**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon Jan 23 00:02:03 2023 Jan 23 00:02:03 * Edward doesn't flinch from it "You will find them in a house on the outskirts of Grenau, Kirche Haus. See Lina, Sabina, and Johannes, and then come back and tell me I was wrong. Now tell me where our Veisgrafin is." Jan 23 00:02:35 * Morgan takes the letter from his pocket, pressing it against Edwards chest Jan 23 00:03:16 I... don't... know... Jan 23 00:03:39 * Edward reads it quickly, nodding Jan 23 00:03:46 Where is the ship? Jan 23 00:04:11 *it should be in Starke by now, waiting to take them to Zweibrucke* Jan 23 00:05:49 There's no point, Edward, she's made her mind up, and the Forresters are leaving since I have dishonoured her and her family, thanks to you. Jan 23 00:06:23 We have money, and they are common born. We will ensure their loyalty with coin. Jan 23 00:06:43 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 00:07:03 No, you won't, because they have more morals than you. Now, I need to see the Graf Jan 23 00:08:12 I will find her, and I will bring her back here. His Grace gave her a circlet and confirmed her as a Veisgrafin. She belongs to Sudlachenburg now Jan 23 00:09:45 You're missing the point here, Edward... you aren't in control of any of this anymore. She's gone, because of you, your master plan is in ruins because of -your- arrogance. But by all means, find her... I taught her to fight, I daresay she has some things she wishes to speak with you about. Jan 23 00:10:11 * Edward pockets Molly's letter before striding out Jan 23 00:10:38 * Morgan follows him, branching off to go to his fathers study Jan 23 00:10:54 * Edward is now known as Adalbrecht Jan 23 00:11:20 * Adalbrecht is smoking a cigar, stood looking from the window Jan 23 00:11:33 * Morgan strides into the room, looking round Jan 23 00:11:36 Where is David? Jan 23 00:11:44 He has gone home Jan 23 00:12:14 Yes, well, Edward has other ideas about that. Jan 23 00:12:28 * Morgan takes out the note, placing it on the desk before placing his koertig dagger on top of it Jan 23 00:12:34 See he gets that Jan 23 00:13:45 David is staying another month, and he will be helping us bring Molly back home to you Jan 23 00:14:18 * Morgan shrugs, moving towards the door Jan 23 00:14:24 I see you are complicit in this scheme Jan 23 00:15:11 I love Molly, Morgan. Your Mother loves her. And more than that, her son loves her. She is to come home to us all Jan 23 00:15:46 A pity I won't be here to see it. Your wishes were made clear last night, so I take my leave Jan 23 00:16:04 * Adalbrecht shakes his head, sighing Jan 23 00:16:58 You are going to throw away all of the progress we have made here. You are going to choose her over this family and your duty. Jan 23 00:17:38 -You- told me to get out. I will not undo anything... I will not be heard from again. Tell people I died. Jan 23 00:19:00 * Adalbrecht gets hold of Morgan's collar, looking him dead in the eyes. He is more incandescent than Morgan has ever seen "Go upstairs and tell the boy -you- insisted on adopting that, you coward." Jan 23 00:19:28 * Morgan speaks quietly Jan 23 00:20:51 You are a disgrace. Its no wonder you and Edward were always so close... you're both cut from the same -damaged- cloth Jan 23 00:22:24 Get out. You are no longer the Veisgraf of Sudlachenburg. But rest assured, when she is found, Molly will be our Veisgrafin again. Jan 23 00:22:39 * Morgan thumps Adalbrechts chest Jan 23 00:22:49 He will keep his filthy hands off of her Jan 23 00:23:25 He will marry her and they will raise Varick together. She is not your wife, and she never was. Jan 23 00:23:42 * Morgan watches him for a moment Jan 23 00:23:59 * Morgan nods Jan 23 00:24:23 You sure you're not related to Karsten? Its the sort of diabolical shit he'd pull... Jan 23 00:24:59 Goodbye, Morgan. Jan 23 00:25:20 * Morgan swings for his father Jan 23 00:25:53 * Adalbrecht manages to just about side step it Jan 23 00:26:40 You have the life you wanted now, no longer having to answer to me or your station. Be happy and gone from my sight. Jan 23 00:28:16 Why don't you -make- me... or are you too much a coward? Hiding behind your despicable son, endorsing his actions while acting superior... Jan 23 00:28:58 I do not give satisfaction to men without station. Leave before I have you arrested. Jan 23 00:29:24 Very well... I wish you well... until, of course, you have no heirs at all. Jan 23 00:30:35 Go. Jan 23 00:30:43 * Morgan leans against the door jamb Jan 23 00:31:12 Despite it all... I love you. I'm sorry what'll come when word of all this gets out. Jan 23 00:31:32 * Morgan shifts, moving into the hall Jan 23 00:32:07 * Adalbrecht slams the door shut behind him Jan 23 00:32:28 * Morgan rolls his shoulders, going looking for his mother Jan 23 00:33:00 * Adalbrecht is now known as Verity Jan 23 00:33:37 *according to a maid, she is in the graveyard* Jan 23 00:33:47 * Morgan heads into the graveyard Jan 23 00:34:25 * Verity is at the back, where Dietlinde and Jana's graves, but another woman and child's remains are Jan 23 00:34:44 * Morgan clears his throat Jan 23 00:34:47 Excuse me, Grafin Jan 23 00:35:53 * Verity turns round, tears on her cheeks Jan 23 00:36:18 Oh dear boy! It is all so awful that I do not think my heart can bear it! Jan 23 00:36:34 * Morgan nods Jan 23 00:36:44 I... just came to say goodbye Jan 23 00:37:04 * Verity smiles gently Jan 23 00:37:21 You're going to look for Molly... oh thank Theus, Jan 23 00:37:45 No, Grafin... the Graf and Veisgraf are planning to bring her back Jan 23 00:38:07 * Verity looks confused Jan 23 00:38:13 What are you saying? Jan 23 00:38:41 * Morgan blinks rapidly before wiping at his eyes Jan 23 00:39:17 I am leaving... I would ask the Grafin to make sure Varick is cared for... he needs a lot of love. Jan 23 00:39:42 You cannot leave him, Morgan, he is your -son- Jan 23 00:40:46 No, my lady... he -was- my son, when I held enough title to be his father. Jan 23 00:41:02 Where will you go? Jan 23 00:41:47 I don't know... even when I was alone in Avalon, I still had family... that isn't the case now and I don't know what I'll do Jan 23 00:43:32 Are you going to Dietlinde again? Jan 23 00:43:38 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 00:44:11 No... I'm sorry... in my anger, I've pushed the Graf too far and its cost me everything Jan 23 00:44:24 * Morgan blows out a slow breath Jan 23 00:44:28 * Verity hugs him Jan 23 00:44:51 You will always be my baby, dear boy. I have my own money... Jan 23 00:44:58 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 00:45:33 No, Grafin, you mustn't taint your reputation by association of me. Jan 23 00:46:38 You will write to me with a named account in which I will put money for you. Jan 23 00:46:49 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 00:47:00 It was not a request. Jan 23 00:47:20 I will not allow you to damage your relationship with my fa... with the Graf Jan 23 00:48:02 He will never know. *she looks at him* I have asked little of you, all these years, have I not? Jan 23 00:48:36 No my lady Jan 23 00:49:10 Then you will make this simple sacrifice for me. Do not disappoint me in that, please. Jan 23 00:49:33 As the Grafin wishes Jan 23 00:50:04 * Verity nods Jan 23 00:50:20 Perhaps you'll use it to invest in trade for your ship Jan 23 00:50:31 I don't have a ship any longer Jan 23 00:51:22 Whyever not? Jan 23 00:51:59 Because the marriage was illegitimate, which means her giving me the ship is also so... I... have nothing. Jan 23 00:52:13 * Verity looks at him Jan 23 00:52:54 Why don't you say sorry to Molly and patch things up? You have the ship, you could sail away and live together just as you were Jan 23 00:53:20 fa... the Graf won't allow that. He's going to drag her back here and have her marry Edward Jan 23 00:53:53 They would have to find her first, dear boy Jan 23 00:54:42 David knows where she is Jan 23 00:54:55 They've already got him onside Jan 23 00:55:25 Then go to Martha, and tell her. Mothers are always softer Jan 23 00:55:53 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 00:55:55 perhaps Jan 23 00:56:39 What about Dietlinde and the children? What should be done for them? Jan 23 00:57:03 I don't know... I'm all at sea, barely keeping my head above the waves Jan 23 00:57:29 * Verity nods Jan 23 00:58:15 Maybe you should at least see them before you leave? Jan 23 00:58:48 I don't know Jan 23 00:59:03 * Verity nods Jan 23 01:00:01 What if you go to the first inn on the great south road, I will get the information from Martha, and send Heinzharold to you with the information? Then you can decide which way to go Jan 23 01:00:25 I don't know... I don't think I could Jan 23 01:00:56 * Verity takes off a diamond bracelet, pressing it into his hand Jan 23 01:01:07 Take this. You'll need some money Jan 23 01:01:38 No, mo... Grafin, I'll not take your jewellery... I'll manage. Jan 23 01:01:54 You will take it, I insist upon it Jan 23 01:02:08 * Morgan sighs, taking it Jan 23 01:02:48 I think... I should see Freiarr Eldreich before I leave... and at least -try- to clear the air with the Graf Jan 23 01:03:42 Your Father will be angry for weeks. Sometimes anger has to burn it's out before we can see clearly Jan 23 01:03:52 * Morgan nods Jan 23 01:04:07 But... I would rather at least try Jan 23 01:04:21 * Verity nods, kissing his cheek Jan 23 01:04:41 I love you, dear boy. We will see each other again one day Jan 23 01:04:53 * Morgan nods, wiping his face Jan 23 01:05:15 I'll try to see you before I leave once I've seen Varick Jan 23 01:05:36 I'll be with Martha trying to find Molly for you Jan 23 01:05:50 * Morgan nods Jan 23 01:05:57 Alright... I'll see you soon Jan 23 01:06:28 * Verity lets him go Jan 23 01:06:44 * Morgan bows his head before heading back off to find his father Jan 23 01:07:00 * Verity is now known as Adalbrecht Jan 23 01:07:11 * Adalbrecht is where he was Jan 23 01:07:27 * Morgan knocks quietly Jan 23 01:08:20 * Adalbrecht sounds irritated Jan 23 01:08:22 What?! Jan 23 01:08:32 * Morgan pushes the door open, speaking quietly Jan 23 01:08:39 Can I talk to you my lord? Jan 23 01:09:10 * Adalbrecht is smoking a new cigar Jan 23 01:09:19 You have two minutes. Jan 23 01:09:29 * Morgan nods, moving into the room and closing the door Jan 23 01:10:34 You're right. I'm a coward. And I'm angry, and alone and scared, and when I'm scared I... I attack before I can be attacked, so I don't lose everything again. Jan 23 01:11:17 * Adalbrecht nods very briefly Jan 23 01:11:35 I don't want to lose my family again Jan 23 01:11:55 * Adalbrecht inhales, then blows out a long stream of smoke Jan 23 01:12:34 Which family would that be, Morgan? Your Mother, Edward and I, or Moly and Varick? Or Dietlinde and her children? Jan 23 01:13:10 * Morgan looks a bit lost Jan 23 01:13:51 I just... I just wanted to say I'm sorry for what I said, for trying to strike you... Jan 23 01:13:59 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 01:14:03 It is accepted Jan 23 01:14:19 * Morgan looks at his father, wiping a tear from his cheek Jan 23 01:14:25 Can I ever fix this? Jan 23 01:16:17 Can you see any way of doing that? You are married to an unsuitable woman, and the woman the world thinks is your wife is not. You have three children who need you, in two separate households. If it is known that Dietlinde lives, all the danger returns to our lands. Jan 23 01:16:58 * Morgan shakes his head, tears falling Jan 23 01:17:56 * Adalbrecht sighs Jan 23 01:18:49 What am I going to do with you?! Jan 23 01:19:26 * Adalbrecht has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Jan 23 01:19:47 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 23 01:19:51 * Morgan sounds utterly miserable Jan 23 01:19:59 * MollyK is now known as Adalbrecht Jan 23 01:20:39 I don't know... I don't know what to do, what to say... I'm -ashamed- of myself, for what I was going to do, leaving Varick... I'm lost. Jan 23 01:21:41 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 01:23:01 I see no way in which you can have everything Jan 23 01:24:00 There's little point me considering it... Molly is lost to me, because of what I did and said to you. Jan 23 01:27:29 Molly is not going to get in the way of you and Dietlinde. The option that gives the most success is for you to also have your death faked, change your appearance, move Dietlinde and the children to Catterick as a servant there. Varick can come to have an education and live with you there. But to do that, you will need to accept that Molly is Jan 23 01:27:29 entirely lost to you Jan 23 01:27:59 I don't think I can do that Jan 23 01:28:17 Why not? That is the most sensible plan Jan 23 01:28:32 * Morgan looks anguished Jan 23 01:28:38 Because I love her... and she loves me. Jan 23 01:28:54 You are married already Jan 23 01:29:31 * Morgan opens his mouth before screwing up his face and blowing out slowly Jan 23 01:30:12 I -need- Molly Jan 23 01:31:41 Morgan... I am offering you everything else you could wish for. You will be safe, earn your way, have Dietlinde again and all your children. You will have your Uncle's company, Sudlachenburg will be safe Jan 23 01:34:03 With respect, you're not... you're offering me an impossible choice where I lose my family -and- the woman I love now. Jan 23 01:34:28 Your Mother and I will visit Jan 23 01:34:56 Its still estrangement. Jan 23 01:35:33 It is just living apart, so that you can live with your wife and children Jan 23 01:36:25 You will not relent on this Jan 23 01:36:49 Tell me how else you can be with them Jan 23 01:37:24 I don't know... all I can see is the pain. Try asking the Veisgraf Jan 23 01:39:42 He has suggested you join them in Grenau and take over paying for the house and their expenses, living disgraced and disinherited. But Varick cannot come with you that way. Jan 23 01:40:31 Funny, he told me I could have all of them if I stayed here Jan 23 01:41:15 I fail to see how that is possible if Molly will not participate in the charade Jan 23 01:41:37 Well, thats why he wants to find her Jan 23 01:42:19 Perhaps, and I hate to admit it... perhaps he will see more clearly than either of us... Jan 23 01:43:06 Come on, Morgan, be honest with yourself. You and I both know Molly well enough that she will not want to play at being your wife whilst you have an actual wife you love Jan 23 01:44:08 But I love -her- Jan 23 01:44:46 Then you had better find her yourself Jan 23 01:45:09 I need to know where I stand here Jan 23 01:46:28 A plan will be formed and agreed upon between us all. If you are disowned, it will be only to fit that plan, and not affect the relationships of the family. Jan 23 01:46:57 * Morgan nods slightly Jan 23 01:47:18 Then I need to find Edward Jan 23 01:47:58 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 01:48:30 Go ahead Jan 23 01:48:40 * Morgan nods, moving toward the door Jan 23 01:49:00 I meant what I said... I love you Jan 23 01:50:31 I know. I love you too. And for what it is worth, I am sorry this has happened to you. Jan 23 01:50:55 * Morgan nods, heading out the door to go find Edward Jan 23 01:52:18 * Adalbrecht is now known as Edward Jan 23 01:52:38 * Edward is hard to track down because he has already ridden out in haste Jan 23 01:53:03 * Morgan chases him on Xantha Jan 23 01:53:38 *he manages to catch up in the woods about ten miles from the house* Jan 23 01:54:10 * Morgan whistles at him Jan 23 01:55:04 * Edward reins in Jan 23 01:55:11 What do you want?! Jan 23 01:55:27 * Morgan raises his hands Jan 23 01:55:31 I'm not here to fight Jan 23 01:55:58 I have somewhere to be, get on with it Jan 23 01:56:14 Where? Jan 23 01:57:09 Where Molly has gone Jan 23 01:57:16 Tell me Jan 23 01:58:29 * Morgan has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Jan 23 01:58:33 She told you herself. She's gone to The Rose. Jan 23 01:59:09 * Edward has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Jan 23 09:42:33 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 23 09:43:28 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 23 09:45:00 Tell me Jan 23 09:45:15 [01:43:24] Edward: She told you herself. She's gone to The Rose. Jan 23 09:45:56 * Morgan sets his horse moving again Jan 23 09:46:35 * MollyK does likewise Jan 23 09:46:46 Are you going to Grenau? Jan 23 09:47:07 No. Jan 23 09:47:35 * MollyK is now known as Edward Jan 23 09:48:12 But Lina and your children are there Jan 23 09:48:46 You must all think me so... shallow... to think its that simple Jan 23 09:50:02 I think if you were willing to lose the family, the safety of Sudlachenburg, and your status for her she would be your first port of call Jan 23 09:51:04 * Morgan grinds his teeth Jan 23 09:51:30 Whats it like? Not feeling things like... y'know... a normal person? Jan 23 09:51:56 * Edward looks stoically at the road ahead Jan 23 09:52:11 I do. But that is irrelevant. Jan 23 09:53:30 No... you don't. Its clear you don't, to think that its so simple... to think I'd want to stay here when you told me you'd had them killed... Jan 23 09:54:11 I won't be here much longer Jan 23 09:54:50 That hardly matters. You've broken me already, its your -duty- to stay and help fix all this Jan 23 09:55:12 Morgan... I am getting married. Jan 23 09:55:46 So duty only matters when its the duty that -you- want done... Jan 23 09:56:28 She is noble, and the alliance benefits Sudlachenburg Jan 23 09:57:04 And thusly is my point proven Jan 23 09:57:59 -my- point is that I will not be here to antagonise you Jan 23 09:58:38 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 09:58:45 Who? Jan 23 09:59:00 * Edward smiles Jan 23 09:59:09 Lady Mina Hapsburg Jan 23 09:59:52 I see... so... You break me, and continue to do so, and get a pretty little bride as a reward... right. Jan 23 10:00:30 I am giving you -everything- I can Jan 23 10:00:55 You... actually think you're the good guy here, don't you... Jan 23 10:01:34 On balance, I think I acted according to my noble obligations Jan 23 10:03:04 Well, you'll have to stay Jan 23 10:03:41 I'm afraid that doesn't work with the plan, brother Jan 23 10:04:44 Don't call me that. *he looks over at him* Lets be clear here... the -only- reason you live is because I was not monster enough to do to mother what you did to me. Jan 23 10:05:29 What you -thought- I did to you Jan 23 10:06:35 You're missing the point. You're alive because I could not put mother through that... and only because of that. And for the fucking record, I've spent all this time grieving... -hating- you. Jan 23 10:07:27 If you hadn't run off, you'd have known in weeks! You'd have been there through Lina's pregnancy and delivery! Jan 23 10:08:12 And you'd have been dead long before you could have told me. You don't get it do you? Is the only way to make you understand to make you feel what I felt? Jan 23 10:08:41 You will keep your hands off my betrothed. Jan 23 10:09:35 You actually care for her... Jan 23 10:10:12 I love her with every ounce of my being. Jan 23 10:10:39 Uh huh... Jan 23 10:13:25 I think it is you that just doesn't get it. You damaged our standing, -Sudlachenburg's- standing, with our peers. We've lost vital contracts, and our enemies were planning to annexe us. You betrayed your birthright, and nearly lost the Koertig line everything! Five hundred years, and hundreds of townsfolk raped and murdered. Jan 23 10:14:39 I hope that'll be of comfort in times to come Jan 23 10:15:01 You have the chance to make amends Jan 23 10:15:33 * Morgan sniffs loudly Jan 23 10:15:48 So... its all about duty... Jan 23 10:16:20 That is our obligation. We were born to lead and be responsible Jan 23 10:16:33 That'll make it all easier for you then Jan 23 10:17:35 What is -your- plan then? Jan 23 10:17:57 Oh... has the Graf not told you of his? My plan is... irrelevant now Jan 23 10:18:09 Tell me. Jan 23 10:18:36 Well, I wouldn't be set on heading for Graben if I were you... Sudlachenburg needs a Veisgraf. Jan 23 10:19:09 You are the Veisgraf Jan 23 10:20:50 Oh, he really hasn't consulted you... no... I'm being disowned... and Molly is being brought back to marry the Veisgraf... Jan 23 10:21:50 That is not going to happen. If you are not here as Veisgraf, Molly is not needed Jan 23 10:22:01 The Graf has decided Jan 23 10:22:54 His mind will be changed when he realises what he should have done from the beginning, and removes you for your dishonour Jan 23 10:23:14 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 10:23:24 It is done. I am carrying everything I own. Jan 23 10:24:22 Then you will need to work to pay for your wife and children, providing for them for three years has been expensive Jan 23 10:26:49 I hope it leaves you destitute... however... you are riding with a man who has nothing but a reputation for rash actions here and, in Avalon, a reputation for... lets say putting down monsters... Jan 23 10:27:52 That would excel your idiocy thus far. Jan 23 10:28:02 * Morgan laughs Jan 23 10:30:00 Brave words from a man so precariously balanced on the edge of life Jan 23 10:31:14 Think less of your grudge and more of your duty. I saw Lina three weeks ago. She is waiting for the time you will visit them and find them a home nearer you Jan 23 10:31:30 * Morgan holds up a hand Jan 23 10:32:04 Look... I'm going to be honest with you.. I want you to put aside what you think I should have done and try to understand. Jan 23 10:33:17 * Edward grudgingly nods Jan 23 10:36:08 First... I'm hurting. I'm lashing out because of it. The Graf disowned me but... I don't know, he's now decided it'll only happen as a plan we all agree on. *he looks over at Edward* I've spent three years grieving... if I'd stayed, I'd have killed you and, like I said, I couldn't do that to mother Jan 23 10:36:55 You would have been told the truth in the event of my death. Jan 23 10:37:20 That isn't the point... I couldn't make her feel what I felt. Do you understand that? Jan 23 10:37:27 I do Jan 23 10:38:19 * Morgan nods, breathing slowly Jan 23 10:39:07 I don't want to hurt you, much... threaten as I may, I'm not the sort to murder a woman to get back at you. Jan 23 10:39:26 * Edward nods Jan 23 10:41:21 I have put my life on hold trying to find you. I have pretended that I have been drinking and whoring away my allowance, because the truth is that almost all of it has gone on providing a good life for your wife and children, and investigators to find you. Jan 23 10:42:35 I find it hard to feel any sympathy for you. I can't explain the depth of the pain I've felt for years... trying to get myself killed and not finding a damn thing capable of doing it. Jan 23 10:44:12 I find it hard that I am the villain when I have protected the people you should have protected. Jan 23 10:44:28 * Morgan nods slowly Jan 23 10:45:58 From my point of view, you ripped the people I loved from me... and now I find that it was a ruse and I have once again lost someone I love through your actions... can you see that? Jan 23 10:46:53 I do, but I see the potential for you to bring them all back into the fold Jan 23 10:47:23 I really don't see how... and if you knew Molly, nor would you. Jan 23 10:47:47 She is a disobedient wife? Jan 23 10:49:01 Wilful... but... imagine now what -she- is feeling... she is far from home and even her marriage is not legitimate. How is she supposed to react to that Jan 23 10:49:33 You will lead her back to her place at your side Jan 23 10:49:51 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 10:49:59 I think you're wrong Jan 23 10:50:17 Then what is your intention? Jan 23 10:51:13 I don't know. I need to see her, see if there's any hope at all. Jan 23 10:53:03 And then? Jan 23 10:53:41 I don't know. Father thinks I have to choose. I don't think I can Jan 23 10:55:43 No, Molly is positioned as your wife and Veisgrafin, and Lina moves with the children to Bahnhof or another small village in a day's ride and is your mistress. Which is what she always should have been. Jan 23 10:58:07 And the jealousy that will no doubt ensue? Jan 23 11:00:50 That is something you will need to manage as a husband, in whatever way works. If you cannot, you will need to let one or the other go. But make no mistake, you -will- need a suitable wife to lead Sudlachenburg. Jan 23 11:01:13 * Morgan watches the road Jan 23 11:01:39 The Graf thinks I should fake my death and go to Catterick to work and leave Molly here for you Jan 23 11:02:11 You can do that, but I will marry Mina Jan 23 11:02:47 * Morgan looks like he'll reply before looking away Jan 23 11:03:57 If that is what you intend, I will travel on to Starke and inform Molly Jan 23 11:04:24 No, I need to see her... find out if there's any hope at all Jan 23 11:04:53 * Edward nods Jan 23 11:05:17 Is she foolhardy enough to travel through the schwarzenwald? Jan 23 11:05:41 * Morgan frowns Jan 23 11:05:50 I've told her of the things that roam in there Jan 23 11:06:20 If you were planning to escape from yourself, which way would you go? Jan 23 11:07:03 For someone not born here, through the wall Jan 23 11:07:11 wald* Jan 23 11:07:45 And is she smart enough to assume you would think she would do that? Jan 23 11:07:59 She's smarter than you Jan 23 11:08:49 Then either course is as likely. We should split up if we want to catch her before Starke Jan 23 11:09:50 * Morgan looks at him Jan 23 11:09:54 I don't know I can trust you Jan 23 11:10:04 To do what? Jan 23 11:10:23 At all. Jan 23 11:10:35 * Edward shrugs Jan 23 11:10:44 Yet I am the only choice you have Jan 23 11:11:20 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 11:11:58 I didn't realise the damage I was causing... its not that I didn't care Jan 23 11:12:50 I wouldn't have let you wait three years to know. It is not that I wanted you to suffer. Jan 23 11:13:14 We'll meet in Starke Jan 23 11:13:20 * Edward nods Jan 23 11:13:29 If we do not find her before Jan 23 11:13:36 And if we do? Jan 23 11:14:10 Then we meet in Grenau if she will not come home to Sudlachenburg with us Jan 23 11:14:32 You will do your best to impress upon her my feelings for her have not changed? Jan 23 11:14:52 I will Jan 23 11:15:20 I need her Edward Jan 23 11:15:33 I will tell her that too Jan 23 11:15:47 * Morgan nods Jan 23 11:15:58 Alright Jan 23 11:16:20 I'll go through the schwarzenwald Jan 23 11:17:29 I'll go... I've seen what's in there before and, frankly, I'm more dangerous than you Jan 23 11:17:41 * Edward mulls this over Jan 23 11:17:56 As a gesture of trust, I will permit that Jan 23 11:19:36 * Morgan snorts Jan 23 11:19:45 If thinking that makes you feel better... Jan 23 11:20:24 Time is of the essence. I hope to see you back in Sudlachenburg with Molly in tow. Jan 23 11:20:55 * Morgan nods, urging Xantha towards the forest Jan 23 11:23:45 *there's no clear route, and the trees make it hard to navigate. The sensible course for anyone traversing it southwards would be to keep the lake to the left and follow it until the shoreline turns left. This journey takes hours, but he doesn't stop to eat, hoping to make the most of the August evening. It's almost fully dark when he hears the Jan 23 11:23:45 sound of a waterwheel Jan 23 11:24:09 * Morgan heads towards the sound Jan 23 11:24:42 *he notices light in a window of the house the wheel is attached to* Jan 23 11:24:57 * Morgan heads for the house Jan 23 11:25:38 *it looks structurally sound, if unloved. There's smoke from the chimney* Jan 23 11:26:08 * Morgan climbs down, going to knock on the door Jan 23 11:27:29 * Edward is now known as Molly Jan 23 11:27:42 * Molly opens it, a sword in hand Jan 23 11:28:09 * Morgan looks her over, raising his hands Jan 23 11:28:27 * Molly watches him Jan 23 11:28:34 What are you doing here? Jan 23 11:28:46 Looking for you Jan 23 11:28:56 * Molly looks outside Jan 23 11:29:04 It's getting dark. Jan 23 11:29:14 * Morgan nods Jan 23 11:29:17 Yes it is Jan 23 11:29:51 There is a small shed at the back for horses. I have put water and hay in already. Jan 23 11:30:23 You will let me in? Jan 23 11:30:45 It is dark, the forest will be cold, and it is dangerous Jan 23 11:31:12 That is not an answer Jan 23 11:31:26 Yes, you may come in Jan 23 11:31:48 * Morgan nods, leading Xantha to the shed Jan 23 11:32:44 *the horse huffs* Jan 23 11:32:57 Yeah I know. Just stay here Jan 23 11:34:46 *Xantha looks unimpressed but cooperates* Jan 23 11:34:58 * Morgan pats him before heading back to the small house Jan 23 11:38:22 *it's musty but looks to have been swept around the hearth and a fire lit. She brushes off two old chairs with her hand* Jan 23 11:38:44 There's a little spring water, or some very well-aged whiskey Jan 23 11:39:22 I think the whiskey, don't you? Jan 23 11:41:01 * Molly finds the bottle and hands it to him before taking a seat Jan 23 11:41:13 Did you not receive my letter? Jan 23 11:41:22 * Morgan opens the bottle, taking a large mouthful Jan 23 11:41:29 I did. Jan 23 11:43:02 Then why follow me, my Lord? I said goodbye. Jan 23 11:43:13 Molly, please... I need you Jan 23 11:45:03 * Molly looks at the fire Jan 23 11:45:14 I do not think this can work Jan 23 11:45:27 Why? Jan 23 11:47:09 * Molly watches him Jan 23 11:47:30 You are married Jan 23 11:49:42 I love you. That has not changed. Jan 23 11:49:52 * Molly nods sadly Jan 23 11:50:12 I love you also, as deeply as I ever have Jan 23 11:50:29 Then work with me, we can work this out Jan 23 11:51:57 * Molly shakes her head Jan 23 11:52:01 That is impossible Jan 23 11:52:08 Only if you give up Jan 23 11:53:36 Liebes herz, you are -married-. You have always been married. What we have done has been at odds with that. Unknowingly, of course. Jan 23 11:54:32 Then I suppose I have no choice but to follow my fathers wishes Jan 23 11:56:12 If you can see a way forward that does not harm your wife or children more than I already have, I will listen. Jan 23 11:56:49 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 11:56:58 It depends on you Jan 23 11:57:20 Why? Jan 23 11:58:00 My options here are limited... Jan 23 11:58:28 As are mine. As are everyone else's. Jan 23 11:58:40 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 11:59:13 I find myself thinking Edwards idea is the best of a bad bunch Jan 23 11:59:19 Which is? Jan 23 12:01:04 You come home with me. We love eachother and do what we already had planned... but... I move Dietlinde and the children closer... and keep her as a mistress... Jan 23 12:01:09 * Morgan is frowning as he says this Jan 23 12:01:27 * Molly looks back to the fire Jan 23 12:02:05 I do not think I could make enough of a sacrifice for that... Jan 23 12:02:24 * Morgan puts the bottle on the floor Jan 23 12:02:41 What sacrifice? Jan 23 12:03:20 * Molly squares her shoulders, chin tilting up "You should be with your soulmate, Morgan. She deserves your fidelity, and I deserve no less either" Jan 23 12:05:09 I told him it would not be acceptable. So I'll have to do what my father wants. Yet again I lose the woman I love Jan 23 12:07:30 * Molly shakes her head sadly Jan 23 12:08:25 You will have your family back, Morgan. This is what you have long wished for, and I cannot be responsible for taking that away or damaging it. I cannot be that sort of woman Jan 23 12:09:05 I'm not going to argue with you. You've made up your mind and like everyone else what I want doesn't fucking matter. I'll update my will, the Rose will come back to you soon. Jan 23 12:09:19 * Molly watches him, pained Jan 23 12:09:58 Make no mistake, my heart is broken to tiny pieces over this. I am grieving it, and always will. Jan 23 12:11:40 You don't -have- to. Jan 23 12:13:04 I have shared your heart, I cannot share your body or your time. You do not belong to me. I do not wish you ill, I wish you happiness. Jan 23 12:13:19 * Morgan grinds his teeth Jan 23 12:13:44 Very well. As I said, word of my death will arrive before too long. I cannot stay here without you. Jan 23 12:13:55 * Molly frowns Jan 23 12:14:17 You have a wife and children. You owe it to them to be with them now. Jan 23 12:15:07 Well, you don't need to consider that anymore.. you've made your choice Jan 23 12:15:10 * Morgan s hands up Jan 23 12:15:37 * Molly stands also, looking angry Jan 23 12:16:17 Of course it concerns me! It all concerns me! The people of Sudlachenburg, all of them, I made a vow to protect them. Jan 23 12:16:41 * Morgan moves to the door, opening it Jan 23 12:17:15 Yes, well, I am not able to stay here... I am not -allowed- to... so you can go back and protect them, since I won't be there. Jan 23 12:17:32 What are you talking about?! Jan 23 12:18:59 Are you not listening? I'm not -allowed- to stay. If I am not with you, I -have- to go. My choices are be disowned or make my death known and leave Eisen. Jan 23 12:19:30 * Molly balls her fists Jan 23 12:19:59 The only way to keep you as the Veisgraf and with your parents is for me to yield? Jan 23 12:20:14 * Morgan shrugs, moving outside Jan 23 12:20:57 * Molly follows him into the dark Jan 23 12:21:14 That's not fair! Sudlachenburg needs -you-! Jan 23 12:21:30 Well, apparently not... Jan 23 12:22:06 I... I... don't know what to do! Jan 23 12:23:06 No... I know. I've asked too much of you and must just accept I am to lose you and my family. Jan 23 12:23:15 * Molly 's breath hitches. She sounds teary. He can hear it from the eight feet between them only because it is so very, very quiet outside. Jan 23 12:23:41 It hurts, so much. Jan 23 12:23:45 * Morgan draws his sword Jan 23 12:23:47 Get inside Jan 23 12:23:55 Why? Jan 23 12:24:42 * Morgan turns slowly, scouring his surroundings Jan 23 12:24:50 NOW, Molly Jan 23 12:25:24 *there's barely any light from the lit window, and the moon is too narrow to help. She goes indoors* Jan 23 12:25:53 * Morgan backs up towards the door, still looking around Jan 23 12:26:16 *there's still nothing to see and no noise, even from the stream* Jan 23 12:26:27 What the hell Jan 23 12:27:35 * Molly reaches out, grabbing the back of his shirt, whispering "come indoors" Jan 23 12:27:55 * Morgan backs into the room Jan 23 12:28:20 * Molly shuts the door, bolting it. She leans against it, watching him Jan 23 12:28:46 There's something out there. I can sense it Jan 23 12:28:57 * Morgan nods Jan 23 12:29:55 * Molly continues to watch him, breathing slowly and lightly Jan 23 12:30:06 Do we extinguish the lights? Jan 23 12:30:17 probably Jan 23 12:30:56 * Molly moves, blowing out the candle, leaving only the flickering firelight Jan 23 12:32:03 * Morgan moves to the window Jan 23 12:32:38 *there's nothing to see. She smothers the fire, plunging the room into darkness too Jan 23 12:33:19 * Morgan huffs frustratedly Jan 23 12:34:11 Do you think it's the *he gets chance to cut her off* Jan 23 12:35:06 Maybe.... maybe... Jan 23 12:35:45 * Molly nods, pulling a blanket around her and sitting by the fading heat of the fire Jan 23 12:42:54 Now what? Jan 23 12:46:35 Why ask me? Jan 23 12:47:28 * Molly shrugs, wiping her eyes, only just visible by the embers' light Jan 23 12:47:46 Because I am so lost right now Jan 23 12:48:17 I am rudderless. What I want I can't have so I am at the mercy of others now Jan 23 12:48:38 What is it you truly want? Jan 23 12:49:20 You. But I cannot leave them abandoned... thats not something the person -you- love could do Jan 23 12:50:11 No. No man who could abandon his family so callously would be worthy of it. Jan 23 12:50:46 * Morgan moves to the far wall, sitting down on the floor so he has a view of the window and door Jan 23 12:51:26 * Molly watches him a moment before moving to sit similarly, a four feet gap between them Jan 23 12:52:26 You are suffering, and I am wallowing in self-pity like a sulking child who has had their favourite toy taken away Jan 23 12:52:40 You are, as you said, grieving Jan 23 12:53:17 I do not want to lose you... Jan 23 12:53:28 But... Jan 23 12:53:53 But I do not know how easily I will bear it Jan 23 12:54:07 * Morgan nods Jan 23 12:55:34 I do not know it would be -right- to live as we were. I cannot even touch you! Jan 23 12:56:05 Why? Jan 23 12:56:19 Because you are a married man Jan 23 12:56:53 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 12:58:05 * Molly draws her knees up, wrapping her arms around them Jan 23 12:59:21 My resolve is slipping... I should have courage in my convictions, but the thought of living my life without you seems so very grey and miserable Jan 23 13:00:23 Come back with me... Edward is many things but no-one could accuse him of being dense... maybe he can think of a way through this Jan 23 13:00:59 There is not one I can see that does not end with suffering Jan 23 13:01:48 I know... Jan 23 13:02:21 Why can't I just say no? Jan 23 13:03:40 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 13:03:45 I don't know Jan 23 13:04:06 * Molly watches him as much as she can in the dimness Jan 23 13:05:14 Tell me you would be happy with them? Tell me that after a few weeks you would be over this and rebuilding your life with your wife and children... please? Jan 23 13:05:29 You want me to lie to you Jan 23 13:05:46 It would be a lie? Jan 23 13:06:05 I need you... Jan 23 13:07:35 Why? I have supported you through the grief, but you need not grieve now, they are alive and waiting for you. I've done what I set out to do Jan 23 13:08:11 So now I must grieve us? While fleeing the country again Jan 23 13:08:42 To where? Jan 23 13:08:50 .my shrugs Jan 23 13:08:57 Father wants to send me to Catterick to work Jan 23 13:09:21 And they will go with you? Jan 23 13:09:35 Thats his plan Jan 23 13:09:49 But you do not want that... Jan 23 13:12:05 I do not want to be without you Jan 23 13:12:15 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:12:42 Do you think it would be too awful if we held hands? Jan 23 13:13:45 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 13:13:51 I don't think so... Jan 23 13:14:16 * Molly shuffles a little closer, offering her left hand Jan 23 13:14:28 * Morgan reaches out, taking it Jan 23 13:15:18 *it feels so odd without her wedding ring or Sudlache ring* Jan 23 13:16:53 * Morgan runs his thumb over her finger where they should be Jan 23 13:17:08 * Molly sobs briefly before stifling it Jan 23 13:17:59 Oh blossom Jan 23 13:18:13 Sorry, I'm just emotional Jan 23 13:19:17 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:19:18 Me too Jan 23 13:19:46 I... I don't want to let you go Jan 23 13:20:03 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:21:52 * Molly brings his hand to her cheek, resting against it. He can feel the wet heat of tears against his cold knuckles Jan 23 13:22:43 Please, come to me Jan 23 13:23:02 * Molly does, very tentatively Jan 23 13:23:24 * Morgan puts his arm around her, pulling her close Jan 23 13:23:55 * Molly cries against his shoulder "Oh, liebling!" Jan 23 13:25:04 * Morgan rocks her gently Jan 23 13:26:13 * Molly puts her arm around his waist, holding him tight Jan 23 13:27:05 If I stay, as Edward wishes...? Jan 23 13:27:32 Yes? Jan 23 13:27:44 I want to have a baby. Jan 23 13:28:28 Oh... right... Jan 23 13:30:01 You will be absent often. I will want to serve my purpose as the Veisgrafin by providing an heir. Jan 23 13:30:29 * Morgan nods slowly Jan 23 13:30:30 I see Jan 23 13:30:53 Sudlachenburg needs heirs. Jan 23 13:31:01 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:31:18 It does. It was on the cards anyway I suppose Jan 23 13:31:31 One day, yes Jan 23 13:32:02 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:33:05 I do not want to be alone all the time. Jan 23 13:34:16 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:34:20 That is understandable Jan 23 13:34:37 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:34:53 That is an acceptable term? Jan 23 13:35:50 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:35:56 I believe so Jan 23 13:37:13 Then if it doesn't work, you will at the least have a legitimate heir, and we can have a partnership based on bringing up our children and friendship Jan 23 13:37:34 * Morgan sighs sadly Jan 23 13:38:43 That will satisfy Edward and your Father, and the needs of the Grafdom, and Varick Jan 23 13:38:51 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:38:53 I suppose so Jan 23 13:39:12 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:40:06 It will be very difficult for me, but I will endeavour to make those sacrifices and find joy in serving Sudlachenburg and being a mother Jan 23 13:40:26 Don't consign what we have to doom already... please Jan 23 13:40:56 You do not think it might well be doomed? Jan 23 13:41:28 I don't know but I am not willing to fight for us with one foot half out the door... Jan 23 13:41:54 * Molly shrugs a little Jan 23 13:42:36 Once you are back with your family, your conviction might not be so firm Jan 23 13:43:03 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 13:45:00 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:45:18 I will come back with you. Jan 23 13:46:07 * Morgan exhales suddenly Jan 23 13:47:27 Thank you Jan 23 13:47:56 I still love you, Morgan. Jan 23 13:48:38 And I you. That has not changed Jan 23 13:48:48 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:49:36 In Theus eyes, I will only be your mistress, but I hope he will understand we are just doing our best Jan 23 13:50:29 We made our vows to him in good faith Jan 23 13:51:19 And from now on anything that happens between us would be an infidelity, because it would not be in good faith, would it? Jan 23 13:51:45 It is in line with our vows Jan 23 13:52:04 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:52:31 And if he does not approve, I suppose we will see that in us not creating a child... Jan 23 13:53:17 What is the phrase... he moves in mysterious ways... Jan 23 13:53:25 * Molly nods Jan 23 13:53:42 I'd like it if he would just sit still a while! Jan 23 13:53:54 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:53:56 Quite Jan 23 13:54:51 * Molly brings his hand to her mouth, kissing his knuckles Jan 23 13:55:20 * Morgan sighs quietly Jan 23 13:56:20 Legally and politically, you are my husband Jan 23 13:56:29 * Morgan nods Jan 23 13:56:34 And in my heart Jan 23 13:56:48 * Molly sighs Jan 23 13:57:18 I don't know you'll feel the same in the weeks or months ahead, but it is nice to hear it now Jan 23 13:58:29 I'm sure I will Jan 23 13:59:31 * Molly fidgets to her knees to briefly kiss him gently. He hears his blood rush in his ears Jan 23 13:59:57 * Morgan smiles slightly Jan 23 14:00:04 Please don't ever scare me like that again Jan 23 14:00:18 Scare you? Jan 23 14:00:28 *the noise continues* Jan 23 14:01:04 * Morgan nods before shaking his head slightly Jan 23 14:02:00 How? Jan 23 14:02:20 *it's not in his head, it's the noise of the water wheel* Jan 23 14:02:20 I thought I'd lost you... for a while I thought you'd walked into the Sudlache Jan 23 14:02:35 I am such a poor throw Jan 23 14:03:37 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:03:46 Whatever was out there has moved on I think Jan 23 14:03:56 * Molly nods Jan 23 14:04:23 If I ever choose to leave, I promise I will let you know Jan 23 14:04:35 * Morgan nods, sighing Jan 23 14:04:42 I need you with me Jan 23 14:05:00 You would manage better than you believe Jan 23 14:05:37 No... I wouldn't. Jan 23 14:05:56 You have so much to live for now Jan 23 14:07:21 Stop... stop trying to tell me how I would feel Jan 23 14:07:56 I'm sorry Jan 23 14:08:30 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:09:16 Do you think the danger has passed? Jan 23 14:09:32 Uhhh, probably... tough to say in the forest Jan 23 14:10:08 * Molly moves, carefully sitting in his lap "is this alright?" Jan 23 14:11:00 * Morgan nods, holding her to him Jan 23 14:11:54 * Molly holds tightly, tucking her head under his chin. She smells of rose water, much nicer than the musty room Jan 23 14:13:39 * Morgan shudders Jan 23 14:14:46 * Molly strokes his shoulder soothingly Jan 23 14:15:01 It's alright, there's no danger now Jan 23 14:15:37 I nearly lost you Jan 23 14:17:12 * Molly nods Jan 23 14:17:18 But you found me Jan 23 14:17:57 Barely. I was nearly on my way to Ussura or Vesten Jan 23 14:19:08 You wouldn't abandon your children like that Jan 23 14:20:14 It looked remarkably like I was... it took seeing my mothers upset for me to see sense Jan 23 14:21:16 And now you won't. Jan 23 14:23:05 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:23:49 * Molly nods Jan 23 14:24:20 We should light the fires? There are bedrooms upstairs, but they will be cold a while Jan 23 14:24:28 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:24:33 Aye, lets try to get warm Jan 23 14:25:34 * Molly nods, kissing him once more "maybe it will seem easier tomorrow?" Jan 23 14:26:45 God I hope so Jan 23 14:27:50 Me too Jan 23 14:28:24 * Molly getting off his lap wakes him Jan 23 14:28:57 * Morgan takes a few deep breaths before turning over, shuddering Jan 23 14:30:29 * Molly is on her side of the bed, only one cold foot on his shin Jan 23 14:30:58 * Morgan rolls towards her, pressing his body against hers Jan 23 14:31:54 * Molly stirs, wrapping an arm around him sleepily Jan 23 14:33:11 * Morgan presses his head against her, breathing deeply until he is calm enough to try to go back to sleep Jan 23 14:35:54 *he dreams the same thing, but the next afternoon when they've arrived at Die Dauerhaftigkeit. Molly looks up at the Veisgraf Wing* here we are... Jan 23 14:36:13 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:36:19 I should go and find the Graf Jan 23 14:37:31 * Molly nods. The window above opens, and it's Inga Jan 23 14:37:50 I: Molly! I'm coming right down! Jan 23 14:38:11 * Molly nods, looking at Morgan "good luck." Jan 23 14:38:33 * Morgan nods, looking at her for a moment before going to find Adalbrecht Jan 23 14:39:36 * Molly is now known as Adalbrecht Jan 23 14:39:45 * Adalbrecht is once again in his office Jan 23 14:40:05 * Morgan knocks Jan 23 14:41:00 Come Jan 23 14:42:44 * Morgan goes into the room, closing the door behind him Jan 23 14:44:13 * Adalbrecht gestures to a seat Jan 23 14:45:03 * Morgan sits down Jan 23 14:45:06 Has Edward returned? Jan 23 14:45:25 No Jan 23 14:46:04 damn Jan 23 14:46:32 I would think he will keep looking for her until he checks the ship Jan 23 14:46:45 I found her Jan 23 14:46:53 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 14:47:00 That was quick Jan 23 14:47:30 Tough to get too far when you don't know the place so well... and when you don't understand that forest Jan 23 14:48:11 She went int-... *he raises his hands, shaking his head with exasperation* it's Molly, of course she did. Jan 23 14:48:24 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:49:46 And is she staying? Jan 23 14:49:57 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:50:22 I never thought I'd say this... but I need Edwards help to steer my way through all this Jan 23 14:50:52 He might not be back for a more than a week if he's gone to Starke Jan 23 14:52:03 * Morgan sighs, nodding Jan 23 14:52:43 His plan... was to have Molly here with me, but move Dietlinde and the children to somewhere like... Banhoff, to live as my mistress... as it should have been, apparently Jan 23 14:53:06 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 14:53:21 It's not the worst idea he has ever had. Jan 23 14:54:49 * Morgan sighs, shrugging Jan 23 14:54:59 I can't even fathom it... but I cannot lose everything again Jan 23 14:55:34 I am not enthused by the idea of any Koertig man having a mistress. Jan 23 14:56:27 No... nor am I but... exceptional times... Jan 23 14:56:39 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 14:57:02 Indeed. Have you seen Heinzharold? Jan 23 14:57:21 No, I came straight to you. Lessons have been learned... Jan 23 14:57:28 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 14:58:09 He is riding out to follow Claudia to Grenau. If you have a message to convey, or you are accompanying him, you should find him Jan 23 14:59:19 * Morgan nods Jan 23 14:59:25 I don't know if I should go or not Jan 23 15:00:32 That is up to you, but I think it would be cruel to leave them waiting without further word, don't you? Jan 23 15:00:43 * Morgan nods Jan 23 15:00:58 I'll... you will look after Molly while I am gone? Jan 23 15:02:22 If she will allow that. I assume she is feeling prickly? Jan 23 15:02:46 She is distraught father. I think perhaps mother and Martha and Inga would be best to support her? Jan 23 15:02:55 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 15:03:02 I will arrange that Jan 23 15:03:27 * Morgan nods, standing Jan 23 15:03:50 With your permission... Jan 23 15:03:56 * Adalbrecht nods Jan 23 15:04:06 Of course, my son. Stay safe. Jan 23 15:04:22 * Morgan nods, leaving the room to find HeinzHarold Jan 23 15:04:30 * Adalbrecht is now known as HH Jan 23 15:04:47 *staff tell him he is in the Veisgraf Wing* Jan 23 15:05:44 * HH is found playing cards with Varick in the parlour Jan 23 15:05:49 * Morgan heads in that direction Jan 23 15:06:18 *Varick comes to hug him* I missed you Jan 23 15:06:34 I missed you too Varick Jan 23 15:06:54 V: Can you play cards with me? Heinzharold isn't very good Jan 23 15:07:20 I'm afraid HeinzHarold and I need to get ready to go somewhere... Jan 23 15:07:31 V: Can I come? Jan 23 15:07:40 * HH stands up, stretching Jan 23 15:07:42 No lad, I need you to stay here and look after Molly Jan 23 15:07:58 V: where are you going? Jan 23 15:08:36 Its a bit difficult to explain right now Jan 23 15:09:19 V: okay. When will you be back? *Grenau is about four days away* Jan 23 15:09:31 In a week or so Jan 23 15:10:08 V: okay *he picks up the deck* then we're going to our ship? Jan 23 15:10:45 I don't know yet... Jan 23 15:10:59 * HH pats Morgan's arm Jan 23 15:11:05 Got enough kit? Jan 23 15:11:11 * Morgan nods Jan 23 15:11:16 Need to tell Molly I'm going Jan 23 15:11:27 * HH nods Jan 23 15:11:35 I'll fetch out Inga Jan 23 15:11:41 * Morgan nods Jan 23 15:11:44 Right Jan 23 15:12:16 * HH does so. She looks subdued, curtsying a little as she passes him Jan 23 15:12:42 * Morgan sighs sadly as he goes in to Molly Jan 23 15:12:57 * HH is now known as Molly Jan 23 15:13:11 * Molly is packing something into their chest Jan 23 15:13:25 * Morgan watches her Jan 23 15:13:27 What's that? Jan 23 15:14:00 The herbs I take to prevent conception. I missed them yesterday, and I will not be restarting them Jan 23 15:14:14 * Morgan nods, taking a breath Jan 23 15:14:23 I have to go away for a few days Jan 23 15:14:32 * Molly looks surprised Jan 23 15:14:36 Already?! Jan 23 15:15:14 HeinzHarold is going to meet Claudia in Grenau... Jan 23 15:16:10 * Molly nods Jan 23 15:16:26 I see. I will see you when you return Jan 23 15:16:36 You wish me to stay Jan 23 15:17:06 Of course I do, but it must be done, so you should go Jan 23 15:17:30 * Morgan leans against the wall Jan 23 15:17:46 I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave you... Jan 23 15:18:13 You need to see you your responsibilities and meet your.. your son. Jan 23 15:18:40 * Morgan nods, sighing Jan 23 15:19:56 I'll be here when you get back Jan 23 15:20:16 * Morgan nods Jan 23 15:20:26 My father is arranging our mothers to come and be with you Jan 23 15:20:33 * Molly nods Jan 23 15:20:41 That is helpful, thank you Jan 23 15:20:54 * Morgan watches her, obviously hurting Jan 23 15:21:22 * Molly opens her arms immediately Jan 23 15:21:28 Come here, liebling Jan 23 15:22:06 * Morgan comes to her, holding her tightly Jan 23 15:22:57 It's alright. It's going to be strange, but if you bear in mind that neither of the children know you, they will soon warm up Jan 23 15:23:09 * Morgan nods Jan 23 15:23:16 I'll get back as soon as I possibly can Jan 23 15:23:32 * Molly sighs softly, then shakes her head Jan 23 15:23:59 Take the time you need with your children. We will fare well enough an extra few days Jan 23 15:24:12 * Morgan nods, letting her go and kissing her cheek Jan 23 15:24:40 * Molly gives him a smile that doesn't quite meet her eyes Jan 23 15:24:54 Be careful out there Jan 23 15:25:08 * Morgan nods Jan 23 15:25:27 Edward should be back in a few days... try not to kill him Jan 23 15:25:52 * Molly nods Jan 23 15:26:04 I will do my best, that is all I will promise Jan 23 15:26:50 * Morgan nods, letting her go Jan 23 15:26:53 I love you Jan 23 15:26:59 And I, you Jan 23 15:28:59 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 23 15:57:02 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 23 16:34:26 Oh, liebes herz? Jan 23 16:34:54 Yes? Jan 23 16:35:02 Do you have my rings, please? Jan 23 16:35:11 * Morgan nods, holding them out Jan 23 16:35:51 * Molly holds her hand out for him to put them on her Jan 23 16:36:29 * Morgan does so gently Jan 23 16:37:35 * Molly watches him solemnly Jan 23 16:38:02 *she says quietly* for better or worse... Jan 23 16:38:31 * Morgan nods Jan 23 16:40:53 I'll see you when you get home, my love Jan 23 16:42:15 * Morgan nods Jan 23 16:42:22 Yes... you will Jan 23 16:42:49 * Molly nods, kissing him softly before gently pulling away Jan 23 16:43:13 * Morgan nods before sighing and going to back out to HeinzHarold Jan 23 16:43:28 * Molly is now known as HH Jan 23 16:45:05 * HH heads to the stables. They have to ride out west to meet the great south road just as he started to yesterday. HH waits til they're definitely alone before saying Jan 23 16:45:13 Fuuuuuuuckin' hell. Jan 23 16:46:09 Yeah. Jan 23 16:46:47 * HH raises his face to the sunlight that manages to make it through the trees Jan 23 16:47:13 Sent a note to th' Golden Lantern cancellin' the honeymoon Jan 23 16:47:23 I'm so sorry man Jan 23 16:47:42 Not yer fault, an' figure you got much bigger problems Jan 23 16:50:03 Inga must hate me now huh Jan 23 16:50:54 She's really worried about Molly, but she knows it's not yer fault Jan 23 16:51:10 I've never felt so unwelcome in my childhood home before Jan 23 16:51:25 B'cause of Inga? Jan 23 16:51:47 No, she's just... avoiding me, like everyone else Jan 23 16:52:42 No one know wha' to say to ya, man. Do we congratulate ya? Or give y' condolences that e'erythings been turned on its head? Jan 23 16:53:01 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 16:53:14 I don't know... Jan 23 16:53:52 Tha's why theyr're avoidin' ya. Don' wan' make it worse Jan 23 16:55:00 I suppose. Aint how it feels though Jan 23 16:55:19 How's it feel? Jan 23 16:56:09 Like I'm not wanted there... like I'm not welcome anymore Jan 23 16:57:20 It'll all come out in th' wash, my Ma says. Once y' see Dietlinde an' the babes, things will be better, and once y' get yer bearings it'll be easier t' sort it Jan 23 16:57:54 Edward has this... -mental- idea Jan 23 16:58:25 More mental than fakin' their deaths, b'cause whoa, that's mental Jan 23 16:58:52 * Morgan nods Jan 23 16:59:13 I stay here, married to Molly, do the whole duty thing... and keep my first wife as a mistress somewhere nearby... Jan 23 16:59:42 Yeah, alright, that's slightly more mental Jan 23 16:59:46 * Morgan nods Jan 23 16:59:49 Yeah. Jan 23 17:00:07 What's yer plan? Jan 23 17:00:21 Got to try man Jan 23 17:00:40 Not told Molly yet then Jan 23 17:00:46 * Morgan nods Jan 23 17:01:00 I have. Couldn't bring her back to drop that on her Jan 23 17:01:19 How th' fuck did you get her to come back knowin' that?! Jan 23 17:01:30 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 17:01:36 We love eachother Jan 23 17:02:11 I love Inga, but there'd be hell to pay before I let her sleep with another man! Jan 23 17:02:40 Yeah, its... its not going to be easy. Jan 23 17:03:03 Damn right Jan 23 17:03:53 So Molly hasn't flipped her shit... that's a big surprise, gotta say Jan 23 17:04:40 Sat in a cottage in the forest while something creeps around outside... didn't have much opportunity to... and she didn't like the alternatives Jan 23 17:04:57 'Less it's th' calm before the storm... what's th' alternatives? Jan 23 17:05:17 Yeah, I'm worried about that to be honest... Jan 23 17:06:04 I warned Inga t' keep an eye on 'er Jan 23 17:06:18 * Morgan nods Jan 23 17:06:26 She needs to stay stuck to her side Jan 23 17:06:40 Needs t' tie 'er to the bed! Jan 23 17:06:58 * Morgan nods Jan 23 17:07:53 Askin' a lot Jan 23 17:08:00 God I know Jan 23 17:08:57 Y' think mebbie it's better to let her go? Jan 23 17:09:23 I can't man... I can't lose her Jan 23 17:09:50 Better to keep 'er an' watch her struggle with it though? Jan 23 17:10:10 * Morgan flinches, looking deeply wounded Jan 23 17:11:25 Alright. I'll let her go. And then you'll have to spend a year or so grieving... my only other option here is to make my death known and leave my home, my friends, my family Jan 23 17:12:08 Mebbie Inga an' me would up sticks and follow ya Jan 23 17:12:34 Oh yeah, that wouldn't give it away at all... Jan 23 17:13:09 Tell people I got a job working for a nobleman I fought with in th' War Jan 23 17:13:38 In another country... a noble man from another country... even an idiot would see through that Jan 23 17:14:40 No one gon' be interested in me, man Jan 23 17:15:09 * Morgan sighs Jan 23 17:15:30 Maybe it'd be better if I just.... Did die. Jan 23 17:15:56 Tha's not fair to any o' them, man Jan 23 17:16:49 They'd be taken care of. I have savings... they wouldn't be put through all this ongoing -bullshit-. They'd grieve for a while and then move on. Jan 23 17:17:32 * HH sighs Jan 23 17:18:13 Well, me an' Claudia didn't grieve an' move on when ya fucked off, so pretty sure we wouldn't Jan 23 17:18:34 But you'd know for sure Jan 23 17:19:08 Not moved on from my Da. Wish he was 'ere to slap sense into ya Jan 23 17:19:42 Yeah... well... he was a better man Jan 23 17:20:34 He'da known what t' do Jan 23 17:21:19 * Morgan nods, looking at the horizon as he scratches at his chin Jan 23 17:22:10 Whatcha gon' say when we get there? Jan 23 17:22:32 Dunno. Not exactly had time to think about it. Jan 23 17:22:52 Better get started then Jan 23 17:23:29 * Morgan stares up at the sky for a moment before nodding to himself Jan 23 17:24:18 * HH watches him Jan 23 17:24:28 You a flight risk too? Jan 23 17:25:07 No... I've got families to provide for Jan 23 17:25:15 * HH nods Jan 23 17:25:20 Yeah Jan 23 17:25:49 Gon' become a monk so neither o' 'em gets upset? Jan 23 17:26:28 Need to provide Sudlachenburg an heir Jan 23 17:26:55 But y' already got a son Jan 23 17:27:06 Not one that can be acknowledged like that Jan 23 17:27:35 Oh yeah. Bit confusing. So who are y' gon' have a kid with? Jan 23 17:27:45 Molly, obviously... Jan 23 17:28:08 Yeah, but acknowledged kid off a mistress is valid too Jan 23 17:28:28 Its something Molly insisted upon Jan 23 17:28:41 Molly wants a baby?! Jan 23 17:28:46 * Morgan nods Jan 23 17:29:06 It'll make her future safe and secure... Jan 23 17:29:19 * HH nods slowly Jan 23 17:29:31 Makes her irreplaceable... Jan 23 17:29:45 yeah Jan 23 17:30:42 Jeeez Jan 23 17:31:08 Well, means she's prob'ly not a flight risk til she's had a babe then Jan 23 17:31:46 I don't -think- she'd run with a child Jan 23 17:32:04 No, but mebbie she wouldn't take the babe Jan 23 17:32:25 Going to have to talk with her about it when we get back Jan 23 17:32:39 * HH nods Jan 23 17:32:59 Find out how much y' might lose still, aside from yer peace o' mind Jan 23 17:33:29 * Morgan doesn't reply, looking round Jan 23 17:34:21 *it all looks peaceful. HH gives him an hour before saying* must be looking forward to seeing 'em again though Jan 23 17:34:30 terrified Jan 23 17:35:18 Why? 'S only Dietlinde, Jana, plus one Jan 23 17:35:36 I'm not the same man I was. Jan 23 17:36:17 She ain't gonna have fallen outta love with you, man Jan 23 17:36:45 She may well do. Such a gentle person can hardly love a monster like me Jan 23 17:37:10 * HH shrugs Jan 23 17:37:27 Mebbie she'd be doin' y' a favour Jan 23 17:37:55 If thats what she chooses, I'll still make sure they are provided for Jan 23 17:38:34 * HH nods Jan 23 17:38:59 Ne'er doubted that Jan 23 17:39:22 * Morgan nods slightly Jan 23 17:40:21 I got yer back. Y' know I'll support ya however I can Jan 23 17:42:30 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 23 17:51:23 * HH has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 23 18:06:21 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 23 18:34:06 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 23 19:03:48 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 23 19:30:35 * MollyK has quit (Ping Timeout) Jan 23 21:05:14 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 23 21:18:15 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 23 22:54:59 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 23 23:01:15 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 23 23:01:34 * MollyK is now known as HH Jan 23 23:01:38 [17:25:12] HH: I got yer back. Y' know I'll support ya however I can Jan 23 23:02:01 Long as they're safe and provided for, thats what's important Jan 23 23:02:11 And happy, right? Jan 23 23:03:13 Yeah, ideally, but if all three aren't doable, I'll settle for the first two Jan 23 23:03:35 * HH nods Jan 23 23:03:43 How's yer Da takin' it? Jan 23 23:04:24 He's sided with his favourite son, as usual Jan 23 23:04:49 What th' fuck did Edward think was gon' happen?! Jan 23 23:05:30 Clearly he thought father would back his actions and he was right Jan 23 23:06:06 Well now yer in a much more complicated situation than before Jan 23 23:06:27 * Morgan nods Jan 23 23:07:18 Where is Edward any'ow? Jan 23 23:07:43 On his way to Starke looking for Molly Jan 23 23:08:16 Keeps 'im outta her way at least Jan 23 23:08:40 He'll be back before us Jan 23 23:09:08 He gonna catch it? Jan 23 23:09:26 Thats his problem Jan 23 23:09:36 Y' hoping so? Jan 23 23:10:12 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 23:10:27 I don't want her in conflict Jan 23 23:10:44 Got enough o' that with you? Jan 23 23:13:52 Yeah, alright Jan 23 23:14:09 * HH rides on Jan 23 23:15:03 Think I know where we're headed. How we gon' handle this? Gonna stop for the nights, or try to sleep in the saddle in turns, get there as quick as we can? Jan 23 23:17:24 I don't see me sleeping Jan 23 23:19:32 Gon' need to be on form when we get there, man Jan 23 23:20:43 * Morgan nods Jan 23 23:22:37 * HH starts to sing"Come all you young sailer men, listen to me..." Jan 23 23:23:11 * Morgan glances at him Jan 23 23:23:52 * HH looks at him, still singing "I'll tell ya a tale o' the fish in the sea...?" Jan 23 23:24:48 * Morgan sighs, looking at the road ahead Jan 23 23:26:07 *The chiming of the dawn watch wakes him* Jan 23 23:27:18 * Morgan climbs gently out of bed, pulling his trousers and boots on Jan 23 23:27:38 *he manages not to disturb her* Jan 23 23:30:57 * Morgan throws his shirt over his shoulder and heads out, filling his flask with coffee before going up on deck and straight to the main mast Jan 23 23:32:11 *Claudia Is already up it, about where they usually sit Jan 23 23:32:15 * HH is now known as Claudia Jan 23 23:34:10 * Morgan clambers up into the rigging Jan 23 23:34:23 Hey Jan 23 23:34:36 hey Jan 23 23:34:45 Okay? Jan 23 23:35:07 Rough dreams. You? Jan 23 23:36:02 Same Jan 23 23:38:02 * Morgan nods Jan 23 23:38:07 Wanna tell me about it? Jan 23 23:38:27 * Claudia shakes her head Jan 23 23:38:39 Erlangen again. You know it already Jan 23 23:39:23 * Morgan nods Jan 23 23:39:26 Alright Jan 23 23:39:40 You? Jan 23 23:40:28 No, thanks. Jan 23 23:40:56 Must be bad if you won't talk to me Jan 23 23:42:13 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 23:42:22 I just... can't... its too much Jan 23 23:43:16 Something we need to watch for? Jan 23 23:43:22 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 23:43:29 I'd push through the pain for that Jan 23 23:43:40 * Claudia nods Jan 23 23:44:47 I'm here for you... Jan 23 23:45:36 * Morgan nods, squeezing his eyes shut, a tear rolling down his cheek Jan 23 23:46:17 * Claudia moves across in the rigging until she can hug him Jan 23 23:46:55 * Morgan leans against her, shuddering as silent sobs pour from him Jan 23 23:47:14 * Claudia stays put, and stays quiet Jan 23 23:48:22 * Morgan pulls away after a few minutes, rubbing at his face Jan 23 23:48:51 Fucking ridiculous Jan 23 23:49:13 * Claudia settles back beside him, offering her flask Jan 23 23:49:32 What? Jan 23 23:49:42 * Morgan takes it, sipping it before handing it back Jan 23 23:49:48 Being this upset over a fucking dream Jan 23 23:49:56 *its Edward's whiskey* Jan 23 23:50:01 * Claudia shrugs Jan 23 23:50:21 I've been up for three hours from mine Jan 23 23:50:36 * Morgan nods Jan 23 23:50:45 I've dreamed it all damn night Jan 23 23:51:32 * Claudia nods Jan 23 23:51:45 Anything can be done? Jan 23 23:52:22 * Morgan shrugs Jan 23 23:52:34 Just need to feel it a while and try to let it go I think Jan 23 23:53:29 * Claudia nods Jan 23 23:53:44 Have you had help from Molly? Jan 23 23:54:22 * Morgan shakes his head Jan 23 23:54:40 I needed to get outside, coffee and fresh air Jan 23 23:55:00 * Claudia nods Jan 23 23:55:21 Helping? Jan 23 23:55:34 Some, aye Jan 23 23:57:02 * Claudia nods Jan 23 23:57:15 Whatever it was, it's gone now Jan 23 23:57:31 Pity it won't stay that way Jan 23 23:58:36 Why? Jan 23 23:59:37 These dreams of paths... once they're at an end, they turn a sort of blue tint... it hasn't done that, so I'll dream it again Jan 23 23:59:52 Same thing over?