**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Jan 28 00:00:41 2023 Jan 28 00:00:41 * Morgan nods Jan 28 00:01:07 There is something I am quite ashamed about in all that Jan 28 00:01:25 Oh? What is it, my love? Jan 28 00:02:44 I intended to have you both settled and safe, you with an heir, so that your future was safe, my will updated to provide for all of you... then go and get myself killed so you wouldn't have to feel the pain of sharing me forever. Jan 28 00:04:28 * MollyK nods "That is a little like Sorgi believing my healing is a gift from God. It's a very rational and logical way of being entirely wrong" Jan 28 00:05:09 * Morgan sighs Jan 28 00:05:30 I just... wanted you all safe... the pain of losing me would subside eventually, unlike the pain of sharing me Jan 28 00:07:35 That would be incredibly painful on a daily basis, but so would living without you. But back then, I rather was living as if I -was- already sharing you, in some ways. I was... resigned is too harsh... familiar with it. But she would have suffered so very much, I think. Jan 28 00:08:14 * Morgan nods Jan 28 00:09:40 I signed up for you with the full knowledge that you were in love with another and always would be, that you already had a wife in your heart, and that I would find a space in your life. She signed up to never have to face that Jan 28 00:10:10 * Morgan nods, speaking quietly Jan 28 00:10:11 Aye Jan 28 00:10:20 * MollyK watches him Jan 28 00:10:26 I've hurt you. Jan 28 00:10:45 A little... or rather... the way you felt has Jan 28 00:10:54 * MollyK nods Jan 28 00:11:27 I didn't want to upset you then by voicing it... I suppose I was quite the little coward Jan 28 00:12:15 How much hurt could have been avoided... Jan 28 00:14:08 I did not see that. I saw only that if you have some love and you ask for more than the other person can give you, they may feel like you are too much, too needy, and they might feel like they would prefer not to have you there *she looks so very sad* Jan 28 00:15:07 * Morgan squeezes her hand sympathetically Jan 28 00:16:21 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 28 00:20:22 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 28 11:09:20 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 28 12:56:55 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 28 12:59:36 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 28 13:02:48 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 28 13:08:33 * MollyK nods, squeezing back Jan 28 13:08:49 Its alright love... you're safe here... aside from the monsters, obviously Jan 28 13:09:07 * MollyK smiles Jan 28 13:09:24 I know... and they are rather unsafe from me! Jan 28 13:10:30 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:10:31 Indeed Jan 28 13:10:53 You wouldn't tolerate anyone else having my power? Jan 28 13:11:43 I wouldn't have been able to be around them long enough to get used to it Jan 28 13:12:01 Not if you vexed them! Jan 28 13:12:34 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 13:12:37 Unless I dealt with them first Jan 28 13:12:43 * MollyK nods Jan 28 13:12:51 It's such a dangerous thing Jan 28 13:13:58 * Morgan nods, trying to get a feel for how much of his power has returned Jan 28 13:14:14 *it's about half* Jan 28 13:15:57 On could become a dictator beyond any limits. Armies would be crushed, a ruling iron fist established... and with the ability to heal, no assassin could stop it either Jan 28 13:17:22 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 13:17:26 I just want safe Jan 28 13:17:34 * MollyK nods Jan 28 13:17:59 Yes... me too. Happy, safe, and fertile *she smiles* Jan 28 13:18:38 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:18:40 quite Jan 28 13:19:07 * Morgan spends a moment trying to sense body heat, pushing his senses as far out as he can Jan 28 13:21:53 *it's further this time, as far as the four adults and two children in the ballroom. The space around their rooms is being avoided Jan 28 13:22:28 * Morgan sighs Jan 28 13:23:21 They're avoiding us... or rather... me Jan 28 13:25:13 They want to help, liebling. But they will welcome you, if you want them Jan 28 13:27:15 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:27:34 I know.... I feel like... like a liability... Jan 28 13:29:00 * MollyK shakes her head "you are not at all. You are very loved and cared for" Jan 28 13:29:28 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:30:02 Its painful... having it confirmed that I'm not the man she loved anymore... she would not choose me now... Jan 28 13:30:53 * MollyK watches him compassionately Jan 28 13:31:34 She would not choose that situation, and who could blame her for that, taking into account that your marriage was so sacred to her? Jan 28 13:32:00 No... like she said... her husband is gone Jan 28 13:32:45 * MollyK sighs "I want to help you with that, but I am not sure how" Jan 28 13:33:03 I don't think you can. Its the inevitable truth Jan 28 13:34:02 That doesn't mean she wouldn't have fallen in love with you as you are. And you were different in August even than you are now. You've softened since. Jan 28 13:34:23 * Morgan sighs Jan 28 13:34:38 Losing her has made me a man she would not want Jan 28 13:35:18 * MollyK looks sad "her esteem was always a bench mark that you used to judge whether you were a good man?" Jan 28 13:35:33 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:36:38 And so this feels like a confirmation of the cruel things you think of yourself? Jan 28 13:37:07 * Morgan nods, staring at his hands Jan 28 13:38:05 * MollyK speaks softly "liebes herz... you -are- a good man. In the dream you were in the most hopeless bind, trying to make a bad situation more tolerable for all." Jan 28 13:39:48 * Morgan exhales slowly Jan 28 13:39:51 I will adjust Jan 28 13:40:36 It's alright to grieve this too, my love. It is a loss of -yourself- also. Jan 28 13:41:08 * Morgan nods, lower lip quivering Jan 28 13:42:01 * MollyK opens her arms to him Jan 28 13:42:14 * Morgan leans into her, tears spilling quietly Jan 28 13:42:54 * MollyK gently strokes his back Jan 28 13:44:03 * Morgan sobers a few minutes like this before backing up and wiping his face Jan 28 13:44:44 * MollyK gives him her navy handkerchief with the forget me nots Jan 28 13:45:57 * Morgan takes it, drying his eyes Jan 28 13:46:04 Damn. Wasn't expecting that Jan 28 13:46:13 It's understandable, my love. Very much so. Jan 28 13:47:50 * Morgan nods, handing the handkerchief back Jan 28 13:48:02 They talked about turning back... Jan 28 13:48:20 * MollyK looks confused Jan 28 13:48:23 Who did? Jan 28 13:48:33 The others... HeinzHarold, Sorgi... Jan 28 13:48:51 Well that is very silly and unacceptable Jan 28 13:49:27 They thought perhaps building the cottage would occupy my mind Jan 28 13:49:57 * MollyK watches him Jan 28 13:50:05 And what do you think? Jan 28 13:50:39 We both know that wouldn't stop my dreams... and in a few days I'll start work on Inga's chair Jan 28 13:50:46 * MollyK nods Jan 28 13:50:49 I agree Jan 28 13:52:01 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:52:55 I think we should stay the course, but... if you wanted to be let off in Jura, I could continue to do my duty alone Jan 28 13:53:22 Oh yeah, I'd do a spectacular job dealing with all this alone... in Castille... Jan 28 13:54:36 * MollyK smiles slightly Jan 28 13:54:45 I didn't say it was a -good- idea, Jan 28 13:55:00 * Morgan nods Jan 28 13:58:19 * Morgan sighs Jan 28 13:58:27 Alright... I think I'm ready to face the others Jan 28 13:59:02 You do not need to, my love. No one will think less of you for taking some time to relax Jan 28 14:00:29 No, I think I do... Jan 28 14:05:52 Any time you need to take a break, just do so, please Jan 28 14:09:16 * Morgan nods, sighing Jan 28 14:09:18 Alright Jan 28 14:10:03 Would a little of the tobacco help? Jan 28 14:11:41 I'll try some Jan 28 14:13:22 * MollyK goes to fetch the pipe from the table Jan 28 14:13:29 I wish to try something Jan 28 14:13:45 Oh? Jan 28 14:14:25 If you can sense alive things by heat, can I make a body get hot enough to heat things? Jan 28 14:14:52 Uhhh, I'm not sure thats something to mess with Jan 28 14:16:56 What if I tried for just a bit warmer than body temperature? Jan 28 14:18:30 * Morgan nids Jan 28 14:18:32 Just a little Jan 28 14:19:18 * MollyK nods, and hands him the pipe, sitting beside him again Jan 28 14:19:45 * Morgan watches her, using his magic to feel her temperature Jan 28 14:19:46 Go on then Jan 28 14:21:34 * MollyK concentrates, his neck prickling. Most of her remains the same, but the tip of her index finger raises about ten degrees Jan 28 14:21:54 Just your finger? Jan 28 14:24:15 * MollyK nods, letting it cool Jan 28 14:24:39 I wouldn't want to do more than that, it could be too disruptive Jan 28 14:24:45 * Morgan nods Jan 28 14:24:56 Yeah, lets not set anything back... but it seems to work... Jan 28 14:25:04 * Morgan concentrates on the tobacco Jan 28 14:26:11 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:26:19 *it lights easily* Jan 28 14:26:58 I won't be taking the Queen Anne's Lace again today... Jan 28 14:27:13 * Morgan draws on the tobacco, nodding Jan 28 14:27:21 Thats the end of all the herbs? Jan 28 14:28:28 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:28:58 It's very strange to not have that routine each day, it's been almost a year I've been taking them Jan 28 14:29:10 * Morgan nods, blowing out the smoke Jan 28 14:29:16 Aye... Jan 28 14:29:31 *the elation and buzz hit as expected* Jan 28 14:30:04 If I'd understood you as I've suddenly understood you in the last thirty minutes, I'd likely never have started them Jan 28 14:35:06 I don't... understand... Jan 28 14:36:45 I hadn't understood that being your mistress would not mean being intimate in the fairly near future. I believed that to ask me to be that, not your companion, meant that it was something you were likely to wish for fairly swiftly after Jan 28 14:37:30 I was working towards it... but I wasn't ready right then but... couldn't bear to let you go Jan 28 14:37:41 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:38:05 We didn't really understood what it meant to each of us, I think Jan 28 14:39:57 * Morgan nods Jan 28 14:39:59 I suppose so Jan 28 14:40:12 I do regret that now Jan 28 14:41:51 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 14:42:05 There's no point... we must simply make the best of things from here Jan 28 14:42:12 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:42:50 There's a reasonable chance I'd have become with child on our honeymoon... *she holds out her hand for the pipe* Jan 28 14:43:04 * Morgan nods, handing it over Jan 28 14:43:24 I'm not sure I'd have been ready for that... I think it took Florrie... Jan 28 14:43:31 * MollyK takes a little, holding, exhaling, smiling. She hands it back Jan 28 14:43:48 You are in a better place for it now Jan 28 14:44:09 * Morgan nods, drawing on it again before putting it out Jan 28 14:44:56 I always thought when you said you'd lost your faith you meant you'd lost your religion... values and principles included... Jan 28 14:45:32 I suppose not Jan 28 14:46:04 It's more like you lost your faith -in Theus-, your -trust-. Jan 28 14:47:39 * Morgan nods Jan 28 14:48:20 I still struggle with that Jan 28 14:48:26 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:48:34 That is to be expected, liebling Jan 28 14:49:05 * Morgan nods Jan 28 14:49:08 I suppose so Jan 28 14:49:17 * MollyK kisses his knuckles Jan 28 14:49:31 Be patient with yourself Jan 28 14:49:56 /me nods, sighing Jan 28 14:50:01 I'll try Jan 28 14:50:08 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:50:16 Are you sure you wish to do this? Jan 28 14:50:38 * Morgan nods Jan 28 14:50:55 By this, I assume you mean see the others? Jan 28 14:51:36 No, I meant have me on the desk amongst the breakfast plates... *she smirks*... yes, to see the others Jan 28 14:52:00 Not amongst the plates, no... but yes, I wish to see the others... I want to see my son Jan 28 14:52:13 * MollyK nods, standing up Jan 28 14:52:28 Would you like me to take Amir away a while? Jan 28 14:53:11 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 28 14:53:30 We are to share our home for weeks, I cannot avoid him any time I have a bad dream Jan 28 14:53:58 * MollyK nods Jan 28 14:54:10 If you change your mind, please tell me Jan 28 14:55:04 * Morgan nods Jan 28 14:55:05 Alright Jan 28 14:56:14 * MollyK bends down, kissing his crown and wrapping her arms around his shoulders Jan 28 14:56:26 I am proud of you, my love, always. Jan 28 14:57:09 Thank you love Jan 28 14:58:27 *she seems to have swapped back her perfume to the rose water. There's a hint of lavender there too, and there's something lovely and deeply soothing about mix of the two* Jan 28 14:59:20 * Morgan sighs deeply Jan 28 14:59:36 You've changed your perfume Jan 28 15:00:05 I added some lavender oil I gave to Inga, I know lavender soothes you, like the balm Jan 28 15:00:14 * Morgan nods Jan 28 15:00:18 It smells wonderful Jan 28 15:00:24 * MollyK lets go Jan 28 15:00:32 I'm glad it pleases you Jan 28 15:02:07 * Morgan nods, standing up Jan 28 15:02:09 It does Jan 28 15:03:16 * MollyK keeps hold of his hand as they leave the study Jan 28 15:06:20 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 28 16:03:43 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 28 16:04:00 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 28 16:05:05 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 28 16:06:14 * MollyK opens the door into the ballroom. The grown ups and Varick are sat at a table, Amir is on the floor on all fours. Jan 28 16:06:43 *Varick's eyes light up* Papa! Jan 28 16:07:25 Hello young man Jan 28 16:08:34 *Varick gets up from the table, running to hug Morgan. Molly releases his hand* Jan 28 16:09:01 * Morgan immediately drops to his knees, gathering the boy into a hug Jan 28 16:09:21 * MollyK is now known as Varick Jan 28 16:10:01 * Varick holds him tight. He whispers in Morgan's ear "It's alright, Papa, the bad dream is gone now" Jan 28 16:11:11 * Morgan screws up his face, pressing it to Varicks shoulder Jan 28 16:12:09 * Varick strokes his hair just like Molly strokes Varick's Jan 28 16:13:25 * Morgan squeezes him a little Jan 28 16:13:27 I missed you Jan 28 16:14:07 I missed you too Jan 28 16:14:53 * Morgan lets him go, holding his shoulders at arms length so he can look at him Jan 28 16:15:02 What've you been doing? Jan 28 16:16:05 * Varick looks relaxed Jan 28 16:16:12 Doing my languages Jan 28 16:16:53 *Molly has gone to HH, speaking quietly in his ear* Jan 28 16:17:09 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:17:19 Good... its useful to know more than one Jan 28 16:17:59 I need to know so I can have friends there. Then when I am a man I can go there and stay at their houses and they will feed me Jan 28 16:18:21 Cake? Jan 28 16:19:01 * Varick nods Jan 28 16:19:10 Chocolate cake Jan 28 16:19:22 What other languages would you like to learn? Jan 28 16:19:29 All of them! Jan 28 16:19:42 You'll know more than me then Jan 28 16:20:38 That's okay, I'll help you Jan 28 16:20:52 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:20:54 I'd like that Jan 28 16:22:24 Do you want to sit with me and learn Capperlucian? Jan 28 16:22:47 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:22:55 Aye, for a little while Jan 28 16:25:01 * Varick goes over to the table. Amir rocks back and forward, babbling quietly. HH stands up "I'll go fetch s'more coffee, man..." Jan 28 16:27:49 $come with, if you need?$ Jan 28 16:28:55 I'm just going to help HeinzHarold with some coffee... Jan 28 16:29:08 * Varick nods, sitting down Jan 28 16:29:21 * Varick is now known as HH Jan 28 16:30:16 * HH waits until they're in the hall before putting a hand on the back of his neck. He sounds so much like his Da when he says "How y' doin', kid?" Jan 28 16:30:38 * Morgan wipes at his face quickly Jan 28 16:30:48 God, its like having your Da here Jan 28 16:31:15 * HH looks a bit embarrassed "sorry" Jan 28 16:32:18 * Morgan glances at him Jan 28 16:32:25 Why the hell would you be sorry about that? Jan 28 16:33:55 Sometimes it jus' comes out, an' ya end up soundin' like 'em. Wasn' expectin you, man Jan 28 16:35:04 'S not a bad thing... *he draws a breath* I'm... alright. Hurting, but... *he shrugs* Jan 28 16:35:19 * HH nods Jan 28 16:35:26 Tobacco 'elping? Jan 28 16:36:54 Some, aye. Not happy about having to use it, but I didn't really want to face you and Molly and Claudia if I refused Jan 28 16:37:27 * HH nods Jan 28 16:37:50 'S good stuff. At some point when yer doin' good, y' wanna try it for fun Jan 28 16:38:34 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 16:38:47 Having seen you giggling at taking a pee, I'm not sure I want to Jan 28 16:39:26 Nah, you gotta try getting off on it, at least once in yer life. Doesn't make most giggly Jan 28 16:39:38 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:39:39 Just girls Jan 28 16:39:55 Yeah, mebbie Jan 28 16:41:49 Might haveta see if we can get more in Jura Jan 28 16:42:44 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:42:57 I'll leave that with you? I've got to find some timber Jan 28 16:43:16 * HH nods Jan 28 16:43:52 Jus' thinkin', if it helps, y' don' wanna run out mid ocean, 'ssumin' they even have it in Capp'lucia Jan 28 16:44:49 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:44:54 Be worth finding out I suppose Jan 28 16:46:09 * HH nod Jan 28 16:46:35 Yeah. Jus' in case. Mebbie it'll get better soon Jan 28 16:47:02 Gotta say man, this one was... it wasn't as terrifying, but... it feels worse Jan 28 16:48:15 Yeah, the stuff with th' kids is brutal Jan 28 16:48:46 You remember I said that I don't think I'm the man Dietlinde would fall in love with anymore? Jan 28 16:48:58 * HH nods Jan 28 16:49:02 Yeah Jan 28 16:49:19 Yeah, I've had that confirmed. He died when she did. Jan 28 16:50:05 Not sure 'ow y' can be so sure, man Jan 28 16:50:18 Because she told me Jan 28 16:50:58 Think mebbie she was tryin' to make the break thinkin' that's what y' needed? Jan 28 16:51:51 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 28 16:51:56 No. I don't. Jan 28 16:52:17 * HH nods sadly Jan 28 16:52:25 So rough, man Jan 28 16:52:46 * Morgan nods Jan 28 16:53:03 Yes, it is. Jan 28 16:54:07 Why wouldn' she love y' now though? Yer still a good guy Jan 28 16:55:00 There's a coldness to me now... I'm less able to be foolish... Jan 28 16:56:04 I wouldn'a said that, but I can see why you'd think it Jan 28 16:57:44 The former, thats my thought... the latter, that comes from Dietlinde Jan 28 16:58:13 I wanna say it was jus' a dream, but it's -you- Jan 28 16:59:13 I already know that my dreams are either nightmares or, more often, how things could've been... and the Nieblungen have confirmed that and, even if they hadn't... too much information in them is right for them to just be dreams Jan 28 16:59:23 * Morgan glances at HeinzHarold Jan 28 16:59:37 As for it being -me-... I don't like being a freak, but I have no say in it Jan 28 17:00:02 * HH looks bothered by this Jan 28 17:00:11 Hey! Enuff o' that Jan 28 17:01:03 Its what we always thought of people who could do magic, isn't it? And this is... more. Jan 28 17:01:18 So we were wrong. Jan 28 17:02:28 * Morgan shrugs slightly Jan 28 17:06:07 No one gets t' be mean t' me best friend 'cept me Jan 28 17:06:42 'M not being mean... just... honest. *he glances at HeinzHarold again* I always tell the truth... I'm not always honest Jan 28 17:09:15 Yer not a freak, man. Jan 28 17:10:24 Feel it. It'll pass when I'm not so... fragile Jan 28 17:10:36 * HH nods Jan 28 17:11:00 You'll be okay, y' got all o' us right here to help Jan 28 17:13:04 * Morgan nods Jan 28 17:13:15 When are you going to deal with that big memory you're holding onto? Jan 28 17:13:30 Some other time Jan 28 17:13:33 * HH grins Jan 28 17:13:47 You know I'm not going to forget it, right? Jan 28 17:14:24 Yep, yer like an elephant Jan 28 17:15:38 * Morgan nods Jan 28 17:15:42 I'll let it be for now Jan 28 17:15:51 * HH nods Jan 28 17:16:00 Got enough issues f' now Jan 28 17:16:14 * Morgan nods Jan 28 17:16:29 Seen you hurting and disappointed in me already... not sure I could see any more of it Jan 28 17:17:28 I was disappointed b'cause y' planned to swive them both? Jan 28 17:18:35 No. Jan 28 17:19:03 * HH shrugs, waiting for elaboration Jan 28 17:21:16 I had decided... that the best thing I could do for them... persuade them both to go along with the plan, get them safe, secure and provided for... then get myself killed. They'd all hurt for a bit but it'd pass, its only me... Jan 28 17:21:26 * Morgan has studiously avoided looking at HeinzHarold Jan 28 17:24:42 Huh. Yeah, spose that's in keepin' w' what you were up to in Av'lon Jan 28 17:26:24 Lil bit different, though... in Avalon they had to -take- my life from me... anyway... you told me something that made me feel fucking awful and realise I couldn't do that Jan 28 17:30:30 Bit o' wisdom? Jan 28 17:30:53 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 17:30:56 Brutal insight Jan 28 17:31:35 Yeah? Jan 28 17:32:26 * Morgan nods Jan 28 17:32:44 Wha' was it? Jan 28 17:37:25 You said that what's really tough is when you start settling down and having kids and your Da can't see it because he died when you were a kid. *he looks like he's about to cry* God I hated myself. Jan 28 17:38:52 * HH pulls him into a bear hug Jan 28 17:39:14 Sorry man, dream me was a tactless dickhead Jan 28 17:39:16 * Morgan sobs against him Jan 28 17:39:33 No, I'm sorry... I couldn't see past the pain, couldn't see how selfish I was Jan 28 17:39:52 Y' don't need to be sorry, man Jan 28 17:40:26 Fuck sake, I'm such a mess Jan 28 17:42:25 Nah, y' just goin' through essenshully losin' yer wife an' kids, man. Jan 28 17:43:11 * Morgan nods, pulling away and wiping his face Jan 28 17:43:21 Thought I'd gotten a bit past that Jan 28 17:45:08 These dreams ain' like normal dreams, s' like y' live it. Griefs gonna come an go, just like normal Jan 28 17:45:44 * Morgan sighs, nodding Jan 28 17:45:48 What did Molly say? Jan 28 17:47:13 That y' wanted a bit o' normality and that a bitta love an' care would prolly mean a lot Jan 28 17:47:54 * Morgan nods Jan 28 17:48:13 Turns out I'm not very good of staying in my room and wallowing, much as I wanted to earlier Jan 28 17:48:49 Ne'er really been one f' doing what y' were told Jan 28 17:49:46 I actually wanted to earlier... just stay on the couch, curled up in a blanket Jan 28 17:50:02 * HH nods Jan 28 17:50:32 Th' sorta care f' yerself that y' didn't allow yerself at th' time, right? Jan 28 17:50:56 * Morgan blinks Jan 28 17:50:59 Yeah, I suppose so Jan 28 17:51:17 * HH nods Jan 28 17:51:24 Mebbie it's progress, man Jan 28 17:51:37 Maybe its the tobacco Jan 28 17:52:35 Mebbie. Mebbie it's pre-empting yer wife b'fore she starts fussin' over you Jan 28 17:52:47 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 17:52:48 Maybe Jan 28 17:53:45 Nothin' wrong with havin' feelin's, man. Shoulda seen me tellin' Inga a few things th' first time she heard 'em Jan 28 17:54:00 Oh? Jan 28 17:54:51 When I told ken about m' Da, I cried on an' off a full day Jan 28 17:55:21 * Morgan nods Jan 28 17:55:31 Unnerstandable Jan 28 17:55:48 So is this with you. Jan 28 17:57:01 * Morgan nods, sighing Jan 28 17:58:23 * HH rubs his shoulder Jan 28 17:58:44 Molly been 'eloping, or you tryin' keep it from upsettin' her? Jan 28 17:58:59 'Elping Jan 28 17:59:48 I told her Jan 28 18:00:06 Everything? Jan 28 18:01:55 Uhh... I think so Jan 28 18:02:11 * HH nods Jan 28 18:02:28 How's she 'andling it? Jan 28 18:04:10 Not sure if she's handling it well or just not handling it at all... says she understands me better though... Jan 28 18:04:54 How's that? Jan 28 18:06:41 Long story but... she thought that losing my faith meant losing my religion, including my values and principles, which is why she started the herbs when I asked her to be my mistress... Jan 28 18:07:00 Inga said that was ages ago, yeah Jan 28 18:07:16 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:07:17 Yeah Jan 28 18:08:31 She thought it was gonna get to sexy fun times really quick? Jan 28 18:08:58 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:09:11 Thats what most nobility is like isn't it? Jan 28 18:09:31 What most men are like, if we're 'onest Jan 28 18:10:39 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 18:13:09 Didn' introduce yerself properly, did ya? Jan 28 18:13:49 I don't understand? Jan 28 18:14:44 * HH nudges him, grinning "Didn' say "hi, you're gorgeous and I'm Saint Morgan o' Puritytown" Jan 28 18:15:48 Barely spoke to her for the first... what... eighteen months Jan 28 18:16:04 Best way t' make them want ya Jan 28 18:19:17 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 18:20:16 Hang on.., so she didn' know you were a bit sexshully uptight, an she thought it was gon' be party in the bedroom for two... Jan 28 18:20:25 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:22:11 Did y' hit the roof when y' found out about the herbs? *it hadn't been until a few days into their time before the wedding at Die Dauerhaftigkeit that he found out, and he'd been pretty surprised she'd been taking them for months" Jan 28 18:22:43 I didn't find out until not long before the wedding... Jan 28 18:28:14 Oh dear! Jan 28 18:29:30 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:30:35 Can't say I'da been pleased if my lil darlin had done tha' without talkin' to me first Jan 28 18:31:40 Given losing Jana, I avoided children entirely... its was obvious I didn't want children Jan 28 18:32:22 Guess so. Musta been pretty shocked she was ready to swive you right away! Jan 28 18:33:11 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:33:15 Yeah, I was Jan 28 18:33:28 * HH laughs Jan 28 18:33:48 Probably dropped hints f' ages and you were oblivious! Jan 28 18:34:29 Might've been... Jan 28 18:35:27 Y' reckon mebbie she's jus' trying not to think about the stuff in yer dream then? Jan 28 18:35:48 I dunno man, maybe Jan 28 18:36:18 Want me t' check in with her? Or Inga can? Jan 28 18:36:28 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:36:31 please Jan 28 18:36:54 I know this must be tough for her... -particulsrly- this one Jan 28 18:37:21 This is pretty harsh, ain't it Jan 28 18:37:59 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:38:53 Bringin' up a lotta insecurities again? Jan 28 18:39:50 Itd be understandable... but I'm not sure it has.... Not where I'm concerned anyway Jan 28 18:40:06 * HH nods Jan 28 18:40:40 That's good, Inga will be relieved Jan 28 18:41:11 Im sure she will Jan 28 18:41:34 * HH nods Jan 28 18:42:04 You ever finish tha' sketch of me an Inga at the brothel? Jan 28 18:44:07 * Morgan glances at him Jan 28 18:44:19 Couldn't get it right so I chucked it Jan 28 18:44:39 Shame, man Jan 28 18:45:05 * Morgan thumps his arm Jan 28 18:45:47 Its in the book... Jan 28 18:46:07 * HH looks happy about this Jan 28 18:46:24 This yer book o' naked ladies, eh? Jan 28 18:46:43 No... though... realistically, I could probably start one... Jan 28 18:47:12 I 'eard there were some o' Molly Jan 28 18:47:34 Did you? Jan 28 18:47:52 * HH nods Jan 28 18:48:06 Little bird tol' me Jan 28 18:48:42 I'll bet... aye, there's... some... Jan 28 18:49:02 At least three, from what I hear Jan 28 18:49:35 Sounds about right Jan 28 18:50:02 Y' did a good job with me an' Inga Jan 28 18:50:26 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 18:50:30 Started out ok, aye Jan 28 18:50:44 Nah man, it was good Jan 28 18:53:05 * Morgan nods Jan 28 18:53:11 Not bad Jan 28 18:53:17 Almost got my extremely 'andsome face 'andsome enough Jan 28 18:54:04 Was concentrating on the ridges Jan 28 18:54:26 Not sure 'ow, I was sat down Jan 28 18:54:55 Nipple skin, man... bunches up, see, when you're doing it right... bitch to draw though Jan 28 18:55:48 I bunches a lot more nipples than you e'er will! Jan 28 18:55:54 Bunched* Jan 28 18:59:02 Your own don't count Jan 28 18:59:09 * HH laughs Jan 28 18:59:27 Dickhead. Now y' finally got a captive model. Books gonna get filled quick! Jan 28 18:59:57 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 19:00:00 We'll see I suppose Jan 28 19:01:34 * HH nods "y' can borrow my lil darlin for modelling too, but with clothes on" Jan 28 19:02:02 How many clothes? Jan 28 19:03:21 Enough that neither o' our wives kill us Jan 28 19:04:20 * Morgan nods Jan 28 19:05:56 I got nice apples, man, wouldn't want ya thinkin' how good they are... that's what happen with you an' -my- apples, see? *he's grinning* Jan 28 19:08:59 Might plant you an apple tree... Jan 28 19:10:07 So you can steal 'em all over again? Jan 28 19:10:18 So for once I actually would steal your apples Jan 28 19:10:37 * HH gently shoves him Jan 28 19:10:59 Horsehair, they were mine an' you know it! Jan 28 19:11:07 Horseshit * Jan 28 19:11:24 If it helps you sleep at night, you keep telling yourself that Jan 28 19:12:03 I make sure my 'ands are on my apples, jus' in case. That's how I sleep Jan 28 19:12:40 I know Jan 28 19:13:06 Mebbie y' should try that. Yer apples, not mine. Jan 28 19:17:00 * HH has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 28 21:12:22 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 28 22:37:22 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 28 22:39:20 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 28 22:39:43 * MollyK is now known as HH Jan 28 22:40:00 [18:58:04] HH: Mebbie y' should try that. Yer apples, not mine. Jan 28 22:40:59 * Morgan shrugs Jan 28 22:41:01 Maybe Jan 28 22:41:38 [are you alright, my darling? You've been a while...] Jan 28 22:42:03 [yes love] Jan 28 22:43:36 Still gon' do yer normal watch tomorrow, or want me t' take it incase it's more o' the same tonight? Jan 28 22:44:40 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 28 22:44:42 I'll do it Jan 28 22:45:10 * HH nods "figure it can't get any worse?" Jan 28 22:45:30 * Morgan snorts Jan 28 22:45:46 No, I don't figure that... I'm certain it will Jan 28 22:46:11 Jus' gonna be taken less by surprise? Jan 28 22:46:28 *the ballroom door opens quietly* Jan 28 22:46:42 * Morgan turns to look Jan 28 22:47:00 *Inga comes over to Morgan* Jan 28 22:47:53 * Morgan watches her Jan 28 22:48:22 *she comes and wraps her arms around his waist, holding tightly Jan 28 22:48:54 * Morgan looks at HeinzHarold, obviously surprised before wrapping his arms around her, laying his head atop hers Jan 28 22:49:09 I: I love you. Jan 28 22:49:26 * HH looks both confused and amused, shrugging Jan 28 22:49:32 * Morgan 's breath catches Jan 28 22:49:44 Oh... oh sweetheart, I love you too Jan 28 22:49:59 *She nods, but doesn't let go* Jan 28 22:50:57 * Morgan doesn't prompt her to move Jan 28 22:51:09 *Inga still doesn't move* Jan 28 22:51:18 * HH is smiling Jan 28 22:51:44 * Morgan waits a few minutes before speaking Jan 28 22:52:01 Uhhh... this is lovely but... I can't get the coffee... Jan 28 22:52:57 *she gently lets go, smiling* alright *she goes back into the ballroom* Jan 28 22:53:12 * Morgan looks at HeinzHarold Jan 28 22:53:18 That was... surprising... Jan 28 22:53:35 * HH watches where she went, grinning "I fuckin' love that weird lassie, man." Jan 28 22:53:58 * Morgan nods, looking at the door before setting off toward the galley Jan 28 22:54:02 That was... odd Jan 28 22:54:14 * HH nods Jan 28 22:54:17 Yep Jan 28 22:55:11 [any idea what that was about?] Jan 28 22:55:36 [she asked what she could do that might help] Jan 28 22:55:53 [and you said...] Jan 28 22:56:21 [go and show him what you think of him] Jan 28 22:56:55 * Morgan nods slightly, walking into the galley Jan 28 22:57:01 Figured it out...or rather... I asked Jan 28 22:57:17 Yeah? Jan 28 22:57:55 Inga asked what she could do that might help... Molly told her to show me what she thinks of me. Jan 28 22:58:08 * HH nods, smiling Jan 28 22:58:15 She loves you, man Jan 28 22:59:05 I know... she said so Jan 28 22:59:22 Coulda told y' that myself Jan 28 22:59:37 Bit different though Jan 28 22:59:45 * Morgan sorts out jugs of coffee Jan 28 23:00:04 *the galley is reasonably busy, but they manage coffee* always better when is comes wrapped in a hug Jan 28 23:00:50 * Morgan clears out of the way, carrying a tray back to the ballroom Jan 28 23:00:57 Yeah, you're not wrong bout that Jan 28 23:02:56 * HH nods "sure yer up to this?" Jan 28 23:03:42 Not really, but I'm going to anyway Jan 28 23:04:38 * HH nods Jan 28 23:04:52 Love you, man Jan 28 23:05:56 * Morgan nods Jan 28 23:05:58 Love you too Jan 28 23:07:23 * HH opens the door. The others are where they were, but Molly is on the floor with Amir, trying to encourage the rocking baby to crawl towards her. M: Come on little sweet heart, come here... Jan 28 23:08:44 * Morgan carefully puts the coffee down before pouring a cup for himself Jan 28 23:09:35 *Molly glances up at Morgan* [do you wish me to stay away from him?] Jan 28 23:09:57 [absolutely not] Jan 28 23:12:11 *she nods slightly, moving to lie down on her stomach to encourage him. This makes the baby excited, but he still doesn't manage to move. Varick is studiously working* Jan 28 23:13:00 [might be on to a loser there...] Jan 28 23:13:20 [for today, perhaps. But I won't give up] Jan 28 23:13:30 * Morgan goes to sit beside Varick Jan 28 23:13:44 * HH is now known as Varick Jan 28 23:14:10 * Varick is writing out the verb endings for Capperlucian words Jan 28 23:15:04 * Morgan watches him Jan 28 23:15:06 What's that? Jan 28 23:16:26 Words I need In Capperlucia Jan 28 23:16:51 Cake... to cake... was cake? Jan 28 23:17:47 I climb, you climb, we climb *he tells Morgan the Capperlucian* Jan 28 23:18:10 You need to know the words to climb? Jan 28 23:18:45 They build special walls from wood for climbing to play Jan 28 23:19:26 * Morgan 's eyes light up Jan 28 23:19:32 Special climbing walls? Jan 28 23:20:00 Some are simple and for small toddlers Jan 28 23:21:44 Some are big enough for adults? Jan 28 23:23:17 X: We have lots of adult climbing walls as well as rock faces. It's a big pastime Jan 28 23:24:20 * Morgan nods slowly, sipping his coffee Jan 28 23:24:29 I think I've just found what I'll be doing then Jan 28 23:24:42 [what did Sigfried and Zareen get told?] Jan 28 23:25:34 X: There is one that might interest you, it's only been completed twice Jan 28 23:26:00 Must be difficult... Jan 28 23:26:10 [that you have extremely bad nightmares sometimes and can need time to yourself afterwards] Jan 28 23:26:18 X: It is Jan 28 23:28:03 * Morgan nods thoughtfully Jan 28 23:28:08 I'll give it a go Jan 28 23:29:56 Capperlucian He climbs. Jan 28 23:30:15 Been known to Jan 28 23:31:02 X: Groups of men and children go there every day Jan 28 23:31:55 * Morgan nods Jan 28 23:32:12 I've never known anywhere where people climb for fun Jan 28 23:33:54 X: it's good for the body and for the mind. Most children are started with climbing when they can crawl, and swimming from birth Jan 28 23:34:48 Me nods Jan 28 23:36:11 Z: *she looks to Morgan* In Capperlucia the babies are born in the water. All five of my children there were apparently Jan 28 23:36:42 * Morgan nods Jan 28 23:36:46 Whats the reason for that? Jan 28 23:37:21 X: It's partly symbolic and traditional, but also there's much less pain for the mother Jan 28 23:39:19 Duly noted Jan 28 23:40:35 X: If the timing is right, there might be the chance to see it Jan 28 23:40:50 I could see a baby be born?! Jan 28 23:41:46 * Varick is looking at Morgan Jan 28 23:42:11 I'm have to talk with your mama about that Jan 28 23:42:32 * Varick looks sad "okay Papa" Jan 28 23:44:14 X: In Capperlucia it's very common for the mother to have visitors during her delivery. There is a tradition that hearing the voices of the community will make the baby come quicker Jan 28 23:45:14 Completely different in Eisen Jan 28 23:45:33 Z: what's it like in Eisen? Jan 28 23:46:36 The men are banished to find something to do while the midwife helps the mother through the birth Jan 28 23:48:53 Z: In the Empire the father is there through the last part of the birth, and is the first to touch the child's skin Jan 28 23:49:11 * Morgan nods Jan 28 23:49:28 [The father is also a lunatic who needs putting down like a rabid animal] Jan 28 23:49:43 HH: gotta say, I kinda like that last one Jan 28 23:49:56 [indeed] Jan 28 23:51:21 * Morgan nods Jan 28 23:51:24 Me too Jan 28 23:53:10 Z: There is also a tradition there that if two children are nursed from the same breasts, they are always siblings and can never marry Jan 28 23:53:54 $that's us not sharing grandkids then, eh?$ Jan 28 23:54:38 Why? Jan 28 23:54:48 $Some of their things are just weird man$ Jan 28 23:55:09 Z: because siblings cannot marry Jan 28 23:55:58 Yes but... they're not... blood siblings Jan 28 23:56:04 $yeah$ Jan 28 23:56:25 Z: That is just how it is there. Sharing milk is like sharing blood Jan 28 23:57:08 * Morgan nods thoughtfully Jan 28 23:57:29 * Morgan watches HeinzHarold surrepticiously Jan 28 23:57:37 I suppose it keeps the men busy, too Jan 28 23:58:31 Z: Not in the Empire, but Xsarlac says they do it in Capperlucia Jan 28 23:58:53 HH: do what? Jan 28 23:59:31 * Morgan nods