**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Feb 4 00:00:35 2023 Feb 04 00:00:35 * MollyK gets Xsarlac, and HH brings the coffee before taking Varick and Ulysses to see Inga and Zareen. Molly pours the coffee so that Amir can't reach it, in Xsarlac's arms asleep Feb 04 00:00:43 * MollyK is now known as Xsarlac Feb 04 00:00:49 You wanted me? Feb 04 00:01:19 We need to talk my friend Feb 04 00:02:52 * Xsarlac nods, trying to reach for his coffee Feb 04 00:04:03 Zareen suffered some sort of head injury around the time she can start remembering things... Molly believes that with a lot of effort and some time, she'll be able to remedy the physical side of it Feb 04 00:04:39 *she quietly says* shall I take him? Feb 04 00:05:26 * Xsarlac gently hands him over, and Molly takes him to the couch, getting comfortable with the sleeping child Feb 04 00:06:01 Her power is strong and more intricate than mine Feb 04 00:06:27 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:06:46 Yes, it is... Feb 04 00:06:57 Go on Feb 04 00:08:06 We can't guarantee it'll fix her memory, or cause her personality to revert... Feb 04 00:09:58 * Xsarlac nods Feb 04 00:10:11 But it won't make it worse? Feb 04 00:10:56 * Morgan looks to Molly Feb 04 00:11:00 What do you think? Feb 04 00:12:19 M: No, there's no reason it would make it worse Feb 04 00:12:45 * Morgan looks back at Xsarlac Feb 04 00:13:40 You are prepared that Betuana may not return? Feb 04 00:14:19 * Xsarlac sighs Feb 04 00:14:38 No. That's going to be very hard Feb 04 00:14:57 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:15:03 What will you do if we cannot restore her? Feb 04 00:16:14 Look after Zareen and help her live a full happy life in Capperlucia Feb 04 00:17:12 Your daughter will formally take the throne? Feb 04 00:18:09 She will, Zareen can't be queen Feb 04 00:18:48 How is Zareen adjusting to magic? Feb 04 00:19:12 Not too badly Feb 04 00:19:22 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:19:33 Obviously she will need to be willing... Feb 04 00:19:48 * Xsarlac nods Feb 04 00:20:01 I think she wants to fit in Feb 04 00:20:20 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Feb 04 00:20:43 You've said before Betuana would abhor the way women were treated in the empire... Feb 04 00:21:32 * Xsarlac nods Feb 04 00:22:44 It is disgusting to our people. Women are not exploited for breeding. A man earns the right to pass on his line, he doesn't take it by coercion Feb 04 00:22:57 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:23:35 We are in agreement... however... if no trace of Zareen remains, what will her reaction be to having had to bear a child... Feb 04 00:25:08 Betuana will want to turn the ship towards the Empire and evicerate her captor Feb 04 00:25:43 Tough. My enquiry was more related to how she will feel about Amir... Feb 04 00:26:29 She is a fierce mother. I think she will be fine with him. He's her blood and it's maternity that matters Feb 04 00:26:52 * Morgan scratches at his nose Feb 04 00:27:37 You do not think she will see him as a reminder of what she went through? That he is proof of a time she was not her strong self? Feb 04 00:28:16 I suppose that's possible Feb 04 00:28:55 Am I correct in thinking that if she decides the child is not to be accepted in Capperlucia, you will accede to her wishes? Feb 04 00:29:27 * Xsarlac nods "I will give her my counsel, but she is my wife" Feb 04 00:30:44 * Morgan nods slightly Feb 04 00:30:54 She will not order the child harmed in any way? Feb 04 00:31:03 * Xsarlac looks shocked Feb 04 00:32:05 Absolutely not. Any killing of a child is punishable by being stoned to death publicly. It's not just against the law, it is against our faith Feb 04 00:32:51 You have no tenet of the sins of the father? Feb 04 00:34:22 No. Children are sacred and pure to us. We have no belief in the original sin nonsense. A baby new in the world cannot be cruel, that comes with growing and experiencing life Feb 04 00:35:06 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:35:21 Very well... Feb 04 00:36:10 *Molly looks quite contented with the baby laid across her* Feb 04 00:37:04 If Betuana returns and if she cannot tolerate having Amir near her, we will deal with that Feb 04 00:38:51 He's a nice baby, very easy going Feb 04 00:39:22 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:39:35 Yes, he is... you are attached to him? Feb 04 00:40:52 Not like I was with my own children. I like him and I will care for him. It's not easy to think of that man having my wife, and her being willing. Feb 04 00:41:08 * Morgan nods, scowling slightly Feb 04 00:41:21 *Molly gently strokes Amir's hair* Feb 04 00:41:24 Molly, is there anything else we need to cover? Feb 04 00:42:25 M: I think the ultimate decision needs to be Zareen's. It doesn't seem like your relationship is developing past friendship now Feb 04 00:43:44 * Xsarlac shakes his head "She's not my wife. She looks like her, but everything that is Betuana isn't there. It's like she's my wife's more passive twin. I love her, but it is a familial love" Feb 04 00:44:22 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:44:29 Then I suppose the next step is to talk to Zareen Feb 04 00:45:36 * Xsarlac nods Feb 04 00:46:06 I want to do that myself, but I will then ask her to come to you Feb 04 00:46:30 [I think that reasonable] Feb 04 00:46:41 [indeed] Feb 04 00:47:06 If she agrees, we'll do our best, but I won't lie to you and promise the outcome Feb 04 00:47:56 * Xsarlac nods Feb 04 00:48:24 I understand. Betuana has been gone for year, but I always hoped one day I would find her Feb 04 00:48:29 Years* Feb 04 00:48:42 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:49:01 alright... I think... it won't be until after Jura... Feb 04 00:49:18 * Xsarlac nods Feb 04 00:49:26 She needs time to be sure Feb 04 00:49:44 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:50:03 absolutely. What if she decides she does not wish to stay in Capperlucia? Feb 04 00:50:43 Then I will provide her with money and let her go Feb 04 00:51:20 * Morgan nods Feb 04 00:51:28 Alright... go, talk to her Feb 04 00:52:23 * Xsarlac looks to Molly "can I leave him with you a while?" Feb 04 00:52:35 *she nods* of course Feb 04 00:52:51 * Xsarlac inclines his head before letting himself out Feb 04 00:54:42 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 04 00:57:26 * Xsarlac has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Feb 04 03:31:45 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 03:41:11 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Feb 04 04:14:26 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 04:17:00 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Feb 04 11:09:48 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Feb 04 11:37:26 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 11:37:27 * MollyK has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Feb 04 11:37:30 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 11:43:46 * MollyK watches the sleeping baby, speaking quietly Feb 04 11:43:57 What do you make of that, hmm? Feb 04 11:44:46 * Morgan watches them a moment before sipping his coffee Feb 04 11:45:53 * MollyK glances up at him Feb 04 11:46:19 I don't think they're going to work as a proper couple, are they? Feb 04 11:47:38 Not as they are, no Feb 04 11:50:38 * MollyK nods Feb 04 11:50:54 He isn't attracted to her personality, it seems Feb 04 11:52:14 She is not the woman he fell in love with Feb 04 11:52:55 * MollyK gently brushes a raven dark strand from his forehead Feb 04 11:52:57 No... Feb 04 11:53:26 * Morgan frowns, looking to his cup Feb 04 11:53:46 The parallels are hard to miss... Feb 04 11:53:58 Are they Feb 04 11:57:48 You have said that time and again about yourself Feb 04 11:58:07 Have I? Feb 04 11:59:21 Yes, my love Feb 04 11:59:50 I have been proven correct Feb 04 12:00:58 But is that partly why you are dreaming as you are? Feb 04 12:01:26 I doubt it Feb 04 12:02:55 * MollyK shrugs slightly Feb 04 12:04:07 If she stays as she is, she and Amir would definitely have each other, but she won't have a full relationship with her husband and may feel uncomfortable with wider family and the society Feb 04 12:04:21 * Morgan nods Feb 04 12:04:22 yes Feb 04 12:05:59 And if she changes, Amir might lose his birth mother Feb 04 12:06:48 Given the manner in which the palace cared for him, he is probably better prepared for that than most Feb 04 12:09:09 * MollyK nods Feb 04 12:09:49 He is easy to care for, he isn't as attached as my nephew is to Caro, for example Feb 04 12:10:54 * Morgan nods Feb 04 12:10:55 Indeed Feb 04 12:11:13 Did you want to hold him? Feb 04 12:12:08 Please, if you don't mind Feb 04 12:12:18 Not at all, my love Feb 04 12:14:22 * Morgan nods, getting up and taking him gently Feb 04 12:15:31 *he stirs a little* Feb 04 12:15:47 * Morgan rocks him gently, singing quietly Feb 04 12:16:05 * MollyK watches him Feb 04 12:16:22 I see now how we will end up with eight babies by birth Feb 04 12:16:32 Hmm? Feb 04 12:18:07 Seeing you with babies has a curious effect of making me wish to make babies with you Feb 04 12:18:26 Huh... Feb 04 12:18:58 I will ask Inga if she gets that with Heinzharold Feb 04 12:19:38 * Morgan nods Feb 04 12:20:42 I'd be interested to know Feb 04 12:21:00 * MollyK nods. The baby settles Feb 04 12:21:14 You're so good at this Feb 04 12:22:45 No, he's just a very easy child Feb 04 12:24:23 * MollyK smiles Feb 04 12:24:28 He is... Feb 04 12:26:44 * MollyK sighs, looking back to him Feb 04 12:27:05 When do you wish me to heal her if I am going to? Feb 04 12:27:49 Lets wait until this cluster of dreams is out of the way shall we? So, probably after Jura Feb 04 12:30:11 * MollyK nods, watching them Feb 04 12:30:22 Hopefully that will be over soon Feb 04 12:30:57 * Morgan nods Feb 04 12:30:59 I hope so Feb 04 12:32:46 * MollyK nods Feb 04 12:33:02 Two more, with luck Feb 04 12:34:35 * Morgan nods, sighing Feb 04 12:37:27 I should see how the others are getting on. Will you be alright with him? Feb 04 12:38:35 I'd imagine so Feb 04 12:40:06 * MollyK goes, the gentle shutting of the door stirring the boy Feb 04 12:40:28 * Morgan shushes him, rocking him as he hums Feb 04 12:40:44 * MollyK is now known as Amir Feb 04 12:40:49 * Amir stretches Feb 04 12:43:06 * Morgan watches him, speaking quietly Feb 04 12:43:16 Alright little man, but you don't need to wake up yet Feb 04 12:43:52 * Amir starts to babble Feb 04 12:44:05 * Morgan nods Feb 04 12:44:22 Oh I don't doubt that at all, but its just me and you right now Feb 04 12:46:49 *he catches again the "pa" sound within the babble* Feb 04 12:47:11 Well, no, see, thats not my name Feb 04 12:48:57 * Amir starts to wriggle to get down Feb 04 12:49:16 * Morgan moves around the desk, getting down on the floor with him Feb 04 12:50:48 * Amir tries to use him to stand up against Feb 04 12:51:14 * Morgan holds onto his hands, helping him stand Feb 04 12:51:24 Well, you're going to be a menace soon aren't you Feb 04 12:53:57 * Amir bounces, though he's definitely not able to jump, grinning Feb 04 12:55:27 Oh yes, its not going to be long before you're on the move is it Feb 04 12:56:02 * Amir makes excited sounds, seemingly happy to do this a little while before he sits down Feb 04 12:57:59 * Morgan kneels low, sitting on his heels Feb 04 12:58:04 Done with that, are we? Feb 04 12:58:46 * Amir babbles at him before going onto all fours again Feb 04 12:59:22 * Morgan nods, copying him before slowly and obviously moving one hand forward on the floor Feb 04 12:59:27 Gotta get this bit done first, see Feb 04 13:00:13 * Amir is watching his hand, still smiling Feb 04 13:00:45 * Morgan makes the movement again Feb 04 13:04:22 * Amir tries to copy, losing balance Feb 04 13:04:30 * Morgan steadies him Feb 04 13:04:34 Oh nearly Feb 04 13:06:17 * Amir just grins, trying again Feb 04 13:07:05 * Morgan smiles, nodding Feb 04 13:07:08 Thats it, nearly there Feb 04 13:10:13 * Amir tries rocking like this. It takes a few minutes before he seems to get the idea of moving his hands, still not quite progressing forward Feb 04 13:10:43 Oh you're so close! Feb 04 13:13:07 * Amir makes little noises of effort, until finally he gets it right, making about three feet of progress forward Feb 04 13:13:32 * Morgan grins broadly, heaping praise on the boy Feb 04 13:13:41 [Are you busy?] Feb 04 13:13:56 [no, my love] Feb 04 13:14:26 * Amir looks excited by this, big grey eyes luminous Feb 04 13:14:39 [Perhaps you might join me... quickish] Feb 04 13:15:31 [tut tut, with a baby in the other room as well! Naughty, my Lord!] *she sounds amused and teasing* Feb 04 13:16:20 * Morgan rolls his eyes Feb 04 13:16:46 Sometimes she's quite the minx... now then, my young man, what now? Feb 04 13:18:22 * Amir just rocks again whilst saying "bah, ahhhh!" Feb 04 13:18:31 * Morgan nods Feb 04 13:18:50 Yep, a -fantastic- job, I'm -so- proud of you Feb 04 13:19:14 *Molly does come in very swiftly* m: is something the matter? Feb 04 13:20:05 * Morgan shakes his head before backing up from Amir Feb 04 13:20:21 Shall we try again? Yeah? *he bounces a little before putting a hand forward* Feb 04 13:21:15 * Amir copies. It still takes him a minute to get going again, but he manages it Feb 04 13:21:44 * Morgan waits til he gets close before lifting him and bouncing him Feb 04 13:21:48 Look at you! Feb 04 13:21:55 Molly looks very excited: Oh my gosh! Amir! You did it!! Feb 04 13:22:28 * Amir looks around, grinning and shouting enthusiastically Feb 04 13:23:09 *Molly comes down on the floor with them* you're such a big boy now! Feb 04 13:23:47 * Morgan puts him back down between his knees, stroking his hair Feb 04 13:23:51 I was not expecting that Feb 04 13:24:19 * Amir is trying to pulls his woolly socks off Feb 04 13:24:22 * Amir is now known as Molly Feb 04 13:24:44 That's so exciting! You said he was close to it, but I didn't think it'd be so soon! Feb 04 13:25:00 * Morgan nods Feb 04 13:25:05 I thought maybe another week Feb 04 13:25:30 I'd say he definitely thinks my name is papa though Feb 04 13:27:27 * Molly watches the boy, then rests her cheek to Morgan's arm Feb 04 13:27:58 If only it could be more than that... *she takes a deep breath, moving back a little* Feb 04 13:28:16 I know love Feb 04 13:30:28 Should we tel-... oh, let's put that back on, we don't want any splinters, do we, hmm? *she takes his foot gently, wiggling the sock back on* Feb 04 13:30:51 I don't know really Feb 04 13:32:50 * Molly holds Amir's foot Feb 04 13:33:17 Were you there when Jana first crawled? ((There's no cannon for it)) Feb 04 13:33:29 * Morgan nods Feb 04 13:33:34 Yes, I was Feb 04 13:34:14 Would you have wanted to know if it had happened when someone else was watching her? Feb 04 13:35:13 Yes, I would, but I would also be disappointed Feb 04 13:35:50 * Molly nods Feb 04 13:36:39 Perhaps it would be better if she thinks it is the first time next time? Feb 04 13:37:10 * Molly goes around the front to put the sock on again Feb 04 13:37:22 * Morgan nods Feb 04 13:37:25 perhaps Feb 04 13:40:50 * Molly leans forward, planting his face on her cleavage. She winces then laughs Feb 04 13:40:56 Amir Feb 04 13:41:41 -really- sensitive huh Feb 04 13:44:08 * Molly nods, trying to extricate the baby from his questing Feb 04 13:44:21 It will pass quickly though Feb 04 13:48:36 * Morgan nods Feb 04 13:51:27 * Molly gets Amir in her lap facing Morgan, bouncing him up and down gently Feb 04 13:51:46 He's such a handsome boy, don't you think? Feb 04 13:52:05 * Morgan nods Feb 04 13:52:10 He is, yes Feb 04 13:53:05 * Molly smiles "I was talking to the baby" Feb 04 13:53:15 * Morgan laughs Feb 04 13:53:20 I see Feb 04 14:01:46 His colouring is lovely, but aside from the grey eyes there is no chance at all our children would look this way Feb 04 14:02:09 * Morgan nods Feb 04 14:02:11 Indeed Feb 04 14:03:18 But with your father, Edward and Florrie all having grey eyes, it's possible Feb 04 14:03:26 * Morgan nods Feb 04 14:03:28 I suppose so Feb 04 14:03:58 * Molly smiles, resting her cheek on Amir's crown Feb 04 14:04:12 Not Madchen though, she has my hair and your eyes Feb 04 14:04:18 * Morgan nods Feb 04 14:04:27 Yes, she... has... will have... Feb 04 14:04:44 * Molly nods Feb 04 14:05:25 Do you think she might be made in autumn? Feb 04 14:06:06 * Morgan watches her, face blank Feb 04 14:06:10 You did not want to know Feb 04 14:07:04 I forgot that you would possibly know that Feb 04 14:07:56 * Morgan shrugs, looking at Amir Feb 04 14:08:00 I do know Feb 04 14:08:05 * Molly nods Feb 04 14:08:25 You're right. I'd still prefer a surprise, I think Feb 04 14:10:19 * Morgan nods Feb 04 14:10:39 I wonder how Xsarlac and Zareen are getting along Feb 04 14:12:30 I didn't see them. It's such a big decision, and yet, I think I know what I would do... *she looks unsure* Feb 04 14:12:45 Do you? Feb 04 14:13:40 No... because without knowing what -our- love is like, would I know what I was giving up on? But the thought of possibly abandoning this little one... Feb 04 14:14:03 * Morgan nods Feb 04 14:14:05 aye Feb 04 14:16:00 Would I be the woman you love if I could risk that? Feb 04 14:16:26 Its a very difficult decision to be sure Feb 04 14:16:35 * Molly nods Feb 04 14:16:58 But then, you have dreamt me different, and most often you still fall in love with me Feb 04 14:18:22 * Morgan nods Feb 04 14:18:24 That is true Feb 04 14:21:20 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 04 14:29:32 * Molly has quit (Ping Timeout) Feb 04 14:51:54 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Feb 04 14:53:07 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 04 16:20:41 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 16:27:13 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Feb 04 17:21:40 * MollyK (~igloo@192.168.1.127) has joined Feb 04 17:23:42 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Feb 04 17:46:12 * Morgan (~mads@192.168.1.117) has joined Feb 04 18:05:56 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 18:06:03 Maybe we'd be alright Feb 04 18:09:17 * MollyK has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Feb 04 18:09:19 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Feb 04 18:09:28 [17:51:12] MollyK: Maybe we'd be alright Feb 04 18:11:30 maybe Feb 04 18:12:34 * MollyK speaks quietly near Amir's ear, but she's watching Morgan with a playful expression Feb 04 18:12:48 You see, Amir, that's because he loves me madly Feb 04 18:12:58 * Morgan nods solemnly Feb 04 18:14:25 * MollyK gets far as "that's a very serious exp-" before the baby plants his open mouth on her face in what looks either like a kiss or an attempt at devouring Feb 04 18:15:03 * Morgan laughs Feb 04 18:15:13 Think someones hungry... or taking after HeinzHarold... Feb 04 18:16:22 * MollyK looks at the baby before smiling, then kisses his cheek. Amid grins, grabbing her hair and holding her there Feb 04 18:17:07 Looks like you're a bit stuck there... Feb 04 18:18:58 * MollyK nods slightly, kissing the baby whilst making theatrical "Muah!" sounds. Amir laughs delightedly Feb 04 18:20:36 * Morgan nods, getting up and going to sit back at his desk, reheating his coffee before sipping it Feb 04 18:22:50 * MollyK continues to play with Amir like this, before moving on to playing pat-a-cake, in Avalonian. The memory of Dietlinde doing it in her mother tongue pops up spontaneously Feb 04 18:23:24 * Morgan sighs quietly Feb 04 18:23:44 * MollyK glances over Feb 04 18:24:18 Sorry, is this making it difficult for you with your desire for a baby? Feb 04 18:24:30 No love, just... memories Feb 04 18:28:08 Do you wish me to stop? Feb 04 18:28:44 No... I'll be alright Feb 04 18:30:26 * MollyK nods, smiling gently Feb 04 18:30:47 Would it help to share it with me? Let it be something happy? Feb 04 18:31:53 Just... Dietlinde doing what you're doing... Feb 04 18:33:42 * MollyK smiles Feb 04 18:33:53 Did she do it often? Feb 04 18:33:59 * Morgan nods Feb 04 18:34:10 Aye... Jana loved it Feb 04 18:36:01 * MollyK nods Feb 04 18:36:41 I don't know it in Eisen... maybe you could teach me, and keep that connection between the future and the past? Feb 04 18:37:49 * Morgan nods, taking a mouthful of coffee before getting back on the floor, starting up, going through it twice before switching language to Ussuran, then back to Eisen Feb 04 18:40:33 * MollyK smiles, watching him fondly. Amid seems particularly fond of Morgan doing it. Feb 04 18:41:48 Right, kid... see if you can keep up with this Feb 04 18:42:09 * Morgan goes back through it again, changing language every few words, finally circling back round to Eisen Feb 04 18:45:29 *Amir bounces on Molly's lap, grinning Feb 04 18:47:41 They don't have this rhyme in Vesten... Feb 04 18:48:09 What do they have? Feb 04 18:50:33 Just different ones... there's quite a few that cross languages, but Vesten ones... they don't tend to Feb 04 18:51:01 * MollyK nods Feb 04 18:51:06 Do you know many? Feb 04 18:51:16 * Morgan nods Feb 04 18:51:18 A fair few Feb 04 18:51:44 How lucky our children are going to be! Feb 04 18:51:55 Why? Feb 04 18:52:04 You are so knowledgeable Feb 04 18:52:10 * Morgan shrugs Feb 04 18:52:16 Just picked up things, thats all Feb 04 18:52:39 * MollyK nods Feb 04 18:52:52 I'd like to learn them too Feb 04 18:53:52 That'll take you about twenty minutes then... Feb 04 18:56:48 * MollyK smiles, looking at the baby Feb 04 18:57:05 I think we can manage that, can't we, Amir? Feb 04 18:57:19 *Amir bounces up and down* Feb 04 18:58:10 * Morgan smiles, going back his desk Feb 04 18:59:51 * MollyK glances at him, but is soon playing again Feb 04 19:02:42 * Morgan moves again, fetching his guitar, leaning back in his chair and playing quietly Feb 04 19:04:54 * MollyK picks Amir up, coming to sit on the desk with him in her lap. He's watching the guitar Feb 04 19:05:49 * Morgan is sat with his foot against the desk, eyes closed as his fingers move Feb 04 19:10:47 *she says quietly God you are so desirable like that... Feb 04 19:11:53 * Morgan opens his eyes Feb 04 19:11:56 Pardon? Feb 04 19:15:30 Uhhhh... you. Desireable. Feb 04 19:16:11 Why? Feb 04 19:18:30 You're confident, at ease... it's hard to explain Feb 04 19:18:50 * Morgan shrugs slightly Feb 04 19:19:37 ;m just... playing Feb 04 19:21:51 I'm just... finding that very attractive *she smiles* Feb 04 19:22:26 * Morgan nods, closing his eyes again Feb 04 19:26:28 * Morgan starts singing after a moment (there's nothing left pt1) Feb 04 19:30:43 *Amir babbles through it as Molly bounces him to the rhythm* Feb 04 19:35:00 * Morgan finishes the song, opening his eyes Feb 04 19:36:21 I rather love that Feb 04 19:37:45 Whats that? Feb 04 19:38:00 That song Feb 04 19:38:07 * Morgan nods Feb 04 19:38:09 I do too Feb 04 19:39:47 Where is it from? Feb 04 19:40:09 Picked it up in Avalon some time ago Feb 04 19:41:25 * MollyK looks at Amir, smiling Feb 04 19:41:46 That is what he did with me too... Feb 04 19:43:01 * Morgan laughs Feb 04 19:46:08 It was very impressive Feb 04 19:46:35 Picking you up? Feb 04 19:49:51 Well... saving my life too, but especially being able to carry me. I don't think I'd ever felt dainty until that moment, despite my height Feb 04 19:53:17 * Morgan shrugs, picking at the strings Feb 04 19:53:26 Wasn't exactly difficult Feb 04 19:57:28 * MollyK shakes her head "My brothers used to comment on it being harder than it should be" Feb 04 19:58:28 Yes, well, they have a tendency to be idiots and quite unkind Feb 04 20:00:18 * MollyK nods Feb 04 20:00:34 I will never be light and tiny like Hannalore Feb 04 20:01:20 * Morgan opens his mouth before closing it and shaking his head slightly Feb 04 20:02:31 * MollyK watches him Feb 04 20:02:35 What? Feb 04 20:02:52 It wasn't... kind... Feb 04 20:03:31 About me? Feb 04 20:03:40 No! Feb 04 20:03:43 Hannalore Feb 04 20:04:35 Ohhh Feb 04 20:08:24 She's certainly vibrant Feb 04 20:08:40 If you say so Feb 04 20:11:39 * MollyK smiles, looking at Amir "she is very pretty, but also quite... challenging!" *he smiles at her, touching her face* Feb 04 20:12:01 -that- is an understatement Feb 04 20:12:26 * MollyK nods Feb 04 20:13:17 *there's a knock at the door. Molly sighs a little Feb 04 20:14:05 * Morgan calls for them to enter Feb 04 20:14:26 * MollyK is now known as Zareen Feb 04 20:14:44 * Zareen comes in. Amir holds out his arms Feb 04 20:16:15 * Morgan gets up, putting his guitar away before making fresh drinks Feb 04 20:17:14 * Zareen takes him and sits on the couch to feed him Feb 04 20:17:39 You wanted me? Feb 04 20:18:08 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:18:25 Its time we talked about the future... I understand Xsarlac has spoken to you... Feb 04 20:18:46 He has, yes Feb 04 20:19:33 He has explained the possible outcomes, the cause of your amnesia? Feb 04 20:20:31 * Zareen nods. Amir lies in her lap, watching her as he feeds Feb 04 20:20:48 He has. It's difficult Feb 04 20:21:08 * Morgan nods slightly Feb 04 20:21:13 Tell me what you find difficult Feb 04 20:21:47 What the right thing is to do Feb 04 20:23:01 Why so? Feb 04 20:25:14 I don't know who I'll be, and who he says I am sounds very different Feb 04 20:26:11 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:26:23 Yes, she does sound very different... Feb 04 20:28:04 But I feel very lonely with no memories from anything expect the five years in the Empire. I'm not that young, I've lived most of my life and I don't know about it Feb 04 20:30:54 I can imagine that is incredibly difficult to endure Feb 04 20:31:49 * Zareen nods Feb 04 20:32:06 Everyone here has been lovely, and I do appreciate it Feb 04 20:32:53 When it comes to HeinzHarold, Inga Molly and, to some extent myself... we're just like that. Feb 04 20:34:12 * Zareen nods Feb 04 20:35:04 I want to know my other children and remember them. I do like Xsarlac, but I'm used to a man who is more assertive Feb 04 20:35:30 Where he is used to a woman who is... Feb 04 20:37:36 Very assertive Feb 04 20:38:11 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:38:27 He explained what we believe caused the amnesia? Feb 04 20:40:59 He has, yes Feb 04 20:42:28 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:42:57 He explained the possibility of your not retaining any memory of the last few years? Feb 04 20:43:06 * Zareen nods Feb 04 20:43:19 I might forget my life with the Sheik Feb 04 20:43:31 * Morgan nods slowly Feb 04 20:43:39 That part of it is not what concerns me... Feb 04 20:43:50 * Zareen looks at the baby Feb 04 20:44:04 I am worried about forgetting Amir Feb 04 20:44:18 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:44:39 As am I. We cannot guarantee that will not happen... we -hope- it won't... Feb 04 20:45:57 * Zareen nods Feb 04 20:46:02 But it could Feb 04 20:46:29 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:46:37 I won't lie, it could. Feb 04 20:47:35 * Zareen looks at Morgan "would I be an awful mother to try it?" Feb 04 20:50:07 I don't believe so, no. I cannot imagine how hard it is, not knowing who you were for so long. Feb 04 20:50:31 * Zareen nods Feb 04 20:50:49 I don't remember being a child or having parents or siblings either Feb 04 20:52:16 * Morgan nods Feb 04 20:52:32 Or the rest of your children... Feb 04 20:55:46 No. I had the marks on my belly, and the other wives said I'd had two or three babies at least, but I didn't know who they were or where they were Feb 04 20:56:12 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Feb 04 20:56:32 We will support whatever decision you make... you understand that? Feb 04 20:57:19 * Zareen nods Feb 04 20:57:22 I know Feb 04 20:59:38 This is... difficult to consider... but... if you do not remember Amir... or if having him near you is too painful, I promise you he will be taken care of... we'll have goats onboard in a few days for milk and we're all happy to take turns caring for him, feeding him et cetera Feb 04 21:00:02 * Zareen holds him closer Feb 04 21:00:20 "xsarlac says I am a good mother" Feb 04 21:01:33 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:01:36 So he tells me Feb 04 21:02:10 It'd be good if we could be together as a family Feb 04 21:02:24 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:02:28 That would be the ideal, yes Feb 04 21:05:33 * Zareen nods Feb 04 21:05:49 I won't fit in there like this Feb 04 21:06:47 I suspect you'd be accepted but... I don't think it'll feel like you're home... Feb 04 21:08:00 * Zareen nods Feb 04 21:08:18 They'll be disappointed that I've come back less than they're used to Feb 04 21:09:08 * Morgan shrugs Feb 04 21:09:16 That'll be their problem to deal with... not yours. Feb 04 21:12:46 It'll hurt to be a disppontment to people who love me and who have waited for me Feb 04 21:19:00 * Morgan nods slightly Feb 04 21:19:05 I can understand your feeling that Feb 04 21:20:55 What do you think I should do? Feb 04 21:22:19 * Morgan sighs Feb 04 21:26:16 I... If you were any other person, it'd be a different matter... but you're their -Queen-. Feb 04 21:28:26 * Zareen nods Feb 04 21:29:01 There's a whole country waiting for me, and I'm not the right person for them. I could never live up to that Feb 04 21:29:53 I'm sorry but... that is the situation. That being said, we will stand by your decision either way. There is no pressure from us. Feb 04 21:34:12 * Zareen nods Feb 04 21:34:23 I'm their queen but I'm his mother Feb 04 21:35:18 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:35:27 Yes, you are... Feb 04 21:35:46 I just don't know what to go Feb 04 21:35:49 Do* Feb 04 21:37:41 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:39:03 I would love to be able to tell you it'll all be fine, that you'll get your memory and personality back but that -this- version of you will abide inside... but I can't promise that. Feb 04 21:42:30 No, I know Feb 04 21:43:06 * Zareen strokes Amir's head "when you love someone so much, that's got to survive, hasn't it?" Feb 04 21:44:32 * Morgan glances at Molly Feb 04 21:44:39 I like to think so Feb 04 21:46:17 *Molly nods slightly* I think it probably will Feb 04 21:46:26 * Zareen nods Feb 04 21:47:42 If I don't try I lose five children who are still somewhere in my brain, a happy marriage, and a community. I might still love Amir just as much Feb 04 21:48:19 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:48:26 That is a possibility yes Feb 04 21:50:09 I could possibly gain everything Feb 04 21:50:31 * Zareen swaps sides Feb 04 21:51:06 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:51:11 Yes, possibly Feb 04 21:53:15 * Zareen looks to Molly "what would you do?" Feb 04 21:55:32 M: *she shakes her head* I don't know... my feelings of duty to the people of Capperlucia would be very strong... also, it would be very hard to turn my back on true love, and those special memories of the older children... but there's Amir, and I'd worry as you do Feb 04 21:57:46 * Zareen nods Feb 04 21:57:59 I should think it over Feb 04 21:58:41 * Morgan nods Feb 04 21:58:44 It is a big decision Feb 04 21:58:51 *Molly nods* Once it's done, it can't be undone Feb 04 21:59:17 * Zareen nods, redoing her dress up Feb 04 21:59:53 I'll think about it for a few days, if that's alright Feb 04 22:01:36 Of course it is. If we can help in any way, you just need to say... Feb 04 22:01:59 Thank you Feb 04 22:02:25 * Zareen stands up, Amir on her hip "I'll leave you to your afternoon" Feb 04 22:03:08 Alright Zareen... don't hesitate to find us if you need anything... -anything-, alright? Feb 04 22:04:40 * Zareen smiles, thanking him. The room seems quieter with Amir gone too. Feb 04 22:04:44 * Zareen is now known as Molly Feb 04 22:05:01 * Molly sighs slowly Feb 04 22:06:14 * Morgan rolls his neck Feb 04 22:06:32 I don't envy her position at all Feb 04 22:06:39 Nor I Feb 04 22:09:22 * Molly watches where they went before taking a deep breath, squaring her shoulders Feb 04 22:09:57 Alright, enough brooding, I need to do some cleaning and things Feb 04 22:10:47 * Morgan nods Feb 04 22:10:50 If you wish blossom Feb 04 22:14:01 * Molly comes to him, kissing him gently Feb 04 22:16:38 This is going to be very difficult I think Feb 04 22:17:53 in what way? Feb 04 22:18:16 The possible consequences of whatever she decides... letting Amir go once we arrive... Feb 04 22:18:50 * Molly nods, watching him "you love him..." Feb 04 22:20:24 What makes you say that? Feb 04 22:22:10 Seeing you with him... Feb 04 22:25:45 You do not think I'm like that with all children? Feb 04 22:26:30 * Molly tilts her head Feb 04 22:26:55 I haven't seen you with many children since my nieces and nephews... Feb 04 22:27:11 * Morgan nods Feb 04 22:27:15 And I was mostly avoiding them Feb 04 22:29:52 Indeed... and yet I see you with him as you were with Varick Feb 04 22:32:38 I don't suppose it really matters what I do or don't feel for him Feb 04 22:33:50 It does to me, my love, so I can understand you Feb 04 22:34:12 * Morgan sighs Feb 04 22:34:17 I think I rather do, yes Feb 04 22:34:39 * Molly nods Feb 04 22:35:02 That's alright... you were concerned when you felt it with Varick too Feb 04 22:35:40 Yes but... I wasn't having to say goodbye to him Feb 04 22:38:13 We did not know then that we could keep Varick though Feb 04 22:40:17 No, I suppose not... but I am not as... closed off as I was Feb 04 22:41:13 * Molly nods, embracing him Feb 04 22:41:48 We can only wait and see what happens my love, but as soon as I possibly can I will give you another baby, I swear Feb 04 22:48:39 * Morgan nods, holding onto her Feb 04 22:48:41 I know love Feb 04 22:50:21 Perhaps Varick would like to go on deck and learn some some about slowing and settling the ship for the night? It is getting later Feb 04 22:51:06 * Morgan nods Feb 04 22:51:10 Good idea... Feb 04 22:52:21 * Molly kisses his cheek Feb 04 22:52:36 Later you can squeeze me more, hmm? Feb 04 22:52:44 * Morgan nods Feb 04 22:52:53 If you'd like, yes... Feb 04 22:54:27 I would Feb 04 22:54:35 * Molly lets go Feb 04 22:56:52 * Morgan nods Feb 04 22:56:55 Alright blossom Feb 04 22:57:29 * Molly starts her tidying "I'll see you for Varick's tea?" Feb 04 22:59:01 * Morgan nods, getting up Feb 04 22:59:06 Aye, you will indeed Feb 04 23:00:35 * Molly lets him go Feb 04 23:01:19 * Morgan heads to find HeinzHarold and Inga and Varick Feb 04 23:04:10 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Feb 04 23:04:31 * Molly has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer)