**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Tue Aug 16 11:19:50 2022 Aug 16 11:19:50 * Morgan (~mads@iMac-2.lan) has joined Aug 16 12:07:56 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Aug 16 12:11:08 *the men and women have all moved in together, a big card game going on. Christopher seems to be having fun as the banker. It's warm and cheerful. Dekker excuses himself from play and brings Morgan a glass of whiskey* Aug 16 12:11:12 * MollyK is now known as Dekker Aug 16 12:11:29 Did you find DeeDee, your Excellency? Aug 16 12:13:30 I did, yes Aug 16 12:15:23 His innards are still contained? Aug 16 12:15:51 * Morgan nods Aug 16 12:15:52 aye Aug 16 12:17:44 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:18:39 The paperwork for the purchase is ready. I trust the date suits? Aug 16 12:19:59 * Morgan nods Aug 16 12:20:27 I'm going to impose on Edward, I imagine he'll have a bank draft I can use Aug 16 12:20:58 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:21:16 I am sure he will. Diana is very happy Aug 16 12:21:45 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 12:21:51 I am glad of that Aug 16 12:23:28 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:24:15 She has plans to move from my current house in Wittenberg to something bigger, where my boys can live when they are not at boarding school Aug 16 12:25:00 And you? What do you think of that? Aug 16 12:26:30 I am mulling it over. Those was a gift from my second wife's father, all three of my children were born there, and both Mary and Vania passed away there Aug 16 12:30:48 It would be painful to leave it Aug 16 12:31:06 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:33:21 It would. But she has a point that a Baronet and his wife should have somewhere in a more fashionable area. I want Diana to be happy, and she will be in another house. One reason Hafenlohr was not to her liking was that it prevented us moving in Wittenberg Aug 16 12:34:20 Might I make an observation? Aug 16 12:34:25 Of course Aug 16 12:35:04 Could it be that your already established connection to the house makes her feel... like she doesn't compare, perhaps? Aug 16 12:37:28 *he mulls this over* I suppose it might feel a bit like walking into mausoleum. I have never really cleared anything out. Vania felt it was important that Lottie, my daughter, saw signs of her mother's presence and importance in my life still. Aug 16 12:38:21 * Morgan nods Aug 16 12:39:56 Your former wives cast a large shadow, and I wouldn't be surprised if Diana finds it intimidating... she is certainly aware that she is not as liked by Edward and his friends nearly so much as Vania. Aug 16 12:41:30 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:42:21 *he moves further from the others* That she has not had a child has an impact too. Aug 16 12:42:49 * Morgan nods Aug 16 12:43:07 It is something that defines part of being a woman to most Aug 16 12:43:15 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:44:03 And I already have three children. But she loves Peaches like a child, and I will let her have another in the new year Aug 16 12:45:25 * Morgan nods Aug 16 12:47:06 It is a sensitive subject for her, of course Aug 16 12:48:20 * Morgan nods slowly Aug 16 12:48:48 of course. Aug 16 12:52:01 I hope that you would be willing to keep in touch in the years ahead and let me know how Hafenlohr and the staff are doing Aug 16 12:53:46 If you wish that, of course. I imagine being in touch with a duke and duchess wouldn't harm Diana's standing in her social circle either... Aug 16 12:55:21 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:55:42 She would be delighted to have Molly as a correspondent Aug 16 12:58:40 * Morgan nods Aug 16 12:58:46 I'm sure that can be arranged Aug 16 12:59:08 Is there anything I need to know about any of the staff? Particular things that bother or upset them to avoid, for example Aug 16 12:59:26 * Dekker nods Aug 16 12:59:34 I will draw you up a list Aug 16 12:59:53 * Morgan nods Aug 16 13:00:07 Thank you. I do not wish to inadvertently upset any of them Aug 16 13:01:14 * Dekker nods Aug 16 13:01:45 They are all very understanding and take care of each other, don't worry. They will serve you well Aug 16 13:03:00 I've no doubt of that, but I would feel awful if I triggered some awful memory or anything like that. Aug 16 13:05:42 It happens to the best of us at times. Memories come back, don't they, no matter what you do? Aug 16 13:09:13 * Morgan nods Aug 16 13:09:20 aye Aug 16 13:12:48 *Dekker gets called back to the game, and makes space for Morgan to play to. It's a very odd game where everyone gets one card that they have to hold face out on their foreheads, then the rest of the cards are laid face up by the dealer whilst the players have their eyes closed. Then they a Aug 16 13:13:23 have to open them, and the winner is the first to correctly yell out what their own card is by process of elimination Aug 16 13:15:13 *Inga is absolutely excellent at this game, much to Heinzharold's shock at being beaten at something like this. Everyone joins in though, even Verity seems to be enjoying the rawkus game* Aug 16 13:16:39 *Gradually all parties call it a night, and Molly comes to him* Aug 16 13:16:43 * Dekker is now known as Molly Aug 16 13:16:58 That was fun, yet very odd! Aug 16 13:17:27 That was... a very peculiar game Aug 16 13:17:33 * Molly smiles Aug 16 13:18:07 Given the sort of card games military men get up to, I am told, it's at least family friendly! Aug 16 13:18:56 * Morgan nods Aug 16 13:19:20 Do you need to walk around, my love? Aug 16 13:20:17 No, I don't think I do Aug 16 13:23:49 * Molly nods Aug 16 13:23:58 I am ready to retire then Aug 16 13:25:21 * Morgan nods Aug 16 13:25:23 Alright my love Aug 16 13:27:55 * Molly goes through all the usual familiar process of getting ready for bed. She's just in her shift when she points out the travel writing desk that came from the loft in Innesbruck Aug 16 13:27:59 What is this? Aug 16 13:28:30 Ah... that came from the loft in Innesbruck... there are letters in there I believe Aug 16 13:30:18 Who from? Aug 16 13:30:32 * Molly finishes getting into bed Aug 16 13:30:38 Several people Aug 16 13:30:52 What are you planning to do with them? Aug 16 13:30:54 * Morgan wanders over to check the mirror Aug 16 13:31:02 Probably read them... or give them back. I don't know yet Aug 16 13:32:22 *there's a painting of some flowers, and it says "we will check on the hour at nine, ten, and eleven, Florrie is excited to talk to you, a little shy about talking to her Father. Alice" Aug 16 13:32:42 Alright liebling Aug 16 13:32:54 Have a look if you wish blossom Aug 16 13:33:27 I rather thought maybe you could hold me and catch me up on your conversations this evening? Aug 16 13:33:58 * Morgan nods, putting the mirror away and getting ready for bed Aug 16 13:39:08 * Molly waits for him, smiling Aug 16 13:39:25 * Morgan climbs into bed, sitting up Aug 16 13:40:22 * Molly holds his hand Aug 16 13:47:58 What did your Father say? Aug 16 13:49:47 Lets see... I need to get a bank draft to fill out, then I can sign the papers... the completion date would be 1st of may Aug 16 13:51:02 We talked about when we would plan to have our first child... he was surprised at the delay Aug 16 13:52:09 That's very exciting about the house! Aug 16 13:52:49 * Morgan nods Aug 16 13:52:57 I'm going to organise the draft tomorrow Aug 16 13:53:15 * Molly squeezes his hand, smiling Aug 16 13:53:30 I should write you one for the half I am paying for? Aug 16 13:54:33 I take it you will not back down on that... Aug 16 13:55:00 * Molly smiles Aug 16 13:55:24 It is important to you to buy our home yourself? Aug 16 13:55:35 * Morgan shrugs Aug 16 13:57:22 More that it is something I think I've been ingrained to do Aug 16 13:57:33 * Molly watches him Aug 16 13:59:12 If you prefer me to be an equal in this, I will. If it will satisfy something in you to buy a home and take Varick and I to it, I will do that too. If you want it to be like it was last time, if it means something to you that way, I only want to make you happy Aug 16 14:01:08 * Morgan sighs Aug 16 14:01:12 I'm not sure Aug 16 14:01:41 Why, my love? Perhaps if you tell me your feelings I can help? Aug 16 14:02:28 Its just... what I'm supposed to do, provide a home for my family Aug 16 14:03:22 But you do not want that? Aug 16 14:03:54 You were adamant you wished to contribute to it... Aug 16 14:04:59 Not if it costs you a moment of insecurity or heartache, my love Aug 16 14:05:26 * Morgan shrugs Aug 16 14:05:43 You would follow my wishes regardless, wouldn't you? Aug 16 14:06:54 * Molly thinks Aug 16 14:07:10 In almost everything single thing our lives throw at us Aug 16 14:08:29 Almost? Aug 16 14:10:20 Who can be completely sure? If you were going to sacrifice yourself for someone else, I might not go along nicely with that Aug 16 14:10:59 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:13:19 But in this, yes, I would absolutely follow your wishes Aug 16 14:16:04 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:17:01 It has been disappointing to you that I wanted to pay? Aug 16 14:18:23 No my love. It is conflicting, though... Aug 16 14:18:53 Your progressiveness and your sense of what a man should be? Aug 16 14:19:06 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:25:31 Think on it, my love. I could do it further down the line Aug 16 14:26:24 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:27:47 As to the other... that is not your Fathers choice Aug 16 14:29:32 No, it isn't Aug 16 14:29:59 I can understand his enthusiasm... Aug 16 14:30:15 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:30:34 He'll have Jarvies little one to dote on in the not terribly distant future Aug 16 14:32:38 * Molly nods Aug 16 14:32:58 I am sure he will do so... I do worry for you in that Aug 16 14:34:04 What? Aug 16 14:34:48 How your parents will dote on everyone's babies, especially Florrie. Aug 16 14:36:19 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:36:43 I'm sure that will be in their minds too Aug 16 14:37:04 * Molly nods sadly Aug 16 14:37:49 We can but wait and see. What about Dekker? Aug 16 14:38:57 He was asking if I'd found DeeDee... and if his insides were still on his inside... Claudia's going to tell him to stop seeking her out, incidentally Aug 16 14:40:10 * Molly frowns Aug 16 14:40:19 He is overstepping? Aug 16 14:41:37 Its so much more complicated. Her history has rather tainted her view of men, and he doesn't quite fit into that. It's making her uncomfortable. Aug 16 14:42:02 Hmmm that is rather tough Aug 16 14:44:25 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:44:55 She has trouble understand that he is attracted to her, aroused by her even, but has not tried to force himself upon her. It's confusing her. Aug 16 14:45:11 * Molly 's brows raise Aug 16 14:45:35 Well he should not be telling her _that_, for a start! Aug 16 14:46:08 He didn't... I suppose when you've faced what she has, you become very good at spotting it... from his eyes and breathing, apparently Aug 16 14:47:09 I wish I was that perceptive with you! *she smiles* So, why does she spend time with him? Theus knows she is scary enough to just tell him to not even look at her gain! Aug 16 14:49:26 I don't think she knows. I think... she is mildly attracted to him but doesn't understand thats what it is... Aug 16 14:49:54 * Molly nods Aug 16 14:50:17 Perhaps it is best she tells him to leave her alone then Aug 16 14:50:45 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:54:37 If only Sorgi was here, he would help her understand her feelings better Aug 16 14:55:13 * Morgan nods Aug 16 14:56:51 It's very complicated Aug 16 14:58:05 Yes, it is Aug 16 14:59:40 Is he pleased about the purchase being under way? Aug 16 15:00:02 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:00:37 He's going to make a list of things that the staff might find difficult, given their circumstances... we spoke for a while about Diana, and what they plan to do now Aug 16 15:02:05 I did hear her mention that she would like to live closer to the theatre Aug 16 15:04:10 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:04:43 That, however, would mean leaving the house that Viktoria and Vania have lived in, that his daughter lived in... Aug 16 15:05:17 * Molly nods slowly Aug 16 15:06:09 I see. It means him making a very final break from his past and creating a new future just the two of them... Aug 16 15:06:33 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:09:04 A tough decision Aug 16 15:09:30 Very. Aug 16 15:10:58 Maybe there is another solution... perhaps he could keep the old house and spend time there when he needs to? Aug 16 15:11:50 Perhaps... might be worth suggesting Aug 16 15:12:52 * Molly nods Aug 16 15:13:11 Maybe the slow change will be better Aug 16 15:13:19 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:13:21 maybe Aug 16 15:15:38 * Molly sighs Aug 16 15:15:50 It might be worth a suggestion, as you say Aug 16 15:16:03 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:18:59 * Molly kisses his knuckles Aug 16 15:19:32 Perhaps Stef might have something helpful for it? Aug 16 15:21:40 That's an excellent idea Aug 16 15:21:56 * Molly smiles Aug 16 15:22:07 I have them occasionally Aug 16 15:22:21 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 15:24:44 Diana would like to correspond with you... Aug 16 15:25:39 * Molly nods Aug 16 15:26:15 That is fine, it does not take me long, and once we have settled I won't be quite so busy Aug 16 15:27:06 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:28:09 * Molly smiles Aug 16 15:28:42 Until there are babies to nurse, nappy cloths to change, dirty faces to wash Aug 16 15:28:59 HeinzHarold is quite capable of washing his own face Aug 16 15:29:12 * Molly laughs Aug 16 15:29:32 I am certainly not changing his nappy clothes, nor nursing him! Aug 16 15:30:27 * Morgan laughs Aug 16 15:30:29 No, quite Aug 16 15:31:12 * Molly yawns, then smiles "time for sleep, I think" Aug 16 15:31:48 Alright blossom Aug 16 15:32:17 I shouldn't imagine there would be anything keeping you up, after what happened earlier! Aug 16 15:32:51 No... particularly since HeinzHarold had come to find us... Aug 16 15:33:00 Oh dear! Aug 16 15:33:08 indeed Aug 16 15:33:33 Well, if it makes him feel like an only-adequate lover, he should try harder Aug 16 15:34:16 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:34:17 quite Aug 16 15:34:48 * Molly kisses him softly a moment Aug 16 15:34:59 Maybe you should offer him some helpful tips Aug 16 15:35:15 No, I think not Aug 16 15:35:39 Alright, my love. Goodnight Aug 16 15:35:46 Goodnight blossom Aug 16 15:36:53 * Molly sings to him until he is asleep Aug 16 15:37:03 **he starts to dream in his memories. It's prophets mass eve, '66. Last year Dietlinde had gone with him to the midnight church service in the village, pregnant and happy. This year she has stayed home with nine month old Jana. He walks fast in the dark, more at ease once he is in the safe clearing of his home. He sees a candle glow in his bedroom Aug 16 15:37:03 * Molly has quit (Excess Flood) Aug 16 15:37:24 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Aug 16 15:37:47 **he starts to dream in his memories. It's prophets mass eve, '66. Last year Dietlinde had gone with him to the midnight church service in the village, pregnant and happy. This year she has stayed home with nine month old Jana. He walks fast in the dark, more at ease once he is in the safe clearing of his home. He sees a candle glow in his bedroom Aug 16 15:37:48 window where the two most precious things in the world are. He checks all the locks in the dark cottage before going up, taking a big step over the one stair that always creaks. Aug 16 15:37:48 **It makes little odds, Dietlinde is still awake, her long fair hair in a braid over her shoulder. She's sewing in the bed, new fabric he had given her as her gift before he went out. At the crib by the wall he takes a look at the beautiful sleeping child they had made. Maybe in a year or so they'll have another, though it is hard to believe he Aug 16 15:37:48 could love another child like he loves Jana. It would be like loving another wife. Aug 16 15:38:06 *They briefly talk about the evening whilst she watches him undress, and then he slips into the bed and gently pulls her to him. He kisses her sweetly, tenderly, and he can tell from the way she kisses him back that she is eager to make love with him. He spends time caressing her face, her breasts, the stomach that she likes a little less since Aug 16 15:38:06 having become a mother, but that he still finds beautiful. Aug 16 15:38:06 *He moves lower, gently stroking that one spot that brings her so much pleasure, and once he has made sure she is completely ready for him he positions himself atop her, very careful not to hurt her with his weight. He cannot bear the thought of her getting hurt, especially like this, not when he loves her so much. It was bad enough taking her Aug 16 15:38:06 virginity. He is lined up and about to enter her when he hears Jana cry, except it isn't. It's the first chime of the dawn watch, and he realises he is dreaming. Aug 16 15:39:18 * Morgan tries to wake up Aug 16 15:39:25 **he awakens. It's full dark, and beneath the covers he is very hard. Molly is on the other side of the bed, unusually they aren't touching Aug 16 15:40:40 * Morgan tries to get an idea of the time Aug 16 15:41:34 *it's an hour before dawn Aug 16 15:41:52 * Morgan climbs out of bed, getting dressed Aug 16 15:42:09 * MollyK stirs "hmm?" Aug 16 15:42:26 Time for me to get up blossom... that's all Aug 16 15:42:43 Oh, okay *she turns back over* Aug 16 15:43:14 * Morgan picks up his things before heading down to the kitchen Aug 16 15:43:45 *like the previous day, Heinzharold is down here. He already has a jug of coffee* Aug 16 15:43:50 * MollyK is now known as HH Aug 16 15:44:17 Why are you up so early? Aug 16 15:45:58 Nightmare *he picks up two cups* you? Aug 16 15:47:08 I'm always up at this time of day. Wanna tell me about it? Aug 16 15:47:41 * HH shrugs "let's go somewhere warm, it's freezin' out" Aug 16 15:49:16 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:49:17 alright Aug 16 15:51:53 *they hole up in the library, and HH sips his coffee* No big deal, just the fire again. I get it every few weeks or so, always 'ave. Aug 16 15:52:05 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:52:09 I dreamed of them last night Aug 16 15:54:14 Yeah? Aug 16 15:54:24 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:54:39 Did I tell you the dream I had a couple of nights ago? Aug 16 15:54:50 Not sure, tell me again Aug 16 15:56:08 It was how things could've been... Molly had married Seb... I had managed to save Dietlinde and Jana, but a beam came down and killed me... Aug 16 15:57:01 * HH nods Aug 16 15:57:19 Yeah, me and Dietlinde ended up married, you said Aug 16 15:57:28 * Morgan nods Aug 16 15:57:34 I won't tell you again then Aug 16 15:57:39 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 15:57:46 * HH nods Aug 16 15:57:51 Dreamt it again? Aug 16 15:58:47 No, it was just a normal dream... prophets mass, Jana was nine months old... it was just... a dream, nothing to learn, I think, nothing to scare me... Aug 16 15:59:46 Not sure where you're going with this, man? Aug 16 16:01:07 Nowhere Aug 16 16:02:35 Commentin' on having a non-horrible dream of them, or that you aren't upset like ya woulda been? Aug 16 16:05:15 * Morgan shrugs Aug 16 16:05:51 Its a bit... odd... I'm sad, obviously, I miss them but... I'm not distraught like I would've been Aug 16 16:06:01 * HH nods Aug 16 16:06:22 You're healing, man. Aug 16 16:07:38 * Morgan nods Aug 16 16:08:33 You okay with tha'? Aug 16 16:09:01 A bit, I suppose... its... weird. Aug 16 16:10:58 * HH takes another mouthful, resting his feet near the hearth for extra warmth Aug 16 16:11:02 Whysat? Aug 16 16:13:19 Hurting badly about it is what I'm used to Aug 16 16:13:44 * HH nods Aug 16 16:14:30 Time to let go, man Aug 16 16:15:14 * Morgan nods Aug 16 16:21:23 * HH watches to see if he looks alright Aug 16 16:21:41 * Morgan does Aug 16 16:24:40 * HH nods a little "well, congratulations, man. Even a few weeks back you'd have lost your shit at me saying that" Aug 16 16:27:05 * Morgan nods Aug 16 16:27:31 Letting go of the pain doesn't mean letting go of them... moving on doesn't mean I leave them behind Aug 16 16:29:06 Can't leave behind something that shaped you. Aug 16 16:30:02 no Aug 16 16:32:00 * HH nods, watching the flames Aug 16 16:32:18 You sure watching them is a good idea? Aug 16 16:32:58 *he shrugs* I'll be alright in a bit. Probably once Inga is up. What y' doing about your hair, decided yet? Aug 16 16:33:19 Edward thinks I should have it like yours... Aug 16 16:34:02 Yeah, man! We'd be like non-identical twins. You'd look good, but you're never gonna be sexy like me Aug 16 16:34:27 I was thinking of having it like they do in Vesten Aug 16 16:38:33 * HH nods Aug 16 16:39:11 Can't be that difficult. It's just shaving yer face but going up a bit higher Aug 16 16:40:03 * Morgan nods Aug 16 16:40:06 exactly Aug 16 16:40:14 Edward says it isn't very Ducal Aug 16 16:40:39 * HH grins Aug 16 16:40:43 So get a wig Aug 16 16:41:06 Shut your mouth Aug 16 16:41:56 Just tryin'na help you. Wear a wig just for Court, do what ya like with it th' rest of the time Aug 16 16:44:30 No, I don't think so Aug 16 16:48:39 Waiting til we're gone so no one can disapprove, 'cept yer wife Aug 16 16:51:07 No... I'm waiting until I've spoken to Florrie so she isn't alarmed by it Aug 16 16:52:01 * HH nods Aug 16 16:52:07 Whennsat? Aug 16 16:52:23 Sometime this morning Aug 16 16:56:08 * HH nods Aug 16 16:56:20 Need me runnin' interference? Aug 16 16:58:06 Possibly, yes... you and Molly Aug 16 17:17:34 * HH nods Aug 16 17:17:39 Will do Aug 16 17:18:00 You going out for dawn? Aug 16 17:18:12 You be alright? Aug 16 17:25:29 * HH nods Aug 16 17:25:40 Gonna go see if Inga is up Aug 16 17:25:48 * Morgan nods, getting up Aug 16 17:25:55 Time to let go man Aug 16 17:26:11 * HH gets up, hugging him Aug 16 17:26:19 Do my best Aug 16 17:26:21 * Morgan hugs him tightly Aug 16 17:27:20 * HH pats his back before letting go Aug 16 17:32:36 * Morgan looks at him a moment before heading outside Aug 16 17:34:49 *it is very cold and crisp, starting to lighten. He is there til almost dawn when Claudia appears at his side* Aug 16 17:34:57 * HH is now known as Claudia Aug 16 17:35:01 Morning Aug 16 17:35:38 hey Aug 16 17:36:20 How's it going? Aug 16 17:37:03 I'm alright. You? Aug 16 17:39:14 Yeah, not bad Aug 16 17:39:39 * Morgan nods Aug 16 17:41:22 No nightmares? Aug 16 17:43:22 I dreamed of Dietlinde and Jana, but no nightmare... HeinzHarold has, though Aug 16 17:44:17 Makes a change to be him not you Aug 16 17:44:34 * Morgan nods Aug 16 17:44:41 He gets it every few weeks... he dreams of the fire Aug 16 17:46:04 * Claudia looks concerned "is he bad?" Aug 16 17:49:19 * Claudia has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Aug 16 17:53:24 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Aug 16 17:53:50 * MollyK is now known as Claudia Aug 16 17:54:02 [17:34:10] • ​Claudia​ looks concerned "is he bad?" Aug 16 17:54:34 No, just a bit shaken... he's gone to see if Inga is awake Aug 16 17:55:52 * Claudia nods Aug 16 17:56:06 Better than sometimes then Aug 16 17:56:11 * Morgan nods Aug 16 17:56:13 I feel for him Aug 16 17:56:27 * Claudia nods Aug 16 17:56:45 If I hadn't been away, at least he wouldn't have been alone Aug 16 17:57:19 And I'f I'd stayed for another cup of coffee, it wouldn't have happened... we can't keep beating ourselves up Aug 16 17:58:02 Or you'd be dead too Aug 16 17:58:24 * Morgan shrugs Aug 16 17:58:59 We can't know. We've got to start being kinder to ourselves Aug 16 17:59:38 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:00:44 Guess so Aug 16 18:01:30 * Morgan nods, looking at her Aug 16 18:01:48 We've never held any blame for you for not being there... Aug 16 18:02:18 I know. Aug 16 18:03:00 * Morgan nods, looking at the sky Aug 16 18:03:32 *it's nearly dawn* Aug 16 18:03:56 Heinzharold told me what you got from the Eisenfurst Aug 16 18:04:25 Yuck? Aug 16 18:05:35 Kinda sweet that the three of them wanted that Aug 16 18:05:45 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:06:32 aye. I was quite touched by it Aug 16 18:08:23 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:08:40 Let's be honest, you're good at it Aug 16 18:10:39 Rather surprises me, really... I avoided Molly's brothers younger children as much as I could Aug 16 18:11:29 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:11:43 It was like a little swarm. Aug 16 18:12:19 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:12:40 They just accepted Varick with open arms.... That was so sweet to see Aug 16 18:13:15 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:13:53 Kids are like that, they were where I lived Aug 16 18:14:37 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:14:58 and then you spotted someone I simply couldn't ignore Aug 16 18:15:12 Who? Aug 16 18:15:23 Oh, yeah. Aug 16 18:15:45 * Morgan laughs Aug 16 18:17:17 That was a shock. The idea of you picking up some random woman somewhere! Aug 16 18:17:29 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:17:47 Went against your idea of Saint Morgan of Puritytown, huh? Aug 16 18:19:17 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:19:45 Yeah Aug 16 18:20:11 Well, that image could persevere I suppose Aug 16 18:20:48 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:20:59 Even now it's hard to accept Aug 16 18:21:13 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:21:18 Its quite a change for me too Aug 16 18:23:03 Never thought you'd be selfish, just a bit... uninspired Aug 16 18:24:52 I should probably be offended by that Aug 16 18:25:14 * Claudia laughs Aug 16 18:25:22 Probably Aug 16 18:27:18 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:27:27 Are you? Aug 16 18:28:00 No... Because I think... in the past it was accurate Aug 16 18:30:18 Could be worse. Predictable can be safe. Aug 16 18:31:05 I suppose so Aug 16 18:32:38 You see what the stable and tavern stuff was a shock? Aug 16 18:34:03 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:34:06 aye Aug 16 18:35:25 You seem more at ease than ever like that. It makes it easier to tell you stuff Aug 16 18:36:20 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:36:25 Aye, I am I think Aug 16 18:37:18 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:37:54 Weird seeing you and Edward being so pally Aug 16 18:38:23 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:38:24 I know Aug 16 18:41:24 *the sun comes up* Aug 16 18:42:02 I'm going to start the guards going Aug 16 18:43:14 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:43:27 I might join you in a bit... got a few things to do first Aug 16 18:44:12 I'll be here a while Aug 16 18:44:40 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:44:47 Have you arranged with Edward the cost? Aug 16 18:46:12 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:46:18 All dealt with Aug 16 18:46:55 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:47:08 Good... and Lieutenant Dieppe? Aug 16 18:48:07 I haven't seen him Aug 16 18:48:28 You are sure you don't want me to tell him to steer clear? Aug 16 18:48:45 I am Aug 16 18:49:03 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:49:09 Alright. I'll see you a while my friend Aug 16 18:49:30 * Claudia nods Aug 16 18:52:09 * Morgan heads back inside, going via the kitchen to get some tea for Molly Aug 16 18:53:34 *It's easily found. She's already getting ready when he gets there, about to apply lipstick Aug 16 18:53:41 * Claudia is now known as Molly Aug 16 18:54:16 Good morning, my love Aug 16 18:54:20 morning Aug 16 18:54:25 * Morgan puts the tea down in front of her Aug 16 18:56:14 * Molly looks at the lipstick a moment before smiling. She sets it down, and stands, kissing him soundly Aug 16 18:56:57 * Morgan makes a sound of surprise before pressing his lips firmly to hers Aug 16 18:58:56 * Molly licks his lower lip before pulling away with a little smile Aug 16 18:59:18 I thought you might want to do it _before_ my lipstick goes on Aug 16 18:59:47 * Morgan nods Aug 16 18:59:48 indeed Aug 16 19:02:15 * Molly picks it up, bringing it near her mouth. She watches him with mischief as she brings it closer Aug 16 19:06:06 * Morgan watches her suspiciously Aug 16 19:06:22 Last chance, mon petit chou, unless you wish to look very pretty all day... Aug 16 19:08:30 Behave yourself... in case I ravish you and someone _else_ comes along and hears us Aug 16 19:08:59 * Molly bites her lip Aug 16 19:09:15 A high stakes game indeed, and you know how I love them... Aug 16 19:09:30 * Morgan smiles slightly, sitting down Aug 16 19:10:59 * Molly watches him as she very slowly runs the lipstick across her lower lip Aug 16 19:13:38 I'm thinking after Edward and I have spoken with FLorrie, I might find someone to fix my hair Aug 16 19:15:01 * Molly nods, going back to sitting in front of the mirror to finish the lipstick Aug 16 19:15:42 I would imagine there are several valets here Aug 16 19:15:50 * Morgan nods Aug 16 19:15:55 I suppose so... Aug 16 19:17:59 Have you decided what you wish to do with it? Aug 16 19:19:02 Not really Aug 16 19:22:41 * Molly nods, pursing her lips to check the even spread Aug 16 19:23:02 I will support you in whatever you choose Aug 16 19:23:09 Which would you prefer? Aug 16 19:24:47 Only that you are not made more sad by the loss of it Aug 16 19:25:40 * Morgan nods Aug 16 19:29:39 Aside from that, I do not mind, my love, providing I can frequently appreciate it from around two and a half feet away. *she smirks at him in the mirror* Aug 16 19:32:46 * Morgan blushes Aug 16 19:33:54 * Molly giggles Aug 16 19:34:17 You are delightful, mon petit chou Aug 16 19:34:31 And you're a minx Aug 16 19:36:30 * Molly nods Aug 16 19:37:02 Quite. Are you ready for breakfast? Aug 16 19:37:10 * Morgan nods Aug 16 19:37:11 aye Aug 16 19:38:41 * Molly kisses the air beside his cheek without making contact Aug 16 19:40:57 We should get going then Aug 16 19:41:56 * Morgan nods, getting up from the chair Aug 16 19:46:02 * Molly goes through to sort Varick, who has dressed himself. HH and Inga join them, and soon everyone is at breakfast. Joseff is chatty today, seeming very lucid, and Morgan can see how Edward subtly seeks his approval. Mina is sat by Morgan, Molly on his other side Aug 16 19:46:07 * Molly is now known as Mina Aug 16 19:46:44 If you have time today, would you like me to show you the Ussuran influences on the architecture of the house? Aug 16 19:46:54 * Morgan nods Aug 16 19:46:58 I would like that very much Aug 16 19:49:32 * Mina smiles Aug 16 19:50:10 It is nice to have everyone here. Edward is so happy to have his dear friends and family here for the season Aug 16 19:50:38 * Morgan nods Aug 16 19:50:50 Did he tell you how much he missed you yesterday? Aug 16 20:05:44 * Mina has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Aug 16 20:09:32 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Aug 16 20:09:43 ((C&p pls)) Aug 16 20:10:04 * Mina smiles Aug 16 20:10:04 It is nice to have everyone here. Edward is so happy to have his dear friends and family here for the season Aug 16 20:10:04 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:10:04 Did he tell you how much he missed you yesterday? Aug 16 20:10:13 * MollyK is now known as Mina Aug 16 20:10:31 * Mina nods. She might even be blushing a little Aug 16 20:10:53 He did, yes. It is very nice to have him here Aug 16 20:11:38 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:11:52 I will miss him terribly Aug 16 20:11:59 * Mina nods Aug 16 20:13:35 As he will you, I am sure. Next summer we hope to visit you Aug 16 20:15:00 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:15:14 I reckon we can be back for then... Aug 16 20:15:40 I cannot imagine travelling so far Aug 16 20:16:45 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:17:03 Now, I love sailing but... I can imagine wanting to get home by the end of the voyage Aug 16 20:18:48 * Mina has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Aug 16 20:19:16 * MollyK (~igloo@31.185.35.52) has joined Aug 16 20:20:27 * MollyK smiles Aug 16 20:20:33 * MollyK is now known as Mina Aug 16 20:20:46 To Die Dauerhaftigkeit, or your new home? Aug 16 20:22:01 Eisen in general... though I imagine we will be very happy in Hafenlohr Aug 16 20:25:09 I have never been. What do you like about it? Aug 16 20:26:12 The house is light and airy, the grounds are beautiful... it seems somewhere that we, and our children, will be happy Aug 16 20:27:23 * Mina smiles Aug 16 20:27:42 How wonderful that will be, and sooner than you feared Aug 16 20:29:29 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:30:03 A little, aye... My father will be overrun with grandchildren I think Aug 16 20:30:56 * Mina smiles softly Aug 16 20:31:07 I do hope that will be the case Aug 16 20:31:31 * Morgan shrugs Aug 16 20:31:35 The plate says so Aug 16 20:32:15 * Mina nods Aug 16 20:33:02 When will you be at liberty to take a walk through the house and grounds? Aug 16 20:34:03 Probably after lunch, if that suits. I have a few things I need to work through with Edward this morning, then I want to see what sort of level of competency your household guards stand at Aug 16 20:34:36 * Mina nods Aug 16 20:35:04 Then the ladies and I might sew a while and read together Aug 16 20:35:43 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:35:51 I'm sure Molly would gladly join you Aug 16 20:37:20 * Mina happily takes Varick and the ladies off after breakfast, and Edward comes to Morgan Aug 16 20:37:24 * Mina is now known as Edward Aug 16 20:37:33 Is it time? Aug 16 20:38:22 * Morgan glances at the clock Aug 16 20:38:41 *it is ten to nine* Aug 16 20:39:14 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:39:26 Think you can find me a blank bank draft and get to my room before ten? Aug 16 20:40:26 Even if I crawled there blindfolded. Aug 16 20:42:01 * Morgan nods Aug 16 20:42:06 I'll get some coffee and meet you there then Aug 16 20:42:21 * Edward nods, inclining his head Aug 16 20:44:23 * Morgan heads to the kitchen to get a jug of coffee and cups before heading to his room Aug 16 20:46:57 *everything is peaceful. The chairs are still close together here by the fire where he took her yesterday* Aug 16 20:48:00 * Morgan gets the coffee poured, and the mirror propped up but covered Aug 16 20:48:44 * Edward apppears, backdraft and quill in hand Aug 16 20:50:28 Bank draft* Aug 16 20:50:44 * Morgan takes them, thanking him before making the draft out Aug 16 20:53:10 * Edward taps his fingers on the desk nervously Aug 16 20:53:57 I'm afraid... nothing will prepare you for when you see her Aug 16 20:55:22 * Edward nods Aug 16 20:55:29 I know Aug 16 20:55:40 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 20:55:53 Try to rein it in... I don't want her thinking its a reaction to her Aug 16 20:57:11 * Edward nods, opening his flask and drinking from it before offering it to Morgan Aug 16 20:57:23 * Morgan shakes his head, picking up his coffee Aug 16 20:58:13 * Morgan checks the time before gesturing to the chair and uncovering the mirror Aug 16 20:59:15 *Alice is sat on her own on the other side. Edward is frowning a little Aug 16 20:59:32 * Morgan sits down Aug 16 20:59:36 Morning Alice Aug 16 20:59:39 A: Good morning, Florrie will be along shortly Aug 16 21:00:15 * Edward speaks accented Avalonian Aug 16 21:01:01 Yes, uhh... good morning. Forgive me, I have not zeen zis mirror thing before Aug 16 21:01:42 *Alice smiles* Bizarre, isn't it. You look well, your nose healed nicely Aug 16 21:03:11 * Edward smiles, now looking at the woman not the mirror "Thank you, though now only you can zee zat in the mirror, and not me!" Aug 16 21:03:48 *Alice laughs* I hope your wedding went well, and you and your wife are very happy? Aug 16 21:04:45 * Edward nods "Indeed ve are. My thanks to you for rejecting me zo zwiftly and zoundly! Aug 16 21:05:10 [well... he hasn't lost his mind at the mirror, so that's a start] Aug 16 21:05:56 *Alice laughs again. Edward looks to actually be enjoying himself talking to her, and she seems to find him fairly charming still* You are taller than I remember! Aug 16 21:08:00 * Edward laughs at this "You are much prettier, zho I could always recall you az very pretty. I had not forgotten you, or zat you like rum with cloves and ginger" Aug 16 21:09:01 *Alice nods, smiling* I had not forgotten you either, though vomiting each day for seven months contributed to that! Aug 16 21:09:45 * Morgan snorts before apologising Aug 16 21:10:33 Zomezing to add, brother? Aug 16 21:10:57 No, not really... Aug 16 21:11:12 * Edward inclines his head before looking to Alice Aug 16 21:12:04 * Edward nods "My apologies for ze physical toll it must have taken. If I had know at ze time, I vould have been zere to support you and Florrie. Aug 16 21:12:48 *Alice shrugs* We have managed, and we are very happy here. We would not want to leave our new home... Aug 16 21:13:35 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 21:14:49 * Edward shakes his head "Zat iz not in question for me. I vould hope you vill consider coming to Eisen next year for my family to meet you both, but I vill never demand zat you stay. Aug 16 21:16:05 *Alice nods* I have received the money for Florrie's upkeep. I am grateful for it. *Morgan, knowing her better, can see that it's a prickle in her pride to accept the help* Aug 16 21:17:40 You vill alvays be able to count on me for support, Alice. Zho it vas in everyvons interest for me to ved Mina, you and Florrie vill always be my concern and have my protection. Aug 16 21:18:02 * Morgan sighs slightly Aug 16 21:18:07 *Alice nods* Thank you, Edward. Aug 16 21:18:19 * Edward glances at Morgan questioningly Aug 16 21:18:38 * Morgan shakes his head almost imperceptibly Aug 16 21:19:34 A: She might be quite shy. She is a very shy child. Aug 16 21:20:37 * Edward nods "It iz a big thing for her to meet a stranger. Do not vorry, in time I am sure she vill become more accustomed to me" Aug 16 21:20:52 *Alice looks to Morgan* Ready? Aug 16 21:21:08 * Morgan nods Aug 16 21:23:22 *Alice calls to her. What toddles in to view is a pair of legs, a little yellow dress, and on top a plant pot containing a plant with a wide sunflower head where the girl's should be. She wanders carefully towards Alice Aug 16 21:24:07 *Alice just gives Morgan a slightly exasperated smile* Aug 16 21:24:26 * Morgan smiles, squeezing Edwards arm reassuringly Aug 16 21:24:47 I _did_ mention that she loves plants and flowers... Aug 16 21:25:12 * Edward looks a little like a man facing an executioner, at least to Morgan, but he is smiling Aug 16 21:26:08 *Florrie gets into Alice's lap before one side of her face peers around from behind the petals. "Ballhead?" Aug 16 21:26:17 Hello sweetheart Aug 16 21:26:28 F: Where Varick? Aug 16 21:26:51 He's downstairs with Molly... I wanted to introduce you to someone, is that alright? Aug 16 21:27:31 *she hides away again a moment. Beside him, Edward seems to be stealing himself Aug 16 21:28:39 A: Florrie, let's put Sally just here on the table. I am sure she wants to see Bal-... _Morgan_ and Edward too. *Alice blushes a little* Aug 16 21:29:00 * Morgan chuckles Aug 16 21:29:04 * Edward takes a sip of coffee Aug 16 21:29:13 Now, I called you sweetheart... did you know they're cabbages too? Aug 16 21:30:12 *Alice puts the plant out of the way, but Florrie turns her face against Alice's bosom, muffling the words "Sweetheart a cabbage?" Aug 16 21:30:46 absolutely... they're pointy, instead of round, and quite sweet... that means we're both cabbages, doesn't it? Aug 16 21:33:11 *Florrie nods* Aug 16 21:33:46 I was hoping you'd say hello to my brother... he talks a bit funny, but we don't mind do we? Aug 16 21:36:01 *Florrie glances around before Alice subtly moves her. It is still a shock even now. And he hears Edward's sharp inhale that is too quite to travel the magically connected miles. Aug 16 21:36:33 Edward, this is Florrie... and that's Sally sunflower... Florrie, Sally, this is Edward, my brother Aug 16 21:36:43 F: Why talk funny? Aug 16 21:37:07 * Edward takes another moment to sip his coffee, collecting himself Aug 16 21:38:12 well... because he talks in Eisen so much, the language we speak here, when he tries to speak Avalonian, some of it sort of sticks... so vhen he says zings, it sounds like zis... Aug 16 21:38:46 F: Now Ballhead sound funny! *she smiles* Aug 16 21:39:05 * Morgan smiles Aug 16 21:39:10 * Edward smiles a little too Aug 16 21:41:07 I... can... speak... W-ithout... THe... accSent... if... I... speak... Sloooooooooooooowly.... *he grins. Florrie looks intrigued but not entirely sure of him* Aug 16 21:41:38 But then, he sounds like he's in slow motion, doesn't he? Aug 16 21:42:00 F: Slow like slow worm. Aug 16 21:42:12 * Edward smiles at this Aug 16 21:42:57 I like slow worms. They are like friendly garden snakes Aug 16 21:43:38 F, watching Edward a little: Varick say slow worms lizards, not snakes. Aug 16 21:46:01 * Edward rubs his chin, pretending to mull this over "He iz probably right, he iz a very clever boy. All I know iz zat zhey have zese little thin tongues zat go like... *he sticks his tongue out, but keeps it still* Aug 16 21:46:27 * Morgan sips his coffee Aug 16 21:47:15 F: No! Tongues go like... *she sticks hers in an out, waving it side to side too. Edward copies her, and she nods. Alice watches Morgan questioningly* Aug 16 21:48:04 * Morgan shrugs slightly Aug 16 21:50:18 Do zhey eat plants? *She shakes her head* eat bugs. Bugs eat plants. *Edward nods* Zo ze zlow vorms help ze plants? Aug 16 21:51:46 F: *she nods again. She seems to almost check in with the expressions of Alice and Morgan as she is talking* slow worms go nom nom *she mimics a chomping mouth with her hand* bugs gone Aug 16 21:52:55 * Edward nods, smiling "Excellent. Zo I zhould try to get many slow vorms for my garden, yes? To protect my plants?" Aug 16 21:53:26 *Florrie nods, looking to Morgan almost for reassurance* Aug 16 21:53:36 * Morgan smiles at her Aug 16 21:53:50 Better than having a man standing there looking for bugs, isn't it Aug 16 21:54:07 *Florrie nods* Man not eat bugs Aug 16 21:54:54 Not very tasty either Aug 16 21:56:22 * Edward smiles "What plants do you zhink I zhould plant? I have lots of trees, and lots of Edelweiss, but not many flowers" Aug 16 21:56:39 *Florrie looks to Morgan* what Edelweiss? Aug 16 21:57:59 A flower that handles the cold here really well... its got pointy petals that look like they're covered in frost Aug 16 21:58:44 *Florrie nods* No plants til warm. Your plants die, my plants not die. Aug 16 21:58:58 *Alice grimaces a little* Aug 16 21:59:16 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 21:59:33 I've explained to Edward about Florries ability with flowers... Aug 16 21:59:46 Morgan told me you have very green fingers, Florrie Aug 16 22:00:18 *Florrie looks at both her hands before showing them to the mirror* No. Had bath. Aug 16 22:01:35 * Morgan chuckles quietly Aug 16 22:03:06 *The look on Edward's face in the moment in only a little different to the look James had when meeting Elsie, when HH met Inga, and probably on his own face when he went into the cottage in the clearing to see his minutes old first born daughter in Dietlinde's arms. It is the moment in which Edward begins to love the little girl fate has brought Aug 16 22:03:06 him* Aug 16 22:03:41 A: Usually they are brown with mud! Aug 16 22:03:48 * Morgan nods Aug 16 22:04:06 I can attest to that... except at breakfast time, when they're covered with jam Aug 16 22:04:16 F: Jam good Aug 16 22:05:10 A: Speaking of which, I should give her some breakfast. Perhaps you would like to speak again in a few days? Aug 16 22:05:30 * Edward nods "Definitely, if my brother agrees?" Aug 16 22:05:46 * Morgan nods Aug 16 22:06:22 A: A happy Prophets Mass to you all! Aug 16 22:06:47 I will send some Edelweiss to you, Florrie, as a Prophets Mass gift Aug 16 22:07:09 *Florrie nods* Okay slow worm. Aug 16 22:07:25 * Edward smiles, looking very amused Aug 16 22:08:49 F: Bye ballhead, say hi Varick. Aug 16 22:09:00 I will do sweetheart, be good Aug 16 22:10:11 *Florrie waves as Alice says farewell and covers the mirror over, ending the magic. Edward just stares a few moment at the dark surface. Aug 16 22:10:45 * Morgan lets out a slow breath before getting up and putting the mirror away quietly Aug 16 22:17:50 * Edward doesn't move, just staring into space Aug 16 22:18:47 * Morgan takes his flask, nudging Edwards arm with it as he sits down Aug 16 22:20:01 * Edward takes it, taking a large mouthful Aug 16 22:21:25 * Morgan just waits quietly Aug 16 22:22:01 * Edward doesn't look to be getting anywhere fast, apart from possibly to the bottom of the flask Aug 16 22:22:25 Easy, brother Aug 16 22:23:40 * Edward hands it back Aug 16 22:23:53 She's... Aug 16 22:24:23 * Morgan watches him, putting the flask away Aug 16 22:24:37 Beautiful, funny, clever? Aug 16 22:24:50 Alive. Aug 16 22:25:14 Bursting with life, that one Aug 16 22:26:39 * Edward looks at Morgan, a depth of guilt and pain there that Morgan has not seen since Edward was sobbing on Molly in the churchyard in Atemlos Aug 16 22:27:36 * Morgan watches him, grasping his hand before pulling his head to Morgans shoulder Aug 16 22:27:45 Its alright. Aug 16 22:29:09 * Edward doesn't cry, but he stays there a minute Aug 16 22:29:35 You should have finished the job when you broke my nose. Aug 16 22:30:09 * Morgan thumps him, hard Aug 16 22:31:40 Owwwwwwwww! I didn't mean right now, you fucker! *he starts to laugh a little, rubbing at that spot* Aug 16 22:33:34 Since we started getting along, and moreso since we've gotten so close, I've been grateful that I didn't. When I met that wonderful little girl, I was grateful that I didn't. Aug 16 22:34:53 * Edward looks harrowed when he looks at Morgan "That is what I robbed you of." Aug 16 22:35:42 She's not like Jana... similar, in some respects but, so are all children. Aug 16 22:36:48 And the feeling, here *he double taps over his heart* That is the same. Aug 16 22:37:03 * Morgan nods Aug 16 22:37:07 Yes... it is. Aug 16 22:37:59 * Edward speaks slower Aug 16 22:38:16 And I would gut any man who laid a finger on her. Aug 16 22:38:42 * Morgan nods Aug 16 22:38:53 You think that now... wait until you get closer Aug 16 22:39:58 * Edward drinks another mouthful from his own flask Aug 16 22:40:15 * Morgan draws a deep breath Aug 16 22:40:19 Brutal, isn't it Aug 16 22:41:22 Having you sat there whilst I meet the daughter that only exists because I murdered yours? Yes, it is. Aug 16 22:41:46 * Morgan sighs Aug 16 22:42:20 No... the way she looks. And I think my being here was necessary, she'd have been too shy to talk to you I think Aug 16 22:43:00 * Edward drinks again Aug 16 22:43:19 Probably. Where the hell is your wife? Aug 16 22:43:42 [Molly, could you join us? Edward is finding this extremely hard] Aug 16 22:43:54 Keeping yours company I believe... Aug 16 22:44:00 [I will be as quick as I can] Aug 16 22:44:34 She should be here with you, looking after you. Aug 16 22:44:41 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 22:45:04 I've had time to adjust to this, Edward. This isn't the same shock as you've just felt Aug 16 22:46:13 * Edward finishes the flask before putting his head in his hands Aug 16 22:46:27 How drunk did you get? Aug 16 22:47:25 Not as much as you'd imagine... I drank some before I went and spoke to them but I don't remember drinking much after that. Aug 16 22:48:00 * Edward doesn't answer Aug 16 22:48:36 I don't know I could've prepared you any better for the shock but... I think I could've done more to prepare you for the guilt Aug 16 22:49:28 * Edward shakes his head Aug 16 22:49:33 Not your place. Aug 16 22:50:22 Bollocks. You're my baby brother, its always my job to protect you Aug 16 22:51:23 * Edward shakes his head Aug 16 22:52:00 That duty ended when I did what I did Aug 16 22:52:38 I was duty bound when we were young... now I _choose_ to Aug 16 22:54:04 * Edward shrugs, holding out his hand for Morgan's flask Aug 16 22:54:17 * Morgan hands it to him Aug 16 22:54:49 I know it hurts... but I don't really want to have to explain to Mina why you're drunk just after breakfast without actually telling her anything that would make it a reasonable response Aug 16 22:55:00 * Edward seems hellbent on draining it regardless Aug 16 22:55:58 You did very well with her... I figured the shock and the fact you're a bit of a stick in the mud might prevent you from making that connection with her Aug 16 22:57:02 I like children. Aug 16 22:57:23 * Morgan nods Aug 16 22:59:23 When Molly gets here, I'm going to ask her to help you... Aug 16 23:00:19 What do you mean? Aug 16 23:01:05 Times when I have been particularly distraught, she has helped me by... I don't know, taking the edge off of it. You still feel it, but the edge of it isn't quite so sharp Aug 16 23:01:38 * Edward nods Aug 16 23:01:43 With magic? Aug 16 23:01:53 No, she's going to hit you in the head really hard Aug 16 23:03:02 Shut up, Morgan. Aug 16 23:03:19 * Morgan smiles slightly Aug 16 23:04:17 *Molly knocks on the door only a couple of minutes later. She looks flushed, and her shoes are in her hand Aug 16 23:04:39 * Morgan smiles Aug 16 23:05:02 Molly, would you please help him? Take the edge off of what he's feeling? Aug 16 23:07:09 *she nods, coming in. She tosses her shoes on the bed with all the lack of care he saw his academy peers do when they were in the school dorms, and kneels by Edward. She speaks softly* It's alright, I'm here... Aug 16 23:08:02 * Edward wraps his arms around her, and Morgan feels a prickle on his neck Aug 16 23:08:22 * Morgan moves to the door, locking it quietly Aug 16 23:09:18 * Edward sobs on Molly's shoulder in a way he wasn't able to let himself with his brother Aug 16 23:09:40 * Morgan mills about quietly, pouring more coffee Aug 16 23:10:48 *it seems to pass quite quickly, and she soothes him just as she does Varick, how she has soothed Morgan on those very rare occasions he has let himself be this open Aug 16 23:12:27 * Morgan just waits quietly Aug 16 23:12:58 * Edward eventually slouches back in the chair, emotionally spent Aug 16 23:13:15 * Morgan comes over, holding a cup out to him Aug 16 23:13:29 * Edward nods, taking it Aug 16 23:13:32 Thank you Aug 16 23:13:56 *Molly sits on the edge of the bed, watching the two of them Aug 16 23:14:18 * Morgan nods, picking up his own cup before sitting down again Aug 16 23:16:31 *Molly moves to sit beside Morgan, her hand on his* Aug 16 23:16:48 [your turn, you must be feeling dreadful too?] Aug 16 23:16:56 * Morgan entwines his fingers in hers Aug 16 23:17:24 [I can hold on for now my love] Aug 16 23:17:45 [it is no trouble] Aug 16 23:19:02 [I know but... he feels bad enough as ti is] Aug 16 23:19:30 Why don't I feel like I have drink a drop? Aug 16 23:19:51 * Morgan wiggles his fingers at him Aug 16 23:20:13 * Morgan rubs at his eyes Aug 16 23:20:53 *his neck starts to prickle* Aug 16 23:21:27 M: I have not worked out yet how to calm the body without removing some of the drink Aug 16 23:23:14 Just as well, really Aug 16 23:24:19 *his own heart rate begins to slow, his breathing too, his body just settling* Aug 16 23:24:24 * Edward nods Aug 16 23:24:30 I am sorry, brother Aug 16 23:25:14 I know you are. When I said it was time for us to stop blaming eachother and ourselves, I meant it. And I mean it now Aug 16 23:26:23 * Edward nods Aug 16 23:26:42 * Morgan lays his head on Molly's shoulder Aug 16 23:26:50 It's just so hard when she's just so perfect Aug 16 23:27:03 * Morgan nods Aug 16 23:27:21 I know... as I said, its brutal, seeing her, but dear god its worth it Aug 16 23:27:28 *Molly shifts a little so she can stroke Morgan's hair Aug 16 23:27:57 The thing, with her hands... Aug 16 23:28:05 * Morgan chuckles Aug 16 23:29:00 You see why I said I needed to be here? That I wasn't just trying to intrude? Aug 16 23:29:06 * Edward drinks the coffee Aug 16 23:29:21 She's shy. But it's charming Aug 16 23:30:42 * Morgan nods Aug 16 23:31:05 You realise she will call you that probably forevermore... Aug 16 23:31:09 * Edward takes another mouthful, standing up Aug 16 23:31:58 Quite possibly. It has been a long time since I was called a worm by a woman, long still since I was called slow Aug 16 23:32:31 * Morgan nods, watching him Aug 16 23:32:55 I am going to church. Aug 16 23:33:16 Would you mind if I tag along? Aug 16 23:33:27 * Edward looks surprised Aug 16 23:33:45 I thought you would want to be here with your wife. Aug 16 23:34:48 * Morgan lifts his head, looking at Molly Aug 16 23:34:51 Do you mind? Aug 16 23:35:23 *Molly shakes her head* If you do not need me right now, no Aug 16 23:35:37 * Morgan smiles Aug 16 23:35:42 * Edward goes towards the door Aug 16 23:36:07 I always need you my love, and you have helped me already Aug 16 23:36:33 *Molly nods* I will see you in a while Aug 16 23:36:44 * Morgan nods, kissing her cheek Aug 16 23:36:47 I won't be long Aug 16 23:38:39 *Molly nods again, Edward going into the hall* Aug 16 23:39:25 * Morgan follows Edward into the hall Aug 16 23:39:36 Unless of course you wish me to leave you alone Aug 16 23:39:56 * Edward looks at Morgan Aug 16 23:40:11 You can come with me, on one condition. Aug 16 23:40:20 Go on Aug 16 23:40:40 Go and hold your wife a few minutes, don't be an idiot. Aug 16 23:41:24 * Morgan nods slowly Aug 16 23:41:25 done Aug 16 23:42:22 I will wait on the stairs Aug 16 23:42:41 * Morgan nods, turning and going back into his room Aug 16 23:42:59 * Edward is now known as Molly Aug 16 23:43:18 * Molly is tidying the room Aug 16 23:44:22 * Morgan moves to her, wrapping his arms around her Aug 16 23:44:51 * Molly wraps her arms around his neck, holding him Aug 16 23:45:02 Are you alright? Aug 16 23:45:27 I find it difficult to be vulnerable at the best of times... when there is someone else who is hurting, its so much harder Aug 16 23:45:50 * Molly nods Aug 16 23:48:01 I know, my love. You push it down and down, focusing on everyone else's pain until yours is so buried that it can't be released. But who gets to look after you, when that is what they yearn to do? Aug 16 23:48:56 You would've had me release that in front of him, when he felt so awful? Aug 16 23:50:07 I... I don't know... Aug 16 23:50:52 You think it would've brought us closer, perhaps? Aug 16 23:51:13 * Molly shrugs Aug 16 23:51:50 I don't know. Maybe. I only know that you are hurt and I am here, yet this distance, it is too much Aug 16 23:53:38 Oh my love... I'm alright... You give me such strength that I am not in despair. Aug 16 23:54:14 But you were, before I was here, and I should have been here to help! Aug 16 23:54:26 When? Aug 16 23:55:05 Whilst you spoke to them. Aug 16 23:55:19 * Morgan smiles Aug 16 23:56:03 No, I was fine. A bit of a shock as always, but not upsetting... his pain, that upset me, worried me. Aug 16 23:56:25 * Molly holds him Aug 16 23:56:38 I do not want you blaming yourself Aug 16 23:56:48 * Morgan shakes his head Aug 16 23:58:05 I don't, I promise. He had to see her... I didn't anticipate he would be struck by such guilt, and I should have, but I didn't see past how to deal with the initial shock, and getting her to talk to him Aug 16 23:59:33 * Molly holds him tighter "Guilt, it is so unpredictable a beast."