**** BEGIN LOGGING AT Thu Mar 31 22:28:10 2022 Mar 31 22:28:10 * MollyK (~igloo@CrystabllesiPad.lan) has joined Mar 31 22:30:51 *she smiles, wandering the room and taking a look around* that was a very exciting morning, I have thought of it fondly since. Mar 31 22:31:00 oh? Mar 31 22:31:36 Mmhmm... *she looks at a shelf of mementos* Mar 31 22:31:52 * Morgan nods Mar 31 22:33:26 * MollyK picks up a little trophy he had gotten at the Academy ((what is was given for is your call)) Mar 31 22:33:51 It was rather lucky that Varick had interrupted us, given that your Father arrived not ten minutes later! Mar 31 22:34:01 * Morgan nods Mar 31 22:34:05 he'd have gone berserk Mar 31 22:34:41 He spends a lot of his time being disappointed in me Mar 31 22:35:55 * MollyK glances is his direction, looking to see how serious or troubled he seems Mar 31 22:37:02 * Morgan is staring at the floor, frowning slightly Mar 31 22:37:23 * MollyK sets the trophy down, coming back towards him Mar 31 22:37:28 And unfairly so Mar 31 22:37:49 * Morgan shrugs Mar 31 22:38:05 I goaded him today... but it comes to him so easily Mar 31 22:38:19 Being disappointed Mar 31 22:38:21 ? Mar 31 22:38:26 * Morgan nods Mar 31 22:38:36 in me Mar 31 22:38:45 * MollyK nods Mar 31 22:41:25 What was your Grandfather Penn like? I know he was very disappointed that your Mother was Avalonian and barely spoke to your Father for a year. Was he generally quite hard to live up to the standards of? *Morgan had been five or six when he died, so his memories are few and far between. If he was strict it was not with Morgan* Mar 31 22:42:11 I was only Varicks age when he died, but he was never harsh with me, or particularly strict Mar 31 22:43:11 Is it possible that he was strict with your Father, and Adalbrecht is in turn too strict with you? Mar 31 22:43:54 being strict and being disappointed are different things Mar 31 22:44:52 Not necessarily. It makes one set standards that are impossible, and that leads to disappointment Mar 31 22:45:07 * Morgan shrugs slightly Mar 31 22:45:30 * MollyK watches him sadly Mar 31 22:46:28 I wish I had the right words for you, but my own relationship with my Father is far from ideal, and I am likely ill-placed to advise how to make these men proud of us Mar 31 22:47:09 I'm sorry, I'm wallowing in self pity when you have actual issues... how are you feeling? Mar 31 22:47:29 Your issues are important too Mar 31 22:49:22 I'm bothered by him being annoyed and disappointed in me when I went out to cause that... you are upset because your father was cruel... there is a difference Mar 31 22:49:48 * MollyK sits on the couch Mar 31 22:50:33 Is it because he is so quick to revert to his old ways of responding to you? Mar 31 22:52:31 blossom... I can deal with my father... and I shall. Mar 31 22:52:40 * MollyK nods Mar 31 22:52:50 I know you can, my love Mar 31 22:55:52 * MollyK fiddles with the fabric of her modified trousers Mar 31 22:56:22 I am angry with my father, but I am trying to give him grace on account of his shock. Mar 31 22:56:33 * Morgan shock Mar 31 22:56:51 I should not have allowed you to come... I'm sorry Mar 31 22:57:18 No. I wanted to be there to support you in going back there Mar 31 22:59:42 * Morgan nods Mar 31 23:00:21 * MollyK sighs Mar 31 23:00:36 He will apologise when he realises he went too far Mar 31 23:03:58 He needs to Mar 31 23:04:58 What hurt me most... it was how quickly he jumped to defend a woman who he can have no memory of, because she was a young, vulnerable virgin... Mar 31 23:06:10 * MollyK looks up at him, a pained frown on her brow "where was that defence of the young vulnerable virgin he had known for seventeen years?" Mar 31 23:06:59 * Morgan nods, crouching in front of her, taking her hands Mar 31 23:07:51 * MollyK watches her solemnly Mar 31 23:09:24 Every time I think I have completely put it behind us, he will say something or do something, and all those feelings come back again unbidden Mar 31 23:10:22 * Morgan nods Mar 31 23:10:37 I know my love Mar 31 23:11:07 * MollyK shrugs a little Mar 31 23:11:15 Is it that way for you too? Mar 31 23:11:44 * Morgan nods Mar 31 23:11:50 Very often, aye Mar 31 23:12:03 * MollyK nods sadly Mar 31 23:12:56 We cannot change our parents, but we can be _better_, _more pleasable_ parents for Varick... Mar 31 23:13:27 * Morgan nods Mar 31 23:14:46 I wonder if its worth trying to talk to your father.. After Edward annoyed and upset me at court, I asked him if I could explain it to him... rather than telling him I was angry, I told him _why_ I was angry. Mar 31 23:15:07 I do not want to see him right now Mar 31 23:16:02 I know... I meant at some point Mar 31 23:16:42 * MollyK nods. She loosens his hands, gently putting both to his cheeks as she watches him intently Mar 31 23:16:56 _I_ amp proud of you, always... Mar 31 23:17:13 * Morgan nods, looking at the floor Mar 31 23:17:46 * MollyK moves her hand to tilt his chin up Mar 31 23:19:45 I am proud that you followed your faith, your fundamental sense of right and wrong. I am proud that you survived, despite your efforts. And I am so very, very proud of how you have made progress with yourself and with Edward. I am proud of the man you were, and are, and will be. Mar 31 23:20:10 * Morgan nods, blinking rapidly Mar 31 23:22:07 * MollyK strokes his cheek with her thumb, speaking softly and heartfeltedly and she moves to gently kiss him "I am proud of you. Endlessly." Mar 31 23:22:55 * Morgan nods, whispering Mar 31 23:22:57 thank you Mar 31 23:23:26 * MollyK nods, bringing her forehead to his, eyes closed Mar 31 23:23:32 My pleasure Mar 31 23:27:25 * Morgan is quiet for a good few minutes Mar 31 23:27:54 I wonder how mother is doing Mar 31 23:28:20 * MollyK doesn't make him talk in that time, only moving away slightly when he speaks Mar 31 23:28:39 We could find out after lunch, as your Father said? Mar 31 23:30:09 * Morgan nods Mar 31 23:30:17 I hate her hurting Mar 31 23:30:31 You didn't Mar 31 23:32:07 I brough the news, but no... but the fact she is hurting at all... Mar 31 23:32:21 That is not down to you Mar 31 23:33:24 * Morgan nods Mar 31 23:34:23 She will be alright, my love. Your Mother is a very strong woman. Mar 31 23:34:59 I know Mar 31 23:35:35 * MollyK looks around Mar 31 23:36:11 I don't suppose you were a wayward enough adolescent to have a bottle of whiskey hidden somewhere in here? Mar 31 23:36:50 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 31 23:36:58 I'm afraid not *he offers his flask* Mar 31 23:37:33 * MollyK smiles, taking it and drinking a mouthful before handing it to him with a smile Mar 31 23:38:43 These rooms have not seen many misdeeds then, aside from that morning we mentioned and then the night whilst everyone was a way when we took our explorations further? Mar 31 23:41:45 * Morgan shakes his head Mar 31 23:41:46 no Mar 31 23:42:37 * MollyK smiles, waiting to see if he drinks the whiskey Mar 31 23:43:47 * Morgan caps it, putting it away Mar 31 23:44:41 * MollyK watches him Mar 31 23:45:26 Perhaps you could show me some of your trinkets and things whilst we are here with no one needing us? Mar 31 23:47:26 * Morgan nods slowly, getting up and going to a drawer Mar 31 23:49:29 * MollyK kicks off her shoes, getting comfortable on a couch Mar 31 23:52:47 Unless there was a different way you hoped to spend our time... Mar 31 23:53:33 * Morgan shakes his head, handing her a box about the size of a piece of paper Mar 31 23:54:58 * MollyK opens it carefully Mar 31 23:56:17 *inside it has several small patches of triangular fabric, each with a slightly different design, each next to a small length of coloured rope piping, the sort worn on his uniform* Mar 31 23:56:57 * MollyK looks intrigued but doesn't touch Mar 31 23:57:07 What are they, my love? Mar 31 23:57:12 You don't know? Mar 31 23:57:23 * MollyK shakes her head Mar 31 23:57:38 * Morgan nods, gently touching the first and most plain piece of fabric Mar 31 23:57:52 * MollyK watches her hands Mar 31 23:59:10 Ensign... *he moves to the next* Sub-Lieutenant *next* Lieutenant Junior *Next* Lieutenant Senior *next* and my last one... Lieutenant commander. Mar 31 23:59:21 above that is Commander, then captain