**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Fri Apr 8 14:23:06 2022 Apr 08 14:23:06 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 08 14:30:56 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 08 14:38:40 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 08 14:41:17 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 08 14:46:07 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 08 14:52:05 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 08 14:55:49 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 08 14:57:43 Somewhere around here I think Apr 08 14:57:43 * Molly gasps "Yes" Apr 08 14:57:43 * Molly moves a little to give him better access Apr 08 14:57:43 * MorganK runs his fingers over her Apr 08 14:57:43 * Molly has kept herself warmed enough that she is almost at the point of peaking immediately Apr 08 14:57:46 * MorganK moans, rubbing her firmly Apr 08 14:57:46 * Molly climaxes hard, moaning loudly as she does Apr 08 15:08:49 *Her orgams are many, and close together. They sound even more intense than he has heard her give herself these last few nights, and she writhes with them, completely unable to do anything but experience the pleasure. Whatever inhibitions she generally has, she seems unable to keep them like this* Apr 08 15:09:55 * Morgan murmurs softly to her, eventually slowing down Apr 08 15:15:09 Oh liebes herz… that was incredible. Your fingers… you are so skilled *he can feel her most sensitive spot twitch beneath his fingers, her core so hot and slick* Apr 08 15:15:24 * Morgan nods, stroking her gently Apr 08 15:16:44 * MollyK breathes heavily, still reeling from the sensations Apr 08 15:16:48 I… am… sorry that I… couldn't wait for you to return… without touching myself… Apr 08 15:17:02 don't be Apr 08 15:18:15 Being here in your bed, where it smells so much of you… mmm… and the thought of you here last night, getting pleasure too… *a tremble runs through her*... it was too arousing to not do so Apr 08 15:18:30 * Morgan nods Apr 08 15:18:33 I'm glad you find it so Apr 08 15:19:42 * MollyK nods "very much so..." Apr 08 15:23:50 * MollyK turns closer to him, kissing him softly Apr 08 15:23:58 What happens now? Apr 08 15:24:11 What would you like to happen now? Apr 08 15:24:47 I... what I would like, and what I think I can have, are two different things... Apr 08 15:25:11 go on... Apr 08 15:26:04 I want you... I have been your mistress in name for six weeks, and I yearn to have that which would make me your mistress in every sense Apr 08 15:26:28 * MollyK stays close, talking quietly in the dark Apr 08 15:27:33 That being? Apr 08 15:27:50 For you to take me Apr 08 15:31:15 * Morgan nods Apr 08 15:31:16 I see Apr 08 15:31:41 * MollyK pauses, chewing her lip in the darkness Apr 08 15:31:46 I have said too much Apr 08 15:32:42 No... you haven't. Apr 08 15:33:54 What would _you_ wish to happen next, liebes herz? Apr 08 15:34:17 I don't know... I am torn. I worry we would both regret going too far Apr 08 15:34:55 I would not want you to feel regretful Apr 08 15:35:46 I know Apr 08 15:36:34 Are you regretting what we have done tonight? Apr 08 15:37:38 No, not at all Apr 08 15:38:52 Would you regret me doing the same for you, if I can work out how to? Apr 08 15:39:19 I.. I don't believe so, no Apr 08 15:41:05 * MollyK nods, bringing her hand to his chest and then moving it down to his stomach "I do not wish to hurt you..." Apr 08 15:41:51 best be gentle then Apr 08 15:43:47 * MollyK nods a little, her hand moving lower "I have never done anything like this before... I've never even seen a man unclothed" Apr 08 15:44:02 Given the light in here... you still haven't Apr 08 15:44:43 * MollyK reaches his head before she expects to with an "Oh!" Apr 08 15:46:23 * Morgan grunts slightly Apr 08 15:46:58 Oh gosh, did I hurt you? Apr 08 15:47:13 No, blossom, not at all Apr 08 15:47:24 * MollyK 's fingers are warm, her touch incredibly gentle, as if she were petting a kitten Apr 08 15:48:22 How on Theah do you manage to keep all of this contained? It is so big! Apr 08 15:48:44 Its, ummm... not normally quite so... Apr 08 15:50:20 Hard? *she gently squeezes his shaft as if testing the word is accurate* Apr 08 15:50:59 * Morgan nods Apr 08 15:51:00 aye Apr 08 15:52:44 * MollyK strokes her fingers down further, to his base. Again his warning of being gentle makes her touch feather-soft* Apr 08 15:57:04 * Morgan gives her time to become used to it Apr 08 15:59:05 * MollyK does slowly increase the speed of her fingers over him, exploring the different textures and shapes Apr 08 15:59:12 This is quite fascinating Apr 08 16:00:16 fascinating? Apr 08 16:01:18 It doesn't hurt to be swollen like this? Apr 08 16:01:36 not hurt exactly... there is a sort of... ache I suppose Apr 08 16:02:46 What helps that? *she presses a little firmer, rubbing like one would an aching muscle though not as hard* Apr 08 16:03:45 uuhhh... satisfaction, really Apr 08 16:05:09 * MollyK nods, wrapping her hand around his manhood Apr 08 16:05:24 Is this what happens when you could hear me? Apr 08 16:05:49 * Morgan nods Apr 08 16:05:51 yes Apr 08 16:06:09 Oh I like that... Apr 08 16:06:19 oh? Apr 08 16:06:55 * MollyK nods, moving her hand up him Apr 08 16:07:24 It is nice to think I could cause such a thing Apr 08 16:07:43 * Morgan nods Apr 08 16:08:24 Does this hurt? Apr 08 16:09:13 * MollyK runs her hand up and down, slowly and loosely Apr 08 16:09:28 * Morgan moans quietly Apr 08 16:12:30 * MollyK continues like this, and he can feel her lower body figeting a minute Apr 08 16:13:09 Are you alright? Apr 08 16:13:47 I am not sure how it is possible, but I am even more aroused than when we started! Apr 08 16:13:59 * Morgan nods slightly Apr 08 16:16:40 * MollyK tightens her grip "I am not sure I could even accommodate you within me, if that were what we intended!" Apr 08 16:17:23 I think you'd be surprised Apr 08 16:18:55 * MollyK pays attention to his response to her grip and movement "I can only take two of my fingers, it seems impossible" Apr 08 16:21:27 We will find out at some point? Apr 08 16:23:40 I want to, liebes herz, as soon as you feel ready, I will be eagerly waiting Apr 08 16:24:50 Even though you do not think you will not be able to accommodate me? Apr 08 16:25:40 * MollyK nods, speeding a little Apr 08 16:26:50 Oh yes, just the thought of you between my thighs, this part of you so close to me... *she sighs with want* Apr 08 16:28:19 * Morgan nods, thrusting slightly in her hand Apr 08 16:31:08 Oh dear lord... *she tightens again* is this too much? Apr 08 16:31:30 No, its... just right Apr 08 16:32:37 * MollyK continues like that, kissing him at the same time Apr 08 16:33:16 * Morgan turns slightly, running his hand down her once more Apr 08 16:34:05 * MollyK moans into his mouth, moving a little so she's most available Apr 08 16:41:46 * MollyK has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) Apr 08 16:45:55 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 08 16:46:28 * Morgan drags his fingers across her core Apr 08 16:47:25 * MollyK moans again, speeding up. She tilts her hips up to his hand Apr 08 16:48:53 * Morgan moans deeply, stroking at her clit before running his fingers lower Apr 08 16:50:36 * MollyK lifts a little more, nodding gently, her mouth still to his, her hand working him firmer Apr 08 16:51:35 * Morgan moans more, pressing a finger gently into her Apr 08 16:53:28 * MollyK breaks from his mouth just enough to beg "yes, please!" Apr 08 16:54:47 * Morgan nods, pushing his finger deeper and making a 'come hither' motion Apr 08 16:57:17 * MollyK arches her back from this, her vocalisation loud and deep, very intense. As she predicted, she feels very snug around him and scorching hot Apr 08 16:58:12 * Morgan continues thrusting into her hand, pressing more firmly with his finger Apr 08 17:01:17 * MollyK speeds again, amazing that she manages to keep her hand on him at all the way she is bucking against him. She pushes down onto his hand eagerly. Apr 08 17:04:12 oh god... it won't be long blossom... do... you want... more? Apr 08 17:04:36 Fingers? Apr 08 17:04:49 aye Apr 08 17:05:15 Yes Apr 08 17:05:52 * Morgan nods, pushing a second finger alongside the first, repeating the movement firmly Apr 08 17:09:36 *she peaks hard again, stroke tighter* Oh fuck! *there's a single chime of the dawn watch, and he realises he is dreaming* Apr 08 17:11:29 * Morgan tries to wake up Apr 08 17:12:02 *he is hard, but the more noticable thing is that Molly is giggling in her sleep* Apr 08 17:12:32 * Morgan listens to her for a moment Apr 08 17:13:16 * MollyK murmurs "Edward!" Apr 08 17:13:35 * Morgan frowns, leaning up on one elbow to listen Apr 08 17:14:37 * MollyK murmurs again "You must be mad! It will never work" Apr 08 17:15:54 huh... Apr 08 17:17:08 * MollyK giggles again Apr 08 17:17:48 * Morgan tries to see if he can see what she is dreaming Apr 08 17:18:50 **He, Edward and Molly are in the upstairs corridor in the house in Innesbruck. Edward is just in a shirt and breeches, Molly is wearing a very short pale pink satin vest that only just covers her breasts, and matching flowy satin shorts, hair fully down as if she has just come from bed. He himself is only in his trousers. It looks to be the middle Apr 08 17:18:50 of the night, and Edward carries a solitary candle. Apr 08 17:18:50 E: It has to. If Father tells Hapsburg what he overheard, I'll get run through Apr 08 17:20:35 * Morgan watches them Apr 08 17:22:18 * MollyK looks at Morgan "please tell your brother that he has lost his senses!" Apr 08 17:22:44 E: All I need you to do is pretend we swapped rooms, so the noises Father heard were the two of you, not Mina and I Apr 08 17:23:08 Oh Edward.... it'd never work Apr 08 17:24:01 E: Yes it will. In the morning, when you hear his door open, just make some moans and that will help confirm it Apr 08 17:24:02 *she blushes, smiling* I cannot make those sounds on demand! Apr 08 17:24:30 Aaaand he'll assume we've been doing it all night? Non stop? Be reasonable man Apr 08 17:25:02 E: It's Father, what does he know about sex? Brother, you are very capable of bringing your wife to orgasm? Apr 08 17:25:29 Edward?! That is rather private!! *she looks amused as well as shocked* Apr 08 17:29:41 * Morgan tries to wake up Apr 08 17:30:04 *he easily manages it* Apr 08 17:30:17 * Morgan nudges Molly gently Apr 08 17:30:34 * MollyK turns towards him Apr 08 17:30:37 Hmm? Apr 08 17:31:04 When you've finished dreaming about my brother asking if I can make you orgasm... I was wondering if you'd be a willing participant in doing just that Apr 08 17:33:27 * MollyK blinks, he can only just make it out in the low light "I am awake..." Apr 08 17:33:38 You are now, yes Apr 08 17:34:38 * MollyK snuggles up to him "I did not quite catch what you said..." Apr 08 17:35:13 I said... if you've finished dreaming about my brother asking I can bring you to orgasm... I was wondering if you'd be a willing participant in doing just that Apr 08 17:35:35 Oh! Mmhmm absolutely Apr 08 17:36:48 * Morgan nods, immediately latching his mouth to her neck, working his way down to her collarbone Apr 08 17:37:51 * MollyK moans softly, gently running her nails across his shoulders Apr 08 17:38:13 * Morgan runs a hand down her side, grabbing roughly at her behind Apr 08 17:39:11 Mmm, it feels like a good morning already! Apr 08 17:41:02 * Morgan chuckles, running his fingers under her leg and stroking her innermost area Apr 08 17:43:30 * MollyK gasps at this, her hand grasping his shoulder. "That feels like heaven..." Apr 08 17:43:51 * Morgan nods, kissing his way back up to her ear Apr 08 17:43:58 *before whispering* Apr 08 17:44:01 god I need you Apr 08 17:45:46 * MollyK 's body tenses with lust at this, and she moans "It arouses me madly to hear you say that" Apr 08 17:48:53 * Morgan nods, pushing his fingers inside her, making the same motion as his dream Apr 08 17:50:09 * MollyK parts her her legs further to give him the best position, but within moments she's already very close Apr 08 17:51:22 thats it my love, thats it... Apr 08 17:51:54 *he just picks up the sound of approaching footsteps alongside her escalating whimpers. He knows that the arrival of whoever it is is almost certainly about to coincide with her orgasming hard* Apr 08 17:54:08 * Morgan withdraws his fingers, pressing his lips to hers Apr 08 17:54:59 * MollyK writhes against him, whimpering with quiet desperation against his mouth Apr 08 17:56:05 Sorry, my love, someone approaches Apr 08 17:56:45 * MollyK whispers frustratedly "Yes, me!" Apr 08 18:00:35 * Morgan laughs Apr 08 18:00:36 aye Apr 08 18:00:44 *there is the quietest tapping on the door, not enough to wake anyone, but enough to get the attention of someone already up. It's Edward's rhythm* Apr 08 18:01:17 Hang on, Edward, I'll be with you in a minute Apr 08 18:01:52 *she speaks very quietly* Five minutes, at least! Apr 08 18:06:01 is it urgent? Apr 08 18:06:19 E: I came to see if you wanted to use the swords, you are normally up by now. Apr 08 18:06:35 * MollyK giggles quietly Apr 08 18:07:18 I will shortly, I just need to get dressed Apr 08 18:07:39 E: Alright, I'll be by the lake Apr 08 18:07:55 Collect my zweihander on your way please Apr 08 18:08:19 E: I will *his footsteps retreat* Apr 08 18:09:49 Hmmm, now what if I wanted to spend the whole morning before we must be at church enjoying your body? Apr 08 18:10:23 * Morgan shoves his fingers back inside her Apr 08 18:10:30 This is not good enough? You don't want this? Apr 08 18:10:45 * MollyK moans deeply Apr 08 18:10:48 I do... Apr 08 18:11:40 It didn't sound like it Apr 08 18:12:05 This... please, liebling! Apr 08 18:13:13 * Morgan nods, resuming his come hither motions Apr 08 18:14:46 * MollyK is very quickly back as close as she was, bunching up the sheets in her hands, almost there. She watches him raptly Apr 08 18:16:48 Come on my love, let go, surrender to me Apr 08 18:19:26 * MollyK completely melts at this, climaxing intensely around his fingers, eyes tight shut as her back arches. Apr 08 18:25:49 * Morgan kisses along her breast bone as she peaks, murmuring quietly to her Apr 08 18:28:29 Oh god, oh god! *she peaks again, grabbing hold of his bound hair* Apr 08 18:29:47 * Morgan kisses her neck gently, letting her come down slowly Apr 08 18:30:53 * MollyK looks all dazed and breathless in the first light coming through the window Apr 08 18:31:03 Good lord, what you do to me! Apr 08 18:32:54 One tries Apr 08 18:33:24 * MollyK nods Apr 08 18:33:45 Now, will you please have me? Apr 08 18:36:45 * Morgan nods, rolling atop her quickly Apr 08 18:37:20 Pillow? Apr 08 18:38:03 * Morgan growls Apr 08 18:38:08 Not sure I can wait that long Apr 08 18:38:25 * MollyK moans at this Apr 08 18:38:41 Don't. Have what you need. Apr 08 18:40:40 * Morgan nods, thrusting himself into her deeply, moaning into her neck Apr 08 18:43:54 * MollyK brings one hand to his bottom, groping it boldly, and with the other she pulls loose the leather thong that binds his hair Apr 08 18:44:08 Oh god yes, you feel so good in me Apr 08 18:44:25 * Morgan winds his fingers into her hair, thrusting into her hard but not fast Apr 08 18:47:10 * MollyK 's nails are light across his scalp, her fingers buried right into his hair. She rolls her hips as she had that first afternoon when he took her virginity in this bed, exploring and enjoying the feel of him Apr 08 18:48:35 * Morgan starts breathing out in long slow motions before suddenly swelling inside her and burying himself deeply muttering 'fuckfuckfuck' Apr 08 18:51:06 * MollyK moans at this, pressing a long, firm kiss his cheek as she reaches that intense pleasure around him Apr 08 18:51:52 * Morgan grinds into her for a full minute before slowly withdrawing, still laying on her Apr 08 18:54:47 * MollyK strokes his hair lovingly. The light seems fractionally brighter again, still not dawn yet though. She speaks very quietly Apr 08 18:55:06 You are perfect. I love you so very deeply. Apr 08 18:55:19 and I you... my duchess Apr 08 18:56:13 * MollyK smiles, kissing him "I like that" Apr 08 18:56:41 * Morgan nods Apr 08 18:56:48 I'd best get dressed my love Apr 08 18:57:03 Mmm must you? *she smiles* Apr 08 18:57:22 I'm afraid so... Edward and I are going to train with the Zweihanders again Apr 08 18:58:51 * MollyK holds him tight a moment Apr 08 19:00:02 We have been married for over five months... I think we deserve a second honeymoon Apr 08 19:00:19 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:00:21 I agree Apr 08 19:00:29 Maybe I could take you to foreign lands Apr 08 19:00:43 * MollyK giggles Apr 08 19:01:08 You can take me _in_ foreign lands too Apr 08 19:01:54 I was thinking that Apr 08 19:03:26 That will be most welcome. *she gently slaps his bottom, watching him with mischief* Up you get, mon petit chou. Apr 08 19:04:16 * Morgan nods, getting up and finding his clothes quickly Apr 08 19:05:40 * MollyK moves the pillow so she is propped up in a tangle of sheets, enough bare skin revealed to be tantalising rather than explicit, and with the dishevelled hair and satiated look it would make a good sketch Apr 08 19:06:50 * Morgan looks at her for a good two minutes before pulling his shirt on Apr 08 19:07:56 * MollyK watches him, smiling Apr 08 19:08:10 Are you considering a second round, my love? Apr 08 19:08:30 Just trying to get as much detail in my mind as possible... I'll be sketching you... Apr 08 19:08:41 Like this? Apr 08 19:08:45 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:09:01 * MollyK smiles Apr 08 19:09:11 If that will please you Apr 08 19:09:27 * Morgan nods, pulling his boots on Apr 08 19:09:33 Right... time to go Apr 08 19:09:50 * MollyK blows him a kiss Apr 08 19:10:05 * Morgan winks at her, heading out of the bedroom Apr 08 19:15:01 *Everything is quiet when he goes through the Veisgraf Wing. Outside the dawn is imminent* Apr 08 19:19:27 * Morgan heads towards the lake Apr 08 19:19:56 * MollyK is now known as Edward Apr 08 19:21:05 * Edward has laid the swords on a blanket, and is skimming stones, just as he was the morning after he had shown up in August, when the truce between them was wary and tense Apr 08 19:21:29 * Morgan watches him for a moment Apr 08 19:21:47 This is like when you arrived in August... when you were wary of me Apr 08 19:22:04 * Edward nods Apr 08 19:22:36 I am not wary of you today. I have always enjoyed doing this when I am here Apr 08 19:22:51 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:23:05 I am glad... I worried I had done something to make you so Apr 08 19:23:13 * Morgan picks up a stone, examining it Apr 08 19:23:51 No. I am not my usual self at present. Apr 08 19:24:05 Can I assist you in any way? Apr 08 19:24:15 * Edward skims his, getting several bounces Apr 08 19:24:37 No, only one person can Apr 08 19:24:44 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:25:32 To get her back just to maybe lose her again, I cannot describe how hard that is Apr 08 19:25:42 * Morgan nods, frowning Apr 08 19:25:57 Do you blame me for it? For bringing the news? Apr 08 19:26:12 * Edward shakes his head Apr 08 19:26:33 No. The actions were mine, it is on me, not you. Apr 08 19:26:43 We can but hope Apr 08 19:27:06 * Edward nods Apr 08 19:27:33 I have Florrie to think of either way. Apr 08 19:27:51 She will uplift you... in time Apr 08 19:27:56 * Edward nods Apr 08 19:28:03 I did the unthinkable last night Apr 08 19:28:39 * Edward glances at him "How unthinkable?" Apr 08 19:29:06 I defended Pottersdam and Zench's character to father... I even told him he should put some faith in them Apr 08 19:29:17 * Edward laughs Apr 08 19:29:29 And you lived to tell the tale! Apr 08 19:29:53 Cant attack a duke... think of the rumours, bending a duke over ones knee... Apr 08 19:30:03 * Edward laughs Apr 08 19:30:08 Though if he'd called Grunhelm, you'd have been on your own with that one Apr 08 19:30:25 Are you _still_ scared of him? Apr 08 19:30:38 * Morgan scoffs Apr 08 19:31:12 I've faced monsters from the realms of hell, supernatural royalty who think its fun to torture people, the schattenmann... Apr 08 19:31:41 * Edward looks over Morgan's shoulder with a smirk as if someone is approaching "good, you can tell him that yourself" Apr 08 19:31:57 * Morgan clears his throat, ducking his head Apr 08 19:32:04 Maybe I'll just keep it to myself Apr 08 19:32:18 * Edward laughs, looking back to the lake Apr 08 19:33:06 * Morgan glances over his shoulder just to be sure Apr 08 19:33:17 *there's no one there* Apr 08 19:33:42 * Morgan nods before flinging the stone at the lake Apr 08 19:34:27 Potts and Zench aren't so bad. Father's problem is that he doesn't _understand_ them Apr 08 19:35:04 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:35:10 I don't think he wants to Apr 08 19:36:19 No. I don't think he understands that our generation is not like his. He had a childhood and adolescence that was normal. We didn't. Apr 08 19:39:19 * Edward has quit (Read error: EOF from client) Apr 08 19:42:21 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Apr 08 19:42:29 [19:28:10] Edward: No. I don't think he understands that our generation is not like his. He had a childhood and adolescence that was normal. We didn't. Apr 08 19:42:43 born into war... Apr 08 19:42:59 * MollyK nods Apr 08 19:43:04 * MollyK is now known as Edward Apr 08 19:43:32 We got used to not thinking about what we would come home to one day Apr 08 19:43:40 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:45:50 Potts makes sure his former mistresses are well set-up when the relationships have run their course. And Heidi is far from mistreated, little baggage that she is *he smiles* Apr 08 19:46:09 * Morgan nods Apr 08 19:46:12 I like her Apr 08 19:46:24 * Edward nods Apr 08 19:46:33 She's unconventional Apr 08 19:46:44 You think that is why I like her? Apr 08 19:47:08 * Edward nods Apr 08 19:47:34 I am drawn to more than misch... no you're probably right Apr 08 19:49:25 * Edward smiles Apr 08 19:50:37 When I first met Molly, I might have said differently, but watching how the two of you have changed since then, it does seem that mischief does appeal to you Apr 08 19:51:04 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 19:51:10 I like a strong personality Apr 08 19:51:38 * Edward nods thoughtfully, finding another stone Apr 08 19:54:10 There is no disputing Molly has that Apr 08 19:54:36 No... there isn't Apr 08 19:55:44 * Edward skims this stone, but it goes less well Apr 08 19:57:48 * Morgan picks up another stone Apr 08 19:59:32 How did Father take your defence of them Apr 08 19:59:57 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 20:00:01 better than I imagined Apr 08 20:00:32 I may be like father in some of my values, but... they've kept my wife safe and seen you through difficult times. Apr 08 20:00:54 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:02:18 The situation with Florrie has taught me that perhaps the way my friends and I have treated swiving women has been less than ideal Apr 08 20:03:00 Somewhere in the middle would have been better but... as difficult as it is right now, that little girl needs to be celebrated. Apr 08 20:03:31 And she will. Apr 08 20:03:55 * Morgan nods Apr 08 20:04:14 that means no lamenting your previous ways... an accident she may have been, but never a mistake Apr 08 20:05:09 Can I not lament the many other occassions? *he chucks Morgan a stone* Apr 08 20:05:42 * Morgan catches it and hurls it in one movement Apr 08 20:06:08 If you feel you must.... but a wise man does not lament what he cannot change, he changes what he can. Apr 08 20:07:02 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:07:41 You spent too long meditating Apr 08 20:07:59 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 08 20:08:02 I don't think so Apr 08 20:09:49 *after another few stones, he says* Do you blame me for Florrie looking like Jana? Apr 08 20:10:25 * Morgan sits down beside him Apr 08 20:10:31 No... no I don't Apr 08 20:12:43 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:14:24 Mother says she thinks we looked more like that as babies Apr 08 20:14:52 That wouldn't surprise me... look, as difficult as it was... if she didn't look like that, we'd have never found her Apr 08 20:16:29 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:17:02 I understand that. But I can understand how you might resent me for her Apr 08 20:17:55 I will confess that... I asked Theus how it was fair Apr 08 20:21:20 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:24:21 It is not fair. Apr 08 20:27:33 Not particularly. But that is life. Apr 08 20:28:13 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:28:39 I am impressed with how you have handled it, and grateful. Apr 08 20:29:19 I won't pretend it hasn't been difficult. Apr 08 20:29:41 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:30:08 Help me understand you more, tell me about it Apr 08 20:30:33 What do you wish to know? Apr 08 20:31:37 What makes it most difficult? Apr 08 20:33:38 Father says he does not have my forgiving nature... I told him it is not my nature, it is a choice. A choice I make on a daily basis. Every time I see her, I can't help but see Jana... they're different, their mannerisms, the way they think... but then a thought comes, why should you be allowed a daughter when I was not, let alone one that looks the same. Apr 08 20:34:36 * Edward nods solemnly Apr 08 20:35:51 I have asked myself why over and over since you told me. I do not deserve her. Apr 08 20:37:16 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 20:37:26 You have to work to be worthy. Apr 08 20:37:48 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:38:07 I will do Apr 08 20:39:22 When it comes to it... I could hold that grudge... what good would it do? How could I look myself in the mirror if I went back on my principles because it is you? Apr 08 20:40:44 Because it would be deserved. You could have never told me about her, and kept my daughter from me. I would have deserved it. Apr 08 20:41:34 I could... I considered whether it would be better to keep the knowledge of her from you, but not out of spite, but for her safety Apr 08 20:42:26 * Edward looks at the lake Apr 08 20:42:35 You thought I might hurt her? Apr 08 20:42:53 God no... You recall the conditions? Apr 08 20:43:13 That she is not taken from her Mother, yes Apr 08 20:43:55 _thats_ what I thought... That you or father would grab onto the idea that it is proper and run headlong down that route... Apr 08 20:44:49 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:46:13 I would not have taken her from her Mother. I might have considered pushing Alice to live with her in Eisen, but separating a mother and child is beyond me. Apr 08 20:46:40 * Morgan nods Apr 08 20:46:48 I know, now... Apr 08 20:47:37 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:48:01 You did not think she was at risk of harm from me because of how she looks. Apr 08 20:49:08 No... frankly, I thought _you_ were at more risk of harm because of that... let me make one thing perfectly clear, Edward... Apr 08 20:49:23 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:50:07 There was a turning point that you won't even remember... but since then my trust in you has done nothing but grow... I _know_ you would never hurt her, or Molly, or Varick, in my very core. Apr 08 20:50:23 What was it? Apr 08 20:51:17 Just a small action when Alarice was to face her execution. Regardless, I trust you. Apr 08 20:51:30 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:51:34 Thank you. Apr 08 20:51:43 * Morgan inclines his head Apr 08 20:51:54 You are the one who did the work, I just had to take notice Apr 08 20:52:41 I do not think either of us were ready to heal the rift until recently Apr 08 20:52:53 I am inclined to agree Apr 08 20:52:57 It was not time Apr 08 20:53:06 * Edward nods Apr 08 20:53:32 I am... concerned about how I will be if I lose Mina again Apr 08 20:53:40 * Morgan nods Apr 08 20:53:56 so am I. It is a pity you cannot tolerate being on a ship for long periods. Apr 08 20:54:27 * Edward nods "I limit it when I can" Apr 08 20:54:32 * Morgan nods Apr 08 20:54:43 So, I will have to rely on your friends Apr 08 20:55:41 They will not be able to keep me on the straight and narrow, I am afraid. I might spend some months with Dekker Apr 08 20:55:48 * Morgan nods Apr 08 20:56:07 When it comes to it... you have a daughter you have to think of, as difficult as it would be Apr 08 20:57:23 I cannot go back to drinking as I was, and the thought of swiving anyone out of wedlock fills me with dread now. *he smiles* Aside from unnecessary duels, my coping mechanisms are unavailable. Apr 08 20:57:51 * Morgan nods Apr 08 20:57:59 and unnecessary duels are also off the table Apr 08 20:58:15 Thanks for your help(!) Apr 08 20:58:27 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 20:58:42 I will not risk losing you again... and you will not risk not being there for Florrie Apr 08 20:59:09 I do not see the first as much of a loss to you, though the second is important Apr 08 20:59:33 * Morgan puts his hands on Edwards head, pulling him against him Apr 08 20:59:45 You don't need to see it as a loss... you just have to trust that I do Apr 08 20:59:59 * Edward nods, sighing Apr 08 21:00:20 My regular confidence is shot. I hate being this way. Apr 08 21:00:29 I know Apr 08 21:00:55 Some of the humility looks good on you... in the future I hope you can be both Apr 08 21:01:34 Maybe if the lady is merciful, I can go back to my regular, arrogant self in time for the wedding Apr 08 21:01:46 Do I get to wear my sword? Apr 08 21:01:55 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:02:08 You did not wear it to your wedding? Apr 08 21:02:20 * Morgan smiles slightly, showing him the falchion Apr 08 21:02:33 I wore this... HeinzHarold made it... one for me, one for him, one for Claudia Apr 08 21:03:00 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:03:10 Very fine. He is good. Apr 08 21:03:14 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:03:18 his father would be proud of him Apr 08 21:03:30 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:03:49 Isn't that often what we are really hoping for? Apr 08 21:03:58 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 21:04:01 mines a stick in the mud Apr 08 21:04:32 * Edward smiles Apr 08 21:04:43 Mine is a perfectionist Apr 08 21:04:49 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:04:55 and constantly _neat_ Apr 08 21:05:09 Unfairly so Apr 08 21:05:16 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 21:05:25 makes it easier to move about unnoticed anyway Apr 08 21:05:59 Maybe that's the key, he knows with his face he would never be unnoticed anyway Apr 08 21:06:11 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:06:50 Something I have been wondering... Apr 08 21:07:45 Yes? Apr 08 21:08:09 Father said about marrying Alice... I said she'd already said no... you gave me an odd look... Apr 08 21:09:25 I wondered how you had an answer so soon, but then remembered you said about a special way of communicating over distance Apr 08 21:10:13 You do not recall I told her you would want to? Apr 08 21:10:38 No, I have had much on my mind Apr 08 21:11:16 * Morgan nods, looking out over the water Apr 08 21:12:59 You are glad she turned me down Apr 08 21:13:44 I don't believe it was right for either of you Apr 08 21:13:52 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:14:13 I've never been rejected after proposing marriage before Apr 08 21:14:34 Does it make you feel better to be rejected beforehand? Apr 08 21:15:03 It saves some time Apr 08 21:15:46 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:15:54 * Edward picks three more stones Apr 08 21:16:32 I've only proposed twice, that is not such bad odds, so far Apr 08 21:16:42 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:17:05 has it occurred to you... that we spend time throwing rocks into a lake that we wouldn't dare even dip our feet in for fear of whats in there? Apr 08 21:17:40 No, it did not *he watches the surface warily* Apr 08 21:17:52 * Morgan nods slowly Apr 08 21:17:53 Nor had I Apr 08 21:18:19 Maybe they will take it as an offering Apr 08 21:18:31 its not pumpernickel bread... Apr 08 21:18:41 True Apr 08 21:20:15 * Morgan shuffles backwards Apr 08 21:20:24 had a dream about getting dragged under by... something... Apr 08 21:21:51 * Edward also moves back a little Apr 08 21:22:15 Today? Apr 08 21:22:44 Couple of nights ago Apr 08 21:24:04 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:24:21 How did it get you? Apr 08 21:24:35 I was... wading... Apr 08 21:24:52 Why the hell!? Apr 08 21:25:39 Because... I was faced with telling Dietlinde we'd have to undo our vows... I came out here... I needed to feel the water... Apr 08 21:27:29 But it's the Sudlache... no one goes in it. Apr 08 21:27:58 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:28:49 *The only person Morgan has ever seen that has was Molly the day of the negotiations over Capperlucia where they had had a huge row about the assumption that Faulk had asked her to be his mistress* Apr 08 21:29:15 Molly has done... Apr 08 21:30:26 You let her?! *Edward looks unimpressed. She had been washing off a stone she had dug up, a red and blue dragonstone. She had given it to him as an apology for making him angry at her* Apr 08 21:30:47 _let_?! Have you met my wife? Apr 08 21:31:10 * Edward smiles slightly Apr 08 21:31:29 Maybe you would need to consider taking her in hand. Apr 08 21:31:40 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 08 21:31:41 No Apr 08 21:31:52 I got her out as quickly as I could Apr 08 21:32:39 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:33:12 Spirited women... Apr 08 21:33:16 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:34:16 * Edward watches the lake again Apr 08 21:34:22 I told Potts I was going to propose to Petra once... *He knows this is the working girl Edward lost his virginity at 15 to after getting too excited on the first attempt* Apr 08 21:34:36 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:34:43 his response? Apr 08 21:35:23 "Tiggy, you're drunk and randy, go to bed" I believe. Apr 08 21:35:40 * Morgan laughs Apr 08 21:36:13 He was correct, and in the morning I had a very sore head Apr 08 21:36:18 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:36:23 that seems to be a trend... Apr 08 21:36:33 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:37:19 Young men get very attached to Petra Apr 08 21:37:28 so it seems Apr 08 21:37:47 Not James, it seems? Apr 08 21:37:56 certainly not anymore Apr 08 21:38:04 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:38:10 Good for him Apr 08 21:38:36 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:39:04 When will he marry the girl? Apr 08 21:39:34 Its early days under a lot of emotional stress... we'll see what happens Apr 08 21:39:42 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:39:57 The baby is cute? Apr 08 21:40:09 its a baby Apr 08 21:40:23 * Edward shakes his head Apr 08 21:40:30 They are not all cute Apr 08 21:40:50 He's a handsome little man... though I wonder if our close involvement in his birth has coloured my view Apr 08 21:41:36 You were present, I hear? Apr 08 21:42:53 involved. Molly and Freiarr Rosenkrantz dealt with the medical side, HeinzHarold soothed Elsie, I fetched, carried, held... whatever was needed Apr 08 21:44:05 A birthing room is an unusual place for a man. I will be out of the way when my wife has a baby Apr 08 21:44:54 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:45:00 I don't know that I will be when we have children Apr 08 21:45:10 * Edward frowns Apr 08 21:45:19 You cannot want to be there! Apr 08 21:45:32 * Morgan looks at him Apr 08 21:45:51 I was with her when I thought I was losing her... I would not ask her to make another journey so painful alone Apr 08 21:46:16 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:46:24 I suppose that makes sense Apr 08 21:47:07 besides... we have been led to believe it is proper to not be in there but... its because, despite all our bluster and what we've faced, a good deal of us would faint... or think we knew better than the midwife Apr 08 21:48:30 I will admit I would probably faint. The blood... *he shudders* I am not at ease with any bloodshed that is not from a weapon or injury Apr 08 21:48:53 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:49:01 then find yourself somewhere else to be when the time comes Apr 08 21:49:21 I intend to. Perhaps I will have your company? Apr 08 21:49:36 * Morgan smiles Apr 08 21:49:40 I'd like that Apr 08 21:49:47 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:50:19 I will provide the same service to you, should you decide against your plan Apr 08 21:50:25 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:50:27 thank you Apr 08 21:50:57 You will have them here? Apr 08 21:51:05 I certainly intend to Apr 08 21:51:18 Wherever else I may live, this is my home Apr 08 21:51:30 * Edward nods Apr 08 21:52:01 The next Veisgraf will hopefully be born in the same bed the current one was. It seems fitting. Apr 08 21:52:09 * Morgan nods Apr 08 21:52:16 I agree Apr 08 21:52:27 * Edward glances at him Apr 08 21:52:35 Mother and Father's old bed Apr 08 21:52:45 * Morgan shrugs Apr 08 21:52:53 I'm not necessarily against tradition... Apr 08 21:53:17 * Edward laughs Apr 08 21:53:40 You don't keep separate bedrooms like Mother intended though? Apr 08 21:53:52 * Morgan shakes his head Apr 08 21:53:57 that is one I do not agree with Apr 08 21:54:50 Me neither. I am not getting up first thing in the morning to walk through my hallway at half-mast to find my own wife. Apr 08 21:54:59 * Morgan laughs hard Apr 08 21:55:15 That would be... somewhat inconvenient Apr 08 21:55:35 Especially if I walk in to something on the way! Apr 08 21:56:21 wouldn't want to break your nose again... Apr 08 21:56:50 I would be injured intimately long before banging my nose. Apr 08 21:57:00 * Edward smirks Apr 08 21:57:10 You keep telling yourself that Apr 08 21:57:50 * Edward laughs Apr 08 21:59:53 Are you and Molly going to the chapel here, or church in the village? Apr 08 22:03:56 * Edward has quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer)