19 I do not see that in his face when I hold him Mar 09 11:46:50 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:47:14 I think... that might be quite an argument for her to relent Mar 09 11:47:23 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 11:48:43 It will influence her. But she is a sensible women, and I know she already sees that it would be better for me and our children if we don't have so much to do and her attention isn't further divided Mar 09 11:49:04 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:51:18 HH: Gotta say, if my wife was sayin' to me "I don't wanna do this, and here's an option that means he's safe and loved" I'd find that hard to say no to Mar 09 11:52:13 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:54:19 She feels bound by duty, and it's not a moral thing in our culture to separate a baby from its mother Mar 09 11:55:18 * Morgan sighs Mar 09 11:55:49 Also she's a queen, it doesn't set a good standard Mar 09 11:56:41 I'd say don't tell anyone but that doesn't sit well with your ethical code Mar 09 11:57:05 We are very honest Mar 09 11:57:26 * Morgan nods Mar 09 11:58:12 Let me ask you something... Betuana... she isn't the same person as the one I brought onboard, do you agree? Mar 09 11:58:34 * Xsarlac nods "her body is the same, but not anything else" Mar 09 11:59:09 So... an argument could be made that... she is not his mother... Mar 09 12:01:17 In personality and feelings, yes. She doesn't remember his actual conception, or his birth. She doesn't know the date, except it was the end of May Mar 09 12:02:27 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:03:35 Perhaps then that could be useful... As for children being sacred... what is more sacred than making sure a child is loved and safe. Mar 09 12:04:40 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:05:29 That is important. Does Amir's father being that man not present trouble for you when Molly might have had his child? Mar 09 12:05:42 $deep breath, man$ Mar 09 12:06:31 No. I may not have sired Varick, but he is -my- son. Mar 09 12:06:43 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:06:51 I don't feel that for Amir Mar 09 12:07:49 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:09:41 Varicks father was a murderous bastard. If he was alive today, he wouldn't be for long. The only difficulty is seeing the adoration Varick still holds for him, when he simply does not deserve it. It does not make me love Varick any less. Mar 09 12:09:59 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:10:21 Do you feel for Amir as a Father? Mar 09 12:10:41 Much as I try not to... yes, I do. Mar 09 12:10:53 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:11:10 Last night, we were all sat on the floor just... -being- together... and it felt -right-. Mar 09 12:11:18 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:12:05 It doesn't feel right to me. I was doing my best with him and Zareen, but I didn't feel it in my heart Mar 09 12:12:18 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:13:01 Does Molly feel for him as a Mother? Mar 09 12:13:08 Undoubtedly. Mar 09 12:13:27 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:13:35 And Varick as a Brother? Mar 09 12:14:17 * Morgan smiles Mar 09 12:14:33 He adores him. Loves him intensely. Mar 09 12:14:46 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:15:07 It is the well being of -two- children at stake? Mar 09 12:16:09 I believe so, yes. I've not seen Varick so distressed, aside from being affected by the ashkoven, since he was upset at his memories of his... of Karsten were starting to fade Mar 09 12:16:45 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:17:31 I don't think it is in anyone's best interest for Amir to stay with us. It will not bring joy to anyone Mar 09 12:18:12 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:18:45 I agree. I could tolerate it if Amir would feel the wealth of love he deserves... but I don't believe that will be the case Mar 09 12:20:07 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:20:20 I would never love him like one of my own Mar 09 12:20:34 *HH sighs quietly* Mar 09 12:20:57 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:21:08 He deserves more than that Mar 09 12:21:15 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 12:22:25 Children should be loved Mar 09 12:22:30 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:22:32 Yes they should Mar 09 12:22:36 $You ok?$ Mar 09 12:22:56 $I love him like an Uncle, man, that's hard to hear$ Mar 09 12:23:16 * Xsarlac sheathes his sword "I'll speak to my wife" Mar 09 12:23:26 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:23:35 I appreciate that. Mar 09 12:24:03 * Xsarlac nods, inclining his head before going Mar 09 12:24:06 * Xsarlac is now known as HH Mar 09 12:24:18 Good job, man. Y' handled that well Mar 09 12:24:43 Surprisingly Mar 09 12:25:00 * HH nods Mar 09 12:25:06 Held yer temper well Mar 09 12:25:26 He wasn't being cruel. He was being honest. Mar 09 12:27:34 * HH sighs Mar 09 12:27:50 Yeah Mar 09 12:28:14 Just gotta wait now I suppose Mar 09 12:29:43 Seems like he really doesn't wanna be the kid's Da Mar 09 12:29:50 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:29:57 Thats the impression I got, yes Mar 09 12:30:50 * HH nods Mar 09 12:30:53 Hug? Mar 09 12:31:26 * Morgan sheathes his sword, moving to him and hugging him hard Mar 09 12:31:38 * HH hugs him tight Mar 09 12:31:48 Sorry y' love him so much, man Mar 09 12:32:00 * Morgan shrugs Mar 09 12:32:10 Its alright. Sometimes it hurts to love someone Mar 09 12:32:17 * HH nods Mar 09 12:32:37 Least it means y' can feel -something- Mar 09 12:33:09 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:33:16 Yeah. Its a long way from where I was Mar 09 12:33:23 * HH nods Mar 09 12:33:35 Yep. Proud o' you. Mar 09 12:34:29 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:34:31 Me too, kinda Mar 09 12:35:00 Better'an usual. Y' need to check in with Molly? Mar 09 12:35:25 Probably should. She's fairly emotional Mar 09 12:35:43 So glad I don' have courses, man Mar 09 12:36:24 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:36:31 Aye, its fucking brutal Mar 09 12:37:14 * HH pats his back before letting go Mar 09 12:37:45 Want me t' fetch the coffee? Mar 09 12:38:34 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:38:35 Please man Mar 09 12:39:59 See you in there then Mar 09 12:40:24 * Morgan nods, heading to his study Mar 09 12:41:40 * HH is now known as Molly Mar 09 12:42:10 * Molly is knitting, and Inga and Varick are playing cards Mar 09 12:42:38 * Morgan sits down by her Mar 09 12:43:10 * Molly shows him the little lightweight summer cardigan, newborn size Mar 09 12:43:23 It's not perfect, but it's almost finished Mar 09 12:43:36 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:43:39 Its very good Mar 09 12:43:46 * Molly smiles Mar 09 12:44:03 Perhaps for baby Morgan or Morgana Mar 09 12:50:48 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:50:53 I'm sure they'll love it Mar 09 12:51:13 * Molly smiles Mar 09 12:51:51 Maybe once it's outgrown we'll have it back, for the following summer... Mar 09 12:53:14 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:54:53 How was your training? Mar 09 12:55:02 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:55:08 Not challenging... Mar 09 12:55:20 * Molly nods Mar 09 12:55:31 Xsarlac came with you? Mar 09 12:55:40 * Morgan nods Mar 09 12:56:29 Yes, he did Mar 09 12:57:34 * Molly watches him Mar 09 12:57:42 Do we need to talk elsewhere? Mar 09 12:58:46 If you want to Mar 09 12:59:25 * Molly excuses them, going into the bedroom and sitting on the bed Mar 09 12:59:38 What did he say? Mar 09 13:01:01 I think we got him onside to some extent Mar 09 13:02:18 Oh? How? Mar 09 13:02:55 We talked about their future... how children are sacred... he was asking if I feel for Amir as a father would... Mar 09 13:03:06 * Molly watches him Mar 09 13:03:12 And you do...? Mar 09 13:03:39 * Morgan sighs Mar 09 13:03:44 I do Mar 09 13:03:49 * Molly nods Mar 09 13:04:02 Does he? Mar 09 13:05:25 No. He asked if you felt as a mother to him... Mar 09 13:05:39 * Molly nods Mar 09 13:05:58 If I let myself, yes Mar 09 13:06:23 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:06:41 He asked about Varick... loving him as a brother then said... so its the wellbeing of two children at stake... Mar 09 13:06:52 * Molly nods slowly Mar 09 13:07:06 Yes, it is. Varick will be hit hard by it Mar 09 13:07:22 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:07:49 He's going to speak to Betuana Mar 09 13:07:56 * Molly nods Mar 09 13:08:07 What do you think will happen Mar 09 13:08:29 * Morgan shrugs Mar 09 13:08:32 I just don't know Mar 09 13:08:41 * Molly nods Mar 09 13:09:30 I feel... I feel like I just need an answer, one way or the other. I need to know if there is no hope. Mar 09 13:09:42 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:09:44 I know love Mar 09 13:10:32 * Molly wipes her eyes with her sleeve "sorry... I'm being overly emotional" Mar 09 13:10:44 * Morgan puts his arms around her Mar 09 13:10:49 No love, its understandable Mar 09 13:11:52 * Molly leans into him Mar 09 13:12:49 It's distracting me from my learning and preparing for my negotiations Mar 09 13:13:20 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:13:29 I know love.I don't know how to help with that Mar 09 13:13:42 * Molly shakes her head Mar 09 13:14:00 Absolutely nothing that can be done with little ears next door! Mar 09 13:14:33 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:14:48 I know love Mar 09 13:15:20 * Molly takes a deep breath " we will endure, no matter what" Mar 09 13:15:52 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:15:53 Yes we will Mar 09 13:16:57 * Molly places a gentle kiss on his neck, loving rather than lusting Mar 09 13:17:12 * Morgan holds her closely Mar 09 13:17:21 How long will it take, do you think? Mar 09 13:17:31 I've no bloody idea Mar 09 13:19:51 * Molly nods "are you and Heinzharold back to normal now?" Mar 09 13:20:09 Were we not? Mar 09 13:23:21 Because of what he said about Seb Mar 09 13:23:39 Wasn't him I was angry with Mar 09 13:23:57 * Molly nods Mar 09 13:24:05 Alright, my love Mar 09 13:25:22 * Morgan sighs Mar 09 13:25:26 I suppose we'd best get back Mar 09 13:26:21 * Molly nods Mar 09 13:26:37 You could start the chair, if you need an occupation? Mar 09 13:26:58 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:27:04 I might do Mar 09 13:28:32 * Molly nods, kissing him briefly Mar 09 13:28:42 I'll not detain you then Mar 09 13:29:01 If you need me... I will stay Mar 09 13:31:21 * Molly smiles softly "I never don't need you, my love" Mar 09 13:32:11 * Morgan blushes Mar 09 13:33:09 You do know that? Mar 09 13:33:37 I do... Mar 09 13:34:23 But? Mar 09 13:34:32 It still makes me blush Mar 09 13:35:30 Why, my love? Mar 09 13:36:02 Because I'm a prude Mar 09 13:36:51 Oh! Mar 09 13:37:20 * Molly smiles "firstly, you aren't. Secondly, I meant emotionally and romantically" Mar 09 13:37:41 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:38:41 You wish me to stay? Mar 09 13:39:12 No, my love. Go and distract yourself as you need Mar 09 13:39:31 * Morgan nods Mar 09 13:39:43 Alright love. You know where I'll be Mar 09 13:44:22 * Molly giggles Mar 09 13:44:33 Mmhmm, in the hold working your wood Mar 09 13:45:40 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Mar 09 13:47:42 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Mar 09 15:33:15 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Mar 09 15:56:56 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 09 15:58:55 * Morgan kisses her briefly Mar 09 15:59:01 Alright love. I'll see you in a while Mar 09 16:00:16 *the hold is peaceful except for the animals, no one has interfered with his wood or tools* Mar 09 16:01:21 * Morgan eventually goes back to his room, covered in sawdust Mar 09 16:02:40 * MollyK is now known as Betuana Mar 09 16:02:52 * Betuana intercepts him on the way Mar 09 16:03:11 I would speak to you, if you have time Mar 09 16:03:50 * Morgan nods, going to the ballroom, offering her a seat at one of the tables Mar 09 16:08:10 * Betuana comes in, and takes a seat Mar 09 16:09:26 I considered speaking to your wife instead, but I acknowledge and respect you as the head of your household, even if it seems irregular to me Mar 09 16:10:21 I appreciate that. We work as one, for future reference Mar 09 16:11:38 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:11:54 Do you have a need for the small talk? Mar 09 16:12:23 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 09 16:12:29 Whats on your mind Betuana Mar 09 16:15:33 I have spoken to Xsarlac. Taking into account all of the information, I have made the decision that Amir will enter your family and leave ours. Mar 09 16:16:15 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:16:38 I know it is done with Amir's best interests at heart, but I am grateful. Mar 09 16:16:48 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:17:38 I love him, but I know he will be surrounded by more love with your family than he would with mine Mar 09 16:19:20 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:19:26 How do you wish to proceed? Mar 09 16:20:18 I will continue to provide milk for him until we arrive, and I can send wet nurses for you there Mar 09 16:21:48 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:22:12 When do you wish us to, for want of a better word, take him? Mar 09 16:23:10 I think it would be best to do it quickly, and give him time to adjust to my absence before we arrive. What is your opinion? Mar 09 16:23:51 I agree. Mar 09 16:25:41 * Betuana nods "I will have Xsarlac bring the crib back to your room shortly. Does your country require paperwork? In Capperlucia we do not lie, so our oral agreements are counted as binding and secure" Mar 09 16:40:53 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:41:03 Yes, paperwork will be required Mar 09 16:41:21 I can entrust that to you to draw up? Mar 09 16:41:39 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:41:51 Of course. I'll see to it Mar 09 16:42:03 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:42:48 Thank you. Do you find it callous or cruel to give away one's offspring? Mar 09 16:43:33 The reasoning is the important thing. Mar 09 16:45:11 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:46:11 I hope you will live up to the ideals you have set for yourself. I want him to have a good, happy life Mar 09 16:46:47 That is what I want for him Mar 09 16:47:42 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:48:22 I hope you will send word of him with your ships Mar 09 16:49:11 If you wish that, of course I will Mar 09 16:49:45 I do. I hope you will think of us as a sort of extended family Mar 09 16:50:09 * Morgan smiles slightly Mar 09 16:50:24 I would like that... he will always link us but... I did not wish to overstep Mar 09 16:53:34 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:54:38 That would not be an overstep. In Capperlucia, if a woman cannot have a child, sometimes someone in the community will have a child for her. We call them the middle-mothers Mar 09 16:55:07 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:55:12 Thats lovely Mar 09 16:55:47 * Betuana nods Mar 09 16:56:05 I would be honoured to be your son's middle-mother Mar 09 16:56:46 * Morgan nods Mar 09 16:56:59 Thank you, Betuana. This means much to me, to all of us. Mar 09 16:59:53 * Betuana nods, smiling a little. He can see that there's a sadness there, and in that small, unguarded expression, he can see the woman he first met in the Empire Mar 09 16:59:59 You're welcome Mar 09 17:00:27 Would it be inappropriate to give you a hug? Mar 09 17:00:37 * Betuana shakes her head Mar 09 17:01:45 No, hugs are very normal in Capperlucia. You will see the people hug each other and hold hands all the time. It's not limited to familial or romantic bonds in our homeland Mar 09 17:02:11 * Morgan nods, moving to hug her Mar 09 17:03:10 * Betuana hugs him back Mar 09 17:04:02 * Morgan lets her go Mar 09 17:04:08 I won't let you, or him, down Mar 09 17:04:52 * Betuana nods "thank you" Mar 09 17:05:06 When... would you like us to have him? Mar 09 17:06:57 * Betuana smiles Mar 09 17:07:10 Why don't we go and get him for you now? Mar 09 17:07:33 I'll take him to my study... if thats alright? Mar 09 17:08:58 * Betuana nods "You do not need to ask me anymore" Mar 09 17:09:14 I suppose not Mar 09 17:12:02 I see your crew spitting in their hands and shaking to make deals. Is that a necessary custom for you in these matters? Mar 09 17:12:50 Its... Its one of the customs amongst those not of noble birth. I find it a perfect way to connect with my people Mar 09 17:13:44 * Betuana gently spits in her hand before offering it to him Mar 09 17:14:18 * Morgan does likewise, clasping her hand Mar 09 17:16:01 * Betuana nods Mar 09 17:16:17 That is acceptable? Mar 09 17:16:28 * Morgan nods Mar 09 17:16:43 It is. Mar 09 17:17:35 * Betuana lets go, wiping her hand on her dress Mar 09 17:17:56 * Morgan smiles, wiping his hand on his trousers Mar 09 17:18:19 * Betuana waits for him to open the door Mar 09 17:18:48 * Morgan opens it for her Mar 09 17:20:27 * Betuana goes out, heading for her room Mar 09 17:20:43 I will collect everything up for you Mar 09 17:21:17 * Morgan nods, following her Mar 09 17:21:36 Will you need some time with him before we have him? Mar 09 17:22:01 * Betuana shakes her head "no, thank you" Mar 09 17:22:43 * Morgan nods Mar 09 17:25:21 *Xsarlac is waiting with Amir when they get there* Mar 09 17:26:00 * Morgan watches him, inclining his head slightly Mar 09 17:26:42 *Xsarlac smiles, passing Amir to him* Mar 09 17:26:57 X: Congratulations, Morgan Mar 09 17:27:21 Thank you, my friend. Mar 09 17:28:24 *Xsarlac puts his arm around Betuana's waist* I'll give you and your family some time and then bring his things along Mar 09 17:28:40 * Morgan nods Mar 09 17:28:54 Thank you, both of you... now then little lamb... lets go to the others hmmm? Mar 09 17:30:02 *Amir fiddles with Morgan's beard. Xsarlac shuts the door behind him* Mar 09 17:30:15 * Morgan bounces him as he heads back towards his study Mar 09 17:30:23 * Betuana is now known as Molly Mar 09 17:30:26 This is a turn up for the books, huh... Mar 09 17:30:36 A: bah bah Mar 09 17:30:52 * Morgan nods, opening the door and going into his study Mar 09 17:31:31 *Molly and the others all look surprised to see Amir with him, their card game interrupted* Mar 09 17:33:14 Uhh... hey? Mar 09 17:33:30 V: Papa, you've got Amir! Mar 09 17:33:56 * Morgan glances down, looking surprised Mar 09 17:33:59 Oh... so I have Mar 09 17:33:59 *HH watches his best friend* Mar 09 17:34:26 * Molly chews her lip, watching Morgan Mar 09 17:34:56 V: *he gets up, coming to them* Can he stay again tonight? Mar 09 17:35:17 I'd have to ask his mother Mar 09 17:35:35 *Varick sighs* okay Papa Mar 09 17:35:38 * Morgan nods Mar 09 17:35:46 Molly... can Amir stay again tonight? Mar 09 17:36:12 * Molly looks surprised "oh my god... really?!" Mar 09 17:36:46 * Morgan nods Mar 09 17:37:05 Perhaps you'd like to help Varick welcome his brother? Mar 09 17:38:13 * Molly comes over, wrapping her arms around Morgan and the baby, sobbing. Varick is jumping up and down excitedly, shouting "yes!" loudly Mar 09 17:38:32 *HH and Inga exchange happy smiles with each other* Mar 09 17:38:35 * Morgan puts an arm around Molly Mar 09 17:38:44 Its alright love... Mar 09 17:39:00 * Molly nods, looking up at him Mar 09 17:39:16 I am just so, -so- happy! Mar 09 17:39:45 *Amir grabs a handful of her hair, squealing excitedly too* Mar 09 17:40:35 I know. Xsarlac is going to bring his things later Mar 09 17:41:41 * Molly nods, kissing Amir's face and getting slobbered on in return Mar 09 17:42:26 V: This is my happiest day in the world!! *he bounces on the couch* Mar 09 17:42:47 * Morgan smiles Mar 09 17:42:57 I'm glad... you're going to help us, right? Mar 09 17:43:15 V: I will even change his nappies! Mar 09 17:44:21 * Molly suddenly kisses Morgan too, firmly, a little longer than is necessarily decorous, making Varick giggle Mar 09 17:44:38 * Morgan looks surprised Mar 09 17:44:59 Alright... Lets sit down, hmm? I'll get some coffee Mar 09 17:45:06 * Molly breaks away, blushing a little "sorry" Mar 09 17:46:21 * Morgan smiles Mar 09 17:46:22 Its alright blossom Mar 09 17:46:29 * Molly takes Amir from him, hugging the baby tight. HH comes over, offering his hand "Congratulations on yer new baby, man" Mar 09 17:47:41 * Morgan bats his hand away, hugging him hard Mar 09 17:48:50 *HH hugs him hard too* Papa o' two, an' we didn't hafta wait outside 'er birthin' room! Mar 09 17:49:20 * Morgan nods Mar 09 17:49:22 This time. Mar 09 17:50:24 HH: Ten kids, an' a fosterling... Mar 09 17:51:11 * Molly takes Amir to the couch, an arm around Varick too Mar 09 17:52:31 Wanna help me get coffee? Mar 09 17:54:39 *HH nods* Yep Mar 09 17:55:09 * Molly is now known as HH Mar 09 17:55:28 * HH waits til they're in the hall before saying "how y' doing?" Mar 09 17:56:10 Am I taking on too much? Mar 09 18:21:29 Nah, man, you're gon' be just fine Mar 09 18:21:44 * Morgan nods Mar 09 18:21:55 I hope so man Mar 09 18:22:17 Y' got us, we'll help y' Mar 09 18:23:09 * Morgan nods Mar 09 18:23:24 Did not expect her to decide so soon after speaking to Xsarlac Mar 09 18:23:40 * HH nods Mar 09 18:23:55 Yeah... y' need us to have him a bit this evenin'? Mar 09 18:24:28 * Morgan smiles slightly Mar 09 18:24:39 You see Molly letting him go for even a second any time soon? Mar 09 18:25:02 About th' time you say you wanna turn, yeah Mar 09 18:25:12 * Morgan smiles Mar 09 18:25:14 I can wait Mar 09 18:25:33 Got all th' time in th' world Mar 09 18:25:56 * Morgan nods Mar 09 18:27:02 Really 'appy for you, man. Tha' kid's damn lucky, gettin' you as his Papa Mar 09 18:27:28 Got you as his uncle... Mar 09 18:27:39 * HH grins Mar 09 18:28:01 Makes up f' havin' Edward as his uncle too Mar 09 18:30:12 * Morgan nods Mar 09 18:31:18 Could be worse... I wonder what my father will say Mar 09 18:31:54 Congratulations, if he has half a brain Mar 09 18:33:27 Probably a telling off then Mar 09 18:33:53 Gonna tell off a Duke? Mar 09 18:34:30 Yep. Because he is my father scolding his son Mar 09 18:34:46 * HH nods Mar 09 18:34:56 Y' miss tha' more than y' expect to Mar 09 18:35:35 If you want, I can have mine tell you off... Mar 09 18:36:55 Wouldn' be th' first time Mar 09 18:37:30 * Morgan nods Mar 09 18:38:34 He loves you Mar 09 18:40:51 * HH nods Mar 09 18:41:37 I know. Hey, shall we look f' Champ Ag Knee, wet th' babe's head? Mar 09 18:41:59 * Morgan nods Mar 09 18:42:07 Aye. Not sure we have any but... yes Mar 09 18:44:02 * HH nods Mar 09 18:44:22 Gotta celebrate, man! Where's Claudia? Mar 09 18:46:14 I don't know... sleeping possibly Mar 09 18:58:42 * HH chuckles Mar 09 18:58:54 Y' in a bit o' shock, huh? Mar 09 18:59:54 I think thats a fair assessment Mar 09 19:02:04 Coffee first, Claudia later Mar 09 19:02:20 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:02:21 ok Mar 09 19:10:53 * HH deals with the coffee, keeping an eye on his friend's expression Mar 09 19:11:27 I'm alright man Mar 09 19:11:43 Carry th' tray then Mar 09 19:11:52 * Morgan nods, picking it up Mar 09 19:13:32 * HH opens the door when they get there. Molly is still hugging the boys, Inga is sat with them. HH speaks quietly Mar 09 19:14:02 I'm runnin' behind, zero for two, man Mar 09 19:14:46 * Morgan frowns Mar 09 19:14:48 Sorry man Mar 09 19:15:10 * HH chuckles Mar 09 19:15:31 Best get her growin' twins Mar 09 19:15:56 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:16:30 Go on, I'll pour Mar 09 19:17:07 * Morgan nods, putting the tray down on the desk before going to the others, bending to kiss Inga's crown before sitting with Varick Mar 09 19:19:48 *varick sits in his lap* now you have to teach me to be a good big brother like you, Papa Mar 09 19:21:29 Oh, I'm not sure about that.... Mar 09 19:22:39 V: You're a good big brother to Heinzharold *hh is almost three weeks older than him* Mar 09 19:23:02 He's actually older than me... Mar 09 19:23:28 *Varick shakes his head* I don't think so, Papa Mar 09 19:23:48 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:23:57 Hes a few weeks older... Mar 09 19:24:14 V: I thought you were older Mar 09 19:24:52 No... he just stopped growing up before me Mar 09 19:25:19 It's b'cause I'm young at heart, an' yer old at head. Mar 09 19:25:51 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:25:56 true Mar 09 19:26:16 [skilled, not old...] Mar 09 19:26:50 * Morgan smiles slightly Mar 09 19:28:43 *Molly bounces Amir on her lap, singing a nursery rhyme. She looks more more relaxed than before, and Amir watches her fondly, reaching for her face. She blows raspberries on his hands* Mar 09 19:29:08 V: Is Amir a Koertig now? Mar 09 19:29:32 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:30:01 Yes and no... in Capperlucia, he is, in Eisen... not yet Mar 09 19:31:46 V: why? Mar 09 19:32:37 Because in Eisen we have to have adoption papers of some sort Mar 09 19:35:20 M: *she groans* Oh no, not the judges in Freiburg again! Mar 09 19:35:49 No, I think this'll be a bit easier Mar 09 19:39:21 *Molly smiles at the baby* It had better be, hadn't it, Lammchen... we wouldn't want to have to cry and cause a scene, would we, hmm? Mar 09 19:39:45 *Amir chuckles, trying to grab her hair* Mar 09 19:41:48 I'd rather not have to, that judge last time very nearly earned a beating Mar 09 19:44:02 M nods: he was an a-...awful man Mar 09 19:44:33 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:44:35 Yes he was Mar 09 19:44:38 *HH sniggers* gotta watch yer mouth when yer a Mama of two, eh? Mar 09 19:45:10 *Molly smiles at Morgan* two sons in seven months! Mar 09 19:45:40 * Morgan nods, getting his coffee Mar 09 19:48:23 Been somewhat busy Mar 09 19:49:35 *Varick starts playing peekaboo with Amir. There's a knock on the door* Mar 09 19:49:56 * Morgan gets up, going to open it Mar 09 19:52:28 *Xsarlac has the crib, everything else in it* X: That's all of it Mar 09 19:52:56 * Morgan nods, helping him take it through to the bedroom Mar 09 19:56:37 *Xsarlac gets it to the same spot* he's going to share with you? Mar 09 19:57:23 * Morgan nods Mar 09 19:57:35 I think so, yes... until he's used to being with us at least Mar 09 19:59:16 *Xsarlac nods* everyone's happy. Mar 09 19:59:18 ? Mar 09 19:59:42 Isn't it obvious? We're all thrilled Mar 09 20:03:05 *Xsarlac smiles* I'm happy for you Mar 09 20:03:19 You look a little relieved Mar 09 20:04:48 * HH is now known as Xsarlac Mar 09 20:04:51 I am Mar 09 20:05:36 Whyso? Mar 09 20:06:49 He's going to be happy with you, and I can concentrate on my own children and my wife Mar 09 20:07:13 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:08:15 I hope she won't find her separation from him too hard Mar 09 20:08:58 I think she's relieved to have made the decision, it's weighed heavy Mar 09 20:09:10 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:09:26 I'm sorry for that, but I had to do what I felt was best Mar 09 20:11:47 It's the right thing for everyone Mar 09 20:12:26 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:12:35 Yes, I believe so Mar 09 20:14:13 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 20:14:28 I'll bring some milk for his tea time Mar 09 20:15:07 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:15:09 Thank you Mar 09 20:15:26 * Xsarlac nods Mar 09 20:16:41 *he leaves Morgan in his bedroom with the crib containing clothes and nappy cloths, now his responsibility Mar 09 20:17:51 * Morgan breathes out, a long quiet whistle Mar 09 20:18:56 *he's not disturbed* Mar 09 20:19:40 * Morgan takes a few minutes before wandering back out into the study Mar 09 20:21:32 *the afternoon flies by, but he doesn't get time with Amir until Xsarlac brings the milk and the boys have had solid food. Then he gets to feed Amir which sat on the couch, Molly and HH entertaining Varick. The Rose is slowly coming to a halt Mar 09 20:21:36 * Xsarlac is now known as Inga Mar 09 20:21:45 You must be so happy, Morgan Mar 09 20:23:04 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:23:11 I know this can't be easy for you Mar 09 20:23:58 * Inga shakes her head Mar 09 20:24:09 You're wrong, I'm so happy for you all Mar 09 20:24:35 You're sure? Mar 09 20:24:42 * Inga nods Mar 09 20:25:15 * Morgan looks relieved Mar 09 20:25:20 You're so happy today. It's lovely. And it's nice that Varick has a companion now Mar 09 20:27:03 He's so good with Amir Mar 09 20:27:12 He's a kind boy Mar 09 20:27:58 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:28:01 He's wonderful Mar 09 20:29:45 * Inga looks at Amir watching Morgan Mar 09 20:29:52 Both your sons are Mar 09 20:30:06 * Morgan nods, smiling Mar 09 20:30:09 Yes... they are Mar 09 20:31:12 We will help out as much as you need, it'll be an adjustment having a baby again Mar 09 20:31:42 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:31:46 Its been a very long time Mar 09 20:33:28 * Inga nods Mar 09 20:33:43 It must be exciting to do it again? Mar 09 20:34:52 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:34:59 absolutely... it is quite daunting though Mar 09 20:35:14 HeinzHarold pointed out that its going to be ten children and a fosterling... Mar 09 20:36:14 * Inga smiles Mar 09 20:36:53 And our four. Hafenlohr is going to be full of people who love each other. It's wonderful Mar 09 20:37:55 * Morgan nods, taking her hand and squeezing it briefly Mar 09 20:39:00 * Inga smiles "I'm so glad my children will grow up in a huge family like ours will be. They won't ever live the life that I did" Mar 09 20:39:24 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:40:05 I look foreward to your being able to put your chair to its intended use Mar 09 20:40:13 * Inga smiles Mar 09 20:40:47 I'll think of your hard work when I use it. Are you sure you don't want to borrow it now you have a baby to use it with? Mar 09 20:42:08 No love... its solely for you and yours Mar 09 20:44:43 Will you make one now to take to Hafenlohr? Mar 09 20:45:07 I suppose I best had Mar 09 20:46:32 * Inga smiles "I think Molly would like that" Mar 09 20:47:34 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:47:42 I suspect you're right Mar 09 20:49:29 * Inga watches Amir "he really looks like he loves you" Mar 09 20:50:49 * Morgan nods, looking into the boys eyes Mar 09 20:51:06 Its what prompted me to speak to Xsarlac... this is the same look that Jana used to give me Mar 09 20:53:03 * Inga smiles Mar 09 20:53:12 You look at him the same way Mar 09 20:53:21 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:53:27 I love him, its as simple as that Mar 09 20:53:53 * Inga nods "he's going to be so loved" Mar 09 20:54:44 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:54:55 Thats the reason she relented... because he would be more loved with us Mar 09 20:56:48 I thought maybe she might decide to let him go, but not yet Mar 09 20:59:23 * Morgan nods Mar 09 20:59:29 I wasn't sure one way or another Mar 09 21:37:15 I thought she might need to see that he could be an outsider first Mar 09 21:37:32 * Morgan nods Mar 09 21:37:39 I think she was feeling bound by duty and custom Mar 09 21:38:42 It sounds hard. I couldn't have let him go Mar 09 21:40:11 * Morgan nods Mar 09 21:40:18 I'm not sure I ever could have Mar 09 21:41:00 * Inga nods Mar 09 21:41:17 Now he's yours to love Mar 09 21:41:42 * Morgan nods Mar 09 21:41:59 God I hope I don't mess this up Mar 09 21:42:34 Isn't that what most parents think? Mar 09 21:43:48 I can't imagine my parents thinking that... or Edward and Mina when the time comes Mar 09 21:44:52 Mina does think that though Mar 09 21:45:03 Really?! Mar 09 21:45:09 * Inga nods Mar 09 21:45:54 She didn't have a mother past Varick's age, so she worries she will end up being more like. Governess than a mother Mar 09 21:46:26 As long as she expresses the love we all know she has within her, she'll do just fine Mar 09 21:46:45 * Inga smiles Mar 09 21:46:48 So will you. Mar 09 21:47:12 I hope so Mar 09 21:47:44 Were you this worried with Jana? Mar 09 21:48:33 No... I was so headstrong and idealistic, I figured it'd all work out Mar 09 21:50:24 * Inga nods Mar 09 21:51:02 It'll be better than being in the palace with those dancing girls Mar 09 21:51:11 * Morgan nods Mar 09 21:51:13 entirely Mar 09 21:53:24 And in Capperlucia where he doesn't fit in Mar 09 21:53:37 * Morgan nods Mar 09 21:54:01 He'll face some difficulties because of his colouring but... I don't think it'll be too bad Mar 09 21:56:45 * Inga nods Mar 09 21:57:05 I think he's beautiful. His hair is so dark Mar 09 21:57:26 * Morgan nods Mar 09 21:57:34 He's adorable Mar 09 21:57:51 * Inga nods Mar 09 21:58:00 Will you be wanting a girl next? Mar 09 21:58:13 * Morgan shrugs Mar 09 21:58:24 For ease of succession two boys would be easiest... Mar 09 21:59:05 That's what you might want as a Duke, but what about as a man? Mar 09 21:59:34 * Morgan shrugs Mar 09 21:59:38 I'd quite like a daughter Mar 09 22:01:19 * Inga nods Mar 09 22:01:56 Heinzharold will get very silly over a daughter, wouldn't he? Mar 09 22:02:14 * Morgan nods Mar 09 22:02:20 I reckon so, yes Mar 09 22:03:57 You too? Mar 09 22:04:27 There's a good chance, to be honest Mar 09 22:07:00 * Inga nods. HH gets her attention, so he manages to finish the feed in peace. At the children's bedtime, Varick once more wants Amir laid with him Mar 09 22:08:36 * Morgan lets them share the bed while the older boy goes to sleep Mar 09 22:08:52 * Inga is now known as Molly Mar 09 22:09:50 * Molly comes in quietly, watching how Varick and Amir are both asleep together holding onto each other. She takes Morgan's hand squeezing gently Mar 09 22:10:08 [Holy shit] Mar 09 22:10:26 * Molly glances at him, smiling Mar 09 22:10:43 [increasing our family much sooner than expected!] Mar 09 22:11:22 * Morgan nods Mar 09 22:11:46 [It was a surprise when she sought me out] Mar 09 22:12:52 [you've done so well, my love] Mar 09 22:14:26 [I was just honest with Xsarlac] Mar 09 22:16:05 [please, let me praise you, for my sake if not your own] Mar 09 22:16:34 * Morgan nods slightly Mar 09 22:17:25 [you've made me so happy, my love, and Varick. Amir is going to have a life full of love because of you] Mar 09 22:18:02 * Morgan nods slightly, looking awkward] Mar 09 22:18:50 * Molly kisses his knuckles Mar 09 22:19:25 [you've given me our boys... one day next year I'll give you a child too] Mar 09 22:21:57 * Morgan nods Mar 09 22:22:07 [and then another... and another.. and another... Mar 09 22:22:25 [as many as you have a desire to get upon me...] Mar 09 22:23:17 [Oh lots] Mar 09 22:23:40 [good. They look so sweet together] Mar 09 22:24:31 * Morgan nods Mar 09 22:24:36 *though the setting is different and they're a bit younger, they look much like in his dream-in-a-dream last night* Mar 09 22:24:52 [I want to give Amir an Eisen middle name] Mar 09 22:25:20 [oh! Something specific?] Mar 09 22:28:09 [No... it was in my dream that he had one, and it might make it easier as he gets older to fit in] Mar 09 22:29:38 [that is nice] Mar 09 22:29:49 * Morgan nods Mar 09 22:29:57 [we'd best move him to his crib I suppose] Mar 09 22:31:14 * Molly nods, letting go [Heinzharold and Inga have gone already] Mar 09 22:32:06 [oh. Alright.] Mar 09 22:33:45 [they thought we might want a quiet evening to acclimatise to being a family of four] Mar 09 22:36:32 [Alright. Lets get Amir to bed then we'll have a drink?] Mar 09 22:37:46 * Molly nods [do you want to do it? You have much more experience] Mar 09 22:39:41 [This is our life now love, you need to get that experience.] Mar 09 22:39:59 [what if I wake him?] Mar 09 22:40:43 [Then we'll have to get him back to sleep. If you want me to do it and you watch, thats fine] Mar 09 22:43:16 * Molly shakes her head, gently taking him from Varick's grasp, and cradles him across her body Mar 09 22:43:32 [I can do it] Mar 09 22:43:54 * Morgan nods, watching her Mar 09 22:45:31 * Molly is so careful, concentrating on moving smoothly through Varicks rooms, the study, and to their bedroom Mar 09 22:50:22 * Morgan follows her quietly Mar 09 22:51:32 * Molly gently kisses his forehead before laying him in the crib and tucking him in. He doesn't wake Mar 09 22:54:43 * Morgan nods, moving back into the study Mar 09 22:57:50 * Molly watches him a few more moments before coming through, leaving the door open a little. She goes to pour some whiskey Mar 09 22:58:13 * Morgan sits on the couch, getting comfortable Mar 09 22:58:34 * Molly brings the drinks, getting comfortable with him Mar 09 22:58:40 Wow... what a day! Mar 09 22:59:10 * Morgan nods Mar 09 22:59:11 Indeed Mar 09 22:59:23 * Molly looks at him fondly Mar 09 22:59:38 You are happy, my love? Mar 09 23:00:59 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:01:11 I am. I was not expecting to have two children before bedtime today Mar 09 23:01:45 Nor I, but we are so very blessed Mar 09 23:02:33 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:02:37 That we are my love Mar 09 23:03:00 * Molly smiles, kissing him a moment Mar 09 23:03:20 I'll try not to wake him when I'm up with the discomforting Mar 09 23:03:26 Discomfort* Mar 09 23:05:45 If you do, wake me, I will help settle him... it may be worth asking Inga to be around tomorrow and Saturday nights... Mar 09 23:07:04 I might ask her, if you think I ought? Mar 09 23:07:36 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:07:56 Once we're used to it, you'll be fine alone but... you may need assistance to start with Mar 09 23:08:02 * Molly nods Mar 09 23:08:26 Of course, my love. He's much younger than I'm used to Mar 09 23:08:44 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:08:48 Aye, quite so Mar 09 23:09:15 * Molly smiles Mar 09 23:09:32 I am also blessed to have you and your experience to rely on Mar 09 23:10:08 I won't always get it right love... Mar 09 23:11:12 Oh I don't expect you to! You are falliable, as we all are, and that is fine. If we never err, we never learn Mar 09 23:12:59 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:13:28 * Molly smiles Mar 09 23:13:47 Our children will be a beautiful rainbow of colourings... Mar 09 23:14:17 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:14:20 Yes, they will Mar 09 23:15:29 Hafenlohr will be filled with those sweet little flowers, our days will be busy, filled with laughter and joy... Mar 09 23:15:51 And nappy cloths Mar 09 23:16:37 *she nods* and sticky hands, lost socks, sloshed bathwater, bedtime stories, and something approximating kisses Mar 09 23:16:48 * Morgan nods Mar 09 23:16:52 yes... that too Mar 09 23:17:21 * Molly smiles Mar 09 23:18:26 And missed courses, morning sickness, dresses needing let out... Mar 09 23:20:28 * MorganK (~madisonst@192.168.1.148) has joined Mar 09 23:20:34 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:20:39 Yes, that as well Mar 09 23:21:25 I can think of no one I'd prefer to share this life with Mar 09 23:22:06 I'm glad you feel that way Mar 09 23:22:53 * Molly nods Mar 09 23:22:58 And you? Mar 09 23:23:28 I'm glad we are where we are... Mar 09 23:25:23 * Molly watches him Mar 09 23:25:45 It sounds like there is a 'but' there... Mar 09 23:27:41 No, not at all... it is a habit to not minimise my time with Dietlinde... Mar 09 23:28:03 * Molly nods Mar 09 23:28:28 Of course. I try to phrase it differently, usually... Mar 09 23:28:44 * MorganK nods, taking her hand Mar 09 23:28:55 I am glad we are here. Mar 09 23:30:50 * Molly squeezes gently Mar 09 23:32:05 You know I do not see it as any reflection on the past. You are my husband. You are not the same man now. And that man, he was so very, truly happy and content Mar 09 23:32:38 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:33:03 Its going to take some explaining isn't it... firstly to Florrie... Mar 09 23:33:16 Explaining what? Mar 09 23:33:24 How we suddenly have a baby Mar 09 23:35:46 We found him and fell in love with him. Sometimes plants grow better in different soil than that they landed in as a seed Mar 09 23:38:18 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:38:23 I wonder how our parents willr eact Mar 09 23:38:34 * Molly smiles Mar 09 23:38:54 My mother will cluck and fuss. She adores Varick Mar 09 23:39:40 Your Father will likely say you should be focusing your energies on getting me with child rather than collecting more Mar 09 23:40:55 I hope not... a slap upside the head offend offends Mar 09 23:41:15 * Molly giggles Mar 09 23:42:15 My Father is likely to pretend he is too busy to be doting on another grandchild, and then spending time showing Amir all his crops at their cottage Mar 09 23:42:57 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:43:13 I assume we will be seeing your siblings when we reach tawstock Mar 09 23:43:33 * Molly smiles Mar 09 23:43:38 I'd like to Mar 09 23:44:05 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:44:18 And having Maelwys holiday on the island... Mar 09 23:44:26 * Molly nods Mar 09 23:44:35 I should see John Mar 09 23:45:01 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:45:12 Yes... that would be right Mar 09 23:45:22 * Molly nods Mar 09 23:45:29 I am concerned for him Mar 09 23:45:40 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:45:42 As am I Mar 09 23:45:54 It's much too quick Mar 09 23:45:58 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:46:07 Yes, I agree. He won't have grieved properly Mar 09 23:46:25 No. But Kathleen needs a mother... Mar 09 23:46:32 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:46:37 Yes, she absolutely does. Mar 09 23:47:08 * Molly sighs Mar 09 23:47:32 There's nothing to be done for it. They're wed and, I imagine, bedded Mar 09 23:47:49 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:47:52 I would think so Mar 09 23:48:56 * Molly smiles, wrinkling her nose Mar 09 23:49:09 It's odd to think of Mar 09 23:50:13 Oh? Mar 09 23:51:10 John, bedding. Yet once I thought that was my fate... Mar 09 23:51:28 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:52:03 I hope he is happy, I really do... but I worry he has made a mistake Mar 09 23:52:55 Maybe we're being too cynical. Maybe she will help him heal Mar 09 23:53:21 We can hope Mar 09 23:54:08 * Molly nods "indeed" she smiles "Amir and Kathleen must be much the same age" Mar 09 23:54:28 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:54:36 Yes, I suppose they are actually Mar 09 23:56:21 She was born at the end of June Mar 09 23:56:47 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:56:55 Feels like so long ago doesn't it Mar 09 23:57:04 * Molly nods Mar 09 23:57:48 So long, yes. We were still reeling from the cast and the delay to my course Mar 09 23:58:02 * MorganK nods Mar 09 23:58:11 Aye, we were. Mar 09 23:59:35 * Molly smiles "that was rather tense, I was concerned at your reaction in a way I would not be now" Mar 09 23:59:46 * MorganK nods