**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Nov 8 00:00:10 2022 Nov 08 00:00:10 I feel that they were struggling to find things I feel guilty about. Nov 08 00:00:19 * MollyK opens her arms without question Nov 08 00:00:45 * Morgan nods, coming to her, wrapping his arms around her Nov 08 00:01:03 * MollyK wraps her arms around his neck Nov 08 00:02:23 I was very pleased when you chose to come back from heaven for me. I was elated. A long-standing fear was demolished. But I was not feeling somehow victorious as they implied. It wasn't about she and I, it was about you and I. Nov 08 00:02:43 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:04:02 yes. It was. Nov 08 00:04:22 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:05:47 I just do not have much guilt. I have done things I would have done differently with hindsight, but in those moments I did what I thought was the right and necessary thing Nov 08 00:06:46 I wonder if thats why you did not have any nightmares... because you do not carry guilt... Nov 08 00:07:20 Quite possibly. I try to be kind to myself. Nov 08 00:07:36 * Morgan nods, looking away Nov 08 00:07:44 Mädchen says she loves you... Nov 08 00:08:11 * MollyK puts her hand on his cheek, trying to reestablish the eye contact Nov 08 00:08:23 That's very sweet. I love her too Nov 08 00:08:43 * Morgan looks back to her Nov 08 00:09:12 Did you see I managed to intervene with Claudia tearing a strip off DeeDee? Nov 08 00:09:48 I was rather too cold and tired, I'm afraid Nov 08 00:10:06 * MollyK strokes his stubble with her thumb Nov 08 00:11:24 She was scolding him intensely about trying to protect her, getting in her way, she could've gutted him... I told her to give him a break, he's new... she turned on me, part of her chest was bared... I covered her. Nov 08 00:11:58 Oh, that's why he was refusing to look at her whilst getting told off! Nov 08 00:12:23 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:12:26 It'd make sense Nov 08 00:12:38 That's a very attractive trait in a man Nov 08 00:12:47 Not looking? Nov 08 00:12:52 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:13:02 * Morgan frowns Nov 08 00:13:05 I see Nov 08 00:13:29 Being simultaneously respectful and desirous . Whilst courting at least Nov 08 00:14:26 They aren't courting Nov 08 00:14:42 I was talking more generally, my love Nov 08 00:15:45 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:15:46 alright Nov 08 00:16:16 * MollyK smiles Nov 08 00:16:42 In a husband I prefer a rather more openly lustful and hands-on approach! Nov 08 00:17:02 Duly noted Nov 08 00:17:31 * MollyK giggles, kissing him Nov 08 00:18:31 It was brave of you, being shirtless. I am proud of you. Nov 08 00:18:57 It was necessary... and it stopped her in her tracks Nov 08 00:19:14 Mmm clever, my love Nov 08 00:19:33 Clever? No... it wasn't clever. There wasn't that sort of thought Nov 08 00:19:49 What then? Nov 08 00:20:38 She is my friend. She needed covering. I used what I had to cover her. There was no ulterior motive, no clever thinking... just... covering her, keeping her safe. Nov 08 00:20:56 * MollyK smiles "you are so lovely" Nov 08 00:21:14 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 00:21:49 You are. I only wish you could, just for even a moment, see you as I do... Nov 08 00:22:21 * Morgan shakes his head slowly Nov 08 00:23:04 I could try with magic? Nov 08 00:23:14 I don't understand how Nov 08 00:23:44 You can sense my feelings, feel them too Nov 08 00:26:00 I see... Nov 08 00:27:47 You do not wish to? Nov 08 00:28:38 I have a fairly strong view of myself... it'd be difficult accepting anothers I think Nov 08 00:29:52 * MollyK nods "this will have to suffice.." she kisses him softly, which is when Varick says "Are you making a baby now? Will the seed come out, Papa?" Nov 08 00:30:36 [dear lord I'd rather be caught by your father!] Nov 08 00:30:39 * Morgan pulls away Nov 08 00:30:46 No, Varick... thats not how it works Nov 08 00:31:23 V: okay, Papa *he goes back in his room. Molly grimaces at Morgan* Nov 08 00:32:20 Awkward. We should be so lucky though! Nov 08 00:32:28 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:32:31 aye Nov 08 00:32:43 * Morgan kisses her cheek before moving away Nov 08 00:33:04 How was Inga after I spoke to her? Nov 08 00:33:31 Much better. Poor Inga. And then Heinzharold was so distraught last night too Nov 08 00:33:59 He was giggling as he left but... I thought it'd hit him fairly quickly Nov 08 00:34:05 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:34:17 He cried to his bubbies a while Nov 08 00:34:39 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:34:41 He blames himself Nov 08 00:34:50 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:35:08 It's difficult that he knew them Nov 08 00:35:47 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:36:12 He made fun of her the morning after, y'know... thought she was roughed up fighting the Vaticine Nov 08 00:37:34 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:37:52 I know. That must feel awful, but he wasn't to know Nov 08 00:38:19 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:38:47 He'll get there Nov 08 00:39:25 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:39:43 I hadn't realised it was so awful Nov 08 00:40:12 She hadn't given me quite that much detail but... I knew most of it Nov 08 00:41:01 * MollyK nods Nov 08 00:41:23 Horrific. Bad enough with the debt collectors... Nov 08 00:41:29 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:41:40 I need some coffee... Nov 08 00:41:59 * MollyK nods, taking a deep breath before smiling Nov 08 00:42:25 Oh, you aren't wearing your breeches then?! *she smirks* Nov 08 00:43:27 Unless you _want_ the women in the brothel to have a better idea of my build than most... Nov 08 00:43:59 * MollyK tilts her head Nov 08 00:44:10 Why would you be hard in the brothel? Nov 08 00:44:30 Didn't say I would be but... they're quite... form fitting... Nov 08 00:45:36 Oh, did you have to have to have a good root around for your trousers, mon petit chou? Nov 08 00:45:52 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:45:54 I did... Nov 08 00:46:12 Did you come across anything you liked? Nov 08 00:47:07 No, but there's a chance later... Nov 08 00:47:22 * MollyK looks surprised Nov 08 00:47:41 My goodness! I was not expecting that, my love! Nov 08 00:47:49 * Morgan frowns Nov 08 00:47:55 Nor was I... thats happening more often Nov 08 00:48:16 * MollyK smiles "I was not complaining" Nov 08 00:48:37 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:48:39 Alright my love Nov 08 00:49:46 And I will make myself ready to receive you if that is what you decide... Nov 08 00:49:53 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:49:56 Quite possibly Nov 08 00:52:47 Though, I think what we would both like is this... *she kisses his cheek then moves away. With a mischievous smile she sends him the image of them sat downstairs at a table, his placket undone, one hand stroking him and the other holding the cream cloth ready to catch his release, him struggling to keep a calm demeanour* Nov 08 00:53:05 * Morgan nods Nov 08 00:53:09 I can't deny that Nov 08 00:53:32 * MollyK nods "me either" Nov 08 00:53:49 *they get interrupted by a knock on the door* Nov 08 00:54:41 * MollyK has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Nov 08 00:55:21 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 08 10:29:48 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Nov 08 10:49:06 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 08 10:52:32 *Getting Varick fed and settled gives him some of the domesticity of his dream, and once he's had a story it's just them again. Coffee has been found, dinner won't be for another hour. Their fire burns warmly, and there's an old, heavily mended couch by it. The others haven't been heard from yet. Molly sits down beside him, handing him a cup* Nov 08 10:53:01 Were you thinking of going downstairs for dinner in the tap room? Nov 08 10:53:05 Thank you love Nov 08 10:54:20 * Morgan nods Nov 08 10:54:33 I want to catch DeeDee... see how he's dealing with... all of it Nov 08 10:55:09 Will you please tell him he's wrong about how babies in the womb pass away? Nov 08 10:55:24 * Morgan nods Nov 08 10:55:33 Alright... and if he asks? Nov 08 10:55:41 Asks what? Nov 08 10:55:50 What does happen Nov 08 10:58:07 It's less than ten minutes. The mother's body passes air to the baby. If she isn't breathing, they don't get the air, in the simplest sense. It would be like drifting off into sleep controllably, that's all. They wouldn't feel her cool down, it'd be over by then Nov 08 10:58:23 Uncontrollably * Nov 08 10:58:39 * Morgan nods Nov 08 10:58:41 Alright Nov 08 10:59:49 Yes, it would go quieter, but they wouldn't understand that the heartbeat stopping was a bad sign, other sounds within the body would remain Nov 08 11:00:09 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:00:54 It's awful he feels so bad Nov 08 11:01:07 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:01:15 They were certainly effective Nov 08 11:01:20 * MollyK nods Nov 08 11:01:41 They were powerful. Just not powerful enough Nov 08 11:03:47 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:03:52 If you hadn't woken... Nov 08 11:04:27 * MollyK takes his hand Nov 08 11:04:50 If it had just been with fire and swords, you would have managed...? Nov 08 11:06:47 If there hadn't been that... push back against the fire... but there were so many. Nov 08 11:06:54 * MollyK nods Nov 08 11:07:06 It's more difficult when they have magics too Nov 08 11:07:15 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:07:22 I need to test a theory when we're out of town Nov 08 11:07:27 Oh? Nov 08 11:07:35 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:07:49 I want to know if holding the shard will... increase the strength of my magic Nov 08 11:08:06 Huh... that's an interesting idea, my love Nov 08 11:08:44 The first time I caused a big explosion, I was holding it... and it can replenish it, so... maybe... Nov 08 11:08:57 * MollyK nods, smiling Nov 08 11:09:05 Certainly possible Nov 08 11:09:09 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:09:15 Its driving me mad, not knowing Nov 08 11:10:32 Tomorrow, my love... I could probably find you a nice spot by a stream... just in case things get a little too hot... Nov 08 11:10:53 * Morgan smiles Nov 08 11:10:57 You're incorrigable Nov 08 11:11:02 * MollyK smiles Nov 08 11:11:21 It's just what happens to my mind when I am near you. Nov 08 11:11:52 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:12:34 I need to practice killing things cleanly even when I am cross Nov 08 11:13:06 It'd be less likely to be noticed, yes... Nov 08 11:13:10 * MollyK nods Nov 08 11:13:45 It's just too messy. They burnt away, but I don't want to be mopping up gore each time Nov 08 11:14:12 No... though in normal circumstances I could assist with that Nov 08 11:14:20 * MollyK smiles Nov 08 11:15:28 That's very practical. You can incinerate the monsters I destroy, I can replenish you and heal any injuries they might give. Nov 08 11:15:58 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:16:41 I hated it before, but knowing I could actually be useful today was good. Nov 08 11:17:06 * Morgan watches her Nov 08 11:17:15 I was concerned for how you would feel... Nov 08 11:17:24 * MollyK shrugs Nov 08 11:17:39 I would tear the world apart for you. Nov 08 11:18:43 I don't think it'll come to that Nov 08 11:19:02 Who knows, my love... Nov 08 11:19:30 It'd sort of negate saving the place, wouldn't it Nov 08 11:21:10 I suppose so. I don't feel guilty. They may have had human bodies, but what they did to DeeDee, and you, and Heinzharold, and Claudia... what they did to Inga and even -Varick-... that made them monsters. Nov 08 11:22:03 * Morgan nods, looking at his coffee for a moment before sipping it Nov 08 11:22:36 You disagree... you think I am heartless and should have some remorse... *she sounds sad* Nov 08 11:23:08 God no Nov 08 11:23:20 * MollyK nods slowly Nov 08 11:24:26 What I did does not bother me. I was right, they had to be stopped at all costs. But that it might lessen your opinion of me, take me further from the sweet gentle girl you fell in love with distresses me. Nov 08 11:25:30 * Morgan takes her hand Nov 08 11:26:05 No love... you defended me and our friends, the people we love, with whatever it took... how could that make me think less of you? Nov 08 11:28:59 Because I do not feel anything like remorse. I ended lives, without a moment's care. When I killed the bandit, I hated what I'd done, what I'd become, someone who had killed someone. When I ended the Montaigne magicians life, his death was inevitable eventually, but I didn't feel bad anyway. You expected I would, like you expected I would now. I am Nov 08 11:28:59 not meeting your expectations. I am harder hearted than you believe me to be. Nov 08 11:29:48 Are you harder hearted towards those in need? Towards anyone who isn't intent on harming us? Nov 08 11:30:10 No, I don't think so... Nov 08 11:30:36 Sometimes... it is necessary. Nov 08 11:33:19 When I killed the bandit, I asked if it would always feel so bad, and you said you hoped so, because the day it doesn't feel so bad we've lost a part of ourselves Nov 08 11:33:57 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:34:59 A part I lost a very long time ago... it just means you're not so innocent. The question, really, is whether you would've killed them if there had been another way... Nov 08 11:35:17 Such as? Nov 08 11:36:30 If there had been a way to stop them without killing them... Nov 08 11:36:47 * MollyK looks unsure Nov 08 11:37:15 Maybe... what they said to you about Jana... that had to be paid for. Nov 08 11:38:02 * Morgan nods sadly Nov 08 11:38:30 She would not have thought that. Nov 08 11:38:53 I... don't... know... Nov 08 11:39:27 Children do not think that way. Especially children who have been given so much love Nov 08 11:39:53 * Morgan shrugs, looking at his coffee Nov 08 11:40:02 * MollyK squeezes his hand Nov 08 11:40:23 Listen to me please. Nov 08 11:40:49 How could she not be wondering why I wasn't coming to save her? Nov 08 11:41:16 She would not have questioned your love. Not ever. Nov 08 11:42:16 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 11:44:04 You are blinded to this because it is so close. But look at how much cruelty it took before Varick started to question Alarice's love for him. Years of ordering him to be spanked, locked in cupboards, excluded from spending time with other children. She told him he should be dead, to his face, before he started questioning it. Nov 08 11:46:32 * Morgan sighs Nov 08 11:46:34 I suppose so Nov 08 11:47:09 * MollyK kisses his knuckles Nov 08 11:47:55 They played on the deepest parts of your guilt, it is understandable that you are feeling worse today Nov 08 11:48:19 * Morgan nods, sighing Nov 08 11:48:46 * MollyK leans her cheek to his upper arm Nov 08 11:49:08 You were the only one who still had nightmares last night? Nov 08 11:50:17 * Morgan nods Nov 08 11:50:18 yes Nov 08 11:50:56 What was it? Nov 08 11:52:30 It was a star girl dream... we had sex on the couch in Innesbruck and Alarice caught us...then it changed... telling me what a monster I am, how I failed Dietlinde and Jana, how I betrayed them... I couldn't wake up... Nov 08 11:53:30 * MollyK squeezes again Nov 08 11:53:43 That's awful Nov 08 11:54:52 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 11:55:01 Told me how cruel I am... and that I'm a coward Nov 08 11:55:08 * MollyK frowns Nov 08 11:55:13 You are neither. Nov 08 11:55:24 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 11:55:40 You believe that? Nov 08 11:56:33 You didn't see what I did to those debt collectors... the man who hurt Inga... the Freiarrin... I am cruel. Nov 08 11:58:07 No. You are not. Would I love a man who is cruel? Nov 08 11:58:57 No. And that... is a worry. Nov 08 11:59:11 It is just proof that you are mistaken Nov 08 12:00:00 * Morgan sips his coffee Nov 08 12:00:01 maybe Nov 08 12:00:20 Liebes herz. You are not cruel. Nov 08 12:03:33 * Morgan sighs Nov 08 12:03:34 alright Nov 08 12:04:55 * MollyK kisses him briefly "Thank you. So the star girl did move to Innesbruck then... I hope the sex was good" *she smiles* Nov 08 12:05:47 * Morgan nods Nov 08 12:05:53 Right up until we were caught Nov 08 12:06:09 * MollyK nods Nov 08 12:06:24 Risking getting caught is arousing... being caught not so much! Nov 08 12:06:55 Thats what would've happened... she'd have been awful, but... we'd have been married, with children, and happy Nov 08 12:07:23 * MollyK smiles "That's sweet. How do you know?" Nov 08 12:09:39 You told me.. It was as far as I could go in that path... you told me what would've happened, and how to escape the dream Nov 08 12:11:12 Oh... *she looks sad and thoughtful* there will be no more star girl dreams? Nov 08 12:11:28 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 12:11:30 no Nov 08 12:11:40 Oh. That's a shame Nov 08 12:12:13 * Morgan nods Nov 08 12:12:21 Yes, it is. But it is what it is Nov 08 12:12:49 I know, but I've enjoyed their... our... story Nov 08 12:13:06 * Morgan nods Nov 08 12:13:09 Aye... Nov 08 12:13:20 Does it trouble you? Nov 08 12:13:37 A little Nov 08 12:14:03 It's a dream that is not one of the painful ones? Nov 08 12:14:56 * Morgan nods Nov 08 12:14:57 yes Nov 08 12:16:20 How did you escape? Nov 08 12:17:11 * Morgan taps his pendant Nov 08 12:17:18 I have to grasp this and think of you Nov 08 12:17:33 * MollyK looks intrigued Nov 08 12:17:43 And then you find your way home... Nov 08 12:17:58 * Morgan nods Nov 08 12:18:19 That's very sweet, my love Nov 08 12:19:04 I suppose Nov 08 12:20:34 It is worrying you because of the dream the night before where you got confused about who was doing -that- to you in your sleep? Nov 08 12:21:20 * Morgan nods Nov 08 12:21:32 * MollyK sips her coffee Nov 08 12:21:59 Do you think we should talk about that properly now, before you go to dinner? Nov 08 12:22:09 * Morgan sighs Nov 08 12:22:11 I suppose so Nov 08 12:51:34 * MollyK has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Nov 08 12:51:36 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 08 12:52:49 I rather think there are two different issues here? Nov 08 12:59:21 * MollyK has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Nov 08 13:01:18 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 08 13:03:00 Oh? Nov 08 13:04:23 That either of us might awake aroused from dreams of them, and what to do with that arousal, and also whether you might get stuck and inadvertently make love to me believing you are making love to her Nov 08 13:04:51 * Morgan nods slowly Nov 08 13:04:53 Alright Nov 08 13:06:15 Do you feel that is not the case? Nov 08 13:07:50 I had hoped that my understanding of this *he taps his pendant* was correct and will stop me getting stuck Nov 08 13:08:02 * MollyK nods Nov 08 13:08:11 In that, we can only wait and see Nov 08 13:08:46 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:11:00 I would suggest that for the time being, until we know, I will continue to refrain from engaging you at night without being sure you realise it is me Nov 08 13:11:17 right... ok Nov 08 13:11:30 That displeases you? Nov 08 13:12:59 Yes... but I understand it Nov 08 13:13:52 I would not want you getting hurt like that. What displeases you? *she smiles* It cannot be that we are not active enough already? Nov 08 13:14:50 No but... not having that option... it grates on me Nov 08 13:15:00 * MollyK nods Nov 08 13:16:30 Perhaps before long we will see if the pendant makes a difference as will have more freedom? Nov 08 13:17:19 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 13:17:21 We'll see Nov 08 13:18:06 And if we get it wrong, we will deal with it, my love. It isn't ideal, but I know it wouldn't be on purpose Nov 08 13:19:21 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:19:59 How would you want me to handle it if it did? Would you want me to stay with you, or give you space? Nov 08 13:20:42 The shock of it would be hard but... I worry more about the impact it would have on you Nov 08 13:21:55 I think I am more able to prepare myself mentally for it Nov 08 13:22:20 The nightmare suggested otherwise Nov 08 13:22:46 You did not give me much detail, my love Nov 08 13:24:17 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:24:28 Once we both realised... you threw up and started crying Nov 08 13:25:07 * MollyK nods Nov 08 13:25:21 I don't think that would happen, my love Nov 08 13:25:44 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 13:27:22 * MollyK squeezes his hand Nov 08 13:27:57 It would still be my body that brought you pleasure, my love. You wouldn't have been unfaithful Nov 08 13:28:17 * Morgan nods, sighing Nov 08 13:29:26 It really worries you greatly because it feels so immoral, or that my reaction might be so severe? Nov 08 13:29:46 That you would be hurt Nov 08 13:29:54 * MollyK nods Nov 08 13:30:12 It would rather be my own fault, knowing there is a risk of it Nov 08 13:30:45 Even so... Nov 08 13:31:34 I'd likely be most concerned about how you would be feeling Nov 08 13:32:06 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:33:04 You would feel guilty in both directions, I imagine Nov 08 13:33:43 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:33:47 Thats a fair statement I think Nov 08 13:34:02 * MollyK nods Nov 08 13:34:46 We will see how things progress? Nov 08 13:36:34 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:36:39 I suppose thats all we can do Nov 08 13:37:25 * MollyK kisses his knuckles Nov 08 13:37:30 You had asked me to think about the situation with you waking aroused from dreams... Nov 08 13:37:50 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:37:52 Yes... Nov 08 13:38:30 I think providing that it is me you wish to make love to at that moment, that you will not be comparing me to her, or wishing you were with her instead, that is fine. Nov 08 13:39:09 You are sure about that? Nov 08 13:42:35 Yes, because the alternative is that you and I are not able to be intimate with each other because of it. If we are to move forward and to not live our lives with a gap between us, then I feel this is the right step... Nov 08 13:42:53 * Morgan nods slowly Nov 08 13:42:55 alright Nov 08 13:44:10 I suppose... imagine you dreamt of... I don't know... my sister in law Beth... If you woke up aroused from that, you would laugh it off and still turn to me to satisfy your needs Nov 08 13:44:56 I _suppose_ so Nov 08 13:45:05 You do not think you would? Nov 08 13:45:13 I think I'd feel guilty about it Nov 08 13:46:22 But as long as you were not using me as a substitute for her, then it is just us being intimate. People do dream those sort of things all the time, it means nothing Nov 08 13:46:41 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:46:45 You're probably right Nov 08 13:46:50 * MollyK nods Nov 08 13:47:57 It would pain me that you were aroused and wanting to be with me but I was having to turn you away because you dreamt of Dietlinde. I would imagine that rejection would hurt you too? Nov 08 13:48:36 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:48:39 Yes, it would Nov 08 13:49:31 And you would already be feeling bad about being aroused from it. The physical restriction on getting any comfort from me would be painful? Nov 08 13:50:46 * Morgan nods slightly Nov 08 13:52:14 And I do not like the idea that I would be sending you away to take matters in hand, which would no doubt make you feel more guilty, or to suffer with the frustration and discomfort of abstinence. Nov 08 13:54:04 I wouldn't take matters in hand, as you put it... Nov 08 13:56:24 Why? Nov 08 13:56:44 I felt it was... disrespectful to you... Nov 08 13:57:17 But if I was unwilling to be intimate with you because of your dream... Nov 08 13:57:36 Then I would go without Nov 08 13:59:13 * MollyK shakes her head Nov 08 13:59:27 You have said before it leaves you with some aching Nov 08 13:59:51 * Morgan nods Nov 08 13:59:52 It does Nov 08 14:00:47 I would not want you to be in discomfort like that. *she smiles a little* unless I was purposefully arousing you to tease you, of course Nov 08 14:00:55 Of course Nov 08 14:01:49 I feel that I do not want to be withholding myself from you Nov 08 14:02:22 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:02:24 Alright Nov 08 14:02:51 What are your feelings about it, my love? I wish to discuss, not dictate Nov 08 14:03:35 I can see the sense in what you're saying... I just.. don't wish to hurt you Nov 08 14:03:47 * MollyK nods Nov 08 14:04:33 I know, liebling. But I trust you would not come to me as a substitute you can live that fantasy or memories out upon Nov 08 14:05:16 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 14:05:17 Never Nov 08 14:05:23 * MollyK nods Nov 08 14:05:44 I do not want anything to come between us Nov 08 14:06:19 No, nor I Nov 08 14:07:20 * MollyK nods "then we can settle this that I am always available to you when you want me?" Nov 08 14:08:13 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:08:15 Alright blossom Nov 08 14:08:26 * MollyK nods, then takes a deep breath Nov 08 14:08:35 Those were the easier parts Nov 08 14:09:00 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:09:57 The other morning you did not wake me when I was clearly enjoying my dream because you were worried I was dreaming of him instead Nov 08 14:10:06 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:10:29 Is that something you worry about frequently? Nov 08 14:10:43 Lately, yes Nov 08 14:11:03 Why lately? Nov 08 14:12:12 It occurred to me after I had dreamed of Dietlinde... and you had had a few dreams of your life with Sebastien... Nov 08 14:12:40 * MollyK nods Nov 08 14:13:18 He has kissed me one, months ago when I told you at the time and you said it was very close to when you first kissed her... Nov 08 14:13:23 Once* Nov 08 14:13:43 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:14:17 But I have not dreamt of us being actively intimate Nov 08 14:15:24 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:15:25 Alright Nov 08 14:17:18 You have worried that I just have not told you? Nov 08 14:18:11 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:18:56 No... I would need some comfort over it, and I would come to you Nov 08 14:19:20 Comfort? Nov 08 14:20:08 I would feel guilty to have been at all intimate with another man. My virginity and innocence were important to you Nov 08 14:20:49 That you would give them to me... that meant so very much Nov 08 14:21:06 * MollyK smiles "why though?" Nov 08 14:21:43 Something that we are taught is so important... Nov 08 14:21:52 Yes...? Nov 08 14:23:15 How could that not mean so much to me? And even now, the things you are willing to do, to let me do... Nov 08 14:23:35 * MollyK fidgets a little Nov 08 14:23:40 I like to please tou Nov 08 14:23:44 You* Nov 08 14:24:01 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:25:13 I like these things that are new to you. I like to witness that surprise and newness, the way you are amazed by previously undiscovered sensations Nov 08 14:25:45 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:26:54 I am becoming more at ease with admitting that I might have a little envy in that regard, and that it is perfectly natural to feel that whilst also recognising how special your first marriage was Nov 08 14:27:32 * MollyK looks like she is making a great deal of effort to be extremely open with him in this moment Nov 08 14:27:33 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:27:45 I understand Nov 08 14:27:54 * MollyK nods Nov 08 14:28:24 I am not -jealous-, because I do not feel resentful or angry over it... Nov 08 14:28:35 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:28:56 Good... but you would have liked my first experience to have been with you Nov 08 14:29:45 I would love to have experienced it with you, to have seen your reactions, understood those feelings together Nov 08 14:30:10 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:30:23 We have had that with other experiences my love... but I understand Nov 08 14:30:32 * MollyK nods Nov 08 14:31:08 I know... and as time has come on I have started to realise how many of these things we have done have been new Nov 08 14:31:31 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:31:33 Oh yes Nov 08 14:31:46 * MollyK giggles Nov 08 14:32:21 Starting with my irregular technique with my throat that I learnt on the Coral, I think? Nov 08 14:32:28 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:32:32 Yes. Yes indeed Nov 08 14:32:47 You did seem rather surprised, my love! Nov 08 14:33:37 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:33:41 I was. Very much so. Nov 08 14:33:45 * MollyK nods Nov 08 14:34:24 I cannot even count how many times I gagged whilst practising and acclimatising my throat to that! Nov 08 14:36:03 * Morgan looks surprised Nov 08 14:36:10 That... I hadn't considered that Nov 08 14:36:41 I am sorry to say it does not happen by magic *she sips her coffee* Nov 08 14:37:03 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:38:56 I started on the way back from the Coral in February, and I was fairly confident that I would not gag upon you by about May Nov 08 14:39:21 Oh... uhhh... I didn't realise... Nov 08 14:39:48 Is it disappointing that it was not perfectly effortless? Nov 08 14:40:04 No, absolutely not... I didn't realise you'd gone to such trouble Nov 08 14:41:12 I asked them what I could do that would blow a man's mind... I wanted to be sure I would be good enough Nov 08 14:41:34 * Morgan blushes Nov 08 14:43:22 I was rather under the illusion for a while that that was just how you were supposed to please a man orally. It was only when I subtly quizzed Inga that I realised it was a bit more advanced than people usually do Nov 08 14:43:35 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:43:40 So I am given to understand Nov 08 14:44:12 * MollyK giggles Nov 08 14:44:45 I used to wait until you'd left our cottage to go on patrol to practice so you would not be worried about the gagging Nov 08 14:45:59 I had no idea, none at all Nov 08 14:46:06 * MollyK smiles Nov 08 14:46:57 It is disquieting that I was thinking every day about how I would eventually be able to please you well enough? Nov 08 14:47:27 A little... and that I did not notice Nov 08 14:48:03 Why does it disquiet you? Nov 08 14:49:23 I hadn't realised so long ago you were already thinking of that... that I made you wait so long Nov 08 14:49:48 * MollyK shakes her head "You weren't ready, my love" Nov 08 14:51:08 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:51:12 No.. I wasn't Nov 08 14:52:58 I suppose I was more puzzled than anything else. You had asked me to be your mistress, not your companion, and generally there is a specific thing a man desires when he chooses to offer one over the other... but even once I had agreed you were clearly in no hurry, and even kissing was something you seemed... not reluctant, but... inhibited with Nov 08 14:53:17 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:54:42 I see now that you must have been so very torn between what you wanted and what you thought you -should- want Nov 08 14:55:28 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:55:32 Yes, I was Nov 08 14:55:56 I doubt I really made that any better! *she smiles ruefully* Nov 08 14:56:57 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 14:57:01 It doesn't matter now, does it Nov 08 14:57:45 No, but I feel a greater security now, and that allows me to look back with a different eye Nov 08 14:58:04 * Morgan nods Nov 08 14:58:05 Good Nov 08 14:58:40 For a very, very long time, I had that sense as you have previously had with Edward, that things are tenuous still Nov 08 14:59:11 No longer? Nov 08 14:59:21 * MollyK shakes her head Nov 08 15:00:00 No, I don't think I still have that. If I do, it is so slight as to barely affect my words and deeds Nov 08 15:00:09 * Morgan nods Nov 08 15:00:09 Good Nov 08 15:00:28 And for you? Has it felt tenuous to you? Nov 08 15:01:33 * Morgan nods Nov 08 15:01:52 Yes, I suppose it has... like... something could occur and you could decide it was not worth the pain any longer Nov 08 15:02:05 * MollyK nods Nov 08 15:03:10 And it does not-... *her eyes narrow slightly as if she's taken an idea* And that is partly why the dream of me being hurt the other night has lingered so intensely? Nov 08 15:03:36 * Morgan shrugs noncommittally Nov 08 15:03:54 Liebes herz... I have been very open with you... Nov 08 15:04:08 * Morgan nods slightly Nov 08 15:04:17 Yes... that is partly why. Nov 08 15:04:23 * MollyK nods Nov 08 15:04:28 I see... Nov 08 15:06:37 * Morgan watches her Nov 08 15:06:59 I have upset you Nov 08 15:07:19 I am striving to understand Nov 08 15:08:07 * Morgan nods Nov 08 15:08:19 The fear of losing you, one way or another, is still strong Nov 08 15:08:41 *she nods* You do not feel entirely secure in my commitment to stay and endure anything that comes our way, and Sebastian existing as he does presents an alternative happiness I could pursue if I decided you were not properly providing for my wants and needs? Nov 08 15:09:59 * Morgan frowns, looking back at his cup Nov 08 15:10:15 * MollyK watches him Nov 08 15:10:42 I'm messed up Molly... I know that... I worry that at some point it'll become too much. Nov 08 15:11:11 * MollyK puts her hand on his cheek, saying quietly "look at me." Nov 08 15:11:54 * Morgan does so, reluctantly Nov 08 15:13:40 You are -mine-, flaws and all. Something doesn't have to be perfect to be treasured. *she says this word, so close to the Little Treasure she knows he called Dietlinde and usually avoids a little awkwardly, without any flicker of considering that at all* Nov 08 15:14:13 * Morgan nods slightly Nov 08 15:15:26 You are doing so much better than you were. You are healing. I have not stood beside you through all the heartaches we have had so far only to walk away now that we are really starting to get closer Nov 08 15:15:57 * Morgan nods again, staring at his coffee for a moment before sipping it Nov 08 15:16:25 I would, however, appreciate you not withdrawing from me when this is so very important. Nov 08 15:16:51 * Morgan nods, sipping it again before looking at her Nov 08 15:17:11 I'm feeling very exposed right now... the coffee... it makes me feel less so to do something Nov 08 15:17:26 * MollyK nods Nov 08 15:17:49 What can I do to make it easier for you to talk to me right now? Nov 08 15:18:19 I don't know love... carry on... we need to work through this Nov 08 15:18:34 * MollyK nods Nov 08 15:22:03 When I agreed to marry you, that was not "until I am fed up of his more mercurial days, self-hatred, or sexual reserve, or until someone easier comes along", it was "until there is no part of me that exists anywhere in the universe that could possibly be somehow joined to you remains" Nov 08 15:47:02 * Morgan nods solemnly Nov 08 15:52:53 Alright. I'm sorry. Nov 08 15:56:14 No... my love, it not an attack. I am trying to reassure you that I am not going to leave you Nov 08 15:56:25 * Morgan nods Nov 08 15:56:28 okay Nov 08 15:56:52 * MollyK watches him a long moment Nov 08 15:57:16 Talk to me... you wish to talk through this. Nov 08 15:58:28 The fear has been there a long time... it'll take a little longer than one conversation to erase it my love Nov 08 15:58:40 What started it? Nov 08 16:02:47 You think it has not always been present Nov 08 16:03:47 * MollyK considers this, sipping her coffee Nov 08 16:04:21 No... I think at some moment you must have realised a fear of losing my presence in your life... Nov 08 16:05:04 * Morgan sighs Nov 08 16:06:32 I suppose... the realisation that you had no idea the depth of my love for you... and that there is someone out there for you that would not carry all this pain, preoccupation, all of it... How could you be expected to put up with me feeling that I only loved you enough? That I had not expressed my love for you? Nov 08 16:07:20 * MollyK nods slowly Nov 08 16:11:02 And yet believing that, I chose to live out my life with you, willing to sacrifice having children because you were possibly never going to want any. I was willing to leave the only country I'd ever known to follow you to a place where I knew I would have to walk alongside your beautiful, lovely memories, and hope it was not going to make you push Nov 08 16:11:02 me away. I have been willing to sacrifice myself for you for so long. How could something as simple as another man pull me from that devotion? Nov 08 16:12:15 But its not just him is it... its him _and_ me... and the danger. And the hurt. And the changes in you. Nov 08 16:13:10 The danger is coming regardless. The changes bother me because I do not want you to think less of me. The hurt... which hurt? Nov 08 16:14:01 What the monks said... that feeling when I withdraw from you... the nightmares... Nov 08 16:14:56 None of which I will not endure because the love and passion we share is so worth it. Nov 08 16:15:18 * Morgan nods, exhaling slowly Nov 08 16:15:19 Alright Nov 08 16:16:04 I don't want to be with Seb. He is not you. Nov 08 16:16:22 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:17:45 I've always seen what a good, loving, decent man you are, from that moment in the Rose garden when you first let me see beneath the unfriendly facade. Nov 08 16:17:59 It wasn't a facade. I am unfriendly Nov 08 16:18:20 Horsesh-... horse dung. Nov 08 16:18:37 * Morgan smirks slightly Nov 08 16:19:19 You are very friendly towards anyone who is not arrogant, self entitled, or cruel. Nov 08 16:19:50 I'm... not adversarial towards them Nov 08 16:20:01 No, this is all nonsense! Nov 08 16:21:25 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 16:21:27 maybe Nov 08 16:22:18 I have seen how you care about DeeDee and his nightmares, how you want to help Potts overcome his childhood trauma and be a better man, how you learnt to overcome your prejudices about Diana to appreciate the insecurity that drives it, how you embrace Heidi's sense of fun, how you helped she and Zench, the way you made that saddle for Wonks that Nov 08 16:22:18 meant the world to him. Nov 08 16:23:06 I suppose so Nov 08 16:23:32 Of all the delusions you have about yourself, this is by far the silliest. *she sips her coffee* Nov 08 16:23:56 I am not silly Nov 08 16:24:53 * MollyK watches him "I said the delusion was silly. Not you." Nov 08 16:25:54 * Morgan sighs Nov 08 16:25:56 Alright Nov 08 16:26:16 And you can be silly, delightfully so, when you allow it Nov 08 16:26:47 No... thats whimsical. Nov 08 16:27:02 * MollyK shrugs Nov 08 16:27:23 Either way, you have a sense of fun that you do not allow yourself often Nov 08 16:27:51 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:28:42 * MollyK thinks, speaking distractedly "in some ways, it is as if you do not allow yourself much joy at all at times" Nov 08 16:29:37 * Morgan watches her Nov 08 16:29:56 * MollyK shrugs a little Nov 08 16:30:15 We are getting distracted from what we are supposed to be discussing Nov 08 16:30:32 * Morgan nods slightly Nov 08 16:30:58 Seb, the dreams, and how to handle them... Nov 08 16:31:11 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:31:13 yes Nov 08 16:31:47 I hope not to dream of anything like that with him, but I cannot guarantee it Nov 08 16:31:52 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:31:54 I know Nov 08 16:32:20 And I cannot guarantee my body would not respond accordingly Nov 08 16:32:30 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:32:32 I know Nov 08 16:33:36 And so the question becomes; if I dream of him that way, with or without the physical effect, do you want to know, or would you rather I keep it to myself? Nov 08 16:34:45 I don't know that keeping it to yourself will help in the long term Nov 08 16:35:13 That is not what I asked. I would be able to tell Inga, so I would not be struggling alone Nov 08 16:35:37 No, but... I think... it would damage us, wouldn't it Nov 08 16:35:49 Would it? Nov 08 16:37:29 You don't think so? Nov 08 16:38:02 I do not know whether keeping it quiet or telling you would do more damage Nov 08 16:38:48 Believing that you might have had a dream that aroused you but you not telling me... or knowing you had because you had told me... Nov 08 16:39:17 Either way would distress you Nov 08 16:39:38 Probably Nov 08 16:40:06 * MollyK sighs Nov 08 16:40:22 I simply wish to know what I should do in case it happens Nov 08 16:41:25 I... would want to know Nov 08 16:41:32 * MollyK nods Nov 08 16:41:39 To what degree? Nov 08 16:42:01 Now that... I don't know Nov 08 16:42:07 * MollyK nods Nov 08 16:43:01 I could simply tell you I'd dreamt something, and whether or not my body had peaked? Or might you want to know precisely what the dream involved? Nov 08 16:44:43 I don't _know_ blossom Nov 08 16:44:48 * MollyK nods Nov 08 16:44:58 Would you consider it for me? Nov 08 16:45:06 * Morgan nods, sighing Nov 08 16:45:08 Alright Nov 08 16:45:48 Thank you. And what would you have me do if I awoke keen to be intimate? Nov 08 16:47:01 My concern is that I would feel you are only doing so because I am here and he is not... I will... suffice. Nov 08 16:47:46 *she sounds serious* I can understand that concern, obviously. Nov 08 16:48:00 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:48:28 Wake me... I... think I'd prefer that Nov 08 16:48:38 Me nods Nov 08 16:49:31 I would never bring that to you if I thought I would not be entirely in the moment with you Nov 08 16:49:59 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:50:06 Ok... alright blossom Nov 08 16:51:04 And you would prefer I not take matters in hand if I woke after that but you were not available to me? Nov 08 16:51:38 I'm not sure. Let me think on it. Nov 08 16:52:46 It is only that you said you felt it would be disrespectful to me if you had done so after dreaming of her but been uncomfortable engaging me because of it Nov 08 16:54:54 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:54:55 Aye Nov 08 16:55:54 We can discuss it another time, my love. Nov 08 16:57:53 * Morgan nods Nov 08 16:57:54 alright Nov 08 16:58:13 * MollyK watches him very closely Nov 08 16:58:22 Are you alright? Nov 08 16:59:55 * Morgan rolls his neck before nodding Nov 08 17:00:21 ((Does he look alright?)) Nov 08 17:00:39 ((Stressed but ok)) Nov 08 17:00:59 Let me sit with you? Nov 08 17:01:38 * Morgan nods Nov 08 17:03:33 * MollyK gently takes his cup before straddling his lap "You are my home. You are all I ever wanted." Nov 08 17:04:09 * Morgan nods Nov 08 17:05:40 * MollyK chews her lower lip, looking concerned "Do you wish me to let you go for dinner now?" Nov 08 17:06:10 In a moment Nov 08 17:06:32 * MollyK nods, just staying quiet Nov 08 17:07:05 * Morgan takes her hand, kissing her knuckles Nov 08 17:07:09 I'm alright Nov 08 17:07:20 * MollyK nods a little Nov 08 17:07:38 I am scared I have hurt you, that I have been too open Nov 08 17:08:21 No love... just some things I need to think about that I find upsetting to consider Nov 08 17:08:31 * MollyK nods Nov 08 17:09:14 But you do understand that I do not want any of it? I am yours, and my desire is entirely for you Nov 08 17:11:21 * Morgan nods Nov 08 17:11:23 I do Nov 08 17:11:47 * MollyK brings her forehead to his, just breathing slowly Nov 08 17:14:11 * Morgan makes quiet noise, a small moan on comfort Nov 08 17:14:41 * MollyK moves a little to kiss him very gently Nov 08 17:15:21 * Morgan lets her before speaking Nov 08 17:15:23 We'll be alright Nov 08 17:15:54 * MollyK nods, kissing him again before saying "I have no doubt of that" Nov 08 17:17:09 * Morgan nods before whispering Nov 08 17:17:11 I'm starving Nov 08 17:17:44 * MollyK whispers back "me too, but I'm not very hungry..." Nov 08 17:17:52 * Morgan laughs Nov 08 17:18:57 *He hears HH and Inga talking at each other with amusement just before the door opens* HH: Yeeeeah... we'll just meet you down there, man! *the door closes again* Nov 08 17:19:18 * MollyK sighs, smiling Nov 08 17:19:21 Oh dear. Nov 08 17:19:31 Indeed Nov 08 17:19:58 I'd best get off so you can get up and go down, hmm? Nov 08 17:20:27 * Morgan blushes Nov 08 17:20:31 Uhh... yeah Nov 08 17:21:02 * MollyK giggles, chastely kissing his cheek and then slipping off his lap Nov 08 17:22:32 I shall let you head down and have your fill, my love... *shes smirking now* Nov 08 17:23:11 I'll have some food sent up? Nov 08 17:23:18 Yes please Nov 08 17:34:32 * MollyK kisses him again at the doorway Nov 08 17:34:51 Will you be back again before you go to the brothel? Nov 08 17:35:00 * Morgan nods Nov 08 17:35:08 Might not be for long, but yes, I will be Nov 08 17:35:57 Alright, liebling Nov 08 17:37:32 * Morgan looks at her for a moment before smiling and heading down to the tap room Nov 08 17:44:48 *The tap room is surprisingly busy considering the time of year, and Inga, HH, Claudia, And DeeDee have the table next to the one he and Molly were at last time, already with drinks* Nov 08 17:45:37 * Morgan collects one before going to sit down Nov 08 17:46:31 * MollyK is now known as HH Nov 08 17:47:03 * HH is in the middle of telling them a story about how he and Rosie had a race inside empty barrels down a hill Nov 08 17:48:26 * Morgan takes a moment to look at DeeDee and Claudia, trying to gauge their state of mind Nov 08 17:50:37 *there's still a bit of tension, like they're very aware of each other Nov 08 17:50:59 I: I ordered for you Morgan, and they'll take Molly some Nov 08 17:51:25 Not porridge is it? Nov 08 17:53:09 *All but DeeDee laugh. He just looks confused* D: For dinner, my Lord? Nov 08 17:54:39 I used to work below stairs in a noble woman's house... the cook messed up the servings for the guests, so to bulk out the chicken for me he added... oats... it was... vaguely chickeny, salty porridge Nov 08 17:55:56 *DeeDee nods, but HH starts involuntarily retching* Nov 08 17:56:23 I think, DeeDee, we can dispense with my lord... Nov 08 18:01:09 D: Sorry, force of habit *he sips his ale. The food is brought* Nov 08 18:02:57 * Morgan looks at his food Nov 08 18:03:54 *it is cheap meat, but plenty of it, lots of vegetables. Heinzharold is already inhaling his as usual* Nov 08 18:04:40 * Morgan starts eating Nov 08 18:06:52 I: Morgan, I wondered if after dinner Molly might like it if I watch Varick for an hour so you and she can have a drink together? Nov 08 18:07:23 I thought you wished to visit somewhere with HeinzHarold... Nov 08 18:07:27 * HH is smirking a little Nov 08 18:07:35 I: we can go after that Nov 08 18:07:45 * Morgan nods Nov 08 18:07:58 I think she'd like that... I'd be very grateful Nov 08 18:08:09 *Inga looks pleased* Nov 08 18:09:27 D: There's not anywhere near by to go, I'm afraid. I've been here many times Nov 08 18:09:48 * Morgan glances round the taproom Nov 08 18:09:53 This'll do... Nov 08 18:10:46 * HH looks at DeeDee "I'm taking her to the brothel, like sale or return see?" Nov 08 18:11:22 *DeeDee looks confused, Inga slaps Heinzharold's arm, blushing and giggling" Nov 08 18:11:59 *Claudia just watches Morgan's expression* Nov 08 18:12:13 $checking for outrage?$ Nov 08 18:14:51 C: $yes. Calling Inga a whore...$ Nov 08 18:15:05 * HH is too busy eating Nov 08 18:15:54 $If I thought for a second he even half meant it, he'd be outside without using a door. But he doesn't. I know it. You know it. She knows it.$ Nov 08 18:16:53 *Claudia shrugs a little, not outraged herself* Nov 08 18:17:24 $progress, right$ Nov 08 18:18:01 D: There are worse ones to take her too. It's generally quiet and decent... for the sort of establishment it is. Nov 08 18:19:09 * HH nods to DeeDee "joining us, man?" Nov 08 18:19:33 *DeeDee shrugs "I hadn't decided yet" Nov 08 18:20:27 *Claudia drinks some of her ale, but her face doesn't reveal anything* Nov 08 18:21:35 * Morgan drinks some Nov 08 18:21:41 $You need to talk?$ Nov 08 18:22:22 C: $no. Not my business where he puts it, as long as it's not near me.$ Nov 08 18:23:58 $Wasn't just talking about that$ Nov 08 18:24:09 * Morgan puts his tankard down Nov 08 18:24:17 DeeDee, ever had Avalonian ale? Nov 08 18:24:25 $maybe. Could do$ Nov 08 18:24:57 D: No, I haven't Nov 08 18:25:07 $lemme eat, then we'll go scream at the stars$ Nov 08 18:25:25 Its like... having sex in a row boat Nov 08 18:26:50 D: uuhhhh you have an advantage over me, I have never had sex in a rowboat Nov 08 18:27:29 * Morgan nods, speaking quietly as he scoops up some meat Nov 08 18:27:36 * HH looks at Morgan, mouth half full "When'd you have sex in a rowboat, man?!" Nov 08 18:27:46 Its fucking close to water... Nov 08 18:28:51 *this makes DeeDee laugh hardest, but the others laugh too. Inga looks at HH* I: donut be absurd, Heinzharold Nov 08 18:28:57 Don't* Nov 08 18:29:10 $I'm gonna tell her$ Nov 08 18:29:26 * Morgan stuffs some potato in his mouth Nov 08 18:29:32 $won't believe you man$ Nov 08 18:30:09 $she's right in this instance, mind$ Nov 08 18:30:34 $only because you don't live in Hafenlohr yet$ Nov 08 18:31:35 $maybe$ Nov 08 18:33:50 *everyone continues eating. Some of the same songs are sung that formed the auditory shield preventing his quiet sounds of enjoyment alerting the tap room* Nov 08 18:35:30 * Morgan hums quietly as he eats Nov 08 18:35:43 (Something specific?) Nov 08 18:36:27 ((Nope)) Nov 08 18:36:55 *they are soon finished and the maid takes away their plates* Nov 08 18:37:08 Not bad... drinkin' time now! Nov 08 18:40:45 * Morgan calls for a round of drinks Nov 08 18:46:00 *they get them. Inga looks relaxed halfway through her second glass. HH has an arm along behind her* Nov 08 18:47:51 I: I'll relieve Molly when I've finished this Nov 08 18:49:42 You sure? Nov 08 18:50:29 I: Yes, Heinzharold said he thought it would make you very pleased Nov 08 18:51:22 Did he now... I am very grateful, Inga. We've got some good memories here Nov 08 18:52:13 * HH nearly chokes on his ale. Claudia starts laughing, the other two look puzzled Nov 08 18:53:22 * Morgan watches HeinzHarold sidelong as he speaks Nov 08 18:53:45 I: have you come here before together? Nov 08 18:53:55 Its a pity its been such a rough couple of days, and with the weather... there's a lovely spot by a stream that would've been nice for lunch... Nov 08 18:54:00 * Morgan nods Nov 08 18:54:05 Yes, yes we have... Nov 08 18:54:16 * HH is grinning Nov 08 18:55:01 I: Oh, I thought it was only coming down from Fischler in August Nov 08 18:55:11 * Morgan nods Nov 08 18:55:27 C: $stream?$ Nov 08 18:55:29 Aye, exactly... but we definitely liked it here Nov 08 18:55:50 $Might have had certain... activities by a tree near a stream we passed earlier$ Nov 08 18:57:03 I: how long were you here? Nov 08 18:57:32 Just one evening... gave us time together Nov 08 18:58:00 I:that's nice Nov 08 18:58:44 * Morgan nods Nov 08 18:58:47 Musta been a relief, after travellin' with yer Da Nov 08 18:59:57 He wasn't too bad... Nov 08 19:01:21 *Claudia stands up* back soon... Nov 08 19:01:39 Grabbing some air? Nov 08 19:01:48 C: yeah Nov 08 19:02:26 * Morgan nods, standing Nov 08 19:02:31 I'll join you Nov 08 19:02:43 * HH is now known as Claudia Nov 08 19:03:40 * Claudia goes outside. The brothel across the way looks quieter than the tavern at present. The rain has stopped Nov 08 19:04:38 * Morgan follows her out, tankard in hand Nov 08 19:04:51 How are you? Nov 08 19:05:37 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 19:05:41 'M alright. You? Nov 08 19:05:48 Yeah, same Nov 08 19:06:15 Brutal shit Nov 08 19:06:32 Yeah. That was some bad shit Nov 08 19:07:28 * Morgan nods Nov 08 19:07:34 You know what they did, don't you? Nov 08 19:08:14 Fucked with my mind, played on my guilt, like Molly said to DeeDee Nov 08 19:08:49 exactly... magic, see... picked the thing you feel guilty about and made it worse. Nov 08 19:09:06 * Claudia nods Nov 08 19:09:24 Yeah. Felt like hell. You? Nov 08 19:09:40 * Morgan sips his ale, looking up the street Nov 08 19:10:13 What they say... they say whatever would hurt you most, what you would feel guiltiest about... Nov 08 19:10:34 * Claudia nods Nov 08 19:11:07 Yeah. Not surprised they picked that one Nov 08 19:11:35 * Morgan nods Nov 08 19:13:53 Spew a load of shit if it'd get what they wanted Nov 08 19:14:57 You don't have to reassure me, Morgan. I know you think I'm wrong feeling guilty about it Nov 08 19:16:35 I understand, though... its just... they ferreted about in your mind, made you feel it more, see it in the very worst way Nov 08 19:16:49 * Claudia nods Nov 08 19:16:55 I'm okay, really Nov 08 19:17:17 Struggling with him, too... Nov 08 19:17:44 Fucking idiot. What the hell was he thinking?! Nov 08 19:18:38 He was thinking he wanted to help... to try to keep you safe. Nov 08 19:18:55 I can keep myself safe. Nov 08 19:19:01 * Claudia sips her ale Nov 08 19:19:24 So why did I come running to? Because I don't think you can keep yourself safe? Nov 08 19:20:01 You know not to run in front of me. You stand and fight -beside- me. You don't act like I'm a damsel in distress Nov 08 19:20:22 mmmhmmmm... and how many times has he been in a fight with you? Nov 08 19:20:44 He's trained with me several times. He knows I am better than him Nov 08 19:21:41 And? I know I'm better than you, but I'd still welcome your help.... The fact we side side by side is down to experience, isn't it... Nov 08 19:21:58 * Claudia shrugs Nov 08 19:22:15 Shut up, you're spoiling my irritation. Nov 08 19:23:04 * Morgan nods, sipping his ale Nov 08 19:23:32 Are you angry at yourself? Nov 08 19:23:42 I don't know, maybe Nov 08 19:23:53 * Morgan nods Nov 08 19:24:06 Might help you to figure out what you're really angry about Nov 08 19:24:13 Maybe Nov 08 19:26:16 I'll get over it. Do we all need to talk about it together before Heinzharold and Inga -And- DeeDee go to the brothel to cramp my style? Nov 08 19:29:33 I dunno. I'm going to check on DeeDee before that Nov 08 19:29:59 * Claudia nods Nov 08 19:30:34 Want me to send him out? Nov 08 19:31:13 * Morgan nods Nov 08 19:31:25 Yeah go on. Find out if we need a talk together Nov 08 19:31:45 Do you need a hug? Nov 08 19:34:41 Never turn down a hug from you Nov 08 19:35:01 * Claudia hugs him Nov 08 19:35:43 * Morgan hugs her tight Nov 08 19:37:08 Aside from the guilt, that was a lot of fun though Nov 08 19:37:33 I hated seeing all of you hurting like that.... Nov 08 19:40:39 It wasn't your fault Nov 08 19:41:16 Not... entirely sure about that Nov 08 19:41:56 * Claudia hasn't let go Nov 08 19:42:10 It wasn't. Nov 08 19:43:12 I had a second night of nightmares... maybe it was my fault Nov 08 19:44:28 We're all okay. Just got to let it go Nov 08 19:44:40 I'm trying to Nov 08 19:44:50 * Claudia nods Nov 08 19:45:13 * Claudia seems to realise, then pulls away Nov 08 19:45:23 I'll get DeeDee Nov 08 19:45:48 * Morgan catches her hand, squeezing it gently briefly Nov 08 19:45:49 Thanks Nov 08 19:45:57 * Claudia smiles Nov 08 19:46:03 No problem Nov 08 19:49:50 * Morgan nods, letting her go Nov 08 19:50:05 *he's alone a while. There's a patch of shadow on the tavern where the lamps don't cover, and it reminds him of Molly telling him whilst pleasuring him that if they wanted any chance of getting to their room rather than just taking her against the tavern wall they needed to leave. Nov 08 19:51:16 * Morgan smiles slightly, drinking his ale Nov 08 19:51:51 * Claudia is now known as DeeDee Nov 08 19:52:10 * DeeDee brings his ale out, but also has his pipe lit Nov 08 19:52:16 You wanted me? Nov 08 19:52:33 * Morgan nods Nov 08 19:52:46 I wanted to see how you're doing after this mornings... activity Nov 08 19:53:06 * DeeDee exhales the smoke Nov 08 19:53:28 I'm still trying to wrap my head around what happened Nov 08 19:53:41 Can I help with that? Nov 08 19:53:56 Yes. What happened? *he smiles* Nov 08 19:54:14 What do you _think_ happened? Nov 08 19:54:59 Magic. That's all I can really conclude Nov 08 19:55:55 Okay... Given the way they all burned afterwards, I'm in agreement... Nov 08 19:57:19 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 19:58:00 The guilt was like an attack. The things they said to you all were vile and unjustified. Nov 08 19:58:56 It was designed to illicit a certain response... They wanted you to feel so guilty as to wish for death... they would feed upon... I don't know, you, your guilt... Nov 08 19:59:19 They're many years too late for that. Nov 08 19:59:43 * Morgan smiles slightly, sipping his ale Nov 08 20:00:10 Yes. I know. Molly wanted me to tell you, what they said to you... thats not how it happens at all. Nov 08 20:00:49 * DeeDee shrugs suddenly "I am sure she is well intentioned, but incorrect." Nov 08 20:01:29 She is a well trained medic... she knows what she's talking about Nov 08 20:01:55 * DeeDee doesn't look hostile, but he certainly looks stubborn Nov 08 20:02:06 * Morgan smiles at him Nov 08 20:03:11 I know... you can't accept something that would make your guilt any less... its inconceivable to you that it might not have been quite so terrible as you think. Nov 08 20:03:42 I killed a woman and her unborn child. *he sounds flat, emotionless* Nov 08 20:04:17 I know. Nov 08 20:04:31 Claudia told you. Nov 08 20:04:42 No... she has not betrayed any confidence Nov 08 20:04:52 Edward then. Nov 08 20:04:59 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 20:05:18 No, him neither Nov 08 20:06:53 One of the others? Nov 08 20:07:01 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 20:07:33 No, none of them. No one has betrayed your confidence, so stop worrying at it. Just accept that sometimes I pay very close attention. Nov 08 20:07:48 * DeeDee nods briefly Nov 08 20:08:20 There is no absolution when you have killed a woman and child. The guilt is relentless Nov 08 20:09:23 The baby would not have suffered.... It would've had no idea what had or was happening... it would've just difted off to sleep. No pain, no panic. Nov 08 20:09:39 * DeeDee shakes his head Nov 08 20:09:52 I'm sorry my lord but I do not believe that Nov 08 20:10:56 [DeeDee does not believe me] Nov 08 20:11:09 How're you doing with the magic? Nov 08 20:12:05 [we have a few days, I will work on him] Nov 08 20:12:37 I nearly lost my life on the battlefield, a healer in the camp saved me Nov 08 20:12:59 Can tell you're not a Sudlachenburg boy Nov 08 20:14:43 No, I'm from here. The Konigsreich of Hainzl, not Paan Nov 08 20:15:19 So... tell me what magic you saw Nov 08 20:16:10 I'm not sure. They caught fire and some... it looked like invisible hands ripped them apart Nov 08 20:16:47 Did a bit Nov 08 20:17:15 What was it? Nov 08 20:18:23 Magic I'd say Nov 08 20:18:33 But where from? Nov 08 20:19:06 Realistically, has to be one of us, doesn't it? Don't see the monks doing it to themselves Nov 08 20:19:20 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:20:00 I will respect your wishes if you do not feel you want to entrust me with it. I know it would put your loved ones at risk Nov 08 20:20:54 It would. Can I trust you? Really _really_ trust you? Nov 08 20:21:19 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:21:39 Edward trusts me to escort you safely to Zweibrucke Nov 08 20:22:11 * Morgan nods, looking round to check the coast is clear Nov 08 20:22:24 *it's all quiet Nov 08 20:22:44 * Morgan picks up a leaf, setting it alight before letting it go Nov 08 20:22:57 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:23:10 That would make lighting my pipe very much easier Nov 08 20:23:28 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:23:40 Edward knows. My parents definitely do _not_ Nov 08 20:23:45 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:23:51 It will not pass my lips Nov 08 20:24:17 Edward can't do that? Nov 08 20:24:23 * Morgan nods, looking round again Nov 08 20:24:34 No... he has no such ability... just me Nov 08 20:24:44 It doesn't run in the family? Nov 08 20:25:20 It must have come from somewhere but... there is no trace of it climbing my family tree Nov 08 20:25:43 * DeeDee nods, smiling Nov 08 20:26:20 I was just thinking of Edward's panic is his children started throwing fireballs at each other Nov 08 20:26:26 If* Nov 08 20:27:08 It was quite an ask for him to accept it without going completely bonkers... Nov 08 20:27:36 I must admit I probably would have kept it quiet from his Nov 08 20:27:39 Him* Nov 08 20:27:57 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:28:52 I gave it thought... we have become much closer, stronger together. *he looks at his ale* He was struggling with something... it provided a distraction. Nov 08 20:29:12 Edward, struggling... that's unusual! Nov 08 20:29:24 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:29:37 Yes... so I have seen Nov 08 20:29:42 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:30:02 How did you do that thing with pulling them apart? Nov 08 20:31:03 _really_ trust you? Nov 08 20:31:52 * DeeDee nods "I would never hurt any of you, or Edward in turn" Nov 08 20:32:50 * Morgan smiles slightly Nov 08 20:33:34 Claudia would rip your arms off... *he looks at him for a moment* Molly. She can heal... and... other things Nov 08 20:33:44 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:34:05 That was impressive. Nov 08 20:34:34 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:34:42 No-one talks about my daughter like that Nov 08 20:36:30 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:37:17 Between your wife and Claudia, I think it's easily time to evaluate which sex are better in a fight Nov 08 20:37:45 She's very angry with you Nov 08 20:38:50 * DeeDee nods solemnly Nov 08 20:39:10 I was stupid. I have undermined the respect she was gaining for me. Nov 08 20:39:35 Not so much as you'd think. Nov 08 20:42:02 I just responded on instinct. She might not have really been in danger, but I reacted without thinking Nov 08 20:42:49 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:42:54 You wanted to protect her Nov 08 20:43:27 * DeeDee nods, putting the pipe to his mouth and inhaling. He holds it before exhaling Nov 08 20:43:30 I did Nov 08 20:43:48 Would you like to know part of why she is angry? Nov 08 20:44:19 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:44:27 I would welcome any insight Nov 08 20:45:22 You treated her like a damsel in distress, not a comrade at arms... She'd have gladly fought alongside you... Nov 08 20:45:31 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:45:44 But I reminded her that I see her as a woman... Nov 08 20:46:04 A bit. There's more to it but I am not at liberty to discuss that with you Nov 08 20:46:09 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 20:46:24 Of course, I would never ask you to betray her confidence Nov 08 20:47:04 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:47:27 Give her time and that respect you obviously have for her... she'll probably get past it Nov 08 20:47:36 Would it be better to apologise, or continue as things are? Nov 08 20:48:16 Let me think about it. She's not so straight forward that I can easily predict her reaction Nov 08 20:48:24 * DeeDee nods, smiling Nov 08 20:48:33 She is marvellously complex Nov 08 20:48:47 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:49:23 * DeeDee offers him the pipe Nov 08 20:49:55 No, thank you. How much has she told you of her past? Nov 08 20:50:42 She told me she had a rough time in the War due to her sex, and about when her Mother died, as you heard Nov 08 20:50:57 * Morgan nods Nov 08 20:52:21 I see... Nov 08 20:53:00 Nothing more than that. I sense she does not open up easily Nov 08 20:53:47 I've known her since the war... we're close, yeah? But that with her mother... never told me... you're the first person she's told Nov 08 20:55:21 I was in the right place at the right time, that's all Nov 08 20:56:00 I'm not jealous... but it illustrates my point Nov 08 20:57:34 * DeeDee nods "I am honoured. I cannot get her to understand she was not at fault, but at least she is told -someone- at last" Nov 08 20:58:33 Its one of those things she has simply accepted. I think you know how that is Nov 08 20:59:00 * DeeDee nods "I do" Nov 08 20:59:40 * Morgan nods, taking a mouthful of ale Nov 08 21:00:31 Do you fight monsters often? Nov 08 21:01:16 Well... my time in Avalon was almost constant at it... its less often in Eisen but... we do it properly, big nasty monsters Nov 08 21:01:25 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:01:54 No one else has anything as good as Eisen Nov 08 21:02:52 We're a bit better at it, yes Nov 08 21:03:06 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:03:28 Did you get the pipe and tobacco? Nov 08 21:04:01 Yes, thank you. Nov 08 21:04:08 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:04:14 You're welcome Nov 08 21:05:06 May have used some of it last night... Nov 08 21:05:20 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:05:43 Sometimes it is necessary. Sometimes it's just enjoyable and has no hangover Nov 08 21:06:12 Think the closest I've ever had to a hangover was that night we were drugged Nov 08 21:07:08 That was rough. I've had worse though Nov 08 21:08:07 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:08:28 You did very well, y'know... not looking at her Nov 08 21:09:16 I would never do that to her, I respect her disinterest in myself and her prior commitment elsewhere Nov 08 21:10:12 There's no denying she's a beautiful woman... as I said, very well done. Nov 08 21:11:38 Thank you, but that is somewhat like thanking someone for not trampling you with a horse. I wasn't tempted, it violates my principles Nov 08 21:12:18 Then I thank you for being so committed to them. Many many men would've looked... though... you did look just a little like a boy being scolded Nov 08 21:13:26 * DeeDee smiles "it was very unpleasant" Nov 08 21:14:05 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:14:25 Glad I interrupted then. You'll know better if anything else occurs Nov 08 21:14:47 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:15:09 I will. *he offers Morgan his drunk* do you want this? Nov 08 21:15:37 Drink* Nov 08 21:15:53 * Morgan smiles Nov 08 21:15:56 Waste not want not. Nov 08 21:16:02 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:16:46 I don't drink for at least two hours before being intimate with a woman, I hate that sloppy feeling of being out of control Nov 08 21:17:47 I can relate to the latter Nov 08 21:17:57 * DeeDee nods Nov 08 21:18:30 You'll find the tobacco is very different to alcohol. Sex after that is very different to being drunk Nov 08 21:18:40 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:18:44 I'll keep that in mind Nov 08 21:19:33 * DeeDee nods "Was there anything else you needed me for? I think they were setting up for dancing" Nov 08 21:20:50 Keen to dance with HeinzHarold huh? Come on, lets go inside Nov 08 21:21:53 * DeeDee heads in. Heinzharold is lurking near the back door, letting DeeDee pass before walking beside Morgan Nov 08 21:22:00 * DeeDee is now known as HH Nov 08 21:22:23 Hope I didn' interrupt too much! Nov 08 21:23:09 No man... we were talking about something difficult and the physical contact was needed Nov 08 21:23:19 * HH looks more serious Nov 08 21:23:24 You guys okay? Nov 08 21:23:49 We're alright man. Its just something difficult thats all Nov 08 21:24:13 Need t' talk? Nov 08 21:24:41 Nah. We got it covered Nov 08 21:24:51 * HH heads into the tap room, keeping an eye on Morgan Nov 08 21:25:00 That's good, man Nov 08 21:25:12 You're looking at me like I'm about to run Nov 08 21:25:23 * HH grins "nope" Nov 08 21:25:41 * Morgan looks at him suspiciously Nov 08 21:25:46 Then what? Nov 08 21:26:01 *Molly is sat at the specific table, what looks like a glass of ale and one of brandy, as they'd had that night* Nov 08 21:26:20 ah. I see. Nov 08 21:26:34 * HH looks to see if he's blushing Nov 08 21:26:41 * Morgan is Nov 08 21:26:58 * HH pats his shoulder Nov 08 21:27:32 Remember man, Cinderella has to go home on time so the babysitter can go to the knocking shop Nov 08 21:28:14 * Morgan nods, heading over to Molly Nov 08 21:28:20 * HH is now known as Molly Nov 08 21:28:40 * Molly is smiling, and scoots along to give him the seat he had befor Nov 08 21:29:13 * Morgan sits down by her Nov 08 21:29:22 Good evening, your Excellency... Come here often? Nov 08 21:29:50 Nearly... Nov 08 21:30:23 * Molly smiles Nov 08 21:30:38 Frequently, in my imagination... Nov 08 21:30:44 * Molly sips the brandy Nov 08 21:30:53 * Morgan laughs before drinking some ale Nov 08 21:31:07 Is everything well? Nov 08 21:31:30 Aside from DeeDee not being willing to accept what I told him... aye Nov 08 21:32:14 * Molly nods Nov 08 21:32:38 Eisen men are stubborn, you really do have to beat it into them Nov 08 21:33:08 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:33:15 Yes, you do Nov 08 21:35:35 * Molly watches the dancing that's begun. It's common tavern dancing, close and fast Nov 08 21:35:55 Inga is excited about going to the brothel Nov 08 21:36:48 You don't wish to go? Nov 08 21:38:37 * Molly shakes her head "I am fine staying with Varick, my love. I'm paying extra to have them bring me up a bathtub and hot water, and I shall luxuriate in that a while" Nov 08 21:39:20 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:39:26 Alright my love Nov 08 21:39:35 You wish I was going with you? Nov 08 21:40:09 No, I thought maybe Inga's excitement had rubbed off on you Nov 08 21:41:21 * Molly shakes her head "no. I'll gossip with her about it tomorrow, but it isn't something I have much interest in..." *she gives his thigh a brief squeeze beneath the table* Nov 08 21:41:54 * Morgan nods, taking a mouthful of ale Nov 08 21:42:01 Alright, blossom Nov 08 21:42:46 * Molly sips her drink, watching him over the rim "as we're here and I have a little free time on my hands, I think maybe we should do something we did not get to last time..." Nov 08 21:43:22 Oh? Nov 08 21:43:28 * Molly nods Nov 08 21:44:35 Mmmhmmm... something your Father would very much disapprove of a Duke and Duchess doing in a tavern... something that will make you hot and out of breath Nov 08 21:44:58 You wish to dance Nov 08 21:46:47 *she leans in to whisper in his ear* No, I wish to make you spend yourself beneath the table all over my hand whilst trying to maintain your composure, but a dance will suffice. Nov 08 21:48:46 * Morgan blushes, taking a mouthful of ale to cover it Nov 08 21:48:49 * Molly smiles with mischief "Are you ready to stand up to dance, or do you need a moment?" Nov 08 21:49:48 * Morgan closes his eyes for a moment Nov 08 21:49:54 Come along then duchess, lets dance Nov 08 21:50:36 * Molly nods, waiting for him to lead her into the fray Nov 08 21:51:54 * Morgan does so Nov 08 21:52:42 *The dancing is very close, her body brushing and pressing against him frequently. They dance two dances, and he can see full well in her expression that the extra closeness is increasingly intentional* Nov 08 21:52:55 Are you enjoying yourself, my love? Nov 08 21:53:08 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:53:10 Very much blossom Nov 08 21:53:31 Mmmm for a man who dislikes dancing you seem to enjoy this sort Nov 08 21:54:54 _this_ sort of dancing is about enjoyment... the sort I dislike is... showing off Nov 08 21:55:26 *there's a tap on his shoulder* Nov 08 21:56:18 * Morgan turns Nov 08 21:56:45 HH: Any chance I can have a dance with yer wife? Nov 08 21:57:16 * Morgan nods, kissing her cheek before relinquishing his place Nov 08 21:58:39 B Nov 08 21:59:22 * Molly seems happy dancing with HH, but she is not extra close with him. Claudia stands next to hi Nov 08 21:59:30 * Molly is now known as Claudia Nov 08 21:59:40 You okay? Nov 08 21:59:51 * Morgan nods Nov 08 21:59:55 Fine. You? Nov 08 22:01:30 * Claudia nods "yep. Still joining us?" Nov 08 22:01:43 Planning to. Nov 08 22:02:23 *that song comes to an end. DeeDee comes to Morgan* Might I ask your permission to ask your wife's permission to dance with her, please? Nov 08 22:02:48 * Morgan nods Nov 08 22:02:51 Go on Nov 08 22:03:26 *DeeDee looks pleased, going to tap HH* Nov 08 22:03:30 Ugh. Nov 08 22:04:07 What? Nov 08 22:04:18 I keep expecting him to trip himself up with his respectful behaviour, and he still hasnt Nov 08 22:04:31 Would it make you feel better if he had? Nov 08 22:04:43 *Molly looks to Morgan before giving him any answer* Nov 08 22:04:49 Yes and no. Nov 08 22:05:16 * Morgan nods slightly Nov 08 22:05:47 Yes because you'd gain a little satisfaction in being right that he's like all other men and no because he'd gone down in your estimation? Nov 08 22:06:08 *DeeDee looks really happy when she says yes, and although the hold is close he seems to be holding her very gently* Nov 08 22:06:47 Yes. It'd be a relief to be proven correct, because then I don't have to face that maybe he isn't just like other men Nov 08 22:07:06 But... Nov 08 22:07:46 But... oh I don't fucking know Nov 08 22:09:03 * Morgan speaks quietly, gently Nov 08 22:09:17 You do... you just aren't comfortable with it Nov 08 22:09:34 * Claudia shrugs, drinking her ale Nov 08 22:09:51 Not jealous, watching her dance with him? Nov 08 22:10:01 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 22:10:56 Surprising. You seemed it last time with Edward Nov 08 22:11:14 Nope. One, as you said, he is not like other men... Two, he is aware we are more capable of harming him than your average very well trained swordsmen... Three... he knows you'd rip his leg off and beat him to death if he tried anything. Nov 08 22:11:44 * Claudia smiles savagely "and I'd enjoy it" Nov 08 22:12:45 I've gotten to know him more since then... and, if we're honest, he's rather earned some trust given this morning. Nov 08 22:13:57 Yeah, guess so. Shame he was stupid and nearly got a sword through his head Nov 08 22:15:00 Like I've said... he's new. He gets it now. *he glances at her* He also has absolutely no idea... Nov 08 22:21:16 No idea what? Nov 08 22:22:03 That you have an attraction to him Nov 08 22:22:16 Thank god! Nov 08 22:22:53 * Morgan nods Nov 08 22:23:29 * Claudia is watching DeeDee and Molly dance Nov 08 22:23:47 If I could make it go away I would Nov 08 22:23:48 Are _you_ jealous? Nov 08 22:24:10 No. Nov 08 22:24:24 * Morgan watches her for a moment before grasping her shoulder Nov 08 22:24:31 I'm sorry this is so difficult for you Nov 08 22:25:25 I'm okay. Not long now, we'll be in Zweibrucke, he'll go home, and I'll probably never see him again Nov 08 22:25:51 Maybe. Maybe not. Impossible to know. Nov 08 22:26:48 My future is running trade with Capperlucia on one of your ships. His is as Edward's sheriff in the arse-end of nowhere. There's no good reason I would Nov 08 22:29:28 My future _was_ dying at the hands of some horrid little creature in a noble house in Avalon... Nov 08 22:29:34 * Claudia takes a mouthful of ale. Meanwhile HH has gone to sit back where Molly and Morgan's drinks are, saving the seats Nov 08 22:29:56 Bit different. You have this grand destiny to save the world Nov 08 22:30:41 Wish I didn't quite a lot. Nov 08 22:30:48 * Claudia nods Nov 08 22:31:13 That's you though. Always wanting something simpler where life asks more of you Nov 08 22:32:20 Sort of... the quiet domesticity appeals... but more than that, I've got to take the people I love into danger... hell, we're not even there and I'm dragging my loved ones into danger over and over again. Nov 08 22:32:45 We know what it entails, Morgan. We're not stupid. Nov 08 22:33:27 _You_ might not be... *he glances over at HeinzHarold before grinning at her* I know you'd stand with me anyway... but that doesn't mean I have to like it. Nov 08 22:33:42 * Claudia nods Nov 08 22:33:50 You're right, you don't Nov 08 22:35:03 I wouldn't have it if I had any choice in it... but I don't... so I have to accept it, adapt to it and realise that it doesn't change who I am... Nov 08 22:35:22 Why would it? Nov 08 22:35:54 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 22:37:18 Because its a fundamental shift in what I thought of myself. I just want a nice, quiet life... now I'm a duke, heir to two grafdoms, a Freiarr... _and_ the man that has to keep her safe and bring our children to a battle for Eisen... Nov 08 22:38:34 * Claudia puts a hand on his shoulder, looking at him serious "There is no man I would trust with this more than you." Nov 08 22:38:49 * Morgan looks truly touched Nov 08 22:39:43 Its... an adjustment. Incorporating this new fact into what my view is. Something I have to accept that doesn't mean I'm not _me_ anymore. Nov 08 22:39:53 Of course not Nov 08 22:40:14 And you, my friend, have that same thing to do. Nov 08 22:40:24 * Claudia winces Nov 08 22:40:35 That was very stealthy. I did not see that coming Nov 08 22:40:46 * Morgan smiles slightly Nov 08 22:41:00 I'll be honest... It wasn't planned... I sort of wandered into it. Nov 08 22:41:07 * Claudia laughs Nov 08 22:41:29 That's an appropriate description of how we are where we are Nov 08 22:41:51 * Morgan nods Nov 08 22:41:58 You're not wrong Nov 08 22:42:13 *he can pick out Molly giggling from amongst all the tavern sounds* Nov 08 22:42:38 * Morgan looks over at her Nov 08 22:42:41 Oh somethings tickled her Nov 08 22:43:17 *DeeDee is twirling her around and around. Given that he can be prone to dourness, he looks to be really enjoying himself Nov 08 22:44:00 I never understand how people can be so bloody carefree and silly. Nov 08 22:44:12 Oh its easy Nov 08 22:44:21 * Claudia glances at him Nov 08 22:44:33 Funny, I barely see you doing it either Nov 08 22:45:38 Molly said something similar earlier. That I do not permit myself any joy. *he shakes himself slightly* but, I am prone to whimsy when the mood takes me Nov 08 22:45:50 * Claudia nods Nov 08 22:46:42 Yeah, that's not the same as that though *In the dancing she is holding her arm up, trying to twirl him but he's having to crouch awkwardly Nov 08 22:47:15 No... I'm still a good ways from that. Nov 08 22:47:38 You're trying. Heinzharold is flapping at you. Nov 08 22:47:45 * Morgan looks over Nov 08 22:47:56 *Hh is beckoning him over* Nov 08 22:48:12 * Morgan moves to him Nov 08 22:48:22 * Claudia is now known as HH Nov 08 22:48:41 * HH moves so he can sit down, surveying the noisy tavern* Nov 08 22:48:55 So this is where the magic happens, eh? Nov 08 22:49:07 It was, yes... Nov 08 22:49:30 How th' fuck were you not caught?! Nov 08 22:49:39 Man, I've got no fucking idea Nov 08 22:50:23 See, if I was a reaaaaaally good friend, I'd offer to run interference for ya Nov 08 22:51:08 Could've used you doing that last time we were here... barely made it to our room Nov 08 22:52:00 It wasn't just a quick fumble then? *he takes a big mouthful of ale, finishing that glass* Nov 08 22:52:15 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 22:52:33 Oh no... no, it was getting dangerously close to having to wash the seats... Nov 08 22:52:42 * HH laughs Nov 08 22:53:02 Fuckin' hell man, didn't know y' had it in you! Nov 08 22:53:28 Very nearly didn't Nov 08 22:53:37 * Morgan suddenly looks surprised at what he's just said Nov 08 22:53:45 * HH laughs raucously Nov 08 22:54:32 Managed all th' way to that dark bit outside? Nov 08 22:54:49 Made it to our room, though... it was touch and go... Nov 08 22:54:51 * Morgan looks round Nov 08 22:54:59 * HH laughs again Nov 08 22:55:06 This is where Edward lied to father to cover for me for the first time y'know Nov 08 22:55:32 Edward lied to your father?! Nov 08 22:56:35 It was still tentative then, baby steps, y'know? We were talking about something smutty... father came over asking what we were talking about, and straight away, he covered for me. Even he wasn't sure why he did it Nov 08 22:56:59 Huh. Mebbie he's not as bad as we al'ays said Nov 08 22:57:28 Y'know we used to call him King Edward when he was doing that serious disapproving look? Nov 08 22:57:34 * HH laughs Nov 08 22:58:08 Where he looked like a turd had just kissed his breeches, yeah Nov 08 22:58:31 Yes! They've got potatoes called that in Avalon Nov 08 22:58:40 Turds? Nov 08 22:58:45 King Edwards Nov 08 22:58:50 * HH laughs Nov 08 22:59:10 I'd eat a King Edwards... Nov 08 22:59:56 Always said you were a bit peculiar Nov 08 23:00:03 * HH nods Nov 08 23:00:50 Inga was askin' me why you had such speshul memories o' a place like this Nov 08 23:01:02 What you tell her? Nov 08 23:01:10 To ask Molly Nov 08 23:01:30 You do know she'll tell her, right? Nov 08 23:02:35 All she said to her was "it was wonderful just to be together in that moment" *this is what Morgan had said to Molly the next day when she'd been anxious that she'd been too unseemly* Nov 08 23:03:05 That might change Nov 08 23:03:43 Reckon she'll tell her she was giving you a lil rubby rub, eh? Nov 08 23:03:51 * Morgan nods Nov 08 23:03:54 Probably. Nov 08 23:04:24 And Inga will struggle to believe it, jus' like me and Claudia did Nov 08 23:05:50 Probably. We'll see I suppose Nov 08 23:06:10 *he drinks some of Morgan's ale* See, for Claudia, I'd run interference... Problem is, you stole my apples. So now you can't have yours either. Nov 08 23:06:29 Can I point out your apples _offered_ Nov 08 23:06:54 You want a room in the brothel? Get the full experience, like... Nov 08 23:07:22 * HH laughs "this some sorta negotiation, man?" Nov 08 23:07:57 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 23:08:05 No... just know the two of you like to play pretend... Nov 08 23:08:56 I didn' know if it was I scratch your back, she rubs your sack Nov 08 23:09:31 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 08 23:09:34 No, that'll be later Nov 08 23:09:41 * HH laughs Nov 08 23:09:59 How long you plannin' to stay in the brothel? Nov 08 23:10:19 * Morgan shrugs Nov 08 23:10:25 How long _you_ planning to be there? Nov 08 23:10:41 Not long. Half hour mebbie, have a drink or two Nov 08 23:11:14 * Morgan nods Nov 08 23:11:18 I won't cramp your style Nov 08 23:11:40 Not sure what y' think my style is, man? *he grins* Nov 08 23:11:56 Rapid and grateful? Nov 08 23:12:08 * HH laughs Nov 08 23:12:31 Y' -seen- my wife?! Of course I'm rapid and grateful! Nov 08 23:13:00 * Morgan nods, taking his ale and drinking some Nov 08 23:14:43 *Molly and DeeDee come back over with more drinks, and Molly squeezes back in between Morgan and HH just as she's been between Morgan and Edward that night. HH grins "That yer good spot, is it?" Nov 08 23:15:07 * Morgan scratches his chin Nov 08 23:15:13 Edward was sat where you are now... Nov 08 23:15:52 Was he? Nov 08 23:16:32 * Morgan nods Nov 08 23:17:29 *Molly smiles sweetly* I'm not surprised that you have to ask for help figuring out where the good spot is, Heinzharold! Nov 08 23:18:03 * HH laughs "Ouch! Right in the male pride!" Nov 08 23:18:52 * Morgan sniggers, drinking his ale Nov 08 23:19:04 *Molly giggles* I am only teasing, I know you know exactly where to look Nov 08 23:19:53 * HH feigns looking in his pockets and then inside his waistcoat Nov 08 23:21:08 Ah yeah, right... here... *he tickles her side. Molly yelps, then giggles, blushing* Nov 08 23:21:51 * HH looks to Morgan "super ticklish, this one?" Nov 08 23:23:00 * Morgan tickles her Nov 08 23:24:12 *Molly shrieks, writhing against him. DeeDee is watching them, then smiles before sipping his drink* Nov 08 23:25:40 * Morgan laughs quietly before taking a mouthful of his drink Nov 08 23:25:54 Not what you'd call ducal behaviour, is it DeeDee? Nov 08 23:26:24 *Molly breathes out slowly, letting her guard down* Nov 08 23:26:42 D: Even Dukes have to have a little fun now and then Nov 08 23:26:54 * Morgan suddenly tickles her again Nov 08 23:27:26 * HH whimpers before giggling, blushing even more Nov 08 23:27:32 * HH is now known as Molly Nov 08 23:27:56 HH: $ooops!$ Nov 08 23:28:31 $something like that yeah$ Nov 08 23:28:35 *DeeDee smiles more, but just takes another mouthful* Nov 08 23:28:37 [you alright my love?] Nov 08 23:28:53 [yes, but tickling arouses me!] Nov 08 23:29:10 [Oh. That is good to know...] Nov 08 23:31:02 * Molly watches him a moment with a mix of anticipation and not being entirely sure of his next action. She doesn't look scared though Nov 08 23:31:56 * Morgan sips his ale Nov 08 23:32:05 [best not let HeinzHarold tickle you again then...] Nov 08 23:32:44 [I didn't encourage him. You already knew this about me, my love... In Innesbruck, when I told you it made me wish to yield to anything you wished to do to me] Nov 08 23:33:17 [oh... oh yes, I recall. And I didn't suggest you did encourage him] Nov 08 23:33:43 * Molly leans her cheek to his upper arm Nov 08 23:34:20 HH: Not tempted by bein' nosey in th' brothel then, Molly? Nov 08 23:35:01 * Molly shakes her head "Thank you, but no. I'm going to have a nice hot bath instead" Nov 08 23:37:09 * Molly sends him the image of her in a nice metal tub, from the side. There's no more nudity than just her shoulders, but her eyes are closed tight, head tilted back, lip bitten, and her left hand gripping hard on the tub's edge* Nov 08 23:37:43 * Morgan takes a large mouthful of ale Nov 08 23:37:54 Good aint it... we get soaked all day and she gets to soak all evening... Nov 08 23:38:16 HH: And her's will by much hotter! Nov 08 23:38:27 * Morgan nods Nov 08 23:39:03 [mmm will it, my love. Did that look hot to you?] Nov 08 23:39:31 [yes. It did. Very.] Nov 08 23:40:09 *HH and DeeDee start telling stories of rain in the War* Nov 08 23:40:45 * Molly watches them a moment [oh what a predicament this would be for you, mon petit chou...] Nov 08 23:41:16 [what?] Nov 08 23:42:37 * Molly sips her brandy, feigning interest in the story [If my hand was running up your thigh, fingers splaying over your crotch and gently massaging whilst you have to pretend you are just listening to them politely] Nov 08 23:43:20 [Oh, so you want to be tickled again...] Nov 08 23:43:43 [without an audience, very much so] Nov 08 23:44:03 [So not right here in front of them, then...] Nov 08 23:45:30 * Molly casually sends him the image of her fingers beneath the table undoing his placket, whilst also asking a question about the geographical location of somewhere DeeDee mentions Nov 08 23:46:09 * Morgan puts a hand to her side, in prime location to tickle her Nov 08 23:46:53 * Molly glances at him [you wish to play a game of brinksmanship with me, mon petit chou?] Nov 08 23:47:17 [Not especially, but I will if I must...] Nov 08 23:47:58 * Molly shrugs slightly, taking a deep breath. The back of his neck prickles a little Nov 08 23:48:22 [what a shame if I was temporarily not ticklish...] Nov 08 23:49:19 * Morgan sighs, sitting back and sipping his ale Nov 08 23:49:54 * Molly giggles quietly [I did say -if-...] Nov 08 23:50:21 [I can feel you doing magic... you'll not have made yourself _more_ ticklish Nov 08 23:50:50 [no... I was making my feet warmer so you would get tingly] Nov 08 23:51:31 [I don't... see... how that works...] Nov 08 23:51:38 * Molly asks HH a question pertaining to his story Nov 08 23:51:57 [extra blood rushes to my feet, they get warm] Nov 08 23:52:18 * Molly drinks more brandy Nov 08 23:52:56 [oh, right, I get tingly from the... got you] Nov 08 23:53:12 [mmhmm did you know I could make blood rush to certain areas?] Nov 08 23:54:58 [Yes, but that has nothing to do with magic] Nov 08 23:56:44 [oh? What does it have to do with? Is it marks like this?] *she sends him an image of her thighs with many love bites in varying darknesses, some with teethmarks too* Nov 08 23:57:07 * Morgan shifts, drinking ale once more Nov 08 23:57:13 [something like that, yes] Nov 08 23:59:00 *she sends him another, mid chatting with the others, where she's facing away and pulling her hair aside, revealing a line of them along the top of her shoulder and onto her nape*