**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Sun Sep 11 17:29:05 2022 Sep 11 17:29:05 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Sep 11 18:00:36 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Sep 11 18:03:18 **At Joseff's room, he can hear the man talking** Well where is my scribe? Sep 11 18:05:01 * Morgan waits, listening Sep 11 18:05:44 *Danvers assures him that she can write for him, and he starts arguing about how he wants it written nicely and to send for someone* Sep 11 18:06:02 * Morgan sighs, knocking quietly Sep 11 18:08:07 * MollyK is now known as Joseff Sep 11 18:08:11 Come in Sep 11 18:09:00 * Morgan enters the room quietly Sep 11 18:09:14 * Joseff points him to a desk. He is striding around the room in just his shirt and breeches. "Good man. Take down a letter for me" Sep 11 18:09:29 * Morgan looks at Danvers Sep 11 18:10:40 I can assist his lordship if you would like to take a few minutes Sep 11 18:11:59 *she curtsies and goes* Sep 11 18:12:33 * Morgan sits at the desk, getting the things to take down a letter Sep 11 18:13:37 Dearest Maria. Three times I have written now, and yet you have not returned. It will soon be new years eve, and you are always here to be in the lake. Why are you not back? I miss you, and Mina misses you. As your husband, it is my instruction that you return immediately. My love, Joseff. Sep 11 18:14:44 * Morgan writes it out Sep 11 18:16:23 * Joseff looks it over Sep 11 18:16:32 Excellent handwriting. Are you new? Sep 11 18:16:47 Arrived a few days ago my lord, just before Prophets Mass Sep 11 18:18:06 * Joseff nods Sep 11 18:18:44 Get that sent out, will you? I am not sure what is keeping my wife, but I wish she would hurry up Sep 11 18:26:30 It is difficult being without them, my lord Sep 11 18:26:51 * Joseff nods Sep 11 18:27:09 Indeed it is. Sep 11 18:27:43 Would you care or some tea, my lord? I shall ring to have some sent Sep 11 18:29:05 I would, thank you Sep 11 18:29:18 * Morgan nods, moving to ring the bell Sep 11 18:30:31 I was in the town earlier today, my lord, and was asking the people I met about the town... I have never known anywhere with so much love and respect for their Freiarr Sep 11 18:30:46 * Joseff smiles Sep 11 18:31:01 The people of Graben are good, honest people Sep 11 18:31:55 So I have discovered. Sep 11 18:33:14 Do you have a wife, children? Sep 11 18:33:56 I do my lord, a wife and son of seven Sep 11 18:34:58 * Joseff nods Sep 11 18:35:10 Make sure yours doesn't wander off! Sep 11 18:35:42 Ah, my wife's got fiery red hair, she's easy to spot Sep 11 18:36:42 * Joseff nods Sep 11 18:36:55 Does she work here too? Sep 11 18:38:25 Ah, no my lord, though she is a wonderful medic Sep 11 18:39:13 * Joseff nods Sep 11 18:40:23 Very good. *there's a knock on the door, to which Joseff calls come in, and Edward does* J: Coffee, please. Take this letter and find it a messenger. That is all. Sep 11 18:40:48 *Edward looks confused. He's probably never been treated like a servant before* Sep 11 18:41:04 * Morgan speaks conspiratorially to Joseff Sep 11 18:41:24 More new help my lord... I'll go set him on the right path Sep 11 18:42:13 * Joseff nods, speaking quietly "Good luck, he looks a little gormless." Sep 11 18:49:04 * Morgan nods, ushering Edward back out of the room Sep 11 18:49:15 * Joseff is now known as Edward Sep 11 18:50:00 He's not well again? Sep 11 18:50:11 * Morgan nods Sep 11 18:50:21 Go find Danvers and some coffee... then we need to talk Sep 11 18:50:48 * Edward does, leaving Morgan alone Sep 11 18:51:07 * Morgan heads back into the room after tucking the letter in his pocket Sep 11 18:51:17 Simple lad, but he'll learn Sep 11 18:52:32 * Edward is now known as Joseff Sep 11 18:54:13 Indeed. Have I had any dispatches from the defensive line at Goren. Damn Vats were spanking us hard last week Sep 11 18:54:41 No my lord, though I did pick up some whispers... Sep 11 18:56:10 Go on, man Sep 11 18:56:23 Talks of a ceasefire Sep 11 18:58:15 * Joseff waves a hand Sep 11 18:58:23 It will never last Sep 11 18:59:16 Not so sure my lord... Churches on both sides are involved, talking up the benefits of a truce Sep 11 19:00:19 It's not the churches now, it's the men. They've been set against their brothers, and noone hates like brothers at odds Sep 11 19:00:55 Very true my lord, but even brothers at odds can find common ground, a reason to stop hating Sep 11 19:03:17 I will believe it when I see it Sep 11 19:03:35 Then perhaps we can hope for the best while not relying upon it Sep 11 19:04:56 * Joseff nods. Edward brings the coffee and Danvers. He does a reasonable job of being deferential Sep 11 19:06:18 My lord, if you will excuse me, I'll go show the new boy the ropes Sep 11 19:06:36 * Joseff dismisses him Sep 11 19:06:57 * Morgan shuffles Edward out, speaking very quietly as he passes Danvers Sep 11 19:07:17 I've done my best to keep him calm. Please call me if he returns to us Sep 11 19:07:36 *Danvers agrees, going in* Sep 11 19:08:05 * Morgan closes the door as they exit Sep 11 19:08:27 We're going to need coffee and probably whiskey Sep 11 19:09:18 *they get it before getting set up in Edward's office Sep 11 19:09:54 * Morgan downs his whiskey, placing the glass back on the desk Sep 11 19:10:36 * Joseff is now known as Edward Sep 11 19:10:41 * Edward refills it Sep 11 19:10:51 What's on your mind, brother? Sep 11 19:11:08 Has Molly told you how Joseff's illness will progress? Sep 11 19:14:09 * Edward nods Sep 11 19:14:13 She has Sep 11 19:15:45 In how great a detail? Sep 11 19:16:32 Not very Sep 11 19:19:20 In the next two weeks, he is likely to lose his ability to walk... then his ability to do fine tasks with his fingers and hands. After that, he will lose control of his bladder and bowels... then his brain will start to lose control of his organs, like his lungs and eventually his heart. It is a slow, awful way to die Sep 11 19:20:52 * Edward nods grimly Sep 11 19:21:02 It is Sep 11 19:22:18 I was talking to him after the service... he desperately does not want that. Does not want to be a gibbering wreck in the corner of the room, unable to control his own bowels Sep 11 19:22:35 * Edward nods, drinking some whiskey Sep 11 19:23:20 I can understand that. However, there is nothing that can be done but to nurse him as best as possible Sep 11 19:23:31 Thats not quite accurate Sep 11 19:24:44 What do you mean? Sep 11 19:25:14 There are herbs that can gently aid his passing Sep 11 19:28:15 * Edward drinks again Sep 11 19:28:33 They would not kill him? Sep 11 19:29:07 They would. Gently. Sep 11 19:29:40 * Edward frowns Sep 11 19:30:10 I don't know I agree with that Sep 11 19:30:55 You would wish him to endure through all of it? You would wish Mina to watch the agonising demise of the man who raised her, destroying the image she has of him forever? Sep 11 19:33:02 Do not be cruel, Morgan, it is beneath you. It is not for us to choose the manner of his death. This is not War, it is up to Our Lord. Sep 11 19:34:10 I am not being cruel. I spent this morning talking to him, hearing his longing to be with Maria, his terror at what the future holds for him. Sep 11 19:35:12 * Edward sighs Sep 11 19:35:58 And I appreciate all of that, but the principle remains. Causing the death of another outside of War is an affront to God. Sep 11 19:37:16 * Morgan watches him for a moment Sep 11 19:37:22 Yes, you must show mercy to others. If you do not show mercy, then God will not show mercy to you when he judges you. But the one who shows mercy can stand without fear before the Judge. My brothers and sisters, if a person claims to have faith but does nothing, that faith is worth nothing. Sep 11 19:38:39 I do not think a showing mercy means intervening and causing death. And I have done enough of that. Sep 11 19:39:25 * Morgan grinds his teeth Sep 11 19:39:33 As you wish Sep 11 19:40:47 * Edward nods Sep 11 19:41:25 Something to reduce any pain is acceptable. But I would not want him poisoned. Sep 11 19:41:38 * Morgan stands up, moving to the door Sep 11 19:41:54 You would put an ailing horse out of its misery... cattle... yes? Sep 11 19:44:25 Yes, but that is not the same as a human with a soul Sep 11 19:45:38 So it is only when they can appreciate the full horror of what they are to endure that you will not act. I pray that you never have to face that. Sep 11 19:47:24 It is not up to me, Morgan. I would not want to put anyone's soul at risk Sep 11 19:47:55 * Morgan flings the door open Sep 11 19:48:05 I am done discussing this with you Sep 11 19:48:27 * Edward nods Sep 11 19:49:11 Pray on it, Morgan, perhaps Theus will show you his Will Sep 11 19:49:43 Don't condescend to me while hiding behind religion to cover your cowardice Sep 11 19:49:57 * Morgan heads out of the room, thumping the door frame as he passes Sep 11 19:51:56 *he can hear laughter from the drawing room as he passes it. It sounds like Verity, Jarvie, Molly, Mina, and Inga* Sep 11 19:52:41 * Morgan storms past it, heading for the courtyard Sep 11 19:53:26 *he doesn't get interrupted out here* Sep 11 19:54:16 * Morgan drives his fist into the wall several times Sep 11 19:55:42 *this leaves him bleeding, and is rather painful* Sep 11 19:56:36 * Morgan slumps to the ground, placing his knuckles in the snow Sep 11 19:57:28 *he still isn't interrupted* Sep 11 19:57:40 * Morgan just sits there Sep 11 19:59:26 *the time passes, almost three when he hears Molly* [have you gone back to town, my love?] Sep 11 19:59:49 [No] Sep 11 20:00:20 [is all well?] Sep 11 20:00:26 [He's a coward] Sep 11 20:00:37 [Joseff?] Sep 11 20:00:50 [Edward. Joseff was in no state to talk about it] Sep 11 20:01:04 [where are you?] Sep 11 20:01:16 [in the courtyard] Sep 11 20:01:50 *he hears no more, because she is soon there at his side, cloak but no gloves, as is usual* Sep 11 20:01:55 * Edward is now known as Molly Sep 11 20:02:08 * Molly looks down at him Sep 11 20:02:17 You are going to freeze. Come inside. Sep 11 20:02:23 No Sep 11 20:02:39 * Molly looks at him Sep 11 20:02:46 Liebes herz... Sep 11 20:03:50 * Morgan sighs Sep 11 20:03:51 Fine Sep 11 20:04:51 * Molly offers him a hand up Sep 11 20:05:06 * Morgan shakes his head, getting up Sep 11 20:05:45 You do not want my help? Sep 11 20:06:09 I'm quite capable of getting up off the ground Sep 11 20:06:33 * Molly nods, spotting the blood in the snow. She frowns a little Sep 11 20:06:39 You hit him? Sep 11 20:06:53 Much as he deserves it, no Sep 11 20:07:05 Where is all this blood from? Sep 11 20:07:20 * Morgan shrugs noncommittally Sep 11 20:07:47 * Molly watches him Sep 11 20:08:00 You do not have to shut me out. Sep 11 20:08:45 I do not wish to see your disapproval... or your disappointment when I refuse your healing Sep 11 20:09:31 * Molly looks serious Sep 11 20:10:06 Then you will see it at shutting me out, at taking a step back when we have made so much progress the last few days. Sep 11 20:10:53 Sometimes you just have to let me hurt Sep 11 20:11:48 No. I do not. I am your _wife_. Sep 11 20:12:09 So no-one will listen to me. Very well. Sep 11 20:12:55 Liebes herz, you are being unkind. Sep 11 20:14:40 No, I am speaking the truth. Sep 11 20:15:00 * Molly watches him Sep 11 20:15:14 If I am not wanted right now, I will go. Sep 11 20:15:41 * Morgan grinds his teeth Sep 11 20:15:56 What do you want? You want me inside? I'll go inside. Sep 11 20:16:31 I want you to let me comfort you, not be on the receiving end of your displeasure at Edward. Sep 11 20:17:08 You wanted to heal me. I do not want to be healed. Sep 11 20:17:51 Why? Sep 11 20:18:28 Because what's the fucking point of it otherwise? And it doesn't matter, it is my choice. Sep 11 20:19:42 I see. Sep 11 20:21:09 * Morgan makes a sound of pure frustration, kicking at the wall Sep 11 20:21:38 * Molly watches him Sep 11 20:22:03 You have told me what you do not want. Now tell me what you do want, and I will do what I can. Sep 11 20:22:52 * Morgan shrugs, looking down at his hand Sep 11 20:23:30 You will have it bandaged? Sep 11 20:23:41 no Sep 11 20:23:58 * Molly inhales deeply Sep 11 20:24:03 Right. Sep 11 20:27:27 * Molly tilts her chin up "It is cold. I am going indoors. I understand that you are distressed and angry, but right now you are being stupid, and you are a much better man than that. When you are ready, I will be available to help you." Sep 11 20:27:56 * Molly turns to walk back to the house Sep 11 20:28:15 * Morgan mutters Sep 11 20:28:23 No, stupid would be beating him like he fucking deserves Sep 11 20:28:50 * Molly doesn't catch it, carrying on Sep 11 20:29:28 * Morgan walks off, tracing a route around the outskirts of the grounds Sep 11 20:29:48 *It starts to get dark* Sep 11 20:30:03 * Morgan finishes the route before heading inside Sep 11 20:31:03 * Molly is sat in the dinning room giving Varick his tea. The others are mostly congregated in the drawing room, but Edward is not with them Sep 11 20:31:40 * Morgan sits down in the dining room, keeping his hand below the table Sep 11 20:32:31 * Molly glances at him, but keeps up a steady stream of positive chat with their son Sep 11 20:34:16 * Morgan just leans on his good hand, watching them Sep 11 20:34:35 * Molly is now known as Varick Sep 11 20:34:50 Where have you been, Papa? Sep 11 20:35:35 Went for a walk into town earlier to do some snooping, then had a walk around the estate to check ti over Sep 11 20:38:35 But I wanted you to play soldiers Sep 11 20:39:25 * Morgan nods Sep 11 20:39:27 I'm sorry Sep 11 20:40:07 * Varick sighs Sep 11 20:40:20 You have lots to do here, I know Sep 11 20:41:00 * Morgan nods Sep 11 20:41:08 I'll make sure to play tomorrow Sep 11 20:46:05 * Varick nods Sep 11 20:46:46 Okay Papa. It's okay, Wonks and DeeDee played, and Claudia was on my side, and we won Sep 11 20:47:18 Doesn't surprise me, you're both very good Sep 11 20:47:42 * Varick nods Sep 11 20:48:05 Will you put me to bed when it's time? Sep 11 20:48:29 If you want me to, of course Sep 11 20:50:28 * Varick nods. But when the time comes, it coincides with Danvers telling him Joseff is lucid Sep 11 20:50:55 [Would you speak to Joseff? I will not let my son down] Sep 11 20:57:15 [yes] Sep 11 20:57:39 * Morgan takes Varick up to bed Sep 11 20:58:16 * Varick wants help getting into his nightclothes Sep 11 20:58:41 * Morgan helps him Sep 11 21:00:15 When are we going on the ship? Sep 11 21:01:05 We leave here in just under a week Sep 11 21:07:01 * Varick nods Sep 11 21:07:12 Okay, will you read now? Sep 11 21:07:22 * Morgan nods Sep 11 21:07:25 If you want Sep 11 21:08:19 *theyre about half way through when Varick says* I don't miss my Daddy as much Sep 11 21:08:32 No? Sep 11 21:08:59 Does that mean I am not going to heaven? Sep 11 21:09:49 No, of course not... it means you're learning to be without him, that you've got so very much love all around you that you don't feel it as keenly. Its very normal/. Sep 11 21:11:39 Sometimes I don't think of him in the day *he looks sad* Sep 11 21:12:12 * Morgan nods, taking his hand Sep 11 21:12:23 And then you feel bad about it... I know, I get the same thing Sep 11 21:12:38 You do? Sep 11 21:12:46 * Morgan nods Sep 11 21:12:58 I think it means that we're learning to cope better Sep 11 21:13:50 Oh... okay. Sep 11 21:15:05 Papa, is Auntie Mina's Daddy going to die soon? Sep 11 21:17:06 * Morgan sighs, nodding slightly Sep 11 21:17:10 Fairly soon, yes Sep 11 21:18:14 Will she be an orphan like me then? Sep 11 21:18:48 I suppose so, yes Sep 11 21:20:08 How do we find her some new parents like I got? Sep 11 21:20:35 Well, in a way she has some... now my mother and father are hers too, sort of Sep 11 21:20:59 * Varick looks relieved Sep 11 21:21:04 Okay Papa Sep 11 21:21:46 * Morgan smiles, brushing the boys hair with his fingers Sep 11 21:22:26 * Varick yawns Sep 11 21:22:42 Why hasn't the man who can be a wolf come yet? Sep 11 21:24:57 *his neck prickles* Sep 11 21:26:10 [is that you?] Sep 11 21:26:22 [yes] Sep 11 21:26:26 I'm not sure. Maybe he's spending time with his wife Sep 11 21:27:02 He has a wife?! Sep 11 21:27:36 Well, sort of... I think she's his wolf wife, his mate. Sep 11 21:28:09 That would be better. If she was a human wife she would make him sleep on the floor and think he smelled bad Sep 11 21:29:02 Well, she might be able to change like he can Sep 11 21:29:43 But what if one was always a human and one was always a wolf. How could they have babies? Sep 11 21:30:14 well... they wouldn't because if they couldn't change, they couldn't have children together Sep 11 21:31:17 Oh okay Papa Sep 11 21:32:46 * Varick lies down, closing his eyes Sep 11 21:33:07 G'night Varick Sep 11 21:33:56 * Varick is rapidly fast asleep. There's a maid in the hall to replace Danvers Sep 11 21:34:55 * Morgan thanks her as he heads downstairs to get coffee Sep 11 21:38:10 *he doesn't see anyone until the dinner bell rings, at which point Joseff, far more wobbly and leaning on Molly a little as she escorts him, comes to dinner. There's an atmosphere tonight that is unusual, and Verity seems to be picking up on it, drawing Molly, Morgan and Edward into conversation with each other. The others continue on as normal. Sep 11 21:38:11 Edward looks serious, and Molly is politely charming with them all, though her attention doesn't seem to be on Morgan much. Sep 11 21:38:29 HH: $whats going on?$ Sep 11 21:39:16 $I'm stupid apparently$ Sep 11 21:42:57 * Varick is now known as HH Sep 11 21:43:14 $I knew that. What did ya do?$ Sep 11 21:43:45 $dared to. Nevermind, doesn't matter$ Sep 11 21:44:54 *Verity catches sight of his hand. She looks at it then looks at Morgan a long moment, saying nothing* Sep 11 21:45:43 * Morgan sighs Sep 11 21:46:15 $who did you hit?$ Sep 11 21:48:01 $noone$ Sep 11 21:49:11 *HH waits until the party have scattered to the drawing room or port before pulling Morgan out into the hall* What the fuck, man? Atmosphere was so thick in there I barely 'ad space for food! Sep 11 21:50:39 * Morgan sighs Sep 11 21:50:49 I'm really not in the mood for another person to tell me I'm in the wrong Sep 11 21:51:13 Who? Sep 11 21:51:58 In this instance, you. Edward pissed me off, I went outside, hit the wall, Molly came out and got all pissy because I wouldn't just capitulate to what she wanted. Sep 11 21:52:24 * HH looks a bit unimpressed Sep 11 21:52:29 What did she want? Sep 11 21:53:06 To heal my hand. Sep 11 21:54:22 Yep, fucking cruel and unusual punishment. You two need to sort it out. I have a calendar, I don' wanna be spending all day tomorrow tryin' to stop your loved ones tryin' to hump your wife Sep 11 21:54:57 Aye, god fucking forbid what I want ever comes into it Sep 11 21:55:05 * Morgan turns to walk away Sep 11 21:55:21 * HH grabs hold of his coat Sep 11 21:55:54 You want to lamp something, we'll take this outside an' get it out of yer system Sep 11 21:56:43 Way to miss the point. Sep 11 21:57:56 Then what do you want, man? B'cause clearly yer spoilin' for a fight with someone Sep 11 21:59:39 I'm _not_. How many times do I have to have my wishes belittled and ignored? And why the _fuck_ should it be _me_ that backs down, yet again? _No_. I'm _not_ in the wrong here and I will _not_ be made to feel so. Sep 11 22:00:03 In the wrong about _what_?! Sep 11 22:01:38 Joseff is going to die a long, painful humiliating death, and Edward is content to sit and watch that happen. He's a fucking coward and a hypocrite. Molly will not accept that sometimes she just has to let me hurt. Sep 11 22:02:02 * HH nods slowly Sep 11 22:02:34 Yeah, this ain't an "in the house" conversation, come on. *he heads to grab his cloak* Sep 11 22:02:59 * Morgan takes the opportunity to head outside into the courtyard Sep 11 22:03:51 ((With the gazebo, or where the coachyard is? Waits or goes on ahead?)) Sep 11 22:05:36 ((Gazebo. Goes ahead)) Sep 11 22:06:28 **He smells DeeDees particular tobacco at the gazebo but it is Claudia's voice he hears** Yes, I am very protective of them. Heinzharold and Morgan are like brothers to me. And I care for Sorgi. Sep 11 22:06:28 D: That is underrated. There's sex, and there's love, and then there is care. They aren't always all together. Sep 11 22:07:03 * Morgan rolls his eyes Sep 11 22:07:20 C: And which of those explains what you're wanting from me? Sep 11 22:07:20 D, he sounds taken aback: Madame, I hope I have not given you any sense that I am pursuing you. I am attracted to you, but that is my business rather than yours. I have no intention of asking anything of you at all. Sep 11 22:08:32 *she huffs* Horseshit. You are a man, all men want something. *HH appears at Morgan's side* Sep 11 22:08:32 D: I apologise then, on behalf of my sex, that we had given you such offence as to be so distrusted. Sep 11 22:09:00 * Morgan turns, pushing HeinzHarold back towards the door Sep 11 22:09:49 * HH gets pushed, waiting til they're out of earshot before saying "she finally gon' kiss him then?" Sep 11 22:10:08 Thats her fucking problem Sep 11 22:12:44 * HH sits on a low wall Sep 11 22:12:57 What were y' planning? Sep 11 22:13:14 With what? Sep 11 22:13:20 Joseff Sep 11 22:14:32 Herbs that would send him off to sleep and then let him go peacefully. Edward won't hear of it. So he's going to watch that man become a husk of who he was, make his wife watch her father become that, leaving her with that memory Sep 11 22:15:04 Perhaps it takes a mind that is ready to die to understand Sep 11 22:15:18 What's 'is reasons? Sep 11 22:16:15 Its an affront to god to kill someone outside of war. Sep 11 22:16:23 * Morgan grinds his teeth Sep 11 22:16:45 He told me I should pray, maybe Theus Will would become apparent to me. Sanctimonious fucking prick Sep 11 22:17:02 * HH nods slowly Sep 11 22:17:17 Goes way beyond this with Joseff then? Sep 11 22:17:46 Its fucking hypocrisy. Its cowardice. Sep 11 22:18:16 B'cause it didn' stop him before... Sep 11 22:18:36 But I'm too fucking kind to say that to him. Sep 11 22:19:03 Think mebbie that's _why_ he's so convicted about it now? Sep 11 22:19:25 No Sep 11 22:19:36 Its why I'm so _disgusted_ with him now Sep 11 22:20:21 * HH nods Sep 11 22:21:12 You want me t' bust you out of here, get a night away from 'im? Sep 11 22:21:39 If I leave, I'm going to do it head held high of my own volition. Sep 11 22:22:31 You going to? Sep 11 22:23:51 Maybe Sep 11 22:24:43 * HH nods Sep 11 22:25:03 And Molly agrees with Edward? Sep 11 22:25:36 No, she's pissed at me because I won't let her heal me. That I'm angry that she thinks her wishes overrule my own for _me_ Sep 11 22:26:17 Okay, clarify for us idiots, why don'cha want to be healed? Sep 11 22:27:43 Because what's the point if you don't ever feel anything? _this_ is a sign of how fucking angry I am, but lets just gloss over that. Sep 11 22:28:04 You know that's not like yer wife, man Sep 11 22:28:42 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 22:29:21 I told her I did not want to be healed. She wanted to, I said no. And she's told me I'm being stupid and fucked off indoors in a huff. Sep 11 22:30:05 Whatcha gonna go about it all? Sep 11 22:30:12 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 22:30:27 Why should I do anything about it. Why should I be the one to back down _again_ as usual? Sep 11 22:31:21 You want advice? Sep 11 22:31:52 Go on then Sep 11 22:33:06 Go sort it with yer wife. She's too useful in all this to be falling out with. Ain't any of us knows how to do herbs to help anyone. Sep 11 22:34:54 Why? Why should I? Why should I back down? Sep 11 22:36:12 B'cause she's yer _wife_. That's what you told me that first time me an Inga fell out. Sometimes you gotta just say sorry and make it right, nothing's worth being at odd with yer own wife for, Sep 11 22:37:15 Let alone my self respect Sep 11 22:37:41 * HH shrugs Sep 11 22:38:02 What advice would you give me if me an Inga fell out like this then? Sep 11 22:38:30 Sometimes is different to every fucking time Sep 11 22:38:55 Want me to go talk to her? Sep 11 22:39:03 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 22:39:05 If you want Sep 11 22:39:31 * HH nods Sep 11 22:39:41 Someone's gotta be the peacemaker Sep 11 22:41:13 I spose Sep 11 22:41:39 * HH sighs Sep 11 22:42:25 Mebbie take a dip in the lake? Sep 11 22:42:38 Maybe Sep 11 22:43:02 * HH hugs him a moment Sep 11 22:44:01 * Morgan returns the hug gently Sep 11 22:44:24 Not the ideal way to celebrate six months, eh? Sep 11 22:44:43 No, not really Sep 11 22:45:08 * HH pats his back before going off towards the house Sep 11 22:45:48 * Morgan sits back on the wall, drinking from his flask Sep 11 22:47:03 *It's almost twenty minutes later* [Heinzharold says I need to tell you he said to come up, because he doesn't want to walk all the way down there just to tell you what I can tell you like this] Sep 11 22:48:08 * Morgan grunts, heading inside and up to his room Sep 11 22:48:56 *the door is shut, but HH comes to open it after hearing his footsteps, speaking quietly* how you doin', man? Sep 11 22:49:21 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 22:50:22 * HH hugs him, whispering in his ear "Reckon she's cried most of it out now, but you may wanna have a hanky on hand" Sep 11 22:51:22 * Morgan nods Sep 11 22:51:49 Need me t' hang around? Sep 11 22:52:06 Shouldn't do Sep 11 22:52:26 * HH nods Sep 11 22:52:39 Inga's waitin' for me. Night man Sep 11 22:52:51 Night Sep 11 22:54:06 * HH is sat on the chair by the fire. She was clearly preparing for bed, because her hair is down and she's just in a shift. She glances up as he comes in, watching him Sep 11 22:54:14 * HH is now known as Molly Sep 11 22:54:22 Liebes herz... Sep 11 22:54:48 * Morgan watches her Sep 11 22:54:49 Molly Sep 11 22:55:09 * Molly winces, looking at the floor Sep 11 22:55:35 I am sorry I hurt you. Sep 11 22:55:50 * Morgan nods Sep 11 22:55:54 Alright Sep 11 22:57:13 I wanted you to not be hurt, and for your wound to be clean and safe, so it wasn't full of dirt and grit. I didn't want you suffering, and I didn't want it getting infected Sep 11 22:58:05 * Morgan nods slightly Sep 11 22:58:14 That is not what you said. Sep 11 22:59:05 What did I say? Sep 11 23:00:18 I said sometimes you have to let me hurt. You said you do not. You dismissed my wishes for your own. Sep 11 23:02:21 I apologise. I spoke out of turn and it was wrong of me. You hurting is so very painful to me, and in this instance I could not understand why you would insist of keeping a wound like that Sep 11 23:02:42 And you do now? Sep 11 23:04:46 I understand why you want it to be your choice, and why you are so angry, yes Sep 11 23:05:04 * Morgan nods Sep 11 23:05:25 Alright then. If you still wish to tend it so it does not become infected, I will accede to that Sep 11 23:05:55 * Molly nods, standing up and getting her box of medical supplies Sep 11 23:06:06 Could you please heat some water? Sep 11 23:06:42 * Morgan nods, doing so Sep 11 23:07:42 * Molly spends a little while getting the grit out of it. It's painful, but she doesn't numb it Sep 11 23:08:58 How did your talking with Joseff go? Sep 11 23:09:24 Something of a mixed bag. Sep 11 23:09:35 * Morgan nods Sep 11 23:09:54 * Molly starts rinsing his hand, washing away the dirt Sep 11 23:10:30 He is concerned for his soul. He said if he was not he would have already ended it. Sep 11 23:10:51 Makes no odds anyway. Edward is content to watch him suffer Sep 11 23:11:11 I do not think he has much time for that. Sep 11 23:11:30 He looked to have taken another turn for the worse at dinner Sep 11 23:11:37 * Molly nods Sep 11 23:12:02 It is progressing rapidly, and I think his desire for it to do so is helping that along Sep 11 23:12:17 * Morgan nods Sep 11 23:13:24 We have agreed that he would prefer to have an easy death, and I have said I will do what I can. Sep 11 23:13:33 * Morgan shakes his head Sep 11 23:13:40 No, that lies with Edward now. Sep 11 23:14:08 I do not want you and Edward to abandon all this progress you have made Sep 11 23:14:35 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 23:14:50 He will have to pray on it and hope Theus' Will becomes apparent to him Sep 11 23:15:07 Edward's faith is important to him Sep 11 23:15:28 A shield to hide behind is important to a coward Sep 11 23:17:24 * Molly gently bandages his hand Sep 11 23:18:01 Your anger about this is exceptionally strong. A day ago I could not imagine you calling Edward that Sep 11 23:19:40 No. Nor could I. Sep 11 23:20:52 I have no intention of letting him suffer... Sep 11 23:21:05 It is not for you to deal with Sep 11 23:21:18 Then who else, my love, if not me? Sep 11 23:21:43 Edward made his choice, he can deal with the consequences Sep 11 23:22:51 At the price of Joseff suffering, Mina suffering, the staff who have served him for decades suffering? Sep 11 23:23:08 If that is Theus will... apparently. Sep 11 23:23:48 And, as you have said before, what if _I_ am part of Theus Will? What if my powers are? Sep 11 23:24:04 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 23:24:31 Do as you will blossom. I am coming to see my involvement does no good Sep 11 23:24:46 * Molly shakes her head Sep 11 23:25:12 That is not true, my love. None of us would be here in Graben without you Sep 11 23:25:20 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 23:27:00 Mina would probably be marrying Rief right now, and Joseff would still be suffering. But you have helped her, and you have brought me here, and I can stop that. Sep 11 23:29:09 Fuchs already knew Stef was pregnant. All my involvement did was upset me and make her feel bad, and cause HeinzHarolds nightmare. My input with Edward is ultimately pointless because there's a chance he's going to die before we leave anyway. I think its better I just keep my thoughts to myself in future Sep 11 23:29:48 * Molly kisses the palm on his other hand Sep 11 23:30:45 You are being too hard on yourself. Fuchs and Stef wouldn't even be having that baby if you had kept your mouth shut. Alarice would have killed Varick and I. Sep 11 23:31:29 I doubt it Sep 11 23:32:39 We would have been in that stable, and you know we would, if you had not locked us down. Sep 11 23:33:08 If I had kept my mouth shut in the first place she wouldn't have needed to go to those lengths Sep 11 23:33:38 * Molly sighs Sep 11 23:33:53 I am not going to get through to you yet, am I? Sep 11 23:34:12 * Morgan shrugs, looking miserable Sep 11 23:34:26 * Molly opens her arms Sep 11 23:34:38 Please, liebling... Sep 11 23:34:59 * Morgan moves into her arms Sep 11 23:35:19 * Molly holds him close Sep 11 23:36:00 You are hurting, and disappointed in Edward, and in his failure to follow your leadership, I know Sep 11 23:36:23 I'm sorry that today of all days we have been at odds Sep 11 23:37:18 * Molly nods Sep 11 23:37:51 So am I. I wanted it to be special, a moment to mark the beginning of a new phase, I think Sep 11 23:38:11 * Morgan nods Sep 11 23:40:00 Still, we are going to go forward. The years ahead will not always be smooth and without any disagreement. Sep 11 23:40:14 * Morgan nods Sep 11 23:41:03 What am I to do about Joseff? Sep 11 23:41:14 Whatever you feel is best Sep 11 23:41:27 * Molly nods Sep 11 23:41:30 Alright Sep 11 23:42:18 * Molly squeezes him a little tighter Sep 11 23:42:49 If you do decide you wish for me to take the edge off your feelings, I am happy to do so Sep 11 23:43:48 It removes the physical side, not the emotional ones Sep 11 23:44:18 Yes, which helps you to deal with it without feeling so physically pent up Sep 11 23:44:45 * Morgan shrugs Sep 11 23:46:10 Let's go to bed and sleep on it. Maybe things will look brighter tomorrow Sep 11 23:46:42 * Morgan nods Sep 11 23:46:44 Alright Sep 11 23:47:26 * Molly helps him undress, and then has him put his head on her chest like last night Sep 11 23:47:32 Goodnight, my love Sep 11 23:47:59 Goodnight blossom Sep 11 23:48:12 * Molly sings until he is asleep Sep 11 23:49:18 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep)