**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Feb 7 00:00:02 2023 Feb 07 00:00:02 I feel bad that I didn't consider it... I feel... selfish for it... but thats alright Feb 07 00:01:30 It is alright. You were naive, and so young. You were fresh out of a War that looked like it would never end, all that heady freedom all of a sudden. You were madly in love, and idealistic, that's all. It's not selfish Feb 07 00:03:33 Yes, love, it was... my position was such and -is- such, that decisions have to be tempered by the knowledge that I am responsible for more than just the person in front of me Feb 07 00:03:55 * MollyK tilts her head Feb 07 00:04:19 When you first contemplated returning to Eisen with me, did you consider those things? Feb 07 00:04:34 * Morgan nods Feb 07 00:05:07 I was well aware that perhaps the best thing for Sudlachenburg, and what my father would want, would be for me to stand aside for Edward to take my place... Feb 07 00:05:28 Do you wish that had come to pass? Feb 07 00:06:01 * Morgan speaks slowly Feb 07 00:06:06 No... no I don't. Feb 07 00:07:08 You are not sure? Feb 07 00:07:38 I was thinking about it... Feb 07 00:08:27 Oh? Feb 07 00:09:09 If Edward became Veisgraf, we'd still have the task ahead of us. Feb 07 00:10:07 * MollyK nods Feb 07 00:10:19 Gottkirchen would still be waiting to implode Feb 07 00:10:28 * Morgan nods Feb 07 00:10:52 I think we have already made an impact for the better... and that can only make Eisen more prepared, surely... Feb 07 00:11:06 * MollyK nods Feb 07 00:11:15 Indeed. what made you decide you would take me home with you? Feb 07 00:12:21 It was time to move into the future, and to do that, I needed to go home, heal some wounds I had caused Feb 07 00:12:56 * MollyK shakes her head "I mean, what made you think I would be up to the task?" Feb 07 00:14:02 After all you had already come through? If anyone would be, its you... I wouldn't be who I am, where I am without you. I wasn't letting you go Feb 07 00:14:20 * MollyK smiles warmly, blushing Feb 07 00:14:38 You always give me so much credit for work that is your own Feb 07 00:15:48 No, my work would've seen me in a grave Feb 07 00:16:07 * MollyK shudders Feb 07 00:16:39 I'd have written to them, so they knew Feb 07 00:16:53 * Morgan nods Feb 07 00:18:03 * MollyK watches him, smiling slightly Feb 07 00:18:56 I didn't think at all about the titles and the money and the land until hours after I'd accepted to your proposal Feb 07 00:19:07 No? Feb 07 00:20:29 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 07 09:56:02 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Feb 07 13:23:24 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.118) has joined Feb 07 16:25:19 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 07 18:51:53 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Feb 07 18:51:53 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 07 18:53:00 I only thought of being your wife Feb 07 18:57:24 * Morgan nods Feb 07 18:57:42 That was always non negotiable Feb 07 18:58:00 But being a veisgrafin was? Feb 07 18:58:13 * Morgan nods Feb 07 18:58:57 If they could not accept me or you, I'd have worked for a way to still have ties to my family but... I wouldn't have been Veisgraf. Feb 07 18:59:31 * MollyK nods "I'd have followed you, however you wished" Feb 07 19:00:27 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:00:41 I'm mostly glad things went the way they did Feb 07 19:00:51 Only mostly, my love? Feb 07 19:02:02 I wouldn't have chosen to take on the task ahead of us... probably. Feb 07 19:02:18 * MollyK smiles Feb 07 19:02:45 You wouldn't have burdened anyone else with it, nor trusted them to do it properly Feb 07 19:03:14 There is that of course Feb 07 19:03:51 * MollyK nods Feb 07 19:04:20 You are the right man for the job Feb 07 19:04:41 * Morgan shrugs Feb 07 19:04:43 We'll see Feb 07 19:04:56 One day, yes Feb 07 19:05:51 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:06:52 But not today. Today we are just here to be happy Feb 07 19:08:03 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:08:08 Inga isn't... Feb 07 19:08:52 Ah damn Feb 07 19:11:04 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:11:06 yeah Feb 07 19:11:19 I thought maybe you'd want to be with her? Feb 07 19:11:46 I'll spend some time with her. Is Heinzharold being silly? Feb 07 19:12:24 He's disappointed, really Feb 07 19:12:39 That's understandable Feb 07 19:12:51 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:12:52 entirely Feb 07 19:13:33 Maybe that's the benefit of knowing it will happen in Autumn, we do not need to get our hopes up until September Feb 07 19:13:48 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:14:30 I suppose so... he says he knows the herbs will take time to stop affecting her, but its still disappointing. Feb 07 19:14:40 * MollyK nods Feb 07 19:15:12 I suppose it's normal for people to be with child six mo after marriage Feb 07 19:15:55 I suppose so Feb 07 19:21:19 She'll be fine, don't worry Feb 07 19:22:03 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:22:08 I know, I just... I feel for her Feb 07 19:22:32 I know, my love. We're all eager for her to be with child Feb 07 19:24:29 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:25:11 Though giving me enough time to complete the chair... that'd be good Feb 07 19:25:31 You'd have nine months either way Feb 07 19:26:15 I know, but... *he shrugs* Feb 07 19:26:45 * MollyK nods Feb 07 19:27:03 Are you concerned you will feel very envious? Feb 07 19:27:40 A bit, yes Feb 07 19:28:59 * MollyK nods Feb 07 19:29:05 That's understandable too Feb 07 19:30:14 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:34:30 Much as I'd love them to have birthdays just a few weeks apart as the two of you do, I wouldn't wish the long wait on them Feb 07 19:35:05 No, definitely not Feb 07 19:36:06 * MollyK smiles Feb 07 19:36:31 Still, it gives us time to practice, make sure we're doing it right Feb 07 19:36:58 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:37:04 Fairly sure we are already... Feb 07 19:37:15 * MollyK giggles Feb 07 19:37:24 Except in Westfeld Feb 07 19:37:30 Well... yes... Feb 07 19:38:24 Or Saarbrucke... *she must mean where he'd achieved his release upon her face* Feb 07 19:39:06 Bit different that time... Feb 07 19:39:18 Why so, my love? Feb 07 19:40:17 I, uhh... I mean, literally, a bit different to Westfeld Feb 07 19:40:52 Oh yes... different but very nice too Feb 07 19:41:21 * Morgan nods slightly, blushing Feb 07 19:44:08 * MollyK watches him, smirking a little Feb 07 19:44:35 Maybe we enjoy repeating them so much that it contributes to why it's not til autumn Feb 07 19:44:56 You think so? Feb 07 19:47:59 * MollyK shrugs "no, I'm just teasing you, my love" Feb 07 19:48:14 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Feb 07 19:50:55 Goodness knows we have the sparkliness to remind us! Feb 07 19:53:48 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:54:00 Aye... Feb 07 19:54:19 * MollyK nods Feb 07 19:54:52 It will happen when it is going to, and I do feel we should be free to be intimate however we wish Feb 07 19:55:30 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:55:31 I agree Feb 07 19:57:53 I should get dressed before I wish to do those things now! Feb 07 19:58:16 * Morgan nods Feb 07 19:58:20 Aye, probably Feb 07 19:58:53 * MollyK picks up her dress Feb 07 19:59:06 But as always, you know where to find me, my love... Feb 07 20:00:15 * Morgan nods Feb 07 20:00:37 Aye... I'll be in the hold for a while love Feb 07 20:01:59 * MollyK nods Feb 07 20:02:06 Alright, liebling Feb 07 20:02:43 * Morgan smiles, taking his coffee down to the hold and starting working on the bits of wood he already has Feb 07 20:04:29 *a few sailors come and go. He's made good when HH appears* Feb 07 20:04:32 * MollyK is now known as HH Feb 07 20:09:32 * Morgan glances up Feb 07 20:09:33 Hey Feb 07 20:10:03 Thought I'd see if y' needed help Feb 07 20:10:28 Still being kept at arms length? Feb 07 20:11:09 She's gone t' spend time with Molly. Less annoyin' than me, apparently Feb 07 20:12:38 I imagine she's hurting that she's not with child too Feb 07 20:13:41 * HH shrugs "still possible she is, no red flag hoisted yet" Feb 07 20:16:21 I suppose Feb 07 20:17:41 Nah, she's not that's upset, she's always this grumpy two days befor Feb 07 20:18:50 Not that upset that she's showing you... Feb 07 20:19:53 Yeah, mebbie Feb 07 20:20:42 * Morgan watches him for a moment before throwing him a flat bit of wood Feb 07 20:21:10 * HH catches it Feb 07 20:22:06 Molly'll help 'er, assumin' she's okay? Feb 07 20:24:14 * Morgan nods Feb 07 20:24:33 Just heartsore... weird shit man, she's picked up my dream... Feb 07 20:25:22 Gi'en up tryin' to explain your weird at this point. What 'append? Feb 07 20:26:14 She sort of took up looking for a house for Dietlinde and the children... realised how big a compromise she was making... it upset her greatly Feb 07 20:28:08 Aww man. The fuck are you down 'ere for?! Feb 07 20:29:24 She's ok man.... She got up, got drunk and went back to sleep til I carried her back to bed and spent the rest of the night with my arms around her Feb 07 20:32:02 Ahh th' old magic trick, passed from father t' son Feb 07 20:32:57 * Morgan nods Feb 07 20:33:05 Gonn' keep an eye on her, just to be sure Feb 07 20:33:20 Yeah. Sounds brutal Feb 07 20:34:16 * Morgan nods, pointing to a file Feb 07 20:35:26 * HH looks at it Feb 07 20:35:29 What? Feb 07 20:36:11 * Morgan mutters, taking the piece of wood from him and drawing a shape on it before handing it back Feb 07 20:36:20 I want that bit filed to that shape... Feb 07 20:37:31 Oh yeah? That'll look good Feb 07 20:37:50 * HH makes no effort to do it, just grins Feb 07 20:38:25 * Morgan shrugs Feb 07 20:38:30 Thought you wanted to help Feb 07 20:39:49 No, said I was comin' to see if you needed any. Looks like ya do Feb 07 20:40:16 * Morgan shrugs, going back to what he was doing Feb 07 20:40:17 Suit yourself Feb 07 20:42:45 * HH chuckles, starting to work Feb 07 20:42:58 So y' reckon it's a one off? Feb 07 20:43:17 Could we be that lucky? Feb 07 20:45:20 Nope. Knowin' you two she's gonna have to finish it out Feb 07 20:45:42 * Morgan looks extremely unhappy at that prospect Feb 07 20:46:51 Suddenly found summat worse than dreamin' it, huh? Feb 07 20:47:45 * Morgan nods Feb 07 20:47:49 Yeah. Fuck that. Feb 07 20:52:07 Yep. Hope you have it yerself Feb 07 20:52:50 * Morgan nods Feb 07 20:52:53 Yeah, quite Feb 07 20:55:48 At least she's doin' okay Feb 07 20:56:27 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:09:23 * HH keeps working Feb 07 21:09:41 Jura tomorrow, you definitely stayin'? Feb 07 21:12:41 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:12:44 yeah Feb 07 21:13:29 Good. Didn' wanna face all those busy women without y' Feb 07 21:13:55 Needn't think I'm facing them... I'm gonn' be hiding Feb 07 21:14:41 Climbin' the walls, spear fishin', hanging out with all th' kids? Feb 07 21:15:00 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:15:02 Exactly Feb 07 21:15:27 Gonna miss time with m' wife though Feb 07 21:15:52 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:15:58 Its not for too long Feb 07 21:16:18 Still see 'er at night Feb 07 21:19:08 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:19:26 Yeah, time will fly by and we'll be on our way again Feb 07 21:19:55 * HH nods Feb 07 21:20:14 Get 'ome, eat bacon Feb 07 21:20:22 The important things Feb 07 21:21:09 * HH nods Feb 07 21:21:30 Gon' be desperate for meat by th' time we get there Feb 07 21:21:47 Thats what she said Feb 07 21:21:54 * HH sniggers Feb 07 21:22:14 I make sure my lil darlin' gets plenty, don' worry Feb 07 21:22:48 I'll check with the wife later, she'll know for sure Feb 07 21:24:24 You do that Feb 07 21:26:04 * Morgan nods, blowing the sawdust off the piece he's been working Feb 07 21:26:57 * HH works with him, not being a nuisance for a change. The bell rings for lunch Feb 07 21:27:08 Shit man, when did it get that late? Feb 07 21:27:42 Bit of decent work does that... Feb 07 21:29:17 * HH looks round Feb 07 21:29:25 Y' need more wood Feb 07 21:30:18 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:30:22 Yeah... and some varnish Feb 07 21:31:42 * HH nods Feb 07 21:32:12 Not got any left fr'm the window seat? Feb 07 21:32:29 Maybe a little Feb 07 21:33:53 * HH nods Feb 07 21:34:07 Y' spoken to Cap'n about the brothel? Feb 07 21:34:36 Briefly when we got back to the ship. I wan't to talk to Molly about it before raising it again Feb 07 21:35:45 Think mebbie given 'er dream it'd be better if you stay on board? Feb 07 21:35:57 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:36:12 Quite possibly. And with it being the anniversary... Feb 07 21:36:32 Why's that make a difference? Feb 07 21:36:55 * Morgan shrugs Feb 07 21:36:59 I'm worried, thats all Feb 07 21:38:21 'Bout you? Feb 07 21:43:36 A bit... what the hell is tonight gonn' bring, and tomorrow... and I absented myself from Molly for Dietlindes birthday and it hurt her Feb 07 21:44:20 Yeah, heard that. But y' gotta do what y' gotta do, man Feb 07 21:45:35 What I -want- to do is spend it with the people I love... shutting myself away didn't help me, and... I know you'll give me the love I need to get through it Feb 07 21:46:28 * HH nods Feb 07 21:46:44 We're always gon' do that, man. Always were. Feb 07 21:47:16 I know... I know... its just... my time away, I... -unlearned- how to let people help me, how to be that vulnerable Feb 07 21:47:34 * HH nods Feb 07 21:47:43 Yer gettin there, man Feb 07 21:48:12 * Morgan nods, looking round the hold for a moment before taking out a small piece of paper and handing it to HeinzHarold Feb 07 21:48:14 Sign that Feb 07 21:48:42 * HH looks at it suspiciously Feb 07 21:48:45 What is it? Feb 07 21:48:49 Its a piece of paper Feb 07 21:48:57 * HH looks it over Feb 07 21:49:05 *its completely blank* Feb 07 21:49:14 * HH shrugs, signing Feb 07 21:49:17 So you start with an L, then an e.... Feb 07 21:49:57 Fuck off *he laughs * Feb 07 21:50:13 * Morgan chuckles, taking it back and tucking it in his pocket Feb 07 21:51:22 Once we're back in Eisen.... Should probably talk about being on retainer for Gottkirchen... not sure my father will continue doing so if you aren't in Sudlachenburg... Feb 07 21:52:09 If y' want me, sure. Failin' that, get me a forge an' I'll see to my own Feb 07 21:52:34 A man does hero shit, he should be paid for it. Feb 07 21:53:34 * HH nods Feb 07 21:53:41 Tha's true Feb 07 21:54:32 * Morgan nods, heading out of the hold to go get some lunch Feb 07 21:55:18 Knowing my father though, he -might- keep you on retainer thinking it'd give him information on what I'm up to... keep an eye on me, so to speak Feb 07 21:55:35 * HH nods Feb 07 21:56:02 Yeah, he'd want any inside gossip about Molly's maternalising no doubt Feb 07 21:56:18 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:56:51 Yeah, I'd reckon so. Feb 07 21:57:52 Wouldn' be telling him Feb 07 21:59:03 * Morgan nods Feb 07 21:59:15 Mother will be over the moon... she's still so hopeful every time we speak Feb 07 21:59:35 * HH nods Feb 07 21:59:59 Yeah, gon' be the most doted in babe in th' world Feb 07 22:02:00 Chances are you're right... Feb 07 22:02:12 Bother you? Feb 07 22:02:44 Why would it? Feb 07 22:03:00 B'cause they didn' dote on Jana that way Feb 07 22:03:29 It wasn't fair to her... but they lost out too... I tell you about the shoes? Feb 07 22:06:21 Don' think so Feb 07 22:07:00 The day of the fire... my father had bought Jana some shoes... red ones... he still has nightmares about it, about holding those shoes as he found out... Feb 07 22:08:00 Huh. That's rough Feb 07 22:08:18 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:09:11 I understand more of the situation I put him in... he was damned if he did and damned if he didn't, and he's had years knowing he -could- have known his granddaughter... Feb 07 22:10:18 * HH nods Feb 07 22:10:37 Yeah. Now he's gotta chance t' make up for it with Florrie Feb 07 22:10:46 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:10:53 He's going to struggle with her abilities Feb 07 22:12:02 * HH nods Feb 07 22:12:04 Big time Feb 07 22:12:31 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:12:40 I'm not sure my usual tactic is advisable Feb 07 22:14:10 Tell him to go sit on his balls? Feb 07 22:14:18 * Morgan smiles slightly Feb 07 22:14:56 When I told Edward about her abilities, I softened the blow by giving him something similar that horrified him so hers would seem lesser... Feb 07 22:15:56 Y' thinkin' showin' him yours? Feb 07 22:16:13 * Morgan shakes his head Feb 07 22:16:55 That'd go... -very- badly. When Edward was to tell him about Florries existence, I spent a while pissing him off immensely... he can't sustain that sort of anger for long... Feb 07 22:18:12 * HH nods Feb 07 22:18:37 'Member how he soon ran outta shouting at us that day we met? Feb 07 22:18:48 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:18:56 exactly. That hasn't changed much Feb 07 22:20:20 * HH nods Feb 07 22:20:38 Whatcha plannin'? Feb 07 22:21:54 I dunno man.... Hoping mother can think of something Feb 07 22:22:08 * HH nods Feb 07 22:22:34 Got some time t' work it out Feb 07 22:22:54 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:23:01 Aye, we have. Feb 07 22:23:33 You 'ear much from her? Feb 07 22:24:18 Spoke to her yesterday. She's loving being able to speak to Uncle Christopher Feb 07 22:25:02 That's good. Ask 'er how my lot are, yeah? Feb 07 22:25:32 Of course man. I'll leave her a note later to ask. Feb 07 22:25:40 Thanks Feb 07 22:26:36 Your Ma would kill us if she knew about the mirrors Feb 07 22:29:28 Oh yeah, she's beat me inside out and on til mornin' Feb 07 22:29:56 And then she'd be pissed we didn't let her have one Feb 07 22:30:56 * HH looks at him Feb 07 22:31:05 I'd rather be beaten than that! Feb 07 22:31:48 * Morgan laughs Feb 07 22:32:07 I love your Ma, really really do... but my god she's... a lot. Feb 07 22:35:04 * HH nods Feb 07 22:35:50 Yeah man. Like salt, a little goes a long way. Would die f' any o' us kids though Feb 07 22:36:33 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:36:38 Oh yeah, undoubtedly Feb 07 22:39:32 * HH nods "speak t' Florrie too?" Feb 07 22:40:04 Today... Feb 07 22:41:44 * HH nods Feb 07 22:41:57 Gon' be nice? Feb 07 22:43:43 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:43:56 Yeah, I expect so... always a bit jarring to start with though Feb 07 22:44:59 * HH nods Feb 07 22:45:23 Makes it tough Feb 07 22:45:31 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:45:49 Oh yeah, definitely... I was really concerned I'd have another rough night and not be able to face her Feb 07 22:47:11 * HH nods Feb 07 22:47:18 Think y'll be okay? Feb 07 22:48:11 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:48:14 Aye, I reckon so Feb 07 22:49:32 * HH nods Feb 07 22:49:46 Bet she'll love t' see you Feb 07 22:51:31 Normally does. She speaks to her father almost every day Feb 07 22:53:14 Tha's good. Kinda surprised he's not a bit busy Feb 07 22:53:53 Got himself into hot water with Mina.. she's still struggling with it all, bless her Feb 07 22:55:06 * HH nods Feb 07 22:55:36 She's quite a sensitive soul, unnerneath it all Feb 07 22:55:57 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:56:16 definitely. Its not being helped by him trying to be more like me with the people... think she's feeling off kilter... Feb 07 22:57:05 Yeah, been a lotta change Feb 07 22:57:51 * Morgan nods Feb 07 22:57:52 Definitely Feb 07 22:58:03 And now he's not behaving in the way she expected Feb 07 22:59:28 Mebbie he needs to reassure 'er a bit Feb 07 23:00:10 Thats what I told him Feb 07 23:02:18 * HH nods Feb 07 23:02:36 They jus' wanna know they're safe, don' they? Feb 07 23:05:02 I think so, yeah Feb 07 23:06:25 Guess he's made a lotta mistakes that'd seem unsafe Feb 07 23:07:00 * Morgan nods Feb 07 23:07:08 Yeah, I can see how it'd feel like that to her Feb 07 23:07:32 Loves 'im though Feb 07 23:09:15 definitely. Wouldn't have gone through all that and still married him if she didn't Feb 07 23:09:46 * HH nods Feb 07 23:09:55 He's a lucky man Feb 07 23:10:28 * Morgan nods Feb 07 23:10:33 Yep. Think he knows that too Feb 07 23:11:22 'Ope so. Hope he remembers to tell 'er everyday Feb 07 23:12:31 * Morgan nods Feb 07 23:12:36 I hope so. Feb 07 23:13:06 I'll tell Inga tha' in a bit, that'll make her smile Feb 07 23:14:18 * Morgan nods Feb 07 23:14:19 possibly Feb 07 23:14:42 * HH nods, heading into the dining room Feb 07 23:16:18 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 07 23:32:00 * HH has quit (Ping Timeout)