**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Aug 30 00:02:41 2022 Aug 30 00:02:41 If you set her up as the authority whose standards you must meet, you will only make yourself feel worse for being a normal man with all the usual failings of our sex. Aug 30 00:02:54 * Morgan nods Aug 30 00:03:38 * Morgan draws a deep breath Aug 30 00:03:46 I want to talk about your daughter... Aug 30 00:03:55 * Edward nods Aug 30 00:04:27 Yes, we need to arrange another time to speak with her. Can you arrange that for tomorrow? Aug 30 00:04:56 Thats not what I meant... but I'll leave a note for Alice once I've been to chapel Aug 30 00:06:00 * Edward nods Aug 30 00:06:06 What else? Aug 30 00:06:45 This is difficult for me... but I am feeling like... I am no longer needed, like I am being replaced which I know, I know, is stupid Aug 30 00:07:23 You are my only brother, you are irreplaceable. Aug 30 00:07:40 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 00:07:43 You know what I mean Aug 30 00:08:05 I would spare you that. How can I help? Aug 30 00:08:14 I don't know Aug 30 00:08:50 If you need to speak with her without me, I understand that Aug 30 00:09:35 HeinzHarold thinks that might be an idea... she's the first child I've had anything to do with since the fire... I'm finding it hard letting go Aug 30 00:10:07 * Edward nods slowly Aug 30 00:10:17 You aren't losing her to me Aug 30 00:10:26 I know that, logically... Aug 30 00:10:41 But you are feeling jealous, possessive? Aug 30 00:11:53 Envious, perhaps... and, as I said, unneeded. Like I've served my purpose, I am no longer required Aug 30 00:13:21 A complicated situation. It would have been easier for us all if she had been yours. Aug 30 00:14:15 Claudia did ask if that was the case... Aug 30 00:15:15 * Edward nods Aug 30 00:15:34 If you were like me, it could have been. Aug 30 00:18:22 * Morgan shakes himself slightly Aug 30 00:18:44 * Edward watches him Aug 30 00:18:51 You need to have a child. Aug 30 00:19:04 I'll see if there's one in the kitchen... Aug 30 00:19:16 Don't be an ass. Aug 30 00:19:57 There's a lot of changing going on, around me, in me... its a bit overwhelming all at once, thats all Aug 30 00:21:10 It seems to me that you have a lot of love waiting to be given to another child, and Florrie has filled that gap for you for now, but it is not sustainable in the way you need Aug 30 00:21:45 When did you get so damn smart? Aug 30 00:22:03 * Edward shrugs Aug 30 00:22:12 From Father Aug 30 00:22:56 We still have much to do Aug 30 00:25:03 Yes you do, but if you are going to suffer over it, you will need to find a way. Aug 30 00:25:32 * Morgan sighs Aug 30 00:26:19 Two years is too long, isn't it? Aug 30 00:27:48 You tell me. Can you imagine two more Prophet's Masses without a baby in your arms? Aug 30 00:28:05 * Morgan sighs, slumping Aug 30 00:28:22 Can I? Yes. Do I like what that looks like? No. Aug 30 00:28:38 Then you have answered your own question Aug 30 00:29:06 * Morgan nods Aug 30 00:30:23 I don't envy you. I cannot imagine being married and not pursuing the full purpose of the commitment Aug 30 00:31:08 * Morgan nods Aug 30 00:31:15 It wasn't a concern when we made the agreement Aug 30 00:33:05 No, but now that Father, HeinzHarold and I have steered His Grace in your direction, you need not worry Aug 30 00:33:36 No but... it wouldn't feel right, continuing to receive the benefits and not getting things set up Aug 30 00:34:09 And I'm going to have nine children, I want to get the trade in place and strong so I have something to pass on to whomever doesn't end up as a Graf or Freiarr... Aug 30 00:34:57 How long are you expecting it to take? Why are you not delegating tasks to others? Aug 30 00:35:12 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 30 00:35:49 Three years of running the Torrington estate, being the master at arms... I'm used to just getting things done myself. Aug 30 00:36:19 You do not trust anyone else, that's your problem. Aug 30 00:36:41 I wouldn't say that Aug 30 00:37:53 Who are you entrusting some of this to then? Who is dealing with the Eisen side of the trade, both in finding you goods to transport, and receiving and selling on the goods you import? Aug 30 00:38:51 Once James is back in Eisen, he'll be taking... though... no, he'll need to work, I imagine he'll want to remain in his role... Aug 30 00:44:35 * Edward nods "You are not ready with this yet. Speak to Witts, or work closely with Molly's cousin, or Grendlik?" Aug 30 00:47:26 Witts? Aug 30 00:48:04 Holzheim and I have spoken... he's going to crew one of my ships for a particular route he needs to offload... Aug 30 00:49:10 Your trade of the silks to Picante went fine with Witts, did it not? Aug 30 00:49:42 oh... yes, it did Aug 30 00:50:14 It is his trade, make use of that connection. Aug 30 00:51:03 * Morgan nods Aug 30 00:51:06 I'll speak with him Aug 30 00:51:27 We have exclusive trade rights for Capperlucia for three years Aug 30 00:51:34 * Edward nods Aug 30 00:52:12 But you do not personally need to oversee each shipment. Who will be running your ship and dealing with the contacts there? Aug 30 00:53:40 Well, that depends... James is my, as lady Torrington puts it, man of business Aug 30 00:54:37 And he has a new baby, yes? You cannot stick him travelling for three months at a time any more than you would be willing to leave Molly at home with your baby Aug 30 00:54:57 No, absolutely, he'll be here... Aug 30 00:55:37 Then Captain Sorgenheim will be sailing to and fro on the Rose? Aug 30 00:56:12 * Morgan nods Aug 30 00:56:27 And, if we can find a way, another ship in between Aug 30 00:57:19 Do you have a Captain for it? Aug 30 00:57:40 Uhhh, not yet... Aug 30 00:58:40 You are going to be busy, but the aim is to streamline your system so that you, and particularly Molly, are the figureheads, not the cogs Aug 30 00:58:51 * Morgan nods Aug 30 00:59:07 Alright Aug 30 01:02:12 I would suggest getting Witts on the case, he can look for crew, warehousing and contracts in place of your man of business for now and whilst you're away. All of this could be established in months if you don't try to go it all yourself Aug 30 01:02:30 Do* Aug 30 01:02:48 You think he would be willing to work for me? Aug 30 01:03:14 Of course, I know you will pay him fairly Aug 30 01:03:24 * Morgan nods Aug 30 01:03:31 I'll talk with him then Aug 30 01:03:48 * Edward nods Aug 30 01:04:24 What about at the other end? What do you know about the people there, what contacts do you have? Aug 30 01:05:50 Not a great deal. I know its a matriarchal society... and I have a friend who is the sovereign prince who, if all goes well, I am taking to be reunited with his missing wife on the way... Aug 30 01:06:03 * Edward nods Aug 30 01:06:42 Well, that sounds nice and simple then. They will fall at your feet to work for you there. *he smiles* Or for Molly, rather. Aug 30 01:06:51 * Morgan nods Aug 30 01:06:52 Quite Aug 30 01:07:08 You should ask fathers opinion of that... Aug 30 01:07:51 I cannot imagine he is happy. *he glances at Morgan* Just imagine his horror, no doubt the women go on top there! Aug 30 01:08:24 Its quite entertaining watching him trying to be diplomatic while also saying what utter unnatural nonsense it is... Aug 30 01:09:09 It is not the logical way of things to me, I admit, but I am curious to hear what such a country looks like in practice Aug 30 01:09:27 * Morgan nods Aug 30 01:09:34 Its going to be interesting Aug 30 01:09:41 * Edward nods Aug 30 01:10:41 All of this is not as complicated as you seem to think. Which begs the question, to use a colourful expression of Potts' creation; are you stepping on your own dick? Aug 30 01:11:36 I have no idea what the hell that means Aug 30 01:13:24 * Morgan has quit (Quit: This computer has gone to sleep) Aug 30 01:54:54 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Aug 30 10:33:39 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Aug 30 12:49:20 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Aug 30 12:50:53 * MollyK is now known as Edward Aug 30 12:51:42 It means you're putting obstacles in your own way. Screwing things up for yourself so you don't get what you want Aug 30 12:52:28 I'm not sure I agree but... if that is the case, I wouldn't be allowing myself to see it, would I Aug 30 12:53:52 Exactly Aug 30 12:54:21 * Morgan nods Aug 30 12:54:33 Maybe you're right Aug 30 12:55:09 * Edward nods Aug 30 12:55:54 I need to get back to help Mina with Joseff. I'll make sure there's still breakfast for tou Aug 30 12:56:23 You need to see the Eisenfurst... Aug 30 12:58:14 * Edward nods Aug 30 12:58:28 I will send a note to see him tomorrow Aug 30 12:59:17 * Morgan nods, standing up Aug 30 12:59:31 Thank you for listening... Aug 30 13:01:39 * Edward stands too, hugging him Aug 30 13:01:45 And you Aug 30 13:01:51 * Morgan pulls him tight Aug 30 13:02:09 Go on, I'm going to talk to Dietlinde for a while. Aug 30 13:03:10 * Edward nods, wandering off. It's fully light as he goes to the chapel, which is unlocked but empty Aug 30 13:07:24 * Morgan goes to light a candle of remembrance before finding a seat near the back Aug 30 13:08:00 *No one interrupts him, so he gets as long as he likes. It's very peaceful* Aug 30 13:11:02 * Morgan sips his coffee Aug 30 13:12:18 *the dinning room sounds busy when he passes it* Aug 30 13:12:34 [Where are you blossom?] Aug 30 13:13:12 [having breakfast. Do you need me?] Aug 30 13:13:21 * Morgan heads into the dining room Aug 30 13:15:23 *everyone is there and wishes him a Prophets mass. There is so much food on the table it is as if it was an evening meal. His space next to Molly is waiting. Joseff heads the table, looking very lucid, and Edward looks a little more relaxed. Even Claudia is at the table, sat between Varick and HH Aug 30 13:15:59 * Morgan takes his seat next to Molly, kissing her cheek Aug 30 13:16:51 * Edward is now known as Molly Aug 30 13:17:08 * Molly smiles, pouring him more coffee Aug 30 13:17:18 [how are you?] Aug 30 13:17:47 [I'm alright blossom. Had a rather... difficult conversation with Edward] Aug 30 13:18:38 [do you wish to talk now, or after breakfast?] Aug 30 13:19:12 [after breakfast is fine. I'm alright] Aug 30 13:19:27 * Morgan looks around before looking to Claudia Aug 30 13:19:31 $you ok?$ Aug 30 13:21:07 C: $yeah. The food is good$ Aug 30 13:21:27 * Morgan nods slightly, eating Aug 30 13:22:51 *Joseff looks to Morgan* What will you be doing for the day, Your Excellency? It looks like rain Aug 30 13:25:17 I've a few things to do... I need to speak to Witts, and my father. Though if Edward can spare Mina for a little while, I hoped she might walk me through some of the Ussuran influences here Aug 30 13:26:18 J: I am sure she would like that, wouldn't you, Mina? Aug 30 13:26:34 *Mina smiles* I would Aug 30 13:28:36 * Morgan inclines his head Aug 30 13:28:46 And you, Joseff? What are you hoping to do today? Aug 30 13:28:53 J: When we used to have guests, Maria used to play bridge with the ladies. I never got the hang of it myself. *Verity and Jarvie both say they know how to play it, and plans are starting to be hatched to that end. At the other end of the table, discussions are being had about the plans of leaving the next day* Aug 30 13:29:33 J: I will probably take a ride with my valet, as I used to on Prophets Mass day Aug 30 13:31:06 * Morgan glances at Edward briefly before nodding Aug 30 13:31:28 I can't say I blame you not getting the hang of bridge... its not something I ever got my head around Aug 30 13:32:18 E: I will ride out too. Morgan, would you like to join us? Aug 30 13:33:12 * Morgan nods Aug 30 13:33:17 As long as my wife doesn't mind Aug 30 13:34:09 * Molly shakes her head "I do not mind you riding, my love" Aug 30 13:36:16 * Morgan nods, sipping his coffee Aug 30 13:37:42 *he notices Claudia and DeeDee occassionally looking at each other when the other isn't looking* Aug 30 13:39:06 * Morgan looks at HeinzHarold, rolling his eyes Aug 30 13:41:11 *Hh shrugs a little* Aug 30 13:43:13 Ad: Inga, it must be strange to be sharing Prophets Mass breakfast above stairs? *it doesn't sound like he is being purposefully cruel. Inga smiles, it also seems quite pleasant* It's not as dull as I expected Aug 30 13:43:31 * Morgan sniggers quietly Aug 30 13:43:38 *HH grins at Morgan* $this woman slays me.$ Aug 30 13:44:07 *Adalbrecht just looks a bit confused, but drops it* Aug 30 13:44:33 $bless him, he has no idea what to do with that$ Aug 30 13:46:10 What plans have you got for today father? Aug 30 13:47:09 Ad: spending time with you all Aug 30 13:47:31 $smooth$ Aug 30 13:47:54 Perhaps I can talk with you before I ride out with Edward and Joseff... Aug 30 13:49:46 HH: $not sneaking off to their stables then?$ Aug 30 13:50:00 Ad: You can Aug 30 13:50:38 * Morgan nods Aug 30 13:50:48 $sure I can find somewhere to get into mischief$ Aug 30 13:53:26 HH: $happiest Prophets Mass Day ever.$ Aug 30 13:54:35 $providing we don't get caught$ Aug 30 13:54:56 * Morgan looks at Edward Aug 30 13:55:03 I didn't scale the roof in the end Aug 30 13:55:44 HH: $it'd be the funniest one ever then. Yer Da could smack you with a stick off a Yule log$ Aug 30 13:55:51 E: Wise. Aug 30 13:56:18 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 13:56:35 More that I spent longer in the chapel than I anticipated Aug 30 13:58:07 Ad: There was another service this morning? Aug 30 13:58:22 No, father. Aug 30 14:00:59 Christopher: we have our services on Prophets Mass morning too in Avalon. Are you missing that, dear boy? Aug 30 14:01:54 No, my time in Avalon was spent, as my father put it, below stairs Aug 30 14:02:39 *he nods, going back to eating* Aug 30 14:03:13 $no squeaking noises of outrage. Not what I expected$ Aug 30 14:03:54 HH: $mebbie he is going deaf$ Aug 30 14:08:17 *It isn't raining by the time breakfast is finished. They move to the drawing room so the servants can clean up, but Molly stops him in the hall when the others are all in* Aug 30 14:09:34 * Morgan watches her Aug 30 14:09:59 * Molly watches him seriously Aug 30 14:10:04 Are you alright? Aug 30 14:10:09 * Morgan nods Aug 30 14:10:31 Aye. A little tender, emotionally, but I'm ok Aug 30 14:11:01 Do you want to talk to me about it, or do you need to not? Aug 30 14:11:25 Shall we steal away for a few minutes to talk about it? Aug 30 14:11:34 * Molly nods Aug 30 14:11:44 The library, or more private? Aug 30 14:11:52 Library should be ok Aug 30 14:12:23 * Molly nods, going through. The fire is lit, and she stands near it Aug 30 14:12:46 * Morgan closes the door, standing beside her Aug 30 14:13:41 * Molly looks up at him, taking his hands in hers Aug 30 14:14:01 Is it your conversation with Edward weighing on you most? Aug 30 14:14:27 It covered a lot of things Aug 30 14:14:53 Oh? Aug 30 14:16:39 How I am holding things too close that I don't need to, like the trade, the ships... though, he referred to that as stepping on my own dick... how you deserve someone who feels as deeply as you, and I can either be that man or wait until you find someone who is... about children... about Dietlinde, Florrie... *he sighs* Aug 30 14:20:14 *Molly looks taken aback* that's rather a lot Aug 30 14:20:37 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 30 14:20:39 Sorry Aug 30 14:22:07 Maybe we should sit Aug 30 14:22:23 * Morgan nods Aug 30 14:22:26 I think so, yes Aug 30 14:22:39 * Molly sits on a couch Aug 30 14:23:14 * Morgan sits beside her Aug 30 14:23:30 Where to start! Aug 30 14:24:09 Aye... Aug 30 14:31:42 How are you holding the ships and trade too close Aug 30 14:32:28 He thinks I should have someone in place to find a crew, captain, et cetera... Aug 30 14:33:53 But you want to do so yourself? Aug 30 14:35:27 I have been doing it, but he's right. I should put someone in place to do it... he suggested Witts Aug 30 14:35:46 * Molly nods Aug 30 14:35:59 It would ease the mental burden of it Aug 30 14:36:25 * Morgan nods Aug 30 14:37:07 And we should have an idea of who will be dealing with Capperlucia... I figure once we settle, it'd be Sorgi Aug 30 14:37:21 * Molly thinks Aug 30 14:37:36 I wonder if Claudia would consider it Aug 30 14:38:28 I'm not sure she'd have the patience... Aug 30 14:38:44 Perhaps, but they would respect her more Aug 30 14:38:51 * Morgan nods Aug 30 14:38:53 I agree Aug 30 14:39:11 Perhaps we should discuss it with her, get her to roll the idea round her head Aug 30 14:39:28 * Molly nods Aug 30 14:39:33 Alright, my love Aug 30 14:41:08 What next? Aug 30 14:42:12 * Molly smiles Aug 30 14:42:31 Uhh... stepping on your... ummm... Aug 30 14:44:38 It means I'm putting obstacles in my own way, stopping myself getting what I want... he reckons our ships and some trade could be up and running within months if I stop trying to do it all myself. He thinks I do not trust anyone. Aug 30 14:46:20 * Molly frowns a little Aug 30 14:46:54 But he does not understand the joy of sailing and being involved in something at the root levels Aug 30 14:47:20 That is true but... in terms of getting the trade and the crew... I think he's probably right Aug 30 14:48:47 If you wish, my love Aug 30 14:50:22 It doesn't stop me sailing the new ship a little... but I think he's right that I'm burying myself in work when I don't need to Aug 30 14:52:22 * Molly nods Aug 30 14:52:45 Perhaps so, but you like to keep busy, you have the whole time I have known you Aug 30 14:55:27 True... but I could halve my workload and still be busy Aug 30 14:55:57 What would make you happier? Aug 30 14:57:47 I can have a hand in it, I don't need to do every last task... Aug 30 14:57:54 * Molly nods Aug 30 14:58:03 Yes you can Aug 30 14:58:24 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:00:16 * Molly frowns Aug 30 15:00:37 Waiting for me to find someone else was uncalled for, and frankly, hurtful. Aug 30 15:01:40 I think... he has not realised how much more expressive we are... Aug 30 15:03:00 * Molly nods Aug 30 15:03:28 And he doesn't want you being made a target for other men or Eisenfursts we could mention Aug 30 15:03:46 I would not leave you, not for anyone. I can only hope that seeing me with Seb shows that Aug 30 15:04:10 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:04:22 He just worries for us I think Aug 30 15:06:01 * Molly nods Aug 30 15:06:20 I hope he does not need to now Aug 30 15:06:42 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:06:51 He worries for you. He loves you very much Aug 30 15:09:36 I am glad, but sometimes that is complicated in itself Aug 30 15:10:27 Whyso? Aug 30 15:11:02 Because if he had gotten to know her, and loved her this way, you could have been spared all of this Aug 30 15:11:38 Thats not something to consider Aug 30 15:12:07 * Molly shrugs Aug 30 15:12:43 Still, I would not have you worry about what he said, you are stuck with me and I am not going anywhere Aug 30 15:12:52 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:13:15 I think I am slowly becoming more able to express the depths of my feelings, though Aug 30 15:13:56 That you feel it is what is important Aug 30 15:14:21 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:14:23 I do Aug 30 15:14:30 * Molly smiles Aug 30 15:15:04 Good. And I do not need you to feel everything as deeply as I do, sometimes I think I feel too much Aug 30 15:15:28 I don't think Edward would agree with you Aug 30 15:16:08 That is his business, I think Aug 30 15:16:39 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:19:41 Do _you_ worry I will leave? Aug 30 15:20:02 No... I worry that I leave you wanting... Aug 30 15:20:56 * Molly shakes her head Aug 30 15:21:12 Not in the way you are thinking... *she smiles* Aug 30 15:21:21 * Morgan frowns Aug 30 15:21:24 But in others Aug 30 15:21:41 Temporarily, and with desire Aug 30 15:23:06 * Morgan nods slightly, blushing Aug 30 15:24:31 But not in another way. Aug 30 15:24:42 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:24:43 good Aug 30 15:26:28 And I, you? Is there anything you are wanting for? Aug 30 15:27:00 Nothing you are withholding from me Aug 30 15:29:04 * Molly nods Aug 30 15:29:27 I am glad you do not feel that way Aug 30 15:34:44 * Morgan nods, looking at the fire Aug 30 15:34:59 * Molly watches his profile Aug 30 15:36:18 What troubles you? Aug 30 15:37:04 Thats all the... simpler things Aug 30 15:37:14 * Molly smiles Aug 30 15:37:27 Those are _simple_? Aug 30 15:37:40 Simpler, yes Aug 30 15:38:19 What else? Aug 30 15:38:33 Dietlinde... Florrie.. children... Aug 30 15:38:40 Go on Aug 30 15:39:40 I don't want to clutch her loss to me anymore... I... I want to be able to talk about her without anyone drawing comparisons, or that it is a taboo subject Aug 30 15:40:17 * Molly nods slowly Aug 30 15:40:38 And you feel I stand in the way of that? Aug 30 15:41:19 No. If anything, you have tried to get me to talk about her... but I worry that doing so will make you uncomfortable or, worse, doubting of my love for you Aug 30 15:43:06 It has not been an easy road to walk at times, but I have never asked you not to talk about her, or not to love her. Aug 30 15:43:44 No, I know... but I don't want you to feel that my love for her lessens the depth of my love for you. Aug 30 15:44:09 I think we have moved on from that Aug 30 15:44:38 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:45:20 I think so... but I mean in a wider scope. I want to celebrate their lives much more than holding their loss like its all I have left of them Aug 30 15:45:46 * Molly nods Aug 30 15:45:56 That is how it should be Aug 30 15:46:02 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:47:17 What are you intending? Aug 30 15:47:39 I'm not sure. Thats the rub Aug 30 15:49:49 * Molly nods Aug 30 15:50:09 I will help however I can Aug 30 15:50:17 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:52:04 What was Edward's opinion? Aug 30 15:55:02 I didn't really talk that through with him... he finds it difficult Aug 30 15:56:51 * Molly nods Aug 30 15:56:57 I can understand that Aug 30 15:58:31 * Morgan nods Aug 30 15:58:33 Indeed Aug 30 16:00:24 Did it help you, to speak to her? Aug 30 16:00:38 A little, yes... it was... odd though Aug 30 16:00:55 Was it? Aug 30 16:01:45 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:02:00 It almost felt like I was actually talking to her, not just talking Aug 30 16:02:14 * Molly smiles Aug 30 16:02:20 That's nice Aug 30 16:02:34 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:04:27 It brought you comfort? Aug 30 16:04:38 Some, aye Aug 30 16:06:01 Good Aug 30 16:09:44 I have long assumed you usually did, in the time when you wait for dawn. It is why I never asked to join you, and had always resisted you staying with me in that time of day Aug 30 16:11:23 No... it is a time I think of them, but not just that Aug 30 16:12:03 * Molly nods Aug 30 16:12:43 I also thought you must have spoken to her a great deal this time last year when you visited Aug 30 16:13:03 * Morgan shakes his head Aug 30 16:13:07 No... Aug 30 16:14:51 * Molly shrugs a little Aug 30 16:15:19 You worried it would upset me, I am trying to explain why it does not Aug 30 16:15:32 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:15:35 alright Aug 30 16:17:37 * Molly watches his expression Aug 30 16:17:44 You worry too much Aug 30 16:18:00 Oh, probably Aug 30 16:19:28 I did not marry you expecting that you would suddenly lose all connections to the past, that I would somehow cure you of the pain and love. Aug 30 16:20:05 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:23:29 That is what is most bothering you? Aug 30 16:23:59 Of all of it? Aug 30 16:24:55 Yes Aug 30 16:25:17 No Aug 30 16:26:33 Then what is? Aug 30 16:26:50 * Morgan sighs Aug 30 16:26:52 Children Aug 30 16:27:28 What about them? Aug 30 16:28:50 Edward asked me if I could imagine another two Prophets Mass' without a baby in my arms... Aug 30 16:29:53 And can you? Aug 30 16:30:10 Yes... and I don't like it, not one bit Aug 30 16:30:46 But you wished to wait Aug 30 16:31:49 I thought it... the best course of action, given our commitments Aug 30 16:32:15 Edward has made you question that? Aug 30 16:32:42 Made me aware, perhaps. Aug 30 16:33:53 That it is more urgent than you knew? Aug 30 16:34:03 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:34:30 He thinks I have a love to give a child and that Florrie has fulfilled that need in me, but now things are changing... Aug 30 16:34:47 * Molly watches him Aug 30 16:35:00 And what do you think of that? Aug 30 16:35:23 Its painful. But he's no idiot. What do _you_ think? Aug 30 16:36:15 I think you are going to be a wonderful father again Aug 30 16:36:44 Well, obviously Aug 30 16:37:57 * Molly smiles Aug 30 16:38:51 Do I think we should have a baby sooner? Do I think your attachment to Florrie is paternal? What are you asking? Aug 30 16:39:05 All of that Aug 30 16:40:32 I think your attachment to her is strong, guiding and protective. Only you can tell me if those feelings are similar to how you feel for Jana and Varick Aug 30 16:40:57 * Morgan speaks slowly Aug 30 16:41:43 No... it isn't. I am very protective of her, and I love her to death but... I don't think it is paternal Aug 30 16:41:59 * Molly nods Aug 30 16:42:53 But part of you wishes it could be? If Alice had been keen to give her care over, if Edward had not wanted her? Aug 30 16:44:00 I don't know... in some ways it would've been easier. Aug 30 16:44:44 * Molly nods Aug 30 16:44:50 Yes, it would Aug 30 16:45:00 But that is not where we are Aug 30 16:45:05 No Aug 30 16:46:54 You must love her from a little further away. But she seems to have sparked something in you Aug 30 16:47:05 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:47:06 Indeed Aug 30 16:47:43 * Molly looks thoughtful Aug 30 16:48:04 I suspect even adopting again would not be enough Aug 30 16:50:13 No, I suspect not... though I wouldn't have thought that was something you'd consider Aug 30 16:50:52 * Molly smiles Aug 30 16:50:59 Whyever not? Aug 30 16:51:36 I don't even know Aug 30 16:51:57 * Molly shakes her head Aug 30 16:52:16 I am not opposed to the idea, but it is the timing Aug 30 16:52:24 * Morgan nods Aug 30 16:53:47 At the very earliest, I think it would need to be next winter Aug 30 16:53:59 Adoption? Aug 30 16:54:41 Either. How you would you be willing to travel with a small child? Aug 30 16:55:14 I'm not sure... Aug 30 16:55:24 * Molly nods Aug 30 16:55:56 Which only leaves the option of my going alone Aug 30 16:56:17 * Morgan shakes his head Aug 30 16:56:20 I don't want that Aug 30 16:56:31 * Molly nods Aug 30 16:57:29 What do you want? Aug 30 16:58:15 I don't know. I want a child as soon as we can, but I don't want to let Faulk down Aug 30 16:59:12 Not through adoption? Aug 30 16:59:26 No. Aug 30 16:59:33 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:01:02 We need to have an ambassador. I do trust that Siegfried will ensure our ambassador is treated well, so I am quite confident there, but not as sure that Faulk would like who we pick Aug 30 17:02:06 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:02:08 It is a concern Aug 30 17:02:15 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:02:38 Something to consider, but there would be time Aug 30 17:02:53 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:02:54 aye Aug 30 17:03:54 It seems you know what you want, it is the logistics of it that are in question Aug 30 17:04:04 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:06:26 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:06:36 It could still take quite some time Aug 30 17:07:10 I know Aug 30 17:07:57 We will still be going this time, and almost certainly in Autumn too Aug 30 17:09:01 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:09:03 aye Aug 30 17:10:33 * Molly watches his expression seriously Aug 30 17:10:51 This is what you wish? It is important to you? Aug 30 17:10:59 You do not wish to? Aug 30 17:11:44 I do. I just yearn to understand this, the depths of this, for you... Aug 30 17:12:21 * Morgan nods, looking at the fire Aug 30 17:13:08 It is what I want, entirely Aug 30 17:14:12 Even though it could be by this time next year? Once we start it, there is no going back... Aug 30 17:14:35 I know Aug 30 17:15:04 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:15:15 Then we will not wait? Aug 30 17:15:27 I do not wish to Aug 30 17:15:36 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:15:40 And the herbs? Aug 30 17:15:52 We can't progress while you take them Aug 30 17:16:30 I should not take today's, and we will adapt to the change in anticipated dates? Aug 30 17:17:08 Thats a point I had not considered... Aug 30 17:17:20 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:19:42 It would do me no harm, but the sparkliness is due in three days, and I do not know if that would change Aug 30 17:21:00 That could be an issue Aug 30 17:21:30 It is something to consider... Aug 30 17:22:35 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:23:08 * Molly brings his hand to her mouth, kissing his knuckles Aug 30 17:25:00 I will do whatever you wish Aug 30 17:25:27 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:25:58 The draw is when you would be most likely to catch pregnant, yes? Aug 30 17:26:23 That does seem to be the case, yes Aug 30 17:27:08 We know the herbs stop that so... could be the herbs do not affect that... though, if you stop the herbs the time you are most, uhhh... fertile, could change... Aug 30 17:28:01 It is likely my course will come early, and therefore the time of highest fertility will reset with that Aug 30 17:28:29 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:28:53 I'm not sure... solely out of interest of your safety and our ability to deal with the draw Aug 30 17:29:49 You want to wait out this month? Or you wish to just wait until the draw is ended? Aug 30 17:30:07 I just want you to be safe Aug 30 17:30:26 I am safe, my love Aug 30 17:31:43 Yes but... I mean when the draw hits... predicting the next would be difficult Aug 30 17:32:18 * Molly nods Aug 30 17:32:36 You are not going away though, and I can knock out anyone I need to Aug 30 17:33:17 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:33:27 The course arriving early would not disrupt your plans? Aug 30 17:33:44 My plans for what? Aug 30 17:38:14 Any plans you might've had Aug 30 17:38:47 No, it is a minor nuisance but I am quite used to it Aug 30 17:39:03 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:39:11 Will that not change with not having the herbs? Aug 30 17:40:03 It will go back to being the best part of a week, but not until the herbs have left my system, Marta says. That is how we will know Aug 30 17:40:36 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:40:46 You are willing to endure that? Aug 30 17:41:46 * Molly smiles Aug 30 17:41:57 My love, it is just part of being a woman Aug 30 17:44:31 Not at the moment its not Aug 30 17:45:29 No, but I want to have your baby. Aug 30 17:46:38 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:46:44 Then... do not take it from today Aug 30 17:47:14 * Molly watches him Aug 30 17:47:35 Are you _sure_? Aug 30 17:57:19 * Morgan nods Aug 30 17:57:24 Its what my heart aches for Aug 30 17:58:35 * Molly smiles gently "Then that is what it will have." Aug 30 17:59:11 * Morgan nods, breathing out slowly Aug 30 18:00:33 * Molly watches him Aug 30 18:00:38 Are you alright? Aug 30 18:01:10 * Morgan nods Aug 30 18:01:26 Relieved, anxious, scared... I wasn't expecting to have this conversation when I got up today Aug 30 18:01:56 Why are you relieved? Aug 30 18:02:29 Ti have it decided... that you do not think it a stupid idea Aug 30 18:04:18 That what is a stupid idea? To live life now, to not wait for a perfect time when we might not know until later that the perfect time was now? Aug 30 18:04:52 * Morgan nods Aug 30 18:06:05 I do not think it is stupid Aug 30 18:06:19 * Morgan nods Aug 30 18:06:20 good Aug 30 18:06:34 What scares you? Aug 30 18:07:16 What we bring a child into... the pregnancy, the birth... Aug 30 18:07:38 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:08:02 I have an advantage though Aug 30 18:08:21 I thought you could affect yourself Aug 30 18:10:14 I might get stronger, more able. I cannot seem to affect the cramping, but I would not want to go through it without any pain at all Aug 30 18:11:40 Maybe... maybe you could not affect yourself, but could help the child... Aug 30 18:12:31 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:12:36 Almost certainly Aug 30 18:22:48 * Morgan nods Aug 30 18:23:50 I have to slowly reduce one of the herbs, but that is the one that stops my breasts thinking they need to make milk. They don't stop me cleaving to you, just from leaking everywhere Aug 30 18:24:35 * Morgan laughs, then clamps his hand over his mouth Aug 30 18:24:38 I'm sorry... Aug 30 18:24:48 * Molly smiles, eyes crinkling Aug 30 18:24:53 Why are you sorry? Aug 30 18:25:33 I shouldn't have laughed Aug 30 18:25:44 Whyever not? Aug 30 18:26:03 Its not exactly kind.. Aug 30 18:27:16 The idea of my breasts behaving like fountains? Aug 30 18:27:31 leaking... Aug 30 18:29:02 From what I observed with Beth and Elsie, it seems quite common. Elsie said it happens badly if you are kissing Aug 30 18:29:49 That is... unexpected Aug 30 18:30:16 * Molly frowns slightly Aug 30 18:30:25 I assumed you knew that Aug 30 18:30:47 I was a much more... innocent soul back then. Aug 30 18:31:06 * Molly nods slowly Aug 30 18:31:10 I see... Aug 30 18:31:24 That troubles you Aug 30 18:31:49 No... I am just surprised really Aug 30 18:32:08 * Morgan nods Aug 30 18:33:34 * Molly watches him a moment Aug 30 18:33:54 I think we will need to be open about things in the times to come Aug 30 18:34:50 Such as... Aug 30 18:37:00 Well, I have never been discrete or cautious about telling you when my courses are, I do not hide it from you, in much the same way that I sleep naked with you. My body will change when I am with child, and I do not intend to shield you from those changes, nor from those that come with nursing, unless that is something you prefer, based on how Aug 30 18:37:00 things were for you before Aug 30 18:37:23 * Morgan shakes his head Aug 30 18:37:26 I am different now Aug 30 18:37:34 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:38:20 I hope that is not a disappointment for you, that you do not feel a lack of mystery and delicacy Aug 30 18:38:42 * Morgan shakes his head Aug 30 18:38:47 No, my love. Not at all Aug 30 18:38:53 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:39:12 We have a very different sort of marriage, perhaps? Aug 30 18:39:23 We do, very Aug 30 18:39:55 And that is something we have always been cautious of discussing Aug 30 18:40:43 Aye... I think perhaps we need to change that... Aug 30 18:40:53 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:41:07 Alright. I agree. Aug 30 18:41:52 You have some place you wish to start? Aug 30 18:42:42 * Molly fidgets in her seat, getting more comfortable Aug 30 18:42:49 Did you ever argue? Aug 30 18:43:28 Disagreements, mostly. I wasn't nearly so disagreeable as I can be now Aug 30 18:44:13 What sort of things caused disagreements? Aug 30 18:45:18 Little things, occasionally my family Aug 30 18:46:24 Were you stubborn and refusing to extend an olive branch, or were you the one suggesting patience and biding your time? Aug 30 18:46:50 Oh definitely the former. Aug 30 18:46:58 * Molly smiles Aug 30 18:47:12 Alright, maybe somethings aren't _so_ different Aug 30 18:47:13 That is no different then, you are still stubborn Aug 30 18:47:44 * Morgan shifts, laying his head in her lap, his legs dangling off the arm of the couch Aug 30 18:48:14 * Molly strokes the bare skin at the side of his head Aug 30 18:48:56 Was she surprised before the animosity of the family, or had she anticipated it when you proposed? Aug 30 18:50:35 I think she expected it... I didn't expect _that_ much animosity Aug 30 18:51:02 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:51:48 Was it easier to be vulnerable and to cry then? Aug 30 18:52:59 I didn't... I tried to put a brave face on it, but she could tell when it weighed heavy on me Aug 30 18:54:15 That is sad. It weighed heavy often? Aug 30 18:54:45 * Morgan nods Aug 30 18:55:24 More often than I care to admit... Aug 30 18:56:46 You know you can admit it to me, and I will not think less of you? Aug 30 18:57:04 I'm not ready to admit it to myself I think Aug 30 18:57:44 * Molly nods Aug 30 18:58:50 I would imagine it probably coloured your happiness. What were your hopes and dreams? Aug 30 18:59:54 Live quietly, happily, raise Jana... Aug 30 19:00:23 Did you still _want_ to be the Graf? Aug 30 19:01:33 I'm not sure I thought about it... its what I was supposed to become, so it was just a fact of my being really Aug 30 19:02:21 You had not considered how you would need to move back there and take them to a very different sort of life? Aug 30 19:02:57 * Morgan shakes his head Aug 30 19:03:02 I was naive Aug 30 19:03:30 How many children did you want? Aug 30 19:04:19 I was happy with Jana. I don't know I'd thought about that Aug 30 19:04:42 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:05:04 Would you have been happy if our plate had said just one? Aug 30 19:05:46 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:06:54 How many children did Dietlinde want? Aug 30 19:08:02 She said she was happy to just have Jana... I've seen a time when she told me she was pregnant, she was thrilled Aug 30 19:08:39 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:08:59 Did you miss sailing then? Aug 30 19:09:08 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:09:18 I did, very much Aug 30 19:11:29 Was it odd going almost straight from the War to being married? Aug 30 19:12:19 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:12:47 I think, though, going from the war to anything was strange for everyone Aug 30 19:13:09 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:13:26 Were you worried how Heinzharold would react? Aug 30 19:13:39 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:14:02 It felt like a betrayal... it _was_ a betrayal, but I couldn't risk it getting back to my parents Aug 30 19:14:43 They would have stopped you? Aug 30 19:15:06 Oh, absolutely Aug 30 19:16:27 * Molly nods, fiddling with the new braids gently Aug 30 19:16:39 What did you like best about being married? Aug 30 19:18:07 The love without restriction, same as I do now... I didn't have to guard my feelings about her, as I don't have to about you Aug 30 19:19:16 That is an intriguing answer. How would that look differently to loving with restriction? Aug 30 19:20:11 Its... I don't need to keep it to myself, to guard that information from others Aug 30 19:22:30 You felt that with me before we wed? Aug 30 19:23:03 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:24:41 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:25:16 Marriage is the only state in which such feelings are publicly acceptable? Aug 30 19:25:37 Realistically, aye Aug 30 19:27:10 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:27:23 Was there anything you disliked about marriage? Aug 30 19:27:33 Only the reaction of my family Aug 30 19:30:29 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:30:50 What things are the same about this marriage and that one? Aug 30 19:31:33 Aside from the obvious ones, my family et cetera... Aug 30 19:32:32 Your family have not been an issue for us Aug 30 19:33:56 Sorry, I took the question the wrong way... similarities are things like the strength I gain from you, that no matter the difficulties I face, your love for me does not waver Aug 30 19:34:09 * Molly smiles Aug 30 19:34:17 I am glad you feel that Aug 30 19:34:22 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:35:18 There are a lot of differences in the way we live, how we travel and the circles we move in? Aug 30 19:35:27 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:35:36 absolutely. Almost completely different Aug 30 19:35:51 What else? Aug 30 19:36:04 Similarities? Aug 30 19:36:14 Differences Aug 30 19:37:10 Ah... she let me deal with my challenges, rather than trying to stand in for me... that is not a criticism... Aug 30 19:37:41 I am a meddler, like my mother *she smiles* Aug 30 19:38:15 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:38:26 More fiery than Dietlinde, too Aug 30 19:39:21 It's the hair Aug 30 19:40:32 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 19:40:37 maybe Aug 30 19:42:04 It's associated with passion too, I am maybe a little much of that Aug 30 19:42:36 I wouldn't say a bit much... but passionate? Definitely Aug 30 19:42:47 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:43:20 I think you are too, it just took a little while for us to discover that about each other Aug 30 19:43:40 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:43:46 It is a... recent development Aug 30 19:44:57 * Molly nods, taking a deep breath Aug 30 19:45:19 You were more like Inga believes you are? Aug 30 19:45:37 More tender and loving but... close Aug 30 19:45:47 Close? Aug 30 19:45:58 Inga's belief of me... Aug 30 19:47:15 That you were very conventional? Aug 30 19:47:23 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:48:33 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:48:49 That is what you anticipated with me? Aug 30 19:49:01 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 19:49:05 I wasn't sure Aug 30 19:49:21 I certainly did not expect.... On a chair, so... brutally... Aug 30 19:49:33 * Molly tilts her head Aug 30 19:50:06 So you knew it could be like that, but you were not inclined to be that sort of man? Aug 30 19:50:16 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 19:50:27 It never occurred to me. Aug 30 19:52:56 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:53:20 Do you regret that, that you were less worldly? Aug 30 19:53:30 With her? Aug 30 19:53:35 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:54:18 No. I don't regret how I was with her... or how I am with you, aside from being so reserved for so long Aug 30 19:54:42 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:55:12 You do not feel what we have, how we are in those moments, is too rough for you, too passionate? Aug 30 19:56:18 I worry that it is not _right_ for me to be like that with you... Aug 30 19:56:37 But you do enjoy it? Aug 30 19:57:07 * Morgan nods Aug 30 19:57:11 Very much. And you? Aug 30 19:57:19 * Molly nods eagerly Aug 30 19:57:22 Absolutely Aug 30 19:58:08 Does it trouble you _because_ it is not the same? Aug 30 19:58:37 No Aug 30 19:58:45 * Molly nods Aug 30 19:59:30 We could be gentler and more conventional, if you wished it Aug 30 19:59:36 Sometimes... Aug 30 20:00:33 You only need to say, my love. I want to make you happy Aug 30 20:00:47 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:00:48 I know Aug 30 20:02:09 Did you feel it helped you, when we wed, to already know what you were doing? Aug 30 20:02:46 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 20:02:48 A little Aug 30 20:03:31 But not much? Aug 30 20:04:55 No... I did not like to think that you would be hurt Aug 30 20:06:00 Would it have been if you had not known? Aug 30 20:06:14 I don't understand Aug 30 20:06:41 If you had also been a virgin, and had no idea it would hurt? Aug 30 20:06:56 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 20:06:58 I don't know Aug 30 20:07:41 * Molly nods Aug 30 20:08:49 Do you regret that I had some knowledge from the girls on the Coral before anything physical happened between us? Aug 30 20:09:48 No... I think that helped ease us into it, don't you? Aug 30 20:10:05 * Molly nods Aug 30 20:10:37 I am not sure anything would have happened before our wedding day if it had been entirely up to you to raise it Aug 30 20:11:18 No, probably not... Aug 30 20:13:45 And that would have been even more torturous! Aug 30 20:14:30 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:14:32 Definitely Aug 30 20:15:57 * Molly smiles Aug 30 20:16:14 I certainly did not regret that night that you knew what to do! Aug 30 20:16:29 No? Aug 30 20:18:50 I was completely clueless about that. I truly believed that the girls having the competition for who could make the most convincing sounds were doing something that women were supposed to do to please men, not because there was anything enjoyable for women where intimacy was concerned Aug 30 20:19:22 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:19:30 I think my father still believes that Aug 30 20:20:46 * Molly giggles Aug 30 20:20:58 I am not sure I wish to consider that! Aug 30 20:21:07 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:21:42 I have asked you many questions. Is there anything you wish to ask me? Aug 30 20:22:35 I worry that you compare yourself to her... that you hold yourself back from me for fear of upsetting me Aug 30 20:25:02 I do still compare myself, I suppose, but I do not think of it very often. Sometimes I am careful in how I phrase things, but I do not hold back because of it Aug 30 20:25:13 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:26:52 Was that what you expected? Aug 30 20:27:07 * Morgan shrugs Aug 30 20:27:15 Hoped, perhaps, but I didn't expect it Aug 30 20:27:29 How is that your hope? Aug 30 20:28:00 I hoped that you did not constantly hold back or compare yourself... Aug 30 20:29:51 The only thing that holds me back is that if I didn't we would get caught very often in compromising positions Aug 30 20:30:34 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:30:49 Thats probably just as well Aug 30 20:31:59 Is it? Aug 30 20:32:47 Oh yes... can you imagine the dressing down my father would give me? Aug 30 20:34:40 That is not behaviour befitting a Duke. You are not an animal, Morgan. *she giggles* Aug 30 20:35:17 Something along those lines, yesh Aug 30 20:35:38 * Molly smiles Aug 30 20:35:50 Was there anything else you wish to ask me? Aug 30 20:36:10 Are you... content with the decision we have just made? Aug 30 20:36:21 * Molly smiles Aug 30 20:36:35 Yes, and I am being very well-behaved about it. Aug 30 20:36:41 Oh? Aug 30 20:37:03 You are dressed, I am dressed. I am doing very well. Aug 30 20:37:21 * Morgan blushes Aug 30 20:37:47 wouldn[t work yet anyway... though, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't aware that the desk over there is about the right height for certain... activities Aug 30 20:38:09 * Molly bites her lip, glancing at it Aug 30 20:39:19 Yes it is... and it would not need to be for the purpose of actually conceiving, just that it is exciting to be removing those barriers... Aug 30 20:39:31 True... Aug 30 20:40:54 Do you feel that too? Aug 30 20:41:25 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:43:43 * Molly watches him with a smile Aug 30 20:44:07 We really did not ought to take advantage of the moment... Aug 30 20:44:17 No... we shouldn't Aug 30 20:45:41 * Molly nods, but she's stroking her thumb over his hand Aug 30 20:46:01 Despite it being the perfect height, it is not our desk... Aug 30 20:46:46 No, its not... Aug 30 20:46:54 But then... Aug 30 20:47:10 * Molly nods Aug 30 20:47:41 If we go out of this door, it is almost certain someone will intercept us on the way upstairs... Aug 30 20:47:54 That is true Aug 30 20:48:55 And that would mean you had to ride out... and I cannot promise I would not torment you by sending my thoughts to you... Aug 30 20:49:38 I'm not sure that would be tolerable Aug 30 20:50:16 No, it would be hard to ride hard whilst hard? *she smirks* Aug 30 20:50:24 Quite so Aug 30 20:51:03 What to do, hmm? Aug 30 20:51:16 What to do indeed Aug 30 20:52:00 * Molly kneels up on the couch, bringing her mouth close to his Aug 30 20:52:08 Perhaps a kiss would suffice...? Aug 30 20:52:21 I think we both know that's going to make matters worse... Aug 30 20:53:06 Is it? Even gently, like this? *she kisses him softly then runs her tongue along his lower lip* Aug 30 20:53:15 * Morgan nods Aug 30 20:53:18 Even that Aug 30 20:54:59 I would have thought it would take much more, like... *she moves to sit across his lap, and kisses him the same again Aug 30 20:56:06 That is quite cruel of you my love Aug 30 20:57:28 You are not enjoying it? *she grinds a little in his lap* it does not seem that way Aug 30 20:57:40 I did not say that Aug 30 20:58:45 * Molly gently sucks on his lower lip this time Aug 30 20:59:47 * Morgan moans quietly Aug 30 20:59:53 You want me to let you free? Aug 30 21:00:08 _should_ do Aug 30 21:00:47 Mmmhmmm *she nips at it* Aug 30 21:01:27 * Morgan grunts in frustration before picking her up and carrying her to the desk Aug 30 21:02:53 * Molly just smiles Aug 30 21:04:18 If we are caught... Aug 30 21:05:29 Yes? Aug 30 21:05:51 * Molly starts kissing down his neck Aug 30 21:06:11 There will be no end of trouble Aug 30 21:06:42 Oh yes, but how good is it going to feel, hmm? Aug 30 21:07:12 * Morgan nods, pulling her to the edge of the desk Aug 30 21:07:49 * Molly pulls the layers of her skirts up Aug 30 21:09:10 * Morgan moves closer to her Aug 30 21:09:14 We should lock the door Aug 30 21:10:00 We should... *she rubs her palm over his crotch* Aug 30 21:10:30 Given our history of being interrupted... Aug 30 21:12:12 Mmhmm... but I want you, liebes herz... Aug 30 21:12:36 * Morgan shudders, undoing the buttons on his placket Aug 30 21:13:27 * Molly watches his hand raptly Aug 30 21:13:58 You like to hear me say it? Aug 30 21:14:02 * Morgan nods Aug 30 21:15:06 * Molly glances up briefly to say quietly "I want you..." Aug 30 21:15:47 * Molly goes back to watching his hand Aug 30 21:16:04 * Morgan flushes, pulling his manhood free of his trousers Aug 30 21:17:12 * Molly blushes a little too, subconsciously licking her lower lip "you are so perfect..." Aug 30 21:17:51 * Morgan makes a pff noise as he moves his hardness against her Aug 30 21:18:48 * Molly looks up at him once more, pushing against him Aug 30 21:19:04 You want me this way, so you can see me? Aug 30 21:19:15 * Morgan nods Aug 30 21:22:08 * Molly reaches between them, stroking her finger tips up his length until they reach her own body Aug 30 21:24:53 * Morgan puts gentle pressure against her Aug 30 21:25:54 * Molly watches him with a smile Aug 30 21:26:00 Slow and steady? Aug 30 21:26:39 Not too slow... we're risking a lot here Aug 30 21:27:08 However you wish, my love Aug 30 21:33:05 * Morgan nods Aug 30 21:33:07 Tell me again Aug 30 21:34:23 * Molly smiles, looking at him. "I... want... you..." Aug 30 21:34:46 * Morgan 's brows come together as he pushes himself firmly into her Aug 30 21:35:35 * Molly moans softly "oh yes, like that..." Aug 30 21:36:48 * Morgan withdraws before pushing back in a little faster, picking up a firm rhythm Aug 30 21:38:53 * Molly tries to stay quiet, bracing herself with her arms behind her on the desk. She watches him with wide pupils. "Oh god you are so good at this..." Aug 30 21:40:01 * Morgan shifts, planting his lips to hers as he fucks her gently Aug 30 21:41:50 * Molly kisses him back, bringing her legs up around his hips Aug 30 21:43:34 * Morgan pulls away slightly after a couple of minutes Aug 30 21:43:43 My love, its not going to be long... Aug 30 21:44:03 * Molly watches him, looking slightly confused Aug 30 21:44:12 Is that a problem? Aug 30 21:47:51 I didn['t want to leave you unsatisfied... Aug 30 21:49:03 I am not sure what you are suggesting, my love Aug 30 21:50:27 I don't... I don't know... Aug 30 21:50:33 * Morgan blows out a breath slowly Aug 30 21:51:32 * Molly puts her hand on his shirt, pulling him back to her "just have me, my love." Aug 30 21:52:30 * Morgan nods slightly, thrusting into her a little harder for a few minutes until, whimpering quietly, he spends himself in her Aug 30 21:53:38 * Molly kisses him softly, a hand gently on his cheek Aug 30 21:57:49 * Morgan takes a minute to catch his breath before withdrawing, kissing her Aug 30 21:57:55 We'd best hurry Aug 30 21:58:01 * Molly fishes a cream cloth from her pocket, gently cleaning him up. She's just finished when he hears a whistling from the hall Aug 30 21:58:47 * Morgan mutters Aug 30 21:58:48 Shit Aug 30 21:59:02 *it sounds like Heinzharold* Aug 30 21:59:39 * Molly puts down her skirts and hops off the desk Aug 30 22:00:12 *there's a knock* Aug 30 22:00:23 * Morgan moves to lean against the desk Aug 30 22:00:26 Come in Aug 30 22:01:28 *HH does so. Molly is trying to get the cream flannels back in her pocket, but misses it and drops it on the floor* Aug 30 22:02:22 HH: They're gettin' saddled up, I said I'd come for you *he glances briefly at the cloth before looking back up* Aug 30 22:05:25 Right. I'll be there in a minute Aug 30 22:06:53 * Disconnected () **** ENDING LOGGING AT Tue Aug 30 22:06:55 2022 **** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Aug 30 22:08:12 2022 Aug 30 22:08:12 * Now talking on #7thsea Aug 30 22:09:34 yes... very oh dear Aug 30 22:09:52 * Molly picks the cloth up Aug 30 22:10:01 At least it was only Heinzharold? Aug 30 22:12:40 * Morgan nods Aug 30 22:12:48 He'll only tell Inga... and Claudia... Aug 30 22:12:57 And Inga won't believe him because... well, its me... Aug 30 22:13:21 And Claudia will say "It's him, what do you expect?" Aug 30 22:15:19 True Aug 30 22:16:15 * Molly smiles Aug 30 22:16:41 I had best get on with learning to play bridge! Aug 30 22:17:05 Perhaps... wipe down the desk, lest any imprints remain... Aug 30 22:17:15 * Molly giggles Aug 30 22:17:56 I think it is only handprints as my dress was in the way on my bare bottom being on it Aug 30 22:18:14 * Morgan nods Aug 30 22:18:16 Good point Aug 30 22:18:45 * Molly kisses his cheek Aug 30 22:18:53 You should go Aug 30 22:20:21 * Morgan nods Aug 30 22:20:25 Alright my love. I'll see you soon Aug 30 22:20:46 Enjoy your ride, mon petit chou. Aug 30 22:21:02 * Morgan nods, kissing her hard for a moment before breaking away and heading for the stable Aug 30 22:21:27 [tease. I will be thinking of you.] Aug 30 22:21:36 [I would hope so] Aug 30 22:21:44 * Molly is now known as HH Aug 30 22:22:03 * HH is loitering near the door that leads to the stables Aug 30 22:22:22 Happy Prophets Mass, Almighty Ruler Aug 30 22:22:44 And to you my friend Aug 30 22:25:37 * HH grins Aug 30 22:25:52 Mine will be later, bit too busy for me right now Aug 30 22:26:08 * Morgan blushes Aug 30 22:27:26 * HH just laughs, patting him on the shoulder Aug 30 22:28:25 Go on, I'll run some interference, give Molly some time to get 'er thoughts in order Aug 30 22:31:07 * Morgan nods, thanking him Aug 30 22:31:51 * HH goes off whistling again Aug 30 22:32:45 * Morgan heads into the stables Aug 30 22:33:26 *Adalbrecht is with them in the stables. He looks at Morgan* You're' flushed, did you run in case they left without you? Aug 30 22:33:32 * HH is now known as Edward Aug 30 22:34:01 I didn't want to hold anyone up Aug 30 22:34:06 * Edward looks at Morgan a moment before smiling slightly and checking the horse's reins Aug 30 22:34:39 Ad: You wanted to talk to me, then you went off with Molly. Aug 30 22:34:50 * Morgan nods Aug 30 22:35:04 * Edward moves to check the stirrups Aug 30 22:35:32 *Joseff also checks the fit on the other horses* Aug 30 22:35:38 Sorry... Edward and I had a rather deep conversation this morning and Molly wanted to be sure I wasn't distressed at all... and then we had to have quite a serious conversation ourselves Aug 30 22:36:57 *Adalbrecht looks concerned* is everything alright? Aug 30 22:41:36 * Morgan nods Aug 30 22:41:40 Everything is fine my lord Aug 30 22:50:48 *Adalbrecht nods* Find me when you return. Aug 30 22:53:17 I will, father Aug 30 22:55:48 * Edward , the Valet, Morgan and Joseff ride out. They skirt the lake at a slow place in respect of Joseff's increasing infirmity. It's cold but beautiful, some snow on the ground and the rain clouds brewing. They take a rest at a little cabin at the shore. Aug 30 22:55:58 * Edward is now known as Joseff Aug 30 22:56:41 Maria and I used to swim here. It is the calmest and shallowest part. Aug 30 22:57:01 * Morgan nods, watching him Aug 30 22:57:10 We don't swim in the Sudlache Aug 30 22:58:51 * Joseff nods, watching the lapping water Aug 30 22:59:01 Mina learnt to swim here Aug 30 22:59:49 I imagine this is where her children will learn... Aug 30 23:00:51 * Joseff smiles Aug 30 23:00:58 I hope they do, your Excellency Aug 30 23:02:16 Please, we have known eachother long enough to dispense with that, Joseff Aug 30 23:03:08 * Joseff nods Aug 30 23:03:16 What do you think of Graben? Aug 30 23:03:51 * Morgan chuckles Aug 30 23:04:08 I think its cold... but the views to the mountains are breathtaking Aug 30 23:05:01 * Joseff nods Aug 30 23:05:33 Maria used to say the cold was worth it for the snow, and much in life is like that. Aug 30 23:05:48 * Morgan nods Aug 30 23:05:53 I'm inclined to agree Aug 30 23:07:57 They say here "Bol zausiody pobac z radasciu"... do you speak old Ussuran? Aug 30 23:08:45 *It means "pain is always beside joy" Aug 30 23:09:01 A little, yes... certainly I understand that statement Aug 30 23:10:15 * Joseff nods Aug 30 23:10:32 I thought you might Aug 30 23:10:46 *Edward motions to Morgan* Aug 30 23:10:53 * Morgan looks at him Aug 30 23:12:02 * Joseff is now known as Edward Aug 30 23:12:08 * Edward moves aside Aug 30 23:12:19 * Morgan excuses himself from Joseff, following him Aug 30 23:12:23 Does he seem lucid to you? Aug 30 23:12:28 * Morgan nods Aug 30 23:12:32 Yes, he does Aug 30 23:12:48 * Edward nods Aug 30 23:12:54 Now is the time then Aug 30 23:14:10 You want me to give you some privacy? Aug 30 23:16:04 No, stay. Aug 30 23:17:12 * Morgan nods, moving back to sit by Joseff Aug 30 23:17:22 * Edward takes a deep breath before going to Joseff. "my Lord, I need to talk to you." Joseff nods "Yes, Edward?" Aug 30 23:17:46 * Edward puts his hands in his pockets, thinking how to phrase it Aug 30 23:18:34 Mina and I are concerned about your memory lapses. It is becoming noticeable to those around us. Aug 30 23:19:09 * Morgan looks away slightly, frowning Aug 30 23:19:30 *Joseff looks to Morgan* I get a little confused on occassion. Sometimes I think I hear her, or see her. You know how that is, Morgan. Aug 30 23:19:54 * Edward looks out over the lake Aug 30 23:20:03 * Morgan looks back to Joseff Aug 30 23:22:07 I do but... your moments of confusion are a natural consequence of time. Aug 30 23:24:39 *Edward inclines his head to Morgan* Joseff, allow me to be very frank with you. You have been an excellent Freiarr, and Mina and I wish to uphold your legacy, and even build upon it. But I want you to consider that to preserve that legacy it would be smoother now for you to advise me to stand in your stead, rather than supporting you through the Aug 30 23:24:39 next few months and years where the confusion will only get worse. Aug 30 23:25:03 J: *he frowns* You want to be the Freiarr now, before I am dead. Aug 30 23:27:20 ACTION glances briefly at Morgan before looking back to Joseff "I want Graben to be strong and steady. I believe that the best way for that is for me to take the role now, whilst you are here to teach me, rather than to wait until you are unable to hand it over with dignity and good spirits that inspire your subjects' admiration. But the choice is Aug 30 23:27:20 yours. Aug 30 23:28:14 J: I can understand your rationale. Aug 30 23:29:09 * Morgan waits quietly, watching Joseff Aug 30 23:29:14 * Edward glances at Morgan again briefly Aug 30 23:30:28 How do you feel about that Joseff? Aug 30 23:30:58 J: I do not like it Aug 30 23:32:19 Then I will continue to support you in the time ahead, and step in to manage issues that arise in the times you are incapacitated Aug 30 23:32:41 * Morgan raises a finger to Edward before turning to Joseff Aug 30 23:32:48 Would you tell me why you don't like it? Aug 30 23:33:44 J: This is my land. I have been responsible for it for decades, and I do not want to be some crippled old man no longer respected Aug 30 23:34:03 * Morgan nods Aug 30 23:35:02 I understand. Are you willing to listen to my view on it? Aug 30 23:35:29 : Yes Aug 30 23:35:33 J* Aug 30 23:35:43 * Morgan looks over the lake for a moment Aug 30 23:40:24 My brother occasionally has an absolute inability to be anything but too direct... Its a natural reaction to object to that, and I understand your concern that you would no longer be respected, though I do not believe that to be the case. Edward and Mina both want what is best for Graben, and for you. You understand that I will not lie to you? Aug 30 23:41:03 J: Your brother is not being too direct. I value that. Yes, I understand. Aug 30 23:42:31 You obviously trust him to lead Graben in the future, or no amount of my... bullying would have persuaded you to let him wed Mina... Aug 30 23:44:08 J: I do. The past is in the past, and I think my daughter and my town will be safe with him Aug 30 23:44:23 * Edward looks at the ground a moment Aug 30 23:44:36 And you understand that he has no desire to grab for power? Aug 30 23:44:44 J: I do Aug 30 23:45:35 * Morgan nods slowly Aug 30 23:47:43 I want you to consider something... which would carry more respect... holding on until you could no longer carry out your duties, your decisions being questioned by your peers... or handing the reins to Edward, guiding him, letting him prove himself to you which, I'm sure you are aware, he is desperate to do, before you get to the point where you cannot make that decision? Aug 30 23:48:36 *Joseff sighs* you are right Aug 30 23:50:07 There would be other advantages... you could spend time with Mina... write some memoirs which, frankly, I would be interested in reading as, I am sure, would Edward. Aug 30 23:50:38 *Joseff nods* I could do that Aug 30 23:51:08 * Morgan nods, watching Joseffs expression closely Aug 30 23:51:43 *he looks unhappy, but compliant* Aug 30 23:54:31 By asking you to consider this, he is showing you how strong his desire to protect you, Mina and Graben is, but the fact he would abide by your decision whichever it may be shows how deeply he respects you. I'm sure you can see that Aug 30 23:54:59 J: I can, yes. Aug 30 23:55:41 I think it would be the right thing to do Aug 30 23:58:56 * Edward nods "This is weighing on Mina, my Lord, she wants to see you relaxing and resting. She feels you have done such a good job all these years that she wants you to take it easy. She is very conscious now that she might not have you for many more years, and does not want all the work of the Freiarrdom taking from that time"