**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Jan 12 00:00:05 2023 Jan 12 00:00:05 V: I want to see Florrie Jan 12 00:01:58 * Morgan nods, writing notes to leave on each mirror giving a time, leaving longer for Florrie Jan 12 00:03:37 * Molly is reclined on the couch, sleeping baby on her chest and Varick sat beside her on the floor reading aloud from his Thean copy of the odyssey Jan 12 00:05:11 * Morgan watches them for a moment Jan 12 00:05:18 I'm going to fetch some coffee... Jan 12 00:06:05 * Molly glances over, smiling Jan 12 00:06:10 Alright, liebling Jan 12 00:06:22 * Morgan heads out of the room to get coffee Jan 12 00:29:12 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 12 10:16:37 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 12 13:49:50 * Molly has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Jan 12 14:35:42 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Jan 12 16:40:36 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Jan 12 20:12:37 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Jan 12 20:13:40 * MollyK is now known as Zareen Jan 12 20:13:57 * Zareen is in the corridor when he goes for coffee Jan 12 20:14:42 * Morgan looks her over Jan 12 20:14:44 Alright? Jan 12 20:14:52 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:15:04 I thought you might want a break now Jan 12 20:15:35 Molly's got him, he's asleep on her Jan 12 20:17:21 If she doesn't mind that, I'll let her keep him for now Jan 12 20:17:48 She's fairly content Jan 12 20:18:45 * Zareen nods "do you mind? I don't want it spoiling your family time" Jan 12 20:21:20 No, its fine.I rather think she's enjoying learning those skills Jan 12 20:22:15 You'll have more children soon? Jan 12 20:23:32 When Theus allows. *he smiles slightly* sooner rather than later, ideally Jan 12 20:26:06 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:26:20 I hope you will be blessed soon Jan 12 20:27:17 Thank you. Never thought I'd be in a position where I want children again... Jan 12 20:28:15 I have heard your daughter was lost to you, I'm sorry Jan 12 20:29:21 * Morgan nods Jan 12 20:29:44 Her and my first wife, yes... its been a long hard journey to be who I am now Jan 12 20:31:59 That's very sad Jan 12 20:33:15 * Morgan nods Jan 12 20:33:55 It is, yes.... How are you feeling about Capperlucia now? Jan 12 20:35:36 It still seems like a made up place. Nothing has come back to me Jan 12 20:36:23 * Morgan nods Jan 12 20:36:35 It does sound a bit far fetched Jan 12 20:38:27 I like Xsarlac, but I don't feel any connection to who I was Jan 12 20:40:06 * Morgan nods Jan 12 20:41:19 I don't think that'll be much of an obstacle for him... I'm very good at noticing things, particularly about people... the two of you are much closer and more comfortable together than your time together would allow Jan 12 20:43:04 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:43:23 I feel at home with him, but I'm not the woman he married Jan 12 20:43:52 * Morgan nods Jan 12 20:44:03 Thats more than some people ever get Jan 12 20:44:48 Has it been difficult for you? Jan 12 20:45:07 In many ways, yes Jan 12 20:46:43 I'm sorry Jan 12 20:48:29 * Morgan inclines his head Jan 12 20:49:07 Its just... where my journey takes me Jan 12 20:50:27 I don't know what will happen if I can't be her again. Xsarlac loves me, but he loves me as a woman I'm not any more Jan 12 20:52:04 * Morgan watches her for a moment Jan 12 20:52:15 Come on, lets get a drink and find somewhere quiet to talk shall we? Jan 12 20:52:21 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:52:31 I'd like that Jan 12 20:52:48 * Morgan goes via the galley for coffee before taking her to the ballroom, sitting at a table with her Jan 12 20:53:56 * Zareen sips the coffee Jan 12 20:54:22 He and I talked at length about the fact you don't have any memory of who you were, of who he was to you... Jan 12 20:55:33 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:55:52 I am very important there, but I can't lead a whole country! Jan 12 20:56:07 * Morgan sips his coffee Jan 12 20:56:58 One of the things he said was that if it never comes back to you, your daughter can rule... she's been in charge since you disappeared I believe Jan 12 20:57:22 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:57:41 I have several daughters, but I don't even remember their names Jan 12 20:57:59 You feel a burden of expectation upon you... Jan 12 20:59:12 * Zareen nods Jan 12 20:59:26 As a mother, a wife, and a queen Jan 12 21:00:40 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:00:45 I can understand that Jan 12 21:02:05 Everyone will be pleased for me to return, but not like I am Jan 12 21:02:51 They will adjust... my return to Eisen was similar in that regard Jan 12 21:04:36 Why was it? Jan 12 21:05:03 * Morgan sips his coffee Jan 12 21:06:46 I was nothing like I am now... and even further from the man Xsarlac knew in Avalon... I was more like HeinzHarold, easy going, permanently relaxed, friendly... even moreso once I met my first wife, and got married... Jan 12 21:07:29 Your marriage was a very happy one? Jan 12 21:08:08 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:08:45 Oh yes, very... there was a conflict with my family over it which hurt me quite a lot but... I had hope it would be fixed Jan 12 21:10:33 Might that have happened if your wife hadn't died? Jan 12 21:11:52 Maybe. Once my daughter came along, I hoped my father would come around... stick in the mud he may be, but he loves children, and she was his granddaughter Jan 12 21:13:03 The rejection of your child must have been agonising Jan 12 21:13:18 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:13:45 I'm sure he would've come around, particularly in light of conversations we have had since my return Jan 12 21:16:21 But then you wouldn't be here Jan 12 21:17:53 No. The damage that having them taken from me did to me... I'm more serious than I used to be, and a whole lot more... pushy, and entirely intolerant of cruelty from others Jan 12 21:18:46 * Zareen nods Jan 12 21:18:54 That's understandable Jan 12 21:20:53 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:22:06 Instead of letting things that I dislike slide, I'm more likely to be confrontational. My family are having to adjust to a less open, more argumentative me. Jan 12 21:22:40 But they still love you? Jan 12 21:22:53 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:23:17 My brother and I are actually closer now than we have been since we were Varicks age, if not younger Jan 12 21:23:51 Does that make you very happy? Jan 12 21:24:43 * Morgan smiles Jan 12 21:25:06 It does, when I can let up on being so serious Jan 12 21:28:28 * Zareen nods "Molly doesn't strike me as an overly serious woman" Jan 12 21:30:08 Neither of us are so serious as we used to be Jan 12 21:31:34 You are helping each other Jan 12 21:32:04 I like to think so Jan 12 21:34:09 I hope that Xsarlac and I could have that if I can never return to who I was Jan 12 21:35:56 While. I'm sure he misses who you were... he is overjoyed to have you as your are by his side Jan 12 21:37:40 I know he would be happier if I was back to my old self Jan 12 21:38:59 He's just at the start of his journey to adjust to how things are now, thats all Jan 12 21:41:36 * Zareen nods Jan 12 21:41:53 He's a loyal man, most would have given up years ago Jan 12 21:43:15 I wonder if thats a view guided by your time in the empire... Sinan Gottlieb said the same, but.... I don't know of any other that would agree with it Jan 12 21:44:27 People do move on when there's so much time passed Jan 12 21:45:06 Some, yes... Jan 12 21:45:44 You'd have kept looking for your wife? Jan 12 21:48:24 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:48:29 undoubtedly Jan 12 21:52:07 * Zareen nods Jan 12 21:52:17 He cares about Amir too Jan 12 21:52:24 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:52:43 That much is obvious... almost immediately he started referring to him as his son... Jan 12 21:55:47 That's quite normal in Capperlucia he says Jan 12 21:55:58 * Morgan nods Jan 12 21:56:07 So I understand Jan 12 21:59:33 Amir will be a shock to my other children Jan 12 21:59:57 Probably, yes... but with time and patience they will adjust Jan 12 22:02:00 * Zareen nods Jan 12 22:02:29 They will have to. I do not want Amir to ever go back to the palace Jan 12 22:02:52 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:03:14 I don't see it being an issue Jan 12 22:04:26 * Zareen nods Jan 12 22:04:58 Did you know Xsarlac had such a big family? Jan 12 22:06:46 Not exactly... truth be told I thought he was a bit... unhinged when we met Jan 12 22:07:52 * Zareen smiles Jan 12 22:08:13 He isn't so bad now? Jan 12 22:08:46 Oh, no, he hasn't changed, just... well, lets say I am more openminded now Jan 12 22:10:32 You were so good to find me and Amir Jan 12 22:13:01 It'd be hypocritical of me to turn away from that after all the trouble I've caused for love... Jan 12 22:14:49 But it must have cost a lot to find us Jan 12 22:15:39 Some money... some time... *he looks sad* some damage to my marriage, but thats... thats sorted now Jan 12 22:17:03 * Zareen nods Jan 12 22:17:10 I am sorry for that Jan 12 22:18:10 Wasn't your doing Jan 12 22:19:53 Are you and Molly alright now? Jan 12 22:20:00 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:20:06 I think so, aye Jan 12 22:21:03 That's a relief Jan 12 22:21:18 * Morgan nods, smiling slightly Jan 12 22:22:04 Aye, it is. I suppose its part and parcel of two people in love who have been through traumas Jan 12 22:24:13 I think you make a good couple Jan 12 22:24:27 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:24:35 I'm inclined to agree, as it happens Jan 12 22:27:32 Was your first wife similar? Jan 12 22:28:10 Aside from both being incredibly loving, they're very different people Jan 12 22:30:44 That's how it was at the palace. The Sheikh collected women for unusual features or talents that made them unique, so no one was ever the same Jan 12 22:30:59 Seems a bit... cold. Jan 12 22:31:39 When there's so many wives and concubines it helps to keep straight who is who Jan 12 22:33:14 Oh its practical but... it just seems, like I say, cold. Jan 12 22:34:21 Reducing us down to just one feature Jan 12 22:34:39 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:35:12 Like you are property. I was tempted that night to go back... Jan 12 22:36:24 What would you have needed forty women for? Jan 12 22:37:11 No, no... to vent my anger upon him... Jan 12 22:38:22 But I am aware it would've destabilised the area and... the idea of doing that then disappearing... I abhor it Jan 12 22:39:20 * Zareen nods Jan 12 22:39:34 That wouldn't have been good for the people Jan 12 22:39:44 No... Jan 12 22:39:57 And, of course, I got bitten by one of those big ugly spiders Jan 12 22:40:37 You have to be so careful with them, they can make you see things Jan 12 22:40:44 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:40:46 I noticed Jan 12 22:44:28 What did you see, if you don't mind me asking? Jan 12 22:44:51 HeinzHarolds father... Jan 12 22:47:04 Was he your mentor? Jan 12 22:48:24 Not exactly... he was the blacksmith for the town. He was a loving man with strong principles. I like to think my views are a mix of his and my fathers... Jan 12 22:49:52 What views come from which? Jan 12 22:50:05 * Morgan shrugs, sipping his coffee Jan 12 22:50:54 Tough to say... some of them are my own, brought about by their influence... like that I believe a title doesn't make anyone worth more than anyone else... Jan 12 22:52:54 I agree Jan 12 22:53:28 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:54:22 That being said, I am coming to recognise that such titles are useful... providing it is used for the good of others, and not for personal gain Jan 12 22:55:11 Didn't you have a title growing up? Jan 12 22:57:09 * Morgan nods Jan 12 22:57:16 Veisgraf, yes Jan 12 22:59:47 But you didn't want to be nobility? Jan 12 23:01:51 It didn't really matter to me... HeinzHarold wasn't nobility, and I just wanted to play with him... in many respects I'm lucky that my parents allowed it. Many wouldn't Jan 12 23:02:54 Will you do that with your children? Jan 12 23:03:34 * Morgan smiles Jan 12 23:04:24 HeinzHarold and Inga are going to live in a cottage on our land... he's going to teach my children how to work a forge, shoe a horse... all the useful things that youngsters should learn Jan 12 23:05:28 That sounds like a boyhood dream come true Jan 12 23:07:00 * Morgan smiles slightly Jan 12 23:07:20 My boyhood dream was to have my own ship and be a captain... can't say it really changed any as I grew up either Jan 12 23:08:13 What about now? Jan 12 23:09:37 Now I have that... now... family... I want to settle down, raise my family, make things better as much as I can Jan 12 23:10:37 This doesn't fit at all with how Xsarlac described you from first meeting you Jan 12 23:11:21 No? Jan 12 23:12:04 He said you were very much a lone wolf. Quiet if you weren't shouting at people, and solitary Jan 12 23:12:30 Can't argue with any of that Jan 12 23:16:01 It doesn't seem like you'd expect from someone who is now a family man Jan 12 23:16:35 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:16:58 I was full of hate and wanting to die. Jan 12 23:18:03 That's changed a lot it seems Jan 12 23:18:30 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:19:04 Absolutely it has. Molly started me off healing but until very recently, young children were too hard to be around Jan 12 23:20:08 Has Amir helped? Jan 12 23:20:28 He's helping, yes. Jan 12 23:21:46 The ladies are kind to sew and knit for him Jan 12 23:22:31 It'll be good practice for when they do so for our collective children... they are very fond of Amir Jan 12 23:24:18 They're good with him, it makes it much easier when there's so many people around Jan 12 23:25:02 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:25:06 Many hands, and all that Jan 12 23:26:36 * Zareen nods Jan 12 23:27:22 Community child-rearing is common in Capperlucia Jan 12 23:27:54 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:27:59 How do you feel about that? Jan 12 23:29:28 * Zareen nods Jan 12 23:29:54 I am used to having other people watch Amir Jan 12 23:30:07 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:30:38 If you want more time with him, we won't be offended if you ask us to back off some Jan 12 23:31:50 No, it's nice to have some time to be myself Jan 12 23:32:20 * Morgan smiles, sipping his coffee Jan 12 23:32:36 How do you feel about the dragons? Jan 12 23:33:25 It seems like a children's story Jan 12 23:34:59 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:35:09 I used to think the same of the folk tales in Eisen Jan 12 23:35:44 Used to? Jan 12 23:35:50 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:36:07 I'm coming to the conclusion that all those tales are based in some fact... Jan 12 23:37:21 In the Empire they say there are Djinns, and they grant wishes Jan 12 23:37:54 Wouldn't be overly surprised if thats true Jan 12 23:38:52 What would you wish for if they gave you three wishes? Jan 12 23:39:58 * Morgan shrugs Jan 12 23:40:35 More kindness in the world... more time before I face my trials... the safety of my loved ones. Jan 12 23:42:17 Those are nice Jan 12 23:42:44 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Jan 12 23:42:53 I have almost everything else I want Jan 12 23:43:11 You are a lucky man Jan 12 23:44:19 I suppose Jan 12 23:45:44 [my love, a certain young man is taking liberties with parts of me reserved for my husband, I think he's hungry] Jan 12 23:46:09 I think perhaps Amir might be hungry... Jana always was after a bath Jan 12 23:46:24 Oh, what a pretty name Jan 12 23:47:07 I'll show you a drawing of her sometime. She was a beautiful girl Jan 12 23:47:28 I'd like that. In the Empire, it means "God is gracious" Jan 12 23:48:21 [alright love, we're in the ballroom, I'll steer her back to you] Jan 12 23:48:29 * Morgan smiles Jan 12 23:49:21 It's similar to Jannah, which means paradise, or the final abode of the righteous Jan 12 23:50:14 In Eisen it means Gods gracious gift... Jan 12 23:50:35 Is that why you chose it? *she stands up* Jan 12 23:50:43 * Morgan stands Jan 12 23:51:02 No... its just one of the names we liked Jan 12 23:51:28 * Zareen nods Jan 12 23:52:28 My eldest daughter is called Riyah. It means brave ruler and leader Jan 12 23:52:45 * Morgan smiles Jan 12 23:52:47 Seems apt Jan 12 23:53:19 * Zareen nods, taking her coffee Jan 12 23:53:32 Women name the daughters, men name the sons Jan 12 23:53:57 Makes a kind of sense I suppose Jan 12 23:54:46 * Morgan leads her back to the study Jan 12 23:55:03 You pick together? Jan 12 23:55:19 * Morgan nods Jan 12 23:55:34 Aye... we plan to, my brother does too... Jan 12 23:57:12 * Zareen nods, waiting to be let in Jan 12 23:58:20 You... object to opening the door? Jan 12 23:58:28 * Morgan pushes it open Jan 12 23:58:59 No, I didn't know whether to knock Jan 12 23:59:34 Probably a good idea, never know when HeinzHarolds going to be prancing about naked