**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sat Oct 15 00:00:24 2022 Oct 15 00:00:24 The ones on my arms would upset my father and my brother... the ones on my back would scare the shit out of Varick and pretty much anyone who doesn't have an iron stomach Oct 15 00:02:34 * HH thinks Oct 15 00:02:47 Actually not sure I've seen them Oct 15 00:03:33 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:03:47 I've been extremely careful to hide them Oct 15 00:03:59 Only Dietlinde then Molly? Oct 15 00:04:16 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:04:27 Only Molly for the ones on my arms, though Oct 15 00:04:41 Well obviously, man. Oct 15 00:05:36 Maybe I burned myself on a hot pudding... Oct 15 00:05:52 Sometimes I think you are a bit of a pudding. Oct 15 00:06:37 * Morgan smiles slightly, sipping his coffee Oct 15 00:07:10 You tellin' me because yer ready to show me? Oct 15 00:08:10 I promised you I wouldn't hide things from you, and I meant it. Molly was telling me she thinks I would keep them because it reminds me of my failure. Oct 15 00:08:25 Sounds like you Oct 15 00:08:30 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:09:19 I think I've moved past that. I tried, man, so hard, and I just could _not_ get in there. Oct 15 00:09:31 * HH nods Oct 15 00:09:35 I know Oct 15 00:10:01 They're proof that I tried. Not that I failed, but that I tried. Oct 15 00:10:12 * HH looks at him Oct 15 00:10:29 No one who knows you would ever think you didnt Oct 15 00:11:07 Its proof for me. *he exhales slowly, rubbing the side of his head* its about all I've got left of them. Oct 15 00:11:49 * HH gets up, opening his arms "C'mere" Oct 15 00:12:13 * Morgan nods, moving immediately into the hug Oct 15 00:12:29 * HH holds him tight Oct 15 00:14:24 You've always got them, man. They're always gonna live in your heart. *he recalls telling the thirteen year old Heinzharold this about his Da* Oct 15 00:15:24 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:16:25 If it helps, I couldn't get in there either Oct 15 00:16:58 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:17:02 I know Oct 15 00:17:19 * HH lets go Oct 15 00:17:33 Molly suggested taking yer scars away? Oct 15 00:17:45 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:18:16 Unusual for 'er, she's normally really careful not to upset ya like that Oct 15 00:20:12 Ah she didn't. Just feeling a bit... emotional today. I'm torn with the idea. Oct 15 00:20:47 Don't rush it, man. Oct 15 00:21:12 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:21:23 I might ask her to see if she can at least reduce the ones on my back Oct 15 00:21:31 * HH nods Oct 15 00:21:45 Good idea. What's got y' emotional? Oct 15 00:21:52 * Morgan shrugs Oct 15 00:22:00 Dunno... just feeling a bit raw Oct 15 00:22:34 Mebbie b'cause we're leaving? Oct 15 00:22:57 No, its more than that... or something other than that. I don't know, and that frustrates me Oct 15 00:23:18 Want me to help figure it out? Oct 15 00:24:13 * Morgan shakes his head Oct 15 00:24:45 I'll get over it at some point. I don't even have a _clue_, which is unusual, so... I'm going to try to ride it out and get over sit Oct 15 00:25:00 * HH nods Oct 15 00:25:22 You not fallen out though? Oct 15 00:26:11 * Morgan shakes his head Oct 15 00:26:16 No no, not at all Oct 15 00:27:28 Good. Just going through a lot with getting closer to Molly and further from Dietlinde? Oct 15 00:27:54 I think so, yes Oct 15 00:28:07 * HH nods Oct 15 00:28:42 You got me an' Inga, if you need us Oct 15 00:28:54 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:29:19 I think, though, that Inga would feel the need to defend Molly's position, even though it doesn't need defending... Oct 15 00:29:28 * HH nods Oct 15 00:30:50 Yeah, she's protective of Molly. We don't have many things we don't tell each other, but she protects Molly's conversations that way Oct 15 00:30:59 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:31:19 Molly adores her Oct 15 00:31:25 * HH nods Oct 15 00:32:53 Inga's the same. They like havin' each other to talk shit over with. Coming to realise that my lil darlin doesn't always want me to help, just to listen and feel it all too Oct 15 00:33:25 Difficult isn't it Oct 15 00:34:43 Yep. I remember my Da asking my Ma "Am I helping, or listening?". Didn't understand that til this year Oct 15 00:35:30 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:36:33 Now I use it quite a bit Oct 15 00:37:16 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:37:19 I might try that Oct 15 00:37:43 * HH nods Oct 15 00:38:43 I always know when she's brooding about you an Molly b'cause she says "it's complicated " Oct 15 00:39:06 Its always bloody complicated Oct 15 00:39:16 * HH laughs Oct 15 00:39:31 Yer both pretty complicated people, man Oct 15 00:39:50 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:40:19 Not like me an Inga, we're pretty simple Oct 15 00:40:57 Simple like a sword... Oct 15 00:41:11 Uh okay...? Oct 15 00:41:18 * Morgan smiles slightly Oct 15 00:41:57 Something I read somewhere about someone being a simple man... not simple as in stupid, but simple like a sword, straightforward with their own purpose. Oct 15 00:42:10 * HH nods Oct 15 00:43:06 Sounds like us. Love each other, have great sex, be decent friends to you an Molly, the end Oct 15 00:44:19 * Morgan nods Oct 15 00:45:55 I'm going to ask Molly to reduce the severity of the ones on my back. They are a testament to the point where I rebelled, where I could no longer take the stupidity and malice of those that thought themselves superior... but they are restricting my life now. Oct 15 00:46:11 * HH nods Oct 15 00:46:34 You know who you are, you don't need them Oct 15 00:46:52 * Morgan looks at him seriously Oct 15 00:46:55 Wanna see? Oct 15 00:47:29 Yeah man, I'm always eager for naked male flesh at nine thirty in the mornin' *he grins* Oct 15 00:48:10 * Morgan shrugs Oct 15 00:48:12 Forget it Oct 15 00:48:26 * HH punches his arm Oct 15 00:48:48 C'mon, you know I'm kidding. Let's have a look Oct 15 00:49:23 * Morgan nods, moving to plant a foot in front of the door before taking a deep breath and pulling his shirt off Oct 15 00:49:47 * HH winces Oct 15 00:50:09 Fuck, man, that's gotta have hurt Oct 15 00:50:40 * Morgan nods, running his fingers over the burns tracing up his arm and onto his back and chest Oct 15 00:51:01 I don't remember the pain from these... the ones from the captains daughter, though... I remember that just fine. Oct 15 00:51:12 *his instinct is sound, because someone tries to open the door* Oct 15 00:51:35 * Morgan pulls his shirt on, moving away from the door Oct 15 00:52:18 *Claudia opens the door, eyeing them suspiciously as an older sister would* what are you two doing in here? Oct 15 00:52:31 * Morgan smiles slightly Oct 15 00:52:50 I was making progress and showing him my scars. Oct 15 00:53:14 * HH grins "I was eager for naked male flesh." Oct 15 00:54:33 *She looks between them, blinking* what the fuck? *she raises a hand as HH goes to talk* I already know from the look on your face I want you to just shut the fuck up already. Oct 15 00:55:26 * HH gives Morgan a wounded look "She's mean" Oct 15 00:56:19 C: Didn't Molly use your scars for practice like with ours? Oct 15 00:57:00 These are more... established. Oct 15 00:57:20 C: Doubt it! Oct 15 00:57:30 The ones I've picked up in the last couple of years, they're more or less gone, like yours... but these... Oct 15 00:58:09 *she touches the side of her breast* the one I had here I got when I was five Oct 15 00:58:52 Gonn' have to see them to understand, aren't you? Oct 15 00:59:20 *she shrugs* dunno. Oct 15 00:59:37 * HH is watching her Oct 15 01:00:02 He's not grotesque or anything Oct 15 01:01:21 C: *she shrugs* go on then Oct 15 01:01:39 * Morgan looks at her Oct 15 01:01:56 I have burns... they're not going to send you in a guilt spiral are they? Oct 15 01:02:17 *she shakes her head* Oct 15 01:02:28 * Morgan nods, taking a mouthful of coffee Oct 15 01:02:52 Lean against the door, or lock it... I don't wan't my father or, worse, my mother seeing them Oct 15 01:03:19 Or yer wife to see you flaunting yer body Oct 15 01:03:38 *claudia leans against it* Oct 15 01:03:42 She'd probably be proud I'd gotten over myself Oct 15 01:03:51 * Morgan pulls his shirt off, turning away from them Oct 15 01:04:17 * HH nods "Inga's just proud she manages to tie down this sexy beats... Oct 15 01:04:27 Beast* Oct 15 01:05:25 C: nasty wounds. Lucky they didn't get infected Oct 15 01:05:47 * Morgan nods, pulling his shirt back on Oct 15 01:06:14 Kaufmann made sure to have them thoroughly and vigorously cleaned, regularly Oct 15 01:06:45 *she moves from the door* C: Asshole. Oct 15 01:07:12 Took months to be able to sleep on my back again Oct 15 01:07:34 C: Can't she do them? Oct 15 01:07:59 I've been being me about them. Oct 15 01:08:32 *She nods* Oct 15 01:09:38 C: changed your mind now Oct 15 01:09:40 ? Oct 15 01:10:32 Not entirely. The burns... I'm not ready for them to go, but the ones on my back. I think I want them reduced a good deal so that Varick would not be upset by them Oct 15 01:10:57 C: why keep the back ones at all? Oct 15 01:12:14 You'll think it stupid but... as I explained to HeinzHarold, they're a statement, that I wouldn't accept the stupidity and cruelty of those who think themselves better than others. They mark the time I made that choice and took action. Oct 15 01:12:49 Who do you show it to? Oct 15 01:13:15 Last year I put it on display in court, scaring all the peacocks... Oct 15 01:13:41 *she rolls her eyes* Oct 15 01:14:58 C: Just wondering why you need it as a reminder when you already know you're a good man Oct 15 01:15:52 Its... letting go of something that has become a part of me. It will take a little time I think, which is convenient since Molly reckons it'll take some serious work Oct 15 01:16:24 *they're both nodding when the door opens again* Oct 15 01:18:27 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Oct 15 01:21:27 * HH has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Oct 15 10:21:18 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Oct 15 13:09:01 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Oct 15 16:36:46 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Oct 15 17:53:06 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Oct 15 20:00:35 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Oct 15 23:20:51 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)