**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Mon Nov 7 00:00:06 2022 Nov 07 00:00:06 * Morgan stands up, slowing walking around the edge of the room Nov 07 00:00:29 Thing is... if I'm a monster, nothing but a killer, savage, cruel, so on so forth... I wouldn't feel guilt about it anyway Nov 07 00:01:23 * Alarice just glares at him. The star girl watches him from the couch Nov 07 00:03:18 Do I regret taking the lives I've taken? Of course I do, I wish it had not had to happen... but it was necessary, just as putting you down was necessary... but the important thing is that I do not enjoy it, seeing people suffer and die... which, of course, is where we differ Nov 07 00:05:16 Then why did you wish to have me back to kill again? Wouldn't your blood have rushed through you at that as you beat me, kicked me, made me suffer, my pain for hers? Wouldn't your body have come alive with righteous pleasure at watching me die for what I did? Nov 07 00:06:14 No more than I enjoyed watching the light fade from your eyes... it made me sad... why do you think I told you you'd won? So you could _rest_ Nov 07 00:07:15 You will tell yourself that, and then remember that you _spat_ on your _grave_. Nov 07 00:07:33 *the star girl says his name* Nov 07 00:07:38 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:07:59 I did... and I should feel bad about that... but I don't. You're evil, Alarice, and thats all there is to it Nov 07 00:09:02 You enjoyed it. You're even enjoying this, trying to overpower me with your words. Nov 07 00:09:19 *there's a touch of his hand* Nov 07 00:10:06 * Morgan glances down Nov 07 00:10:27 *the star girl is holding his hand* A moment, my Lord? Nov 07 00:10:32 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:11:25 Everything is blue. You know this isn't real, and that I am not real, not like this Nov 07 00:11:32 * Alarice is now known as SG Nov 07 00:11:36 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:11:41 And yet I cannot get out Nov 07 00:12:45 You can. But I want to say goodbye. This is our story, our path, and now you are at the end of all of it you can follow Nov 07 00:13:03 * Morgan nods, sitting down Nov 07 00:13:29 * SG sits beside him, keeping his hand Nov 07 00:15:15 We'd have been caught here, by her. She'd have been snooping like this. She'd have threatened to tell your Father, just to get enjoyment from humiliating you... Nov 07 00:15:34 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:15:37 Sounds like her Nov 07 00:15:46 * SG smiles sadly Nov 07 00:16:48 We'd have decided that it took the decision from our hands, and that it was what we both wanted. We'd have had children, been happy. Nov 07 00:17:02 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:17:08 Sounds lovely Nov 07 00:17:27 * SG nods, touching the compass Nov 07 00:17:39 This will take you home Nov 07 00:18:34 What do I do? Nov 07 00:19:07 Hold it and think of me... her... us. Of Molly. Nov 07 00:19:14 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:19:25 Alright... Nov 07 00:20:12 * SG kisses his lips gently Nov 07 00:20:41 I won't see you again Nov 07 00:21:05 No, our story is over for you Nov 07 00:22:06 * Morgan nods Nov 07 00:22:08 Are you ready? Nov 07 00:22:35 * SG nods "goodbye, my lord. It's been lovely" Nov 07 00:23:08 * Morgan nods, looking at her fondly Nov 07 00:23:13 My star girl Nov 07 00:23:49 * SG nods "always." Nov 07 00:24:43 * Morgan takes hold of the pendant, thinking of Mollu Nov 07 00:27:39 *he wakes up, manhood solid and so swollen, rapidly approaching the plateau. Given that he has just looked at Molly’s sad face saying a final goodbye to him, his body shouldn’t be so close to orgasm. Yet he is filled with a powerful, savage sensation of possessiveness and need to take, to spend and reclaim his wife, to keep her as close as can be, Nov 07 00:27:40 cling and never let go of. His woman, his mate. Molly is curled up to him, her hand on his stomach a few inches above his tip, where his release would be likely to land* Nov 07 00:28:34 * Morgan breathes slowly, pulling her to him Nov 07 00:28:44 * SG is now known as Molly Nov 07 00:29:28 * Molly 's hand moves up his chest, moving in even tighter, murmuring "hmm?" Nov 07 00:29:47 Bad dream, thats all Nov 07 00:30:34 whispering Fix? Cuddle? Something else? Nov 07 00:30:55 * Morgan continues to breathe slowly Nov 07 00:31:00 No, just need you close Nov 07 00:32:34 * Molly wraps her arm over him, her thigh too, her smooth soft inner thigh snaking over his upper thighs, very lightly stroking across his balls Nov 07 00:32:59 I'm here. Always. Nov 07 00:33:29 * Morgan groans very quietly Nov 07 00:33:52 * Molly moves her thigh lower "I hurt you" Nov 07 00:34:36 No love. No idea why but... I am... hard. Nov 07 00:34:50 You do not wish to be? Nov 07 00:35:33 its... close, thats all... I'll be alright Nov 07 00:35:55 Don't be silly... magic fix or mouth fix? Nov 07 00:37:12 Uhh... mouth? Nov 07 00:38:01 * Molly goes beneath the sheets, immediately taking him into the soft wet heat of her mouth and sucking gently Nov 07 00:38:54 * Morgan bites his hand to stay quiet, rapidly reaching the point of no return Nov 07 00:39:48 * Molly continues as this fairly leisurely pace, knowing he won't need the driving stimulation to get there Nov 07 00:40:23 * Morgan holds his breath as his orgasm hits, spilling his seed into her warm mouth Nov 07 00:40:59 [mmmmmm that's so good] Nov 07 00:41:53 * Morgan exhales slowly, the last few spasms making him twitch before he relaxes his head back to his pillow Nov 07 00:42:08 [It was, very] Nov 07 00:42:33 * Molly gently licks him before quietly moving back to lie in his arms Nov 07 00:43:00 [good. I am always here to take your release, my love] Nov 07 00:43:34 [I don't understand what caused it. It was not a pleasant dream] Nov 07 00:44:17 [mmm I don't mind, my love. Do you want to tell me now before we try to sleep again?] Nov 07 00:44:35 [I... think I'll get up] Nov 07 00:45:04 [oh... I don't think we're been asleep long, my love] Nov 07 00:45:14 * Morgan sighs quietly Nov 07 00:45:24 [I am worried what the next dream will bring] Nov 07 00:46:20 [what if you hold my hand and try to come with me, hmm? Maybe we'll go somewhere nice, like the Golden Lantern, or Morgan's Rock] Nov 07 00:46:38 [alright. I'll try] Nov 07 00:46:57 [I'd kiss you goodnight again, but...] Nov 07 00:47:40 * Morgan moves, kissing her soundly Nov 07 00:48:22 [oh god.... oh god... I... I like this] Nov 07 00:49:17 [why?] Nov 07 00:49:41 [don't know. Can't think. Arousing.] Nov 07 00:50:33 *it doesn't taste bad, just indescribable, a little salty, and different to anything he's tasted before] Nov 07 00:50:51 * Morgan slows down, kissing her gently before pulling away Nov 07 00:51:28 [mmm... we need to go to sleep...] Nov 07 00:51:37 [yes, we do] Nov 07 00:51:58 [I love you, goodnight my love] Nov 07 00:52:24 * Molly takes his hand, interlacing her fingers with his Nov 07 00:52:33 [goodnight blossom] Nov 07 00:53:15 * Molly sings in his head, an Eisen nursery rhyme, and he falls asleep Nov 07 00:54:21 **He drifts off again, and realises immediately that he's hopped into her dream. Molly quietly pushes him against a door in one of the many guest rooms of Die Dauerhaftigkeit. It's daytime, the sun is shining through the window. She looks about a decade older than now, into her early thirties. The desire on her face is clear. Nov 07 00:54:21 Shhh… we can't lock the door, and we cannot do much, but for the first time in weeks there is no tiny mouth here... *she brings his hand to her breast, which is very solid, the vibrant blue veins on her cleavage confirming that she is nursing a young baby. She's watching him with a bitten lip and wide pupils* Nov 07 00:55:22 * Morgan nods, smiling Nov 07 00:56:12 There's usually someone demanding bubbies! They're all fine downstairs… *she presses her body against his* Nov 07 00:57:14 * Morgan nods, kissing her Nov 07 00:57:48 The grownups are playing hide and seek too. The littlest two are with Inga, the bigger ones won't get lost paired or with their cousins… *she kisses his mouth, licking his lower lip* Nov 07 00:58:58 We'll need to be quick Nov 07 00:59:22 We probably have at least five minutes just for the two of us to push the boundaries of decency before someone needs cuddling or my breasts! **she starts kissing his neck** Nov 07 01:00:00 * Morgan nods, running his hands up and down her sides Nov 07 01:00:32 **There's the sound of running in the hall. The boy's voice is unfamiliar but a little Sudlachenburg-accented "I bet they went in the lib'ry!" A young girl says "Would you even be able to find anything in a _library_, Heinzharold?" He replies "Yep, I gots them smarts, like my Da." **the children are gone** Nov 07 01:01:07 * Molly giggles "Did you realise, when we named her Claudia, she would take after her namesake?" Nov 07 01:01:23 It doesn't _really_ surprise me Nov 07 01:01:45 * Molly nods, squeezing his bottom and pulling him close Nov 07 01:02:36 **With quiet restored outside, she grinds against him, kissing his mouth once more, deeply "I've missed stolen moments with you like this" Nov 07 01:03:21 * Morgan nods, reaching behind him to lock the door before lifting her and plonking her on the desk Nov 07 01:04:02 * Molly giggles "The doors are supposed to stay unlocked in hide and seek! Are we cheating a little?" Nov 07 01:04:22 * Morgan shrugs Nov 07 01:04:26 A little Nov 07 01:04:56 Mmmhmmm... on the desk?! This is new and surprising! **The next pair of boys are squabbling** "Hey! Those were my peppermints, Hans!" **this is the name his second child with Dietlinde had in Molly's dream of Jana in the tree, the one that would have been born at the same time as the baby she was pregnant with in reality* Nov 07 01:06:00 * Morgan kisses her, listening out for more children Nov 07 01:06:13 *Hans, the older boy sounds to be around twelve "You said I could have one, Ehren." E: "Well now I have changed my mind!" H: Too late. Vati won't like it if I spit it out. Nov 07 01:06:44 * Molly kisses him, trying not to giggle Nov 07 01:07:06 * Morgan shakes, trying not to laugh Nov 07 01:07:18 * Molly whispers Nov 07 01:07:25 He doesn't mind when I do! Nov 07 01:07:37 * Morgan sniggers quietly Nov 07 01:08:27 ACTION shakes her head when it sounds like they're gone, smiling “This many children isn't conducive to marital intimacy, is it? And to think, we have eight already and another three to go!” Nov 07 01:08:27 * Received a CTCP from Molly (to #7thsea) Nov 07 01:08:43 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:08:47 quite Nov 07 01:09:21 * Molly smiles Nov 07 01:09:45 You really intend to have me on a -desk-?! Nov 07 01:09:54 You would prefer on the floor? Nov 07 01:10:03 * Molly looks surprised Nov 07 01:10:33 You would do it on the floor?! I thought it was a surprise last week when you wanted to do it on the chaise! Nov 07 01:10:42 * Morgan grins cheekily Nov 07 01:10:51 You inspire something in me my love, thats all Nov 07 01:10:59 * Molly giggles Nov 07 01:11:15 Then you'd best put it in me, my love! Nov 07 01:11:37 * Morgan laughs quietly, undoing his placket and lifting her skirts Nov 07 01:12:12 ACTION wriggles closer to the edge. In the hall there's the singsong voice of a little girl, perhaps six** Jana?! Where are you? Nov 07 01:12:12 * Received a CTCP from Molly (to #7thsea) Nov 07 01:12:55 * Morgan blinks a couple of times, listening Nov 07 01:13:37 She is just too good at sneaking around in these games, isn't she? She gets that from you Nov 07 01:14:00 * Morgan nods, smiling Nov 07 01:14:16 *the little girl says "are you in here, Jana?" Another door opens in the hall Nov 07 01:14:31 I think we're about to be rumbled Nov 07 01:14:46 * Molly glances at his manhood with a forlorn sigh Nov 07 01:15:09 Oh no... and it's so rare we are alone together! Nov 07 01:15:57 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:16:00 I know Nov 07 01:16:26 * Molly pulls him to her, kissing him Nov 07 01:16:32 Maybe we'll be lucky Nov 07 01:16:47 Doubt it Nov 07 01:16:54 * Morgan presses himself to her as he speaks Nov 07 01:17:34 *the little girl says "There you are! Good hiding!" Nov 07 01:18:10 * Molly whispers "I want you. And you wouldn't need to withdraw, I never get pregnant the first three months" Nov 07 01:19:30 * Morgan nods, pushing himself into her Nov 07 01:19:47 * Molly moans quietly Nov 07 01:19:58 Oh god that's good Nov 07 01:20:39 mmhmmm Nov 07 01:20:51 * Morgan starts thrusting, picking a medium rhythm Nov 07 01:21:03 *there's a knock at the door, not very well coordinated* Pa? Nov 07 01:23:08 * Morgan stops, withdrawing, quickly doing up his placket, checking Molly is decent before opening the door Nov 07 01:23:26 * Molly is now known as Madchen Nov 07 01:24:04 Hi Pa! *she's in a pretty pink dress, smiling. There's a matching ribbon in her hair* Nov 07 01:24:15 Hello my darling Nov 07 01:24:31 * Madchen holds her arms up "Pa, up?" Nov 07 01:25:10 * Morgan picks her up, throwing her before catching her again and holding her close Nov 07 01:26:21 *Molly sighs softly coming over* I shall go and deal with this myself, my love. In a bed... or on the chaise... *she kisses his cheek* Nov 07 01:26:37 Alright blossom Nov 07 01:26:57 *Molly leaves him with Madchen* Nov 07 01:27:02 Ma dream Nov 07 01:27:25 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:27:28 Yes, it is Nov 07 01:27:42 Miss Pa Nov 07 01:27:47 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:27:58 Miss you too... I wish I saw you more often Nov 07 01:28:20 * Madchen snuggles up. She still smells like pine trees and fresh snow Nov 07 01:28:38 One day, Pa. See all times. Nov 07 01:28:45 How come you smell of trees and snow little lady? Nov 07 01:29:12 Play in snow Nov 07 01:29:37 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:29:49 Will you remember all of this when you're with us? Nov 07 01:30:11 *The younger of the two boys can be heard at the end of the hall* I can hear him Nov 07 01:30:29 Not know. Maybe. Nov 07 01:30:52 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:31:28 Hans: I can't, besides, Vati is the master of hide and seek! Nov 07 01:31:43 * Morgan whispers Nov 07 01:31:46 Ehren: No, Jana is way better! Nov 07 01:31:48 I am very good at it Nov 07 01:32:22 * Madchen stokes the braid where their hair is mixed "Ma, wife." Nov 07 01:32:35 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:32:40 Thats right. Nov 07 01:33:02 * Madchen strokes another, a plain one Nov 07 01:33:23 One day. Maeshun, daughter. Nov 07 01:33:50 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:33:59 I look forward to that Nov 07 01:34:22 * Madchen gives him a big sloppy kiss on the lips Nov 07 01:34:55 E: Shhhhh I think he's in there with Madchen Nov 07 01:35:10 * Morgan moves quietly behind the door Nov 07 01:35:23 * Madchen whispers "see Hans?" Nov 07 01:35:48 Dietlinde's Hans? Nov 07 01:35:54 * Madchen nods Nov 07 01:36:03 * Morgan draws a breath before nodding Nov 07 01:36:06 Dee an Pa Hans Nov 07 01:36:48 H: whisperingReady? E: yes Nov 07 01:36:54 And Jana. How? Nov 07 01:38:14 Dee Ja not asleep. Escape window. Dee die Hans born. Pa find Ma Foxcroft. Nov 07 01:38:39 * Morgan nods slowly Nov 07 01:39:27 *suddenly the two boys jump into the room with a Gotcha!* Nov 07 01:39:44 * Morgan pretend humps before laughing, looking down at them Nov 07 01:42:17 *They both jump then laugh. Hans is about twelve, blonde, tall for his age. He has Dietlinde's eyes but resembles Morgan more. Ehren is younger, ten, his hair is the same colour as Morgan's, eyes too, but he favours Molly in his nose and face shape. Nov 07 01:42:56 Well done boys... Nov 07 01:42:58 * Madchen watches Morgan Nov 07 01:43:22 E: Can we hide with you, Papa? Jana's seeking now Nov 07 01:44:02 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:44:08 I should think so Nov 07 01:44:13 H: We can huddle up under the desk Nov 07 01:44:26 Excellent idea Nov 07 01:44:47 *the boys go in to the small space. She looks at him "Pa okay?" Nov 07 01:45:02 * Morgan looks at her, nodding, smiling slightly Nov 07 01:45:14 Not easy... but its good Nov 07 01:45:19 Sad and happy? Nov 07 01:45:43 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:45:45 Yes Nov 07 01:46:01 Go under desk? Nov 07 01:46:10 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:46:17 Come on then Nov 07 01:46:30 * Morgan moves, joining the boys under the desk Nov 07 01:47:08 *There's not much space. His sons squeeze either side, lots of contact, and Madchen sits on his lap Nov 07 01:48:15 * Morgan takes the opportunity to look closely at Hans, commit his features to memory Nov 07 01:49:05 *He looks up at Morgan, giving him a smile that's so much like Dietlindes* Are you going to draw me again, Vati? Nov 07 01:49:17 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:49:23 I think so... is that alright? Nov 07 01:50:17 *He nods, staying still* Can you give me my own head, but the body of a lion? Nov 07 01:50:38 Oh I reckon I can Nov 07 01:50:57 *he smiles again* Thank you, Vati. Love you. Nov 07 01:51:18 Love you too young man Nov 07 01:51:45 *Hans leans against Morgan like Morgan leans against other people* Nov 07 01:52:10 * Morgan places a hand on his head, leaning far enough to kiss his crown Nov 07 01:52:49 E: I think I can hear her... *Hans kisses Morgan's upper arm* Nov 07 01:53:28 * Morgan rocks Madchen in his lap, taking a couple of slow, deep breaths Nov 07 01:53:51 * Madchen hugs to him "okay, Pa... okay..." Nov 07 01:54:03 * Morgan nods Nov 07 01:55:21 *he hears the faintest of faint footsteps, easily as quiet as himself or Claudia* Nov 07 01:55:44 * Madchen looks to Morgan "Pa go now?" Nov 07 01:55:57 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 07 01:56:01 Not yet Nov 07 01:58:34 *the table above them creaking is the first thing that properly gives her away, followed by the straight flaxen hair that comes down, then her upside down face. She must be fourteen, and she is so very, very pretty. She looks pleased with herself. Her voice still resembles that of her first words, but so much more mature "Found you!" Nov 07 01:59:25 * Morgan looks at her closely as well, smiling Nov 07 01:59:34 Well done Nov 07 02:01:07 *the boys complain, getting out. Even Madchen gets off his lap. Jana stretches til her hands reach the ground, then pushes off the desk with her feet until she's in a handstand, smiling at him Nov 07 02:01:53 I did three hand steps today. I'm getting better at it. Nov 07 02:01:57 * Madchen is now known as Jana Nov 07 02:02:04 That doesn't surprise me angel Nov 07 02:03:28 * Jana slowly lowers her feet, and just after the first chime of the dawn watch she scoots into the gap, sitting beside him. She smells just as she used to Nov 07 02:04:53 Could Muti do that? Nov 07 02:05:26 Only it she leaned her feet on the wall Nov 07 02:05:48 * Jana nestles close to him Nov 07 02:05:56 I wish I could remember her Nov 07 02:06:05 * Morgan nods Nov 07 02:06:20 Its alright... I remember her enough for both of us... Nov 07 02:06:49 * Jana nods, holding his hand "I'm glad I still have you, Vati" Nov 07 02:07:21 * Morgan nods, kissing her knuckles Nov 07 02:07:40 Come on, who else do you need to find? Nov 07 02:08:10 Mama. I have no idea where she went Nov 07 02:08:17 * Morgan nods Nov 07 02:08:28 Go on with you then, take the boys, see if you can find her together Nov 07 02:09:21 * Jana cuddles him a moment, then kisses his cheek "okay Vati" Nov 07 02:10:28 * Morgan nods Nov 07 02:10:30 Good girl Nov 07 02:10:37 * Jana climbs out, going around the desk "Hans, Ehren, We next to find Mama!" Nov 07 02:11:17 *three sets of footsteps echo down the hall. It's all quiet otherwise* Nov 07 02:11:24 * Morgan beckons Madchen to him Nov 07 02:11:33 * Jana is now known as Madchen Nov 07 02:11:44 * Madchen climbs into his lap Nov 07 02:11:58 Its about time for me to go little lady Nov 07 02:12:23 * Madchen nods "careful, Pa. eyes open" Nov 07 02:13:12 Something coming? Nov 07 02:13:26 Something bad Nov 07 02:13:31 Today? Nov 07 02:13:41 Don't know. Maybe. Nov 07 02:13:46 * Morgan nods Nov 07 02:13:58 Alright sweetheart... I'll be careful Nov 07 02:14:11 * Madchen nods "See Pa soon?" Nov 07 02:14:18 Soon as I can Nov 07 02:14:37 Love Pa. Love Ma. Nov 07 02:14:46 Love you too darling Nov 07 02:15:18 * Madchen kisses him, then touches the pendant "bye Pa" Nov 07 02:15:30 Bye my darling Nov 07 02:15:34 * Morgan tries to wake up Nov 07 02:16:18 *he wakes up. It's still dark, about fifty minutes before dawn. He and Molly are still holding hands beneath the sheets* Nov 07 02:16:40 * Morgan stretches before getting gently out of bed and getting dressed Nov 07 02:17:00 *Neither Molly not Varick wake* Nov 07 02:17:39 * Morgan gathers his sketchbook and heads downstairs to the taproom Nov 07 02:18:19 * Madchen has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Nov 07 02:18:54 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 07 02:32:15 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 07 02:33:00 * MorganK (~madisonst@Madisons-Air.lan) has joined Nov 07 02:34:43 *Everything is still dark. The only light coming in is from an outside lamp where three monks are training in the side yard* Nov 07 02:35:09 * MorganK watches them for a moment before trying to find a candle to light Nov 07 02:35:50 *They seem to be using some very advanced techniques they didn't show him yesterday Nov 07 02:36:14 * MorganK heads outside quietly to watch Nov 07 02:37:09 * MollyK is now known as Fulda Nov 07 02:37:54 * Fulda is one of the three. It looks amazing, stars still out, moonlight on the blades, the men in dresses whirling and ducking Nov 07 02:38:23 * MorganK leans against the wall, taking it all in Nov 07 02:39:17 *it's very peaceful out here before anyone is working. Soon Fulda sees him and calls him over* Nov 07 02:39:26 * MorganK approaches him Nov 07 02:39:44 I thought you'd all be out here Nov 07 02:40:19 Just a few for now. Our more advanced techniques are best used in small groups Nov 07 02:40:29 * MorganK nods Nov 07 02:40:37 It looks rather impressive Nov 07 02:41:09 ACTION talks politely about the style they are using. The light of the moon behind him must be illuminating Morgan’s face, because he can see himself in the other man’s eyes. And then he sees it. He sees what has been so elusive. In the reflection, his own familiar face is upside down…* Nov 07 02:41:09 * Received a CTCP from Fulda (to #7thsea) Nov 07 02:41:53 * MorganK scrutinises the mans face and eyes Nov 07 02:42:01 You have... unusual eyes Fulda Nov 07 02:42:21 The eyes are the gateways to the soul... Nov 07 02:42:34 Uh huh, so it is taught Nov 07 02:42:45 What do you see there? Nov 07 02:42:59 My reflection... but its not right Nov 07 02:43:44 **From the dark, the rest of the monks appear, their whole party, and then more… at least twenty, and he is surrounded** It is upside down, like when a guilty man is hung by his feet... Nov 07 02:44:15 Ah. Suddenly things make sense Nov 07 02:45:49 *the monks start making a quiet chanting noise, with an occasional one speaking properly* Monk1: You are guilty of being a failed husband. She died in terror and pain for your love, and doubted you would save her, so that you could marry a noble woman instead. You betrayed her. Nov 07 02:46:43 No. She did not think that Nov 07 02:47:23 [my love, where are you?!] Nov 07 02:47:29 Monk2: You are guilty of being a failed father. Your daughter died screaming in agony as her skin crisped in the flames, wondering why Vati would not come to help her. Wondering why he did not love her Nov 07 02:47:52 [I need help. I'm in the courtyard] Nov 07 02:48:02 Tell me... how do people normally react to this? Nov 07 02:48:08 [alright] Nov 07 02:48:33 [If you do not arrive in time, never doubt that I love you entirely] Nov 07 02:48:45 They feel the guilt weighing upon their souls Nov 07 02:49:06 And yesterday was a test... to see how many would be needed... Nov 07 02:49:10 [You had best not die, I will be extremely put out with you!] Nov 07 02:49:38 [and I love you entirely too.I would find you, anywhere] Nov 07 02:50:05 To test your strength, and to earn your trust. Nov 07 02:50:30 * MorganK nods, moving slowly towards the centre of the yard, drawing both his swords Nov 07 02:50:36 A mistake, I fancy Nov 07 02:51:02 * MorganK starts concentrating Nov 07 02:52:00 *he feels a push back, like this will take a lot of magic* Nov 07 02:52:25 * MorganK carries on, allowing it to build and build Nov 07 02:52:49 So... what... you list the things I am guilty of, then I willingly let you kill me? Nov 07 02:53:08 You will want to die. You will feel the guilt. Nov 07 02:53:20 * MorganK laughs hard Nov 07 02:54:12 You think I do not already? You think I do not live with the guilt of failing them _every_ _singe_ _day_? I've spent my time wanting to die... it didn't take. Nov 07 02:55:19 And now you will feel more... *the monk concentrates, and Morgan can definitely sense his emotions being meddled with, the guilt washing through him* Nov 07 02:55:47 [I'm in trouble here] Nov 07 02:56:03 * MorganK closes his eyes, breathing slowly Nov 07 02:56:21 [nearly there] Nov 07 02:57:20 They held each other, and they wept tears that were cooler than the air on their skin... Nov 07 02:57:48 * MorganK opens his eyes, looking dangerously focussed Nov 07 02:58:00 Fulda... how many have you killed like this? Nov 07 02:58:18 Thousands of guilty souls have fed us Nov 07 02:59:19 Then you are dripping with guilt and I will dispense your punishment. Nov 07 02:59:31 *the others continue chanting* Nov 07 02:59:57 * MorganK draws another breath, still building the magical pressure as he starts moving towards Fulda Nov 07 03:01:10 Your wife felt guilt as she died that you would never know the existence of a child in her womb. Her last thoughts were guilt, not love. Nov 07 03:01:27 And yours will be fear Nov 07 03:01:38 * MorganK brings his swords up Nov 07 03:02:00 *His neck prickles. Suddenly one’s head explodes as its brain expands grotesquely, so much force that first the grey tissue spurts from its mouth, nostrils, and ear holes before shattering apart the skull in chunks and the remaining corpse falling to the ground* Nov 07 03:02:28 * Fulda glances at it, completely unmoved Nov 07 03:02:30 [stay back... for now] Nov 07 03:03:17 [but l-... yes.] Nov 07 03:03:46 * MorganK suddenly crouches, swinging for Fulda's legs before releasing the entire store of magic he has been building in a shockwave Nov 07 03:06:32 * MorganK sends out a wave of heat, like an explosion going off, flame and pressure bursting through the air Nov 07 03:07:42 *around half of them are taken out by this. As with the shifters, he gets the feeling of depletion, needing to replenish* Nov 07 03:09:03 * Fulda is nowhere to be seen. The monks remaining do not seem to care. But there now seems to be fifteen more, not just ten Nov 07 03:09:11 * Fulda is now known as Molly Nov 07 03:09:38 [shit. I was hoping that'd catch more of them] Nov 07 03:09:58 *Molly is barefoot, just in her short shift, and she looks like more anger than a human body should be able to contain, a depth of rage he has never seen in her before. She has her sword, but it seems almost like an afterthought. Nov 07 03:10:09 * MorganK moves, taking up a swordsman stance Nov 07 03:10:42 Monk3, to Molly: You are guilty of being a curse to others. You are the reason his wife and children are dead, and everyone who comes near you is harmed by your fate. You are the reason he died, and you were disgustingly pleased he chose you instead. Nov 07 03:11:11 [/me moves suddenly, driving a sword through the monks face Nov 07 03:11:34 * Molly looks hurt by it but squares her shoulders Nov 07 03:11:53 [My magic is depleted... can you help?] Nov 07 03:12:38 *his neck prickles stronger than ever, and the ferocity that is unleashed on tearing apart the living tissues of one of them causes it to be ripped to pieces. Chucks of bone, thick globs of flesh and innards splatter on the cold ground, steaming a little. She watches the remnants for a moment, muttering “everyone is harmed, especially you.” Nov 07 03:12:58 [heal? Fight?] Nov 07 03:13:23 [heal. I need my fire] Nov 07 03:13:44 * MorganK whistles at one nearby, kicking him in the ribs Nov 07 03:14:08 * Molly moves closer, destroying another monk magically. *DeeDee and Heinzharold are in boots and trousers, swords drawn, barrelling into the courtyard. Claudia is the same but with a button down shirt on top, unbuttoned but tucked in. She looks eager to maim and kill, running at the monks. Nov 07 03:15:08 Monk4 looks to Claudia: You are guilty of failing your mother. She pined for you on her deathbed and she knew you did not love her enough to be there. Selfish bitch. *Claudia makes a noise much like he would imagine the Vesten berserkers made, and launches herself, two blades, whirling at them* Nov 07 03:15:57 * Molly reaches Morgan, touching his skin and concentrating. It doesn't feel as potent as it could, but it's a decent amount Nov 07 03:16:28 * MorganK nods, slaughtering the nearest monk savagely Nov 07 03:16:35 Monk5 to HH: You are guilty of cowardice. You let their corpses burn to bone and black tatters of flesh so you didn’t have to see any resemblance of their faces. Then you let him nearly get killed because you were scared he would hate you if you chased him. You let him suffer alone. Coward. *HH bows his head, shoulders shaking* Nov 07 03:17:18 * MorganK runs at monk5, slamming into him, driving him to theground Nov 07 03:17:33 * Molly destroys another one, taking them down to twenty somehow. More of them must be appearing. Nov 07 03:18:51 *Claudia seems to be enjoying hacking and slashing, like a force of nature. None of the ones she reaches are anything like good enough to handle her viciously angry and with two blades* Nov 07 03:19:25 Monk6 to DeeDee: You are guilty of child murder and torture. The baby writhed and suffered for four days in her silent cold still womb before it died terrified and alone. Baby killer. *DeeDee crumples to the floor, sobbing* Nov 07 03:20:13 * MorganK stamps on the monks face until it is pulp before concentrating on the monk speaking to DeeDee Nov 07 03:20:53 *HH is still obviously struggling, but remains sword ready, idly killing one. *Molly yells* NO! DEEDEE, THAT IS FUCKING HORSESHIT! THAT IS NOT WHAT HAPPENS IF THE MOTHER DIES! THEY’RE PLAYING ON YOUR GUILT, IT’S NOT TRUE! Nov 07 03:22:15 /me goes to DeeDee, using the magic to take the edge off the physical sensations, and he struggles to his feet, his spirit still clearly weary Nov 07 03:22:56 *that monk burns powerfully, the same dark red as the schwarzenwald wood* Nov 07 03:23:23 * MorganK grabs another monk, turning him to face another monk Nov 07 03:24:55 *they seem unaffected. The numbers are slowly dwindling as HH rallies, and Claudia deals destruction with a beautiful ferocity Nov 07 03:25:13 Monk8, across the circle, to Morgan: You are guilty of keeping her from the man she could have been with who would love her without making her share. You keep her from him. Nov 07 03:25:33 * MorganK looks at him, nodding Nov 07 03:25:44 Yes, I do... and she is happier with me... Nov 07 03:26:20 * MorganK becomes utterly savage, combining his sword work with his magic, occasionally just resorting to sheer physical violence to put them down Nov 07 03:27:21 *Like Claudia, he makes good progress. Several monks look at Molly now* Monk7: You won’t ever let him move on because once he stops being heartbroken and needing you you will have no value and he will see you as the nothing special you are. Nov 07 03:29:35 * MorganK sends his war sword whirling, hitting the monk soundly in the side of his head, blade appearing on the other side of his skull Nov 07 03:30:25 *That Monk hits the ground, definitely dead. They are down to twelve.* Nov 07 03:31:14 * MorganK continues his savagery, taking absolutely no prisoners Nov 07 03:31:18 Monk to HH: You did not stop your friends gang-raping a woman, and you still called them good men for years! Nov 07 03:31:52 *this makes HH sway, head bowed, dropping his sword* Nov 07 03:32:41 * MorganK grabs the monk, wrenching his head backwards then sideways, crunching noises coming loudly Nov 07 03:33:33 *That monk is also definitely dead. HH looks up at Morgan, just muttering "Thanks". Monk 9, from near the back to Morgan: you are guilty of cruelty. You are a monster at your core. You had two men restrain a Freiarrin before watching as- *he gets violently ripped apart from the inside* Nov 07 03:35:33 * MorganK flinches before driving himself at another monk, swinging his sword hard enough to bite halfway into the mans torso before kicking him off the blade Nov 07 03:37:10 *They're now under ten. More Horrible accusations are levelled at them all, about failing their loved ones, the fire for Morgan. Heinzharold's are less traumatic than what they say again to DeeDee, Claudia's are bordering on revealing the rapes. It is gruelling, dealing with the additional guilt, and he sees the strain on them all. Claudia is like Nov 07 03:37:11 the chick in the middle of a nest of mangeled corpses* Nov 07 03:38:07 * MorganK concentrates on the two nearest monks, intent on burning them Nov 07 03:39:37 *they do burn. Molly uses her magic to swiftly and cleanly put down another two, and Heinzharold is fighting one. The remaining five are rushing at Claudia, and DeeDee sprints over to defend her Nov 07 03:40:05 * MorganK runs towards her, barrelling into one of them, knocking him over Nov 07 03:41:20 *DeeDee steps in front of her, trying to protect her. She shoves him out of the way, and he lands on his backside. She doesnt look back as she runs at two of the monks. Nov 07 03:42:31 *HH joins at Morgan's side, hacking at one* Not the religious discourse I wanted, man! Nov 07 03:43:01 * MorganK nods, beheading another before looking round Nov 07 03:44:01 *Claudia still has one, and one is clashing swords with DeeDee who is finding it hard to get off the ground because of it Nov 07 03:44:16 * MorganK concentrates on the one facing DeeDee Nov 07 03:47:25 *it burns on the inside, collapsing. Claudia and Heinzharold's go down too. This leaves only Fulda who has returned singed, out of Morgan's likely range, and only six feet from Molly, talking to her* Nov 07 03:47:48 * MorganK swears, sprinting towards him Nov 07 03:47:54 [that fuckers mine] Nov 07 03:50:27 *Molly is stood quite calmly, looking unaffected by whatever the cruel taunts are. Fulda turns his attention to Morgan, his guilt-inducing magic too "You are forgetting her. You do not even bother to think of her each day. Her life and death were in vain, wasted on you when she deserved better" the guilt is intense Nov 07 03:50:59 * MorganK roars at him, lunging feet first at his chest, intent on landing on him Nov 07 03:51:14 *He lands as he wishes* Nov 07 03:51:35 * MorganK ends up stood with one foot on Fulda's shoulder, pinning him to the ground Nov 07 03:51:52 Tell me, Fulda... would you have done this to my son? Nov 07 03:52:08 Which son? Nov 07 03:52:14 Varick Nov 07 03:52:22 * Molly is now known as Fulda Nov 07 03:52:35 Even children have guilt Nov 07 03:52:42 * MorganK nods Nov 07 03:52:47 Then face your judgement Nov 07 03:53:12 * MorganK suddenly and savagely kicks under the mans chin, almost as if he's trying to kick his head clean off and into the distance Nov 07 03:55:50 *This breaks his neck quite quickly, and provides plenty of resistance to kick against, awful noises of crunching bones and tearing tissues. Nov 07 03:56:15 * MorganK kicks it sideways before stamping on it, making sure the man is very dead Nov 07 03:58:07 *he is definitely dead, which seems confirmed by the fact that thirty corpses catch fire, burning with dark red flames. The other three are stood together watching it, But Molly isn't with them. She has her back to Morgan. Nov 07 03:58:22 * MorganK goes to her Nov 07 03:58:28 Blossom... Nov 07 03:58:36 * Fulda doesn't reply Nov 07 03:58:42 * Fulda is now known as Molly Nov 07 03:58:58 * MorganK gently puts a hand on her shoulder Nov 07 03:59:03 My love... Nov 07 03:59:14 * Molly jumps, whipping round Nov 07 03:59:26 Hey, hey, its me... its just me Nov 07 03:59:40 * Molly frowns, looking confused Nov 07 04:00:00 * MorganK takes her shoulders, looking closely at her Nov 07 04:00:12 Molly Isabelle Koertig... Nov 07 04:00:51 * Molly looks a little pale but well enough. Then she seems to have a realisation, and his neck prickles Nov 07 04:01:33 Sorry, whilst I was using my magic I was thinking that if I couldn't hear them I wouldn't feel it, and I must have made myself deaf Nov 07 04:01:49 Did it work? Nov 07 04:02:00 Yes Nov 07 04:02:14 Is that why that last one didn't seem to affect you? Nov 07 04:02:20 * Molly nods Nov 07 04:02:28 I have no idea what he said Nov 07 04:02:56 That is _brilliant_. Are you well enough to check on the others with me? Do you need to go to Inga? Nov 07 04:03:09 * Molly smiles Nov 07 04:03:17 Thank you, yes, no Nov 07 04:03:36 * MorganK nods, heading with her over to the others Nov 07 04:03:49 *the corpses are turning to white ash, blowing like snow across the yard Nov 07 04:05:11 *Claudia is hitting DeeDee* What the fuck were you thinking, you colossal, fucking, stupid idiot! I could have hacked your stupid brain out, or gutted you! Nov 07 04:06:22 *DeeDee is taking it stoically, not that he could get a word in edgeways. He's looking up and away from her, body language rigid. HH is watching Morgan with a slight smirk* Nov 07 04:06:53 * MorganK watches her Nov 07 04:06:56 Claudia... Nov 07 04:07:49 *She whirls round. Her already unbuttoned shirt has come out from her trousers on one side, a breast revealed. She looks very angry Nov 07 04:08:14 * MorganK takes off his shirt, using it to cover her Nov 07 04:08:19 He's new. Give him a break Nov 07 04:09:33 C: *she looks like she'll object to the covering until she realises that to cover her he's chosen to reveal his scars to DeeDee, and anyone also who might be around* Thanks. Nov 07 04:10:03 * MorganK nods, breathing slowly Nov 07 04:12:10 * Molly gently places a hand on his lower back, reassuringly stroking with her thumb. On the ground around them the ashes swirl, no fires now. There is five of them and a total of seven pieces of clothing between them. Nov 07 04:12:38 Lets get inside and cleaned up. Is anyone injured? Nov 07 04:13:25 *they all assure him they're physically okay* Nov 07 04:13:36 Inside then Nov 07 04:14:43 ACTION is actually the only one who looks to be in anyway unwell. She looks pale, a little shaky** Nov 07 04:14:43 * Received a CTCP from Molly (to #7thsea) Nov 07 04:15:15 * MorganK picks her up Nov 07 04:15:21 Come on... tell me whats wrong... Nov 07 04:16:36 I'm really cold, and quite depleted Nov 07 04:17:03 * MorganK nods, trying to warm her as he carries her inside Nov 07 04:17:56 *Indoors, there is a woman, the inn keepers owner, watching them all come in half dressed, lips pursed* Nov 07 04:18:16 * MorganK glances at them Nov 07 04:18:33 We will require food brought to our rooms as soon as possible Nov 07 04:19:02 *The woman says "yes, your Excellency" Nov 07 04:19:38 * MorganK carries Molly to his room, giving the others instructions to dress, give them ten minutes, then join them Nov 07 04:20:13 *HH, DeeDee, and Claudia trudge up the stairs to go into their own rooms. Varick and Inga are in Morgan's room Nov 07 04:20:48 * MorganK places Molly down gently, wrapping her in the sheets to warm her up Nov 07 04:21:00 Inga, HeinzHarold will need you right now Nov 07 04:21:21 *Inga inclines her head and goes* Nov 07 04:21:33 V: what should I do, Papa? Nov 07 04:22:05 Find mama's clothes, and find me a shirt please Varick Nov 07 04:23:29 *He goes into the trunk, pulling out the things. Molly looks sleepy Nov 07 04:23:53 Molly... can you take some strength from me? Nov 07 04:24:16 Mmm... prefer sleep... lie down with me a while, hmm? Nov 07 04:24:49 I know... we need to be ready to move on... you can sleep in the coach my love Nov 07 04:25:47 * Molly sounds very sleepy "mmmhmm... kiss me instead then..." Nov 07 04:26:11 *Varick looks at Morgan, trying not to giggle* Nov 07 04:26:26 * MorganK kisses her quickly Nov 07 04:26:42 Come on... take some of my energy, enough to get you until we're on the move Nov 07 04:27:22 * Molly reaches for his hand, eyes closed. He feels her take a little, nothing he can't spare Nov 07 04:27:35 * MorganK watches her Nov 07 04:27:45 Come on... little more, then we can get dressed and fed Nov 07 04:28:30 * Molly does so. He does feel a little tired, but she seems more able to get up now* Nov 07 04:28:50 Alright, lets get dressed... the others will be with us in a few minutes Nov 07 04:30:11 * Molly nods, still a bit sleepy. She starts to try to remove her short shift, at risk of educating Varick about the lack of dingaling Nov 07 04:30:42 * MorganK gets up, turning Varick away as he pulls his shirt on Nov 07 04:31:02 V: what are you doing, Papa. Nov 07 04:31:11 Getting dressed... Nov 07 04:31:49 Got to wear coats outside, Papa Nov 07 04:32:03 Mmhmmm... thats right Nov 07 04:32:25 Why didn't you wear coats? Nov 07 04:33:06 We hadn't intended to go outside... had a bit of an emergency but its sorted now Nov 07 04:33:39 V: okay, Papa. Can I see Inga now? Nov 07 04:33:52 Not just yet... they'll be in here soon Nov 07 04:34:44 V: *He gets a book and reads whilst they dress * Nov 07 04:35:18 * MorganK has quit (Quit: Leaving) Nov 07 04:35:18 * Molly has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Nov 07 10:48:22 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Nov 07 11:00:19 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 07 11:03:55 *The food arrives just before the others do. There's not enough table space, so some of them will have to sit on the bed and floor. Everyone looks a little strained still. Nov 07 11:05:07 * Morgan watches them carefully Nov 07 11:07:10 *Food is eaten very quietly. Then attention is turned to Morgan. DeeDee fiddles with his pipe, but doesn't light it Nov 07 11:08:04 I'm sorry you had to endure that Nov 07 11:09:17 *there's shrugs all round. Molly is sat in her shawl nearest the fire* Nov 07 11:09:45 HH: Mebbie you could take us from the top, fill us in, man. Nov 07 11:10:07 *Varick is still eating, sat on the pallet bed* Nov 07 11:11:58 They... feed on our guilt... I'm reckoning they spend a couple of nights pulling at things that you feel guilty about, to make it easier to provoke when they choose to... Nov 07 11:13:34 * MollyK is now known as Claudia Nov 07 11:13:47 That explains the dreams the night before last Nov 07 11:13:53 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:13:56 Yes, it does Nov 07 11:14:06 And, I don't know about you... last night as well Nov 07 11:14:23 HH shakes his head: Nope, not me. Nov 07 11:15:19 * Claudia , Inga, Molly, and even Varick shake their heads. DeeDee looks up from the pipe on the table in front of him D: Just the usual Nov 07 11:15:34 Oh... just me then... good Nov 07 11:15:48 You have an interesting idea of good! Nov 07 11:16:07 * Morgan looks at her Nov 07 11:16:18 You didn't suffer another night... how could it not be good Nov 07 11:16:27 * Claudia shrugs Nov 07 11:16:48 HH: I ackshully dreamt something nice Nov 07 11:19:26 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:19:58 Good... good. I think... though the danger seems to have passed... we should get on the road as soon as we can Nov 07 11:23:34 * Claudia nods Nov 07 11:24:13 M: we can discuss all of this as we go, or when we get to Paan Nov 07 11:24:27 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:25:35 One thing, though... the things they said... they were preying on exactly what would get you to surrender... not what is, just what they needed you to feel... Nov 07 11:27:30 *None of them seem quite ready to start accepting this, and it seems like he'll need to keep working on them. They get finished up. As soon as they're outside, DeeDee lights his pipe. He and Claudia don't seem to be on speaking terms. HH is insisting Inga goes in the carriage where it's warm and dry, Varick already in there* Nov 07 11:27:37 * Claudia is now known as Molly Nov 07 11:28:12 * Molly still looks a bit cold and pale "do you wish me to ride with you, or go in the carriage?" Nov 07 11:28:24 Carriage please. Rest. Nov 07 11:28:43 * Molly nods, kissing his cheek, no objection at all Nov 07 11:29:45 * Molly gets in. HH comes over, bringing two horses, DeeDee and Claudia already getting mounted up Nov 07 11:29:53 * Molly is now known as HH Nov 07 11:30:01 * Morgan looks at him, hugging him hard suddenly Nov 07 11:30:13 You know she's feelin' it when she doesn' argue with you... Nov 07 11:30:22 * HH hugs him hard back Nov 07 11:30:32 * Morgan nods, letting go Nov 07 11:30:34 She's exhausted Nov 07 11:33:11 * HH nods "get goin' an' we can talk?" Nov 07 11:33:52 * Morgan nods, hauling himself into the saddle Nov 07 11:34:07 * HH mounts up, the others riding on, and the two coachman making the vehicle move "In front, or in the rear?" Nov 07 11:34:33 Front... Claudia and DeeDee can take up the rear Nov 07 11:36:04 * HH gets settled into this after they've moved around, keeping an eye for dangers as they progress, much more alert than before Nov 07 11:36:25 Wanna tell me the version with full magic included? Nov 07 11:37:48 You pretty much saw it all man... Three of 'em were out there training this morning, using different techniques, so I went to watch... Fulda came over and I finally clocked what was wrong.. my reflection in his eyes was upside down... like the guilty hanged man Nov 07 11:39:06 * HH shudders Nov 07 11:39:14 That's creepy as fuck Nov 07 11:39:32 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:39:58 Thousands have fed them, apparently... I reckon those ghosts back around the gallows is what became of them... Nov 07 11:40:31 Parts o' their souls missing... Nov 07 11:40:48 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:42:13 This monks took the rest? Nov 07 11:42:23 Reckon so Nov 07 11:43:38 * HH nods Nov 07 11:43:45 Horrible bastards Nov 07 11:43:55 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:44:03 The things they said man... its not true Nov 07 11:46:17 * HH shrugs Nov 07 11:46:27 Not false either. Nov 07 11:46:51 You're not a coward... Nov 07 11:47:06 Sometimes I am Nov 07 11:47:33 No man... we all get scared Nov 07 11:49:28 * HH doesn't look atbMorgan, instead watching the treeline Nov 07 11:49:48 I coulda gotten in in the middle of the night. Nov 07 11:50:21 What good would it have done? Nov 07 11:50:55 It was wrong to leave them in there longer. Nov 07 11:51:44 And if you were a heartless man with no feelings, I'd agree... but you're not... hell man, I fucking ran away. Nov 07 11:51:51 * HH brushes the back of his hand over his eyes roughly Nov 07 11:52:41 I wanted to be able to remember them alive and beautiful... and most o' the time I can. Nov 07 11:53:05 * Morgan moves his horse closer, gripping HeinzHarolds shoulder firmly Nov 07 11:53:23 I know man... there's nothing wrong with that Nov 07 11:53:53 But it's cowardly. I let it continue Nov 07 11:54:40 No, man... if they'd been suffering, then yeah... but they were gone. Nov 07 11:54:48 I guess I also didn' want you coming back an' seeing it either. I wanted you to remember them as they were when y' last saw them. Nov 07 11:55:15 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:56:52 I didn' let anyone see them, even though Sascha an' Otto wanted to. Yer Da didn' ask, and Grunhelm accepted that I wasn't openin' the coffins for anyone but Theus hisself. An' even then I'da argued. Nov 07 11:57:20 * Morgan looks surprised Nov 07 11:57:32 You... refused Grunhelm?! Nov 07 11:57:37 * HH nods Nov 07 11:57:50 Fucking hell Nov 07 11:59:12 Yeah... I wasn' that rational man. I was very protective, like a mama bear I guess. I would protect them until I could see them at rest, even from the sight of others. It was _private_. Nov 07 11:59:42 * Morgan nods Nov 07 11:59:50 None of that was cowardice man Nov 07 12:00:34 * HH shrugs Nov 07 12:00:41 Dunno, man. Nov 07 12:01:06 _I_ know. Nov 07 12:01:12 * HH nods Nov 07 12:01:26 Erlangen... Nov 07 12:02:04 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:02:18 You are not responsible for their actions man Nov 07 12:03:18 *he shrugs* I thought they were good men. Boisterous, you know how it is. Crude jokes, always chasing women. Nothing major. But it shoulda been enough. Nov 07 12:04:03 Unfortunately, being crude and chasing women is rife in the service... you couldn't know Nov 07 12:04:54 * HH shrugs Nov 07 12:04:58 You woulda. Nov 07 12:05:35 I didn't even spot what my own brother was doing... or that monks eyes when I looked right at him... so no, I don't think I would've Nov 07 12:05:47 * HH shrugs again Nov 07 12:06:28 Her tent was four down from mine. If I hadn' gone in for the next wave, I'da been there and heard something. I coulda helped her Nov 07 12:07:03 Disobeyed orders for... what? No hunch, no proof... there was no reason for you to... Nov 07 12:07:12 * HH sighs Nov 07 12:07:17 'Spose Nov 07 12:07:23 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:07:43 I know, you're feeling guilty and responsible... I felt that when she told me and I didn't even know her then Nov 07 12:07:54 * HH nods Nov 07 12:08:57 I saw her hobblin' the next day, man. I fuckin' teased her about gettin' a spankin' from the Vats... I laughed at 'er discomfort. Nov 07 12:09:40 * Morgan nods slowly Nov 07 12:09:48 She doesn't blame you man Nov 07 12:10:01 Yeah, well, I do. Nov 07 12:10:28 I know its hard, but... you need to let that go. It doesn't help her now, and it doesn't help you Nov 07 12:12:06 * HH sighs "I'll try. Tha's all I can promise" Nov 07 12:12:30 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:12:44 Do it for her... she needs you to let that go. Nov 07 12:12:57 *he nods* I'm not mad that she told you b'fore, or tha' you didn't tell me. Nov 07 12:14:09 * Morgan looks at him Nov 07 12:14:16 You sure? Nov 07 12:15:08 * HH nods Nov 07 12:15:24 We're still keepin' stuff from her. Sometimes you gotta. Nov 07 12:15:46 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:15:51 I feel bad about that... Nov 07 12:17:06 Why? Nov 07 12:17:39 I hate keeping things from her... Nov 07 12:18:05 You could, but I'm lookin' at th' long game Nov 07 12:18:21 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:18:36 Its like you said... she'd never understand and she'd kill him first chance she got Nov 07 12:18:46 Longer'an that. Nov 07 12:22:05 Go on... tell me... Nov 07 12:22:56 'Er and DeeDee. There's definitely summat there. He ran into danger to try t' save her. She don't need it, but that's not the point Nov 07 12:23:46 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:24:02 He says he won't ever make someone put up with his nightmares... says he's too damaged Nov 07 12:24:24 Sounds like the sorta shit you prob'ly said before Molly. Nov 07 12:24:58 * Morgan flinches, but nods, looking away Nov 07 12:25:06 What? Nov 07 12:25:15 You think there's a future for them then... Nov 07 12:26:39 Very minor chance... but his future job as Sheriff Of Graben is gonna be stable and well-paid. Well-suited. You tell 'er about Edward, that will ruin any chance that she'd follow 'er heart Nov 07 12:27:09 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:27:11 You're right Nov 07 12:28:40 * HH nods Nov 07 12:28:45 Usually am. Nov 07 12:29:10 * Morgan nods, looking round Nov 07 12:30:52 I didn't want to put anyone in danger, y'know? But I could see straight off I couldn't deal with them on my own Nov 07 12:31:45 * HH nods Nov 07 12:32:19 There was too many, man. You an' Molly were doin' good, but even th' rest of us were needed Nov 07 12:33:17 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:33:53 It was harder, throwing magic at them... Nov 07 12:34:28 Any idea why? Nov 07 12:34:49 * Morgan shrugs Nov 07 12:35:08 They were using magic... Think that might have something to do with it... Nov 07 12:35:46 * HH nods Nov 07 12:36:04 What sorta magic they got? Some emotion control? Nov 07 12:36:12 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:36:15 Certainly felt like it Nov 07 12:38:15 * HH nods Nov 07 12:38:26 Was weird, like a wave o' guilt Nov 07 12:38:31 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:38:35 Aye, exactly Nov 07 12:40:10 What did you dream? Then I'll tell y' mine Nov 07 12:41:54 It _was_ a different path.... Got caught having sex by Alarice, then... it changed... couldn't wake up, she spent ages trying to get me to feel the guilt... telling me I as cruel, a failed husband and father, a monster... Nov 07 12:42:13 Fuckin' hell, man. Nov 07 12:43:08 * Morgan shrugs, looking round Nov 07 12:43:12 Nothing new Nov 07 12:43:32 Dream o' getting caught have Nov 07 12:43:46 Having sex by Alarice a lot? Nov 07 12:43:54 No... first time Nov 07 12:44:05 * HH nods Nov 07 12:44:23 Manage not to feel too guilty 'bout what she was sayin' Nov 07 12:44:38 Something like that Nov 07 12:46:47 Take the chance to beat her? Nov 07 12:46:55 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 07 12:47:18 No... despite her trying her damndest to get her hands where they have no place being Nov 07 12:47:35 What?! Why? Nov 07 12:48:16 Because it would've proved what she was saying. Just because she's right, don't mean I have to let her know it, dream or otherwise Nov 07 12:49:04 * HH nods Nov 07 12:49:23 Fair enough, man. Tryinna grope you then? Nov 07 12:49:31 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:49:50 Shoved her off me, reckon it broke some bones but... that wasn't my intent Nov 07 12:50:35 * HH nods "mebbie some o' that's from what Claudia was saying. Good job you woke up!" Nov 07 12:51:13 I suppose so Nov 07 12:52:24 What was th' path this time then? Nov 07 12:53:45 Uhh, Molly was a spy... the star girl, yeah? Nov 07 12:55:29 Yeah, I remember that. You ain't mentioned it in ages though Nov 07 12:55:38 * Morgan nods Nov 07 12:58:10 Yeah, well... she was going to move to be with me... my father was going to let her stay in Innesbruck for a bit, so I took her there and... we got caught having sex... thats what would've happened, Alarice would've made my life hell but we'd have had children and been happy Nov 07 12:59:11 That's nice, man. Think you said she' already known Rosie? Nov 07 12:59:44 Aye Nov 07 12:59:55 She picked you over him then Nov 07 13:01:10 * Morgan nods Nov 07 13:01:12 yep Nov 07 13:01:35 * HH nods Nov 07 13:01:42 So 'appily ever after Nov 07 13:01:58 Apparently so Nov 07 13:02:22 * HH nods Nov 07 13:02:51 Sounds like a mostly nice dream? Weird to be having sex with Molly who is also not Molly? Nov 07 13:03:10 Tis a bit, aye Nov 07 13:05:11 I dreamt we were kids again, that first day I came to the big house and we played hide and seek. You couldn't find me, thought mebbie I'd gone home so went to look. I thought mebbie -I- was the seeker, and then couldn't find -you- . Then yer Ma gave me loads of biscuits whilst Grunhelm was sent to find you Nov 07 13:05:44 * Morgan nods Nov 07 13:05:55 Much nicer Nov 07 13:06:10 * HH nods Nov 07 13:06:30 Yep. So how you feeling now? Nov 07 13:07:08 Nothing they said has changed what I think of myself Nov 07 13:07:27 Man, that's not the same as "I feel fine" Nov 07 13:08:09 * Morgan nods slowly, looking round Nov 07 13:08:18 I know Nov 07 13:29:42 You're not cruel, man. You proved it with that swine that hurt Elsie Nov 07 13:33:18 And the woman I had held down, made to believe she was going to be raped before I killed her? Nov 07 13:35:13 Or the fact I felt no remorse about killing those monks... I'm a monster, man Nov 07 13:36:54 * HH looks confused "when was that?" Nov 07 13:37:35 When I left Molly in Atemlos so they wouldn't have to see my pain for Dietlindes birthday Nov 07 13:38:07 First I've heard of it. What 'append? Nov 07 13:39:20 Sorgi an me.... We came across this house, could hear screams... bunch of men raping a housewife because the rents weren't paid. Nov 07 13:41:23 * HH looks angry and grim "right..." Nov 07 13:41:58 Orders came direct from the Freiarrin... killed a couple, told the others they'd live if they showed the Freiarrin the fear these women felt... Nov 07 13:42:18 * HH nods slowly Nov 07 13:42:22 Okay... Nov 07 13:43:30 I tried to convince her first man... but she called these women cattle, to do with as she wished... so... the men held her down... made to rape her... I... I don't know that I killed the first one before... Nov 07 13:43:42 * Morgan is staring fixedly ahead Nov 07 13:45:12 * HH moves his horse to Morgan, copying that same gesture Nov 07 13:45:30 Of comfort with a hand on the shoulder Nov 07 13:45:48 Got outta hand? Nov 07 13:46:22 I don't know. I killed them... I told her that fear is what her people had suffered... she didn't care. I couldn't... let... that... continue... Nov 07 13:46:48 * HH rubs his shoulder Nov 07 13:47:35 Course not, man. -That- woulda been monstrous Nov 07 13:47:50 I killed her... murdered her... then set fire to her house Nov 07 13:48:05 Yeah, and she fucking deserved it Nov 07 13:49:17 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 07 13:49:20 No. Nov 07 13:52:01 Yes she did. She'd have sent men to rape Inga, Dietlinde, because they are common and cattle. Nov 07 13:52:34 * Morgan flinches hard, looking away Nov 07 13:53:21 That woman they were hurting, she was someone's wife too? Nov 07 13:54:06 * Morgan nods Nov 07 13:56:02 So what would you want a powerful man to do to the Freiarrin responsible for men raping either of your wives? B'cause if that was Inga I'd want her to suffer. Nov 07 13:56:37 You wouldn't have been cruel like that Nov 07 13:57:51 Don't be so sure, man. If I'd heard that cattle comment it's my wife I'd have pictured in that poor woman's place. Nov 07 13:58:15 * Morgan shakes his head Nov 07 13:59:38 How many people inna Freiarrdom struggle to pay rents since the War ended? 'Specially widows with little kids. Nov 07 14:00:05 Hundreds... easily Nov 07 14:01:00 And it won'ta been a one off for each o' them either. Could be thousands of rapes at her command, man Nov 07 14:01:16 * Morgan sighs heavily Nov 07 14:01:26 I suppose Nov 07 14:01:32 * HH nods Nov 07 14:02:41 So she mebbie, mighta got raped by one of the men she sent out to inflict that on vulnerable women, prob'ly the older girls too. Serves her right. That's not being a monster, that's fucking justice. Nov 07 14:03:01 I can't believe that man Nov 07 14:04:51 What's the alternative? Tell 'er off, by this time four months later, there's another hundred rapes you let happen. One, -mebbie- of a perpetrator, or a hundred of innocent women only guilty of being poor. Nov 07 14:05:22 * Morgan starts to sob Nov 07 14:05:38 * HH rubs his shoulder Nov 07 14:06:12 Don' wanna be so brutal with y' man, but you gotta see sense 'ere Nov 07 14:07:02 * Morgan wipes at his face, looking up at the sky Nov 07 14:07:35 * HH squeezes firmly Nov 07 14:07:44 Want me to get Molly? Nov 07 14:08:15 No... she needs to rest Nov 07 14:09:02 If she's scolds me for not getting her, I'm kickin' yer ass Nov 07 14:09:43 * Morgan shrugs Nov 07 14:09:46 If needs be Nov 07 14:09:56 Got the tobacco? Nov 07 14:11:36 Somewhere Nov 07 14:11:48 Think it'd help? Nov 07 14:12:16 * Morgan shrugs Nov 07 14:12:23 Couldn't say man. Don't wanna be less alert Nov 07 14:13:29 * HH nods Nov 07 14:13:52 You told Molly all this, or too close to home? Nov 07 14:14:15 She knows I killed her Nov 07 14:15:41 Not the rest though? Nov 07 14:16:05 no... no-one knows... kept you Nov 07 14:16:15 'cept* Nov 07 14:16:53 * HH nods Nov 07 14:17:07 Fuck, man. Then the stuff with Elsie... Nov 07 14:18:00 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:19:07 Shit. You shoulda said, so I'd known you needed more help! Nov 07 14:19:20 I couldn't Nov 07 14:19:36 Why? I love you man, not matter what. Nov 07 14:21:51 I remember the look on your face, the fear I felt at losing you because I wouldn't tell you who had DIetlinde and Jana killed man... how could I tell you I was worse? Nov 07 14:22:17 Oh fuck no you aren't! What the fuck, man?! Nov 07 14:23:38 * Morgan slumps Nov 07 14:25:05 You executed a monster. He stole the lives of innocent kin and broke you. Nov 07 14:25:49 * Morgan doesn't respond Nov 07 14:27:07 You tell me you aren't a monster, or I'm goin' to have to fetch yer wife. Can't let you do this to yerself. Nov 07 14:27:33 * Morgan slowly straightens Nov 07 14:27:35 I'm fine Nov 07 14:27:48 That's not what I fuckin' said and you know it. Nov 07 14:28:20 Fine. I'm not a monster Nov 07 14:28:26 * HH nods Nov 07 14:28:45 It's a start, and you can't lie to me. Nov 07 14:29:25 * Morgan nods slightly, looking round Nov 07 14:29:37 *it's quiet Nov 07 14:29:49 What about the rest? Nov 07 14:30:09 What rest? Nov 07 14:30:11 Whatever other shit was said. About failing them. Nov 07 14:30:48 Come on. I did. So did Edward, and my father. Nov 07 14:32:10 Then me too. Nov 07 14:32:22 Don't be stupid Nov 07 14:33:37 Shoulda kept a closer eye on you when we got 'ome. Shoulda known what our neighbours were up. Shoulda found out there was an assassin. I'm smart, that's what yer Da pays me for Nov 07 14:34:20 You're not gonn' let this go are you? Nov 07 14:34:27 Would you? Nov 07 14:35:05 You're not me Nov 07 14:35:59 No, I'm smarter an' hotter. Nov 07 14:36:41 So you should know better Nov 07 14:38:54 Nope, I know friends don' let anyone pick on their friends, even themselves Nov 07 14:39:09 * Morgan sighs Nov 07 14:39:56 You didn' fail them, man. You did th' best you could with the intel you 'ad. Nov 07 14:40:11 Right... alright... Nov 07 14:40:33 * HH watches to see if it's just token agreement to shut him up Nov 07 14:41:36 I'm trying man, I am Nov 07 14:42:57 * HH nods Nov 07 14:43:07 Yeah, you've always been trying. Nov 07 14:43:23 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:45:17 * HH stretches, looking around Nov 07 14:45:42 Remember that lil problem I was having after the stuff with Elsie? Nov 07 14:45:49 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:46:04 Did y' ever ask Molly if she could do anythin' about it? Nov 07 14:46:15 * Morgan rubs at his face Nov 07 14:46:23 maybe... I'm not sure... she probably could Nov 07 14:46:31 You still having issues? Nov 07 14:47:00 Not still, just last night an' no morning advantage... just bein' prepared Nov 07 14:47:34 I'd imagine its the monks and their bullshit man... but I'll mention it Nov 07 14:47:42 * HH nods Nov 07 14:48:08 Thanks. See 'ow it goes a few days. Could be all that tobacco too. Nov 07 14:48:31 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:48:36 Go easy on it yeah? Nov 07 14:48:42 * HH nods Nov 07 14:48:59 Yeah. Kept wakin' myself up giggling Nov 07 14:50:17 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:51:26 * HH keeps looking around as they ride Nov 07 14:51:44 But diff'rent to our normal mornin' training Nov 07 14:51:54 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:52:14 Wonder how DeeDee's coping with peoples heads exploding and others catching fire spontaneously Nov 07 14:52:54 That was pretty grim, man Nov 07 14:53:17 Needs must Nov 07 14:54:28 Yeah... not seen Molly do that b'fore Nov 07 14:54:51 Seen her make a mans heart explode in his chest Nov 07 14:57:26 If it wasn' Molly it'd be fucking terrifying Nov 07 14:57:37 * Morgan nods Nov 07 14:57:41 Oh yes Nov 07 15:00:08 From a distance like that, could just happen to you any moment Nov 07 15:00:17 * Morgan nods Nov 07 15:00:41 She ever had to do that much before? Nov 07 15:01:00 No... both of us man, we're exhausted... like we're running on empty Nov 07 15:01:30 No ideas for what to do to help it? Nov 07 15:01:49 No... could do with asking the Nieblungen Nov 07 15:02:04 What about your shardy things? Nov 07 15:02:56 * Morgan shrugs, taking his from his pocket and opening the box Nov 07 15:03:10 *it looks the same as always* Nov 07 15:03:24 * Morgan runs his fingers over it before picking it up Nov 07 15:03:42 *it has that same feeling of belonging to him* Nov 07 15:05:04 * Morgan shrugs, looking at HeinzHarold Nov 07 15:05:09 Nothing... Nov 07 15:05:47 * HH thinks Nov 07 15:05:56 You ever used the magic on it? Nov 07 15:06:45 *Molly had used hers on the raw seams in the mine, making them glow and pulse like a heartbeat* Nov 07 15:07:33 Molly has... I could try I suppose... think I'll go over there though... just in case Nov 07 15:07:45 In case y' explode Nov 07 15:08:01 * Morgan nods, moving his horse to a distance before concentrating on the shard Nov 07 15:08:31 *it starts to glow orange, and he feels his power replenish* Nov 07 15:08:45 * Morgan keeps doing it Nov 07 15:09:20 *it's not long at all before he feels back to full potency. He can hear the familiar sound of the Mind* Nov 07 15:09:44 * Morgan nods to himself, putting it away again Nov 07 15:10:27 * HH is just keeping an eye out when he gets back Nov 07 15:11:17 Didn't expect that to work... Nov 07 15:11:23 [Molly... are you awake?] Nov 07 15:13:10 [he gets the image of her dreaming. They're behind the waterfall he's seen in her dreams of Capperlucia, and he's kissing her neck* Nov 07 15:13:35 Genius, man. I gots them smarts. Nov 07 15:14:00 Question is... do I wake Molly to tell her? Nov 07 15:14:13 * HH shrugs Nov 07 15:14:20 Why wouldn't you? Nov 07 15:14:31 She's having a nice dream right now Nov 07 15:15:01 Leave the poor lassie alone then, she deserves it Nov 07 15:15:09 * Morgan nods Nov 07 15:15:11 quite Nov 07 15:15:28 You can see her dreams when yer awake? Nov 07 15:15:36 apprently Nov 07 15:15:52 Mess around with 'em? Nov 07 15:16:37 No... been in her dreams any number of times when I'm sleeping Nov 07 15:17:29 Oh yeah, y' said when we were away, where she worked in a brothel Nov 07 15:17:43 * Morgan nods Nov 07 15:17:45 Yeah Nov 07 15:18:16 Pretty odd. It's all pretty fuckin' odd. Nov 07 15:18:35 Bit of an understatement there man Nov 07 15:18:41 * HH nods Nov 07 15:18:52 Not gon' get any less weird, I guess Nov 07 15:19:02 I wouldn't think so, no... Nov 07 15:19:07 * HH nods Nov 07 15:19:15 Good job we got each other then Nov 07 15:19:28 * Morgan nods Nov 07 15:19:34 Something I'm always grateful for Nov 07 15:20:08 Always? Nov 07 15:20:28 except... when you're singing about bottles Nov 07 15:20:45 Yeah, I won't do that today Nov 07 15:21:02 * Morgan nods Nov 07 15:21:04 good Nov 07 15:21:18 * HH starts singing the son about covering her peaches with cream instead Nov 07 15:21:43 * Morgan sighs, settling into the saddle Nov 07 15:43:12 * HH has quit (Quit: Igloo IRC: https://iglooirc.com) Nov 07 15:43:14 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 07 15:48:17 **once they're quietly riding, he has time to reflect on the sad good bye of his star girl and their story. From their immediate connection and first kiss beneath the stars through finding her in the opera house, losing his virginity to her, discovering her participation in a secret organisation. To the discovery she was Lady Rosenkrantz, learning Nov 07 15:48:17 about the ball of magic in the summerhouse and that the order knew about them, then their final passionate lovemaking where he'd had to withdraw with haste. How the song she had been humming was one that linked Holzheim to the opera house where his half-montaigne mother sang, and how his father was part of the order. Her goodbye after telling him Nov 07 15:48:17 that what he could see of the story was ended, and how he would never see his star girl in dreams again. Nov 07 15:49:07 * Morgan rides, decidedly saddened Nov 07 15:53:19 *the rain starts. They pass a few people on the way, and also the point where he recalls them cutting off the road in August to make love against the tree. It's not all pretty foliage and warm sun here now, the seasons moved on so much at the beginning of the second week of January. HH has given up chattering and singing, rain dripping from his hat Nov 07 15:53:20 rim* Nov 07 15:54:32 * Morgan keeps a look out Nov 07 15:56:55 *there's nothing of alarm around. No one seems eager to stop in the rain for a comfort break as they usually would. By the time it's lunch time and a stop has become absolutely essential, Morgan is absolutely soaked. They pull in beneath some trees in the hope of a little shelter. Varick is out of the coach like a shot* Nov 07 15:57:44 * Morgan calls him, chasing him Nov 07 15:58:08 V: *he shouts back* I have to pee, Papa! Nov 07 15:58:37 * Morgan nods, slowing down Nov 07 15:58:38 alright Nov 07 15:58:47 *this makes HH chuckle, having chased along behind* Nov 07 15:58:51 * MollyK is now known as HH Nov 07 15:59:00 Scared th' crap outta me! Nov 07 15:59:31 Me too man Nov 07 16:00:23 * HH pats his shoulder, going to follow Varick's idea. In the coach he hears Inga gently waking Molly Nov 07 16:00:48 I'm gonn' check on Molly Nov 07 16:00:56 * HH is now known as Molly Nov 07 16:01:16 * Molly is left alone when Inga gets out Nov 07 16:03:03 * Morgan climbs in Nov 07 16:03:28 How you doing blossom? Nov 07 16:03:44 * Molly yawns, stretching Nov 07 16:04:05 Better. I was having such a lovely dream Nov 07 16:04:11 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:04:17 I know love... I need you to do something Nov 07 16:05:20 * Molly raises her eyebrows, clearly teasing"Tempting as that is, my love, we would most definitely be caught. Much as the risk would be thrilling" Nov 07 16:05:35 * Morgan smiles slightly Nov 07 16:05:42 I need you to pour some magic into your shard... Nov 07 16:06:02 It's in the trunk... is it urgent? Nov 07 16:06:34 It'll help you feel better Nov 07 16:08:04 * Molly nods, smiling Nov 07 16:08:22 Alright, my love. You are soaked! Nov 07 16:09:34 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:09:37 Been raining a bit Nov 07 16:09:53 Maybe that's why I dreamt of a waterfall Nov 07 16:10:23 Could be, yes Nov 07 16:11:10 * Molly glances out of the window on each side Nov 07 16:12:29 * Molly kisses him quickly with a smile "we don't even have five minutes to 'push the bounds of decency' hmm?" Nov 07 16:13:18 * Morgan smiles Nov 07 16:13:20 I'm afraid not love Nov 07 16:13:41 On the desk, mon petit chou! How very, very shocking that was! Nov 07 16:14:18 In another future, I suppose so Nov 07 16:15:11 * Molly nods "Sort of. I've dreamt some of it before, but it's rather basic and domestic really" Nov 07 16:15:29 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:15:31 Nice isn't it Nov 07 16:15:53 * Molly nods, smiling "Yes... but did you see them?" Nov 07 16:16:14 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:16:16 I did Nov 07 16:16:29 Are you alright? Do you need comfort? Nov 07 16:16:47 I'm... I'll deal with it later, when we are warm and dry Nov 07 16:17:34 * Molly nods, kissing his forehead "when we get there we'll make some time before the others disappear to the brothel!" Nov 07 16:17:59 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:18:00 alright Nov 07 16:18:27 Now, speaking of comfort, if you have no more need of me...? Nov 07 16:18:39 No, you carry on my love Nov 07 16:20:01 * Molly gets out of the coach. The inside is full of blankets, books, drawing things, and Varick's toys to keep him entertained on the way. What Molly is reading seems to be a steamy Montaigne romance Nov 07 16:21:05 * Morgan gets back out, closing the door and going to find somewhere to relieve himself Nov 07 16:23:48 *once everyone is done with the necessary, Molly goes to the trunk, careful not to open it to the elements. She looks around to check no one is looking before the gap her hand is in become pink and pulsing. She sighs with relief, smiling "That is better. Good thinking, my love" Nov 07 16:24:45 HeinzHarold thought of it Nov 07 16:25:24 He's not just a pretty face... *she shuts the trunk* Nov 07 16:25:46 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:25:49 No, quite Nov 07 16:26:33 * Molly smiles fondly, taking his hand "let's eat, my love, I'm getting wet" Nov 07 16:26:44 * Morgan nods Nov 07 16:26:47 Alright blossom Nov 07 16:28:02 *they huddle around the carriage to do so. Once they're finished, Varick looks at Morgan* Papa, you can't come in with us because you're all soggy Nov 07 16:28:47 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Nov 07 18:23:45 * Molly has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Nov 07 22:33:36 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Nov 07 22:37:09 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Nov 07 22:38:13 [16:15:11] Molly: *they huddle around the carriage to do so. Once they're finished, Varick looks at Morgan* Papa, you can't come in with us because you're all soggy Nov 07 22:39:18 * Morgan nods Nov 07 22:39:25 Thats fine... I want to keep an eye out anyway Nov 07 22:40:02 * MollyK smiles "I'd join you but it's rainy and I'd probably be a distraction" Nov 07 22:41:06 * Morgan nods Nov 07 22:41:11 Stay safe and dry inside my love Nov 07 22:41:53 **the rain persists, easier to pull up collars and down hat brims than try to talk. They pull into the yard outside the Tavern in Pann, where she had been pleasuring him, after sunset. Across the large courtyard is the brothel where Claudia, Sorgi, James, and the mercenaries went.* Nov 07 22:42:49 HH: Go on in, man, I'll deal with the trunks and 'orses Nov 07 22:43:10 * Morgan nods, going inside to book room and board Nov 07 22:47:18 *they manage to get adjoining rooms for Varick to be next door. HH and Inga get the one he and Molly had before, where she'd accosted him as soon as the door was shut to pleasure him with her mouth, and then later after they'd been in the tavern where he'd told her she'd take it wherever he decided. The shiver that runs through her when she hears Nov 07 22:47:18 the room number impales her memory of it is strong too* Nov 07 22:52:10 *they all head up, the fires in all of the rooms unlit but a maid supposedly on the way for that and with food for Varick Nov 07 22:52:53 * Morgan sits on the bed Nov 07 22:53:17 Shall I just light ours? You must be half-frozen! Nov 07 22:53:31 * Morgan glances at it Nov 07 22:53:42 * MollyK smiles Nov 07 22:53:55 Alright, I won't then Nov 07 22:54:04 V: That's really good, Papa Nov 07 22:54:57 Its useful isn't it Nov 07 22:55:26 *Varick nods, going to sit by it* Nov 07 22:55:33 Ummm, liebling...? Nov 07 22:56:29 Yes? Nov 07 22:56:34 You're ummm... going to make the bed all wet. Nov 07 22:59:00 * Morgan stands back up, concentrating on heating the air above the bed where he had sat, trying to dry it Nov 07 22:59:35 *it starts to steam a little. There's a tap at the door* Nov 07 23:00:16 * Morgan stops, standing in front of the bed Nov 07 23:00:18 Come Nov 07 23:00:42 [no, just rain water...] Nov 07 23:01:06 * Morgan glances at her, almost covering the shocked expression Nov 07 23:01:32 *the servant has their trunk, putting it in the room, not paying attention* Nov 07 23:01:58 * MollyK smiles sweetly at him before talking to the servant and thanking him Nov 07 23:03:16 *with the servant gone, she takes out a pile of dry clothes, setting it on the dry part of the bed* I'll take Varick in his room so you can change, mon petit chou Nov 07 23:04:06 Its... its alright my love Nov 07 23:04:26 Your bottom half is wet too. Nov 07 23:04:49 I suppose so Nov 07 23:05:22 V: Mama means your dingaling will be uncovered, Papa. Nov 07 23:05:55 Yes, it will... alright Nov 07 23:07:21 *they go through, door pulled almost to. He hears Varick say* When the seed comes out of my dingaling, does it go in my wife's dingaling? Nov 07 23:08:01 * Morgan gets changed quickly, listening Nov 07 23:08:10 That's a conversation for when we aren't all wet and tired, my Mauschen. I wonder what's for dinner? Nov 07 23:09:35 *Beneath Morgan's shirt and brown waistcoat are his breeches* V: I hope it's chocolate cake! M: Oh yes, me too! It's not a food they normally have in Inns though. Nov 07 23:11:10 * Morgan keeps digging for 'proper' trousers Nov 07 23:12:05 *they appear to have been put beneath her lovely silky lingerie* Nov 07 23:13:04 * Morgan takes them out, putting her things back gently and pulling his clothes on Nov 07 23:13:58 * MollyK and Varick are discussing what ingredients are expensive Nov 07 23:14:24 Molly... could you do something for me? Nov 07 23:14:42 * MollyK comes back in, head round the door Nov 07 23:14:49 Yes, my love? Nov 07 23:15:27 * Morgan taps the scar that he got from Alarice Nov 07 23:15:31 Can you get rid of that? Nov 07 23:16:12 Yes, but I'd need a bit of time I'm afraid Nov 07 23:16:23 * Morgan nods Nov 07 23:16:31 You wouldn't have if I'd let you do it at the time Nov 07 23:16:42 No Nov 07 23:18:08 * Morgan nods slowly Nov 07 23:18:11 Alright... Nov 07 23:18:55 [fresh wounds are easier. Why do you wish to be rid of it? Or do we need to talk properly later?] Nov 07 23:19:55 [I'm holding onto it as a mark of taking Alarice's life. She doesn't deserve that, I don't want to memorialise it any longer] Nov 07 23:20:37 * MollyK nods Nov 07 23:20:51 Tonight, if you are not busy? Nov 07 23:21:00 * Morgan nods Nov 07 23:21:16 Assuming they don't want me to stand watch... its the least I can do, really Nov 07 23:21:29 Stand watch? Nov 07 23:22:17 Just to make sure there's no issue in the brothel Nov 07 23:22:44 * MollyK comes into the room shutting the door a little Nov 07 23:22:52 Would you wish to? Nov 07 23:24:15 Go to a brothel? Why would I? Nov 07 23:25:20 To keep an eye on them, make sure Inga is safe. The other three can fend for themselves Nov 07 23:26:09 * Morgan nods Nov 07 23:26:21 Just wanted to make sure you didn't think it another reason Nov 07 23:27:51 As I have told you, there's nothing a girl in any of those places would do for you that I wouldn't *she smiles playfully * and some of them would charge you an absolute fortune for what I would do for free... Nov 07 23:28:13 * Morgan moves to her Nov 07 23:28:39 I am barely aware of other women, let alone having any sort of interest Nov 07 23:30:19 quietly I know that, my love. I'm not concerned, in fact my only objections are that I do not have you to myself all evening, and that it would be very difficult to find us a way to go down to the tap room and remember fondly our encounter there Nov 07 23:30:48 * Morgan nods Nov 07 23:30:57 How are you feeling about what the monks said to you? Nov 07 23:31:10 * MollyK stops smiling Nov 07 23:31:42 It's certainly unpleasant to hear Nov 07 23:32:16 You know it is not true... right? Nov 07 23:32:40 No... Nov 07 23:32:55 No? Nov 07 23:33:08 * MollyK shakes her head Nov 07 23:33:17 Why? Nov 07 23:33:18 I went out of the shield Nov 07 23:33:43 That... that is the only thing you aren't sure about? Nov 07 23:33:54 No Nov 07 23:34:05 Then I think we need to go through it Nov 07 23:34:10 Now? Nov 07 23:34:25 Lets get it out of the way. I don't want you thinking it any longer Nov 07 23:34:49 I was not, until they said it, and I haven't really been thinking about it Nov 07 23:35:49 My... dying, I suppose... that was a result of mistakes we both made, a result of not acting as one. That is not your fault Nov 07 23:36:42 It was me that did something reckless. I accept I made a bad decision and there were consequences Nov 07 23:37:08 As I said... we were not acting in unison. Thats just something that happens my love Nov 07 23:37:58 I am not feeling particularly guilty, my love. It served a purpose in reminding me to be more cautious Nov 07 23:38:10 * Morgan nods slowly Nov 07 23:38:16 I will accept that. What else? Nov 07 23:38:46 My fate and path-wandering harms others Nov 07 23:39:05 I don't buy that Nov 07 23:39:10 * MollyK shrugs Nov 07 23:39:43 They have kept Seb in reserve when he is a good, honest man who would make some woman an amazing husband Nov 07 23:40:47 That is on them... if things had been different for _me_ you would be with him... Nov 07 23:41:20 Which could have been because of me Nov 07 23:42:30 No. Absolutely not... you have already been told that what happened was not so that you and I would be together... our children would have triggered the convergence. Nov 07 23:42:44 * MollyK shrugs Nov 07 23:42:56 I do not have as much faith in them as you, my love Nov 07 23:44:36 I know. I believe that to be the problem. If this, us, was their only acceptable outcome, Dietlinde would've kissed HeinzHarold again and they would've married. They would not have allowed me to marry her. There would not be paths where you are with Sebastien Nov 07 23:45:20 Unless they cannot control any of it because of me Nov 07 23:46:08 They cannot control yours...they clearly can control mine. So, my point stands Nov 07 23:47:26 I am not feeling very guilty about it. If these things happen -because- of me, they still do not happen -by- me. I am as much at the mercy of my own wandering as anyone else Nov 07 23:48:16 * Morgan scowls Nov 07 23:48:27 Then you will accept I am a monster Nov 07 23:48:56 Not even if I was given death as the alternative to accepting it. Nov 07 23:49:20 These things happen because of me... and by me. Nov 07 23:49:30 What things? Nov 07 23:50:24 All the suffering, the death... the cruelty. Nov 07 23:53:28 * MollyK shakes her head Nov 07 23:53:32 No, my love Nov 07 23:53:45 * Morgan nods Nov 07 23:54:25 * MollyK opens her arms to him Nov 07 23:54:34 You are still struggling? Nov 07 23:55:15 * Morgan doesn't move Nov 07 23:55:38 I'm sorry, but this is a stand I am making... Nov 07 23:56:21 * MollyK drops her arms to her side, looking serious "I see" Nov 07 23:57:19 If these things happen because of you and your wandering, then you must accept I am the monster they proclaimed me to be Nov 07 23:58:25 But you are not. And I did say -if- they happen because of me. I am not certain of it. Nov 07 23:59:32 * Morgan watches her for a moment before nodding slightly Nov 07 23:59:51 Alright. I'll accept that... now... if that comfort is still available...