**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sun Jan 15 00:00:07 2023 Jan 15 00:00:07 Can you ask them why they aren't resting? Jan 15 00:00:21 * Varick walks to where the cottage once stood. There's only moonlight Jan 15 00:00:27 I'll ask Jan 15 00:01:17 * Morgan nods, watching him Jan 15 00:01:56 *Morgan notices a strange yellow light from the corner of his eye by a tree* Jan 15 00:03:01 * Morgan glances towards it Jan 15 00:03:33 *it's getting bigger. A foot in diameter, then two, three* Jan 15 00:05:07 Uhhh... Varick... can you see that? Jan 15 00:05:21 * Varick looks Jan 15 00:05:25 It's a tree Jan 15 00:06:32 You can't see the light? Jan 15 00:06:51 * Varick shakes his head, missing the five foot circle Jan 15 00:07:15 * Morgan watches it Jan 15 00:07:32 *it stops growing at six feet* Jan 15 00:07:40 The hell... Jan 15 00:08:16 * Varick goes back to standing quietly in the clearing Jan 15 00:08:32 * Morgan approaches the circle Jan 15 00:08:59 *it looks like there's a room in there Jan 15 00:09:13 * Morgan gets closer, looking closely Jan 15 00:09:59 *it looks like a nursery in an unfamiliar noble house. There's children running around and playing* Jan 15 00:10:14 What did they say Varick? Jan 15 00:10:28 * Morgan gets closer, edging sideways to look in at an angle Jan 15 00:10:40 They were waiting for you to be ready to let go Jan 15 00:11:11 *the room looks the same as if looking through a door. The circle is flat Jan 15 00:11:34 How do I do that? I don't want them hanging around for me when they should be at peace Jan 15 00:11:48 * Varick shrugs Jan 15 00:11:59 I don't know Jan 15 00:12:20 * Morgan sighs, getting closer to the circle Jan 15 00:12:35 Can you tell them I'll try? Jan 15 00:12:42 Yes Jan 15 00:13:11 *there looks to be at least fifteen children aged five and under in that room* Jan 15 00:13:30 What on Theah... Jan 15 00:13:51 *nothing changes* Jan 15 00:14:41 * Morgan gets right up to it Jan 15 00:14:45 You really can't see this? Jan 15 00:14:56 I just see a tree Jan 15 00:15:04 Can they see it? Jan 15 00:15:53 *he can hear from it "sixteen, seventeen, eighteen... one, two... three..." Jan 15 00:15:56 No Jan 15 00:17:38 * Morgan frowns, gingerly putting his fingers at the threshold of the circle Jan 15 00:19:42 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 15 00:21:22 * Varick has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 15 19:18:35 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 15 19:19:35 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 15 19:19:54 * MollyK is now known as Varick Jan 15 19:20:10 *it feels warm* Jan 15 19:21:33 * Morgan puts his face as close as he can Jan 15 19:22:18 *his face also feels warm. It smells like children, beeswax, and roses* Jan 15 19:24:07 * Morgan holds his breath, pushing forward some Jan 15 19:25:17 *he finds himself in that room. The sunlight streams through the window, it's warm. It's also loud and busy Jan 15 19:25:30 * Morgan looks round quickly Jan 15 19:25:56 *he knows he's dreaming and why it's so yellow. He can hear Molly counting again Jan 15 19:27:34 * Varick is now known as Molly Jan 15 19:27:35 * Morgan looks around at the children Jan 15 19:28:39 *they're a mixed bunch, but ranging from babies through to five year olds, different complexions all mixed in* Jan 15 19:28:46 Liebes herz! Jan 15 19:29:07 * Morgan looks round Jan 15 19:29:39 * Molly has a toddler on her hip, and a small baby in the other arm. She looks concerned Jan 15 19:31:08 *some children are now playing around his legs, trying to catch hold of each other* Jan 15 19:31:23 * Morgan looks down before looking back at Molly Jan 15 19:31:37 *they're unfamiliar* Jan 15 19:31:54 I can only count twenty four! Where's the other one?! Jan 15 19:32:39 Uhhh, hiding under a chair maybe? Jan 15 19:33:05 * Molly looks upset Jan 15 19:33:18 I... I can't even work out who it is?! Jan 15 19:35:15 Hey now... its alright... Jan 15 19:36:45 * Molly bites her lip, rocking the two she's holding Jan 15 19:36:52 I think it's a boy Jan 15 19:38:13 Like herding cats, huh Jan 15 19:38:31 * Molly nods Jan 15 19:38:38 This is far too many children! Jan 15 19:38:45 * Morgan nods Jan 15 19:38:49 Just a bit Jan 15 19:39:20 * Molly looks like she might cry, but the noisy children carry on regardless Jan 15 19:39:26 What am I going to do?! Jan 15 19:39:44 Try thinking about waking up... Jan 15 19:39:53 * Molly frowns Jan 15 19:39:59 Why would I do that? Jan 15 19:40:58 just... give it a go Jan 15 19:42:06 * Molly tries, and suddenly everything is gone, waking up himself Jan 15 19:44:00 * Morgan blinks a couple of times, pulling her towards him Jan 15 19:44:13 * Molly hugs him Jan 15 19:44:19 That was very odd! Jan 15 19:44:54 * Morgan nods Jan 15 19:45:06 aye... considering I started off in a dream thread and sort of... crossed into yours Jan 15 19:45:38 * Molly nods, leaning her ear to his chest Jan 15 19:45:44 What were you dreaming? Jan 15 19:46:48 The thread where you had married Jaeger Jan 15 19:47:59 Mmm... I was with child wasn't I? Jan 15 19:48:21 * Morgan nods Jan 15 19:49:50 aye... just met Varick... even with his father alive, he was so scared and lonely Jan 15 19:50:10 Oh... that's sad. Why? Jan 15 19:51:24 He still had his abilities... but couldn't tell anyone, and Karsten sent him off to Paderborn... insisting he behave like a man at all times... Jan 15 19:51:59 He wasn't the doting father of Varick's young boyhood... Jan 15 19:53:21 No... not nearly. One of the things Varick said to me was 'he's seen a lady to talk to, he'll have forgotten all about me' Jan 15 19:56:48 * Molly sighs Jan 15 19:57:26 That does sound like what we have read in Karsten's diaries. Women and power seem to have been his motivators Jan 15 19:58:01 * Morgan nods Jan 15 19:58:01 quite Jan 15 20:00:22 How do you feel about it? Jan 15 20:00:42 * Morgan shrugs Jan 15 20:00:51 He does not have to endure any of that Jan 15 20:04:55 But his idolisation of his Daddy has been discomfiting for you... Jan 15 20:05:48 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:05:49 true Jan 15 20:07:28 And now you have seen how his childhood might have been... Jan 15 20:09:27 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:09:31 Aye, I have Jan 15 20:10:40 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:11:14 It feels better to know he is in a better place than he would have been? Jan 15 20:11:35 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:11:42 I suppose it does, yes Jan 15 20:12:37 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:12:40 Me too Jan 15 20:12:52 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:12:53 Good Jan 15 20:13:01 Lets not have -that- many... Jan 15 20:13:53 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:13:58 Oh god yes! Jan 15 20:15:12 Bit much Jan 15 20:16:04 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:16:22 Mmhmm... ten, or fifteen at most... Jan 15 20:17:54 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:17:55 aye Jan 15 20:18:45 That would be alright... but not twenty five Jan 15 20:20:18 No... I think we'd not be able to provide as good a life for them as we'd want to Jan 15 20:20:47 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:21:13 * Molly nuzzles him Jan 15 20:21:26 I suppose it must be time for you to get up Jan 15 20:21:39 * Morgan tries to get a feel for the time Jan 15 20:22:21 *he has about forty five minutes until dawn, and half an hour longer than that until Claudia starts her first command* Jan 15 20:22:40 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:22:55 Best had... I want to get some coffee and watch the sunrise before Claudia takes command Jan 15 20:24:15 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:24:28 Alright, my love, I will permit you to go Jan 15 20:25:01 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:25:03 Its important Jan 15 20:26:21 * Molly nods, moving away Jan 15 20:26:43 I'm sure it will be well Jan 15 20:27:21 * Morgan nods, getting out of bed Jan 15 20:27:24 I imagine so Jan 15 20:28:20 I think Heinzharold is to do it this afternoon? Jan 15 20:28:32 He's on watch, he's not taking command Jan 15 20:30:57 * Morgan pulls his clothes on Jan 15 20:31:33 * Molly nods, watching him Jan 15 20:31:50 I was thinking I will start training again today Jan 15 20:31:57 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:32:05 Alright... if you're ready to Jan 15 20:34:52 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:35:14 We know we needn't worry that I'll be with child for many months Jan 15 20:35:20 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:35:27 Aye... it makes sense Jan 15 20:36:36 * Molly nods, propping up with the pillows Jan 15 20:36:51 I'll see who is free after lunch Jan 15 20:37:05 * Morgan nods, looking like he's trying to put up his hair momentarily Jan 15 20:37:22 * Molly watches him Jan 15 20:37:40 It's growing longer on the sides. Are you to grow it out? Jan 15 20:38:01 uhh... no, not yet I think. I quite like it as it is Jan 15 20:39:31 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:39:41 As do I Jan 15 20:39:57 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:39:58 Good Jan 15 20:40:47 * Molly fiddles with her own Jan 15 20:40:51 I will regrow mine Jan 15 20:41:01 * Morgan nods Jan 15 20:41:04 Thought you might Jan 15 20:43:09 Is that your preference? It will help out what happened behind us? Jan 15 20:43:23 * Morgan looks at her Jan 15 20:43:40 However you have your hair, you are perfect to me... what happened is in the past. Jan 15 20:44:48 * Molly smiles Jan 15 20:44:59 Perfect?! Oh I am far from that Jan 15 20:45:56 * Morgan shrugs Jan 15 20:46:08 For me, you are Jan 15 20:46:39 As you are for me Jan 15 20:47:06 * Morgan picks up his sword belt Jan 15 20:47:27 I'm glad you feel so... I'm gonn' go get some coffee love Jan 15 20:47:35 * Molly nods Jan 15 20:47:41 I will be think8ng of you Jan 15 20:48:03 I'll see you soon my love Jan 15 20:48:20 * Molly blows him a kiss Jan 15 20:49:20 * Morgan smiles, heading off to the galley to get coffee before going up on deck Jan 15 20:52:29 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Jan 15 22:13:24 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 15 22:13:40 * MollyK is now known as Heinzharold Jan 15 22:14:10 * Heinzharold is on deck, but already has coffee. He doesn't seem to be working, just lurking Jan 15 22:14:33 * Morgan sips his coffee, moving close to HeinzHarold Jan 15 22:14:36 What you doing? Jan 15 22:15:01 Y' said you wanted to talk this mornin'? Jan 15 22:15:51 * Morgan looks thoughtful Jan 15 22:15:59 Ah... about carrying a babe about... Jan 15 22:16:40 Yeah, just checkin' how you're faring Jan 15 22:17:41 Molly's talking about adopting another... Jan 15 22:18:12 Huh. Figured Varick was a special case Jan 15 22:19:35 He was... always will be but... got a lot of love to give... difficult waiting, see. Jan 15 22:20:10 What y' make o' that? Jan 15 22:23:25 I can see her point... Jan 15 22:23:47 Sounds like y' got a "But..." Jan 15 22:25:25 Its still a conscious effort to interact with small children. Jan 15 22:26:14 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 22:26:38 Gonna double yer workload when she has one too Jan 15 22:28:25 I need to get past it Jan 15 22:32:34 If she was gon' get knocked up in the next couple months, would y' do it? Jan 15 22:33:55 Come on man, you know I don't do what ifs Jan 15 22:34:37 Jus' tryin' to work out if this is that y' actually-want- to adopt again, or just that yer in a hurry, y' know? Jan 15 22:36:11 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:36:44 I don't know, honestly... Its something to consider, but given that we're going to at least foster a shifter... Jan 15 22:38:27 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 22:38:50 Gon' have a lot of kids Jan 15 22:39:24 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:40:16 She had a dream last night where we had 25... and she'd lost one... Jan 15 22:41:22 * Heinzharold laughs Jan 15 22:41:47 If she's only lost one outta twenty five that's pretty good. Can't really put 'em in pens Jan 15 22:42:49 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:43:06 Couldn't even tell me -which- one it was, either... she just couldn't find all twenty five Jan 15 22:43:37 Whatcha reckon that's about? Jan 15 22:44:10 Probably because when we were talking about it I was saying about overcommitting... Jan 15 22:45:12 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 22:45:34 Gonna have a lot on yer plate with a Grafdom to take over Jan 15 22:47:00 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:47:16 Its why I intend to spend time working with Maubourg, and getting Karlsruhe up to speed Jan 15 22:47:56 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 22:48:21 If that's what y' want, man, you know y' have mine an' Inga's help an' support Jan 15 22:48:49 * Morgan puts an arm around his shoulder Jan 15 22:49:30 What the hell have we gotten ourselves into man? Two boys from Sudlachenburg, nice quiet life... Jan 15 22:50:00 * Heinzharold laughs Jan 15 22:50:10 I'm jus' following you, man Jan 15 22:50:26 Balls, you were a Baronet before I got the rest of this to deal with Jan 15 22:51:13 You asked t' be a Duke, I got caught in th' baron net just by floatin' on past Jan 15 22:51:59 -I- didn't ask... it just seemed appropriate recompense for what he was asking... *he sniffs* never thought I'd be settling away from Sudlachenburg though Jan 15 22:53:21 Nah, me either. Thought I'd just live there til I popped my clogs Jan 15 22:53:44 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:54:55 Me too. Jan 15 22:55:50 Gon' go back though, once yer Graf of both? Jan 15 22:55:58 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:56:32 I'll have to spend time in Gottkirchen, but... Sudlachenburg is where my roots are buried Jan 15 22:57:29 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 22:57:50 Yeah. But Hafenlohr's gonna be fun Jan 15 22:58:11 * Morgan nods Jan 15 22:58:36 Been wondering if I'll feel more at ease there... with the staff all having some sort of injury... Jan 15 22:59:02 Which reminds me... Jan 15 22:59:10 * Morgan sniffs, rolling up his sleeves above his elbows Jan 15 22:59:49 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:00:14 Mebbie y' will. Mebbie being Lord o' the manor will help too Jan 15 23:01:59 Was thinkin' bout that... apart from a few nights at Innesbruck, I've not stopped anywhere thats -mine- since the fire Jan 15 23:02:54 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:03:36 Gonna be nice for you an' Molly Jan 15 23:03:48 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:03:50 aye Jan 15 23:03:59 Gonn' be weird, not answering to anyone Jan 15 23:06:06 'Cept her Jan 15 23:08:14 Well obviously Jan 15 23:08:31 Gotta answer t' the ladies Jan 15 23:08:49 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:09:13 Aye... can't be having them unhappy Jan 15 23:10:46 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:11:19 My main purpose in life. Inga's been through too much t' be unhappy in marriage Jan 15 23:11:30 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:12:01 You two ok now? You still worried about her not, for want of a better word, progressing? Jan 15 23:13:01 Nah, we're good Jan 15 23:13:07 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:13:09 good Jan 15 23:13:50 She's get there when she gets there Jan 15 23:13:56 She'll Jan 15 23:14:15 I think its a good thing that she's happy and comfortable... Jan 15 23:14:53 * Heinzharold nods, grinning Jan 15 23:15:12 She's a good girl.I was lucky t' find 'er Jan 15 23:15:45 * Morgan frowns slightly Jan 15 23:15:47 huh Jan 15 23:15:52 What? Jan 15 23:17:33 well... you remember when you were Shadowfayre king, and that accident happened... thats the Nieblungen meddling... I figured that was so Dietlinde wouldn't fall for you so she and I could get together... what if it was also so you and Inga could be together... I've seen it in another thread... Jan 15 23:18:03 Thought y' didn't do what ifs Jan 15 23:18:31 Bit different when I gotta live em man... just a theory anyway Jan 15 23:18:45 * Heinzharold shrugs Jan 15 23:19:22 Mebbie. Never really thought me an' Dietlinde made much sense any'ow Jan 15 23:19:57 I've seen that once, aside from the one where I died in the fire Jan 15 23:20:13 When? Jan 15 23:21:17 Uhhhh, Stargirl... Molly Rosenkrantz, secret agent... you and Dietlinde got together eventually, once I worked up the courage to tell her what was going on Jan 15 23:21:58 Doesn't this shit bother you? Jan 15 23:22:30 No, I never wake up feeling the burden of the pain for hours on end(!) Jan 15 23:23:35 No, dickhead, this me an' Dietlinde stuff Jan 15 23:25:04 A little bit... I think I'm finally starting to let her go, y'know? I'll always love her and miss her but... its not -crushing- like it is with Jana Jan 15 23:26:11 * Heinzharold nods "like yer saying goodbye?" Jan 15 23:26:19 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:26:40 Yeah. One of the threads... they couldn't rest until I let them go... Jan 15 23:27:02 * Heinzharold wraps his arm around Morgan's shoulder Jan 15 23:27:51 That's gotta be tough, man Jan 15 23:29:35 Yeah. But its a could've, not a did happen... I've seen how Varick would've been had Karsten lived, and, as much as I feel for him, I'm glad -that- went the way it did. *he draws a breath* Mae said that Dietlinde and Jana are at peace because they were so well and thoroughly loved... I need to make that the case for Molly, and Varick and all our children. Jan 15 23:30:11 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:30:38 Y' gotta be in it a hundred percent. Can't half-ass it Jan 15 23:31:10 Thing is, I'm -not- half asking it... I'm just not so... demonstrative or obvious as perhaps I should be Jan 15 23:31:46 Y' gotta be like me man. I'm the full ass. Jan 15 23:32:18 * Morgan nods slowly, sipping his coffee Jan 15 23:33:15 So whatcha gon' do about it? Jan 15 23:33:37 try Jan 15 23:35:51 My Da used t' say "think of the man you want to be, then do what that man would do, and eventually you'll be that man" Jan 15 23:37:56 Not entirely sure I can end up as a blacksmith Graf... Jan 15 23:38:28 * Heinzharold looks at him "y' wanna be a blacksmith?" Jan 15 23:40:22 Its more that a big part of who I want to be is your Da... but, in all honesty, I've always wanted to know how to work a forge, make swords, shoe the horses... Jan 15 23:40:42 * Heinzharold looks really touch Jan 15 23:41:00 Touched* He'da been proud t' hear that Jan 15 23:41:28 Ain't many people I respected and loved as much as him Jan 15 23:41:38 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:41:49 Not many men tha' good Jan 15 23:42:16 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:42:39 Very true Jan 15 23:43:00 Hard act t' follow, but Heinzharold the thirteenth gotta be all that -and- as hot as me! Jan 15 23:43:27 Mother looking like Inga, thats a given, easily Jan 15 23:43:37 * Heinzharold grins Jan 15 23:44:27 Yeah, gonna be all blonde an' blue-eyed an' sweet-looking Jan 15 23:45:04 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:45:16 Yer kids will be fine if they get Molly's looks an' brains Jan 15 23:45:46 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:45:48 yep Jan 15 23:46:52 They'll get yer name, that'll do Jan 15 23:47:21 * Morgan nods Jan 15 23:47:30 Titles might come in handy Jan 15 23:48:45 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:49:06 Spose they could have yer sense o' fairness Jan 15 23:49:15 Wouldn't complain at that Jan 15 23:51:19 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:51:34 And yer prudishness til they're married Jan 15 23:52:42 We can hope Jan 15 23:53:38 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:54:29 Why don' ya nip down below, go give her a cuddle an' tell her y' just needed to see her pretty face a minute, then come back? Jan 15 23:54:42 * Morgan squeezes HeinzHarold Jan 15 23:54:49 Good idea. I'll be back before Claudia's watch Jan 15 23:54:59 * Heinzharold nods Jan 15 23:55:10 I'll be 'ere Jan 15 23:55:24 * Morgan nods, leaving him and heading below Jan 15 23:56:29 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)